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I Am Bipolar

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    Experiencing mania big time.

    I feel awesome, but a little irritable.
    Danae102 Danae102 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    What no one seems to talk much about is

    that there's a kind of psychological purgatory that exists somewhere in between the high points and the end of your rope. Those moments when you want to do nothing more than to run from yourself! We have a laundry list of triggers that catapult the slide into what feels like an...
    honestcloud honestcloud 26-30, F Oct 2

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    And rapid cycling all day.

    All day. All fokyn day. Fok. Stoopid fokyn doctors. Greedy fokyn pill makers. Chicken shyte therapists. Want to win the lottery and start my own healing commune. But will probably have to do so overseas. Since cures aint popular in america.
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M Oct 21

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    I was recently diagnosed with this disorder.

    I guess I've had it for a while, but the symptoms did not match until recently. I made many risky decisions during my manic stages, like spending too much money, when I am normally very frugal, and I thought I was invincible. Now I am in the "mixed stage". I am not super...
    heiseyjulia heiseyjulia 22-25 4 Responses Sep 18

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    Kinda hating life right now.

    Everything is pretty unbearable. Could use some hope but can't find any light.
    mmmmika mmmmika 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 5

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    I ran out of meds for a

    while in between doctors recently, so I got a stuffed mammoth and named it Klonopin. My anti-anxiety mammoth.
    rainallthedays rainallthedays 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    Bipolar Bares All! Film At 11:00!

    I'm Bipolar all right, I certainly don't make a secret of it.  I wrote a memoir of Manic Depression which I continue to flog with the annoying insistence of a child tugging on a parent's pant leg.  I've lectured on it at universities and medical schools.  I've...
    ElLagarto ElLagarto 56-60, M 12 Responses Jul 12, 2007

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    Bipolar is not psychotic I was first diagnosed

    with just depression & anxiety when i left home for college. Got on antidepressant meds. Didnt stay consistent with the meds til i was older. Once the meds were making steady improvement my new doctor thought i was having mania symptoms because i talked about some unrealistic...
    Stufy Stufy 46-50, F 1 Response May 26

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    Wish My Brain Would Shut The Hell Up!

    Yep...i'm bipolar.  Bipolar 1, manic depressive if we want to get clinical.  It royally sucks.  Can't really put a sugar coating on what it is.  I was diagnosed right before I started a 2 year prison sentence.  I'd embezzled mass amounts of money from a company I had worked...
    m2extreme m2extreme 31-35, F 13 Responses Apr 26, 2011

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    It'S Who I Am !

    Learned I was bipolar about 3yrs ago I'm very different as I allways knew but sorta good way. I will try to make anyone laugh smile fit in. I'm prolly to open with life I will spill my guts to whoever will listen. I will try to find the good in anyone till prove me wrong. I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 27, 2013

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    I'm in the hospital now

    because my symptoms got too out of control to manage. I was diagnosed in October 2013 and started lithium. A month later I started on my anti-psychotic, risperidone. These were the only two meds I was taking until I went through a period of depression so bad that I ended up in...
    xImparfaitex xImparfaitex 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    I've been experiencing

    such a low this past month, people who are not bipolar or who have not suffered mental illness don't seem to understand what it's like when you can feel helpless as it completely encases you and you don't have the strength sometimes to fight it. I can't stand it when someone...
    Mystic74 Mystic74 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 24

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    My Mother Claims That I'm Just Slavic.

    My mom's 100% Polish.  She says that Slavs just have mood swings.  I think I'm bipolar, but she doesn't believe in psychological illnesses.  I know that I'm old enough to go to a doctor and get diagnosed for myself, but I still live under my parents' thumbs while...
    Chanteuse1984 Chanteuse1984 26-30, F 10 Responses Jun 6, 2007

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    I don't know if I am officially

    but I feel like I could be. I can't focus, my moods come in stages & I feel like I have "episodes". I get very irritable & my thoughts are completely irrational. I've never liked the music from Iggy Azalea or Ariana Grande, it used to be that simple...I just didn't like them...
    ncon08 ncon08 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    To be honest I think everyone is little bipolar

    but there are some people that truly struggle with being bipolar.
    euphorian euphorian 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 21

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    I have a secret. I'm Bipolar Type II.

    I hide my illness as well as I can for the fear of being stigmatized by society. The word bipolar is so popular in pop-culture now that it's very common to hear someone being called bipolar if they have mood swings, or if they are two faced and act like two different people. It...
    Enaud21 Enaud21 31-35, M 3 Responses May 22

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    Crashing..

    I welcome you like I welcome an old familiar enemy. I know you all too well, you are a part of me. Whenever I go through a period filled with energy and initiative, you are there. Always. To bring me back to reality, to keep me from having fun and enjoying life. It's time again...
    livingalieforsolong livingalieforsolong 31-35 6 Responses Jul 29, 2013

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    Bipolar's got me feeling okay again & my

    friends think I'm insane for breaking down 1 minute then being okay the next... What's new though?
    mciarleglio26 mciarleglio26 18-21 3 Responses Oct 6

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    I Am Not Bipolar, I Have Bipolar

    I want to start by explaining my story title. If you have Diabetes you are not Diabetes, you have Diabetes. Similarly I am not Bipolar, I have Bipolar. My story starts when I was very young, so I have no idea if I was born with Bipolar, or just developed it later. I can...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M Sep 7, 2012

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    Being a Bipolar Student

    I have been officially diagnosed as being Bipolar I for a little over three years. As I have gotten older my symptoms and cycles have continually progressed and become more difficult to control or recognize. Luckily, I have an amazingly supportive family, and I have been...
    themanicmind themanicmind 22-25, F 12 Responses Mar 2, 2009

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    For those of you who have a Facebook

    or Twitter; please consider spreading the word to help end the stigma. It won't end unless we raise our voices!
    ThistleAndWeeds ThistleAndWeeds 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 5

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    Was just diagnosed today,

    though the doctor seemed eager to give me the diagnosis, will have to do more research and other opinions.
    Axelerator3000 Axelerator3000 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 9

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    I can't deal with manic depression,

    it's ruining my life. I feel absolutely exhausted. :(
    HelpMeSurviveDepression HelpMeSurviveDepression 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 1

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    I have Bipolar NOS. I take Lithium,

    anti psychotics and anti depressants. I have a stable life, I've been diagnosed for 3 years. I have depressive and manic episodes which are getting milder and milder - but still swing. I have psychotic episodes which get worser as time goes on. All in all I'm happy with my...
    atatt atatt 26-30, F Oct 19

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    I say and do stupid thungs

    and not realize it till after ... I wish I was a normal functioning being... dont want to be so irritated and angry then sad all the time...
    Mihkowakayios Mihkowakayios 13-15, M 2 Responses Oct 7

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    At times it gets sad & depressed,

    then comes with extreme anger that needs lashing out, before going back to sadness and depression. But more than ever before on the second way round. And worse than ever. The depression on the second way on end of the three step cycle is worse than ever. The first is horrible...
    OKPunk OKPunk 18-21, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    My mom has bipolar disorder.

    She was improperly diagnosed, and treated with the wrong medications for years. They curbed her manic phases, but made her depression worse. My childhood was extremely inconsistent with her mood swinging all over the place, and I found that being in control of myself was the...
    casuallyscreaming casuallyscreaming 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 23

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    Acceptance

    I am a diagnosed BiPolar II. And also dual diagnosis with many other associated types of dissorders, anxiety-panic-border personality-etc.    I was diagnosed at 16 but went off meds at about 18. I am now 31 and only last year have sought help for these issues. Am...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 15 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    broke my ipod because I was irritated.

    LMAO just anotha day in the life....
    Mihkowakayios Mihkowakayios 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 2

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    ModifiedMamaofTwo ModifiedMamaofTwo 16-17, F Oct 17

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    Just disgnosed today,

    I don't agree with all the symptoms, but quite a few of them seem to fit. So yeah.
    tronical tronical 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 9

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    My mood are very unpredictable sometimes.

    Sometimes, I experience a period of sadness and sometimes, I experience a period of euphoria. It is very unstable. That why I rather act impulsively sometimes and may do something stupid or spending my whole day depressed.
    DelonWulf DelonWulf 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    It's almost like screaming underwater.

    No one can hear my screams and the pain from everything flooding into my lungs is deafening. Nothing helps and it never seems to get better. I just pray for Mania to make her way, so that Depression's deadly grip can subside. The enthusiasm and energy will fade once Mania...
    honestcloud honestcloud 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    Bipolar, But Without The Fun

    I've been diagnosed with Bipolar II, which they tell me is bipolar with only mild mania, but deeper depressions. Who knows if that's what I truly am, I've been misdiagnosed so many times, but it seems true. I've been coming down from a slight manic run, and the depression is...
    shygrl85 shygrl85 22-25, F 14 Responses Feb 15, 2010

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    What I Miss About Being Crazy!

    Almost five years ago I was diagnosed as bipolar. Or was I diagnosed with bipolar disorder? Is there a real difference between saying I’m bipolar and saying I have bipolar disorder? I mean, semantically, you can see one as a label for me and the other as the label for a...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 1 Response Sep 26, 2012

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    Im type 2, moderate with no psychosis.

    Don't confuse bipolar disorder with BPD because that's abbreviation for borderline personality disorder, (although they sometimes go together.)Bipolar disorder used to be called manic depressive which is more descriptive. Since it's a mood disorder in which the patient has severe...
    Stufy Stufy 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 1

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    broke my ipod because I was irritated.

    LMAO just anotha day in the life....
    Mihkowakayios Mihkowakayios 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 2

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    La-la-love Latuda! I truly

    and honestly believed that I was never going to get better. I had had success with Lamictal and Geodon as far as controlling the mania and mixed episodes, but I still suffered from totally and completely crippling depression and anxiety. We had tried everything short of ECT...
    SeaOfMonsters SeaOfMonsters 26-30, F 7 Responses Jul 21

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    I was diagnosed bipolar 2 months ago

    after having a breakdown of epic proportions, deciding to end it all, and waiting on the train tracks at 3 in the morning. I've been bipolar all my life as so many have joked in the past so having a chemical imbalance is hardly reason to blame for the epic meltdown but it did...
    johnnyringo23 johnnyringo23 31-35, M 2 Responses Jun 4

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    I'm hoping exhaustion kicks in now

    so I can sleep tonight. This mixed state **** is ridiculous and medication isn't doing anything. Getting an appointment with my psychiatrist at the hospital is impossible and I'm slowly giving up.
    bananananaxo bananananaxo 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 15

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    I am bipolar and it effects my life I can't do

    what other people do when my meds aren't working there is a lot of drama I don't always know what to say or do I am tired of being this way I want to move on with my life so bad but something always holds me back it not right so I am going to try and not let anyone hold me back...
    guinness26 guinness26 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 9

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    For all of you fighting this,

    I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression and bipolar http://bipolar2medstudent.blogspot.com/
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F Sep 29

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    Two years ago I was diagnosed with depression

    (although I have been suffering from depression for much longer). Since then, I have been questioning whether I suffer from depression alone, or whether I might be bipolar. Looking back at my life I notice that I've had episodes of Hypomania. I'm going to seek professional...
    HelpMeSurviveDepression HelpMeSurviveDepression 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 30

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    I M Bipolar

    Without medication i have racing speech, anxiety attacks, i wont sleep, and have lots of energy. I am taking meds and they are working for me. I go to a support group call DBSA (depression, bipolar support alliance) . I have friends that understand my mental illness. The...
    starship33 starship33 36-40, F 9 Responses Nov 6, 2012

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    I always yell and get angry

    for no reason but then out of nowhere i calm down. This happens every afternoon am i bipolar?
    Sammyboi6969 Sammyboi6969 18-21, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm Bipolar, Not A Killer.

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about 7 years ago.  My meds have changed several times and the stuff I’m taking right now seems to be doing its job with minimal side effects.  My only problem is my family, they…treat me differently now, like they...
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F 153 Responses Jun 6, 2010

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    Bipolar

    I was first diagnosed with bipolar disorder at age 18. I was having a bible study with my girlfriend and her family when all of a sudden my personality just went from 0 to 60. I was super happy and energetic. I felt great. On my way home I was talking to people and even myself...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    They are pushing me down.

    I was rapid cycling for awhile so my job performance slipped. Then my performance gets better and they tell me that they are going to put me on a corrective action plan or I can resign. I was able to talk them into letting me voluntarily demote myself. It's a huge pay cut. I'm...
    kiragirl79 kiragirl79 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 25

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    I get very very high

    and then I crash. I hate when I crash.
    lovelinessbathes lovelinessbathes 31-35, M 3 Responses Apr 7

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    I Am Not An Evil, Crazy Criminal!!!!

     Oh; bipolar. Bring up the word to many, and they will usually associate it with one they know whose mood flips at a switch. Or, better yet, they begin to tell you the story of their last girlfriend who chased them around the house with a knife. Oh, and the people in denial...
    dgrey63 dgrey63 46-50, F 5 Responses Sep 29, 2011

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    A Short Narrative of a Manic Episode

        I was walking up to my high school’s football field as all of the school stood in the bleachers waiting for me but I had come up from behind to where the cheerleaders and dance team were. I remember one girl yelling, “Hey Scott...
    Scottsimdb Scottsimdb 18-21 34 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    A poem I wrote about Bipolar,

    which I call simply 'River'. Pain like a river, a tsunami if you will I feel it deep within my veins, god how it makes me feel ill. I cast out tonight, desperate and blind, reeled in some new friends for whose virtual hugs I do pine. Bipolar river, the black and blue sea...
    RealJax0009 RealJax0009 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 30

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    I truly HATE the suicidal ideation

    that comes along with this mental health disease. It amazes me how our minds trick ourselves into thinking we are a "lost cause". "It will always be this way" and "it won't get better " Hollar if you hear me !
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 14

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