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I Am Beside Myself Today

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    Another One Of Them Days...

    Another Winter Night Here By Myself... Love Really Makes Or Breaks You.
    iLegend iLegend 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 2, 2009

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    If I Could Stand Beside Myself

      If I could stand beside myself, Would I see me or maybe someone else? When I’m inside looking out, I see others as they cannot see themselves, For no one can see themselves, No one can know themselves, As others see them - Inside looking out.
    Neveah Neveah 16-17, F 9 Responses Nov 16, 2009

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    The Strongest Will Always Stand

    today the shadows of the darkest cloud have been casted, over my very head as i look up i trip and stumble back to this familiar ground, falling down and once again landing on my back i laid there and cried, and i cried for hours today, cried and didn't eat until late evening...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 23, 2010

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    Today I Don't Care

    today i am feeling alone mainly because my friends have been being stupid and not caring and thats been happening alot no i don't want it to be like this but what can i do? when no one cares what do i say? is it even worth being around here? or at all?
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 21, 2010

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    Hello Me

    I am standing here but not very still. I standing here beside myself Trying to hold on and see That I am still me. It is difficult when everything Seems to always go flying by To stand in me and just be. I can't say one reason today Why I stand beside myself But many things in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 27, 2011

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    i was just so mad at my self. i was bleeding alot its the first time i have done it in 2 years... im worryed that this kind of stuff will get to me again... it took me so long to...
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    The reason I did not put on a bra today is because I never wear one at home. Besides, I feel I have to let my boobs breathe once in a while. Also, I am wearing a bright red...
    debbielovescruises debbielovescruises 41-45, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I treat myself like I'm a different person. I often have debates with myself, get mad at myself, and I even have different opinions. Conversations with myself could go like, "Haha...
    unicornbombz unicornbombz 16-17, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    But I'm not IN love with myself ;) Seriously, though, what I have learned about loving the person you are is that if you don't, it is awfully hard for someone else to love you...
    shoehorny shoehorny 41-45, M 8 hrs ago

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    I can't tell if I'm beautiful or ugly. My face and body distort when I look at myself in the mirror. The one moment when I finally tell myself I could possibly be pretty, I look up...
    Aepeth Aepeth 16-17, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Blergh, this just gets worse. Been so I'll lately, dramatic temperature changes either too hot or too cold never warm. Don't have that much energy to run these days even though...
    EstuaryRivers EstuaryRivers 26-30, F 18 hrs ago

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    today my friend and I were speaking German while my language teacher was near by, because we wanted to impress her... And then she says to me: you have a weird accent, speak...
    jeyhere jeyhere 13-15, F 12 hrs ago

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    The one person I hate more than anyone else is myself. I feel like a freak because of who I am. I wake up everyday as a freak, and feel like a disgrace all day long until I fall...
    griffinlynn1 griffinlynn1 13-15, T 6 hrs ago

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    I hate my life, I am almost 30 and haven't had a job in over 10 years, live alone, have 0 friends for 10 years now, almost never leave my house, high anxiety, major depression...
    Asadfellow Asadfellow 26-30, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    It was one of the most embarrassing moments of my life it happened my junior year of high school I was at school and I absolutely hate using public restrooms so whenever I have to...
    HiimChristy HiimChristy 18-21, F 7 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    sidraa sidraa 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 9

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    Today I was suppose to stay home but I allowed myself to be an idiot and go to school even though I was, and still am sick. Today i may have helped people but i couldn't really...
    mizael1995 mizael1995 18-21, M Sep 9

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    When All You Can See Is My Beauty Mommy said, “Your beautiful, who cares about the rest?” She would fashion me in pretty dresses and bows and proclaim to the world, “Look...
    jfrender jfrender 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 16

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    Do I love myself?! I have started wondering do I really love myself? I mean of course I do I'm adorable! At least that's what I always say. But do I really love who I am, am I...
    ariel2891 ariel2891 22-25, F Sep 16

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    The mask firmly in place Beside me are my wife and child The world will see what I wish it to see Deep down, something burns inside A need so strong, a beast trying to escape to...
    Tragicmagicme Tragicmagicme 36-40, M 1 Response Sep 1

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    Leave me alone for now I'm deep in thought, treacherous territory I know It's what I must do to decompress from a day of scattered thought I never thought I'd get to a stage where...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M Sep 10

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    Hills of heather Will someday wave hello In a land filled with flowers A buttercup girl and a thistle fellow Setting up canvas' Beside each other Laughing, drinking, and learning...
    Accebere Accebere 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 13

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    The story of me is a bit unusual. I have always lived life in an unconventional manner and this has brought me my fair share of happiness and heartache over the years. I have been...
    Indigolesbian70 Indigolesbian70 41-45, F 4 days ago

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    I'm so irritated right now. You claim your my best friend but find every way in this universe to ignore me and NOT visit me when I'm in the hospital for a WEEK! So many people came...
    december789 december789 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    I have been doing so much writing as of late, I find that it helps me focus on the here and now. I write about my day, my goals, dreams, desires...I write about so much. I have...
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    Climbing the petals she sat and starred across the field of endless sea of gold. Fragrant waves of sweetness tickle her nose while the slight buzzing overhead threatens her...
    kerridwen kerridwen 41-45, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I hate waking up with myself, opening my despised eyes to see my hideous self. Tasting the horrible taste of my own mouth makes me not want to breathe. Then comes the stupid...
    tylerkleewilliams tylerkleewilliams 18-21, M 19 hrs ago

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    So I have a bad habit of waiting until I have to pee REALLY bad before going to the bathroom when I'm playing video games or watching movies and stuff. So its one of those days...
    rubyf rubyf 18-21, F 4 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I take a lot of pictures of myself lol
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Me is exactly what society wants to dump in trash bins. unattractive, my actions are usually actions or word that i'll regret less than a second after doing it, i hate the fact...
    roseinsurvival roseinsurvival 13-15 16 hrs ago

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    It is how God created me and I like myself. I think it is sad that some pople realy hate themselves because they have things they don't like or can't do special stuff. I think...
    Jennyred Jennyred 13-15, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    One of my superpowers is the ability to survive without sleep. And complicate things in a way that would cause me to unknowingly sabotage myself. I started a new job three weeks...
    claudiacarmenb claudiacarmenb 22-25, F 4 hrs ago

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    I never give myself credit for the good I do. I only look at the negative.
    rsgalindo01 rsgalindo01 31-35, M 3 hrs ago

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    left4deadspace left4deadspace 16-17, M 2 hrs ago

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    greensanctuary greensanctuary 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 18

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    001awillhelmskinny 001awillhelmskinny 16-17, M 2 Responses Sep 6

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    LostInTheLight LostInTheLight 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 12

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    julius5626 julius5626 26-30, M Sep 2

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    So just about everyday I'm gonna post a rating of how today has gone from 1-10. One being awesome day and ten being multiple suicide attempts. So today has been a 6 so far: I...
    Experiencevisionary Experiencevisionary 13-15, M 4 Responses Sep 2

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    I'm just too freaking stressed. And how do I deal with my stress? I eat. Today I ate a large pizza (12 slices), two large bags of potato chips, a 6-inch cake, and a pint if ice...
    tRueInSAnItY tRueInSAnItY 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 7

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    Today I self harmed for the first time. I just had a sort of mental/emotional break, so I broke a small mirror and used a shard. I've always had a self destructive personality but...
    classact45 classact45 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8

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