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I Am Bi Polar With Major Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 6 People

    Building It Up Just To Tear It Back Down...

    As far back as I can remember my life has been a rollercoaster. I can remember flipping out and screaming at my mother for the smallest of things. Twenty minutes later I would be fine, the immense anger a distant memory. My periodical moments of rage would only continue, going to...
    jeffro499 jeffro499 26-30 Sep 27, 2011

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    Why Try?

    I have an amazing support system. It's too bad I don't let them support me. For some reason I am unable to talk to my family and friends about how I am feeling. I am in such a dark place right now. Nothing is going right, hope is nothing more than a word. Setting goals is so far...
    jeffro499 jeffro499 26-30 2 Responses Sep 27, 2011

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    I Will Not Let My Illness Defeat Or Define Me!

    Getting diagnosed was a pretty deflating thing for me. Hell, I was already in the midst of the worst depressive episode I had ever encountered, why not enlighten me with a more serious disorder as well? I went home and sat on the couch for hours. I didn't speak, eat, or sleep. I...
    jeffro499 jeffro499 26-30 1 Response Sep 28, 2011

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    Why is it that when something happens to a trans-person it is their fault?Every time something has gone wrong in my life it has been said to be my fault because of the way I have...
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    just sitting in my apartment deep in my mind. I thinking and thinking. one day at a time. this tuesday I am going to my first nami class. I will learn how to better cope with my...
    nevergiveup54 nevergiveup54 56-60, M 1 Response Feb 16

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    The feeling of being so utterly alone and the conviction this will never change. Wherever I go. Because it is inside me. Haunting me. I can run but it will always catch me. It...
    BitLi BitLi 26-30, F Feb 18

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    So if anyone read my last story I started taking anti depressants.... well it ended with them swapping them and swapping them and eventually I had a side effect from one of them...
    Krie Krie 22-25 4 Responses Feb 1

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    why am I wearing a mask with an ear to ear smile? I never want to put it on again but I put it on because I want no one to see what is happening under it and my sorrow is drowned...
    Beaniesandbands Beaniesandbands 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 1

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    yesterday I joined NAMI. "National Alliance on Mental illness" I am ready to come to terms with my depression. I hope I will be able to make friends.
    nevergiveup54 nevergiveup54 56-60, M 1 Response Feb 6

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    A little lonely today, but overall, I've been doing real well in dealing with this depression. I've been riding this manic phase for 2 weeks now and I've made good use of it. Who...
    CloseButNoGuitar CloseButNoGuitar 26-30, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    How can I help my boyfriend deal with his depression? I love him so much and it hurts my heart to see him go through all this pain.
    kaylaakionaa kaylaakionaa 13-15, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    So I have been dealing with severe depression since the age of four. I have spent years being told , and eventually believing, that I will beat this and live a long and happy life...
    UsernameSam UsernameSam 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    i am worried about what my life has come to. I have a very broken life . i wouldn't have post this if i knew someone i was comfortable with talking to but the last person i ever...
    useless01 useless01 18-21, M 3 Responses Feb 12

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    Something really weird happened Thursday at school. I was waiting to be called down to a club that I'm in so I was hanging out in Mr. Z's classroom talking to my friends. They got...
    Meangirl83 Meangirl83 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    After 3+ years of cds-ing on & off, my peers have analyzed & fine tuned my personality to being a better responsible transgender person. Not that before I was performing in...
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    To the point that I make it a notion to avoid them and any other dude that I find is under a water sign to be in a relationship with if they are in ANY way really sensitive. Even a...
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    Hi everyone -- I'm here to share my story about how I halted the majority of my depression and PTSD symptoms through diet change. :) I've suffered from depression for my entire...
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    Hi everyone -- I'm here to share my story about how I halted the majority of my depression and PTSD symptoms through diet change. :) I've suffered from depression for my entire...
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    Hi everyone -- I'm here to share my story about how I halted the majority of my depression and PTSD symptoms through diet change. :) I've suffered from depression for my entire...
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    Hi everyone -- I'm here to share my story about how I halted the majority of my depression and PTSD symptoms through diet change. :) I've suffered from depression for my entire...
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    Hi everyone -- I'm here to share my story about how I halted the majority of my depression and PTSD symptoms through diet change. :) I've suffered from depression for my entire...
    annexthecelt annexthecelt 22-25, F Feb 9

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    I've thought about this for the longest time. My happiness solely depends on my ability to support others and provide something that contributes to their happiness. At least that's...
    ronin17 ronin17 26-30, M 8 hrs ago

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    So... The name is in the title I guess. I am depressed and have been for four long years. I know it's effects and torture but I am writing this to try and help others. When I was...
    Jas4001 Jas4001 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    After 3+ years of cds-ing on & off, my peers have analyzed & fine tuned my personality to being a better responsible transgender person. Not that before I was performing in...
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    After 3+ years of cds-ing on & off, my peers have analyzed & fine tuned my personality to being a better responsible transgender person. Not that before I was performing in...
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    After 3+ years of cds-ing on & off, my peers have analyzed & fine tuned my personality to being a better responsible transgender person. Not that before I was performing in...
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    After 3+ years of cds-ing on & off, my peers have analyzed & fine tuned my personality to being a better responsible transgender person. Not that before I was performing in...
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    I have Depression, BPD, and oh yeah, anxiety. It's ruined many great experiences and chances in my life. It had closed many doors. I hit rock bottom again and again. In less than 2...
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    When I'm with my family it always happens I need to get away from here. It's so negative and poisonous. It's not healthy for me to be here. They are a major part of what I think...
    Anthony0210 Anthony0210 31-35, M 3 days ago

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    I am 49 years old and have been told I am bi polar, not clinically depressed as I was told, 18 years ago. I am on new meds and I hate them
    laughingrebel laughingrebel 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    I can almost always put things aside to have a little fun but right now I just feel like ****. Some things happened, nothing really major, but I can't deal with it and school is...
    ThatBitch15 ThatBitch15 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    I have not been officially diagnosed but I have just about all the symptoms . I have been extremely miserable since I was a kid. I was mercilessly bullied and sexually harassed for...
    ajrestless ajrestless 22-25, F Feb 12

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    sigh........................................................!!!!!!!!!!!!! it is really very hard for me to talk about that , but i would like to do , when i was a child i missed...
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    alfhyraawal alfhyraawal 16-17, F Feb 4

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    Darkaeon Darkaeon 18-21, M Feb 5

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    I just did it today (2-7-15) for my teacher's 3-year-old daughter who was just diagnosed with Autism. It was totally worth it to raise money for the Special Olympics. <3
    classAteam classAteam 16-17, F Feb 7

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    I'm not sure if it's just me, but I have actually never really got on well with my younger sibling. She's two years younger and I'm just about to progress onto university in...