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I Am Battling An Eating Disorder

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    SimpleShares SimpleShares 18-21, F Oct 12

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    Is Anyone Like This ? how can I take control

    I can't eat and even when I force myself to eat I gag and make myself even more sicker. I can go on for days without food . My hair is falling out everyday it's getting worse to the point I have to wear extensions. I run out of breathe easily and I'm constantly moody, I really...
    Kimmy1993 Kimmy1993 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    Coming Clean

    Hi Guys, Im not too sure how this blogging works, I've never wrote a blog of any kind before so bare with me!  With the past two years I have been bulimic. I started when I was 19yrs old and carried it on ever since. It started off with vomiting up my dinner on a Sat night...
    MissD90 MissD90 18-21 Jan 27, 2012

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    Eating Out

    "Your mom and I are going out to eat. Do you want to come?" My dad puts on his hat, he's standing in the hall way and ready to walk out the door. Time stops for a moment and I'm about to stand up, but something keeps me down. "No, I'm good." "Are you...
    Neko27 Neko27 16-17, F Aug 14, 2008

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    People call me fat but

    when I don't eat they criticize me. Wtf. It's my body, my choice, I can to whatever I want with it!
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F Sep 14

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    SimpleShares SimpleShares 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 11

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    Many Years Now

    Wow I can't even remember when I haven't had an eating problem...the thing is...it's never been classified as anything cause I try to hide it. Half the time I simply forget to eat because I never get hungry. Half the time I eat way too much cause no matter what I do it seems...
    raevynvelcros raevynvelcros 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 14, 2008

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    This battle with my eating disorder is becoming

    extremely difficult and I don't know if I can do it. The doctor has put me on these shakes called Fortisip and I just cannot pick up the courage to drink them. I am literally so scared to drink them. I don't want to gain weight and I want to continue to lose weight but I'm...
    BeautyOfSuffering BeautyOfSuffering 22-25, F Jun 1

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    I can remember the moment

    and day when I was 15 years old and started my long journey with anorexia and bulimia the same way an alcoholic can remember their first drink. I started so I thought back then to start starving myself because I wanted to be skinny and like my older sister that was and still...
    scmichelle051 scmichelle051 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 2

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    Day 5

    feel a little bit frustrated... i guess i'm so used of dealing problems with another problem...i dont know what im gibberishin' about...what i'm trying to say is that..things arent goin so well around me..and its a challenge for me to not go back where i spend all day eating...
    Tikadolly Tikadolly 18-21, F Nov 8, 2012

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    Longing For Recovery

    My childhood was wonderful. I was a daddy's girl and my family was pretty happy. My mother wasn't around much but when she was I wouldn't be spending time with her, we weren't and still aren't exactly close. My anorexia tendencies began when I was about 10 years old. I remember...
    klare1 klare1 18-21 2 Responses Nov 2, 2010

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    My Letter To Ednos

    EDNOS, I love you so much, I know I can count on you, You'll never leave me, You are my friend in difficult times Make me feel thin, I want you to make me feel thin, I need you to make me feel thin You know how to make me feel special at times when I need to feel special I don...
    Nuella Nuella 22-25, F Mar 9, 2012

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    ive been working on getting better

    but its been difficult
    maddisonn maddisonn 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 4

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    Struggling

    I hate to say that I am struggling right now, since so many other people are deeling with so much worse stuff right now. But I wanted to share to everyone that I do have an eating disorder. I try to starve myself until I almost brake open.. I HATE eating so bad!! I hate the...
    cementerygates cementerygates 16-18, F 3 Responses Mar 5, 2008

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    Always

    Sometimes too much food, sometimes too little, why can't food simply be my fuel, instead of one of my many medications/life controls?!?!
    Ozzygrl Ozzygrl 26-30, F 1 Response May 10, 2008

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    My Disordered Eating

    I was always the "skinny one", everybody told me how thin I was, how underweight. I was athletic as a child I did ballet, ice skating, soccer, basketball, I always ate whatever I wanted and I never gained weight, I'd have pressure to gain weight from my parents and finishing a...
    letsrunawayxx letsrunawayxx 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2013

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    For a Long Time Now....

    both when i was 6st12lbs and 13st13lbs (NOT 14st lol...) i had as many issues with food. Its been diagnosed as an EDNOS, some week i wont eat, some i eat too much, some i make myself sick. I never has more than 1,500kcal in a day, i just cant do it. being vegan probably helps...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Sep 11, 2008

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    Ana and Mia. My two best friends,

    who have almost killed me, but I desperately need them around. I feel lost without either one. Some days I will eat all day, and feel so guilty I'd purge, and other days I'd go days without eating anything. I feel like no matter what my weight is, I'll never be happy, or feel...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    .I'm 16, going into my junior year of highschool

    and I just want to be normal. I have been living with what I now realize is binge eating disorder for 2-3 years now and its been a little over a year sense I first realised what it was. I had always been the pudgy kid in middle school and elementary school and in 8th grade...
    jezziw98 jezziw98 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    This Is Me

    i have been bulimic for almost 2years now and becoming bulimic at 30 is so hard to come to terms with, as i am sure it is at any age i am a mother of two pre teen children and shouldnt have developed at eating disorder at this stage of my life i have had depression and PTSD for...
    cryinginsidetheblack cryinginsidetheblack 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 18, 2013

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    Teeth

    its not real a story i just want tell everyone out there if u are bulimic u end up like me i am 39 i false teeth because i made my self sick so much i had them for 10 years i only have 6 owe teeth left so please all people suffering be careful not just emotioal problom but it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 31, 2011

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    It Feels Like A Lie

    So.. my psychiatrist asked me to contact the ED clinic because all my paper work is final and I haven't heard of the clinic ever since I came there in person to give them papers my GP wrote for them. It's been foor weeks ago   when I was there I hesitated to call, because I know...
    Nuella Nuella 22-25, F May 10, 2012

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    Stabbing Day

    Blood test day, joy another bruise to add to my collection, it ****** me off because i know the bruise from last time hasn't heeled yet but the pathologist always chooses the same spot, i look like a heroine junky. :( i know todays blood test will be bad, fingers crossed not...
    pss004 pss004 18-21, F Nov 22, 2010

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    I was trying to get over this relapse by myself

    but I really need someone to talk to that doesn't know me. All my family and friends just make me feel guilty and are too worried about how it makes them feel that they bring no help at all. I've been in and out of this **** for most of my life and I was clean for almost a year...
    DigitalBlue DigitalBlue 22-25, F Aug 13

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    Ed

    ii am  battling an eating disorder plus a strange addiction to claritin-d and no-doze
    mslynnee mslynnee 31-35 1 Response Feb 21, 2011

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    Check This Out...

    I really encourage everyone to look at Amber's story.  She was brave enough to share several pieces of artwork she drew based on her own experience with her Eating Disorder.  There is also her story at the end with several interview questions.  I think she is truly...
    EPSarah EPSarah 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2008

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    Having an eating disorder

    and hearing people constantly nagging you to "just eat" really sucks.
    bibaaa bibaaa 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 21

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    Battling An Eating Disorder

    I've went to rehab for anorexia about 2 months ago, if Anyone is struggling or just want to talk message me..
    frecklestylepolka frecklestylepolka 16-18, F 3 Responses Jun 15, 2007

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    Professional Bulimic

    Yes, i've become a genius and an eating liar...i was 12 or 13 when it started. (this isn't a title im proud of AT ALL) Puberty hit, and i was embarassed and ashamed of the womenly curves i started to attain...i hoped they'd go away so i could be thin like the other girls in...
    LuvlyLidz0989 LuvlyLidz0989 26-30, F Nov 24, 2009

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    Anyone looking for a recovery buddy/ someone to

    help get through the hard times? I was diagnosed with ednos in february after struggling with symptoms of bulimia and anorexia for a little over a year. After I was diagnosed, I was put into intensive family based and outpatient treatment. Even though I'm doing better, I still...
    ccb22 ccb22 18-21, F Aug 5

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    Finally

    Considering getting help. Nutritionist/therapist/inpatient anything. Thinking this is a problem, well maybe. Knowing that 100 calories will not kill me. Knowing if I only eat "pure" foods all the time, I'll become terrible underweight...
    Neko27 Neko27 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 27, 2008

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    It is absolutely a nightmare to have an eating

    disorder, it's as if it drags you over and over and over again whenever you try to recover. Recovery is difficult but not impossible the problem is the voices never stop, the negativity is overwhelming that suicide has been attempted. It's a vicious endless cycle to be honest, I...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F Jul 13

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    Related Experiences

    The worst aspect of them is that even in recovery, you never entirely let go of the thought-patterns and emotions that link so deeply with the behaviours that drove you there...
    morea morea 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    When I was younger I never ate. Not because I was scared to gain, but because when I was hungry I never felt like actually eating. The thought of it even made me nauseous at times...
    MiniMe57 MiniMe57 13-15, F Dec 6

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    And it was terrible. It developed over a period of years, years that I remember only perfectionism, anxiety, and self consciousness. I wanted to change myself. At age 10, I went...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 3

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    I don't think I could say that I "had" an eating disorder. I think it's like being an alcoholic. You're just constantly in recovery. I relapsed this week. Mentally and physically...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    PART 1 Went through other posts on Binge Eating Disorder, glad I'm not alone. However, its still not a good thing. I've been binging for a while now, and if counting calories work...
    TJLK TJLK 18-21, F Dec 8

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    I've been eating a lot to gain because my clothes are loose but it's not working! I think I just want to gain weight to tell my eating disorder "You don't control me!"but i still...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    I last puked from my bulimia a week ago (I'm trying so hard to curb My eating disorder and not make it worse) And now My food still doesn't want to stay down. I never purged daily...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    I struggle with eating disorders. I chew and spit, I starve myself and sometimes I overeat junk food and then sometimes take diet pills and laxatives. Please someone message me and...
    kristen18p kristen18p 18-21, F Dec 9

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    Idk, i guess i've always been this way...it simply got worse with time. I'm not anorexic, or bulimic or a binge eater or anything along those lines. I don't have issues with my...
    IAmOptimusPrime IAmOptimusPrime 22-25, F Nov 30

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    Nov. 20, 2014 5:30pm I don't know what is wrong with me. I felt so happy when I got home. I felt so much love for mj and I was just on cloud nine. But I guess my flight reached...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F a week ago

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    It's undiagnosed but I'm pretty sure I have a disorder. Sometimes I eat just to make me feel better about myself. For instance, I was having a ruff morning the other day. I woke up...
    Soccerman5 Soccerman5 31-35, M Nov 21

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    Purged last night. Saw so much blood but I'm so used to seeing blood when I purge it doesn't scare me. I know I should be more worried but I just don't care. I'm feeled with apathy...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Nov 27

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    I had been doing so well with my eating, and I just relapsed. I feel like such failure.
    Rmarie17 Rmarie17 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 21

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    Day 4 not eating. where tf is my appetite. I licked a spoon with tomato soup on it earlier today and that's the closest I've gotten to food. My body rejects even the thought of...
    Minnowshi Minnowshi 18-21, F Nov 24

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    I want to stop eating again.
    reverofniht reverofniht 16-17, F Nov 24

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    Hi. A few weeks ago i started this 'diet'..which isn't a diet..it's my way to death...i know that. I have a really good breakfast everyday. My friends, my parents, my teachers...
    BeancaBiaa BeancaBiaa 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 26

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    Never eating a ******* thing again!
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Dec 6

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