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I Am Bipolar Type Two

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    My Black Dog.

    I clearly remember the very first time my black dog, to use a Churchillian phrase, made its first appearance. I was twenty; my father had been killed in an industrial accident 18 months earlier and my Mum left England for a six week holiday with her brother in Sydney,Australia...
    Percy157 Percy157 56-60 Jul 14, 2013

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    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 Feb 26

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    Long Road to a Correct Diagnosis

    i've been diagnosed bipolar my whole life and as an adolecent, i was on meds from age 5 to 18. i was highly over medicated for most of my childhood and i spent 5 years of it incarserated within the juvenile system including both jails and treatment facilities. i have had many...
    lifeispoetry lifeispoetry 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 11, 2008

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    Now I Have a Better Life

    For years I thought I had simple depression.  I was unable to recognize my destructive behavior when I was in a manic state.  Of course when I came out of it I became more depressed.  It took nearly 20 years to get the proper treatment.  Though I dislike how...
    wheniwasntlooking wheniwasntlooking 36-40 4 Responses Aug 11, 2008

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    I Have BPD II

    I was always emotional as a child, prone to extreme fits of rage and depression. I attempted suicide in 8th grade. It wasn't until I was 21 yrs old and in the hospital that I was diagnosed with Bipolar II. 5 years later the way I view myself has changed, I question everything I...
    tkhaler1987 tkhaler1987 26-30 1 Response Nov 19, 2013

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    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 Nov 7, 2013

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    Don't know how I'll wake up tomorrow

    or the next day. Attract a normal man by dressing like a normal? You know how much effort it takes to look normal? A lot. Jeez and all it takes for a normal guy to drop me is one bad day. He just needs to catch me on a bad day and that's it he'll leave. He will find a normal...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F Jul 5

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    I am 30 years old, and I was just diagnosed in

    November. It has been frustrating, illuminating, wonderful, terrifying, and everything in between. Looking back at my life, so much makes sense now. I am coming to terms with the fact that this disorder has cost me a lot in the past that I can never reclaim, and I am...
    Teasaidh Teasaidh 26-30, F Apr 30

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    Turns Out I Didn't Know My Mental Health At All.

    When you spend your whole life believing you are suffering from depression, finding out it may be something different is tough. Since a very young age, I was aware that I couldn't seem to cope with the world the way everyone else could. People around me seemed happy. Content. I...
    Sarcic93 Sarcic93 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2013

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    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 Feb 26

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    Was I Born This Way?

    I started going to a psychiatrist at age 10, but it was after a lot of trauma. I sometimes wonder if it was hereditary, because my family has a long line of people with "problems" , or if its from the abuse.. like my PTSD, or if I was just born this way, and even if I had a...
    KindaSilly KindaSilly 36-40, F 6 Responses Sep 7, 2013

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    I Am Undermedicated.

    I'm at the mercy of the Arizona Long Term Care medical system and am currently suffering from under-medication because unfortunately, I  over-medicated in the past. I am in recovery now, (1 year), and proud of it. Now, however, due to the fact that I am protecting the caregiver...
    cynsroom cynsroom 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 13, 2013

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    I'm on more meds now

    that I figured it out my mood is so chilled it kinda freaks me out a little I'm so used of my emotions constantly on the run I have no idea how to feel being so mellow
    BrookeDuchanne16 BrookeDuchanne16 16-17, F May 23

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    It is debilitating much of the time.

    Bring afraid to even get out of bed in the mornings. When I stepped inside here I wasn't expecting to find (numerous) people "like me"
    dbushy dbushy 41-45, M Apr 1

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    I've been diagnosed Bipolar just recently.

    7 years ago, i have had episodes of seizure. Which are often treated with valium, i have always been short tempered and moody, i thought it was all normal. Until recently i became depressed, at first it would be once every month,i thought my hormones is causing it. The...
    tillyling tillyling 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 13, 2013

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    Is Bipolar Disorder Genetic?

    I am worried about my son. He is showing the same symptoms that I have. He is only 4, and I'm not sure what to do. I want his life to be better, he is an emotional roller coaster with a violent side. I feel like his life is passing him by because he spends so much time unhappy...
    bipolalone bipolalone 41-45, F 9 Responses Jul 26, 2012

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    My Journey....

    At 20, after I had my first child, I knew something was wrong. I felt depressed ALL the time and i was tired of putting on my happy mask. The first psychiatrist I talked to told me I had "situational depression" and that if I changed my situation I'd feel better. (sometimes I...
    Firefitersgirl Firefitersgirl 31-35, F 1 Response May 29, 2012

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    State Of The Union - April 6, 2013 - Probably Not Worth Reading

    Some of you know that in the last couple of years I lost my job and health care with the result that I had to stop taking my meds and went almost 2 years without them. You lived through the consequences with me when I went repeatedly psychotic and did bizarre things like try to...
    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 Apr 6, 2013

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    Mother May I, Poem.

    Excuse me Mother, May i talk to you? No my dear, You've done enough talking for two. Im sick of your excuses, All the blame on your mental illness, Hurry up and get over this. Everyday with you is another problem, Highs and lows.. Sit the F.ck down and slow down. You're...
    missrng missrng 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    Hey everyone. I'm 26

    and was diagnosed with BPD 2 just 2 years ago. I battle it everyday but I have found many ways to cope. First and foremost for all of you out there buy the book "mind over matter." It will help you keep your thoughts in check and see things rationally. With the methods this book...
    AliB87 AliB87 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 19

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    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 1 Response Nov 2, 2013

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    Im Bi Polar 2

    got told that years ago and then nothing happened no treatment nothing then in 2009 i ended up on a mental ward for five days after promising to bash someones head in...no one in paticular just the closest person...it was in my old shinks office and i was swinging a cane can you...
    jimtrish74 jimtrish74 51-55 May 15, 2012

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    Looking For Someone Who Understands

    Hey, everyone,I'm on a search for people who understand what it's like to be bipolar and who I can talk to. I find it difficult, even among people who have the disorder, to find someone who doesn't equate the diagnosis to "Totally Nutty and Possible Axe Murderer."Is there anyone...
    OhDaddyMmm OhDaddyMmm 36-40, M 7 Responses Feb 20, 2013

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    It's tiring I hate how my emotions just start

    to run so very high I hate having to be on meds now it makes me numb and a bit dazed I stopped for awhile but it didn't work I honestly don't know what to do anymore on or off my medication I can't be normal or the definition of normal
    BrookeDuchanne16 BrookeDuchanne16 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    I'm Bipolar Type Two

    I've been bipolar type 2 since I was 13 years old nice to get in a lot of trouble because of my temper
    fireman03 fireman03 66-70, M Jan 23, 2013

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    Bipolar Observations

    I've been talking to a few bipolar sufferers lately and made some general observations. Some of these go a long way for me in shedding light on my own problem. Some others are just curiosities. Perhaps someone, somewhere might be able to make use of these observation either in...
    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 Nov 3, 2013

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    People Just Dont Get You

    Sometimes, even on your meds, you can feel alone and deeply removed from people. There are times when you just a ******* bad day and no one gets it, there are times when you just dont want ppl around or to talk to people, but sometimes, a hug would be nice
    craving4touch craving4touch 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2013

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    Recently Diagnosed

    I was recently diagnosed with Bipolar and it was quite a hit.  I have been self medicating for years now without realizing what the ailment was.  Drank my liver to hell and had to quite drinking, whoops, found the actual problem!    The pills aren't working...
    bipolarwreck bipolarwreck 26-30 8 Responses Aug 11, 2008

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    How do I continue to exist

    and function? For to me, when I think about it, it is beyond amazing that I do. I have a vast number of rooms inside me, all separated by immense walls. In the center of each room is a mask. As the situation requires I move between rooms and don the different masks. In one I am...
    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 Mar 30

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    The First Time I Am Able To Live Life

    I've been depresssed every since i was 14 years old. i had to endure physically and mentally abuse. No matter what i did it felt like i was in hell. i just recently started taking an antidepressant (celexa 40mg) and a mood disorder pill called seroquel 200mg. Antidepressants don...
    starship33 starship33 36-40, F 10 Responses Jul 13, 2012

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    I was diagnosed bipolar II back in 2010

    or 11. It was a shock at the time. I was studying in one of my country's top universities, and I flunked it because I wouldn't go to class for some reason. I transferred, took my meds (which did nothing except turn me into an automaton), transferred again, stayed put in my third...
    fullofdharma fullofdharma 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 7

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    Mother May I

    So today I was super hypomanic. Elevated rage and energy through the roof. It was all used in non efficient ways..but nevertheless it was what it was. Then I crashed...around 6 I became sluggish and exhausted. All I wanted was sleep , beig that my kids dont go to bed that early...
    missrng missrng 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 19, 2013

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    Why Can't I Just Stay Manic?

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder afte a nervous breakdown in my thirties. It seems I fell in love during a manic episode that lasted a loooong time. Then the mania turned dark again and I wanted to roll myself up so tight until I disappeared. I would curl up in the furthest...
    bipolalone bipolalone 41-45, F 5 Responses Jul 22, 2012

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    Today I went to the doctor

    and told her everything what was going on and she said sound like bipolar disorder type to I was a little relieved finally figuring out what's also wrong with me but when I told my mother she just gave me a weird look and said something's that sound like what did I do deserve...
    BrookeDuchanne16 BrookeDuchanne16 16-17, F 1 Response May 22

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    The Problem With How We Treat Bipolar Disorder - A BP II Success Story?

    I don't know how to insert links here, or even if it's possible at all, but if you copy/paste this into your browser's address bar you should be able to get to the article:http://www.nytimes.com/2013/04/28/magazine/the-problem-with-how-we-treat-bipolar-disorder.html?pagewanted...
    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 1 Response Apr 30, 2013

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    I have a secret. I'm Bipolar Type II.

    I hide my illness as well as I can for the fear of being stigmatized by society. The word bipolar is so popular in pop-culture now that it's very common to hear someone being called bipolar if they have mood swings, or if they are two faced and act like two different people. It...
    Enaud21 Enaud21 31-35, M May 22

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    ive been misdiagnosed

    as major depressive disorder at first but then got a second opinion and they diagnosed as bipolar 2. i know that it fits me more. i have racing thoughts most days and it sucks i have hypersexuality and that makes relationships hard for me. im always looking for a high in life...
    gotguts gotguts 22-25, F Jan 10

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    The dark is there but the light is creeping in

    and I don't exactly welcome it. When it gets bad its just a prison in my mind. It is scary, familiar, and draining. Then things shift slowly and the noise in my head gets less noisy. I'm there sort of. Maybe more like I have things I have to do to live. Problem is I don't want...
    searchingfar searchingfar 22-25, F Apr 10

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    Lost

    Fighting your own mind is a battle everyday. I never know how I'm gonna feel tomorrow and it's tragic . I am struggling immensely. Mentally and physically. I can't cope. I'm drained. Sometimes I'm so happy and other times I can't stand to be in my own skin another minute. I hate...
    inkedmommy inkedmommy 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 20, 2013

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    I am currently frustrated.

    I asked my mother if she has ever met anybody who was full blown Bipolar and she said people in her generation don't go around broadcasting it. I said "well you were my age once" and i said i had only met one person, who is actually my friend. Then she went on this rant about...
    missrng missrng 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    20 Years!

    I was recently diagnosed as bipolar after 20 years of being misdiagnosed. 20 years of bad relationships, destructive behavior & severe depression is a long time. I wish I had known I was bipolar long ago. I feel my disease has affected so many lives especially my children.
    gatorgirl013 gatorgirl013 36-40, F 3 Responses Apr 4, 2013

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    A Lesson From The Battle Against BP

    this lesson is from my struggle with BP. I do not guarantee it applies to anyone else's struggle because I know no one else's specifics besides my own but I think i know mine well enough.My battle against this insidious monster is all about control. I struggle constantly to...
    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 1 Response Nov 3, 2013

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    This Week...

    This week, I am full of hopeful emotion. I feel so fantastic that it is scary. Scary, because I know that soon this feeling will crash and burn, and along with it, those feelings of overwhelming sadness and depression will return. Yes, I do despise this disorder.
    massivesoulache massivesoulache 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 23, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I Love Somebody Who Has Bipolar Disorder Nineteen years ago - at about this time of the year - my brother made a suicide attempt. Thank all the gods, he had second thoughts and...
    SmartKat SmartKat 46-50, F 2 Responses Jul 1

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    My boyfriend is 17 and is bipolar ( and has hypopituitarism we both have just found out ) but didn't tell me at the time what type of bipolar he is etc he kept saying how it's his...
    lela201465 lela201465 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 7

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    My boyfriend is 17 and is bipolar ( and has hypopituitarism we both have just found out ) but didn't tell me at the time what type of bipolar he is etc he kept saying how it's his...
    lela201465 lela201465 16-17, F Jul 10

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    Do people with bipolar show the symptom of obsession? I have racing thoughts going through my mind, trembling hands, headaches, it's hard to fall asleep and I don't feel like I...
    Whitecharcoal Whitecharcoal 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 4

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    I think I may be bipolar! I thought this many years ago and denyied it to myself thinking I didn't want to be a mood swing, depressed, occasional succiacidal thought type person...
    lostboy0 lostboy0 31-35, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Here are top 10 home remedies for Bipolar Disorder. 1. Fish Oil Fish oil rich in Omega 3 fatty acids is one of the few things that can help in the treatment of bipolar disorder...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    Here are top 10 home remedies for Bipolar Disorder. 1. Fish Oil Fish oil rich in Omega 3 fatty acids is one of the few things that can help in the treatment of bipolar disorder...
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    Here are top 10 home remedies for Bipolar Disorder. 1. Fish Oil Fish oil rich in Omega 3 fatty acids is one of the few things that can help in the treatment of bipolar disorder...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F Jul 3

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    I'm in the hospital now because my symptoms got too out of control to manage. I was diagnosed in October 2013 and started lithium. A month later I started on my anti-psychotic...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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