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I Am Bipolar and Clinically Depressed

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    babyygirl35 babyygirl35 16-17, F Apr 19

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    I'm not sure that I'm actually bipolar.

    I think my hospitalization several months ago prompted the diagnosis. I guess they figured that they HAD to add a diagnosis after what I had done. I haven't taken my bipolar meds in a while. It's not cost or anything like that, they just taste really freaking bad. I haven't had...
    JaxyBaine JaxyBaine 26-30 1 Response Jan 19

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    I Am Bipolar

    When I was a kid I was always angrier than the other kids. When I didn't get the blue marker at school, I would scream and cry. As I got older, I got more physical. At my dads house there are wholes in the walls where my room used to be. For the littlest reasons, I would get mad...
    MayaMitchell MayaMitchell 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 4, 2013

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    So it seems I'm in a manic episode

    or something like it but less intense.. I've been waking up early, going to work on time, ready to laugh at any silly thing, at the same time ready to fight/argue about anything.. Boring
    ThePeach ThePeach 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    Imagine For One Second....day 29

    Imagine for one second being stuck in an unchanging, monotonous routine for the rest of your days. That is the life I am living. A groundhog horror story. It is an automated, meaningless approach to life that I can't seem to shake. Peoples faces blur into one, there is no new...
    muffintop muffintop 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 13, 2012

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    I Don'T Want To Cry..

    but i am.. i want to find something fun and meaninful to do.. but everything looks grey to me... i try to make others happy but i end up feeling more empty.. it hurts because i can't explain why i'm crying, or why i don't want to see or talk to anyone.. that even if someone cared...
    ThePeach ThePeach 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 25, 2013

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    It Should't Be This Way

    I am sick of this... I am sick of not being able to think straight, or not being able to think at all. I am sick of feeling worthless and hopeless. The thing I hate most, is how my moods interfere so much with how I interact with others. I hate it when I don't even realize that...
    BeautifulNightmare BeautifulNightmare 22-25, F 6 Responses May 5, 2008

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    I Am Sad, Because I Am Happy.

    I’m in the backseat of my car, sad. Sad because I am happy. Because I am looking out of a rolled up window at everything I cannot reach. Because the clouds are tons of little blobs, each overlapping each other, something I’ve never seen before. Because the trees outside...
    decembersnow decembersnow 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 19, 2013

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    I Miss My Mania

    I am a 50 y/o wife, mother of five and lawyer. I have been, so we now discover, bipolar since I was a child. While very young I could remember feeling a burst of creativity and courage and feeling near perfect when Mania came to visit. I was the fastest, smartest and funnest kid...
    BabzEsq24 BabzEsq24 46-50, F 7 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    Living, Coping And Accepting That I Have Bipolar.

    I am 41 years old now, when I first became ill I was around 16. I was not diagnosed till i was in my mid twenties when I had my first episode in hospital and it wasn't to be my last. I didn't understand the illness or how it affected me, even to this very day I still don't. The...
    snappyoneda snappyoneda 41-45 4 Responses Apr 22, 2012

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    Ooooo.

    Most people think I am crazy :3, but that is okay, because they just don't understand. Most the time, I am wacky, fun, fun, fun! I love to laugh, and smile, and give hugs! Then, other times, i get really sad, and all of my fun time flowers wilt. Then I cry, and get angry...
    jollyTira jollyTira 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 19, 2013

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    Help

    Hello there! I have only signed up for this webpage so Someone Would read my Story And possibly help me. Thank you for taking your Time And Reading this. It Means a Lot. But lets Start. I am currently 14 years Old. I do Not live in the Country i was Born in. I left that Country...
    Millily Millily 13-15 2 Responses Jun 17, 2013

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    On a serious note, I suffer from bipolar

    disorder and depression. So I think this is why I'm single. Im not the same person all the time and i go a bit crazy sometimes. People don't know how to deal with me, so they don't. It doesn't bother me as much as you would think, being alone is fine with me. I just want to...
    onemorelie onemorelie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 11

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    Just Felt Like Sharing I Guess...

    I have a lot of disorders, they run in my family. I'm bipolar, have ADHD (appearntly), I'm Skitzo, I have D.I.D, S.A.D, the list goes on. The only problem is I'm not medicated for them. My father doesn't want me on medication. Honestly I've learned to manage my life around my...
    CountryKitten CountryKitten 16-17, F Jun 22, 2013

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    An End to Destruction

    So it has been a long while since I have even visited this site. But something made me log in tonight. I thought maybe I would update every one on recent events in my life. For a while, things were not going good at all. I was always over drafted in the bank, due to...
    BeautifulNightmare BeautifulNightmare 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 11, 2008

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    Sacrific For A Good Day.

    Yesterday I took some pain medicine and decided I was going out. I had a fairly good nights sleep (I have 3 sleep disorders which I take medicine for) and only woke up 4 times. I think all toll I got 6 hours of sleep though I went to bed at 9:30pm and woke at 6:00am. My goal...
    Stelagtite Stelagtite 51-55 1 Response Mar 9, 2013

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    I Made Something

    hey guys, I was here asking questions couple months ago, n I got some really valuable feedback. After 4 month intense production, I finally managed to put what I have in mind together. I did this animation to depict the struggles of being a bipolar, if you guys are...
    Niplus777 Niplus777 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 11, 2009

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    Constant Changing Emotions

    I've been bipolar now for about seven to eight years. The depressive part of it is slightly stronger than the mania, so for a very long time I was diagnosed with depression, until they realized the medication didn't work. Even after then, I spent many trips in psychiatric...
    Ajora Ajora 18-21 6 Responses May 11, 2009

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    Recently Diagnosed

    I'm bipolar type II, clinically depressed with a borderline personality disorder! I started my medication just a week ago and do feel a little better already, certainly I'm not as angry as I used to be all the time. It's still early days though, I may go back into my depression...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 8, 2008

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    I have a WordPress blog in

    which I discuss my feelings. It may or may not help. I feel crazy. I know there is help out there, but most people haven't got a clue how I feel. I'm afraid of most people, for many reasons. I justify my feelings. I'm too negative. I can't choose to be happy. I am both...
    vajzenezjarr vajzenezjarr 26-30, F 1 Response May 14

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    Feel Empty

    I feel empty a lot. Under employed. Reading too much on the internet. With behavioural problems. Empty. Overanalytical Right now I am taking buproprion 300 mg and 1000 mg of Sodium Valproate. Sodium Valproate has made me more impulsive and angry sometimes....so I may reduce it...
    bidhesigora bidhesigora 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 4, 2013

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    Why Me?

    I like to think of myself as a smart, likable guy. I have great friends and an even greater family. I have a beautiful daughter that I adore. I make stupid choices though. I never follow through on anything. I am mentally ill and just now have they figured out what is wrong with...
    jeffro499 jeffro499 26-30 1 Response Sep 28, 2011

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    Bipolar, Major Depression, Fibromyalgia, Migraines, Polyarthrylgia, Hypermobile Joints, Pituitary Tumor

    These problems do not define me. I have interests. Focusing on these issues only makes me focus on these issues. I love art, drawing, photography, working part time, hooking up with my friends when I can, taking care of my 15 year old son, loving my dogs, loving my family...
    Stelagtite Stelagtite 51-55 1 Response Mar 8, 2013

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    Redemption Through Writing

    I parted ways with my lover from medical school a couple of months ago. Along with the stresses of hosting my father's annual stay (he visits me from overseas every year around this time), I dropped my classes after he left and withdrew from the world. In less dark periods, I...
    seejimsurf seejimsurf 36-40, M Apr 5, 2013

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    I Don't Believe In Medication...

    I have Bipolar issues, and other issues in my head such as Dyslexia and ADHD, and multiple personalities. I don't take medication for any of these because I don't want to be told that I can't function like a normal human being without taking a pill everyday. I'm against using...
    MrUntitled MrUntitled 18-21, M 15 Responses Jul 9, 2009

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    And....nothing Changes.

    Stones hitting you smack in the face, as you carry a backpack full of bricks, and run from the mountain lion, no the herd of mountain lines. That's what it feels like every day. Nobody cares, they just watch and laugh, make jokes, and in their quiet place they thank god it wan't...
    vickkay vickkay 18-21 1 Response Aug 13, 2011

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    I have severe bipolar depression

    which means I'll have my extreme happy or clam moments when I feel like nothing's wrong and then something little will happen that will make me extremely depressed. I been taking meds for my add since I was 14 but I had this disorder before that the meds just make it worse. When...
    DarkRun421 DarkRun421 16-17, F 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Not Lithium Again...

    How many times have I stopped taking lithium and started it again? So many times that when I go back to my Dr its almost comical. Depressed again? Yes. But I cant do it anymore. Its been 10 years off and on. Try this drug, try that drug, doesnt work and go back to lithium. I...
    SystemErrorReboot SystemErrorReboot 26-30, F Jan 2, 2013

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    My Version Of What I Go Through..

    A wave so high that pulls you down so low somewhere in between you lose your hope You try and fight it but the rides too strong the wrong feels right and the right seems wrong It’s so intimidating; not knowing what comes next each time it feels new even though you’re...
    ShadowsAndLights ShadowsAndLights 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 15, 2012

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    Today....

    Today has been a day from hell. I havnt taken my meds in the last 3 days. Cannot sleep. It is 530 am. I took sleeping pills to sleep. Could not. Still awake. My thoughts are racing.my mood is ****. My best friend is in the hospital for anorexia because she might die due to her...
    sleeplesscookies sleeplesscookies 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 24, 2013

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    Scared and feeling alone,

    dont know anyone else with bipolar. I hate this!
    astraphobicaussie astraphobicaussie 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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    Everyone thinks I'm insane

    when I tell them. But I'm pretty sane if I do say so myself. :3 My emotions are as wild as a zebra but yeah. I'm sane. :b I will hurt you or myself if I'm pretty wrecked up but other than that I'm pretty sane I guess.
    DezSheeran DezSheeran 13-15, F Jan 12

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    Am I Product Of My Environment?

    It's a simple question, really. I was raised in a very abusive, destructive home. I was bullied at school. I have never really felt as though I've "fit in" anywhere. I am brilliant. I have a very big, very beautiful brain. This much I know about myself. (To all the non...
    JLBetts JLBetts 46-50, M 3 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    I finally got my answers to

    why i been feeling like this. I guess in a way i feel releived but in a way i feel bad because this is what it is. I dont really understand what bipolar really is and i pray that medication and therapt can make me educated and feel better atleast a little so i can love life...
    Tamona35 Tamona35 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 7

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    At Worlds End

    Well i havent gotten any help but ive always been depressed. people say i always looked happy but now its like i got kicked out my house and miss my mom. my girlfriend makes me sickkk and drives me crazzzy and i just feel diffrent everyday. I can be perfectly fine and the...
    chrisolds chrisolds 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 17, 2008

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    Bipolar Is The Story Of My Life

    I was diagnosed as clinically depressed for 30 years, and 5 years ago was diagnosed as bipolar when the doctor finally saw me on a high. It is hard to take medications, get cleaned up, reach out to new people, so most of my life is spent alone in my apartment. My computer is my...
    RecLucy RecLucy 56-60, F 8 Responses Jan 8, 2013

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    So its been a few weeks

    now since i lowered my meds because they was making me feel lethargic and sleepy. Yesterday i felt really bad, i felt the affect it was having on me and for one i actually cried myself to sleep which i have not done in a while but i got through it and feel a lot better today. I...
    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    My Self Destruction

    I've been battling bipolar and depression pretty much my whole life. Though I wasnt diagnosed with it till 1999. I have been hospitalized, zombified by meds, and have been in therapy for a long time. No many how many different ways I have tried to cope... Nothing seems to change...
    BeautifulNightmare BeautifulNightmare 22-25, F 6 Responses Jul 9, 2008

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    I am so depressed. I literally think about

    killing myself every single day of my life, but I'm too much of a coward to go through with it. I'm sick of living. I have no friends, and I never will. Everytime I think i find out, they abandon me and make me more suicidal than ever. I am so sick and tired of this waste of an...
    blipsycat1 blipsycat1 18-21, M Jul 13

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    Newly Diagnosed Bipolar And Depressed And Trying To Find A Way Back

    Last year I started a strange downhill cycle. I was not working and I became obsessive about many things. I started staying up all night getting involved on the internet from everything to politics to spiritual lifestyles. I began to feel like there was a higher being with me...
    mocking mocking 51-55, F 5 Responses Sep 14, 2012

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    A letter to myself. I hate you.

    I thought you were better. 3 years of lying. Saying life was better. All the while, In denial. Stopping medication. "Clarity." Moving across the country. "Solidarity." Losing jobs... Wrecking relationships. Burning bridges. No doctor visits. New relationship... New requirements...
    Conflictedchicklet Conflictedchicklet 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 21

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    I use to be depressed,

    I was on prozac for a while, it was when i was 15/16. I'm going to be 19. For a while this past year I've been doing great, I've been so happy doing things that make me happy. Now i'm a mess. Im blank. I literally cant do anything. I cant sleep i cant eat i cant do anything...
    amandallerena amandallerena 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    I am so depressed. I literally think about

    killing myself every single day of my life, but I'm too much of a coward to go through with it. I'm sick of living. I have no friends, and I never will. Everytime I think i find out, they abandon me and make me more suicidal than ever. I am so sick and tired of this waste of an...
    blipsycat1 blipsycat1 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Getting Out

    Yesterday I needed to see my physical therapist. So I decided that would be the positive thing I would do. I really can handle only so much a day. Then I wanted to do something for someone else that was positive. So I decided to show up at my sons track practice. I picked up...
    Stelagtite Stelagtite 51-55 1 Response Mar 9, 2013

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    They Never Tell You Why...

    Pretty much all my life, I have gone through one bad thing after another... I always had trouble with things, and I was always in trouble... It wasn't until I was in the 8th grade that anyone figured out that there was something seriously wrong with me... I was tested for ADD...
    BeautifulNightmare BeautifulNightmare 22-25, F 2 Responses May 3, 2008

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    My bipolar is thoroughly boring.

    I'm either depressed or more depressed. However, this year the solution is at hand. Prozac and Pepsi MAX together make me 20% better. And 20% is all I need!
    svirfneblin svirfneblin 41-45, M Jan 11

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    My boyfriend is 17 and is bipolar ( and has hypopituitarism we both have just found out ) but didn't tell me at the time what type of bipolar he is etc he kept saying how it's his...
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    I read an article and watch a video about bipolar. And it says that bipolar is actually occurred when your brain chemical are not balance. And take a ginko biloba supplement will...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 3

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    I used to be really suicidal and depressed but i feel like ive been happier lately although i still feel really down and cry myself to sleep some nights. Im really confused on...
    larrysdick larrysdick 13-15, F Jul 13

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