I Am Battling An Eating Disorder

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    This battle with my eating disorder is becoming

    extremely difficult and I don't know if I can do it. The doctor has put me on these shakes called Fortisip and I just cannot pick up the courage to drink them. I am literally so scared to drink them. I don't want to gain weight and I want to continue to lose weight but I'm...
    BeautyOfSuffering BeautyOfSuffering
    22-25, F
    Jun 1, 2014

    My Letter To Ednos

    EDNOS, I love you so much, I know I can count on you, You'll never leave me, You are my friend in difficult times Make me feel thin, I want you to make me feel thin, I need you to make me feel thin You know how to make me feel special at times when I need to feel special I don...
    Nuella Nuella
    22-25, F
    Mar 9, 2012

    Stabbing Day

    Blood test day, joy another bruise to add to my collection, it ****** me off because i know the bruise from last time hasn't heeled yet but the pathologist always chooses the same spot, i look like a heroine junky. :( i know todays blood test will be bad, fingers crossed not...
    pss004 pss004
    18-21, F
    Nov 22, 2010

    Coming Clean

    Hi Guys, Im not too sure how this blogging works, I've never wrote a blog of any kind before so bare with me!  With the past two years I have been bulimic. I started when I was 19yrs old and carried it on ever since. It started off with vomiting up my dinner on a Sat night...
    MissD90 MissD90
    18-21
    Jan 27, 2012

    Battling An Eating Disorder

    I've went to rehab for anorexia about 2 months ago, if Anyone is struggling or just want to talk message me..
    frecklestylepolka frecklestylepolka
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jun 15, 2007

    Day 5

    feel a little bit frustrated... i guess i'm so used of dealing problems with another problem...i dont know what im gibberishin' about...what i'm trying to say is that..things arent goin so well around me..and its a challenge for me to not go back where i spend all day eating...
    Tikadolly Tikadolly
    18-21, F
    Nov 8, 2012

    Check This Out...

    I really encourage everyone to look at Amber's story.  She was brave enough to share several pieces of artwork she drew based on her own experience with her Eating Disorder.  There is also her story at the end with several interview questions.  I think she is truly...
    EPSarah EPSarah
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 4, 2008

    Longing For Recovery

    My childhood was wonderful. I was a daddy's girl and my family was pretty happy. My mother wasn't around much but when she was I wouldn't be spending time with her, we weren't and still aren't exactly close. My anorexia tendencies began when I was about 10 years old. I remember...
    klare1 klare1
    18-21
    2 Responses Nov 2, 2010

    Ed

    ii am  battling an eating disorder plus a strange addiction to claritin-d and no-doze
    mslynnee mslynnee
    31-35
    1 Response Feb 21, 2011

    Finally

    Considering getting help. Nutritionist/therapist/inpatient anything. Thinking this is a problem, well maybe. Knowing that 100 calories will not kill me. Knowing if I only eat "pure" foods all the time, I'll become terrible underweight...
    Neko27 Neko27
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 27, 2008

    For a Long Time Now....

    both when i was 6st12lbs and 13st13lbs (NOT 14st lol...) i had as many issues with food. Its been diagnosed as an EDNOS, some week i wont eat, some i eat too much, some i make myself sick. I never has more than 1,500kcal in a day, i just cant do it. being vegan probably helps...
    Tesse Tesse
    18-21, F
    Sep 11, 2008

    Ana and Mia. My two best friends,

    who have almost killed me, but I desperately need them around. I feel lost without either one. Some days I will eat all day, and feel so guilty I'd purge, and other days I'd go days without eating anything. I feel like no matter what my weight is, I'll never be happy, or feel...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 27, 2014
    SimpleShares SimpleShares
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 12, 2014

    .I'm 16, going into my junior year of highschool

    and I just want to be normal. I have been living with what I now realize is binge eating disorder for 2-3 years now and its been a little over a year sense I first realised what it was. I had always been the pudgy kid in middle school and elementary school and in 8th grade...
    jezziw98 jezziw98
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 22, 2014

    Struggling

    I hate to say that I am struggling right now, since so many other people are deeling with so much worse stuff right now. But I wanted to share to everyone that I do have an eating disorder. I try to starve myself until I almost brake open.. I HATE eating so bad!! I hate the...
    cementerygates cementerygates
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Mar 5, 2008

    I was trying to get over this relapse by myself

    but I really need someone to talk to that doesn't know me. All my family and friends just make me feel guilty and are too worried about how it makes them feel that they bring no help at all. I've been in and out of this **** for most of my life and I was clean for almost a year...
    DigitalBlue DigitalBlue
    22-25, F
    Aug 13, 2014

    Having an eating disorder

    and hearing people constantly nagging you to "just eat" really sucks.
    bibaaa bibaaa
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 21, 2014

    It Feels Like A Lie

    So.. my psychiatrist asked me to contact the ED clinic because all my paper work is final and I haven't heard of the clinic ever since I came there in person to give them papers my GP wrote for them. It's been foor weeks ago   when I was there I hesitated to call, because I know...
    Nuella Nuella
    22-25, F
    May 10, 2012

    Professional Bulimic

    Yes, i've become a genius and an eating liar...i was 12 or 13 when it started. (this isn't a title im proud of AT ALL) Puberty hit, and i was embarassed and ashamed of the womenly curves i started to attain...i hoped they'd go away so i could be thin like the other girls in...
    LuvlyLidz0989 LuvlyLidz0989
    26-30, F
    Nov 24, 2009

    This Is Me

    i have been bulimic for almost 2years now and becoming bulimic at 30 is so hard to come to terms with, as i am sure it is at any age i am a mother of two pre teen children and shouldnt have developed at eating disorder at this stage of my life i have had depression and PTSD for...
    cryinginsidetheblack cryinginsidetheblack
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jun 18, 2013

    Teeth

    its not real a story i just want tell everyone out there if u are bulimic u end up like me i am 39 i false teeth because i made my self sick so much i had them for 10 years i only have 6 owe teeth left so please all people suffering be careful not just emotioal problom but it...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 31, 2011

    My Disordered Eating

    I was always the "skinny one", everybody told me how thin I was, how underweight. I was athletic as a child I did ballet, ice skating, soccer, basketball, I always ate whatever I wanted and I never gained weight, I'd have pressure to gain weight from my parents and finishing a...
    letsrunawayxx letsrunawayxx
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 6, 2013
    SimpleShares SimpleShares
    22-25, F
    Oct 11, 2014

    Always

    Sometimes too much food, sometimes too little, why can't food simply be my fuel, instead of one of my many medications/life controls?!?!
    Ozzygrl Ozzygrl
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 10, 2008

    Is Anyone Like This ? how can I take control

    I can't eat and even when I force myself to eat I gag and make myself even more sicker. I can go on for days without food . My hair is falling out everyday it's getting worse to the point I have to wear extensions. I run out of breathe easily and I'm constantly moody, I really...
    Kimmy1993 Kimmy1993
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 27, 2012

    It is absolutely a nightmare to have an eating

    disorder, it's as if it drags you over and over and over again whenever you try to recover. Recovery is difficult but not impossible the problem is the voices never stop, the negativity is overwhelming that suicide has been attempted. It's a vicious endless cycle to be honest, I...
    Lifeisamindfuck Lifeisamindfuck
    18-21, F
    Jul 13, 2014

    I can remember the moment

    and day when I was 15 years old and started my long journey with anorexia and bulimia the same way an alcoholic can remember their first drink. I started so I thought back then to start starving myself because I wanted to be skinny and like my older sister that was and still...
    scmichelle051 scmichelle051
    36-40, F
    1 Response Aug 2, 2014

    Anyone looking for a recovery buddy/ someone to

    help get through the hard times? I was diagnosed with ednos in february after struggling with symptoms of bulimia and anorexia for a little over a year. After I was diagnosed, I was put into intensive family based and outpatient treatment. Even though I'm doing better, I still...
    ccb22 ccb22
    18-21, F
    Aug 5, 2014

    ive been working on getting better

    but its been difficult
    maddisonn maddisonn
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Oct 4, 2014

    Eating Out

    "Your mom and I are going out to eat. Do you want to come?" My dad puts on his hat, he's standing in the hall way and ready to walk out the door. Time stops for a moment and I'm about to stand up, but something keeps me down. "No, I'm good." "Are you...
    Neko27 Neko27
    16-17, F
    Aug 14, 2008

    Many Years Now

    Wow I can't even remember when I haven't had an eating problem...the thing is...it's never been classified as anything cause I try to hide it. Half the time I simply forget to eat because I never get hungry. Half the time I eat way too much cause no matter what I do it seems...
    raevynvelcros raevynvelcros
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 14, 2008

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