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I Am Battling Self Harm

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    I feel like I can't take it anymore.

    .. Its getting too much for me to handle and im tired asf... I just want to end it all...
    Depressedgirlxxx Depressedgirlxxx 16-17, F 4 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I'm 7 months clean, **** YEAAAAAH!

    Although the scars are showing a bit more, as they do when it gets hot out. Also, I've been outside a lot and my arms tan a little but the scars don't. They stay white. Some are actually purple, it's really weird. Sometimes my scars will hurt, like they will actually ache. I...
    TickleMeCell TickleMeCell 18-21, T 3 Responses Jun 30

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    I don't wanna do this anymore.

    .. How do you expect me to continue living like this...?
    Depressedgirlxxx Depressedgirlxxx 16-17, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    I enjoy the pain, i enjoy watching the blood

    seep through the wound and stain the tissue, i enjoy looking at the lines and scars, all because i know i deserve every single bit of pain for being such a huge failure in life...
    Depressedgirlxxx Depressedgirlxxx 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Have you ever just felt

    so upset, and you're crying so hard that you're shaking and no noise comes out? Have you ever just wanted to run the blade across your skin because its all you know how to do when you're upset? Have you ever felt like no one out there understands you? Well if you answered yes to...
    BlondeGirlBunny BlondeGirlBunny 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    The human skin can be hard to live in.

    Maybe that's why most of us tear it open.
    crey97zy crey97zy 18-21, F May 11

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    I just deliberately put my hand on the kettle

    to burn myself - what's wrong with me?
    tamzin100 tamzin100 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    School is gonna start soon

    and that is also signaling the end of a good period in my life. The feeling of wanting to cut returned and I don't know if I can resist tonight...
    Kat358 Kat358 13-15, F Aug 18

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    Bullied

    Everyday someone I've never done anything wrong to decides to make my life hell. My bus ride to get to school is thirty five minutes. One kid makes fun of my laugh. I know it's a terrible laugh but I can't control that. Then it went on how I'm a nerd, ugly, fat, loser, will never...
    Mally1234 Mally1234 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 19, 2012

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    I thought I was doing well.

    I'd not cut for months and them I realised that is started hitting myself so I'm back to square 1
    makeitsomeday makeitsomeday 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I haven't cut in 96 days I've been

    so depressed it's better if I wasn't alive anymore I just can't take all this pain anymore
    Maria134747 Maria134747 16-17, F Aug 8

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    On the 4th of February this year my best friend

    was believed to have committed suicide. The girlfriend I had at the time didn't like him so shouted at me when I became upset that he wasn't there. We only broke up two months ago and all of the grieving I've been holding in has hit me all at once and it's all I think about...
    ECH0o ECH0o 16-17, T Aug 21

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    Yesterday I broke down

    and cut for the first time in almost four and a half years. I have never felt so ashamed and feel like I've hit an all time low.
    GreenEyedFox GreenEyedFox 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 10, 2014

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    I've managed 2 months without the urge to cut,

    but now it's back. I was doing so well... I hate how damaged I am
    Kay06 Kay06 18-21, F 4 Responses May 10

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    I do it so much. I don't know what to do.

    I cut all the time. When ever I feel negative emotions and even when I'm bored too. I'm addicted to the the pain and watching the blood pore from my body. I do it everywhere. My arms, wrists, thighs, calves, belly, sides, and my boobs. And I love looking in the mirror at the...
    AceTeen123 AceTeen123 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Before I made that first cut,

    before I started to harm my body, I thought I would be able to control myself. But with every cut I felt my pain going away and found the blood strangely addicting
    crey97zy crey97zy 18-21, F Jul 25

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    Hey, I need some help.

    And please don't comment saying this is bad and wrong and I shouldn't be doing it because I've been told a few too many times. I've been battling self harm for two years now I guess, and I feel like it's turned from a coping mechanism to a pretty serious addiction. And I've been...
    georgia5656 georgia5656 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I self harm. I've been self harming

    since i was 11 years old i am now 14 and i am slowly starting to recover. A year ago i attempted suicide and nearly succeed, but my best mate called the police and they stopped me just in time. I was put on suicide watch and was pulled out of school for a month. I started self...
    jayspiller1 jayspiller1 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 15, 2014

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    i started 5 years ago

    when i was 13 with catscratch-like cuts easily hidden with bracelets that healed quickly. i did it to cope with depression from being bullied and having the repressed molestation memory resurface. i'd only do it every few months. the urge would come when i got really down, and i...
    babym00n5 babym00n5 18-21, F Aug 8

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    You left me alone with my bad thoughts And you

    came back questioning the scars on my wrist.
    crey97zy crey97zy 18-21, F May 12

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    I relapsed over a boy.

    Of all the things I would cut for, I did it for him. I was 2 months clean. I just feel so stupid for actually thinking he cared about me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 21

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    I wish people would think a little more about

    what they say. Cutting isn't attention seeking, in fact, the last thing I was is someone walking up to me and pointing out my cuts. People don't understand what depression does to you, just because they have a smile on their face doesn't mean they're happy. Don't point out...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 4 Responses Aug 14

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    I'm officially 5 days clean ^-^ I know it

    doesn't seem like very long, but it's a huge improvement for me
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 8 Responses 4 days ago

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    So ive been self harming by burning

    and this is my last night to do it cause i promised myself i wouldn't do it for a while after this and i got to say im not really being satisfied with damage tonight i think im running out of room on my favorite wrist to do it on.anyway ill figure it out goodnight and good...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    The Summer

    Last year all the way up to summer was the best time I've ever had. It was just before things got bad at home and just before I started getting confused, suicidal, and started cutting myself. Everything was ok and I was dealing with my dad fine but after that summer ended...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Oct 26, 2013

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    I want to self harm again,

    it's a bad time and I feel myself slowly drifting back into these negative moods and at the end of the day all I want is cry and harm myself. It's so dumb, it doesn't even help, it's just dumb, why am I like this.. I don't understand what is wrong with me and I don't even know...
    Swombl Swombl 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    tamzin100 tamzin100 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Judgement

    A one night stand with self harm And all they see are scars Like I don't know they're there I see the judgement in their prying eyes I feel the hungry flames of curiosity in their hearts Everyone loves a tragedy Still, in the end it is only I Left to read between the lines White...
    HolyDrumstickofLove HolyDrumstickofLove 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 22, 2013

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    Outsiders Think Self Harm Is A Joke && Stopping

    Is Easy... They Don't Know How Strong The Urge Can Be && How Hard You Have To Fight Yourself Not To Give In... They Don't Know The Mind Tricks "Just Do One, One Will Be Enough If It's Deep Enough" One Is NEVER Enough Once You Do One You Have To Keep Going Until You've Actually...
    YoungForever101 YoungForever101 18-21, F Aug 17

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    I broke down today and tried to kill myself.

    To much of a failure to even do that.
    SproutMute SproutMute 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 21

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    I don't really care if anyone reads this

    or not I just need to get this out..... I hate you, you cruel world. There's only one reason I'm still alive.
    YouCantEscapeMyDemons YouCantEscapeMyDemons 13-15, M 4 Responses Oct 12, 2014

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    I cut myself today after having gone a looong

    time without cutting. I forgot how addicting it is. I forgot that I can't just make one cut. I forgot that there will be a lot of bleeding .. A lot of cleaning up .. Also that I'll need a lot of bandaids and gauze and I forgot that my heart will pound and I will panic about...
    coffeentea coffeentea 18-21, F Aug 16

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    All it takes is that one time

    and then you become hooked. It becomes something you need when you don't feel you can handle things. It's been a while since I last cut, but I'm slipping again. I hate feeling. Just feeling anything. Its so hard to control it all and remain disciplined at the same time
    Kay06 Kay06 18-21, F 6 Responses May 22

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    I was hospitalized twice this year,

    both times I was able to sneak in razor blades and other "sharps". It seems sometimes I really want to get better but other times I sabotage my own recovery. I've self harmed since I was 12, I remember the day when I started. I just got home from school, I was in grade seven...
    TickleMeCell TickleMeCell 18-21, T 2 Responses May 24

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    24 hours clean...know it doesn't sound like

    much, but it's my best in a while, hope everyone else is going ok x
    georgia5656 georgia5656 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    painfullyloving painfullyloving 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    Night Gone Wrong

    In the bathroom crying and panicing because the monster has gottten it's way. I tried so hard to ignore her calling. It was just sitting there mocking me while I was doing everything I can to resist the urge but it was to strong. Blood rushed out of my bare flesh and it was such...
    Beautifullyshattered Beautifullyshattered 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 18, 2013

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    So I'm pretty sure a lot of you know the

    butterfly method, I tried this and it fails to me because I would cut around of just scrub it off, but there's another method, it's similar to the butterfly method. Except you draw random things or some pattern whatever you like, and you cover the entire are which for me is my...
    Zecora02 Zecora02 18-21, F 3 Responses May 23

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    i haven't cut in almost a year,

    but things are starting to get to me again. I'm supposed to be getting married in a week but that got canceled. my children are the only thing stopping me from taking the plunge right now but during nap time when it's quiet and I'm alone all I can think about is releasing this...
    BwkKnight BwkKnight 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 3

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    Around 2 years ago, I used to cut a lot,

    especially when I was dealing with anorexia. But I quit eventually. I relapsed on cutting a few days ago, over the most stupid reason. It's just the fact that I feel disappointed in myself that I did it. ._.
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 9 Responses Aug 11

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    It's been 4 and half

    or 5 months since I last cut. I've hit another red zone and I don't know how this one will turn out. The need for pain, for that satisfied feeling of seeing that red line on your skin is overwhelming. I'm itching to do it again
    Kay06 Kay06 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 30

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    It's weird to think everyone else in the house

    is in bed asleep while I'm covered in my own blood.
    Tristan46 Tristan46 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 5

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    Ummm...hi.... I don't know

    if anyone will read this..I just feel like sharing something. Okay......uhhh....about the self-harming stuff. I am a teenager and I have a thousand and one problems. I recently started cutting myself after an argument with my mom. It wasn't planned,I just used the sharp edge of...
    ParisNelson ParisNelson 13-15, F 4 Responses Aug 1

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    I just self-harm a few minutes ago.

    . I tried drawing on my self or use ice cubes to calm down the urge.. End up doing it anyway. I gotten in a argument with my parents and they blamed me for taking a little girl earphones when I havent. I'm constantly thinking that the kid that they raise doesn't know me fully at...
    Soullessangel16 Soullessangel16 16-17, F Aug 17

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    Today officially I have been one year without

    cutting! One whole year. I have one this part of the battle, but I still have to put burning behind me. I can't belive it's been one whole year. Man, life goes by so much quicker when you're truly living. Yay!I'm so proud of myself.
    messeduppoet messeduppoet 16-17, F 20 Responses Dec 27, 2013

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