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I Am Battling Self Harm

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    XbeyonceX XbeyonceX 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 19, 2014

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    The hardest part about wearing your struggles

    on your skin is the fact that before anyone actually knows you, they see the scars. You're called an attention seeker. When really, that's the last thing I am. If people who cut are seeking attention, why do so many hide the scars? People cope with depression and stress...
    bflyboo14 bflyboo14 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2015

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    I haven't cut for about a month.

    my boyfriend always gets upset and worries about me when I tell him I fell depressed
    Tatiana163 Tatiana163 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    I came across this picture,

    on Facebook (the one with the razors) It hurts me to see these kinds of comments. It really, really does. As someone who is battling self harm, I can assure you, I do not do this for attention. I don't want ANY kind of attention from it. In fact, I do everything I can...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Sep 7, 2015

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    My mum thinks she understands,

    but she thinks its for the same reason my sister was. I'm so glad she can't see inside my head, or I'd be locked away.
    DawnFeather DawnFeather 13-15, F Dec 30, 2015

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    At first I didn't know what was happening,

    I just felt sad. Everyday i would wake up slightly damp from my tears the night previous. Getting out of bed took all the effort I had to offer. Mundane tasks became impossible--and yet somehow no one in my life noticed. I was 11--almost 12, in my last year of primary school...
    yourfriendlycanadian yourfriendlycanadian 18-21, F 8 Responses Aug 20, 2014

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    Hey...don't ignore this,

    just give me a chance to explain Don't grab your "tools" whenever you feel bad.Remind yourself what will happen if you give up.How are you going to deal with it and how are you going to feel?Then refocus your goals,is giving up that easy?The relief that comes from self-harming...
    ghostdolly ghostdolly 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 24

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    Around 2 years ago, I used to cut a lot,

    especially when I was dealing with anorexia. But I quit eventually. I relapsed on cutting a few days ago, over the most stupid reason. It's just the fact that I feel disappointed in myself that I did it. ._.
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Aug 11, 2015

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    I hate the stereotypes of cutting.

    It's not something people do for attention, if it were, why would we hide it? It's not something "emo" people do, everyone who cuts, DOES NOT LISTEN TO HEAVY METAL. Also, self harm is not just cutting. I've done more than cutting, in fact, until last week, I didn't know I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Oct 23, 2015

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    I should be happy.. Cuz she is happy again.

    I should be smiling, cuz now she is smiling again... But now that she doesn't need me anymore... I fell like I'm undone again... Tara tara, my sweet silly girl... Now you are his sweet silly girl now... I'm happy for you... And I still have my blade
    Rustedarmor Rustedarmor 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 30

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    i was doing well. and i don't know what it is

    that's made me go back to this but i feel numb, numb and cold and i don't want to do anything any more. i don't want to read even though i love reading, i don't want to watch telly i don't want to knit i don't want to sleep i just don't want to do anything. i broke the promise i...
    makeitsomeday makeitsomeday 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    You left me alone with my bad thoughts And you

    came back questioning the scars on my wrist.
    crey97zy crey97zy 18-21, F May 12, 2015

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    I'm 7 months clean, **** YEAAAAAH!

    Although the scars are showing a bit more, as they do when it gets hot out. Also, I've been outside a lot and my arms tan a little but the scars don't. They stay white. Some are actually purple, it's really weird. Sometimes my scars will hurt, like they will actually ache. I...
    TickleMeCell TickleMeCell 18-21, T 3 Responses Jun 30, 2015

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    The urge to cut is strong I just keep

    imagining myself cutting, the thoughts won't go away
    SilverMiku SilverMiku 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2015

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    All it takes is that one time

    and then you become hooked. It becomes something you need when you don't feel you can handle things. It's been a while since I last cut, but I'm slipping again. I hate feeling. Just feeling anything. Its so hard to control it all and remain disciplined at the same time
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses May 22, 2015

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    ... That feeling of relief

    after the kiss of the blade...
    Rustedarmor Rustedarmor 22-25, M Jan 12

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    I had quit self harming

    after 3 years of doing it, and now I did it for the first time in abut a year. It felt great, I just don't want it to become a habit again.
    Sheb33 Sheb33 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I don't do it for attention.

    In fact, the last thing I want is someone pointing out my scars. It's kind of a stress relief method, granted, it's a ****** way of doing it. But it's oddly satisfying, and people who don't cut will never really understand that. I try to cover mine. When I sit down...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 4, 2015

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    I hadn't cut myself for almost a year

    now I think. I was so proud, but I lost it today, I cut again and I could just do it so many more times. I didn't, just a few small ones but I used to go until I couldn't find another spot. I don't want to slip back into that again, yet it's already so tempting. I seem to harm...
    bubblesandcakes bubblesandcakes 18-21, T 3 Responses Jan 24

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    So I'm pretty sure a lot of you know the

    butterfly method, I tried this and it fails to me because I would cut around of just scrub it off, but there's another method, it's similar to the butterfly method. Except you draw random things or some pattern whatever you like, and you cover the entire are which for me is my...
    Zecora02 Zecora02 18-21, F 3 Responses May 23, 2015

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    Before I made that first cut,

    before I started to harm my body, I thought I would be able to control myself. But with every cut I felt my pain going away and found the blood strangely addicting
    crey97zy crey97zy 18-21, F Jul 25, 2015

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    Judgement

    A one night stand with self harm And all they see are scars Like I don't know they're there I see the judgement in their prying eyes I feel the hungry flames of curiosity in their hearts Everyone loves a tragedy Still, in the end it is only I Left to read between the lines White...
    HolyDrumstickofLove HolyDrumstickofLove 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 22, 2013

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    I wish people would think a little more about

    what they say. Cutting isn't attention seeking, in fact, the last thing I was is someone walking up to me and pointing out my cuts. People don't understand what depression does to you, just because they have a smile on their face doesn't mean they're happy. Don't point out...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 14, 2015

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    Ummm...hi.... I don't know

    if anyone will read this..I just feel like sharing something. Okay......uhhh....about the self-harming stuff. I am a teenager and I have a thousand and one problems. I recently started cutting myself after an argument with my mom. It wasn't planned,I just used the sharp edge of...
    Almostmadeit Almostmadeit 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 1, 2015

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    When your toddler gets a hold of scissors

    and starts running around the house, what do you do? You chase after him. Until the moment you get the sharp object from his hands, you're in panic mode; ready to do whatever you have to in order to help him before he hurts himself. He doesn't realize the harm he can do to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 14, 2015

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    plans for tonight...get a little tipsy,

    hide all the blades, then get super drunk so I forget where I put them and hopefully pass out before midnight.
    ilovenewsocks ilovenewsocks 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 31, 2015

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    that's all I'm going to say.

    don't want to upset my friends on here <3
    Caitlinsmith1636 Caitlinsmith1636 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 25

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    I still have the thought in the back of my mind.

    I can still remember the stinging and the blood running down my arm. I used to pinch myself until I bled too, never even felt it. It made me feel better. When my mom saw my cuts she said, "is the the cool thing in school now?" I so wanted to scream at her and tell her how I...
    justsurvivesomehow justsurvivesomehow 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2015

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    I haven't cut in 116 days

    but my ex sent me a picture of his wrist that he cut...I feel like he cut because I told him that I don't have feelings for him because I might love my boyfriend..I just feel really bad..
    Maria134747 Maria134747 16-17, F Jan 25

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    painfullyloving painfullyloving 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    Urge is back after a couple weeks.

    It's like the other ones just heal and I gotta start again. I came on here to deter it, I dunno if it will but it's delaying it anyway. Having trouble coping and nothing any therapist says helps, it's like I'm empty inside but I'm not...it just doesn't make any sense. I don't...
    ilovenewsocks ilovenewsocks 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2015

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    I was hospitalized twice this year,

    both times I was able to sneak in razor blades and other "sharps". It seems sometimes I really want to get better but other times I sabotage my own recovery. I've self harmed since I was 12, I remember the day when I started. I just got home from school, I was in grade seven...
    TickleMeCell TickleMeCell 18-21, T 2 Responses May 24, 2015

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    I try not to self harm.

    Sometimes out of stress I pinch or bite myself. Mostly bite. I used to self harm pretty badly in the last and I am trying not to get back to that, but now I bite myself. I guess biting isn't as bad, at least I'm not bleeding like I used to, but it's still a form of self harm...
    SilverMiku SilverMiku 16-17, F Dec 24, 2015

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    I'm officially 5 days clean ^-^ I know it

    doesn't seem like very long, but it's a huge improvement for me
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Aug 27, 2015

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    i didnt cut for a whole week

    and i feel good for that
    blossomingangel blossomingangel 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 31

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    it has been like 5 months

    since I have self harmed. I am trying so hard not to have these feelings. I am having such a hard time right now. everyone I try to talk to about it just thinks I am going to be a bad mother. I can't even talk to my therapist anymore. I'm afraid she will report my feelings and...
    furrfectme143 furrfectme143 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    Yeah yeah I get it don't do it.

    Just so that you know this, I haven't done it in a while. Okay? It's my thoughts, all of my thoughts not just this one thought and. It's all starting to take over, it's taking over my mind. And I don't know how to handle them, yes I have a therapist so don't even try and say...
    Suicidalgirl2k15 Suicidalgirl2k15 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 30, 2015

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    I broke down today and tried to kill myself.

    To much of a failure to even do that.
    SproutMute SproutMute 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 21, 2015

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    24 hours clean...know it doesn't sound like

    much, but it's my best in a while, hope everyone else is going ok x
    georgia5656 georgia5656 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 28, 2015

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    does anyone else scratch their hands open

    as self harm? I don't know many that do but I makes me feel more alone.
    ZDom ZDom 16-17 Jan 29

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    It's been 4 and half

    or 5 months since I last cut. I've hit another red zone and I don't know how this one will turn out. The need for pain, for that satisfied feeling of seeing that red line on your skin is overwhelming. I'm itching to do it again
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 30, 2015

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    I'm still battling self harm

    even though I haven't done it in 8 months. it's been so hard not to do it... I'mnot sure what to do. anyone have tips? I really want to do it again. but I dont.
    unbroken0lovatic unbroken0lovatic 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 19, 2015

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    It is like cigarettes,

    don't start cutting it is impossible to quit.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 9

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    Today officially I have been one year without

    cutting! One whole year. I have one this part of the battle, but I still have to put burning behind me. I can't belive it's been one whole year. Man, life goes by so much quicker when you're truly living. Yay!I'm so proud of myself.
    messeduppoet messeduppoet 16-17, F 20 Responses Dec 27, 2013

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    Today, January 3, I hurt myself.

    I fought with my sister and I cut myself. I failed...though I suppose that's nothing new. I fought it, though, I SWEAR! I kept telling myself not to do it, begging myself and God!...but eventually I gave in. I cut myself. The first one was fast and I didn't look. When I felt the...
    solivagant86 solivagant86 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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