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I Am Battling Alcoholism

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    Battle With Alcoholism - What a jouney this has been.  I stayed drunk on a daily basis for about 20 years. I felt so alone all the time y'no never a part of anything. I became...
    chelled chelled 36-40 4 Responses Nov 25, 2008

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    I Did Lose Everything - I'm not sure when it happened but at some point, guided by what seems like a supernatural power, alcohol and cocaine became more important than my marriage...
    cautioussalvage cautioussalvage 31-35 2 Responses Jul 20, 2009

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    Binge Drinking - I started drinking right before I turned 21. It has been a downhill ride from there and would like desperately to stop. It has caused a great deal of pain for me...
    ihatescrewtape ihatescrewtape 26-30 3 Responses Apr 14, 2010

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    I want to work a 12 step program but I fear I am constitutionally incapable of being honest with myself.......I am blocked from prayer by some of my favorite defects.....all the...
    selfwillrunriot selfwillrunriot 31-35, M Apr 1

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    Addicted to alcohol for the last 7 years. Binge drinker. Finish a pint of vodka in 10 to 20 minutes. Used it as sleep med. Can't have alcohol in the house. Burned too many bridges...
    bent2 bent2 31-35, M 2 Responses Dec 17, 2013

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    Vicious Cycle - My grandfather died from complications due to being an alcoholic. My mother said he would drink morning to night. He would abuse animals and my Mother and her...
    GenieDanielle GenieDanielle 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 22, 2013

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    I Am Scared - I really am scared. I grew up with alcoholism all around me.  I started drinking at the ripe old age of 14 thinking that was the norm.  My alcoholic uncle actually...
    bobrido bobrido 46-50, M 1 Response Sep 22, 2013

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    I Am An Alcoholic But Dont Want to Go to Aa - I am battling alcoholism right now but can't get myself to go to the meetings.  I am here hoping to make friends online that...
    addict1973 addict1973 31-35, F 13 Responses Oct 8, 2008

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    Help Me God If There Is A God - there are days i am fine. all is dandy and nothing can put me down. but other days i wish i was dead so i could be done with this world. nothing in...
    lunaluv lunaluv 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2010

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    6 years ago I admitted I was alcoholic. I do believe that I am, I have the allergy coupled with the obsession. Ever since I started to try and recover through the 12 steps it has...
    selfwillrunriot selfwillrunriot 31-35, M Mar 30

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    I've been sober for fourteen months now and the last three months have been terrible. I've slowly started coss addicting to sex( read my sugar daddy chronicles) and the urge to...
    Sugarman245 Sugarman245 41-45, M 2 Responses Jan 13

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    Really Want To Stop - I am 26 yrs old and have been drinking since i was 18 but didnt really start getting out of controll till bout 4 years ago. I am not a daily drinker cuz of my...
    b687 b687 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 22, 2013

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    Its A Everyday Battle - , a loosing battle. Every morning I wake up saying I will not have a drink today, and every evening I end up drinking.. And in the evening I say to myself I...
    Eddiecrow Eddiecrow 41-45, M 4 Responses Nov 8, 2013

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    One Step Away - I'm 24 years old and I'm nearly an alcoholic. I can feel it grabbing hold of me and not letting go. One sip and I get carried away until I pass out. When I take...
    SadRanger SadRanger 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 25, 2010

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    Is Staying Sober Forever Impossible? - After reading a novel about addiction it dawned on me why it’s so difficult to get free from any addiction, be it alcohol, pills...
    chloral chloral 61-65, M 4 Responses Jan 5, 2012

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    I Need Help - i am battling alcoholism i really want to stop but i find it hard. when ever i feel low i think drink will help but it wont it just maked it harder for me.
    needhelp20 needhelp20 19-21, F 2 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    Dogma And The Newcomer - AA Dogma and the NewcomerI will always have an affectionate affinity towards AA. AA feels homey; tolerant . . . It reminds me of my own big, happy...
    mariaweeks mariaweeks 46-50, F 1 Response May 16, 2013

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    The Maddness Stops Now - This is going to be a new and much better for me. I'm 28 and have been an alcoholic for a little over 5 years. 5 destructive and very painful years. I've...
    apachetears apachetears 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 1, 2011

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    In Memory Of ? -   My drinking began at thirteen,i remember some-one saying way back then i would become an alcholic.I always had a relationship with the bottle,but as my...
    kittywake kittywake 51-55, F 9 Responses Dec 22, 2009

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    My Ambivalence Towards Aa - You know, I go back and forth about AA. I remember a quote from Ghandi: "I love your Christ, I don't like your Christians." Ditto, AA. I love the...
    mariaweeks mariaweeks 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 16, 2012

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    Hey there! Check out my drunkablog. Stay safe and sober! Best wishes, Spin.Sorry. Can't seem to make this link work. But, here it is. Thanks.http://spindabottle.blogs...
    spindabottle spindabottle 36-40 1 Response Jan 20

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    Why Can't I Just Stop - Hi all i am 23 years old and can't stop drinking it started when I was 18 and haven't stopped since i have recently managed to stop using drugs but can't...
    Nomoreblank Nomoreblank 22-25 2 Responses Mar 14, 2011

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    I Have Finally Admitted and Accepted My Disease. - I came from an alcoholic background and i always was terrified of the fact that i too would get this disease.  I guess i...
    Angeleyes777 Angeleyes777 31-35, F 7 Responses Sep 15, 2009

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    I Go to Aa For Help - I battle alcoholism, it nearly ruined my life, but I go to AA now, and it is changing my life!  I look forward to the meetings and i have 6 months sober...
    cowgirl67 cowgirl67 36-40, F 8 Responses Feb 20, 2008

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    Hi - I had about 13 months sobriety and relapsed a few months ago.  Since then I have been unable to get more then like 8 or 9 days sober.  I'm ruining my life(again...
    Justin9976 Justin9976 31-35, M 3 Responses Nov 2, 2009

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    Acceptance Is The Answer.... - My mom got sober when I was 16- oddly enough that was when my drinking got worse. By the time I was 19 I was a full blown alcoholic. My mom convinced...
    corra72910 corra72910 26-30, F 2 Responses May 17, 2011

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    it's kinda funny because I'm 14 and still have like 7 years till I can legally drink but I drink like every weekend and it's becoming an issue because last weekend I got so drunk...
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    I self harm to deal with my depression... I wish I could stop... ;(
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    I an not your typical "self harmer." For most people, when they think of self harm they think of razors and wrists and wearing long sleeves to cover it up. I am not that person. I...
    harperm97 harperm97 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    Soo I don't have a name for it... But yeahh Anger is a sign of depression they say that with alittle treatment you'll be okay. But one day when everything is gone and black and...
    olivias78 olivias78 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 23

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    I am a rape victim that was young and unsupported. Now its 11 years later since my lasttrauma , I have destroyed my second marriage and I'm feeling lost and alone. The thought...
    bibiby bibiby 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    I've been self harming for about a year now, but I haven't been able to for about 20 days now. It's killing me. I can't because I have been waiting for an opening to get a physical...
    sarahjade123 sarahjade123 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    Ana and Mia. My two best friends, who have almost killed me, but I desperately need them around. I feel lost without either one. Some days I will eat all day, and feel so guilty I...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    How do I fight the urge to cut? Please help me ;c My parents know & check me I can't do this.
    xxDropdeaddxx xxDropdeaddxx 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    So I don't cut anymore. But is that really a victory? Congratulations, they say. You're doing great, they say. But the cuts they saw were only skin deep. The thoughts that run...
    Jacqid96 Jacqid96 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    I haven't cut in months. Yet I'm sitting here staring at these razors. Feeling stupid, I hate WANTING to cut. I'm just......tired of this.
    HighYellaKoolChris HighYellaKoolChris 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 3

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    It's still a battle even if it's been a while. It's approaching a year since I last harmed myself. I want to cave back in all the time, even when I don't feel that depressed. It...
    JadedDivinity JadedDivinity 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    Anyone there please to talk
    sarah12389 sarah12389 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    I started when I was eleven,I am now 19. Sometimes when people ask me about my scars and I tell them i went to rehab for self harm, they look at me like i'm gross. Others look at...
    SadieghBaby SadieghBaby 18-21, F Apr 6

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    Today I Was desperate... I ended up grabbing my straitening iron and burning my arm.
    TooYoungToFeelOld TooYoungToFeelOld 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    Yesterday I broke down and cut for the first time in almost four and a half years. I have never felt so ashamed and feel like I've hit an all time low.
    GreenEyedFox GreenEyedFox 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    Three and a half years ago, I married my third husband. I moved from the city to the country, which was a huge adjustment. The hardest things for me: 1. I feel isolated. I haven...
    feenixrising feenixrising 46-50, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I was doing good until I reached my breaking point. I guess getting raped and hit by my ex boyfriend when I was 13-15 really ****** me up. I was doing good but have now hit rock...
    Mangocupcakes Mangocupcakes 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I hadn't cut in about a month until today.... I broke, I really need a friend.. My fiancé is hurt every time I do this.. But this is how I'm coping with everything, including him...
    ScaredyKatH ScaredyKatH 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    I self harm. I've been self harming since i was 11 years old i am now 14 and i am slowly starting to recover. A year ago i attempted suicide and nearly succeed, but my best mate...
    jayspiller1 jayspiller1 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    It all started when I moved from my home town. I used to be so happy. Just a growing happy child, I was crushed when I moved. I moved from a place considered as a city to a small...
    TamikaKubrak TamikaKubrak 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I WILL NOT SELF HARM. I am fed up of hurting myself, I am fed up of hurting and I am worth recovery. So are you. I decided to put up a list of things to do instead of cutting...
    writercookies writercookies 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Results of Psychological Testing: Reason for Referral: Mr. Freedman sought a psychological evaluation in order to obtain more information about a diagnosis for himself. Mr...
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