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I Am Bi Polar With Major Depression

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    Building It Up Just To Tear It Back Down...

    As far back as I can remember my life has been a rollercoaster. I can remember flipping out and screaming at my mother for the smallest of things. Twenty minutes later I would be fine, the immense anger a distant memory. My periodical moments of rage would only continue, going to...
    jeffro499 jeffro499 26-30 Sep 27, 2011

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    I Will Not Let My Illness Defeat Or Define Me!

    Getting diagnosed was a pretty deflating thing for me. Hell, I was already in the midst of the worst depressive episode I had ever encountered, why not enlighten me with a more serious disorder as well? I went home and sat on the couch for hours. I didn't speak, eat, or sleep. I...
    jeffro499 jeffro499 26-30 1 Response Sep 28, 2011

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    Why Try?

    I have an amazing support system. It's too bad I don't let them support me. For some reason I am unable to talk to my family and friends about how I am feeling. I am in such a dark place right now. Nothing is going right, hope is nothing more than a word. Setting goals is so far...
    jeffro499 jeffro499 26-30 2 Responses Sep 27, 2011

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