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I Am Bipolar and Clinically Depressed

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    Just Felt Like Sharing I Guess...

    I have a lot of disorders, they run in my family. I'm bipolar, have ADHD (appearntly), I'm Skitzo, I have D.I.D, S.A.D, the list goes on. The only problem is I'm not medicated for them. My father doesn't want me on medication. Honestly I've learned to manage my life around my...
    CountryKitten CountryKitten 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 22, 2013

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    Why Me?

    I like to think of myself as a smart, likable guy. I have great friends and an even greater family. I have a beautiful daughter that I adore. I make stupid choices though. I never follow through on anything. I am mentally ill and just now have they figured out what is wrong with...
    jeffro499 jeffro499 26-30 1 Response Sep 28, 2011

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    For all of you fighting this,

    I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression and bipolar http://bipolar2medstudent.blogspot.com/
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F Sep 7

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    A letter to myself. I hate you.

    I thought you were better. 3 years of lying. Saying life was better. All the while, In denial. Stopping medication. "Clarity." Moving across the country. "Solidarity." Losing jobs... Wrecking relationships. Burning bridges. No doctor visits. New relationship... New requirements...
    Conflictedchicklet Conflictedchicklet 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 21

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    I Miss My Mania

    I am a 50 y/o wife, mother of five and lawyer. I have been, so we now discover, bipolar since I was a child. While very young I could remember feeling a burst of creativity and courage and feeling near perfect when Mania came to visit. I was the fastest, smartest and funnest kid...
    BabzEsq24 BabzEsq24 46-50, F 7 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    I Don't Believe In Medication...

    I have Bipolar issues, and other issues in my head such as Dyslexia and ADHD, and multiple personalities. I don't take medication for any of these because I don't want to be told that I can't function like a normal human being without taking a pill everyday. I'm against using...
    MrUntitled MrUntitled 18-21, M 15 Responses Jul 9, 2009

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    My bipolar is thoroughly boring.

    I'm either depressed or more depressed. However, this year the solution is at hand. Prozac and Pepsi MAX together make me 20% better. And 20% is all I need!
    svirfneblin svirfneblin 41-45, M Jan 11

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    I am so depressed. I literally think about

    killing myself every single day of my life, but I'm too much of a coward to go through with it. I'm sick of living. I have no friends, and I never will. Everytime I think i find out, they abandon me and make me more suicidal than ever. I am so sick and tired of this waste of an...
    blipsycat1 blipsycat1 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 16

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    I Made Something

    hey guys, I was here asking questions couple months ago, n I got some really valuable feedback. After 4 month intense production, I finally managed to put what I have in mind together. I did this animation to depict the struggles of being a bipolar, if you guys are...
    Niplus777 Niplus777 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 11, 2009

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    An End to Destruction

    So it has been a long while since I have even visited this site. But something made me log in tonight. I thought maybe I would update every one on recent events in my life. For a while, things were not going good at all. I was always over drafted in the bank, due to...
    BeautifulNightmare BeautifulNightmare 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 11, 2008

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    Help

    Hello there! I have only signed up for this webpage so Someone Would read my Story And possibly help me. Thank you for taking your Time And Reading this. It Means a Lot. But lets Start. I am currently 14 years Old. I do Not live in the Country i was Born in. I left that Country...
    Millily Millily 13-15 2 Responses Jun 17, 2013

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    I haven't visited this page much these last two

    days, mainly because I moved and the packing, actual move and then unpacking has been taking all of my time. My mood hasn't been any better, or to be honest I smile and I laugh but I feel like ****. It's almost always fake and even when it's real it only last for a couple of...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    My Version Of What I Go Through..

    A wave so high that pulls you down so low somewhere in between you lose your hope You try and fight it but the rides too strong the wrong feels right and the right seems wrong It’s so intimidating; not knowing what comes next each time it feels new even though you’re...
    ShadowsAndLights ShadowsAndLights 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 15, 2012

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    Today....

    Today has been a day from hell. I havnt taken my meds in the last 3 days. Cannot sleep. It is 530 am. I took sleeping pills to sleep. Could not. Still awake. My thoughts are racing.my mood is ****. My best friend is in the hospital for anorexia because she might die due to her...
    sleeplesscookies sleeplesscookies 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 24, 2013

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    Imagine For One Second....day 29

    Imagine for one second being stuck in an unchanging, monotonous routine for the rest of your days. That is the life I am living. A groundhog horror story. It is an automated, meaningless approach to life that I can't seem to shake. Peoples faces blur into one, there is no new...
    muffintop muffintop 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 13, 2012

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    I finally got my answers to

    why i been feeling like this. I guess in a way i feel releived but in a way i feel bad because this is what it is. I dont really understand what bipolar really is and i pray that medication and therapt can make me educated and feel better atleast a little so i can love life...
    Tamona35 Tamona35 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 7

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    They Never Tell You Why...

    Pretty much all my life, I have gone through one bad thing after another... I always had trouble with things, and I was always in trouble... It wasn't until I was in the 8th grade that anyone figured out that there was something seriously wrong with me... I was tested for ADD...
    BeautifulNightmare BeautifulNightmare 22-25, F 2 Responses May 3, 2008

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    I'm not sure that I'm actually bipolar.

    I think my hospitalization several months ago prompted the diagnosis. I guess they figured that they HAD to add a diagnosis after what I had done. I haven't taken my bipolar meds in a while. It's not cost or anything like that, they just taste really freaking bad. I haven't had...
    JaxyBaine JaxyBaine 26-30 1 Response Jan 19

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    For all of you fighting this,

    I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression and bipolar http://bipolar2medstudent.blogspot.com/
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I Am Bipolar

    When I was a kid I was always angrier than the other kids. When I didn't get the blue marker at school, I would scream and cry. As I got older, I got more physical. At my dads house there are wholes in the walls where my room used to be. For the littlest reasons, I would get mad...
    MayaMitchell MayaMitchell 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 4, 2013

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    Am I Product Of My Environment?

    It's a simple question, really. I was raised in a very abusive, destructive home. I was bullied at school. I have never really felt as though I've "fit in" anywhere. I am brilliant. I have a very big, very beautiful brain. This much I know about myself. (To all the non...
    JLBetts JLBetts 46-50, M 3 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    Everyone thinks I'm insane

    when I tell them. But I'm pretty sane if I do say so myself. :3 My emotions are as wild as a zebra but yeah. I'm sane. :b I will hurt you or myself if I'm pretty wrecked up but other than that I'm pretty sane I guess.
    DezSheeran DezSheeran 13-15, F Jan 12

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    Living, Coping And Accepting That I Have Bipolar.

    I am 41 years old now, when I first became ill I was around 16. I was not diagnosed till i was in my mid twenties when I had my first episode in hospital and it wasn't to be my last. I didn't understand the illness or how it affected me, even to this very day I still don't. The...
    snappyoneda snappyoneda 41-45 4 Responses Apr 22, 2012

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    Bipolar, Major Depression, Fibromyalgia, Migraines, Polyarthrylgia, Hypermobile Joints, Pituitary Tumor

    These problems do not define me. I have interests. Focusing on these issues only makes me focus on these issues. I love art, drawing, photography, working part time, hooking up with my friends when I can, taking care of my 15 year old son, loving my dogs, loving my family...
    Stelagtite Stelagtite 51-55 1 Response Mar 8, 2013

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    I'm having one of the really bad days,

    I've tried everything to feel better. But I can't smile for more that a couple of seconds. The pain hits me again, hard!! It hurt so bad that I can hardly function, and I have to! I'm moving tomorrow and I have to finish packing and clean the house. But I can hardly move! I try...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    Scared and feeling alone,

    dont know anyone else with bipolar. I hate this!
    astraphobicaussie astraphobicaussie 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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    On a serious note, I suffer from bipolar

    disorder and depression. So I think this is why I'm single. Im not the same person all the time and i go a bit crazy sometimes. People don't know how to deal with me, so they don't. It doesn't bother me as much as you would think, being alone is fine with me. I just want to...
    onemorelie onemorelie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 11

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    Constant Changing Emotions

    I've been bipolar now for about seven to eight years. The depressive part of it is slightly stronger than the mania, so for a very long time I was diagnosed with depression, until they realized the medication didn't work. Even after then, I spent many trips in psychiatric...
    Ajora Ajora 18-21 6 Responses May 11, 2009

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    I am so depressed. I literally think about

    killing myself every single day of my life, but I'm too much of a coward to go through with it. I'm sick of living. I have no friends, and I never will. Everytime I think i find out, they abandon me and make me more suicidal than ever. I am so sick and tired of this waste of an...
    blipsycat1 blipsycat1 18-21, M Jul 13

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    I have severe bipolar depression

    which means I'll have my extreme happy or clam moments when I feel like nothing's wrong and then something little will happen that will make me extremely depressed. I been taking meds for my add since I was 14 but I had this disorder before that the meds just make it worse. When...
    DarkRun421 DarkRun421 16-17, F Jul 23

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    My depression started early on,

    in elementary school when the bullying got bad and I had not even one person to turn to. I got diagnosed with severe depression at 13, the medication triggered manic episodes , last year I got diagnosed with bipolar type 2 which I got mood stabilisers on top of the anti...
    morticiamortal morticiamortal 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 18

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    I'm having one of my worse day,

    for the first time in months I completely broke down, I couldn't stop crying loudly for maybe 20 min. My sister tried to calm me down, but wasn't sure how to.. Not even I know what would have calmed me down.. But I'm feeling a little better now.. but still feel lousy.. I'm...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    Lamictal ! Just had a great meeting with my

    Doc. Was only diagnosed about 2 months ago with bipolar 2 and put on lamictal 50mg.. And she upped it to 100mgs. Hopeful and Prayerful for better results Anybody else on lamictal ??? Love to hear your experiences
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M Jul 24

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    It's in the middle of the night,

    and once again I can't sleep.. I've taken my meds, and they're suppose to make me sleepy.. but I'm wide awake.. I feel so low, and am listening to a song on repeat.. It's a slow song that's suppose to be happy, a song about new love.. but I'm not sure if it's helping me or...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 29

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    At Worlds End

    Well i havent gotten any help but ive always been depressed. people say i always looked happy but now its like i got kicked out my house and miss my mom. my girlfriend makes me sickkk and drives me crazzzy and i just feel diffrent everyday. I can be perfectly fine and the...
    chrisolds chrisolds 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 17, 2008

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    And....nothing Changes.

    Stones hitting you smack in the face, as you carry a backpack full of bricks, and run from the mountain lion, no the herd of mountain lines. That's what it feels like every day. Nobody cares, they just watch and laugh, make jokes, and in their quiet place they thank god it wan't...
    vickkay vickkay 18-21 1 Response Aug 13, 2011

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    babyygirl35 babyygirl35 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 19

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    I use to be depressed,

    I was on prozac for a while, it was when i was 15/16. I'm going to be 19. For a while this past year I've been doing great, I've been so happy doing things that make me happy. Now i'm a mess. Im blank. I literally cant do anything. I cant sleep i cant eat i cant do anything...
    amandallerena amandallerena 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    I have a WordPress blog in

    which I discuss my feelings. It may or may not help. I feel crazy. I know there is help out there, but most people haven't got a clue how I feel. I'm afraid of most people, for many reasons. I justify my feelings. I'm too negative. I can't choose to be happy. I am both...
    vajzenezjarr vajzenezjarr 26-30, F 1 Response May 14

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    Ooooo.

    Most people think I am crazy :3, but that is okay, because they just don't understand. Most the time, I am wacky, fun, fun, fun! I love to laugh, and smile, and give hugs! Then, other times, i get really sad, and all of my fun time flowers wilt. Then I cry, and get angry...
    jollyTira jollyTira 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 19, 2013

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    So its been a few weeks

    now since i lowered my meds because they was making me feel lethargic and sleepy. Yesterday i felt really bad, i felt the affect it was having on me and for one i actually cried myself to sleep which i have not done in a while but i got through it and feel a lot better today. I...
    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    Redemption Through Writing

    I parted ways with my lover from medical school a couple of months ago. Along with the stresses of hosting my father's annual stay (he visits me from overseas every year around this time), I dropped my classes after he left and withdrew from the world. In less dark periods, I...
    seejimsurf seejimsurf 36-40, M Apr 5, 2013

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    One of these days my ******* ***** of a mother

    is gonna push me too far and that'll be the end of me
    suicideDepression suicideDepression 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 7

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    I Am Sad, Because I Am Happy.

    I’m in the backseat of my car, sad. Sad because I am happy. Because I am looking out of a rolled up window at everything I cannot reach. Because the clouds are tons of little blobs, each overlapping each other, something I’ve never seen before. Because the trees outside...
    decembersnow decembersnow 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 19, 2013

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    Newly Diagnosed Bipolar And Depressed And Trying To Find A Way Back

    Last year I started a strange downhill cycle. I was not working and I became obsessive about many things. I started staying up all night getting involved on the internet from everything to politics to spiritual lifestyles. I began to feel like there was a higher being with me...
    mocking mocking 51-55, F 5 Responses Sep 14, 2012

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    I was diagnosed with depression

    when I was 16, but since I refused to talk to a anybody back then I wasn't diagnosed as bipolar until a couple of months ago when I broke down. I am 21 years old and have had depression since I was 12. I have my up and downs, even though I'm on medication. Can become extremely...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 16

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    Related Experiences

    I have been bipolar for the past 20 yrs. I hate that I'm not able to hold a job or a relationship. I feel I don't belong here. I want to go already I just need the courage to do it...
    LucyPerez LucyPerez 36-40, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I don't know what happiness is. Some say that love is what makes you happy, but I've never been loved. Some say that money, but I don't have any money. Some say that God, but I...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 20

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    I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder when I was 20. I'm 22 now, and I know and any one that knows me, knows that there's been something wrong with me my whole life. It really...
    UnstableSammi UnstableSammi 22-25, F Aug 20

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    I found out I was bipolar about a year ago, and was diagnosed with severe depression when I was 15-16. Because I study abroad I can't get my medicine unless I return back home, and...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    so this is hard for me to say but I have bipolar disorder type 1 and basically the tiniest thing can make me soo happy and ecstatic and then it only take one small thing to make me...
    Itscaitlin Itscaitlin 13-15, F Sep 6

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    I am anti medication ever since I saw my mother die of cancer. She took pills all her life for digestion problems. I also dated a bipolar woman who was anti med even before I knew...
    MysticDude MysticDude 56-60, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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