Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Am Bi Polar With Major Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 6 People

    Why Try?

    I have an amazing support system. It's too bad I don't let them support me. For some reason I am unable to talk to my family and friends about how I am feeling. I am in such a dark place right now. Nothing is going right, hope is nothing more than a word. Setting goals is so far...
    jeffro499 jeffro499 26-30 2 Responses Sep 27, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Will Not Let My Illness Defeat Or Define Me!

    Getting diagnosed was a pretty deflating thing for me. Hell, I was already in the midst of the worst depressive episode I had ever encountered, why not enlighten me with a more serious disorder as well? I went home and sat on the couch for hours. I didn't speak, eat, or sleep. I...
    jeffro499 jeffro499 26-30 1 Response Sep 28, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Building It Up Just To Tear It Back Down...

    As far back as I can remember my life has been a rollercoaster. I can remember flipping out and screaming at my mother for the smallest of things. Twenty minutes later I would be fine, the immense anger a distant memory. My periodical moments of rage would only continue, going to...
    jeffro499 jeffro499 26-30 Sep 27, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    I was 19 when I had my first baby... but my depression started about five months into my pregnancy. I was so young and boyfriend was my age so definitely young as well. when I...
    crazy4love crazy4love 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 30

    Your Response

    Cancel
    And I won. Oh my god. Those panic attacks and violent thoughts were enough to make me never have another baby! I knew I was at risk because of my history with depression, but...
    rhiajanita rhiajanita 22-25, F Apr 25

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I met my soulmate when I was 18 years old. He truly is the love of my life. He completed me in every way possible. We planned our entire lives together and I could not see myself...
    S615 S615 18-21, F May 10

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Is it me or him? I've had depression since a young age and Ive only started taking medication for it a couple years ago. Needless to say, I've never seen life through rose...
    kclong0604 kclong0604 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    A letter to my first love You were my best friend, my everything. When I first saw you, my heart started racing and when I see you now or think of you I feel my heart still...
    Mela22 Mela22 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 29

    Your Response

    Cancel
    2 days ago, the feeling of depression and anxiety and panic all wash over me. I truelly wanted to die and acted on it. I was set off down this path after getting into another...
    monekochan monekochan 22-25, F 3 Responses May 16

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Today was quite interesting!! First off, I woke up late, causing me to go to my first period late. One of my close friends in there hugged me as soon as I walked in, and I just...
    Hipstercatlover Hipstercatlover 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    With out pain in my life where would I be? As we get older and the pain gets worst, sometimes we may feel that dying would be a better choice. I have found if one just sits around...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T Apr 26

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hi, I'm a 21 year old medical student living abroad, I was diagnosed with bipolar nearly 3 years ago, and before that I struggled a lot. I let it get quite far before my family...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 26

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hi, I'm a 21 year old medical student living abroad, I was diagnosed with bipolar nearly 3 years ago, and before that I struggled a lot. I let it get quite far before my family...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 26

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hi, I'm a 21 year old medical student living abroad, I was diagnosed with bipolar nearly 3 years ago, and before that I struggled a lot. I let it get quite far before my family...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Apr 26

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hi, I'm a 21 year old medical student living abroad, I was diagnosed with bipolar nearly 3 years ago, and before that I struggled a lot. I let it get quite far before my family...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 26

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hi, I'm a 21 year old medical student living abroad, I was diagnosed with bipolar nearly 3 years ago, and before that I struggled a lot. I let it get quite far before my family...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 26

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hi, I'm a 21 year old medical student living abroad, I was diagnosed with bipolar nearly 3 years ago, and before that I struggled a lot. I let it get quite far before my family...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 26

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hi, I'm a 21 year old medical student living abroad, I was diagnosed with bipolar nearly 3 years ago, and before that I struggled a lot. I let it get quite far before my family...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 26

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hi, I'm a 21 year old medical student living abroad, I was diagnosed with bipolar nearly 3 years ago, and before that I struggled a lot. I let it get quite far before my family...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Apr 26

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I no longer cut or burn myself, but I still do other harmful things like picking at my skins and scabs, pulling out my hair, biting my lip until it bleeds, digging my nails into my...
    NaturallyPeculiar NaturallyPeculiar 18-21, F 1 Response May 7

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Yesterday I exceeded the limits of my coping/survival skills....and it's my own fault. The signs were there...triggers being set off one by one...but I just had to push it a...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 9 Responses May 9

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My past few weeks have been pretty good so while my mind is clear and happy I'd like to offer some motivation to all the folks struggling with their depression. My first bit is...
    littlechef77 littlechef77 22-25, F 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I don't see a future for myself these days. I have so little to work with, financially, educationally, I have no real relationships, out of work and soon to be without a home. I'm...
    Vumsy Vumsy 22-25, M 1 Response May 11

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm in a interracial relationship. My bf is white and I'm black. When we go out, most of the time we do not get stares. One evening my bf and I went to his hometown to eat at our...
    choxie22 choxie22 22-25, F 10 Responses 6 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm having a hard time. I think it's a combination of things but mostly I'm feeling uncomfortable in every since of the word. Physically, I'm worn and exhausted from work--my body...
    PseudoNymph PseudoNymph 22-25, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    does it get worse as you get older? I'm praying that it's not bi polar, i always just thought that i was just sensitive and emotional, but the symptoms are starting to become more...
    alxvii alxvii 18-21, F 2 Responses May 3

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I can remember the first time I seriously considered killing myself. I was 9 years old. All my life I have suffered Insomnia and Bi-Polar depression but this year I have finally...
    EpicChick22 EpicChick22 18-21, F May 10

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It's really, really, time consuming and draining to be friends with someone bi polar. Especially having clinical depression myself. My friend is currently not speaking to me...
    Cg1772 Cg1772 41-45 2 Responses 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    yesterday I saw a shrink about my depression and anxiety only to be told I have had the wrong diagnosis all this time, I have bi- polar disorder and borderline personality disorder...
    tracycox tracycox 26-30 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Sitting here at 9:30am and already started drinking....I feel myself slipping back into my depression again
    SingleDad40 SingleDad40 41-45, M 6 Responses 6 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    when i was 14 years old i thought i had it all, thought my life was perfect, had good friends an good boyfriend an everything. I got in the wrong friendship with someone who lied...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 6

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I feel so unworthy of life, because I am not who I want to be. I have depression but the majority of the time I am not massively uncomfortable. And yet I have no social life, no...
    GeorgiePeg GeorgiePeg 13-15, F 1 Response May 13

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I've been depressed for 3 years now.. Started when my cousin, my best friend, committed suicide. We were 17/18. I think only one short period of a month, I was happy after that...
    krmdr krmdr 18-21, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have felt like I have carried extra weight on my shoulders for years. I don't know what it is like to feel free and exhilarated.Jobs have depressed me the most in my life. I feel...
    capehope3 capehope3 41-45 2 Responses May 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Me wants polar shift. Me wants jerks gone.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Apr 29

    Your Response

    Cancel
    This post is really long. It's about me. I don't mind if you want to read or now. I'm a 15 year-old Malaysian girl. I've been depressed since 2 years ago but it was not worse as...
    introverrted introverrted 13-15, F May 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    hello! ok so I need help :/ I can't tell if my teacher likes me or not. We started becoming really close last year when he helped me through my depression and I helped him heal...
    thewhitesage thewhitesage 16-17, F 4 Responses May 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Im sick. Physically. But i also am sick of living and i don't know what to do. I now by some miracle, have found a girlfriend. I feel she is just playing with me though so I cant...
    Usernamesalreadytaken Usernamesalreadytaken 16-17, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have major exams and I cant focus due to flashbacks,Im doing my best but its not enough
    charmedangel1978 charmedangel1978 31-35, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have a lot I'm dealing with right now. I know I have anxiety and now I figured out I have depression. I know people say "You don't have depression. Your too young for that...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013 18-21, F May 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hello everyone i usually dont do these things but i feel like i cant talk to anyone in my life anymore, about what is going on with me. I am 21 years old and ive been fighting...
    sanchezjessica sanchezjessica 18-21 1 Response a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel