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I Am Bipolar

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    Crazy Mania

    SO. When I was 20 I started to believe I had stumbled across some new found intelligence. Slowly but surely I began to think I was capable of reading minds, or telepathy if you will, and that I was gifted with supernatural powers. I gradually began to not sleep... I think m...
    Blind3rdEye Blind3rdEye 22-25, F 14 Responses May 28, 2009

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    I Have an Illness One you cannot see - it's

    invisible unless you know where to look One you cannot hear - unless you listen very closely One you cannot feel - unless you truly know the person who's suffering or have been there yourself I was diagnosed with major depression and anxiety back in 2009, then bipolar...
    SaturnSenshi SaturnSenshi 26-30, F 5 Responses Mar 2

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    Soooo...ran out of lithium

    for two days " no big deal" I thought ....then started climbing...thoughts got a wee but faster and my lamictal was like " where the F is the other co-mood stabilizer? You need lithi to balance me out mophead!" Whew...ran & frantically got some , shoved an extra couple down the...
    wiseprotector wiseprotector 41-45, M Jul 10

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    Bipolar Disorder.... In My Words....

    What is Bipolar Disorder? Bipolar disorder is a lifelong condition that can affect both how you feel and how you act. It is a mood disorder that can cause extreme swings in mood—from manic highs to depressive lows. To be diagnosed with bipolar disorder you must have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Sep 30, 2010

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    I am so depressed. I literally think about

    killing myself every single day of my life, but I'm too much of a coward to go through with it. I'm sick of living. I have no friends, and I never will. Everytime I think i find out, they abandon me and make me more suicidal than ever. I am so sick and tired of this waste of an...
    blipsycat1 blipsycat1 18-21, M 4 Responses Jul 16

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    I can be the most happiest guy on the planet

    and then next I'm all type of f**ked up
    TheGuy147 TheGuy147 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 4

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    Bipolar Bares All! Film At 11:00!

    I'm Bipolar all right, I certainly don't make a secret of it.  I wrote a memoir of Manic Depression which I continue to flog with the annoying insistence of a child tugging on a parent's pant leg.  I've lectured on it at universities and medical schools.  I've...
    ElLagarto ElLagarto 56-60, M 12 Responses Jul 12, 2007

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    Wish My Brain Would Shut The Hell Up!

    Yep...i'm bipolar.  Bipolar 1, manic depressive if we want to get clinical.  It royally sucks.  Can't really put a sugar coating on what it is.  I was diagnosed right before I started a 2 year prison sentence.  I'd embezzled mass amounts of money from a company I had worked...
    m2extreme m2extreme 31-35, F 13 Responses Apr 26, 2011

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    I want to be a counselor

    and help kids for a future im 18 tight now suppose to start college in August..My dad is right what kind of counselor scratches her wrist till it bleeds and has mood swings that cant control...college isnt for me :( curently crying in the bathroom ;(
    yesiigarciaa yesiigarciaa 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 11

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    Crashing..

    I welcome you like I welcome an old familiar enemy. I know you all too well, you are a part of me. Whenever I go through a period filled with energy and initiative, you are there. Always. To bring me back to reality, to keep me from having fun and enjoying life. It's time again...
    livingalieforsolong livingalieforsolong 31-35 6 Responses Jul 29, 2013

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    I read an article and watch a video about

    bipolar. And it says that bipolar is actually occurred when your brain chemical are not balance. And take a ginko biloba supplement will helps. I am a bipolar. It took me a while to get diagnosed. I just finished from my depressed period for about 3 weeks. And to be honest...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 3

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    Being bipolar is not easy,

    I often struggle to keep myself together.. I found these useful tips and wanted to share with everyone :) http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/breakingbipolar/2013/09/keeping-job-bipolar-disorder/ Good luck!
    ThePeach ThePeach 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    I M Bipolar

    Without medication i have racing speech, anxiety attacks, i wont sleep, and have lots of energy. I am taking meds and they are working for me. I go to a support group call DBSA (depression, bipolar support alliance) . I have friends that understand my mental illness. The...
    starship33 starship33 36-40, F 7 Responses Nov 6, 2012

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    Ok there is no doubt this is a challenging

    illness but here are the great traits bpers have IMHO1) we are in the same class as: Sting, Russel Brand, DMX, Princess Lea (Carrie Fisher), Mathew Good, Linda Hamilton( terminator!), Mel Gibson ( ok he's a little out there) Jack Irons (former drummer Red hot chili peppers...
    wiseprotector wiseprotector 41-45, M 4 Responses Jun 18

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    Bipolar Disorder & Obsession: It’s not

    that I can’t let it go; it’s that my brain can’t. It’s that the thought creates a groove in my brain that I can’t dig it out of. It’s that my brain artificially hangs onto the experience long after my mind has processed it. And this obsession is a complete...
    honestcloud honestcloud 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 12

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    I have a secret. I'm Bipolar Type II.

    I hide my illness as well as I can for the fear of being stigmatized by society. The word bipolar is so popular in pop-culture now that it's very common to hear someone being called bipolar if they have mood swings, or if they are two faced and act like two different people. It...
    Enaud21 Enaud21 31-35, M 3 Responses May 22

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    I have periods where I literally laugh out loud.

    I get this random rush of excitement. I feel giddy and happy. I start talking to myself; plans, goals, hobbies. Then it goes away. I might get irritable or want to write or draw. In the same day, I begin to feel my energy seep out. I slow down and get sluggish. It's like rapid...
    alkaem alkaem 18-21, M 3 Responses Jun 30

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    Ok I need some help, my best friend has bipolar

    and it's getting to me, but I know it's the disease not the person. What is the best way to support him, but not kill myself doing it. (Please no sarcastic stupid responses) he really needs help but doesn't think he is the problem, he's rude to me and I would fall for it before...
    nonnik13 nonnik13 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 10

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    I Am Not An Evil, Crazy Criminal!!!!

     Oh; bipolar. Bring up the word to many, and they will usually associate it with one they know whose mood flips at a switch. Or, better yet, they begin to tell you the story of their last girlfriend who chased them around the house with a knife. Oh, and the people in denial...
    dgrey63 dgrey63 46-50, F 5 Responses Sep 29, 2011

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    I haven't told anyone in my family

    that I'm on mood stabalizers. The last time, when I took antidepressants, I didn't tell anyone for 2-3 weeks. When I finally told my family, thinking they'll accept it, my father became very disappointed in me. He expressed his distrust in me - I had hurt him. He mentioned that...
    Whitecharcoal Whitecharcoal 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 19

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    Being bipolar is driving me crazy :/ medication

    and therapy didn't help. I feel like ill never have an actually normal life like i will always just be trapped in the never ending cycle.. Nothing helps i just want to feel normal :(
    StephsReality StephsReality 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 9

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    What I Miss About Being Crazy!

    Almost five years ago I was diagnosed as bipolar. Or was I diagnosed with bipolar disorder? Is there a real difference between saying I’m bipolar and saying I have bipolar disorder? I mean, semantically, you can see one as a label for me and the other as the label for a...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 1 Response Sep 26, 2012

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    A Short Narrative of a Manic Episode

        I was walking up to my high school’s football field as all of the school stood in the bleachers waiting for me but I had come up from behind to where the cheerleaders and dance team were. I remember one girl yelling, “Hey Scott...
    Scottsimdb Scottsimdb 18-21 33 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    I am so depressed. I literally think about

    killing myself every single day of my life, but I'm too much of a coward to go through with it. I'm sick of living. I have no friends, and I never will. Everytime I think i find out, they abandon me and make me more suicidal than ever. I am so sick and tired of this waste of an...
    blipsycat1 blipsycat1 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 13

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    yesiigarciaa yesiigarciaa 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 13

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    Lamictal ! Just had a great meeting with my

    Doc. Was only diagnosed about 2 months ago with bipolar 2 and put on lamictal 50mg.. And she upped it to 100mgs. Hopeful and Prayerful for better results Anybody else on lamictal ??? Love to hear your experiences
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 7 Responses 4 days ago

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    I go through stages of severe depression.

    I don't get out of bed, I don't eat, I cry a lot and sometimes I forget to take a shower. I just let the days blur. Other times I go through stages of euphoria and insomnia. I don't see a reason to sleep. Other times I am irritable and agitated at the same time. I can chew your...
    icecoldqueen613 icecoldqueen613 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Sazfantaz Sazfantaz 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 2

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    It'S Who I Am !

    Learned I was bipolar about 3yrs ago I'm very different as I allways knew but sorta good way. I will try to make anyone laugh smile fit in. I'm prolly to open with life I will spill my guts to whoever will listen. I will try to find the good in anyone till prove me wrong. I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 27, 2013

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    I need help, the prescription I have makes me

    feel so depressed, I hate myself! But if I don't have them it gets really bad. It hurts to pretend! Surely I shouldn't take the pills if it makes me feel this bad? I've told my doctor and parents and they said it is just a side effect that won't last long. It's been three...
    Zoewithoutthei Zoewithoutthei 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 9

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    The Gifts Of Bipolar

    What is the nature of disability? What does the idea mean? It is a statistical concept, I think. Which is to say, it is a measure of comparison. We can only be “disabled” in comparison to a group of others who have more ability on this particular measure. Everyone can be...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 13 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    Bipolar is not psychotic I was first diagnosed

    with just depression & anxiety when i left home for college. Got on antidepressant meds. Didnt stay consistent with the meds til i was older. Once the meds were making steady improvement my new doctor thought i was having mania symptoms because i talked about some unrealistic...
    Stefunie Stefunie 46-50, F 1 Response May 26

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    I'm Kristie, and I am Bi-polar/Manic Depressive.

    The reason why I am joining a forum is so that I can connect with people who are similar to me, and so I can relate to what they're going through. I know you are probably wondering why I just don't go to a therapist, right? Well, to be honest; I would rather talk to strangers...
    kbirchy89 kbirchy89 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 17

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    I was only diagnosed a few weeks ago,

    but my entire life makes sense. Most people probably feel like they are crazy when they find out they are bipolar, but it was the first day of my life I actually felt normal. I spent 22 years trying to understand my cycle and why it kept happening. I didn't know why sometimes I...
    lizpurc925 lizpurc925 18-21, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm nice one min and mean the next I will beat

    your *** then say sorry I will **** u and then be upset that I did #because I'm bipolar
    tamaraiwannaknow tamaraiwannaknow 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I remember the feeling I had

    when I was growing up, the urge to run and laugh and smile. The need to create things and do a lot of different activities at the same time. I remember how the world seemed so magical, full of wonders, full of mysteries, how one day never was the same as the next. I was happy as...
    Ennah Ennah 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 4

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    I currently still have the diagnosis,

    but I don't care much for labels and don't use it to define who I am. Flip through any diagnosis manual and you could easily take your pick - even if you've had nothing to do with the psychiatric system.
    SolitaryFriend SolitaryFriend 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 2

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    I am bipolar and it effects my life I can't do

    what other people do when my meds aren't working there is a lot of drama I don't always know what to say or do I am tired of being this way I want to move on with my life so bad but something always holds me back it not right so I am going to try and not let anyone hold me back...
    guinness26 guinness26 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 9

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    I was diagnosed as being Bipolar in 2011

    after having a manic episode that left my house in ruins. The events that took place that faithful afternoon are to painful to write about. The pain is as raw then as it is now. I've been hospitalised three times since. Sometimes I struggle with depression and the battle...
    hustlernheels hustlernheels 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 8

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    You are not alone! You think you are

    but your not. This is not your fault and you did nothing wrong....please remember that. It does get better, the maybe bad again, then so much better, etc, etc.....Do not expect people to understand even your family and friends, but it's not their fault either. It's an invisible...
    pangea20 pangea20 31-35, F Jul 4

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    and I haven't told anyone.

    I don't take pills anymore. I haven't for 5 years. I want to do this myself. And I thought I was doing so well. But everything is falling apart.
    UpsideOut UpsideOut 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 20

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    My Mother Claims That I'm Just Slavic.

    My mom's 100% Polish.  She says that Slavs just have mood swings.  I think I'm bipolar, but she doesn't believe in psychological illnesses.  I know that I'm old enough to go to a doctor and get diagnosed for myself, but I still live under my parents' thumbs while...
    Chanteuse1984 Chanteuse1984 26-30, F 10 Responses Jun 6, 2007

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    Bipolar

    I was first diagnosed with bipolar disorder at age 18. I was having a bible study with my girlfriend and her family when all of a sudden my personality just went from 0 to 60. I was super happy and energetic. I felt great. On my way home I was talking to people and even myself...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    It is both a blessing

    and a curse to feel everything so very deeply. I remind myself that before I had been diagnosed... I managed. It was hard, but I managed. We gotta remember that life provides us with the skills and tools to handle our demons. Let's rock this thing together.
    mmmmika mmmmika 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    I was diagnosed bipolar 2 months ago

    after having a breakdown of epic proportions, deciding to end it all, and waiting on the train tracks at 3 in the morning. I've been bipolar all my life as so many have joked in the past so having a chemical imbalance is hardly reason to blame for the epic meltdown but it did...
    johnnyringo23 johnnyringo23 31-35, M 2 Responses Jun 4

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    Acceptance

    I am a diagnosed BiPolar II. And also dual diagnosis with many other associated types of dissorders, anxiety-panic-border personality-etc.    I was diagnosed at 16 but went off meds at about 18. I am now 31 and only last year have sought help for these issues. Am...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 15 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    La-la-love Latuda! I truly

    and honestly believed that I was never going to get better. I had had success with Lamictal and Geodon as far as controlling the mania and mixed episodes, but I still suffered from totally and completely crippling depression and anxiety. We had tried everything short of ECT...
    SeaOfMonsters SeaOfMonsters 26-30, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    Bipolar, But Without The Fun

    I've been diagnosed with Bipolar II, which they tell me is bipolar with only mild mania, but deeper depressions. Who knows if that's what I truly am, I've been misdiagnosed so many times, but it seems true. I've been coming down from a slight manic run, and the depression is...
    shygrl85 shygrl85 22-25, F 14 Responses Feb 15, 2010

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    I'm in the hospital now

    because my symptoms got too out of control to manage. I was diagnosed in October 2013 and started lithium. A month later I started on my anti-psychotic, risperidone. These were the only two meds I was taking until I went through a period of depression so bad that I ended up in...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    I'm Bipolar, Not A Killer.

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about 7 years ago.  My meds have changed several times and the stuff I’m taking right now seems to be doing its job with minimal side effects.  My only problem is my family, they…treat me differently now, like they...
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F 153 Responses Jun 6, 2010

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    This Could Happen if You Don't Take Your Meds...

    I am late 20's and was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder when I was 18. I went to college (during those 5 years I was hospitalized twice) but graduated with honors in Business. I had never taken medication consistently and felt like my academic achievement and working 30-35 hrs...
    redhotblue22 redhotblue22 26-30 5 Responses Sep 30, 2011

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    I say stupid and do stupid things then regret

    them after . Why u do dis (:'( .
    FaceYourFearz FaceYourFearz 13-15, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I truly HATE the suicidal ideation

    that comes along with this mental health disease. It amazes me how our minds trick ourselves into thinking we are a "lost cause". "It will always be this way" and "it won't get better " Hollar if you hear me !
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 14

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