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I Am Bipolar

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    Bipolar Bares All! Film At 11:00!

    I'm Bipolar all right, I certainly don't make a secret of it.  I wrote a memoir of Manic Depression which I continue to flog with the annoying insistence of a child tugging on a parent's pant leg.  I've lectured on it at universities and medical schools.  I've...
    ElLagarto ElLagarto 56-60, M 12 Responses Jul 12, 2007

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    So my bipolar meds are working really well.

    I've been on them for 2 months now I think it is, maybe 3. Much more calm not aggressive anymore. I'm much more laid back and easy going. I don't seem to have the mood swings like I was having. My only problem is just feeling depressed. But that might be because for about a week...
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    I am no longer am going to let people make feel

    bad about bipolar. I and poor of and love men and women who have lived successfully with it. There is so much a pain that we know the only way is to release it and move on. We can be the kindest gentlest people. Can't stand the stigma out there and people thinking that they are...
    grgbyce978 grgbyce978 56-60, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I am bipolar, I always knew it

    but was officially diagnosed with type 1 and 2,a month ago. it's really intense so I do take medication for it.I still get agitated sometimes but they do work. I haven't had a manic episode or been depressed. bipolar disorder is a real mental illness, I hate when people are just...
    FantasyKitty FantasyKitty 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I want to a cabin in a remote area without a

    phone I hate being bothered by telemarketers. Unlisted the number and I still get them calling. I want to be left alone. Maybe it's my bipolar but when don't want them near me
    grgbyce978 grgbyce978 56-60, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I ran out of meds for a

    while in between doctors recently, so I got a stuffed mammoth and named it Klonopin. My anti-anxiety mammoth.
    rainallthedays rainallthedays 31-35, F Sep 7, 2014

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    Woke up berating myself

    for choices made years and years ago. Things that would have changed everything or nothing about who I am now. Calling myself names, feeling like an idiot and and a loser and hating myself for every misstep, mistake and stupid choice I ever made. I haven't even had coffee yet, I...
    omgwut omgwut 41-45, M 2 Responses Mar 13

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    Don't ever feel good enough to have my gf.

    It's like a dark cloud that I can't escape no matter how hard I try. Even on medication I still get this feeling
    HarrySavage96 HarrySavage96 18-21, M Mar 22

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    I'm not sure if anyone has shared this

    but I found Dr.Roger Sparhawks book, calm seas to be extremely informative on bipolar. with years of clinicals under his belt he described bipolar in a way that I could understand only occasionally having to look up what he was talking about. his knowledge on the subject led me...
    AllOutWar AllOutWar 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 26

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    I've been dealing with this

    for over 10 years now, most of this time I have been in a dark hole. It went as far as me losing all hope and even forgetting who I am, who I used to be before my depression. Recently I have been able to see some light. It's not easy, and I have bad days but I have after 10...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 6

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    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Rapid cycler variety.

    Med resistant too. Made worse by seroquel.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 1 Response Mar 17

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    It's like a war in my head.

    ..i start being suicidal and then fir no reason i switch to a hyperactive state ...idk what the hell is going on...idk who i am....
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 3 Responses Feb 18

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    One minute I want to run in a field of flowers,

    the next I want to put a bullet through my head... it ruins anything and everything. I'm incapable of happiness.. at first I felt I needed to hide myself away from everyone because of it now I'm just antisocial, it seems like every time I try to do what I think is right it turns...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    Ever since I took my new doctor's advise

    and stopped smoking, my life hasn't been amusing as it was. I stopped talking to most of my friends, I stopped having sex, I even sold my late driver's house. Soon after that, I became a total nut case! Thinking about what I did in the past and how I've ruined so many lives...
    InnocentPigeon InnocentPigeon 70+ Mar 7

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    I get very very high

    and then I crash. I hate when I crash.
    lovelinessbathes lovelinessbathes 31-35, M 5 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    And I wish I could change it.

    There is still so much to understand. The guilt of pain caused. Wanting to run and hide. Seeing it unfold before your eyes and can't stop. If the white lab coats really cared they should speak the truth. We are not a forgotten people. Dented pride in actions of loved...
    complex7 complex7 31-35, F 5 Responses Mar 18

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    I was recently diagnosed with this disorder.

    I guess I've had it for a while, but the symptoms did not match until recently. I made many risky decisions during my manic stages, like spending too much money, when I am normally very frugal, and I thought I was invincible. Now I am in the "mixed stage". I am not super...
    heiseyjulia heiseyjulia 22-25 4 Responses Sep 18, 2014

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    Bipolar

    I was first diagnosed with bipolar disorder at age 18. I was having a bible study with my girlfriend and her family when all of a sudden my personality just went from 0 to 60. I was super happy and energetic. I felt great. On my way home I was talking to people and even myself...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    smeshma smeshma 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Bipolar is not psychotic I was first diagnosed

    with just depression & anxiety when i left home for college. Got on antidepressant meds. Didnt stay consistent with the meds til i was older. Once the meds were making steady improvement my new doctor thought i was having mania symptoms because i talked about some unrealistic...
    stufy stufy 46-50 1 Response May 26, 2014

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    La-la-love Latuda! I truly

    and honestly believed that I was never going to get better. I had had success with Lamictal and Geodon as far as controlling the mania and mixed episodes, but I still suffered from totally and completely crippling depression and anxiety. We had tried everything short of ECT...
    SeaOfMonsters SeaOfMonsters 26-30, F 7 Responses Jul 21, 2014

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    I Have an Illness One you cannot see - it's

    invisible unless you know where to look One you cannot hear - unless you listen very closely One you cannot feel - unless you truly know the person who's suffering or have been there yourself I was diagnosed with major depression and anxiety back in 2009, then bipolar...
    Aelfwynn Aelfwynn 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 2, 2014

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    Bipolar one disorder

    and depression. Been like this for as long as I can remember, I've learned that keeping a journal really helps.
    inloveandeath inloveandeath 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Does anyone take lamictil?

    I upped my dose to 100 mg a week ago and I have been having crying spells everyday and so depressed I don't want to get out of bed. I have been told by many to give it time and I have also heard the drug has worked wonders I just want other peoples experiences.
    final666 final666 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    My Mother Claims That I'm Just Slavic.

    My mom's 100% Polish.  She says that Slavs just have mood swings.  I think I'm bipolar, but she doesn't believe in psychological illnesses.  I know that I'm old enough to go to a doctor and get diagnosed for myself, but I still live under my parents' thumbs while...
    Chanteuse1984 Chanteuse1984 26-30, F 10 Responses Jun 6, 2007

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    I Am Not Bipolar, I Have Bipolar

    I want to start by explaining my story title. If you have Diabetes you are not Diabetes, you have Diabetes. Similarly I am not Bipolar, I have Bipolar. My story starts when I was very young, so I have no idea if I was born with Bipolar, or just developed it later. I can...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M Sep 7, 2012

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    Wish My Brain Would Shut The Hell Up!

    Yep...i'm bipolar.  Bipolar 1, manic depressive if we want to get clinical.  It royally sucks.  Can't really put a sugar coating on what it is.  I was diagnosed right before I started a 2 year prison sentence.  I'd embezzled mass amounts of money from a company I had worked...
    m2extreme m2extreme 31-35, F 13 Responses Apr 26, 2011

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    I'm Bipolar, Not A Killer.

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about 7 years ago.  My meds have changed several times and the stuff I’m taking right now seems to be doing its job with minimal side effects.  My only problem is my family, they…treat me differently now, like they...
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F 151 Responses Jun 6, 2010

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    mellowwwave mellowwwave 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2014

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    I lay in my bed staring at the ceiling.

    Everyone's voices sound so far away. My eyelids are heavy and I am curled in a ball. I can't move. I have go be still. If I am still nothing bad can happen. If I move the trail of fog and hatred will follow me like a shadow. I won't let it follow me. It consumes me too much . it...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 5

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    I've been off my meds

    and been doing crazy things.
    grgbyce978 grgbyce978 56-60, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Being a Bipolar Student

    I have been officially diagnosed as being Bipolar I for a little over three years. As I have gotten older my symptoms and cycles have continually progressed and become more difficult to control or recognize. Luckily, I have an amazingly supportive family, and I have been...
    themanicmind themanicmind 22-25, F 12 Responses Mar 2, 2009

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    It'S Who I Am !

    Learned I was bipolar about 3yrs ago I'm very different as I allways knew but sorta good way. I will try to make anyone laugh smile fit in. I'm prolly to open with life I will spill my guts to whoever will listen. I will try to find the good in anyone till prove me wrong. I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 27, 2013

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    I was diagnosed with BP-NOS.

    My story starts when I was eighteen. I went to an out-of-state university on a full scholarship. I was in the top ten of my class and I had a bright future ahead of myself. I wanted to be a neurosurgeon. I wanted to be the first person in my family to graduate from college. Two...
    InsaneFlowerGirl InsaneFlowerGirl 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 1

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    So for the first time in my life I sought

    treatment for bipolar. I was put on meds. I gotta say. Damn I wish I'd of done this yrs ago! I feel calm. I don't feel that rage or depression or like im about to go fly off a building for fun. lol I just feel normal! The last few days have been the calmest I've ever been in my...
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 22

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    So its been 6 days that I've been on my meds.

    I feel amazing. No more rage, no more depression, no more mania (feeling like im so damn hyper and ready to go jump off a building for fun). I feel so calm. I can think more clearly. I can concentrate. Things dont bother me like they use to. Its just crazy how much a difference...
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 24

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    I M Bipolar

    Without medication i have racing speech, anxiety attacks, i wont sleep, and have lots of energy. I am taking meds and they are working for me. I go to a support group call DBSA (depression, bipolar support alliance) . I have friends that understand my mental illness. The...
    starship33 starship33 36-40, F 8 Responses Nov 6, 2012

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    Acceptance

    I am a diagnosed BiPolar II. And also dual diagnosis with many other associated types of dissorders, anxiety-panic-border personality-etc.    I was diagnosed at 16 but went off meds at about 18. I am now 31 and only last year have sought help for these issues. Am...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 15 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    Bipolar, But Without The Fun

    I've been diagnosed with Bipolar II, which they tell me is bipolar with only mild mania, but deeper depressions. Who knows if that's what I truly am, I've been misdiagnosed so many times, but it seems true. I've been coming down from a slight manic run, and the depression is...
    shygrl85 shygrl85 22-25, F 14 Responses Feb 15, 2010

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    Yesterday. Was a sad day

    for me. Finding out that I'm bipolar. Know everyone thinks it's a mental disorder. Was the hardest part.to know that it would be impossible for me to even TRY to normal... Because if someone found out. They would look at me like I'm i special needs person. And whisper to other...
    brokendreamsbrokenhearts brokendreamsbrokenhearts 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 20

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    Any advice to someone

    who was recently diagnosed? The medication the pschiatrist prescribed me aren't working after 2 months even though the doctor said it should work after 1. Thankfully the bad depression only lasted 3 weeks this time. I went from really happy, talkative, creative, silly (sure...
    thornedrose thornedrose 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 16

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    I am having mixed moods

    and I out of contrl
    grgbyce978 grgbyce978 56-60, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    What no one seems to talk much about is

    that there's a kind of psychological purgatory that exists somewhere in between the high points and the end of your rope. Those moments when you want to do nothing more than to run from yourself! We have a laundry list of triggers that catapult the slide into what feels like an...
    honestcloud honestcloud 26-30, F Oct 2, 2014

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    I just want to leave this town

    and travel far away, just leave everything behind and start something new.
    lolitaxx1971 lolitaxx1971 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    I am on medication called abilify

    and it has really helped with my highs but I still get negative thoughts about myself saying to hurt myself and I don't know what to do
    HarrySavage96 HarrySavage96 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 6

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