I Am Becoming Heartless

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    Well since EP is shutting down,

    I think it's an opportunity for me to share my feelings and thoughts, nobody is going to remember them anyway. I probably started becoming heartless in my high school years, when I attempted suicide but survived only to get my family members to despise me more. Ever since then...
    clowdy clowdy
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 2, 2016

    I think it's time to find a new job.

    I love what I do now and I wish I could stay but he's screwing me over. I'll find a new position, keep doing my current job until a couple days before I start my new one and then break it to him. When he gets upset I'll say, "Hey, I forgot about about it. The same way you forget...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 9, 2015

    I Dont Care If You Have Money For Food..

    I used to care about people standing at the corner asking for money. I would think "Hey, somebody's worse off then me". I then had a son and I went through living hell. I was low on funds too hurt by my father to ask for help.. I was desperate. Pregnant and broke.. my ex had...
    ThreeMarys ThreeMarys
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 29, 2011

    I've spent so much of my time on people

    who don't care about me at all. My best friend used me for years, the guy I was in love with only wanted me when it was convenient, I never stood up for myself when I was bullied... I'm talking to a lot of different guys right now. They flirt with me, ask me to hang out...I don...
    cloudyjay cloudyjay
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 13, 2015

    No More

    I lost my best friend and really he was the only person i ever grieved over, and it was my fault he died... now i dont care about others nor do i want to, as time goes by i am realising that to care about people is a weakness and also a threat. Maybe I'm still pissed...
    fakeitandtakeit fakeitandtakeit
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Feb 6, 2010

    Tips...

    To become cold hearted or heartless. You need to be hoarding hate and sadness. Show indifference and aloof politeness. Always keep it professional with everyone and never get close to anyone unless you need something from them. Becoming a nihilistic and pessimistic person.. also...
    JanelleVanity JanelleVanity
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 15, 2013

    Honestly, almost everything my haters on here

    or people who dislikes me said is kind of true since I'm too damn unstable. Maybe I'm not honest at all idk, perceptions are unstable. Be careful if I put you up on a pedestal I'll probably wanna pull you down soon. It's all black and white...my mother calls me Jekyll and...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 6, 2015

    No More

    it will be hard but i no more want to feel. i want to go through life like everyone i know. i want to walk around mindless and unaware of others like they do. i want to do what i want without a second thought. i want to do things that are wild and fun and not think twice. i...
    freeangel freeangel
    31-35, F
    14 Responses Apr 11, 2010

    Organs turning black.

    My heart is pumping ash. There's a burning cauldron in my mind in which the blood must pass. Passed the racing thoughts. Next to the violent scenes. Skipping over the clean, shinned promises. Then landing on mood swings. Dirtying rem sleep, to the point of flooded dreams. Onto...
    SylenaEverlasting SylenaEverlasting
    18-21, F
    Apr 5, 2014

    You care too much, you get pushed away.

    You don't care enough, you end up resented. Can I ever win?
    Kkgunny Kkgunny
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 27, 2015

    Heart Fading

    the more people hurt me the less i give a **** about things to many have walked out on me i am used to it i have been sick so many times a month iit just does not bother me anymore i'm not sure what feels normal anymore i dont know if i am going crazy or heartless maybe i need...
    TheDevilsOwn TheDevilsOwn
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 8, 2011
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