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I Am Bi Polar With Major Depression

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    I have an amazing support system. It's too bad I don't let them support me. For some reason I am unable to talk to my family and friends about how I am feeling. I am in such a dark place right now. Nothing is going right, hope is nothing more than a word. Setting goals is so far...
    jeffro499 jeffro499 26-30 2 Responses Sep 27, 2011

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    Building It Up Just To Tear It Back Down...

    As far back as I can remember my life has been a rollercoaster. I can remember flipping out and screaming at my mother for the smallest of things. Twenty minutes later I would be fine, the immense anger a distant memory. My periodical moments of rage would only continue, going to...
    jeffro499 jeffro499 26-30 Sep 27, 2011

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    I Will Not Let My Illness Defeat Or Define Me!

    Getting diagnosed was a pretty deflating thing for me. Hell, I was already in the midst of the worst depressive episode I had ever encountered, why not enlighten me with a more serious disorder as well? I went home and sat on the couch for hours. I didn't speak, eat, or sleep. I...
    jeffro499 jeffro499 26-30 1 Response Sep 28, 2011

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    It's a struggle sometimes, but something I'm very open about. No one should be afraid to admit they have trouble with anxiety, depression, or any other mental illness and ask for...
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    LostTech LostTech 18-21 2 Responses 57 mins ago

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    I don't see the point in "battling" depression. It's always there. It never leaves. You can give it your all and fight it and try to build that brick wall between you and...
    AshleyWCSloth AshleyWCSloth 16-17, F 8 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Starting January 1st, 2015 I'm going to try and change my life around, going to beat this depression if its the last thing I do. I'm actually going to put in the effort to change...
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    Hi, I know what battling depression feels like, if anyone wants to talk about anything, I am here to talk. I would like to help anyone that would like a friend
    Hawkings14 Hawkings14 13-15, F 13 hrs ago

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    "I didn't want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that's really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you're so...
    T055 T055 16-17, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    This isn't a typo. I am depression. It is me.
    NameIsMailbox NameIsMailbox 16-17, M 2 hrs ago

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    I suffered from depression and severe anxiety from the time I was eight years old. A lot of it had to do with my dad, I was also bullied, antisocial, had a lack of friends, and...
    Harlequingal Harlequingal 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    So I almost sectioned myself the other week (maybe 2 weeks ago) and then now I'm feeling totally different. I hate how I never know when I will be okay. Still waiting for bi polar...
    HarrietAC HarrietAC 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    How can one fail so badly that they can't take enough pills to kill themselves. I sit here wondering that, staring blankly at the pathetic half *** attempt I made, knowing that I...
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    I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention...
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    PinkWink PinkWink 18-21, F Nov 24

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