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I Am Being Pushed Over The Edge

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    I don't know how I'm still functioning.

    My suicidal thoughts are paralyzing me tonight. I can't find a scrap of hope. It would be so much easier to just take some extra sleeping pills and fall into a never-ending sleep. Nights are getting worse.
    drearyaching drearyaching 18-21, F Dec 27, 2013

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    sometimes i wonder how much i can control there

    are way too many scars memories that haunt me every day yet the life is pushing me when i look in the mirror i can see the hollow inside me i wonder why people cant find it i guess i am too good i hide my pain so others dont worry all people see is a smile on face they cant...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 4

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    Now I would never try to kill myself,

    but I've gotten to the point in which I am just existing not living. If a doctor told me I had cancer or some other disease, I probably would wither away and die. I'm not sure why this feeling has come over me. I feel as if there's nothing left for me. I have nothing to fight...
    solojo solojo 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 27, 2013

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    Im Doing My Best

    Laid off searching for work for 4 months. I tried to be the best wife I could be. Husband not loving. Sometimes I need to hear him say I love you and just put arms around me. He is too busy chatting with women on facebook. Family who dont care for each other. Who can you talk to...
    androc androc 36-40 2 Responses Nov 27, 2011

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    People, push push and push, till they are so close to pushing you over the edge. They know you are on the edge, and all they do is push you more and more till you almost want to break apart! I just hate when people push me over the god damn edge, i can barley take it anymore...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    What Is Wrong With Me?!

    I feel as if the whole world is falling down on top of me. Honestly, there are people in much worse situations than me, but I feel like ****. I just can't take it, but I can't scream and let it out. Hence my username, silent scream, because that's what I am. I'm a cry for help, I...
    xXsilentscreamXx xXsilentscreamXx 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 27, 2011

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    I have wasted a year of my life drowning in my

    depression and I'm ******* sick of it. I've been putting up a damn good fight but I've gotten nowhere. I'm too tired to keep doing this. I feel like I'm in quicksand. The more you struggle the faster you sink. But if you just relax you have a better chance of getting out. Or at...
    drearyaching drearyaching 18-21, F Dec 10, 2013

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our

    school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my mind I was thinking "you know what, I'm gonna try to talk to her, I need to man up, I need to know how to talk to a girl and here's my first...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 4

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    I am. And im gonna go ballistic soon

    if it doesnt stop. So please. Talk to me before i do something i regret
    zaiiex zaiiex 22-25, M Apr 4

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