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    I was hospitalized for the red flags signs of

    suicide. The police had to escort me to the hospital. After accessed I was later released. I am ashamed to be this way. The problem was the need that the police had to detain me for my safety. The police were very kind with me. I started crying when he told me he had guns...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 8

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    A Short Narrative of a Manic Episode

        I was walking up to my high school’s football field as all of the school stood in the bleachers waiting for me but I had come up from behind to where the cheerleaders and dance team were. I remember one girl yelling, “Hey Scott...
    Scottsimdb Scottsimdb 18-21 34 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    smeshma smeshma 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    My Mother Claims That I'm Just Slavic.

    My mom's 100% Polish.  She says that Slavs just have mood swings.  I think I'm bipolar, but she doesn't believe in psychological illnesses.  I know that I'm old enough to go to a doctor and get diagnosed for myself, but I still live under my parents' thumbs while...
    Chanteuse1984 Chanteuse1984 26-30, F 10 Responses Jun 6, 2007

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    Bipolar Bares All! Film At 11:00!

    I'm Bipolar all right, I certainly don't make a secret of it.  I wrote a memoir of Manic Depression which I continue to flog with the annoying insistence of a child tugging on a parent's pant leg.  I've lectured on it at universities and medical schools.  I've...
    ElLagarto ElLagarto 56-60, M 12 Responses Jul 12, 2007

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    I am bipolar, I always knew it

    but was officially diagnosed with type 1 and 2,a month ago. it's really intense so I do take medication for it.I still get agitated sometimes but they do work. I haven't had a manic episode or been depressed. bipolar disorder is a real mental illness, I hate when people are just...
    FantasyKitty FantasyKitty 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    The trouble everybody knows

    or thinks Im crazy and wants to lock me up. Things are going so good today. I know anywhere I go I will not be understood for being anything more than mad. It is so lonely when Im feel this way.
    grgbyce968 grgbyce968 56-60, M 2 Responses Apr 10

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    mellowwwave mellowwwave 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2014

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    I see why I'm really sick,

    I stopped nutritional supplements and the sudden change made me sick. Solution get back to what was really working. All the meds were only working a half day. It just shows psychotropic medication is a ineffective solution.
    grgbyce968 grgbyce968 56-60, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I lay in my bed staring at the ceiling.

    Everyone's voices sound so far away. My eyelids are heavy and I am curled in a ball. I can't move. I have go be still. If I am still nothing bad can happen. If I move the trail of fog and hatred will follow me like a shadow. I won't let it follow me. It consumes me too much . it...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 5

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    I am no longer am going to let people make feel

    bad about bipolar. I and poor of and love men and women who have lived successfully with it. There is so much a pain that we know the only way is to release it and move on. We can be the kindest gentlest people. Can't stand the stigma out there and people thinking that they are...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 30

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    It'S Who I Am !

    Learned I was bipolar about 3yrs ago I'm very different as I allways knew but sorta good way. I will try to make anyone laugh smile fit in. I'm prolly to open with life I will spill my guts to whoever will listen. I will try to find the good in anyone till prove me wrong. I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 27, 2013

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    What no one seems to talk much about is

    that there's a kind of psychological purgatory that exists somewhere in between the high points and the end of your rope. Those moments when you want to do nothing more than to run from yourself! We have a laundry list of triggers that catapult the slide into what feels like an...
    honestcloud honestcloud 26-30, F Oct 2, 2014

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    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Mar 27

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    The doctors and therapist want to hospitalize me

    because I see and speak to spirits. I know they are not harm full so going to churches they tell me there demons. I don't believe this at all. The psychiatrist are the thought police not allowing me to believe what I feel is true. At least these spirits I don't feel alone take...
    grgbyce968 grgbyce968 56-60, M 1 Response Apr 10

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    Acceptance

    I am a diagnosed BiPolar II. And also dual diagnosis with many other associated types of dissorders, anxiety-panic-border personality-etc.    I was diagnosed at 16 but went off meds at about 18. I am now 31 and only last year have sought help for these issues. Am...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 15 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    Let me start the post by saying thank you to

    BrokenOneX here on ep. She said she suspects I'm bipolar so I did some research and I have more than enough signs proving her statement. I also found out my father and grandfather are bipolar and it's genetic. Now I'm aware of it and know what I need to fix next time I see a...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 6 Responses Dec 7, 2014

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    Bipolar

    I was first diagnosed with bipolar disorder at age 18. I was having a bible study with my girlfriend and her family when all of a sudden my personality just went from 0 to 60. I was super happy and energetic. I felt great. On my way home I was talking to people and even myself...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    I Have an Illness One you cannot see - it's

    invisible unless you know where to look One you cannot hear - unless you listen very closely One you cannot feel - unless you truly know the person who's suffering or have been there yourself I was diagnosed with major depression and anxiety back in 2009, then bipolar...
    Aelfwynn Aelfwynn 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 2, 2014

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    Does anyone take lamictil?

    I upped my dose to 100 mg a week ago and I have been having crying spells everyday and so depressed I don't want to get out of bed. I have been told by many to give it time and I have also heard the drug has worked wonders I just want other peoples experiences.
    final666 final666 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    I've been off my meds

    and been doing crazy things.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 30

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    Wish My Brain Would Shut The Hell Up!

    Yep...i'm bipolar.  Bipolar 1, manic depressive if we want to get clinical.  It royally sucks.  Can't really put a sugar coating on what it is.  I was diagnosed right before I started a 2 year prison sentence.  I'd embezzled mass amounts of money from a company I had worked...
    m2extreme m2extreme 31-35, F 13 Responses Apr 26, 2011

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    I M Bipolar

    Without medication i have racing speech, anxiety attacks, i wont sleep, and have lots of energy. I am taking meds and they are working for me. I go to a support group call DBSA (depression, bipolar support alliance) . I have friends that understand my mental illness. The...
    starship33 starship33 36-40, F 8 Responses Nov 6, 2012

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    I Am Not Bipolar, I Have Bipolar

    I want to start by explaining my story title. If you have Diabetes you are not Diabetes, you have Diabetes. Similarly I am not Bipolar, I have Bipolar. My story starts when I was very young, so I have no idea if I was born with Bipolar, or just developed it later. I can...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M Sep 7, 2012

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    I'm Bipolar, Not A Killer.

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about 7 years ago.  My meds have changed several times and the stuff I’m taking right now seems to be doing its job with minimal side effects.  My only problem is my family, they…treat me differently now, like they...
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F 151 Responses Jun 6, 2010

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    I was recently diagnosed with this disorder.

    I guess I've had it for a while, but the symptoms did not match until recently. I made many risky decisions during my manic stages, like spending too much money, when I am normally very frugal, and I thought I was invincible. Now I am in the "mixed stage". I am not super...
    heiseyjulia heiseyjulia 22-25 3 Responses Sep 18, 2014

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    I was recently diagnosed with Bipolar 1 last

    month. I always knew I had emotional/anger issues, and I can also be a really excitable hyper positive person... But I was kind of surprised at the diagnosis. Has anyone ever been diagnosed like me and wasn't expecting that diagnosis?
    beebeexoxox beebeexoxox 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 24

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    I'm in the hospital now

    because my symptoms got too out of control to manage. I was diagnosed in October 2013 and started lithium. A month later I started on my anti-psychotic, risperidone. These were the only two meds I was taking until I went through a period of depression so bad that I ended up in...
    avey10 avey10 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 6, 2014

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    So its been 6 days that I've been on my meds.

    I feel amazing. No more rage, no more depression, no more mania (feeling like im so damn hyper and ready to go jump off a building for fun). I feel so calm. I can think more clearly. I can concentrate. Things dont bother me like they use to. Its just crazy how much a difference...
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 24

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    I family is starting to get involved with my

    crisis. Funny how bad things come into Good things.
    grgbyce968 grgbyce968 56-60, M 1 Response Apr 9

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    my depression is out of control.

    my dr gave me a new med to add to the cocktail of meds I take but the insurance is holding it up. im like a f*cking storm tonight destroying everything in my path. ugh!
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    Not go today another scammer approached me I

    hadn't taken my meds and I to them the big F off
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 3

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    My family doesn't understand me.

    Everybody I feel close has bipolar disorder. They are the only people that understands me. In truth they are my brothers and my sisters.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 2

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    Being a Bipolar Student

    I have been officially diagnosed as being Bipolar I for a little over three years. As I have gotten older my symptoms and cycles have continually progressed and become more difficult to control or recognize. Luckily, I have an amazingly supportive family, and I have been...
    themanicmind themanicmind 22-25, F 12 Responses Mar 2, 2009

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    So much better today.

    Just simple getting kind family support and medication made such a difference. The community support and the recovery skills Ive learned for many years of having bipolar have all benefits in combinations. What Ive learned about bipolar is all these combinations of things, not...
    grgbyce968 grgbyce968 56-60, M 2 Responses Apr 9

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    Bipolar is not psychotic I was first diagnosed

    with just depression & anxiety when i left home for college. Got on antidepressant meds. Didnt stay consistent with the meds til i was older. Once the meds were making steady improvement my new doctor thought i was having mania symptoms because i talked about some unrealistic...
    stufy stufy 46-50 1 Response May 26, 2014

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    People say I'm dangerous.

    This just plain ignorance and stigma. I suffer so much pain why would I inflect pain on others. Pain is seeing people hurt that don't deserve it.
    grgbyce968 grgbyce968 56-60, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    But not beyond decent.

    Thanks to helpful people. Met hunting decent people. EP Link
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Apr 10

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    I get very very high

    and then I crash. I hate when I crash.
    lovelinessbathes lovelinessbathes 31-35, M 5 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    I feel like I am screaming

    and no one hears. This hollow is so deep dark and never-ending. What future can Be before me Whos hand will I hold. Where is the manuel for this rollercoaster The highs and lows truly govern my life. The unanswered questions The rejection of the ones you love Hurts more...
    complex7 complex7 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    I truly believe the problem with high rates of

    depression and bipolar disorder is Our food being GMOs. Due to the lack of nutrition in our food. Why do I get sick when I don't supplement. People wake up we are being made sick for the sack of profits. Label all GMOs or grow your own food.
    grgbyce968 grgbyce968 56-60, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Ok I think I'm manic

    because I've been pacing a lot lately and I've been wanting to drink. I also just took 3 and a half times the normal dosage of ADHD meds so they're gonna kick in soon. I'm worried about myself when I start doing these reckless things. I feel like there are no consequences to...
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I want to a cabin in a remote area without a

    phone I hate being bothered by telemarketers. Unlisted the number and I still get them calling. I want to be left alone. Maybe it's my bipolar but when don't want them near me
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    La-la-love Latuda! I truly

    and honestly believed that I was never going to get better. I had had success with Lamictal and Geodon as far as controlling the mania and mixed episodes, but I still suffered from totally and completely crippling depression and anxiety. We had tried everything short of ECT...
    SeaOfMonsters SeaOfMonsters 26-30, F 7 Responses Jul 21, 2014

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    Bipolar one disorder

    and depression. Been like this for as long as I can remember, I've learned that keeping a journal really helps.
    inloveandeath inloveandeath 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 30

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