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I Am Bi Polar With Major Depression

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    Building It Up Just To Tear It Back Down...

    As far back as I can remember my life has been a rollercoaster. I can remember flipping out and screaming at my mother for the smallest of things. Twenty minutes later I would be fine, the immense anger a distant memory. My periodical moments of rage would only continue, going to...
    jeffro499 jeffro499 26-30 Sep 27, 2011

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    I Will Not Let My Illness Defeat Or Define Me!

    Getting diagnosed was a pretty deflating thing for me. Hell, I was already in the midst of the worst depressive episode I had ever encountered, why not enlighten me with a more serious disorder as well? I went home and sat on the couch for hours. I didn't speak, eat, or sleep. I...
    jeffro499 jeffro499 26-30 1 Response Sep 28, 2011

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    Why Try?

    I have an amazing support system. It's too bad I don't let them support me. For some reason I am unable to talk to my family and friends about how I am feeling. I am in such a dark place right now. Nothing is going right, hope is nothing more than a word. Setting goals is so far...
    jeffro499 jeffro499 26-30 2 Responses Sep 27, 2011

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    I've struggled with severe depression and anxiety disorder most of my life. Depression is a way of life in my family. I'm a third generation sufferer. Last year I was hospitalized...
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    I feel like getting everything off my chest right now. I've had a really rough day. So, here's my story: My family is really dysfunctional. It's gotten really bad. We go to a...
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    My mom is not a very happy person. She prefers my sister, brother and other brother to me and sides with them all the time. I know I'm an adult and don't even live in the same...
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    For the past two years I've been struggling with this depression and anxiety, I struggling every day to control my emotions and the temptation to end it all. I've attempted suicide...
    georgiecrouch georgiecrouch 16-17, F Apr 7

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    I went to a therapist after 8 months of dealing with my depression/agoraphobia. I tried to explain to the lady that I hadn't left the house in over a month, and I had to lay down...
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    So I've known this girl for about a year, and I have known that I was possibly gay or bi for the last year and a half or so. I think that she's beautiful and there could be nothing...
    PazzaMillie PazzaMillie 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    I feel a bit awkward saying this... but lately, I've been having doubts about my relationship with Fawful. I'm not one to not believe in magic, but I keep wondering about what...
    ChortlesOfDoom ChortlesOfDoom 13-15, F Apr 1

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    A teenager battling with an over-analysing mind and depression is so tiring. I've been through phases and levels in my life I thought I wouldn't be able to go through. I thought I...
    gxbriellejade gxbriellejade 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    I'm happy most of the time. Well chilled, but every now and then I get real depressed think cutting. I have before only once or twice, now it's like I want to cut myself or slit...
    Mann254 Mann254 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 15

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    I could never beat the negativity of depression. I tried to fight it. I tried real hard. But the more I tried, the more I failed and the more I failed, the more it beat me up and...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M Mar 30

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    I battle both anxiety and depression, which now is manifesting itself in being anxious about depression returning. It has been very tough lately and work is a major source of...
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    I remember my depression seeping into my life in the form of persistent sadness, sleeping day in and day out, feeling empty even in a roomful of friends, taking shelter under large...
    Oneforlove Oneforlove 18-21, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    I am actually diagnosed as Bi-Polar as of about two years ago. I have my moments, but I have found an interesting way to cope with some of my symptoms and it may sound a little...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 12

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    I finally have some of my medications back for this Bi-polar crap! I hate it! I have my days where everything is great, and days where everything is not. I hate the roller coaster...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    My mood is forever changing. When I'm alone I'm at my worst. I wear a fake smile. Crying has become a regular occurrence. My mind is a constant reminder. I can only remember bad...
    Ashh2 Ashh2 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 5

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    It sucks when you're ignored by the person whose attention is the only thing you want in the world. Ever since this girl first walked into our school, I couldn’t take my eyes...
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    Depression is not a disease, no you aren't "crazy" there is nothing "wrong" with you because you hate this life. Really? There is something wrong with you just because you don't...
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    I've been depressed since around October of 2013. I had a long distance boyfriend, my first love. I think that was one of the major reasons why my depression began. Then school...
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    Hi! I just wanted to kind of vent! I suffer from Generalized Anxiety Disorder, OCD, and Major Depressive Disorder. So I'm kind of a mess. I go to therapy every week and I take...
    artificialheart artificialheart 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I was bi-polar and on meds, now I am cured. Went to a holistic doctor.
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    The Strongest People Remember those "Life Stress Test" where you add up all the major changes in your life? Well how many of them are affected when you transition? Death of...
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    I was hospitalized for MDD, (major depressive disorder) four years ago. Spent 23 days in a VA hospital trying to get it under control. My nurses and team were ******' amazing...
    Michael5280 Michael5280 36-40, M 1 Response Mar 30

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    I thought I had escaped it. A couple of years back I had a major episode and got treatment for it. So I thought that was that. But I guess just like the PTSD it never stops. Or...
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    I'm wrapping up my freshman year at RIT, and I still am searching for a major. I am currently leaning towards journalism and film studies. At first, I wanted to do film...
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    It sucks when you're ignored by the person whose attention is the only thing you want in the world. Ever since this girl first walked into our school, I couldn’t take my eyes...
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    It sucks when you're ignored by the person whose attention is the only thing you want in the world. Ever since this girl first walked into our school, I couldn’t take my eyes...
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    hayley34 hayley34 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    My dad told me he hates me and wants nothing to do with me because i like guys. My siblings all quit talking to me because they found out. My mom started acting weird and putting...
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    melissac2983 melissac2983 31-35, F 2 days ago

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    The battle is going to get a lot harder now. I'm loosing my best friend... It's sad when best friends become strangers. We were like siblings. I miss it. I miss the way things used...
    Anonymousboy777 Anonymousboy777 16-17, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    What is depression? Depression is emptiness. It's a deep, dark hole inside you that can't be filled. It's feeling like you are all alone in the world and no one knows you exist...
    KittenHasaWhip KittenHasaWhip 46-50, F 6 Responses Apr 13

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    I have suffered depression since the age of 16 and I was always ashamed to admit it. People generally didn't understand my emotions and to be honest i didn't understand it myself...
    Robuk1991 Robuk1991 22-25, M 6 Responses Mar 27

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    I have been dealing with depression for as long as I can remember. From before I even knew what to call it. I am thankful that my darker periods are less frequent and don’t...
    AnonymousEP77 AnonymousEP77 41-45, M Apr 5

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    It is inevitable. I know that depression is something I will always deal with. Depression has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember. I can usually get through the...
    couldbeheaven couldbeheaven 26-30, F Apr 1

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    I've been depressed since I was 14 years old. I'm 21 now, and it's been a tough 7 years. Initially, my depression co-incided with anorexia and purging tendencies - including over...
    AngelicLore AngelicLore 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I have battled depression since I was a teenager. Mine comes and goes in waves, and it varies how severe. I usually will encounter at least one episode every year, sometimes...
    thatspecialsomeone thatspecialsomeone 31-35, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I feel it is brave of me to admit this, but I can in this anonymous world. I am a professional married mother. The depression, if that is what it is hit me as a teenager. It got...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Mar 24

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    Some people say "It's just a stage" or "Just be happy!". Well, you see, those people don't understand nothing is ever quite that simple. Depression is like an itch, or a little...
    YoureAllMurderers YoureAllMurderers 16-17, F 5 Responses Mar 24