I Am Beginning to Withdraw

I'm not BEGINNING to withdraw, withdrawing is already a part of my everyday life.  I have nowhere to run, no one to turn to with my troubles no one who really cares.  So here i sit at this computer, in my bedroom, all alone...

my life has a few cycles and i'm always led back to this particular 'moment' in my life in which i feel i need to retreat inward and lock out all the madness and meditate on my inner peace. time flies by so fast i don't even have time...

I am lonely anyhow. Just seeing people online makes me feel crappy. So I'm just gunna spend some time away. People don't talk to me, and this loneliness is eating at me anyhow, so I might as well learn to deal.

i have been on methadone since oct i wened myself down from 30 mg to 8 mg and been off my drink 4 days any advice

i think i might be.
beginning to.
maybe.

Although I don't want to withdraw (cut ties with) from my "friends", I feel like I must if I want to start over. I've recently decided that it'd be best if I found and make new friends, friends who are true friends.

I want personal closure.
I want a job.
I want greater fortitude and belief in my own existence and my future.
I want to dream of something greater.
I want to believe there is something greater for me.
I want to not just say fuck it...

court was exhausting.
i cried in front of my supervisor.

i realize now that i hate taking the transit because i'm surrounded by people, but those rare times i'm isolated is nice.

i've taken to riding transit only on the last few...

As of recent, I've began to systematically push other people away and out of my way. I havent had a real chance to say how or why I feel this way, so I figured that EP was the best alternative. Simply put, I am at a point of mixed...

i didn't even feel fully okay having my friend over. It was one i had just made, i had fun during their visit. even so, i couldn't help but wonder when i would be alone once more.
i've started to wear sunglasses everywhere i go if i...

I have always been comfortable with my own company, to the point my family think's it was extreme the amount of time I spent alone. Though I am not and never have been "Anti social". They people I usually socialised with, like my sister...

Sometimes  I  need  to be  alone  so  I  can  hear  myself  think. It  give's  me  strength  and  gives  me  direction.

Withdrawing is therapeutic. It is my way of re-examining my inner status. It is not depressing or suppressing but rather rejuvenating and empowering. Once I am in a settled state of mind I emerge with a renewed...

The world feels as if it's racing ahead of me every second. I feel that as it races, it begins to crumble. To decay and fester in rotten horrid poison. Covering everything like ill paint, I've decided to not stare into this picture...