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I Am Bi Polar

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    Recently Diagnosed As Bi Polar

    I've struggled with depression and anxiety for most of my life. My mom is a psychologist so I've also been subjected to many different doctor, counselors, medications and was even institutionalized once. Because of my mother's profession I had always seen people that she had a...
    imasuperhero imasuperhero 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    Talked to one of my co-workers today about me

    starting meds to balance my moods. Explained its to balance my bipolar hypomania and hopefully ease my nerve pain. It was actually quite a shock to hear her say, "I never noticed anything different, you must really hide it good, cause you seem very strong". I really didn't know...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 4 Responses Oct 17, 2014

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    Was diagnosed Bi-Polar (often rapid cycling)

    with in the first ten minutes of my very first psych appointment. Now I'm nervous about what is to come in the next sessions...I'm so ****** up. Sad thing is I pretty much already know what my psych is going to say before she says it.
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 Sep 17, 2014

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    I Am Bp......

    I am BP.....I have learned in the last few years how to control it WITHOUT MEDICATION which in experience was nothing but a bunch of garbage!! it made me worse, felt like I was wearing a mask all the time, and it was no solution just a band aide!! I studied and read so much on...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 4 Responses Jun 7, 2010

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    I'm curious what everyone tends to do

    when they are in a manic state. Since I'm also DID/MPD my manias tend to be different. This is a list of what I tend to overdo. Play the same song over and over. Bake until I run out of ingredients. Play video games for seemingly endless hours. Write. Buy unneeded art supplies...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 1 Response Oct 8, 2014

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    sologamer sologamer 13-15, F May 26, 2014

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    I don't know what could be worse.

    Being Bipolar, or being depressed all the time. I rapid cycle so fast that it makes me dizzy...up two days, down a day, mixed three days, down two days, up one day, up half a day, down for a few hours, up, down, up, down... I think I'm gonna get motion sick. Finger Eleven...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 1 Response Oct 13, 2014

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    Its a Never Ending Battle....

    Being bipolar is not something any of us want, but it is something we have to deal with. I have been dealing with being "bipolar" for about two years now, and I have to say, it is NOT easy at all. The ups and the Downs, the anxiety, the pushing people away, the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 10, 2009

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    Today I had to take a valium to relax me enough

    just to leave the house. I did not want to go outside and deal with people. But, I did it...I got out there. Depression and social anxiety together is a nightmare. On a hopefully good note, my doc set me up with Lamictol for my Bipolar II and full body nerve pain...fingers...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 2 Responses Oct 17, 2014

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    Im so fckin bi polar right now.

    Omfg. :"D Anywayy Mrph I'm okay now tho. Thanks for supporting me epeeps. Love ya :*
    PunkRockUnicorn PunkRockUnicorn 13-15, F Sep 9, 2014

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    Days like today make me want to give up being

    strong and putting up that front that I'm in control. I just want to drop everything and let all my crazy come out so I can be sent to a psych ward for a vacation.
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 2 Responses Sep 25, 2014

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    Today is a manic/depressive day.

    I literally feel cut off and numb in my skull, but my body feels like it's overdosed on adrenalin and needs to do something productive. The battle between the two is making me feel like I'm about to explode. Of all the things that go wrong in my head...this is the worst. I'm so...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 1 Response Sep 13, 2014

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    Abilify

    has anyone else here tried abilify? i can't tell you how many different meds i've tried, most to unsuccessful ends. i was on lamictal for a while, and that had been working great until i developed that rash, so they took me off again. i've only been on abilify for a few days but...
    earthdragon earthdragon 31-35, F 4 Responses Jun 24, 2008

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    Get Over It They Say...

    I was misdiagnosed as many are for about 12 years. I was on every anti depressant known to man. We all know the story. You take the medicine (which isn't the right medicine) then you stop...they give you something else...then you stop. This is a terrible cycle for all of us...
    hisdreamy hisdreamy 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 6, 2009

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    I Am Bipolar and Still Young

    well i am 18 and when i was in elementary i was in special services as emotionally impared because everyone knew that i was really emotionally and angy at times i mean like if i got mad at one of my teachers i would get really mad and just walk out of the school and walk home but...
    lostinlife18 lostinlife18 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 11, 2009

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    Emotional Rollercoaster

    All I can say is for me: Best Highs, Worst Lows. 
    mweichman mweichman 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 23, 2009

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    Feeling so physically lethargic.

    Mentally I am spunky and ready to go, but trying to get my body to move keeps bringing me to tears. It just refuses to cooperate. I was supposed to be at work right now, but I just feel so horribly weak that just standing is a task. Can my body really be the only part of me...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 Oct 14, 2014

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    Been Bi-polar For 7 Years

    I was put on several meds at a time many of which were sedating and addictive. None of which seemed to work in concert with each other. About three years ago I found a doctor that tried one med at a time, when one worked alittle by it's self he would add another with another...
    firefae firefae 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 25, 2008

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    A Tough Role

    Dear Friends, I have been in the full-time, after college workforce for 11 years now. In 11 years I've had 9 different jobs. I was laid off from some of these jobs (contracting, economy), some of these jobs I left on my accord, while other jobs I was terminated due to...
    MzScarlett MzScarlett 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 23, 2013

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    My Experience

    Hi. It's been a little over a year now since everything started happening. I've been through a lot, and it seems so much longer. I'm doing good now though. Although, I am less social and still get stressed out very easily. It's also hard for me to know when I am overreacting or...
    lager87 lager87 18-21 2 Responses Sep 7, 2008

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    Manic Episodes

    Although I've had many professionals ask if I was bi-polar, it's not until I had a full manic episode witnessed before I was diagnosed.  I've struggled with depression all of my life, and can look back into my past and see tall tale times of manic highs & crazy...
    WarriorMom WarriorMom 51-55, F 2 Responses Mar 1, 2009

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    I always related to this song.

    .. Then I found out I am bipolar... Matchbox 20 - Unwell http://youtu.be/WziA88-n02k
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 1 Response Oct 4, 2014

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    Definitely how I feel in a mixed state.

    ..good song. Stefanie Heinzmann - "Show Me the Way" I've got something, I've got to decide, it might drive me right out of my mind, so, leave the light on, I might make it home, but I might stay gone, so just leave the light on for me when your head wants to go, go, go but...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 Oct 7, 2014

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    Hang On Its Gunna Be a Bumpy Ride!

    who would have thought? i mean i am normal right? everone else is weird, and i am simply normal...its normal to go from the queen of the world to deep in the depth of depression in a matter of .2 seconds, thats normal.. right? well i guess i was wrong. Its was gettin worse. i...
    caspelletier caspelletier 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 18, 2009

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    I Am Bi Polar

    I just hadda vent a bit. I am bi polar and by no means do I say that with pride. Being bi polar is really hard. Sometimes you cant even find the strength to get out of bed, other days you feel like a super hero and can take on the world. The highs and lows are really intense and...
    nync333 nync333 36-40, F 2 Responses Jan 6, 2009

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    Im Bi Polar and Proud of It

    When i was finally diagnosed with Bi Polar disorder, i had practically lived my whole life up to that point with fits and outbursts of rage, depression, and my fave symptom elation.  There was nothing like the elation i would experience.  It was being absolutely happy...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jan 11, 2009

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    My Bi Polar Trip

    I was recently diagnosed with Bi-polar disorder. I was diagnosed with this illness after having been treated for exhaustion and depression. I am a professional educator and had taken time from work to recover from exhaustion. I had just completed my masters while working full...
    tiggeroo tiggeroo 41-45 4 Responses Oct 17, 2008

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    I Am Bi

    I am bi and of the polar bear persuasion.  I escaped from the zoo several years ago and have been on the lam.  It's hard disguising oneself when he weighs a thousand pounds and has  white fur all over.  My biggest regret for escaping was leaving Noonak, my...
    levin60kitty levin60kitty 61-65 Jan 7, 2009

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    Bipolar Affective Disorder Type 2

    It started being noticeable when I hit puberty, about age 13. My mom didn't understand why I would have fits like a 5 year old about some things, cry for no reason, or suddenly hit the roof with energy and giggly-ness. I remember getting really angry, so angry that I wouldn't be...
    iowabee iowabee 18-21, F Oct 20, 2011

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    Blue October - "X-Amount Of Words" (Lead

    singer/songwriter for Blue October is BiPolar) Relapse Prevent trigger intent Now drown High strung Say X amount of words You're solar, bipolar Panic disorder Seems harder and harder and harder Still you try to control it You mold, you mold Yeah you shape to mold...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 1 Response Oct 3, 2014

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    Just the Other Day...

    i was talking to a friend.  She commented on how much i have changed since she's known me.  Funny, cause i seem the same to me.  You know?.?.?  She was talking about how i havent attacked anyone in so long or even have become as manic except for one time, but...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 20, 2009

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    Life Is Tough

    Once I was diagnosed with bipolar, I thought my life was over. I had several doctors opinions....but they all came out the same. I was scared and honestly I am still scared. But, I am on the right meds now due to trial and error. I have found Symbyax. It works so well. It gave me...
    picgirl picgirl 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 20, 2008

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    Manic time! Mine always includes hair dye,

    hair cuts, working too much, and sleeping too little. Feeling like I can take on the world!!!
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 Sep 3, 2014

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    Scared

    I found out my fiance is being deployed in 11 days. we only got 2 weeks notice. He will be shipping out to georgia and then straight to iraq. As soon as I saw the e-mail I spazed out. I ran out crying and havent really stopped since. It's random bouts of crying every 30 minutes...
    jinxy18 jinxy18 18-21 Dec 2, 2008

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    Being DID and BiPolar feels like this to me.

    ..(I'm probably going to switch half-way through writing this, so bear with me) I live in this physical world that's just so-so and nothing fantastic ever happens, nothing exciting, everything just feels flat. I have my manic days or weeks where I feel ok and then ultra...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 Oct 2, 2014

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    It's just so hard to think straight I don't know my opinions change about people all the time I can't stop lashing out and screaming. I feel like I have gone mad. And it's...
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    His name is Joel :p
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    But I am a friend to someone in a relationship with a BP. He said my support is important but I'm getting increasingly frustrated. He does everything to avoid upsetting his BP w...
    January1112 January1112 46-50, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I have been with my fab partner for 10 years. I do not know how to cope or help him. He has now a shrink and a councilor; I don't think he is any better for it. He has only been...
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    I was diagnosed as bipolar, took allot of drugs "self medicating" I was diagnosed with schizophrenia after my many psychotic episodes, sucked attempts and assaulting people for...
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    Sweetphoenix35 Sweetphoenix35 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 17

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    ilikepolarbears22 ilikepolarbears22 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 17

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    my dad passed away march 31, 2009...just 4 days after my birthday. he battled cancer for 15 years but once it got to his brain, 5 weeks later he was gone. I am 32 years old and in...
    dkemama dkemama 31-35, F Jan 20

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    It's just a thought, I'm like caught up the dual nature of reality. So I like to figure things out with the law of polarity, which states that everything has an opposite : Hot/cold...
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