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I Am Beside Myself Today

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 47 People

    Another One Of Them Days...

    Another Winter Night Here By Myself... Love Really Makes Or Breaks You.
    iLegend iLegend 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 2, 2009

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    Hello Me

    I am standing here but not very still. I standing here beside myself Trying to hold on and see That I am still me. It is difficult when everything Seems to always go flying by To stand in me and just be. I can't say one reason today Why I stand beside myself But many things in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 27, 2011

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    The Strongest Will Always Stand

    today the shadows of the darkest cloud have been casted, over my very head as i look up i trip and stumble back to this familiar ground, falling down and once again landing on my back i laid there and cried, and i cried for hours today, cried and didn't eat until late evening...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 23, 2010

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    Today I Don't Care

    today i am feeling alone mainly because my friends have been being stupid and not caring and thats been happening alot no i don't want it to be like this but what can i do? when no one cares what do i say? is it even worth being around here? or at all?
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 21, 2010

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    If I Could Stand Beside Myself

      If I could stand beside myself, Would I see me or maybe someone else? When I’m inside looking out, I see others as they cannot see themselves, For no one can see themselves, No one can know themselves, As others see them - Inside looking out.
    Neveah Neveah 16-17, F 9 Responses Nov 16, 2009

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    Not sure if I should have entitled this, 'Embarrassed' or the experience above, but it would fit either. Have you ever stopped to ponder today's youth/teens? I find them smart...
    joydream joydream 31-35, F 3 Responses May 3

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    This became a longer story then I wanted to be, but its my story and I carry it with pride. I have always been a weirdo and I love myself for it. I am now in a point in my life...
    GuiltBear GuiltBear 31-35, M 1 Response May 20

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    I always believed in the inherent consistency of myself; that, since I was depressed as a child, being down in the dumps is just a fact for me...as if it's my hometown that I am...
    Ewoo Ewoo 16-17 2 Responses a week ago

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    I've been getting very tired of the shot I deal with. My crohns has had me nearly ripping my hair out. I didn't go to class today because I would have been to far from the bathroom...
    persononinternet persononinternet 18-21, M May 21

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    It doesnt always mean i want to change..sometimes i just want someone to understand,not try to change me....am i not good enough or something? If i was,.. then no one would want me...
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 3 Responses May 22

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    Would you sit again, yawn, and let the forex option pass you by? Or would you sit-up, choose discover, and get onto a upcoming that did not revolve all-around you slamming your...
    Michael0962opo3 Michael0962opo3 31-35, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    In trying to be a peacemaker and oldest sibling, I tend to become the enemy. That sounds crazy right? Well I was beginning to think I was insane and that my reality was the one I...
    catanibis catanibis 26-30, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Sigh had to meet with my doctor today. It's never been a good thing really. For the most part he is fairly fat friendly but as my weight has steadily been increasing like this, his...
    HungryHyuga HungryHyuga 22-25, F 3 Responses May 13

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    I feel bad for myself that I allowed criticisms to be embedded in my head that I even killed a part of me that makes me happy. Now, I don't know what to do with my life. I want...
    Releign Releign 22-25, F 1 Response May 16

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    I don't know any unpainful way to die and I'm afraid I would survive. Besides I still have lots of thing to do; and somehow I have 1 reason for living, not living for myself...
    wdrngSoul wdrngSoul 18-21 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Honestly, I work hard to improve myself, but today I am feeling very low..The energy levels are too low... I have worked on myself to act resilient,but today it is getting...
    alexmatilda alexmatilda 31-35, M 2 Responses May 10

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    I'm 17 now, I usually hate my birthdays but today I promise myself to be happy for myself at least once. It's also a reminder that i am strong enough not to end my own life.
    BueatifulRoses BueatifulRoses 16-17, F 1 Response May 6

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    12.15 wednesday, on second smoke. Had another restless night had a good smoke and returned to bed, alarm clock was 4.20, I Kid you not. Had a breakthrough when I GOT UP.... I FOUND...
    derekdob derekdob 56-60, M May 13

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    I have today all to myself and thoroughly enjoying it staying nude around my house and backyard :) I don't want to put on any clothes today!
    FantasyWild FantasyWild 46-50, M 2 Responses May 2

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    My day is surrounded by brilliant sunshine today..as far as the eye can see the sky is a beautiful crystal azure blue. I hear the birds outside my window singing away, so carefree...
    sensualbeauty1 sensualbeauty1 46-50, F 5 Responses May 3

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    This is to all the people who have thought about giving up. I 1st must say, god has not given up on you. All my life I have been worried about what others have thought of me. I...
    theplanofaction theplanofaction 22-25, M May 11

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    elevates.. something buried willingly the innocence the wishful thinking.. the feelings i forgot..i hid sleep, escape this poisonous tree which i am comfortably laying beside...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M May 17

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    Had an incredibly painful migraine today. I was supposed to be hosting family dinner tonight and I had to cancel. I feel awful about it. But I realize that the migraine is my body...
    Searchingformyshalom Searchingformyshalom 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I had a good morning today and yes, I hate waking up because it's cold outside of the bed, but I was okay. I actually spent time with my mum and talked to her and went shopping...
    TunedOut TunedOut 16-17, F 2 Responses May 3

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    I feel new. I feel so good today. Like I'm born today. I feel just new. Like the things happened in past.. like past itself doesn't exist. and future didn't exist too. Just present...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 4

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    King Me I saw the world through the lens of a pinhole camera. I saw nothing. I was blind. In between a black hole and a super nova is where you'll find me. Imploding and expanding...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 6

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    Another day, another idiot. I really need to share this. I was blocked by this person right after and, of course, I blocked her back myself. The risk of running into a time waster...
    quietmentor quietmentor 41-45, M 4 Responses May 12

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    Up until today I went eight months without giving in to the urge, but today I caved in and have 8 new scars to confirm how ****** up I truely am.
    EmoCinderella94 EmoCinderella94 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

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    Today I have learned the only person I can count on is myself. I am sick and tired of people.. Period.. My kids are my focus and everyone else can kick rocks. I do what I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 12

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    Today I actually talked to the boy that I liked all year (although not anymore, for obvious reasons)... The one I knew since a couple weeks before my depression. The one who...
    fragilegirl6 fragilegirl6 13-15, F 1 Response May 13

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    I got attacked by some gangster on my way home last night. That is the road I pass everyday near my home every day, never thought that it's so unsafe. A female gangster shouted...
    Ssslm Ssslm 26-30, F 1 Response May 16

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    Hello, my name is Sami. im 15, and I used to weigh 166 pounds. I was always the fat friend, the ugly sister, that depressed girl (though I never show it. only to myself) the ugly...
    ShamwowTheCarrot ShamwowTheCarrot 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    1. i cry at almost every movie i watch 2. i feel like today is a prerequisite for my future 3. i dont beleive in favorite colors 4. i do drugs to escape 5. i am very smart 6. ive...
    justkeating justkeating 16-17, F May 2

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    I love myself no matter what will happen to me yesterday, today & future.
    onetouchforever onetouchforever 41-45, F 2 Responses May 4

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    Today wile walking barefoot down the street three strange men offered to let me into their apartment. They didn't seem too scary, the oldest couldn't have been older than 21, so I...
    antihero98 antihero98 16-17, F May 10

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    Sometimes we do things simply because it feels right. We get that hopeful, invincible feeling...the kind of feeling that makes the consequences of our actions seem small and...
    RHpendragon RHpendragon 18-21, M May 11

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    Have anybody felt that there are lot of thoughts running on your head? Sometimes I think I gone mad when I found myself talking to myself. LOL! I had these random thoughts...
    cmc2 cmc2 26-30 May 14

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    suicidal, regretting the abortion and hating what my life is. feeling hopeless, ive been in a ward 4 3days on suicide watch. My friends are guilting me about being here, little...
    Anubis111 Anubis111 22-25, T 1 Response May 17

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    Today was hard I force myself to be this person everyone expects me to be I went out saw people got drunk but the feeling on the inside is still the same. I smiled whipped my hair...
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F May 20

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    Headache and a stiff neck for a while now. I don't really know when it started, but it's been on and off for a few days now. My elbow has been hurting on and off as well too, I'm...
    vault101 vault101 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    When I was 18, I smoked a pack and a half of cigarettes each day, drove everywhere I possibly could, and was NOT in good shape at all. At 46, I'm in the best shape I've ever...
    ThirtySevenX ThirtySevenX 46-50, M 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I am a 13 year old white girl and today I wore a dress, white pantyhose, and a blue jean jacket to school. At lunchtime today my friends and I were making fun of this 11 year old...
    ashlynparker2001 ashlynparker2001 13-15, F May 14