I Am At War With Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 266 People

    No innocence is now left.

    They have poisoned her pure heart. Again.
    LuluMoualla LuluMoualla
    18-21, F
    Mar 9, 2015

    Certainly feels like it some days!

    Looking after one parent. Worrying about another 200 miles away! Working in a job I'm losing my love for! Three kids scattered to the winds with children of their own! Sometimes when I'm in bed at night. I wonder if I've done enough for those I care about. Almost like it's a...
    picklebobble picklebobble
    51-55, M
    Mar 21

    I Am In My Own Way

    I am at war with myself because I get in the way of my own success. Through some self-help therapies and open forum coaching I have discovered the probable root causes of my getting in my own way. Well, that is great knowledge to have. It is like overcoming denial and being...
    Sophora Sophora
    46-50
    3 Responses May 14, 2012
    bitchhtripinnXD bitchhtripinnXD
    13-15, F
    Oct 18, 2014

    I'm sick of fighting with myself over

    everything, always logic against instinct and I know full well that logic is right and instinct is a loose cannon at best. I'm being pulled hard in a direction that I know will only cause me misery. I am constantly having to talk myself down as if I was a child having a tantrum...
    kuronekko kuronekko
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Mar 21

    In the moment. In that moment.

    I was not myself - the one I always have been, no more. A promise made, broken. I made the right choice, and it's haunting me. The thoughts, the memories are stuck on replay. But if the choice was not made, I would have lost myself completely. It hurts, but it's a pain...
    LuluMoualla LuluMoualla
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 20, 2015

    Hello. I'm 18 years old.

    Not an easy time for a girl to be chubby. And there will be some of you who'll say it's a long life and I'll have loads of time to exercise and slim down and that this is not the time to think of all this. I would say, no age is ever right for anything if you think about it...
    PopTartstic PopTartstic
    18-21, F
    Jan 12, 2014

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