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I Am At War With Myself

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    Hello. I'm 18 years old.

    Not an easy time for a girl to be chubby. And there will be some of you who'll say it's a long life and I'll have loads of time to exercise and slim down and that this is not the time to think of all this. I would say, no age is ever right for anything if you think about it...
    PopTartstic PopTartstic 18-21, F Jan 12

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    I Am In My Own Way

    I am at war with myself because I get in the way of my own success. Through some self-help therapies and open forum coaching I have discovered the probable root causes of my getting in my own way. Well, that is great knowledge to have. It is like overcoming denial and being...
    Sophora Sophora 46-50 3 Responses May 14, 2012

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    bitchhtripinnXD bitchhtripinnXD 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 18

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    i am in war with my self daily with my emotions ,with my lust, with my feeling , with my mind , with my brain , with my heart . i try to find continuously what is better for me...
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    A war wages on, for control of my soul. Good vs. evil. Who will win, I don't know. And I don't care, if I had it my way, I'd pick neither side and just be myself, create my own...
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    Life has been a huge roller coaster for me and right now I'm going through a corkscrew. I have zero idea of what I want to do with my future. My potential is practically unlimited...
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    It's about time I tell you guys about some of my problems to know me better. I have a specific crustacean food allergy. I can eat deep fried shellfish with crisp crust, but not...
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    I now say when the worlds good to u n ur happy let good win but when ur sad alone hurt ect let evil win it balances out anyways too many humans in the world infest the planet...
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    I get so mad sometimes.. I get so ENRAGED... Thing pile up, emotions stack and stack, it all makes me want to growl and lose control... Can I talk to someone right now? I could use...
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    HornyShyGuy HornyShyGuy 22-25, M Dec 3

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    I will never be pretty, perfect, or even mooded enough....
    BootyHadMeLikeDamn BootyHadMeLikeDamn 13-15, F Dec 7

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    I will never be pretty, perfect, or even mooded enough....
    BootyHadMeLikeDamn BootyHadMeLikeDamn 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 7

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    BleuGardenia BleuGardenia 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 17

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    I want to get to 220 to 230 and have a soft jiggly belly to rub
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    Kckiss88 Kckiss88 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    This makes me cry every day. No one knows it, and it makes me cry even more.
    proanonymous proanonymous 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    So I could hold you for just a few precious minutes to cure my loneliness without you. To get lost in your captivating ice blue eyes & see your smile before we fall asleep in one...
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    Warranty renewed. On a refurbished replacement. That wasnt refurbished properly. So that i have to make a new trip. And replace another warranty. With no proof of...
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    I get those days when I hate myself so much. I've always had the self destruction feeling in my mind but I try to ignore it. Some days it's really hard and I have a strong urge to...
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    I really do. Whenever **** hits the fan, I stray from the norm more than I normally do. I get this obsessive, compulsive urge to make this world a better and a happier place; to...
    rabinafrost rabinafrost 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Ice26 Ice26 31-35, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    TigerStripedLady TigerStripedLady 18-21, F Nov 30

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    I was playing with myself I got caned for it
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