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I Am At War With Myself

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    Hello. I'm 18 years old.

    Not an easy time for a girl to be chubby. And there will be some of you who'll say it's a long life and I'll have loads of time to exercise and slim down and that this is not the time to think of all this. I would say, no age is ever right for anything if you think about it...
    PopTartstic PopTartstic 18-21, F Jan 12

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    I Am In My Own Way

    I am at war with myself because I get in the way of my own success. Through some self-help therapies and open forum coaching I have discovered the probable root causes of my getting in my own way. Well, that is great knowledge to have. It is like overcoming denial and being...
    Sophora Sophora 46-50 3 Responses May 14, 2012

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