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I Am Bipolar

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    Finnaly havin those days

    where you don't get mood swings 8) . Yuuuusssss this moment was a long time coming . I don't know how lonng that'll last though xD .
    Mihkowakayios Mihkowakayios 13-15, M 4 Responses Aug 4

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    I say stupid and do stupid things then regret

    them after . Why u do dis (:'( .
    MisledS0ul MisledS0ul 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 25

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    Bipolar is not psychotic I was first diagnosed

    with just depression & anxiety when i left home for college. Got on antidepressant meds. Didnt stay consistent with the meds til i was older. Once the meds were making steady improvement my new doctor thought i was having mania symptoms because i talked about some unrealistic...
    sum1ab sum1ab 46-50, F 1 Response May 26

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    I'm Kristie, and I am Bi-polar/Manic Depressive.

    The reason why I am joining a forum is so that I can connect with people who are similar to me, and so I can relate to what they're going through. I know you are probably wondering why I just don't go to a therapist, right? Well, to be honest; I would rather talk to strangers...
    kbirchy89 kbirchy89 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 17

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    It's 2 am...I have to work at 6.

    Another 10 hour day. My brain just won't stop. Chain smoking, writing, obsessing. Sleepless...hypomanic...anxious about what tomorrow will bring...just wanting it to stop...tired of medication changes, side effects, the proverbial mood roller coaster. Meds are making things at...
    kiragirl79 kiragirl79 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    Ok there is no doubt this is a challenging

    illness but here are the great traits bpers have IMHO1) we are in the same class as: Sting, Russel Brand, DMX, Princess Lea (Carrie Fisher), Mathew Good, Linda Hamilton( terminator!), Mel Gibson ( ok he's a little out there) Jack Irons (former drummer Red hot chili peppers...
    wiseprotector wiseprotector 41-45, M 4 Responses Jun 18

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    I Am Not Bipolar, I Have Bipolar

    I want to start by explaining my story title. If you have Diabetes you are not Diabetes, you have Diabetes. Similarly I am not Bipolar, I have Bipolar. My story starts when I was very young, so I have no idea if I was born with Bipolar, or just developed it later. I can...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 7, 2012

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    Zoewithoutthei Zoewithoutthei 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    Don't you hate when you really need someone

    there but everyone around you doesn't seem like a comforting option at the moment? I hate feeling this way.
    biplanepolarair biplanepolarair 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I get very very high

    and then I crash. I hate when I crash.
    lovelinessbathes lovelinessbathes 31-35, M 3 Responses Apr 7

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    It'S Who I Am !

    Learned I was bipolar about 3yrs ago I'm very different as I allways knew but sorta good way. I will try to make anyone laugh smile fit in. I'm prolly to open with life I will spill my guts to whoever will listen. I will try to find the good in anyone till prove me wrong. I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 27, 2013

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    I was diagnosed bipolar 2 months ago

    after having a breakdown of epic proportions, deciding to end it all, and waiting on the train tracks at 3 in the morning. I've been bipolar all my life as so many have joked in the past so having a chemical imbalance is hardly reason to blame for the epic meltdown but it did...
    johnnyringo23 johnnyringo23 31-35, M 2 Responses Jun 4

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    I was recently diagnosed with bipolar II

    after finally seeing a therapist after years of weighing the pros and cons. Funny because my questionable decision making and procrastination are both symptoms of the disorder. Lately I've been in the depressed stage (for about a month now) and every time that stage comes it...
    biplanepolarair biplanepolarair 22-25, M 3 Responses Aug 12

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    Crazy Mania

    SO. When I was 20 I started to believe I had stumbled across some new found intelligence. Slowly but surely I began to think I was capable of reading minds, or telepathy if you will, and that I was gifted with supernatural powers. I gradually began to not sleep... I think m...
    Blind3rdEye Blind3rdEye 22-25, F 14 Responses May 28, 2009

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    I was diagnosed as being Bipolar in 2011

    after having a manic episode that left my house in ruins. The events that took place that faithful afternoon are to painful to write about. The pain is as raw then as it is now. I've been hospitalised three times since. Sometimes I struggle with depression and the battle...
    hustlernheels hustlernheels 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 8

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    Sure wish I had someone to talk to.

    My brain is driving me crazy...
    kiragirl79 kiragirl79 26-30, F 6 Responses Aug 15

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    Bipolar Bares All! Film At 11:00!

    I'm Bipolar all right, I certainly don't make a secret of it.  I wrote a memoir of Manic Depression which I continue to flog with the annoying insistence of a child tugging on a parent's pant leg.  I've lectured on it at universities and medical schools.  I've...
    ElLagarto ElLagarto 56-60, M 12 Responses Jul 12, 2007

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    Wow!! Check this out.

    A New Depression/bipolar treatment. Interesting !! http://news.harvard.edu/gazette/story/2014/07/new-treatment-for-depression-shows-immediate-results/
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 29

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    Being a Bipolar Student

    I have been officially diagnosed as being Bipolar I for a little over three years. As I have gotten older my symptoms and cycles have continually progressed and become more difficult to control or recognize. Luckily, I have an amazingly supportive family, and I have been...
    themanicmind themanicmind 22-25, F 12 Responses Mar 2, 2009

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    I truly HATE the suicidal ideation

    that comes along with this mental health disease. It amazes me how our minds trick ourselves into thinking we are a "lost cause". "It will always be this way" and "it won't get better " Hollar if you hear me !
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 4 Responses Jul 14

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    I'm in the hospital now

    because my symptoms got too out of control to manage. I was diagnosed in October 2013 and started lithium. A month later I started on my anti-psychotic, risperidone. These were the only two meds I was taking until I went through a period of depression so bad that I ended up in...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    I have a secret. I'm Bipolar Type II.

    I hide my illness as well as I can for the fear of being stigmatized by society. The word bipolar is so popular in pop-culture now that it's very common to hear someone being called bipolar if they have mood swings, or if they are two faced and act like two different people. It...
    Enaud21 Enaud21 31-35, M 3 Responses May 22

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    I thought it was normal to have panic attacks.

    I thought it was normal to talk to voices inside my head in a panic attack. I thought it was normal to experience hypokinesis when I'm stressed. I thought it was normal to be hypersexual sometimes. I thought it was normal to hate myself and distrust everyone else. So I...
    Whitecharcoal Whitecharcoal 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 1

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    La-la-love Latuda! I truly

    and honestly believed that I was never going to get better. I had had success with Lamictal and Geodon as far as controlling the mania and mixed episodes, but I still suffered from totally and completely crippling depression and anxiety. We had tried everything short of ECT...
    SeaOfMonsters SeaOfMonsters 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 21

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    Wish My Brain Would Shut The Hell Up!

    Yep...i'm bipolar.  Bipolar 1, manic depressive if we want to get clinical.  It royally sucks.  Can't really put a sugar coating on what it is.  I was diagnosed right before I started a 2 year prison sentence.  I'd embezzled mass amounts of money from a company I had worked...
    m2extreme m2extreme 31-35, F 13 Responses Apr 26, 2011

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    I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder

    when I was 20. I'm 22 now, and I know and any one that knows me, knows that there's been something wrong with me my whole life. It really progressed when I was 13/14. In my manic states I would feel like the happiest person on the planet, not a thing or a person could bring me...
    UnstableSammi UnstableSammi 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    There's a sad *** polar bear

    as the stock image for this and it's depressing as hell
    panthrax00 panthrax00 16-17, M Aug 4

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    Robin Williams tragic passing reminds the world

    bipolar disorder is a serious mental illness. I have bipolar & will answer any question you have in my recovery experience. It ain't all Silverlining Playbook folks
    wiseprotector wiseprotector 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 12

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    Acceptance

    I am a diagnosed BiPolar II. And also dual diagnosis with many other associated types of dissorders, anxiety-panic-border personality-etc.    I was diagnosed at 16 but went off meds at about 18. I am now 31 and only last year have sought help for these issues. Am...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 15 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    I live my life day to day.

    I don't know how I'll feel tomorrow and don't have a say in it either. I'm frightened to see what my mental state will produce the next day. The medication isn't working for me (perhaps I haven't found the right cocktail) or maybe medication isn't right for me. I had an...
    Whitecharcoal Whitecharcoal 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 12

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    I Have an Illness One you cannot see - it's

    invisible unless you know where to look One you cannot hear - unless you listen very closely One you cannot feel - unless you truly know the person who's suffering or have been there yourself I was diagnosed with major depression and anxiety back in 2009, then bipolar...
    SaturnSenshi SaturnSenshi 26-30, F 5 Responses Mar 2

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    Lamictal ! Just had a great meeting with my

    Doc. Was only diagnosed about 2 months ago with bipolar 2 and put on lamictal 50mg.. And she upped it to 100mgs. Hopeful and Prayerful for better results Anybody else on lamictal ??? Love to hear your experiences
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 8 Responses Jul 24

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    I hate being so talkative

    and energetic but i also hate being depressed and down . Neither is good for me ( manic state makes you say and do stupid things .) ...
    Mihkowakayios Mihkowakayios 13-15, M 3 Responses Aug 5

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    Bipolar, But Without The Fun

    I've been diagnosed with Bipolar II, which they tell me is bipolar with only mild mania, but deeper depressions. Who knows if that's what I truly am, I've been misdiagnosed so many times, but it seems true. I've been coming down from a slight manic run, and the depression is...
    shygrl85 shygrl85 22-25, F 14 Responses Feb 15, 2010

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    Was reading symptoms of bipolar ,

    and everything falls into place nicely .
    Eugenie97 Eugenie97 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 1

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    A Short Narrative of a Manic Episode

        I was walking up to my high school’s football field as all of the school stood in the bleachers waiting for me but I had come up from behind to where the cheerleaders and dance team were. I remember one girl yelling, “Hey Scott...
    Scottsimdb Scottsimdb 18-21 33 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    Got taken off one of my medications,

    ahh let the weight loss begin
    bananananaxo bananananaxo 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 8

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    Another manic night. Hopefully I can at least

    focus at work today. It's 4 am and I'm wide awake. Yesterday the thoughts were rushing through my mind so fast that I couldn't stay on task.
    kiragirl79 kiragirl79 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Sometimes I just break down crying

    for no reason at all...
    wolfiescrewlife wolfiescrewlife 13-15, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm Bipolar, Not A Killer.

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about 7 years ago.  My meds have changed several times and the stuff I’m taking right now seems to be doing its job with minimal side effects.  My only problem is my family, they…treat me differently now, like they...
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F 153 Responses Jun 6, 2010

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    Being bipolar is driving me crazy :/ medication

    and therapy didn't help. I feel like ill never have an actually normal life like i will always just be trapped in the never ending cycle.. Nothing helps i just want to feel normal :(
    StephsReality StephsReality 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 9

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    Mood has gone super down sleeping my days away

    im forgetting what day it is, nobody to talk to, when will i start to feel normal?
    Sazfantaz Sazfantaz 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    I M Bipolar

    Without medication i have racing speech, anxiety attacks, i wont sleep, and have lots of energy. I am taking meds and they are working for me. I go to a support group call DBSA (depression, bipolar support alliance) . I have friends that understand my mental illness. The...
    starship33 starship33 36-40, F 8 Responses Nov 6, 2012

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    I go through stages of severe depression.

    I don't get out of bed, I don't eat, I cry a lot and sometimes I forget to take a shower. I just let the days blur. Other times I go through stages of euphoria and insomnia. I don't see a reason to sleep. Other times I am irritable and agitated at the same time. I can chew your...
    icecoldqueen613 icecoldqueen613 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    Hey guys. I just wanted to ask you

    if you've ever had the same problem and, if you have, what you've done to deal with it. For the past week or so I've been mostly alright - during the day. But when night comes and as the hours wear on I seem to get less and less hopeful and rational. I'm not sure if I'm just...
    biplanepolarair biplanepolarair 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I got fired today for taking too much of my

    paid leave. I had an understanding with my boss that I could modify my schedule to address my health and see my doctors and therapists, but HR had a different opinion and felt that although I was great at my job and met all the requirements of the position (and then some, IMHO...
    kittiestface kittiestface 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    Crashing..

    I welcome you like I welcome an old familiar enemy. I know you all too well, you are a part of me. Whenever I go through a period filled with energy and initiative, you are there. Always. To bring me back to reality, to keep me from having fun and enjoying life. It's time again...
    livingalieforsolong livingalieforsolong 31-35 6 Responses Jul 29, 2013

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    I have no idea what is happening anymore.

    I am not medicated for Bipolar II and I never have been. Recently, I was prescribed Lexapro 10 mg for some depression that was caused by a brain injury I had. Like a textbook case, it triggered the craziest hypomania I have ever experienced. I've barely been sleeping and I've...
    lizpurc925 lizpurc925 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 9

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    I hate when people say "stop acting bipolar" .

    .. BP is an illness. People seem to think that we have complete control over our moods. You would never think to tell someone who has for instance, epilepsy, to "stop having seizures." What is wrong with people? Ugh. SO frustrating. /rant
    blazeee blazeee 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 12

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    What can I say.. I'm a yoyo!

    But I've been given a label. It's not ideal trying to cope without the lithium but it gave me terrible side effects! Anyone else cope un medicated?
    DaviidBeckhaam DaviidBeckhaam 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 7

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    The Gifts Of Bipolar

    What is the nature of disability? What does the idea mean? It is a statistical concept, I think. Which is to say, it is a measure of comparison. We can only be “disabled” in comparison to a group of others who have more ability on this particular measure. Everyone can be...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 13 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    What I Miss About Being Crazy!

    Almost five years ago I was diagnosed as bipolar. Or was I diagnosed with bipolar disorder? Is there a real difference between saying I’m bipolar and saying I have bipolar disorder? I mean, semantically, you can see one as a label for me and the other as the label for a...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 1 Response Sep 26, 2012

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    I am bipolar and it effects my life I can't do

    what other people do when my meds aren't working there is a lot of drama I don't always know what to say or do I am tired of being this way I want to move on with my life so bad but something always holds me back it not right so I am going to try and not let anyone hold me back...
    guinness26 guinness26 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 9

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