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I Am Battling An Eating Disorder

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    My Disordered Eating

    I was always the "skinny one", everybody told me how thin I was, how underweight. I was athletic as a child I did ballet, ice skating, soccer, basketball, I always ate whatever I wanted and I never gained weight, I'd have pressure to gain weight from my parents and finishing a...
    letsrunawayxx letsrunawayxx 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2013

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    My Letter To Ednos

    EDNOS, I love you so much, I know I can count on you, You'll never leave me, You are my friend in difficult times Make me feel thin, I want you to make me feel thin, I need you to make me feel thin You know how to make me feel special at times when I need to feel special I don...
    Nuella Nuella 22-25, F Mar 9, 2012

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    Many Years Now

    Wow I can't even remember when I haven't had an eating problem...the thing is...it's never been classified as anything cause I try to hide it. Half the time I simply forget to eat because I never get hungry. Half the time I eat way too much cause no matter what I do it seems...
    raevynvelcros raevynvelcros 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 14, 2008

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    Day 5

    feel a little bit frustrated... i guess i'm so used of dealing problems with another problem...i dont know what im gibberishin' about...what i'm trying to say is that..things arent goin so well around me..and its a challenge for me to not go back where i spend all day eating...
    Tikadolly Tikadolly 18-21, F Nov 8, 2012

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    It is absolutely a nightmare to have an eating

    disorder, it's as if it drags you over and over and over again whenever you try to recover. Recovery is difficult but not impossible the problem is the voices never stop, the negativity is overwhelming that suicide has been attempted. It's a vicious endless cycle to be honest, I...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F Jul 13

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    For a Long Time Now....

    both when i was 6st12lbs and 13st13lbs (NOT 14st lol...) i had as many issues with food. Its been diagnosed as an EDNOS, some week i wont eat, some i eat too much, some i make myself sick. I never has more than 1,500kcal in a day, i just cant do it. being vegan probably helps...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Sep 11, 2008

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    Eating Out

    "Your mom and I are going out to eat. Do you want to come?" My dad puts on his hat, he's standing in the hall way and ready to walk out the door. Time stops for a moment and I'm about to stand up, but something keeps me down. "No, I'm good." "Are you...
    Neko27 Neko27 16-17, F Aug 14, 2008

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    This battle with my eating disorder is becoming

    extremely difficult and I don't know if I can do it. The doctor has put me on these shakes called Fortisip and I just cannot pick up the courage to drink them. I am literally so scared to drink them. I don't want to gain weight and I want to continue to lose weight but I'm...
    BeautyOfSuffering BeautyOfSuffering 22-25, F Jun 1

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    Like any other person,

    I have pretty much struggled with my weight my entire life. Ups, and downs. Lefts, and rights. I was so over being "fat" as a teen. Now as a young adult, I went from being 5'10" and 118lbs (what I feel to be epicly perfect) to being 5'10" and 170...In less than a year. My weight...
    BeThinXsin BeThinXsin 22-25, F May 29

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    Ana and Mia. My two best friends,

    who have almost killed me, but I desperately need them around. I feel lost without either one. Some days I will eat all day, and feel so guilty I'd purge, and other days I'd go days without eating anything. I feel like no matter what my weight is, I'll never be happy, or feel...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    This Is Me

    i have been bulimic for almost 2years now and becoming bulimic at 30 is so hard to come to terms with, as i am sure it is at any age i am a mother of two pre teen children and shouldnt have developed at eating disorder at this stage of my life i have had depression and PTSD for...
    cryinginsidetheblack cryinginsidetheblack 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 18, 2013

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    Struggling

    I hate to say that I am struggling right now, since so many other people are deeling with so much worse stuff right now. But I wanted to share to everyone that I do have an eating disorder. I try to starve myself until I almost brake open.. I HATE eating so bad!! I hate the...
    cementerygates cementerygates 16-18, F 3 Responses Mar 5, 2008

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    Stabbing Day

    Blood test day, joy another bruise to add to my collection, it ****** me off because i know the bruise from last time hasn't heeled yet but the pathologist always chooses the same spot, i look like a heroine junky. :( i know todays blood test will be bad, fingers crossed not...
    pss004 pss004 18-21, F Nov 22, 2010

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    Longing For Recovery

    My childhood was wonderful. I was a daddy's girl and my family was pretty happy. My mother wasn't around much but when she was I wouldn't be spending time with her, we weren't and still aren't exactly close. My anorexia tendencies began when I was about 10 years old. I remember...
    klare1 klare1 18-21 2 Responses Nov 2, 2010

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    .I'm 16, going into my junior year of highschool

    and I just want to be normal. I have been living with what I now realize is binge eating disorder for 2-3 years now and its been a little over a year sense I first realised what it was. I had always been the pudgy kid in middle school and elementary school and in 8th grade...
    jezziw98 jezziw98 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    Battling An Eating Disorder

    I've went to rehab for anorexia about 2 months ago, if Anyone is struggling or just want to talk message me..
    frecklestylepolka frecklestylepolka 16-18, F 3 Responses Jun 15, 2007

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    Coming Clean

    Hi Guys, Im not too sure how this blogging works, I've never wrote a blog of any kind before so bare with me!  With the past two years I have been bulimic. I started when I was 19yrs old and carried it on ever since. It started off with vomiting up my dinner on a Sat night...
    MissD90 MissD90 18-21 Jan 27, 2012

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    Always

    Sometimes too much food, sometimes too little, why can't food simply be my fuel, instead of one of my many medications/life controls?!?!
    Ozzygrl Ozzygrl 26-30, F 1 Response May 10, 2008

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    It Feels Like A Lie

    So.. my psychiatrist asked me to contact the ED clinic because all my paper work is final and I haven't heard of the clinic ever since I came there in person to give them papers my GP wrote for them. It's been foor weeks ago   when I was there I hesitated to call, because I know...
    Nuella Nuella 22-25, F May 10, 2012

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    Teeth

    its not real a story i just want tell everyone out there if u are bulimic u end up like me i am 39 i false teeth because i made my self sick so much i had them for 10 years i only have 6 owe teeth left so please all people suffering be careful not just emotioal problom but it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 31, 2011

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    Finally

    Considering getting help. Nutritionist/therapist/inpatient anything. Thinking this is a problem, well maybe. Knowing that 100 calories will not kill me. Knowing if I only eat "pure" foods all the time, I'll become terrible underweight...
    Neko27 Neko27 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 27, 2008

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    Ed

    ii am  battling an eating disorder plus a strange addiction to claritin-d and no-doze
    mslynnee mslynnee 31-35 1 Response Feb 21, 2011

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    Professional Bulimic

    Yes, i've become a genius and an eating liar...i was 12 or 13 when it started. (this isn't a title im proud of AT ALL) Puberty hit, and i was embarassed and ashamed of the womenly curves i started to attain...i hoped they'd go away so i could be thin like the other girls in...
    LuvlyLidz0989 LuvlyLidz0989 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2009

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    Is Anyone Like This ? how can I take control

    I can't eat and even when I force myself to eat I gag and make myself even more sicker. I can go on for days without food . My hair is falling out everyday it's getting worse to the point I have to wear extensions. I run out of breathe easily and I'm constantly moody, I really...
    Kimmy1993 Kimmy1993 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    Check This Out...

    I really encourage everyone to look at Amber's story.  She was brave enough to share several pieces of artwork she drew based on her own experience with her Eating Disorder.  There is also her story at the end with several interview questions.  I think she is truly...
    EPSarah EPSarah 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    I can now honestly say I'm fully recovered from anorexia, bulimia and selfharm. I have had these problems since I was in P6 at school so around 10 years old. I'm now 17, the last 7...
    oliviiaxo oliviiaxo 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    I had a letter come through the post yesterday morning from the eating disorder clinic. I have to see them on 24th July. I'm really nervous and really embarrassed about my eating...
    BeautyOfSuffering BeautyOfSuffering 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 12

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    I grew up with a mother who has slowly become morbidly obese. All my life she was overweight but as I grew older I began to notice just how overweight she was becoming. My dad is...
    tracy1990 tracy1990 22-25, F a week ago

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    Stay away from eating disorders and prevent them when you can! They will basically destroy your life, your relationships with friends, love, and family, your body, your mind, YOU...
    starsarediamonds starsarediamonds 13-15, F Jul 7

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    A few months ago, this would have said I HAD an eating disorder.... I guess I would call it a relapse. I cook a lot, for other people. I love to cook. I just... hate to eat. I...
    xoxomaya93 xoxomaya93 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 7

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    I'm too fat to have an eating disorder they said. People. But I don't eat. And an eating disorder is not something on the outside. Well it may show but it's still all just in your...
    paradiseisbroken paradiseisbroken 13-15, F Jul 10

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    Three years ago I developed an eating disorder. I barely ate anything and lost 10 kg. Then after a while I started bingeing and purging and gained back weight. I really wanted to...
    irisjuuu irisjuuu 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm not sure if this would truly be considered an eating disorder, but I WANT to gain weight. I eat a lot, have no problem with eating as much as I want but at the same time I have...
    n0ceur n0ceur 18-21, F Jul 7

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    I'm currently blogging about my daily battles with my eating disorder and my other mental health problems such as my borderline personality disorder. I try to update it regularly...
    BeautyOfSuffering BeautyOfSuffering 22-25, F Jul 12

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    Anorexia and bulimia seemed so distant to me when I was growing up. It seemed completely irrational to me that someone could just not eat, and puking seemed impossible to force...
    rachelthedreamer rachelthedreamer 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    People have different reasons for the cause of their eating disorders. Mine is from being depressed about my life. I can't help but think that my youth has been a waste. I want to...
    cringing cringing 16-17, F Jul 8

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    Is it possible to have a eating disorder and have a normal weight? some days I eat hardly anything and their are some days I eat everything in sight but I'm normal weight I lost 15...
    booboo157 booboo157 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 9

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    I don't know of this is really an eating disorder, but... I lose my appetite sometimes for days at a stretch and can only really eat one meal in the day and sometimes I don't eat...
    Loner1990 Loner1990 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 13

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    I hate it. I constantly am striving to avoid food, but I always end up screwing everything up. Then I purge. It just goes like that every day, over and over and over. I can't tell...
    wannabeweightless wannabeweightless 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    I thought I defeated my eating disorder, i used to starve until I've lost about 10 kg I mean I'm trying to eat better, but today I ate something different from what I eat everyday...
    brzdreamer brzdreamer 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    I think i have ednos. (Eating disorder not otherwise specified) as you know i have body image priblems. But what you dont know is that im restricting fiod quite alot. But idk i...
    majahi majahi 13-15, F Jul 17

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    .. I'm so used to saying that "something is wrong with my stomach, I just can't hold food down".. For years that I think I actually believed it. Realizing recently that I don't...
    YupThatsMee YupThatsMee 22-25, F 17 mins ago

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    It started when people in my school started calling me fat , so i started to diet but then i started eating less and less , then i completely stopped eating , i started exercising...
    Theworldismyhell Theworldismyhell 18-21, F Jul 6

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    over a year ago i was in a really bad place. i hated myself and everyone around me, i was really depressed and i struggled with bulimia. the bulimia was not that bad and i got...
    littlemeonly littlemeonly 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    I was a gymnast when I was younger and gymnastics was my life. When I was about 11, I was getting really conscious about my weight and the way I looked. I started skipping meals...
    caribbeanbabe808 caribbeanbabe808 13-15, F Jul 8

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    For over a year now, I've been on the verge of anorexia. I go two, maybe three days without eating or eating very small amounts, then I stop. I know it's terrible, but there's a...
    PairOfTrees PairOfTrees 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 16

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    Worst part of my disorder is that i feel i have to socially isolate myself to protect the disorder. Its painful 😔
    7405me 7405me 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I have looked this disorder up it's disgusting it's embarrassing. I chew and spit food😳 I know I knkw..,it's taken over meeee I lost weight after my 3rd child by balanced..well...
    daisydoes daisydoes 26-30, F Jul 6

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    We get criticized if we lose weight ... We get criticized if we gain, nothing is good enough until the position we are in is taken to the extreme and it feels like there's no...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F Jul 13

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