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I Am Bipolar Type Two

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    How Bad Can It Get?

    I just lost my health insurance.  Gone as of June 1st. To make things interesting, going through depression right now.  No money for copay to see doctor or therapist.  I still have meds but that will run out soon so instead of taking the full dosage, I've been...
    AGeminisTwin AGeminisTwin 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 4, 2010

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    Im Bi Polar 2

    got told that years ago and then nothing happened no treatment nothing then in 2009 i ended up on a mental ward for five days after promising to bash someones head in...no one in paticular just the closest person...it was in my old shinks office and i was swinging a cane can you...
    jimtrish74 jimtrish74 51-55 May 15, 2012

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    Me

    Just recently I was dignosed as bipolar type II. My doctor at the VA Medical Center in Orange Park, Fl made the dignoisis after a through review of my past suicide attemts and my history. He uped the doses on my medication which are Lomotrigne, Zolpidem, Triazadone and Prozac. I...
    kimberlyann12345 kimberlyann12345 56-60 Mar 17, 2013

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    How do I continue to exist

    and function? For to me, when I think about it, it is beyond amazing that I do. I have a vast number of rooms inside me, all separated by immense walls. In the center of each room is a mask. As the situation requires I move between rooms and don the different masks. In one I am...
    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 Mar 30

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    Why Can't I Just Stay Manic?

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder afte a nervous breakdown in my thirties. It seems I fell in love during a manic episode that lasted a loooong time. Then the mania turned dark again and I wanted to roll myself up so tight until I disappeared. I would curl up in the furthest...
    bipolalone bipolalone 41-45, F 5 Responses Jul 22, 2012

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    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 1 Response Nov 2, 2013

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    State Of The Union - April 6, 2013 - Probably Not Worth Reading

    Some of you know that in the last couple of years I lost my job and health care with the result that I had to stop taking my meds and went almost 2 years without them. You lived through the consequences with me when I went repeatedly psychotic and did bizarre things like try to...
    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 Apr 6, 2013

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    My Journey....

    At 20, after I had my first child, I knew something was wrong. I felt depressed ALL the time and i was tired of putting on my happy mask. The first psychiatrist I talked to told me I had "situational depression" and that if I changed my situation I'd feel better. (sometimes I...
    Firefitersgirl Firefitersgirl 31-35, F 1 Response May 29, 2012

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    Mother May I, Poem.

    Excuse me Mother, May i talk to you? No my dear, You've done enough talking for two. Im sick of your excuses, All the blame on your mental illness, Hurry up and get over this. Everyday with you is another problem, Highs and lows.. Sit the F.ck down and slow down. You're...
    missrng missrng 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 20, 2013

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    Long Road to a Correct Diagnosis

    i've been diagnosed bipolar my whole life and as an adolecent, i was on meds from age 5 to 18. i was highly over medicated for most of my childhood and i spent 5 years of it incarserated within the juvenile system including both jails and treatment facilities. i have had many...
    lifeispoetry lifeispoetry 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 11, 2008

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    I've been diagnosed Bipolar just recently.

    7 years ago, i have had episodes of seizure. Which are often treated with valium, i have always been short tempered and moody, i thought it was all normal. Until recently i became depressed, at first it would be once every month,i thought my hormones is causing it. The...
    tillyling tillyling 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 13, 2013

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    ive been misdiagnosed

    as major depressive disorder at first but then got a second opinion and they diagnosed as bipolar 2. i know that it fits me more. i have racing thoughts most days and it sucks i have hypersexuality and that makes relationships hard for me. im always looking for a high in life...
    gotguts gotguts 22-25, F Jan 10

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    Wellbutrin Xl and Anger

      I've been taking Wellbutrin XL since April and have just recently felt this uncontrolable anger.  This is unusual for me, even when I'm depressed.  I did some research on the net and found that this is a common side-effect.  Just when I thought I found the...
    AGeminisTwin AGeminisTwin 36-40, F 9 Responses Jul 10, 2009

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    A Lesson From The Battle Against BP

    this lesson is from my struggle with BP. I do not guarantee it applies to anyone else's struggle because I know no one else's specifics besides my own but I think i know mine well enough.My battle against this insidious monster is all about control. I struggle constantly to...
    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 1 Response Nov 3, 2013

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    20 Years!

    I was recently diagnosed as bipolar after 20 years of being misdiagnosed. 20 years of bad relationships, destructive behavior & severe depression is a long time. I wish I had known I was bipolar long ago. I feel my disease has affected so many lives especially my children.
    gatorgirl013 gatorgirl013 36-40, F 3 Responses Apr 4, 2013

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    I am currently frustrated.

    I asked my mother if she has ever met anybody who was full blown Bipolar and she said people in her generation don't go around broadcasting it. I said "well you were my age once" and i said i had only met one person, who is actually my friend. Then she went on this rant about...
    missrng missrng 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    Looking For Someone Who Understands

    Hey, everyone,I'm on a search for people who understand what it's like to be bipolar and who I can talk to. I find it difficult, even among people who have the disorder, to find someone who doesn't equate the diagnosis to "Totally Nutty and Possible Axe Murderer."Is there anyone...
    OhDaddyMmm OhDaddyMmm 36-40, M 7 Responses Feb 20, 2013

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    More Bs Psychobabble

    I am tired of being treated like a car that comes with a manual. "Criterion A vs. Criterion B" "Axis 1 vs. Axis 2" "Type 1 vs. Type 2" "A-Typical vs. Typical" "Major vs. Minor" etc etc etc etc! This is...
    interplanetaryenvy interplanetaryenvy 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 30, 2009

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    I Have BPD II

    I was always emotional as a child, prone to extreme fits of rage and depression. I attempted suicide in 8th grade. It wasn't until I was 21 yrs old and in the hospital that I was diagnosed with Bipolar II. 5 years later the way I view myself has changed, I question everything I...
    tkhaler1987 tkhaler1987 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 19, 2013

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    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 Feb 26

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    Bipolar Since 2004

    I was diagnosed with type II bipolar in October 2004. What a chaotic life I've had. I fought with my wife about so much stuff.  I overspent and that made her so mad.  I had religious experiences and thought I knew what God wanted me to do.  In July, I went to jail for a...
    hangarnd4u hangarnd4u 41-45, M Feb 11, 2013

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    Turns Out I Didn't Know My Mental Health At All.

    When you spend your whole life believing you are suffering from depression, finding out it may be something different is tough. Since a very young age, I was aware that I couldn't seem to cope with the world the way everyone else could. People around me seemed happy. Content. I...
    Sarcic93 Sarcic93 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2013

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    Bipolar Observations

    I've been talking to a few bipolar sufferers lately and made some general observations. Some of these go a long way for me in shedding light on my own problem. Some others are just curiosities. Perhaps someone, somewhere might be able to make use of these observation either in...
    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 Nov 3, 2013

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    The dark is there but the light is creeping in

    and I don't exactly welcome it. When it gets bad its just a prison in my mind. It is scary, familiar, and draining. Then things shift slowly and the noise in my head gets less noisy. I'm there sort of. Maybe more like I have things I have to do to live. Problem is I don't want...
    searchingfar searchingfar 22-25, F Apr 10

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    Hey everyone. I'm 26

    and was diagnosed with BPD 2 just 2 years ago. I battle it everyday but I have found many ways to cope. First and foremost for all of you out there buy the book "mind over matter." It will help you keep your thoughts in check and see things rationally. With the methods this book...
    AliB87 AliB87 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 19

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    Is Bipolar Disorder Genetic?

    I am worried about my son. He is showing the same symptoms that I have. He is only 4, and I'm not sure what to do. I want his life to be better, he is an emotional roller coaster with a violent side. I feel like his life is passing him by because he spends so much time unhappy...
    bipolalone bipolalone 41-45, F 9 Responses Jul 26, 2012

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    This Week...

    This week, I am full of hopeful emotion. I feel so fantastic that it is scary. Scary, because I know that soon this feeling will crash and burn, and along with it, those feelings of overwhelming sadness and depression will return. Yes, I do despise this disorder.
    massivesoulache massivesoulache 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 23, 2013

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    Now I Have a Better Life

    For years I thought I had simple depression.  I was unable to recognize my destructive behavior when I was in a manic state.  Of course when I came out of it I became more depressed.  It took nearly 20 years to get the proper treatment.  Though I dislike how...
    wheniwasntlooking wheniwasntlooking 36-40 4 Responses Aug 11, 2008

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    The First Time I Am Able To Live Life

    I've been depresssed every since i was 14 years old. i had to endure physically and mentally abuse. No matter what i did it felt like i was in hell. i just recently started taking an antidepressant (celexa 40mg) and a mood disorder pill called seroquel 200mg. Antidepressants don...
    starship33 starship33 36-40, F 10 Responses Jul 13, 2012

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    Was I Born This Way?

    I started going to a psychiatrist at age 10, but it was after a lot of trauma. I sometimes wonder if it was hereditary, because my family has a long line of people with "problems" , or if its from the abuse.. like my PTSD, or if I was just born this way, and even if I had a...
    KindaSilly KindaSilly 36-40, F 6 Responses Sep 7, 2013

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    Lost

    Fighting your own mind is a battle everyday. I never know how I'm gonna feel tomorrow and it's tragic . I am struggling immensely. Mentally and physically. I can't cope. I'm drained. Sometimes I'm so happy and other times I can't stand to be in my own skin another minute. I hate...
    inkedmommy inkedmommy 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 20, 2013

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    I Am Undermedicated.

    I'm at the mercy of the Arizona Long Term Care medical system and am currently suffering from under-medication because unfortunately, I  over-medicated in the past. I am in recovery now, (1 year), and proud of it. Now, however, due to the fact that I am protecting the caregiver...
    cynsroom cynsroom 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 13, 2013

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    My Black Dog.

    I clearly remember the very first time my black dog, to use a Churchillian phrase, made its first appearance. I was twenty; my father had been killed in an industrial accident 18 months earlier and my Mum left England for a six week holiday with her brother in Sydney,Australia...
    Percy157 Percy157 56-60 Jul 14, 2013

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    I was diagnosed bipolar II back in 2010

    or 11. It was a shock at the time. I was studying in one of my country's top universities, and I flunked it because I wouldn't go to class for some reason. I transferred, took my meds (which did nothing except turn me into an automaton), transferred again, stayed put in my third...
    fullofdharma fullofdharma 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 7

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    The Problem With How We Treat Bipolar Disorder - A BP II Success Story?

    I don't know how to insert links here, or even if it's possible at all, but if you copy/paste this into your browser's address bar you should be able to get to the article:http://www.nytimes.com/2013/04/28/magazine/the-problem-with-how-we-treat-bipolar-disorder.html?pagewanted...
    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 1 Response Apr 30, 2013

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    Just Me

    I have bipolar one and two. And its sad cuz I have amazing. Kids that at time I can't do for like want I stay.depressed don't have friend and I'm 28 and a.single..mom there I feel alone and like there no way out
    1 Response Feb 4, 2013

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    Mother May I

    So today I was super hypomanic. Elevated rage and energy through the roof. It was all used in non efficient ways..but nevertheless it was what it was. Then I crashed...around 6 I became sluggish and exhausted. All I wanted was sleep , beig that my kids dont go to bed that early...
    missrng missrng 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 19, 2013

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    Depression That Wouldn't Go Away

    I was diagnosed with Bipolar type II after the birth of my 2nd daughter. I had postpartum depression and was trialed on every antidepressant out there and none worked. We even tried Abilify, Seroquel, and lithium. Eventually, the only thing that worked was a Paxil...
    borderlinemama borderlinemama 31-35 2 Responses Nov 11, 2008

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    It is debilitating much of the time.

    Bring afraid to even get out of bed in the mornings. When I stepped inside here I wasn't expecting to find (numerous) people "like me"
    dbushy dbushy 41-45, M Apr 1

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    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 Nov 7, 2013

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    Bipolar Type II

    I found out I was bipolar type two over a year and half ago.  I had thought I suffered from PTSD, Depression and Anxiety.  Because of the signs of bipolar I finally told my pdoc that I thought I was bipolar.  Well after much talk she agreed.   I've been...
    dixiediva dixiediva 36-40 Sep 26, 2008

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    I think I have Bipolar Disorder (I not consulted a psychologist but I have all symptoms of bipolar ), also i have a bit of a problem with social anxiety. I have so many mood swings...
    Ovidiu91 Ovidiu91 22-25, M 3 hrs ago

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    My boyfriend is 17 and is bipolar we have a long distance relationship and I love him so much he is the first guy I have ever felt this strong about. I am bisexual so to fall for...
    deadspiritied deadspiritied 13-15, F Mar 30

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    I have Bipolar. Medication is needed just to maintain the title 'normal'. Average teenager? Try, average Bipolar teen. If I accidentally mix a dosage of my medication I will go...
    morganmavina morganmavina 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    I am not sure I like the title of this experience. I do have bipolar disorder. I was diagnosed at 21 with bipolar disorder, and have been struggling with my diagnosis, and...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F Mar 23

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    I am suffering from manic depression.I have been depressed for almost my whole entire life it is destroying important relationships.I have too many mental illnesses I was in denial...
    xxsadisticbitchxx xxsadisticbitchxx 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 23

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    Most days, when I was younger, I knew I was different in many ways. Right now I'm diagnosed with four mental disorders(yay me not 😒) and bipolar was the last one I found out...
    Audrina14 Audrina14 13-15, F Mar 28

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    I'm bipolar and it sucks major ****. I'm limited to what I can and can't do because of the way I feel all the time. My mood changes so rapidly and its taking over my life. My...
    bxttlebxrn bxttlebxrn 16-17, F Apr 6

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    I have a bipolar partner. We are both 19 and in 6th form. Its difficult to describe the disorder and how its taken a toll on our relationship. But I can try, this is not a self...
    anonymous1104 anonymous1104 18-21 Apr 11

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    I just recently discovered that I had bipolar disorder I was feel really down and having issues with my meds and my mom decided to take me to a phycyatrist, I'm so thankful to this...
    Ginger387 Ginger387 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    i was diagnosed when i was only 13. but i dont feel any different from other people. well maybe i do... i knew other people didnt constanty feel depressed, or so hyper they thought...
    BlankCanvas22 BlankCanvas22 13-15, F Mar 29

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    All right, I know people come on here to either wine, or try to think about nothing but sunshine and rainbows...no offense, being positive and hopeful is good for moral.... but i...
    Dayzdreamer Dayzdreamer 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 3

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