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I Am Battling Alcoholism

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    One Step Away

    I'm 24 years old and I'm nearly an alcoholic. I can feel it grabbing hold of me and not letting go. One sip and I get carried away until I pass out. When I take that first drop my body craves more and more, but up until 8pm I can go the entire day without a drop, but around 8...
    SadRanger SadRanger 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 25, 2010

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    My Ambivalence Towards Aa

    You know, I go back and forth about AA. I remember a quote from Ghandi: "I love your Christ, I don't like your Christians." Ditto, AA. I love the program, but I'm not really crazy about some of the old timers. I think the program is practically unassailable in so many ways. There...
    mariaweeks mariaweeks 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 16, 2012

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    I Need Help

    i am battling alcoholism i really want to stop but i find it hard. when ever i feel low i think drink will help but it wont it just maked it harder for me.
    needhelp20 needhelp20 19-21, F 2 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    I Have Finally Admitted and Accepted My Disease.

    I came from an alcoholic background and i always was terrified of the fact that i too would get this disease.  I guess i always knew that i had it, i just could never admit it. I started drinking at 11, was getting black outs and drinking myself into oblivion at 13. ...
    Angeleyes777 Angeleyes777 31-35, F 7 Responses Sep 15, 2009

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    Cant Stop

    I guess you can call me a binge drinker. I'll go a awhile and have a drink then I have to have more, more with my friends. Don't want to stop until the effect has worn off and I am feeling miserable , a broken piece of a person. Why couldn't have just the glass of wine? Why the...
    athenagirl athenagirl 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 8, 2010

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    I Am Scared

    I really am scared. I grew up with alcoholism all around me.  I started drinking at the ripe old age of 14 thinking that was the norm.  My alcoholic uncle actually encouraged it and would buy the beer.  One day, at 23, I woke up outdoors behind a rental cabin soaked in urine...
    bobrido bobrido 46-50, M 1 Response Sep 22, 2013

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    Is Staying Sober Forever Impossible?

    After reading a novel about addiction it dawned on me why it’s so difficult to get free from any addiction, be it alcohol, pills (benzodiazepins), pain killers, or narcotics.Ironically addicts (including alcoholics) do not use a substance to get high. They use it to get normal...
    chloral chloral 61-65, M 4 Responses Jan 5, 2012

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    I've been sober for fourteen months now

    and the last three months have been terrible. I've slowly started coss addicting to sex( read my sugar daddy chronicles) and the urge to have a drink when I'm with one of these one night stands is getting stronger. Worse, one of my sugar babies is addicted to weed, and when I'm...
    Sugarman245 Sugarman245 41-45, M 2 Responses Jan 13

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    Acceptance Is The Answer....

    My mom got sober when I was 16- oddly enough that was when my drinking got worse. By the time I was 19 I was a full blown alcoholic. My mom convinced me to go to an open meeting with her, she said "for support" and "to see where she came from"... Riiiiight! I came home from that...
    corra72910 corra72910 26-30, F 2 Responses May 17, 2011

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    In Memory Of ?

      My drinking began at thirteen,i remember some-one saying way back then i would become an alcholic.I always had a relationship with the bottle,but as my kids grew older and less dependant on me i drank more.I remarried five years ago and for the first time in my life,i had...
    kittywake kittywake 51-55, F 10 Responses Dec 22, 2009

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    Its A Everyday Battle

    , a loosing battle. Every morning I wake up saying I will not have a drink today, and every evening I end up drinking.. And in the evening I say to myself I will not drink tomorrow.. But this has been the story of my life for years now. Quite a few of my family members have been...
    Eddiecrow Eddiecrow 41-45, M 4 Responses Nov 8, 2013

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    Why Can't I Just Stop

    Hi all i am 23 years old and can't stop drinking it started when I was 18 and haven't stopped since i have recently managed to stop using drugs but can't escape my drinking habits. I drink everyday usually spirits followed by pints when my cash is low. I drink before i leave my...
    Nomoreblank Nomoreblank 22-25 2 Responses Mar 14, 2011

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    Hey there! Check out my drunkablog.

    Stay safe and sober! Best wishes, Spin.Sorry. Can't seem to make this link work. But, here it is. Thanks.http://spindabottle.blogs.experienceproject.com/742499.html
    spindabottle spindabottle 36-40 1 Response Jan 20

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    I Go to Aa For Help

    I battle alcoholism, it nearly ruined my life, but I go to AA now, and it is changing my life!  I look forward to the meetings and i have 6 months sober!
    cowgirl67 cowgirl67 36-40, F 8 Responses Feb 20, 2008

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    I want to work a 12 step program

    but I fear I am constitutionally incapable of being honest with myself.......I am blocked from prayer by some of my favorite defects.....all the while my soul craves to feel good and again I choose the bottle
    selfwillrunriot selfwillrunriot 31-35, M Apr 1

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    Addicted to alcohol for the last 7 years.

    Binge drinker. Finish a pint of vodka in 10 to 20 minutes. Used it as sleep med. Can't have alcohol in the house. Burned too many bridges. Been out of work for the past 2 years because of my own choice to isolate myself. Been unable to function socially. Bi-polar. Mood swings...
    bent2 bent2 31-35, M 2 Responses Dec 17, 2013

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    Dogma And The Newcomer

    AA Dogma and the NewcomerI will always have an affectionate affinity towards AA. AA feels homey; tolerant . . . It reminds me of my own big, happy dysfunctional family.   In meetings, low-bottom drunks or angry people are perennially spouting off and the offenders are usually...
    mariaweeks mariaweeks 46-50, F 1 Response May 16, 2013

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    Medical Treatment, The Only Way Out

    I am 35 and have been drinking heavily for 8 years. I have tried hard to quit only to drink more and more. I admit that alcoholism is a desease and need to be treated medically. I recently came across a treatment method which was discovered by Dr. Wilfred Packard Bonin in US. I...
    pilottz pilottz 31-35 Apr 7, 2011

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    6 years ago I admitted I was alcoholic.

    I do believe that I am, I have the allergy coupled with the obsession. Ever since I started to try and recover through the 12 steps it has been recovery or drink. It is really frustrating I sober up for periods of time by working with other alcoholics to help solve our common...
    selfwillrunriot selfwillrunriot 31-35, M Mar 30

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    Hi

    I had about 13 months sobriety and relapsed a few months ago.  Since then I have been unable to get more then like 8 or 9 days sober.  I'm ruining my life(again) and nothing seems to be working.  I was going to AA meetings everyday and drinking at night, then...
    Justin9976 Justin9976 31-35, M 3 Responses Nov 2, 2009

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    Really Want To Stop

    I am 26 yrs old and have been drinking since i was 18 but didnt really start getting out of controll till bout 4 years ago. I am not a daily drinker cuz of my workschedule. But on my days off i drink from the time i get up to i pass out. I have tore my family apart because i get...
    b687 b687 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 22, 2013

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    I Am An Alcoholic But Dont Want to Go to Aa

    I am battling alcoholism right now but can't get myself to go to the meetings.  I am here hoping to make friends online that share my problem so that we can help eachother
    addict1973 addict1973 31-35, F 14 Responses Oct 8, 2008

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    Help Me God If There Is A God

    there are days i am fine. all is dandy and nothing can put me down. but other days i wish i was dead so i could be done with this world. nothing in my life is so terrible of course we all havve demons myself included by why oh why cant i stop drinking? one beer is never enough...
    lunaluv lunaluv 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2010

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    Battle With Alcoholism

    What a jouney this has been.  I stayed drunk on a daily basis for about 20 years. I felt so alone all the time y'no never a part of anything. I became suicidal but never wanted to look at the drinking because it was a way of life, the only way I knew.  In my...
    chelled chelled 36-40 4 Responses Nov 25, 2008

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    I Did Lose Everything

    I'm not sure when it happened but at some point, guided by what seems like a supernatural power, alcohol and cocaine became more important than my marriage, children and dignity.  My actions while under the influence can never be taken back.  I am in early recovery and...
    cautioussalvage cautioussalvage 31-35 2 Responses Jul 20, 2009

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    Binge Drinking

    I started drinking right before I turned 21. It has been a downhill ride from there and would like desperately to stop. It has caused a great deal of pain for me and my loved ones.  It is easy for me to convince myself that I have no problem, I am a binge drinker. I can go...
    ihatescrewtape ihatescrewtape 26-30 3 Responses Apr 14, 2010

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    The Maddness Stops Now

    This is going to be a new and much better for me. I'm 28 and have been an alcoholic for a little over 5 years. 5 destructive and very painful years. I've humiliated myself countless time. I've injured my self too many times to count...its recently gotten worse. I've lied and...
    apachetears apachetears 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 1, 2011

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    Vicious Cycle

    My grandfather died from complications due to being an alcoholic. My mother said he would drink morning to night. He would abuse animals and my Mother and her brothers and sisters, including sexual rape. He would pass out with a bottle in his hand. I have been a heavy drinker for...
    GenieDanielle GenieDanielle 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 22, 2013

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    I need help Struggling to stay away from the

    Booze It started in January this year when I went through a tough time Been turning to booze ever since Missed an important meeting this morning because I was too hungover I need a friend here Like a sponsor
    thedrunk1980 thedrunk1980 31-35, F 13 Responses Sep 25

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    PinkBalloon1 PinkBalloon1 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 1

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    I guess I'm kinda desperate if I'm posting my story to a bunch of people I don't know, but, I'm too afraid to tell anyone close to me really. So here goes nothing. These past few...
    wifitoasters wifitoasters 13-15, T 1 Response a week ago

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    I never wanted to self harm. I thought "This is stupid, why would anyone do this?" Then at sixteen, after an awful fight with my stepfather about an ex-boyfriend, I knew why. I...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I have had an alcohol problem since I was 11. Now I'm 18 and just starting college. I got an addiction counselor 3 weeks ago and I have been sober for 9 days now.im going to start...
    cawnbread cawnbread 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    *TRIGGER WARNING* My original plan was to go home and cut myself.. Cut as deep as I could... And watch the blood pour down the drain.. And if I still wasn't feeling better I was...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 25

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    I'm having urges to cut again, someone help me I don't think I can fight anymore
    Jxvnne Jxvnne 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 26

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    I'm about to kill myself I gave u 6 reasons y I want to give me 6 resons y I shouldn't or I will I have my blade and my wrist ready 1. Bullied 2.friend turned me down 3. Mom is...
    Imokandhappy Imokandhappy 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 26

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    I wish I could cut properly sometimes. It hurts and bleeds, but they are only shallow wounds.
    LostApothecary LostApothecary 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 27

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    I'm in a battle and I seem to be losing every time. Everyone keeps calling me names and I can't take it anymore. I feel so alone.
    Natsumoyashi Natsumoyashi 16-17, T 2 Responses Sep 28

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    Ive been on n off cutting myslf since i was 9 1/2 years old...
    kyleigh188 kyleigh188 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    I want kill myself so bad. I'm only 15. I need someone to express my feelings too
    RestInPeaceSister RestInPeaceSister 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 29

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    I cut every day. I slice my thighs and arms and watch myself bleed. It is an addiction I can not overcome. It is dark and seductive, but sweet and lovely at the same time.
    griffinlynn1 griffinlynn1 13-15, T 2 Responses Oct 1

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    I have PTSD from an experience 31 years ago (non-military), when I was 14, which occurred after being stalked. It was triggered 4yrs ago when I was hacked on my phone and then...
    birdiemom birdiemom 41-45, F Oct 2

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    I'm dealing with self harm and it's really hard,I get a release when I do it,I know it's wrong but I take my anger out on myself because I'm hurting:/ I have depression and anxiety...
    charlottealdridge22 charlottealdridge22 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 3

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    ive been working on getting better but its been difficult
    maddisonn maddisonn 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 4

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    I just cut. With a proper blade. For the first time in over two years. New boyfriend. New best friend. New relationships I'm about to ruin. Help me. Please.
    alison9413 alison9413 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 6

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    I don't think I can do this anymore the urge to cut is to strong I can't do this
    Justanotherpersonn Justanotherpersonn 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 9

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    I started cutting again yesterday. The cuts have been mostly shallow but I know it'll get worse again. I've started on my hips but I'm running out of room... I want to cut my...
    crookedteethteen crookedteethteen 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 11

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    I see myself as overweight & I don't deserve to eat.
    SimpleShares SimpleShares 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 11

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    I'm disgusting & fat & a waste of space.
    SimpleShares SimpleShares 18-21, F Oct 12

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    I don't know what to do anymore,I know I need help but how do I ask for it? I'm scared of myself..
    charlottealdridge22 charlottealdridge22 13-15, F Oct 12

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