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I Am Bipolar and Take No Medication

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    Raging Dragon, Puppy Dog Sad

    At sixteen, I was diagnosed with depression. I suffered severely from this for years before I discovered I was actually bipolar. Kinda guts but it came as no surprise really as there is a history of mental illness in my family. And I don't take any sort of meds for it anymore cos...
    NicotineAndFadedDreams NicotineAndFadedDreams 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 27, 2013

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    Yawn!

    ok so not being able to sleep is part of the fun of being bipolar, but i have reached an all new personal best, 3 weeks! of coarse i have slept a couple of times but only because i knocked myself out with the sleep meds i used to take. other than that i go for days and days. its...
    obleena1963 obleena1963 46-50, F 4 Responses Feb 11, 2011

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    Cosmomax Cosmomax 26-30, M Oct 21

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    I Am Bipolar

    i hate that i am bipolar it drives me crazy that i cant just feel the same as every one but i have a lot of good day and love that so i working on it
    crazyamanda crazyamanda 18-21, F Nov 5, 2009

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    Will I Always Be Alone?

    i've been off meds for over a year now. i stopped on my own, and didn't look back. i felt fine. thought i was handling things great. then i started dating this guy. i'm crazy about him. but my anxiety went through the roof. i had a couple of mixed episode days. i vaguely started...
    windshine windshine 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2012

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    I'm so depressed and my birthday is soon .

    All I wanna do is get high and slit my throat but I know I can't
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 21

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    Iam Off Me Meds. I Want An End To This Madness

    IAM A 42 YEAR OLD ARTISTIC WOMAN WHO HAS BEEN BATTLING WITH BI-POLAR SINCE PROBABLY AROUND THE AGE OF 17.  I HAVE GONE THROUGH NUMEROUS DIFFERENT THERAPIES.  I HAVE NEVER STUCK TO MEDS AS IAM SO SCARED OF THE DIMMING TO MY MIND THAT THE MEDS MAY DO.  I HAVE HAD A QUITE...
    tartface tartface 41-45 6 Responses Jan 10, 2011

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    Bipolar Or Drug Use

    Is there anyone out there that can relate? I'm looking for a answer to a question that may not be able to be answered. I had my first manic episode when I was 21. I am 32 now. I have had 4 or 5 manic episodes in that 11yr time frame. During this time I have been on lithium the...
    ready4aNewpath ready4aNewpath 31-35, M 2 Responses Jun 27, 2012

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    As A Student It Is Not Possible To Take These Medicatons And Pass My Exams..

    I know medication is the best treatment As I will be a future doctor.. Please dont judge me. I am not lazy, or careless about my health. i have been trying to find a right combo that works for me. and can make me FUNCTIONAL in school. I am a 2nd year medical student, and I cannot...
    auriel85 auriel85 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 12, 2011

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    This Woman Will Self-destruct In 5, 4, 3, 2...

    I was first diagnosed with bipolar 1 in 2005 after crumbling under the pressure of a demanding daily grind while trying to cope with the loss of my father and an aunt of mine that would best be described as a second mother to me. Having buried her, and not even a month later...
    SensiStar3 SensiStar3 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2012

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    Afraid Of Being In A Good Mood

    I've been medicated to the teeth the past few years, and I admit it has kept the stress to a minimum, and I have had no relapses. But I'm tired of it and so I'm titrating off things and hope to be medication free in about a year. I have a shrink and a counselor helping me here...
    TheNiceChemist TheNiceChemist 36-40 Aug 22, 2012

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    I Hate Being Bipolar

    I'm 17 years old, I have been diagnosed since I was 16, & it's driving me crazy, I hate being depressed all the time, I don't like treating my family like crap all the time, I'm affecting all of the people around me, I'm sick of laying in bed crying all the time.. I take no...
    ovi456 ovi456 18-21 4 Responses Mar 5, 2013

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    Memorial Day

    i stopped taking antidepressants on memorial day. my doctor screwed me up putting me on celexa after taking remeron with no problems for 2 years. the pills were making me go crazy and the side effects were awful. to stop the shaking i craved liquor and morphine. so i just stopped...
    rorer714 rorer714 26-30, M Jun 1, 2013

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    I took medication for 7 years

    and it about destroyed me. I've been medication free since Feb 2014 and I feel ok but I'm wary about the future.
    sunny875 sunny875 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 21

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    The "med Free" Experiment.

    I have been living with bipolar for half my life. I had early teenage onset at 14, although this was not recognised till I was 23.   After some how surviving high school I started Uni in a new city. I was manic, but you can't be manic for ever and eventually I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 25, 2010

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    At Times I Just Really Hate Myself.

     I was diagnosed with bipolar when I was 15 years old.  My mother is bi-polar and depressed.  My sister is also bipolar (at least I'm 99% sure she is).  My life has been a dramatic roller coaster. I have not taken meds pretty much since I was...
    brandym85 brandym85 22-25 2 Responses Aug 2, 2009

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    I still wonder how and

    why it turned out this way... So I just can't take medication without my parents knowing, and i can't tell them... even if I did, they would just laugh in my face and act like nothing ever happened the next day... Every time i tried telling them something serious about me they...
    PinkClaudia35 PinkClaudia35 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 7, 2013

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    No More Meds

    I don't know if this site really works for anything, but I REALLY need some support in this whole bipolar thing. I was heavily medicated for a long time until I couldn't calm down one day and took all of my medicine at once. I wasn't trying to die, I was just trying to get things...
    ImustbeSTRONG ImustbeSTRONG 22-25, F 1 Response May 9, 2012

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    Addicted To My Illness?

    What my mental illness means to me. I'm not a meds person, even if there were some magic pill I don't know if I would take it, I don't know who I am without my mental disorder. I identify myself so strongly to being bipolar, I'm not sure I could live on a level mind anymore. A...
    mittskitty mittskitty 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 22, 2013

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    How I Cured My Bipolar Disorder I read

    that omega-3 was being used for psychiatric disorders and gave it a try for myself. It didn’t work, but I noticed that after 13 years my urine had no calcium sediments in it anymore. Before omega-3 supplements any extra calcium I ate showed up as extra urine sediment. I then...
    marlowg marlowg 56-60, M Dec 22, 2013

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    It's Just Not Working For Me Anymore

    I was diagnosed with bipolar II a few months ago, and so far the medication I’ve been taking have varied and haven’t been helpful. I’ve been on Risperdal, Wellbutrin, Abilify, Lamictal, and Depakote (among other ADD meds and antidepressants), and none of them have been able...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 1, 2013

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    I am anti medication ever

    since I saw my mother die of cancer. She took pills all her life for digestion problems. I also dated a bipolar woman who was anti med even before I knew about my own illness. (I believe in synchronicity) My illness is not severe and this is why I am amazed that the doctors...
    MysticDude MysticDude 56-60, M Sep 11

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    slugkitty slugkitty 22-25, F May 13

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    Miss Me

    I have only been off meds for 2 weeks now, and already my life is getting better.  My kids actually enjoy talking to me again.  I'm not just a blob on the couch staring at the stupid tv.  I'm not yelling at everyone all the time.  I hope that I will be able to...
    hobbyhound hobbyhound 31-35 2 Responses Dec 11, 2010

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    I'm Not Crazy! I'm Bi-polar.

    Hello. Forgive me for I do not really know how to start. I suppose I am seeking conversation with those who can relate. So here goes!To start on the 23rd anniversary of my Birth I was diagnosed as Bi-polar and Manic Depressive. I on the other hand have been this way for as long...
    Cyren Cyren 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 26, 2011

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    My Illness Is Defining Me

    Hi I was first diagnosed with bipolar 1 with psychotic features when I was a junior in highschool when i had an extreme manic episode and had to be hospitalized. I had another one in my senior year with another visit to the hospital(both were inpatient stays). I can remember...
    mentalcoaster66 mentalcoaster66 22-25, M 5 Responses Sep 21, 2012

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    At the end of my Recovery Speech I quoted this,

    un medicated and alive 👿😇
    Cosmomax Cosmomax 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 21

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    Gone through hell

    Wish you know Well, call it Bipolar, call it personality, it's all caused to be. we were not born mentally ill.
    absolutehillpower absolutehillpower 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 18, 2013

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    Everyone tells me I should

    because of how bad it is at times. Along with the Depression.. It just feels like nothing will ever help me.
    MichaelClifford MichaelClifford 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    It's Not So Much That I'm Against It...

    I have been diagnosed as bipolar since the age of 15, and been on just about every medication that exists. Many different doctors have tried many different mixes and uppers and downers. I noticed, the older I got, the less able I was to feel ANY kind of feelings, good or bad...
    justforpenpals8185 justforpenpals8185 22-25, F 4 Responses May 8, 2009

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    No Help And Exams Looming

    I'm 17 and are being 'tested' for bipolar at the moment however, it hasn't been a short process. For 2 years I have been trying to get someone to listen to me, been with Camhsbwitj relatively no hope. Recently I have been on a downer with many suicidal thoughts and self harming...
    Smirkingrev Smirkingrev 16-17 2 Responses Jan 5, 2013

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    On No Meds

    I was diagnosed at 35, so 9 years ago. Diagnosis came after two suicide attempts and admitted to the hospital. Tried therapy, lots of medications including lithium. I have not been on any meds for three years but self medicate with pot on a daily basis. Use meditation,sensory...
    splitn2 splitn2 41-45, F 4 Responses Sep 11, 2012

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    Family Ties

    I was 39 when I finally got diagnosed as being Bipolar. The diagnosis was not a surprise I new my swings were not normal and used them to my advantage. I then would slump with massive depression. My relationship with my father was volitile to say the least and that because he...
    avi720 avi720 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 7, 2012

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    The Remedy For Weakness Is Not Brooding Over Weakness, But Thinking Of Strength.

    Thinking all the time that we are diseased, will not cure us; medicine is necessary. Being reminded of weakness does not help much. Give strength; and strength does not come by thinking of weakness all the time. The remedy for weakness is not brooding over weakness, but thinking...
    Abhih123 Abhih123 22-25, M Mar 6, 2013

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    Thinking About Medication

    I have been Bipolar for many years - too many. It has caused so much pain to my family and broken many relationships, always around the 2 year mark. Now I am married, been with my man nearly 3 years but he has had enough!I had an assessment today and it is recommended that I go...
    angelmisty angelmisty 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 2, 2012

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    Not Ashamed....anymore

      I am 43 and was diagnosed at 18, after what can only be called a very interesting teen-hood lol. I am one of those bi-polar people who absolutely love the manic stage..now. I have slept with countless people, drank copious amounts of alcohol, tried almost every drug out...
    tryingAGAINnomeds tryingAGAINnomeds 41-45 1 Response Dec 29, 2012

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    Starting Meds 20 Years Later

    So today I finally got to see a psychologist at a clinic to get free meds, am on Epilim & Rivotril so lets see if finally I will be more stable and balanced and perhaps not scare my husband off...Has anyone here taken this combination and come off it if so why?
    angelmisty angelmisty 31-35, F Jun 5, 2012

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    Well I Guess I Have To Leave This Group

    Today I finally got a medication evaluation. I am finally going to start taking something after all these years. The plan is to start with a sort of sleeping aid to take away the nightmares and help me wind down. Then we're going to tackle the bipolar disorder. I am relieved and...
    motherofzeno motherofzeno 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 18, 2011

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    Just Listen....

    I was recently diagnosed as Bipolar 1 at the age of 22. I was molested by 3 different ppl between the ages of 5-6 yrs old. My mom took me to therapy and went through every possible coping mechanism she could to help me. It's so crazy that all my life I thought the way I acted was...
    Aminaj Aminaj 22-25 2 Responses Jan 26, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    My meds have changed my life!! My boyfriend has even lacked interest in traveling with me due to my contagious stress in the past. But for the last six months I've been on...
    Skylerdai Skylerdai 26-30, F Nov 7

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    I don't want to take medication for my depression/anxiety. My mom and dad keep telling me I need to take medication for it so I can be like everyone else but I hate the idea of...
    ForgetThisAlready ForgetThisAlready 18-21, F Nov 4

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    I just discovered two days ago. 6 years after we started to see each other, he spat the words, angrily. It was like he hated saying it. Like it was a secret, his dirty little...
    AyanasSight AyanasSight 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 12

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    I'm sick and tired of going from manic to depression to mixed episodes. Even with medication I still go through mood swings. Not as drastic as without medication. I'm also tired of...
    Tiredofrollercoasteremotions Tiredofrollercoasteremotions 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 4

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    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder two years ago. I didn't believe it, sometimes I s don't. I've gone on and off medications because I hate the feeling of sanity. It doesn't...
    behindthesegemineyes behindthesegemineyes 18-21, F a week ago

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    Got a new doctor and met with him today and in those 5 minutes without asking me anything he completely dismissed my bipolar. Only talking about my bpd. This made me angry because...
    bananananaxo bananananaxo 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    OK, so, yes, I am and that's all fine and great. I'm also rapid cycling and that's been a huge problem these past 2 months or so. Today, well, for almost a week now, I've been...
    omgwut omgwut 41-45, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am a severe bipolar. My highs are composed of manic euphoria, ADHD, and insomnia, while my lows are chronic depression, body tremors, body memories, and anxiety. It is really...
    creativeinspiration creativeinspiration 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    So I go in to get my monthly dosage... the whole gambit of the cocktail prescribed by this doctor and that. (all with a different set of initials following their name) The...
    JLBetts JLBetts 46-50, M 1 Response Nov 1

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    It bites hard. Meds made it worse. And heart attacks on seroquel. But they can debate diagnosis. Was in phoenix. Had a doctor. He left. New doctor came. She...
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M 1 day ago

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