I Am Bipolar And I Hate It

Bipolar and all the emotions that come with the swing of the pendulm from mania and can't out of bed depression and evrything in between .each day brings something new 123 People

    I tried to make breakfast.

    Mostly done, everything is feeling good, but then out of no where I loose it. I had to leave the room and the food and take my medication. I hate this.
    MiMiMaNiAc MiMiMaNiAc
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 7, 2014

    I was hypo manic for a few days

    so now I'm crashing and burning again. I'm really tired of these moods swings. I don't want to be depressed again. It's like in Cuba when you see the dark clouds coming in. You know it's going to pour down on you in a few minutes. But the heavy rain doesn't usually last long...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 12, 2014


    I having had my thoughts itch for a while. I have been doing better for over a year. Recently I had hypomania and then a manic episode while at a memorial service. Then it turned into hypomania again. I had a lot of energy but still miserable. I thought about suicide. I was just...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable
    22-25, F
    Dec 19, 2012

    I Hate Being So Unpredictable!

    I hate not knowing how I'm going to feel tomorrow when I wake up.  I hate not knowing whether an emotional reaction I have to something or someone is real or is just the result of my disease.  I hate being in relationships because when I'm depressed, I have to try and...
    Bella724 Bella724
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 19, 2007

    Confusion Stiring Up Illusions

    Well you are no prize either.Go to hell. You rip me around on a string, im no puppet, and you'll die for the cause of it. "But wheres your heart?" "But wheres your heart?" You are slowly seeping into my skin. You start up as a little itch, but gradually it begins to burn. It...
    scythesoul scythesoul
    22-25, F
    Sep 26, 2013

    I couldn't fine the "I am bipolar

    and I love it" group so here you go
    IchBinDeutsch IchBinDeutsch
    16-17, M
    1 Response Aug 8, 2015

    I hate it ! But I love it.

    ... But I hate it ! But then again I love it...
    panthrax00 panthrax00
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Aug 8, 2015

    I Recommend This Programme

    For those that all feel and share this experience I recommend watching the Secret Life of the Manic Depressive. It is available on youtube: Part1: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yS9o7U33z1k
    Mauritania Mauritania
    18-21, M
    Mar 28, 2008
    iamhappy1 iamhappy1
    13-15, F
    Aug 7, 2015

    Positve Thoughts For the Negative Thoughts of Being Bipolar

    It took me a minute to find these. They were given to me by a nice person who kinda knew what Bipolar can be like at times.... She told me to go by these "quotes" for when bipolar gets me down.  I really hope they help someone... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 1...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Aug 25, 2009

    I am scared and feel alone,

    I dont know anyone else with bipolar.. Is it normal to feel constantly worthless? Sick to the stomach? Hate medications?!!
    astraphobicaussie astraphobicaussie
    26-30, F
    Jan 18, 2014

    Trying to search for the better

    but only find the worse.
    deleted deleted
    Feb 29, 2016

    Thoughts? Feel free. People often feel like

    their life is a story to tell people. ****** things happen to everyone. That doesn't mean it's a story that needs to be told. Those who feel, and experience what I have been through, surreal confusion and pain, you'll be the judge whether it's a story or not. Sometimes your life...
    Jusslogiq Jusslogiq
    22-25, M
    1 Response Sep 13, 2014

    Am I Crazy?

    One day Im up the next im down and there is never a middle ground. On my down days i get so anxious that i feel like screaming at the world. And anyone that i can think of to scream at is in trouble. My husband gets so upset not knowing what to do to help me. But how can I tell...
    dani dani
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 14, 2007

    Realizing I was bipolar was not easy,

    I realized it when I started acting really different and would feel happy then sad in 2 seconds. It was the same with anger sometimes I would be so mad I actually contemplated killing someone.Others I would just scream. Then an instant later i'd be so happy. I think that's when...
    Anathina Anathina
    18-21, F
    May 5, 2014

    My moods change a lot ,

    eating habits , way I feel toward people change all of a sudden a lot
    alyssabay alyssabay
    18-21, F
    Sep 13, 2014

    I Dance and Cry

    I actually have Type II Bipolar Disorder,  more depression than mania.  Anyway, I rapid cycle like crazy.  It's like I'm on a high speed merry-go-round.  At one point in the day, I'm laughing and talking about getting my groove on at the club.  Within the...
    lalenee lalenee
    36-40, F
    1 Response May 1, 2008

    Have you ever thought of a scenario

    that has made you sad? You feel the emotions from that sad or angering experience that's made up in your head. And although you know it is make believe, you still feel like it's reality. That's what it's like walking in a manic state. Emotions bubble up and you know deep down...
    MiMiMaNiAc MiMiMaNiAc
    22-25, F
    Feb 10, 2014

    Scared, confused and feeling alone.

    I dont know anyone else with bipolar. Is it normal to constantly feel worthless? Attract unwanted abuse? Im lost!
    astraphobicaussie astraphobicaussie
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 18, 2014

    Absolutely Miserable

    It is so miserable being bipolar. It is like the rollercoaster from hell.  I am finding out that the older you get, the worse it seems to get.  I used to have some patience...maybe not a lot but a whole lot more than I do right now.  From one day to the next, I...
    lostsoul73 lostsoul73
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 2, 2008

    I am sure there are some benefits of being

    bipolar or wait. I completely detest it. Not even anything a tiny bit cute about it. Makes coming out as bipolar so scary since people think you are some sort of freak for having a mental illness..
    deleted deleted
    Feb 12, 2016

    I have been bipolar for the past 20 yrs.

    I hate that I'm not able to hold a job or a relationship. I feel I don't belong here. I want to go already I just need the courage to do it, but the only reason I'm here still is because I have a 19 yr old son who is my life and I will never hurt him. I'm living against my will...
    LucyPerez LucyPerez
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Sep 17, 2014

    So I landed myself in the psych ward again

    and recently got out. Never sure what mental illness is. How much control do I really have when things get literally crazy. Probably more than I think, but it's unreal how fast your perception of reality just shoots to hell. It gets scary for those around me and for myself when...
    Dayzdreamer Dayzdreamer
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 30, 2016

    I don't want to be like this.

    It's been my world since I was molested when I was nine; I've had suicidal thoughts since I was eleven. I hate the insane highs that drive me to do things that I don't want to do, the voices and delusions and paranoia that come with. I hate the periods of crippling depression...
    overcomingit17 overcomingit17
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 22, 2015
    blaze4peace blaze4peace
    26-30, M
    Dec 10, 2013
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