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I Am Bipolar

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    And it really sucks. Usually I can control it.

    But once in awhile I'll have these extreme mood swings. I'm usually very depressed. Most times I'll have suicidal thoughts and actions. I can't sleep. I feel very tired. And I don't eat. But then other times I'll feel way too happy and like I can't shut up and I can't...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Oct 21, 2015

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    I have absolutely no desire to get out of bed.

    I'm so fearful of going outside, maybe it's my social anxiety. I don't know what to do. No one understands me or takes my illness seriously, I feel so alone and incompetent. I can't even force myself to go outside and pick up my meds. I don't know if I can deal with this forever...
    StrangeDisaster StrangeDisaster 22-25, F 7 Responses Jul 17, 2015

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    ******* bipolar ruining my life.

    Ruining others lives. Don't even know what are valid emotions and whats this ******* illness. Don't know who I am. I know I am not who I was. That persons dead. That person was awesome. Now I am ruined.
    whothefkami whothefkami 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    Yes i am bipolar and it doesn't mean i'm crazy.

    I'm still living a normal life.
    kmgan kmgan 18-21, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    I hate having this disorder

    when everyone is so incompetent. I hate when girls use "I'm Bipolar" as an excuse for their bitchiness. This disorder is so much more than just getting irritated. There are times when it seems as though there is no way out of this dark hole, and there are other times when I feel...
    taydolla taydolla 18-21 1 Response Jan 4

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    I hate Bipolar disorder.

    It's awesome!
    ZenGrrrlLioNESS ZenGrrrlLioNESS 46-50, F 12 Responses Jan 8

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    One minute I want to run in a field of flowers,

    the next I want to put a bullet through my head... it ruins anything and everything. I'm incapable of happiness.. at first I felt I needed to hide myself away from everyone because of it now I'm just antisocial, it seems like every time I try to do what I think is right it turns...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2014

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    Recovering From Psychiatry- The Power of

    Psychiatric Diagnosis https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pHfzUAb57zo Something for people to ponder.
    SolitaryFriend SolitaryFriend 36-40, M Dec 30, 2015

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    What no one seems to talk much about is

    that there's a kind of psychological purgatory that exists somewhere in between the high points and the end of your rope. Those moments when you want to do nothing more than to run from yourself! We have a laundry list of triggers that catapult the slide into what feels like an...
    honestcloud honestcloud 26-30, F Oct 2, 2014

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    Did any of you notice that

    once u got on the right cocktail of meds your once through the roof s_x drive became "normal"???
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Aug 26, 2015

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    I was recently diagnosed with this disorder.

    I guess I've had it for a while, but the symptoms did not match until recently. I made many risky decisions during my manic stages, like spending too much money, when I am normally very frugal, and I thought I was invincible. Now I am in the "mixed stage". I am not super...
    JuliaHiC JuliaHiC 22-25 4 Responses Sep 18, 2014

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    It's hard having bipolar one moment you can be

    fine the next you're either sad or angry . I just wish people would try to understand us with mental illness . Nice I'm crying earlier I was mad and upset .
    unlovedbbw3085 unlovedbbw3085 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2015

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    my partner and I tried to specifically label my

    different moods today and i found it really helpful - especially in knowing how well I'll be able to react to stimulus, concentrate and communicate. :) 1. delirious happy 2. high-functioning happy 3. the content happy precipice 4. functional flat 5. fuzzy irritable 6. robot 7...
    plantpappi plantpappi 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 4

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    I have not had my medication in the week.

    I'm feeling very angry, irritable, drunk, very drunk actually, my lips and hands and feet are numb and tingly and I'm very horny. The weird thing is I am conservative generally but right now I kind of want to be sexually adventurous. How can two little pills οΏΌscrew me up to...
    WarriorPrincess862 WarriorPrincess862 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    Man I've been sleeping a lot the last few days

    and I can feel the motivation trying to run from me but I've been holding on to it so far. I just woke up and all I want to do it go back to sleep.
    wantingtobehappy84 wantingtobehappy84 26-30, F Jan 22

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    I haven't been on medication

    for about a year. I like not having to take meds everyday. It's gets kind of hard sometimes. Mostly the depression part. Like there are days where I can't imagine doing anything but sleeping. Mental illnesses are so frustrating because even if you're not physically restricted...
    churchdadatnight churchdadatnight 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 12

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    And meds dont work But do help doctors And

    pill makers Make unearned profits
    OddButResilient OddButResilient 46-50, M 3 days ago

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    I hate the low moments I go through

    but I hate the high moments even more. My highs are always extreme. I become very impulsive and get a sense of euphoria from doing things that I 9/10x will regret later. There's been times where I've woke up and told myself I'm going to quit my job today and actually went...
    GoldenRoses GoldenRoses 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 2

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    I feel like no one gets me

    and when I tell some folks about having bipolar it's like they assume I'm crazy and I feel like I can't date cause of it
    animegurl3085 animegurl3085 26-30, F 5 Responses Jan 14

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    omgwut omgwut 41-45, M 2 Responses May 20, 2015

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    My normal scattered brained intro.

    .. Not sure where to start, but I have to get it out so I can start to focus, now is the time to focus. My new job is going well, the girl training me even said she was proud that I was picking things up fast. However... this girl has chatted with multiple other staff members...
    wantingtobehappy84 wantingtobehappy84 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 2

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    I lay in my bed staring at the ceiling.

    Everyone's voices sound so far away. My eyelids are heavy and I am curled in a ball. I can't move. I have go be still. If I am still nothing bad can happen. If I move the trail of fog and hatred will follow me like a shadow. I won't let it follow me. It consumes me too much . it...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 5, 2015

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    I've been struggling lately about taking my

    meds. I know they keep me stable but the side effects are getting to me. Weight gain, tiredness, lack of sexual desire.... What do you guys do to combat the side effects? Anyone here successfully treat their bipolar without meds?
    BlissfulBoredom BlissfulBoredom 26-30, F 8 Responses 4 days ago

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    mellowwwave mellowwwave 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2014

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    Please someone talk to me.

    I really need a friend. I'm sick of living like this. I don't want to do this for the rest of my life, can't control myself, can't control my emotions, I explode on people, they resent me - if only they knew, inside my head, the demons that exist. They beat me up, they laugh at...
    happycupcake happycupcake 22-25, F 6 Responses Nov 17, 2014

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    I had this doctor once

    who said " bipolar isn't so bad. If I had to chose between diabetes and bipolar is chose bipolar because it's very treatable". And I was like firstly, you have neither bipolar nor diabetes so how the hell do you know that? And saying bipolar is very treatable is very relative...
    AnonymousKCQ AnonymousKCQ 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 30

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    I recently got a job at a local hospital,

    which is a field far beyond what I have ever done, and it made me realize that I long for someone to just be there for me and take care of me. It goes beyond being pampered or not wanting to do anything. It's an intense need to know that someone can take care of me. I have both...
    EmmaBrooke24 EmmaBrooke24 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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    I've been doing good

    but today I'm crawling. Bipolar disorder is a full time job, no one understands it expect others with a mood disorder. Families have empathy for physical illness. But when it comes to a mood disorder because your sick they just think your lazy. I am looking after a wife with...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jul 10, 2015

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    Does anyone else have

    that thing where you're feeling okay, everything's normal, and all of a sudden you drop off a cliff and think "I have to kill myself," and then it goes away in a few seconds and you're back to where you were, thinking what the hell just happened?
    crossproduct crossproduct 41-45, F 4 Responses Jan 7

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    The most annoying thing someone can tell me is

    that I shouldn't take medication for my bipolar. People sometimes say I just need to learn to manage my emotions on my own. I'm sure some people can manage their disorder without medications but that doesn't mean that applies to everyone: we are all different. Don't you think...
    AnonymousKCQ AnonymousKCQ 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 29

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    Lotusflower80 Lotusflower80 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 6, 2015

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    I think if I take this nap I'll be ok,

    as if it were a reset button of some sort. I got hit with that overwhelmed feeling. So much going on in my brain, but when I try to accomplish one task I can't think of anything to do so I'm stuck. Before I let it completely take over, I left work, which I'm allowed to do, with...
    wantingtobehappy84 wantingtobehappy84 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    The Gifts Of Bipolar

    What is the nature of disability? What does the idea mean? It is a statistical concept, I think. Which is to say, it is a measure of comparison. We can only be β€œdisabled” in comparison to a group of others who have more ability on this particular measure. Everyone can be...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 13 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    So for the first time in my life I sought

    treatment for bipolar. I was put on meds. I gotta say. Damn I wish I'd of done this yrs ago! I feel calm. I don't feel that rage or depression or like im about to go fly off a building for fun. lol I just feel normal! The last few days have been the calmest I've ever been in my...
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 22, 2015

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    Being bipolar doesn't automatically make you

    evil or violent. I am bipolar and I do not hit or hurt people when angry. My mood swings can be really bad but I know not to harm people around me, for I would feel 100x worse :( so when someone tells you the are bipolar, don't run away. How do you think that makes us feel...
    xdizzybutterflyx xdizzybutterflyx 18-21, F 5 Responses May 29, 2015

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    Does anyone have experience dealing with pain

    management? I'm starting to feel at a loss on how to deal with the two. Also I'm not able to exercise properly or be outdoors as much as I ought to be. Any advice on a temporary transition to being indoors often.
    Polis195 Polis195 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 5

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    Those of you who are on anti convulsants

    as a mood stabilizer. (seizure meds) Do you find that if ur off with a dose or two you start getting very unstable with ur temper? I find that if I do that. I start getting very irritable and snappy at ppl. It takes me like 3 doses to kick it an go back to a more calm mood. The...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Aug 18, 2015

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    Being bipolar at times sucks

    even though the meds help sometimes it's other who don't understand me
    krazkcatlady3085 krazkcatlady3085 26-30, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    It'S Who I Am !

    Learned I was bipolar about 3yrs ago I'm very different as I allways knew but sorta good way. I will try to make anyone laugh smile fit in. I'm prolly to open with life I will spill my guts to whoever will listen. I will try to find the good in anyone till prove me wrong. I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 27, 2013

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    La-la-love Latuda! I truly

    and honestly believed that I was never going to get better. I had had success with Lamictal and Geodon as far as controlling the mania and mixed episodes, but I still suffered from totally and completely crippling depression and anxiety. We had tried everything short of ECT...
    SeaOfMonsters SeaOfMonsters 26-30, F 7 Responses Jul 21, 2014

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    F..ck me! I'm in a serious mania episode!

    Hyper and extremely irritable! I hate this type! I like the happy hyper! guess it looks like my meds need fixed again! Ugh! I was warned it was a challenge getting on the right meds and it might never work out! I'm not like some that their mood swings are mild. Mine are at least...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 28, 2015

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    I was diagnosed 25 years ago,

    and to be honest, idgaf if people think I'm crazy. If you suffer with what people think because of it, then you're letting their opinions win. A wise man, (my Dad), once told me this: "Opinions are like ********. Everyone has one, and some of them stink!" Keep going. Research...
    ZenGrrrlLioNESS ZenGrrrlLioNESS 46-50, F 6 Responses Dec 22, 2015

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    I ran out of meds for a

    while in between doctors recently, so I got a stuffed mammoth and named it Klonopin. My anti-anxiety mammoth.
    rainallthedays rainallthedays 31-35, F Sep 7, 2014

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    I'm finally starting to feel more like myself!

    !! I can freely laugh and not stop at times. πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ But during a laughing fit I can flip and want to beat the **** out of someone that is rude or disrespectful! 😑 Ooh look something shiny! πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‘πŸ’€πŸ‘‹πŸ»πŸ‘ŠπŸ»πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚
    WarriorPrincess862 WarriorPrincess862 36-40, F Jan 20

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    So its been 6 days that I've been on my meds.

    I feel amazing. No more rage, no more depression, no more mania (feeling like im so damn hyper and ready to go jump off a building for fun). I feel so calm. I can think more clearly. I can concentrate. Things dont bother me like they use to. Its just crazy how much a difference...
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 24, 2015

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