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I Am Beginning to Withdraw

Abandon ship! 123 People

    A Scream In The Dark.

    I want personal closure. I want a job. I want greater fortitude and belief in my own existence and my future. I want to dream of something greater. I want to believe there is something greater for me. I want to not just say **** it and give up so much. I want to not be who I...
    InfiniteArgus InfiniteArgus 22-25, M May 14, 2013

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    Self Serving And Resentment.

    As of recent, I've began to systematically push other people away and out of my way. I havent had a real chance to say how or why I feel this way, so I figured that EP was the best alternative. Simply put, I am at a point of mixed feelings in how I see people. I have lost a lot...
    InfiniteArgus InfiniteArgus 22-25, M Apr 10, 2012

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    Lucid.

    The world feels as if it's racing ahead of me every second. I feel that as it races, it begins to crumble. To decay and fester in rotten horrid poison. Covering everything like ill paint, I've decided to not stare into this picture. The gazes from the inhabitants in the poison...
    burrowbunni burrowbunni 18-21, F Apr 15, 2013

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    And Take Refuge Within My Inner Peace

    my life has a few cycles and i'm always led back to this particular 'moment' in my life in which i feel i need to retreat inward and lock out all the madness and meditate on my inner peace. time flies by so fast i don't even have time to clearly think let alone take in all that's...
    fukkboii fukkboii 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 18, 2009

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    Repair - Regroup - Rejoin

    Withdrawing is therapeutic. It is my way of re-examining my inner status. It is not depressing or suppressing but rather rejuvenating and empowering. Once I am in a settled state of mind I emerge with a renewed perspective and a better resolve.  
    RavenLee RavenLee 46-50, F 2 Responses Feb 25, 2008

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    Withdrawing Happily Almost.

    I have always been comfortable with my own company, to the point my family think's it was extreme the amount of time I spent alone. Though I am not and never have been "Anti social". They people I usually socialised with, like my sister T, Her Boyfriend M, My friend L...and Bambi...
    Incognitoisme Incognitoisme 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2010

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    An Entry.

    court was exhausting. i cried in front of my supervisor. i realize now that i hate taking the transit because i'm surrounded by people, but those rare times i'm isolated is nice. i've taken to riding transit only on the last few routes just so i travel in darkness and secrecy...
    burrowbunni burrowbunni 18-21, F Mar 18, 2013

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    Gotta Learn to Deal.

    I am lonely anyhow. Just seeing people online makes me feel crappy. So I'm just gunna spend some time away. People don't talk to me, and this loneliness is eating at me anyhow, so I might as well learn to deal.
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F 2 Responses May 5, 2008

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    Watch Me Disappear....

    So yesterday was a big day, meeting a new psych and going through the motions. I sit down and he asks the most difficult question first. "So tell me, why are you here?" How do you sum up years of pain and torment into a simple sentence? You don't. That's why they always have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 9, 2012

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    I Need to Be Alone

    Sometimes  I  need  to be  alone  so  I  can  hear  myself  think. It  give's  me  strength  and  gives  me  direction.
    rockybear397 rockybear397 47, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2008

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    Rabbit'S Hole.

    i didn't even feel fully okay having my friend over. It was one i had just made, i had fun during their visit. even so, i couldn't help but wonder when i would be alone once more. i've started to wear sunglasses everywhere i go if i have to venture out. i don't like crowds...
    burrowbunni burrowbunni 18-21, F Mar 18, 2013

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    I've Been Out of It For a Long Time, Actually

    I'm not BEGINNING to withdraw, withdrawing is already a part of my everyday life.  I have nowhere to run, no one to turn to with my troubles no one who really cares.  So here i sit at this computer, in my bedroom, all alone & trying to remember if there's...
    trixi trixi 41-45, F 12 Responses Feb 25, 2008

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    Methadone Withdrawl

    i have been on methadone since oct i wened myself down from 30 mg to 8 mg and been off my drink 4 days any advice
    dIZZYDEZ369 dIZZYDEZ369 26-30 1 Response Mar 30, 2013

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    Escape From The Madness!

    Although I don't want to withdraw (cut ties with) from my "friends", I feel like I must if I want to start over. I've recently decided that it'd be best if I found and make new friends, friends who are true friends.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 20, 2011

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    Maybe.

    i think i might be. beginning to. maybe.
    journeyfulloflaughter journeyfulloflaughter 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 25, 2008

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    College

    I don't know if I want to bother with this. I'm a first year student and at first I was happy to go. The only thing that changed was the school and having to give up moving away from what I feel is my biggest problem; this city. What would I do if I can't do this? Suppose I could...
    burrowbunni burrowbunni 18-21, F Aug 15, 2013

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    Related Experiences

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    I am at six days from Vic, perc, and Tylenol 4. Feeling very depressed right now. And I'm not sure, but think it's messing with my emotions as well.
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    I need cheese not just any cheese I need a big wheel if cheese but I can't go doo if I eat all that cheese help!!!!!! Any ideas
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    Hello, I have been diagnosed with GAD, panic disorder and depression, I was put on Remeron 60mg and Ativan 2.5 mg per night for the past 7 months. I am weaning off of the Ativan...
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    I've been doing insanity now for 2 weeks and all my coworkers and friends have commented on how much better I look. This workout is toughhhhh but well worth it!
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    I am currently unwell but despite that I'll be changing my diet and as I feel better I'll be exercising. To start off my journey towards freedom- I'm losing over 50 pounds...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 22-25, F Jul 7

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    So the past few years, I've pretty much cleaned up my act. I've basically halted recreational drug use and do immense amounts of work. My goal is get into a PhD program and get...
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    I try my hardest not to compare myself to other people and I feel this is why I'm starting to accept myself for who I am🌸🎀🌺🐯
    lavabug01 lavabug01 13-15, F Jul 23

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    I'm finally getting to the point in my life where I can accept who I was, who I am, and who I am becoming. I grew up feeling alone and pushed aside so I never thought anyone would...
    adobson5194 adobson5194 18-21, F 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    PLEASE PLEASE READ THIS TOO!!! Because of the number of people who have read and responded to my previous post, I've decided to add an addendum to my initial story. I am quoting...
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    I have been gone for a few days trying to squeeze two weeks of life into a week. I saw this and it made me think of me at this time: “No, this is not the beginning of a new...
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    An Abney Associates Ameriprise Financial Advisor: Finding money to pay college bills out of pocket You've saved for your child's college education through the years, helped your...
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    SIX SIGNS OF A LOVE AVOIDANT (This is a Good read) 1. Evades Intimate and Emotional Connection In romantic relationships evading intimacy and getting too close emotionally is...
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    you know I joined experience project originally under the I am addicted to Adderall thread. I talked about how I have been through opiate withdrawal and found amphetamine...
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    I have always felt that I experience more emotional pain than others, but I used to think of this as a character flaw rather than an inborn trait. When I was in middle school, I...
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    I am on methadone. I've been on the same dose for a few years. I am beginning to have problems with it. Withdrawal feelings. The doc raised my dose 5 mills but it doesn't seemed to...
    bellaboo68 bellaboo68 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    Man...if this is what withdrawal feels like for drug addicts it's no wonder they keep going back! Woke up missing her. I'm starting to believe it's the idea I fell in love with...
    mylove77 mylove77 36-40, M 5 Responses Jul 14

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    After 15 years, I am separating from the only person I ever really let inside my heart. We have been separated since the end of December 2013. I thought it might be temporary, but...
    Barelycoping325 Barelycoping325 41-45, F 6 Responses Jul 18

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    There is always a meaningful beginning There is always an intriguing end All that is fulfilled greatly within Goes forth throughout all time.
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    It was my first journey to the USA with my friend. We planned to stay at his uncles place in Melbourne, Florida. It seemed very awkward in the beginning that I was going to spend...
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    About two weeks ago, my boyfriend of 8 months broke up with me ovelyr text. 8 months doesn't seem like a long time, but it was the longest relationship I've ever had. I trusted him...
    ksel90 ksel90 22-25, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    I'm beginning to learn how to play the drums. My ex was a professional drummer and it just inspired me to learn how to play. I want compete in a drum off with him. Haha
    PeaceBatman PeaceBatman 22-25, F 14 hrs ago

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    I have had a spiritual experience, I am not going to go into the detail of how it happened but all I can say is that I have gained alot of wisdom from my experience. I felt as if...
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    Masters program starts in less than a month and I'm already freaking out! It is going to be so different from undergrad and I can't fail now. I hope this is the beginning of...
    Starkillera Starkillera 22-25, F 10 hrs ago

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    Just lost 5 pounds over the past week. That makes it 30 pounds since the beginning of the summer :) *excited*
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    Us Once upon a time there was "Us" but now we are an obscure entity that once was and will always be in the compounds of my mind manfesting itself as unwanted memories or a...
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    I have been a self-improvement project for so many years now, and I feel like a college course! At the beginning, I decided to set myself a 5-year plan. I carefully formulated it...
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    All this is true and for venting purposes. I'm a 16 year old male. I have never seen my parents and I never want to meet them. I was found as a baby on the second floor of an...
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