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I Am Bipolar

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    Crashing..

    I welcome you like I welcome an old familiar enemy. I know you all too well, you are a part of me. Whenever I go through a period filled with energy and initiative, you are there. Always. To bring me back to reality, to keep me from having fun and enjoying life. It's time again...
    livingalieforsolong livingalieforsolong 31-35 6 Responses Jul 29, 2013

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    A QUESTION I'm not sure I can answer.

    It's this. Please think about it. Bipolar disorder can be and is so disruptive and crazy and wild - and so suicidally depressing at times and often for such a long time (we know that!). The question I have trouble answering is this(a hypothetical?): I am offered the MAGIC...
    frankiegee frankiegee 46-50, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm Pretty Sure I'm Depressed Again

    I have been so tired ,and i don't want to do a dam thing.I have forced myself to shower,no make up,haven't done my nails,this is not like me,i always keep myself up.One thought keeps going through my head,"I don't care anymore"!If i could sleep all day,i would.Ugh,guess i gotta...
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 31-35, F 8 Responses Oct 17, 2012

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    justagirlsb justagirlsb 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 26

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     I am everything I am suposed to be.

     “Know ye not that there is here in this world a secret confraternity, which one might call the Company of Melancholiacs? That people there are who by natural constitution have been given a different nature and disposition than the others; that have a larger heart and...
    mittskitty mittskitty 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    I'm Bipolar, Not A Killer.

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about 7 years ago.  My meds have changed several times and the stuff I’m taking right now seems to be doing its job with minimal side effects.  My only problem is my family, they…treat me differently now, like they...
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F 153 Responses Jun 6, 2010

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    I Have an Illness One you cannot see - it's

    invisible unless you know where to look One you cannot hear - unless you listen very closely One you cannot feel - unless you truly know the person who's suffering or have been there yourself I was diagnosed with major depression and anxiety back in 2009, then bipolar...
    SaturnSenshi SaturnSenshi 26-30, F 5 Responses Mar 2

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    I'm Fighting, But Feel Like Giving Up...

    I am so exhausted!!! Mentally, physically, and emotionally.....I keep going every day because I have no choice....What I really want to do is crawl under a rock or just disappear.... My son, who would be 16, passed away last January....On top of that I'm bipolar among a few other...
    Brunhild Brunhild 36-40, F 5 Responses Jul 8, 2011

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    I am legally bad well B.

    A.D Bipolar Affective Disorder i have a horrible temper i get pissed off and i throw stuff around break stuff im uncontrollable it runs in the family my gpa was the same way just he didnt break his stuff
    LaTeAssassin LaTeAssassin 16-17, M Mar 30

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    Like a roller coaster.

    And I honestly do enjoy the lows as much as the highs. Sure the highs are packed with adrenaline, emotion, physical release that trumps thought and logic. But the lows, the lows give you pause. Time to think. To wallow. To assess. Time to make decisions about how to deal with...
    bipolarcat bipolarcat 36-40, M 1 Response Mar 4

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    I'm bipolar, for the most part it has ruined my

    life for the last ten years. I've been angry, vicious, doing hard drugs, sleeping around and hurting everyone who comes close to me. I'm barely functional right now and I've had to turn over care of my daughter to my parents. I'm a royal ******* fuckup.
    ksnaps ksnaps 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    Most days, when I was younger,

    I knew I was different in many ways. Right now I'm diagnosed with four mental disorders(yay me not 😒) and bipolar was the last one I found out about. But back to when I was younger, I felt super depressed most of the time and then suddenly found myself jumping to episodes of...
    Audrina14 Audrina14 13-15, F Mar 28

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    i was diagnosed when i was only 13.

    but i dont feel any different from other people. well maybe i do... i knew other people didnt constanty feel depressed, or so hyper they thought they would explode. but i never really thought about it, you know? in my mind i feel like just a regular person. but thats probably...
    BlankCanvas22 BlankCanvas22 13-15, F Mar 29

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    Being bipolar is driving me crazy :/ medication

    and therapy didn't help. I feel like ill never have an actually normal life like i will always just be trapped in the never ending cycle.. Nothing helps i just want to feel normal :(
    StephsReality StephsReality 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 9

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    I was diagnosed as being Bipolar in 2011

    after having a manic episode that left my house in ruins. The events that took place that faithful afternoon are to painful to write about. The pain is as raw then as it is now. I've been hospitalised three times since. Sometimes I struggle with depression and the battle...
    hustlernheels hustlernheels 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 8

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    What I Miss About Being Crazy!

    Almost five years ago I was diagnosed as bipolar. Or was I diagnosed with bipolar disorder? Is there a real difference between saying I’m bipolar and saying I have bipolar disorder? I mean, semantically, you can see one as a label for me and the other as the label for a...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 1 Response Sep 26, 2012

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    The Gifts Of Bipolar

    What is the nature of disability? What does the idea mean? It is a statistical concept, I think. Which is to say, it is a measure of comparison. We can only be “disabled” in comparison to a group of others who have more ability on this particular measure. Everyone can be...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 13 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    Lately I've been really moody

    and my fuse is short,I get mad over the smallest things and it feels like I'm a caged animal which drives me insane and I just want a break from it all for awhile,I'll be fine one second and the next I want to scream and cry then I get really angry,I don't like feeling this way...
    RyanBlake87 RyanBlake87 26-30, T 1 Response Apr 10

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    This Could Happen if You Don't Take Your Meds...

    I am late 20's and was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder when I was 18. I went to college (during those 5 years I was hospitalized twice) but graduated with honors in Business. I had never taken medication consistently and felt like my academic achievement and working 30-35 hrs...
    redhotblue22 redhotblue22 26-30 5 Responses Sep 30, 2011

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    My bipolar is so bad this morning ,

    in the back of my head is lingering the thoughts of how much of a **** up I am , but at the same time I'm dancing and signing along to happy music.....
    neckd33p neckd33p 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    I am diagnosed bipolar April 14,

    I knew there was something wrong anyway so finding out wasn't supriseing.just last week Monday I was ok Tuesday I was depressed I mean to the point I couldn't get off the couch crying literally saying I hate myself,wendsay I wa really flirty but I stopped myself cause I'm taken...
    Alwaysandforever29 Alwaysandforever29 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I had my first episode of depression near 2003.

    I was a heavy cannabis user from 1998.I went to a prof and he prescriped anti-depressants.I got well like a snap.I continued to smoke pot and other drugs like LSD,and ofcourse a second depresiion came along.I got well,did the same,and a third one came along.Got well,but continued...
    depressedboy999 depressedboy999 31-35, M 5 Responses Mar 11

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    Famous People with Bipolar Disorder  I

    was unaware so many famous people also have/had bipolar disorder. It gives me hope for the future knowing this illness didn't stop them from achieving their dreams. 
    SaturnSenshi SaturnSenshi 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 9

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    I M Bipolar

    Without medication i have racing speech, anxiety attacks, i wont sleep, and have lots of energy. I am taking meds and they are working for me. I go to a support group call DBSA (depression, bipolar support alliance) . I have friends that understand my mental illness. The...
    starship33 starship33 36-40, F 8 Responses Nov 6, 2012

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    MrJenks MrJenks 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 20

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    I've always knew something was up with me,

    iv battled eating disorders and depression, but there was still 'something' holding me back in life... I am currently seeing a counsellor and waiting to be diagnosed. I've always knew i was different to most people and thought 'beyond the box' , and wanted more from life , since...
    ToriRose13 ToriRose13 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 16

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    Acceptance

    I am a diagnosed BiPolar II. And also dual diagnosis with many other associated types of dissorders, anxiety-panic-border personality-etc.    I was diagnosed at 16 but went off meds at about 18. I am now 31 and only last year have sought help for these issues. Am...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 15 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    I am a 44 year old professional female.

    I never thought this would happen to me... When I was about 23, I became so manic/depressed that I obsessed about killing myself until I finally swallowed a bottle of pills. They were my roommates Rx pills and to this day, I don't know what they were. I woke up the next morning...
    Buffal0gal Buffal0gal 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    Being a Bipolar Student

    I have been officially diagnosed as being Bipolar I for a little over three years. As I have gotten older my symptoms and cycles have continually progressed and become more difficult to control or recognize. Luckily, I have an amazingly supportive family, and I have been...
    themanicmind themanicmind 22-25, F 12 Responses Mar 2, 2009

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    A Short Narrative of a Manic Episode

        I was walking up to my high school’s football field as all of the school stood in the bleachers waiting for me but I had come up from behind to where the cheerleaders and dance team were. I remember one girl yelling, “Hey Scott...
    Scottsimdb Scottsimdb 18-21 33 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    I'm bipolar and it sucks major ****.

    I'm limited to what I can and can't do because of the way I feel all the time. My mood changes so rapidly and its taking over my life. My boyfriend also has bipolar and together we're insanely ****** up. If you need to talk about bipolar don't hesitate
    bxttlebxrn bxttlebxrn 16-17, F Apr 6

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    I had described it this way to a friend: Think

    of it like diabetes. Whereas the body cannot produce enough insulin to maintain safe blood sugar levels, the brain cannot produce enough seratonin to maintain and balance emotive processes. Problem is, you can't just cut out human emotion and interaction from a person's diet...
    designbycassandra designbycassandra 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 9

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    yesiigarciaa yesiigarciaa 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    http://health.clevelandclinic.

    org/2014/01/greater-number-diseases-now-attributed-to-smoking/
    cronin43 cronin43 46-50, F Mar 14

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    I am on a really, really bad low right now,

    the meds aren't helping, I can't stop crying. I have 6 anniversaries this month and I just can't cope, could really do with some cheering up. I am irritating everyone around me as my episodes are absolutely out of control. I don't know how to control them, I get really angry...
    butterfly789 butterfly789 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 18

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    The only reason I am any amount of okay is

    because of the support of my husband and mom. Without them, I would have lost my kids, my mind and probably my life. I am all doped up (courtesy my doctor), and sometimes I still have episodes of mania or depression, but overall it is better. Just not today. So called the doc...
    iamnothing99 iamnothing99 36-40, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    The Extremes That Consume My Mind.

    Hypomania is something indescribable. Breathing oxygen after being trapped in the suffocating arms of depression. An electric shock of energy and untapped potential. A shift in perception. New friends, new experiences, and beautiful memories. She's the girl I should be. She's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 11, 2012

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    ... Sleepless nights & not tired.

    Not high or low. I want to sleep but nothing is working. I'm newly diagnosed & ready to give up. I just want to sleep... Seroquel XR is like a horse tranquilizer that has an added bonus of a few extra lbs & can't recover in the am. :( any suggestions?
    semiforeign semiforeign 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 8

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    Bipolar Bares All! Film At 11:00!

    I'm Bipolar all right, I certainly don't make a secret of it.  I wrote a memoir of Manic Depression which I continue to flog with the annoying insistence of a child tugging on a parent's pant leg.  I've lectured on it at universities and medical schools.  I've...
    ElLagarto ElLagarto 56-60, M 12 Responses Jul 12, 2007

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    Bipolar, But Without The Fun

    I've been diagnosed with Bipolar II, which they tell me is bipolar with only mild mania, but deeper depressions. Who knows if that's what I truly am, I've been misdiagnosed so many times, but it seems true. I've been coming down from a slight manic run, and the depression is...
    shygrl85 shygrl85 22-25, F 14 Responses Feb 15, 2010

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    They just diagnosed me with this

    and i have no idea how to tryband handle it or anything :(
    yesiigarciaa yesiigarciaa 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Just Turned 30!

    Hello group. I was diagnosed for almost 6 years now. Things are getting better but they really had to hit bottom first. I just turned 30 and dont have any complexes about it. I am unemployed, like a lot of NON BIPOLAR americans WITH degrees and student loan debt (anyone relate...
    missquietriot missquietriot 26-30, F 4 Responses Oct 19, 2012

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    I am not sure I like the title of this

    experience. I do have bipolar disorder. I was diagnosed at 21 with bipolar disorder, and have been struggling with my diagnosis, and finding the right medication. I have been on a few different medications, some have worked great, and some not so much. One medication I was on...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F Mar 23

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    Bipolar The Great Deceiver

    It tells us we are invincible, we can do anything and it feels amazing. It tells us we don't need medication or therapy because we are healed now and even though this cycle has happend hundreds of times this is finally the last cycle. We get caught up in the wave of ephoria and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 14, 2013

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    I just recently discovered

    that I had bipolar disorder I was feel really down and having issues with my meds and my mom decided to take me to a phycyatrist, I'm so thankful to this doctor she has helped me in so many ways and I love her to death. She does holistic treatments. With my experience my meds...
    Ginger387 Ginger387 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    My Mother Claims That I'm Just Slavic.

    My mom's 100% Polish.  She says that Slavs just have mood swings.  I think I'm bipolar, but she doesn't believe in psychological illnesses.  I know that I'm old enough to go to a doctor and get diagnosed for myself, but I still live under my parents' thumbs while...
    Chanteuse1984 Chanteuse1984 26-30, F 10 Responses Jun 6, 2007

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    Back to Square One (deep sigh) I just told

    another boss about my condition. I usually don't do that unless it's beginning to affect my work. Granted, I just began this job, and they really like me, but everyday before work, after work, even on my days off, I'm either crying my eyes out, sobbing until my throat hurts, and...
    SaturnSenshi SaturnSenshi 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I get very very high

    and then I crash. I hate when I crash.
    lovelinessbathes lovelinessbathes 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 7

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    I am suffering from manic depression.

    I have been depressed for almost my whole entire life it is destroying important relationships.I have too many mental illnesses I was in denial for 7 years.I have been abused in every form.I have been emotionally abuse for 13 and a half years by my drug addicted brother and I am...
    xxsadisticbitchxx xxsadisticbitchxx 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 23

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    unpredictable

    I''m not that girl - Impulsively wild and fearlessly reckless With outgoing energy and endlessly spinning dreams. Except I am. I''m not that girl - Cripplingly shy and anxiously waiting For everyone I''ve ever loved to suddenly disappear. Except I am. I''m the girl with the...
    Loveuloveme Loveuloveme 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 17, 2013

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    Crazy Mania

    SO. When I was 20 I started to believe I had stumbled across some new found intelligence. Slowly but surely I began to think I was capable of reading minds, or telepathy if you will, and that I was gifted with supernatural powers. I gradually began to not sleep... I think m...
    Blind3rdEye Blind3rdEye 22-25, F 14 Responses May 28, 2009

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    A letter to myself. I hate you.

    I thought you were better. 3 years of lying. Saying life was better. All the while, In denial. Stopping medication. "Clarity." Moving across the country. "Solidarity." Losing jobs... Wrecking relationships. Burning bridges. No doctor visits. New relationship... New requirements...
    ladyjoyjoy ladyjoyjoy 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 21

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    Wish My Brain Would Shut The Hell Up!

    Yep...i'm bipolar.  Bipolar 1, manic depressive if we want to get clinical.  It royally sucks.  Can't really put a sugar coating on what it is.  I was diagnosed right before I started a 2 year prison sentence.  I'd embezzled mass amounts of money from a company I had worked...
    m2extreme m2extreme 31-35, F 13 Responses Apr 26, 2011

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    The word psyche comes from the greek word

    for soul or butterfly. So what is this psychiatry? The practice of diagnosing and treating the soul? I am a soul I have a body. This life is not all there is so leave me be, my thoughts are not produced by my brain they come from a space that is impossible to occupy. It's my...
    cosmicroses cosmicroses 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    Bipolar

    I was first diagnosed with bipolar disorder at age 18. I was having a bible study with my girlfriend and her family when all of a sudden my personality just went from 0 to 60. I was super happy and energetic. I felt great. On my way home I was talking to people and even myself...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    I was sitting in the car outside my boyfriends

    house waiting for him and I swung deep into a low. I just wanted to go home and cut myself and cry.
    Hellomynameis14 Hellomynameis14 18-21, F Mar 22

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    I Am Not An Evil, Crazy Criminal!!!!

     Oh; bipolar. Bring up the word to many, and they will usually associate it with one they know whose mood flips at a switch. Or, better yet, they begin to tell you the story of their last girlfriend who chased them around the house with a knife. Oh, and the people in denial...
    dgrey63 dgrey63 46-50, F 5 Responses Sep 29, 2011

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