I Am Bi Polar

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 187 People

    Blue October - "X-Amount Of Words" (Lead

    singer/songwriter for Blue October is BiPolar) Relapse Prevent trigger intent Now drown High strung Say X amount of words You're solar, bipolar Panic disorder Seems harder and harder and harder Still you try to control it You mold, you mold Yeah you shape to mold...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX
    1 Response Oct 3, 2014

    Days like today make me want to give up being

    strong and putting up that front that I'm in control. I just want to drop everything and let all my crazy come out so I can be sent to a psych ward for a vacation.
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX
    2 Responses Sep 25, 2014

    I always related to this song.

    .. Then I found out I am bipolar... Matchbox 20 - Unwell http://youtu.be/WziA88-n02k
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX
    1 Response Oct 4, 2014

    Get Over It They Say...

    I was misdiagnosed as many are for about 12 years. I was on every anti depressant known to man. We all know the story. You take the medicine (which isn't the right medicine) then you stop...they give you something else...then you stop. This is a terrible cycle for all of us...
    hisdreamy hisdreamy
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 6, 2009

    yesterday I saw a shrink about my depression

    and anxiety only to be told I have had the wrong diagnosis all this time, I have bi- polar disorder and borderline personality disorder, I am not sure how I feel about the news, shocked is an understatement but I can't help feel worse having the diagnosis......has anybody else...
    tracycox tracycox
    3 Responses May 22, 2015


    has anyone else here tried abilify? i can't tell you how many different meds i've tried, most to unsuccessful ends. i was on lamictal for a while, and that had been working great until i developed that rash, so they took me off again. i've only been on abilify for a few days but...
    earthdragon earthdragon
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Jun 24, 2008

    I am 49 years old and have been told I am bi

    polar, not clinically depressed as I was told, 18 years ago. I am on new meds and I hate them
    laughingrebel laughingrebel
    51-55, F
    Feb 10, 2015

    Manic time! Mine always includes hair dye,

    hair cuts, working too much, and sleeping too little. Feeling like I can take on the world!!!
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX
    Sep 3, 2014
    sologamer sologamer
    16-17, F
    May 26, 2014

    I am not sure if I am bipolar

    so I think I might ask. I'm sorry if this sounds offensive to anyone who is or knows who one is stifling with it but I'm not sure. Somedays I am really happy and I love talking to people like last week for example. But other times I am fed up with the world and don't want to...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jun 7, 2015

    I'm curious what everyone tends to do

    when they are in a manic state. Since I'm also DID/MPD my manias tend to be different. This is a list of what I tend to overdo. Play the same song over and over. Bake until I run out of ingredients. Play video games for seemingly endless hours. Write. Buy unneeded art supplies...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX
    1 Response Oct 8, 2014

    Im Bi Polar and Proud of It

    When i was finally diagnosed with Bi Polar disorder, i had practically lived my whole life up to that point with fits and outbursts of rage, depression, and my fave symptom elation.  There was nothing like the elation i would experience.  It was being absolutely happy...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jan 11, 2009

    Recently Diagnosed As Bi Polar

    I've struggled with depression and anxiety for most of my life. My mom is a psychologist so I've also been subjected to many different doctor, counselors, medications and was even institutionalized once. Because of my mother's profession I had always seen people that she had a...
    imasuperhero imasuperhero
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Aug 21, 2012

    I Am Bp......

    I am BP.....I have learned in the last few years how to control it WITHOUT MEDICATION which in experience was nothing but a bunch of garbage!! it made me worse, felt like I was wearing a mask all the time, and it was no solution just a band aide!! I studied and read so much on...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jun 7, 2010

    Today I had to take a valium to relax me enough

    just to leave the house. I did not want to go outside and deal with people. But, I did it...I got out there. Depression and social anxiety together is a nightmare. On a hopefully good note, my doc set me up with Lamictol for my Bipolar II and full body nerve pain...fingers...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX
    3 Responses Oct 17, 2014

    Talked to one of my co-workers today about me

    starting meds to balance my moods. Explained its to balance my bipolar hypomania and hopefully ease my nerve pain. It was actually quite a shock to hear her say, "I never noticed anything different, you must really hide it good, cause you seem very strong". I really didn't know...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX
    4 Responses Oct 17, 2014

    Im so fckin bi polar right now.

    Omfg. :"D Anywayy Mrph I'm okay now tho. Thanks for supporting me epeeps. Love ya :*
    PunkRockUnicorn PunkRockUnicorn
    16-17, F
    Sep 9, 2014

    I don't know what could be worse.

    Being Bipolar, or being depressed all the time. I rapid cycle so fast that it makes me dizzy...up two days, down a day, mixed three days, down two days, up one day, up half a day, down for a few hours, up, down, up, down... I think I'm gonna get motion sick. Finger Eleven...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX
    1 Response Oct 13, 2014

    I was diagnosed with depression

    when I was 11 and I got medicated when I was 16. They waited so long because no one thought it was serious enough. The medications either worked for a while and stopped or didn't work at all. Now they're thinking it's bipolar disorder because of the highs I have. I'm on a new...
    churchdadatnight churchdadatnight
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 2, 2015

    Been Bi-polar For 7 Years

    I was put on several meds at a time many of which were sedating and addictive. None of which seemed to work in concert with each other. About three years ago I found a doctor that tried one med at a time, when one worked alittle by it's self he would add another with another...
    firefae firefae
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jul 25, 2008
    celestialdragon celestialdragon
    26-30, M
    Sep 10, 2015

    My episodes usually start out with an extremely

    happy goofyness which is VERY outside my normal misanthropic attitude, within about an hour or two it switches to an almost paralyzing paranoia. Inside my own head during an episode I KNOW the paranoia is baseless but I can't do anything about it, I can't talk(or think) myself...
    tlc556x45 tlc556x45
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jun 15, 2015
    celestialdragon celestialdragon
    26-30, M
    Nov 27, 2015

    My Bi Polar Trip

    I was recently diagnosed with Bi-polar disorder. I was diagnosed with this illness after having been treated for exhaustion and depression. I am a professional educator and had taken time from work to recover from exhaustion. I had just completed my masters while working full...
    tiggeroo tiggeroo
    4 Responses Oct 17, 2008

    I am what people call a "manageable" bi-polar.

    I don't usually have manic states but, when I do they're huge and blow up in my face. The truth is there is no such thing as "manageable" Bi-polar. You can't control mood swings, or how you act during an outbreak. One of the I most regret doing is ruining one of the most perfect...
    AnyExperience AnyExperience
    13-15, F
    Jul 23, 2015

    Life Is Tough

    Once I was diagnosed with bipolar, I thought my life was over. I had several doctors opinions....but they all came out the same. I was scared and honestly I am still scared. But, I am on the right meds now due to trial and error. I have found Symbyax. It works so well. It gave me...
    picgirl picgirl
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Jun 20, 2008

    I am tapering off Zoloft

    and it's not fun.
    athenaslantern athenaslantern
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jul 3, 2015

    Manic Episodes

    Although I've had many professionals ask if I was bi-polar, it's not until I had a full manic episode witnessed before I was diagnosed.  I've struggled with depression all of my life, and can look back into my past and see tall tale times of manic highs & crazy...
    WarriorMom WarriorMom
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Mar 1, 2009

    Bipolar Affective Disorder Type 2

    It started being noticeable when I hit puberty, about age 13. My mom didn't understand why I would have fits like a 5 year old about some things, cry for no reason, or suddenly hit the roof with energy and giggly-ness. I remember getting really angry, so angry that I wouldn't be...
    iowabee iowabee
    18-21, F
    Oct 20, 2011

    Today is a manic/depressive day.

    I literally feel cut off and numb in my skull, but my body feels like it's overdosed on adrenalin and needs to do something productive. The battle between the two is making me feel like I'm about to explode. Of all the things that go wrong in my head...this is the worst. I'm so...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX
    1 Response Sep 13, 2014

    Was diagnosed Bi-Polar (often rapid cycling)

    with in the first ten minutes of my very first psych appointment. Now I'm nervous about what is to come in the next sessions...I'm so ****** up. Sad thing is I pretty much already know what my psych is going to say before she says it.
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX
    Sep 17, 2014

    Definitely how I feel in a mixed state.

    ..good song. Stefanie Heinzmann - "Show Me the Way" I've got something, I've got to decide, it might drive me right out of my mind, so, leave the light on, I might make it home, but I might stay gone, so just leave the light on for me when your head wants to go, go, go but...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX
    Oct 7, 2014

    A Tough Role

    Dear Friends, I have been in the full-time, after college workforce for 11 years now. In 11 years I've had 9 different jobs. I was laid off from some of these jobs (contracting, economy), some of these jobs I left on my accord, while other jobs I was terminated due to...
    MzScarlett MzScarlett
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Oct 23, 2013


    I found out my fiance is being deployed in 11 days. we only got 2 weeks notice. He will be shipping out to georgia and then straight to iraq. As soon as I saw the e-mail I spazed out. I ran out crying and havent really stopped since. It's random bouts of crying every 30 minutes...
    jinxy18 jinxy18
    Dec 2, 2008

    Being DID and BiPolar feels like this to me.

    ..(I'm probably going to switch half-way through writing this, so bear with me) I live in this physical world that's just so-so and nothing fantastic ever happens, nothing exciting, everything just feels flat. I have my manic days or weeks where I feel ok and then ultra...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX
    Oct 2, 2014

    Feeling so physically lethargic.

    Mentally I am spunky and ready to go, but trying to get my body to move keeps bringing me to tears. It just refuses to cooperate. I was supposed to be at work right now, but I just feel so horribly weak that just standing is a task. Can my body really be the only part of me...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX
    Oct 14, 2014

    I Am Bi Polar

    I just hadda vent a bit. I am bi polar and by no means do I say that with pride. Being bi polar is really hard. Sometimes you cant even find the strength to get out of bed, other days you feel like a super hero and can take on the world. The highs and lows are really intense and...
    nync333 nync333
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Jan 6, 2009

    Its a Never Ending Battle....

    Being bipolar is not something any of us want, but it is something we have to deal with. I have been dealing with being "bipolar" for about two years now, and I have to say, it is NOT easy at all. The ups and the Downs, the anxiety, the pushing people away, the...
    deleted deleted
    Jun 10, 2009
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