I Am Bipolar and Clinically Depressed

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    An End to Destruction

    So it has been a long while since I have even visited this site. But something made me log in tonight. I thought maybe I would update every one on recent events in my life. For a while, things were not going good at all. I was always over drafted in the bank, due to...
    BeautifulNightmare BeautifulNightmare
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 11, 2008

    Bipolar, Major Depression, Fibromyalgia, Migraines, Polyarthrylgia, Hypermobile Joints, Pituitary Tumor

    These problems do not define me. I have interests. Focusing on these issues only makes me focus on these issues. I love art, drawing, photography, working part time, hooking up with my friends when I can, taking care of my 15 year old son, loving my dogs, loving my family...
    Stelagtite Stelagtite
    1 Response Mar 8, 2013

    Scared and feeling alone,

    dont know anyone else with bipolar. I hate this!
    astraphobicaussie astraphobicaussie
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 18, 2014

    On a serious note, I suffer from bipolar

    disorder and depression. So I think this is why I'm single. Im not the same person all the time and i go a bit crazy sometimes. People don't know how to deal with me, so they don't. It doesn't bother me as much as you would think, being alone is fine with me. I just want to...
    onemorelie onemorelie
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 11, 2014

    I'm in school right now.

    ..I want to kill myself so bad...
    suicideDepression suicideDepression
    18-21, M
    1 Response Sep 30, 2014

    At Worlds End

    Well i havent gotten any help but ive always been depressed. people say i always looked happy but now its like i got kicked out my house and miss my mom. my girlfriend makes me sickkk and drives me crazzzy and i just feel diffrent everyday. I can be perfectly fine and the...
    chrisolds chrisolds
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Dec 17, 2008

    I have severe bipolar depression

    which means I'll have my extreme happy or clam moments when I feel like nothing's wrong and then something little will happen that will make me extremely depressed. I been taking meds for my add since I was 14 but I had this disorder before that the meds just make it worse. When...
    DarkRun421 DarkRun421
    18-21, F
    Jul 23, 2014

    A letter to myself. I hate you.

    I thought you were better. 3 years of lying. Saying life was better. All the while, In denial. Stopping medication. "Clarity." Moving across the country. "Solidarity." Losing jobs... Wrecking relationships. Burning bridges. No doctor visits. New relationship... New requirements...
    Conflictedchicklet Conflictedchicklet
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 21, 2014

    I have a WordPress blog in

    which I discuss my feelings. It may or may not help. I feel crazy. I know there is help out there, but most people haven't got a clue how I feel. I'm afraid of most people, for many reasons. I justify my feelings. I'm too negative. I can't choose to be happy. I am both...
    vajzenezjarr vajzenezjarr
    31-35, F
    May 14, 2014

    I have been on meds for 18 years.

    Was diagnosed with depression at age 16 then at 20 diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I have been on practically everything. Some do nothing. Some work for a while then just stop. I've been doing this constant trial and error with different combinations for 18 years now. Almost...
    jks1981 jks1981
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jul 13, 2015

    Am I Product Of My Environment?

    It's a simple question, really. I was raised in a very abusive, destructive home. I was bullied at school. I have never really felt as though I've "fit in" anywhere. I am brilliant. I have a very big, very beautiful brain. This much I know about myself. (To all the non...
    JLBetts JLBetts
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Sep 14, 2013

    My depression started early on,

    in elementary school when the bullying got bad and I had not even one person to turn to. I got diagnosed with severe depression at 13, the medication triggered manic episodes , last year I got diagnosed with bipolar type 2 which I got mood stabilisers on top of the anti...
    morticiamortal morticiamortal
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 18, 2014

    Living, Coping And Accepting That I Have Bipolar.

    I am 41 years old now, when I first became ill I was around 16. I was not diagnosed till i was in my mid twenties when I had my first episode in hospital and it wasn't to be my last. I didn't understand the illness or how it affected me, even to this very day I still don't. The...
    snappyoneda snappyoneda
    4 Responses Apr 22, 2012

    That moment when smoking with your best friends

    makes you think more about what's bugging the **** out of you , but you're high and if u think about it for too long you'll end up analyzing yourself...I love my best friend, but I ******* hate my life and everything (but my sense of style that I can't afford because I'm...
    HolyTears HolyTears
    22-25, F
    Feb 6, 2016

    My Version Of What I Go Through..

    A wave so high that pulls you down so low somewhere in between you lose your hope You try and fight it but the rides too strong the wrong feels right and the right seems wrong It’s so intimidating; not knowing what comes next each time it feels new even though you’re...
    ShadowsAndLights ShadowsAndLights
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 15, 2012

    I had a major breakdown a couple of days ago

    and my family had to call the ambulance cause I was completely out of it. We were almost at the hospital when I began coming back to my senses and said I wanted to go home. I never call the ambulance no matter how bad it gets, but the ambulance drivers said they had to take me...
    lily449 lily449
    22-25, F
    Jan 3, 2015

    Life thus far has been one big mood swing.

    The peaks and valleys of my condition have become cliffs and canyons that stretch ever deeper into the abyss that is my mind. Some days, I can take on the world; some, the world consumes me. It isn't that I don't get life. I have a great job, a loving family, a beautiful home...
    mrkrinkle55 mrkrinkle55
    22-25, M
    Jul 2, 2015

    I get mixed episodes a lot

    and my doctor told me that I have mixed bipolar and I was wondering what do your mixed episodes feel like? mine feel like extreme agitation like I can't be touched or I will go insane and like there is something under my skin. there's things that need to be cleaned but I don't...
    danielle18 danielle18
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 26, 2015

    Everyone thinks I'm insane

    when I tell them. But I'm pretty sane if I do say so myself. :3 My emotions are as wild as a zebra but yeah. I'm sane. :b I will hurt you or myself if I'm pretty wrecked up but other than that I'm pretty sane I guess.
    DezSheeran DezSheeran
    16-17, F
    Jan 12, 2014

    Imagine For One Second....day 29

    Imagine for one second being stuck in an unchanging, monotonous routine for the rest of your days. That is the life I am living. A groundhog horror story. It is an automated, meaningless approach to life that I can't seem to shake. Peoples faces blur into one, there is no new...
    muffintop muffintop
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Sep 13, 2012

    Over the summer I went to the hospital

    because I wanted to end my life. Before that I found friends who were also depressed, and I started drinking all the time i was drunk at school. I popped pills just to feel okay. I have since then recovered. Or so I thought. Everything's really hard and I don't know what to do...
    sahr86 sahr86
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 10, 2014

    I've been dealing with this

    for over 10 years now, most of this time I have been in a dark hole. It went as far as me losing all hope and even forgetting who I am, who I used to be before my depression. Recently I have been able to see some light. It's not easy, and I have bad days but I have after 10...
    lily449 lily449
    22-25, F
    Mar 6, 2015

    I hate myself. I'm at a friends house

    and everyone is a sleep I'm here trying to find cigarettes, pills, or alcohol, to take away this feeling of loneliness. I don't know why I'm doing any of this. I can't get myself to slow down and breathe.
    sahr86 sahr86
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 13, 2014

    Basically I've been depressed

    for four years and have struggled with suicidal thoughts and actions for this time. Now, I've gone through psychosis and have been diagnosed as bipolar. My therapist thinks it could even be schizoaffective disorder. I don't know what to do honestly. I've dropped out of high...
    hippiesugar hippiesugar
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 13, 2015

    Well I was diagnosed 2 days ago with bipolar

    I've been diagnosed with depression for about 6 months. Weirdly the bipolar isn't shocking. My dad is bipolar, but now I feel like I'm just like him a monster and idk how to feel or what to do.
    Dhess1198 Dhess1198
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 19, 2014

    Does anyone have any experience with the

    antidepressant Brintellix?
    deleted deleted
    Mar 12, 2015

    I hope no one thinks

    that having a plan for suicide makes me seem like a pity case. Tell my therapist my plan for suicide was out of fear for my own safety. The suffering was beyond words. Some people tell me to go off my meds because don't understand anything about bipolar. They just don't...
    deleted deleted
    Apr 8, 2015

    This the worst depression yet.

    I'm so frightened.
    deleted deleted
    Apr 9, 2015

    I have controlled bipolar

    and untreated depression.I can take depression pills with my bipolar meds.My of my depression leads back to my childhood traumas.
    punkglampire punkglampire
    Jul 4, 2015

    Newly Diagnosed Bipolar And Depressed And Trying To Find A Way Back

    Last year I started a strange downhill cycle. I was not working and I became obsessive about many things. I started staying up all night getting involved on the internet from everything to politics to spiritual lifestyles. I began to feel like there was a higher being with me...
    mocking mocking
    51-55, F
    5 Responses Sep 14, 2012

    They Never Tell You Why...

    Pretty much all my life, I have gone through one bad thing after another... I always had trouble with things, and I was always in trouble... It wasn't until I was in the 8th grade that anyone figured out that there was something seriously wrong with me... I was tested for ADD...
    BeautifulNightmare BeautifulNightmare
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 3, 2008


    Hello there! I have only signed up for this webpage so Someone Would read my Story And possibly help me. Thank you for taking your Time And Reading this. It Means a Lot. But lets Start. I am currently 14 years Old. I do Not live in the Country i was Born in. I left that Country...
    Millily Millily
    2 Responses Jun 17, 2013


    Today has been a day from hell. I havnt taken my meds in the last 3 days. Cannot sleep. It is 530 am. I took sleeping pills to sleep. Could not. Still awake. My thoughts are racing.my mood is ****. My best friend is in the hospital for anorexia because she might die due to her...
    sleeplesscookies sleeplesscookies
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 24, 2013

    What do you guys do on your down periods/days?

    i dont feel like spending he entire day crying and thinking about suicide and then hating myself for it today. tips, suggestions, advice?
    peaceinmiles peaceinmiles
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 2, 2015

    I've gone far this time,

    to far. I'm losing grip on reality again. I've been here before, and I've felt the varnings signals for a while now. I know I should ask for help, but I also know it's gone to far this time. I didn't know how far until I saw the last signal. I no longer knows what to do, I don't...
    lily449 lily449
    22-25, F
    Dec 30, 2014

    I'm bipolar II and it's mostly the severe

    depression. I'm not sure where to turn to. I was wondering if anyone knew of any good online outlets (besides 7cupsoftea) that would be helpful? Especially those that have chat options.
    customconcerned94 customconcerned94
    26-30, F
    Feb 2, 2016

    I was doing ok but I set myself up

    for disappointment. I know the worst thing in life is to have hope. It just doesn't workout that way.
    deleted deleted
    Mar 27, 2015

    Constant Changing Emotions

    I've been bipolar now for about seven to eight years. The depressive part of it is slightly stronger than the mania, so for a very long time I was diagnosed with depression, until they realized the medication didn't work. Even after then, I spent many trips in psychiatric...
    Ajora Ajora
    5 Responses May 11, 2009

    I haven't been on here

    for so long, I used to be here everyday every moment almost. I had nothing, I had broken into so many pieces that I had nothing left to break. I had no hope and it had been so long since I saw any light that I had forgotten what it was like.. I had lost me, my smile never...
    lily449 lily449
    22-25, F
    Feb 6, 2015

    I finally got my answers to

    why i been feeling like this. I guess in a way i feel releived but in a way i feel bad because this is what it is. I dont really understand what bipolar really is and i pray that medication and therapt can make me educated and feel better atleast a little so i can love life...
    Tamona35 Tamona35
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jun 7, 2014

    You know, I'm a bit of a basket case.

    . But hey, the sister I thought I once had is long gone. She's been lying to me and my family this entire time. I can't believe it. The betrayal I feel is mind numbing. I can't stand it... But the only benefit I am getting out of this, is my own room, finally.
    YunoAkiGasai YunoAkiGasai
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 26, 2015

    Why Me?

    I like to think of myself as a smart, likable guy. I have great friends and an even greater family. I have a beautiful daughter that I adore. I make stupid choices though. I never follow through on anything. I am mentally ill and just now have they figured out what is wrong with...
    jeffro499 jeffro499
    1 Response Sep 28, 2011

    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449
    22-25, F
    Mar 27, 2015

    And....nothing Changes.

    Stones hitting you smack in the face, as you carry a backpack full of bricks, and run from the mountain lion, no the herd of mountain lines. That's what it feels like every day. Nobody cares, they just watch and laugh, make jokes, and in their quiet place they thank god it wan't...
    vickkay vickkay
    1 Response Aug 13, 2011

    I Am Sad, Because I Am Happy.

    I’m in the backseat of my car, sad. Sad because I am happy. Because I am looking out of a rolled up window at everything I cannot reach. Because the clouds are tons of little blobs, each overlapping each other, something I’ve never seen before. Because the trees outside...
    decembersnow decembersnow
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 19, 2013

    Lamictal ! Just had a great meeting with my

    Doc. Was only diagnosed about 2 months ago with bipolar 2 and put on lamictal 50mg.. And she upped it to 100mgs. Hopeful and Prayerful for better results Anybody else on lamictal ??? Love to hear your experiences
    Brisco221 Brisco221
    36-40, M
    Jul 24, 2014

    Just Felt Like Sharing I Guess...

    I have a lot of disorders, they run in my family. I'm bipolar, have ADHD (appearntly), I'm Skitzo, I have D.I.D, S.A.D, the list goes on. The only problem is I'm not medicated for them. My father doesn't want me on medication. Honestly I've learned to manage my life around my...
    CountryKitten CountryKitten
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 22, 2013

    I Made Something

    hey guys, I was here asking questions couple months ago, n I got some really valuable feedback. After 4 month intense production, I finally managed to put what I have in mind together. I did this animation to depict the struggles of being a bipolar, if you guys are...
    Niplus777 Niplus777
    26-30, M
    Jun 11, 2009

    One of these days my ******* ***** of a mother

    is gonna push me too far and that'll be the end of me
    suicideDepression suicideDepression
    18-21, M
    1 Response Sep 7, 2014

    I Miss My Mania

    I am a 50 y/o wife, mother of five and lawyer. I have been, so we now discover, bipolar since I was a child. While very young I could remember feeling a burst of creativity and courage and feeling near perfect when Mania came to visit. I was the fastest, smartest and funnest kid...
    BabzEsq24 BabzEsq24
    46-50, F
    6 Responses Nov 30, 2012

    Everything is pointless Did something today

    that I wouldn't normally do. It doesn't matter. It's dumb. I can't kid myself with morals. I don't really have any. I guess I'm getting depressed again. Oh and **** Christmas.
    NotApplicable NotApplicable
    22-25, F
    Dec 25, 2014
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Dec 14, 2015

    I feel like I'm worthless more

    and more these days... I feel like I have nothing to live for and that I am going no where. That I've screwed up everything good in my life... And sometimes like it's not even worth living
    EmoCinderella94 EmoCinderella94
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 12, 2015

    I closed down my account less

    than a week ago. I guess I was just trying to convince myself that I'm better. But I am not better. I hurt, all the time and there is nothing I can do about it. But in a way I am glad I removed my old account, I have major trust issues and I had put to much of me out there...
    lily449 lily449
    22-25, F
    Dec 21, 2014
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