I Am Beginning to Withdraw

Abandon ship! 132 People

    Repair - Regroup - Rejoin

    Withdrawing is therapeutic. It is my way of re-examining my inner status. It is not depressing or suppressing but rather rejuvenating and empowering. Once I am in a settled state of mind I emerge with a renewed perspective and a better resolve.  
    RavenLee RavenLee
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Feb 25, 2008

    Lucid.

    The world feels as if it's racing ahead of me every second. I feel that as it races, it begins to crumble. To decay and fester in rotten horrid poison. Covering everything like ill paint, I've decided to not stare into this picture. The gazes from the inhabitants in the poison...
    burrowbunni burrowbunni
    22-25, F
    Apr 15, 2013

    Withdrawing Happily Almost.

    I have always been comfortable with my own company, to the point my family think's it was extreme the amount of time I spent alone. Though I am not and never have been "Anti social". They people I usually socialised with, like my sister T, Her Boyfriend M, My friend L...and Bambi...
    Incognitoisme Incognitoisme
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 6, 2010

    Self Serving And Resentment.

    As of recent, I've began to systematically push other people away and out of my way. I havent had a real chance to say how or why I feel this way, so I figured that EP was the best alternative. Simply put, I am at a point of mixed feelings in how I see people. I have lost a lot...
    InfiniteArgus InfiniteArgus
    22-25, M
    Apr 10, 2012

    Gotta Learn to Deal.

    I am lonely anyhow. Just seeing people online makes me feel crappy. So I'm just gunna spend some time away. People don't talk to me, and this loneliness is eating at me anyhow, so I might as well learn to deal.
    LylaRocks LylaRocks
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 5, 2008

    A Scream In The Dark.

    I want personal closure. I want a job. I want greater fortitude and belief in my own existence and my future. I want to dream of something greater. I want to believe there is something greater for me. I want to not just say **** it and give up so much. I want to not be who I...
    InfiniteArgus InfiniteArgus
    22-25, M
    May 14, 2013

    I'm having bad opium withdrawals.

    I haven't been sleeping much for the past 2-3 weeks and all I want to do is go crazy right now. I'm so anxious I could jump in front of a bus and not care.
    jameslynch jameslynch
    16-17, M
    1 Response Oct 18, 2015

    Maybe.

    i think i might be. beginning to. maybe.
    journeyfulloflaughter journeyfulloflaughter
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Feb 25, 2008

    Methadone Withdrawl

    i have been on methadone since oct i wened myself down from 30 mg to 8 mg and been off my drink 4 days any advice
    dIZZYDEZ369 dIZZYDEZ369
    31-35
    1 Response Mar 30, 2013

    I've Been Out of It For a Long Time, Actually

    I'm not BEGINNING to withdraw, withdrawing is already a part of my everyday life.  I have nowhere to run, no one to turn to with my troubles no one who really cares.  So here i sit at this computer, in my bedroom, all alone & trying to remember if there's...
    trixi trixi
    41-45, F
    12 Responses Feb 25, 2008

    Watch Me Disappear....

    So yesterday was a big day, meeting a new psych and going through the motions. I sit down and he asks the most difficult question first. "So tell me, why are you here?" How do you sum up years of pain and torment into a simple sentence? You don't. That's why they always have...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 9, 2012

    I Need to Be Alone

    Sometimes  I  need  to be  alone  so  I  can  hear  myself  think. It  give's  me  strength  and  gives  me  direction.
    rockybear397 rockybear397
    46-50, F
    1 Response Apr 1, 2008

    College

    I don't know if I want to bother with this. I'm a first year student and at first I was happy to go. The only thing that changed was the school and having to give up moving away from what I feel is my biggest problem; this city. What would I do if I can't do this? Suppose I could...
    burrowbunni burrowbunni
    22-25, F
    Aug 15, 2013

    An Entry.

    court was exhausting. i cried in front of my supervisor. i realize now that i hate taking the transit because i'm surrounded by people, but those rare times i'm isolated is nice. i've taken to riding transit only on the last few routes just so i travel in darkness and secrecy...
    burrowbunni burrowbunni
    22-25, F
    Mar 18, 2013

    Rabbit'S Hole.

    i didn't even feel fully okay having my friend over. It was one i had just made, i had fun during their visit. even so, i couldn't help but wonder when i would be alone once more. i've started to wear sunglasses everywhere i go if i have to venture out. i don't like crowds...
    burrowbunni burrowbunni
    22-25, F
    Mar 18, 2013

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