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I Am Beside Myself Today

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    If I Could Stand Beside Myself

      If I could stand beside myself, Would I see me or maybe someone else? When I’m inside looking out, I see others as they cannot see themselves, For no one can see themselves, No one can know themselves, As others see them - Inside looking out.
    Neveah Neveah 16-17, F 9 Responses Nov 16, 2009

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    Today I Don't Care

    today i am feeling alone mainly because my friends have been being stupid and not caring and thats been happening alot no i don't want it to be like this but what can i do? when no one cares what do i say? is it even worth being around here? or at all?
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 21, 2010

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    Another One Of Them Days...

    Another Winter Night Here By Myself... Love Really Makes Or Breaks You.
    iLegend iLegend 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 2, 2009

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    Hello Me

    I am standing here but not very still. I standing here beside myself Trying to hold on and see That I am still me. It is difficult when everything Seems to always go flying by To stand in me and just be. I can't say one reason today Why I stand beside myself But many things in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 27, 2011

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    The Strongest Will Always Stand

    today the shadows of the darkest cloud have been casted, over my very head as i look up i trip and stumble back to this familiar ground, falling down and once again landing on my back i laid there and cried, and i cried for hours today, cried and didn't eat until late evening...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 23, 2010

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