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I Am Bipolar

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    Bipolar, But Without The Fun

    I've been diagnosed with Bipolar II, which they tell me is bipolar with only mild mania, but deeper depressions. Who knows if that's what I truly am, I've been misdiagnosed so many times, but it seems true. I've been coming down from a slight manic run, and the depression is...
    shygrl85 shygrl85 22-25, F 14 Responses Feb 15, 2010

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    Today is a bad day, I woke up feeling very empty

    and my head was so fuzzy. I have absolutely no energy and can't see the good in anything right now. I have so much work to do and I can't seem to type properly and most of my sentences need to be retyped because they don't make sense. I don't want to be around others but i'm...
    Tilly95 Tilly95 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    But not beyond decent.

    Thanks to helpful people. Met hunting decent people. EP Link
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Apr 10

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    I have recently found out

    that I am bipolar and have been going through several medications to try and treat it but so far none have been right for me. It is very difficult to deal with and I hear it is best to make friends who are bipolar also because of what you have in common. As you can imagine that...
    JCP2 JCP2 22-25, M 23 mins ago

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    I truly believe the problem with high rates of

    depression and bipolar disorder is Our food being GMOs. Due to the lack of nutrition in our food. Why do I get sick when I don't supplement. People wake up we are being made sick for the sack of profits. Label all GMOs or grow your own food.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 16

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    Being a Bipolar Student

    I have been officially diagnosed as being Bipolar I for a little over three years. As I have gotten older my symptoms and cycles have continually progressed and become more difficult to control or recognize. Luckily, I have an amazingly supportive family, and I have been...
    themanicmind themanicmind 22-25, F 12 Responses Mar 2, 2009

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    La-la-love Latuda! I truly

    and honestly believed that I was never going to get better. I had had success with Lamictal and Geodon as far as controlling the mania and mixed episodes, but I still suffered from totally and completely crippling depression and anxiety. We had tried everything short of ECT...
    SeaOfMonsters SeaOfMonsters 26-30, F 7 Responses Jul 21, 2014

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    I lay in my bed staring at the ceiling.

    Everyone's voices sound so far away. My eyelids are heavy and I am curled in a ball. I can't move. I have go be still. If I am still nothing bad can happen. If I move the trail of fog and hatred will follow me like a shadow. I won't let it follow me. It consumes me too much . it...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 5

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    I was recently diagnosed with this disorder.

    I guess I've had it for a while, but the symptoms did not match until recently. I made many risky decisions during my manic stages, like spending too much money, when I am normally very frugal, and I thought I was invincible. Now I am in the "mixed stage". I am not super...
    heiseyjulia heiseyjulia 22-25 3 Responses Sep 18, 2014

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    my depression is out of control.

    my dr gave me a new med to add to the cocktail of meds I take but the insurance is holding it up. im like a f*cking storm tonight destroying everything in my path. ugh!
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    I am no longer am going to let people make feel

    bad about bipolar. I and poor of and love men and women who have lived successfully with it. There is so much a pain that we know the only way is to release it and move on. We can be the kindest gentlest people. Can't stand the stigma out there and people thinking that they are...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 30

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    Manic episode just came to a screeching halt.

    ..WTF do I do?? People are being so distant! More like WTF did I do? I have no self confidence & can't take it much longer! Help!
    IrisRays IrisRays 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    Acceptance

    I am a diagnosed BiPolar II. And also dual diagnosis with many other associated types of dissorders, anxiety-panic-border personality-etc.    I was diagnosed at 16 but went off meds at about 18. I am now 31 and only last year have sought help for these issues. Am...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 15 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    It'S Who I Am !

    Learned I was bipolar about 3yrs ago I'm very different as I allways knew but sorta good way. I will try to make anyone laugh smile fit in. I'm prolly to open with life I will spill my guts to whoever will listen. I will try to find the good in anyone till prove me wrong. I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 27, 2013

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    Ok I think I'm manic

    because I've been pacing a lot lately and I've been wanting to drink. I also just took 3 and a half times the normal dosage of ADHD meds so they're gonna kick in soon. I'm worried about myself when I start doing these reckless things. I feel like there are no consequences to...
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 21

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    I ran out of meds for a

    while in between doctors recently, so I got a stuffed mammoth and named it Klonopin. My anti-anxiety mammoth.
    rainallthedays rainallthedays 31-35, F Sep 7, 2014

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    I am bipolar 1. This week I have been manic.

    Manic episodes are like a break from reality. But once the depression sets in my world just crumbles. The sky is not blue I see it as black. That is what I love about being bipolar! The high moods are the best part about it. I find with my medication it tappers off in the...
    xdarkangelx666 xdarkangelx666 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm in the hospital now

    because my symptoms got too out of control to manage. I was diagnosed in October 2013 and started lithium. A month later I started on my anti-psychotic, risperidone. These were the only two meds I was taking until I went through a period of depression so bad that I ended up in...
    avey10 avey10 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 6, 2014

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    One minute I want to run in a field of flowers,

    the next I want to put a bullet through my head... it ruins anything and everything. I'm incapable of happiness.. at first I felt I needed to hide myself away from everyone because of it now I'm just antisocial, it seems like every time I try to do what I think is right it turns...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    Bipolar Bares All! Film At 11:00!

    I'm Bipolar all right, I certainly don't make a secret of it.  I wrote a memoir of Manic Depression which I continue to flog with the annoying insistence of a child tugging on a parent's pant leg.  I've lectured on it at universities and medical schools.  I've...
    ElLagarto ElLagarto 56-60, M 12 Responses Jul 12, 2007

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    I'm Bipolar, Not A Killer.

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about 7 years ago.  My meds have changed several times and the stuff I’m taking right now seems to be doing its job with minimal side effects.  My only problem is my family, they…treat me differently now, like they...
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F 151 Responses Jun 6, 2010

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    I my wife and I went to her therapist

    and she told her she must leave me. She said because I was suicidal I was possibly violent. I am getting rid of my and her therapist because of this. I am also getting rid of my therapist about this too. If anyone knows me I am a kind loving man that would not harm my wife or...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 13

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    The Gifts Of Bipolar

    What is the nature of disability? What does the idea mean? It is a statistical concept, I think. Which is to say, it is a measure of comparison. We can only be “disabled” in comparison to a group of others who have more ability on this particular measure. Everyone can be...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 13 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    Bipolar

    I was first diagnosed with bipolar disorder at age 18. I was having a bible study with my girlfriend and her family when all of a sudden my personality just went from 0 to 60. I was super happy and energetic. I felt great. On my way home I was talking to people and even myself...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    I was hospitalized for the red flags signs of

    suicide. The police had to escort me to the hospital. After accessed I was later released. I am ashamed to be this way. The problem was the need that the police had to detain me for my safety. The police were very kind with me. I started crying when he told me he had guns...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 8

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    I want to a cabin in a remote area without a

    phone I hate being bothered by telemarketers. Unlisted the number and I still get them calling. I want to be left alone. Maybe it's my bipolar but when don't want them near me
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 30

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    Ugh... im so sick of my mood changing

    so drastically that I feel like im different people from time to time. It sucks :( I need different meds, but I'm afraid it'll cost me my job :-( I'm type 1 with rapid cycling/ mixed episodes and psychosis. I just want to be stable again. .. sigh. Im going to do research, but...
    WolfOfDreams WolfOfDreams 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I truly HATE the suicidal ideation

    that comes along with this mental health disease. It amazes me how our minds trick ourselves into thinking we are a "lost cause". "It will always be this way" and "it won't get better " Hollar if you hear me !
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 14, 2014

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    Hi, I'm a 21 year old medical student living

    abroad, I was diagnosed with bipolar nearly 3 years ago, and before that I struggled a lot. I let it get quite far before my family told me to seek medical help, and finally gave me the courage to take a step forward. I've dealt with severe depression and bipolar for as long as...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F a week ago

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    I wasn't feeling like myself this past year.

    ..my world felt like it was falling apart, but at the same time it all made sense. It was the most confusing time of my life to say the least. A few weeks ago I was diagnosed with manic depressive disorder aka bipolar. I'm on meds for it now and they seem to be helping, but my...
    sheviteija sheviteija 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    The trouble everybody knows

    or thinks Im crazy and wants to lock me up. Things are going so good today. I know anywhere I go I will not be understood for being anything more than mad. It is so lonely when Im feel this way.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 10

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    I've been off my meds

    and been doing crazy things.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 30

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    Bipolar one disorder

    and depression. Been like this for as long as I can remember, I've learned that keeping a journal really helps.
    inloveandeath inloveandeath 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    My Mother Claims That I'm Just Slavic.

    My mom's 100% Polish.  She says that Slavs just have mood swings.  I think I'm bipolar, but she doesn't believe in psychological illnesses.  I know that I'm old enough to go to a doctor and get diagnosed for myself, but I still live under my parents' thumbs while...
    Chanteuse1984 Chanteuse1984 26-30, F 10 Responses Jun 6, 2007

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    I Have an Illness One you cannot see - it's

    invisible unless you know where to look One you cannot hear - unless you listen very closely One you cannot feel - unless you truly know the person who's suffering or have been there yourself I was diagnosed with major depression and anxiety back in 2009, then bipolar...
    Aelfwynn Aelfwynn 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 2, 2014

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    Biggest face palm moment in my life!

    So I was talking someone on here and they said "Your cute. Want to be my boyfriend?" I was like "Thanks but I am not into guys." Then they replied "But I thought you were Bipolar?" I blew it off and then it happened again with another person! What makes people think that bipolar...
    AllTheEmotions AllTheEmotions 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 1

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    mellowwwave mellowwwave 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2014

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    Bipolar is not psychotic I was first diagnosed

    with just depression & anxiety when i left home for college. Got on antidepressant meds. Didnt stay consistent with the meds til i was older. Once the meds were making steady improvement my new doctor thought i was having mania symptoms because i talked about some unrealistic...
    stufy stufy 46-50 1 Response May 26, 2014

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    People say I'm dangerous.

    This just plain ignorance and stigma. I suffer so much pain why would I inflect pain on others. Pain is seeing people hurt that don't deserve it.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 15

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    Is it normal to be on 3 different meds?

    The doctor said 1 (amitriptyline) is for sleep and then I'm taking 5mg Abilify and 300mg Valproic acid. I don't like taking medicine. I'm really hoping I won't have to stay on it long term, but everything I read says that for bipolar you have keep taking it. Has anyone ever...
    thornedrose thornedrose 18-21, F 7 Responses Apr 24

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    I family is starting to get involved with my

    crisis. Funny how bad things come into Good things.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 9

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    I recently started outpatient therapy in an

    adolescence mental hospital. I left my former therapist for this and was pretty nervous to meet my new therapist. I've already done a bunch of personality tests and intelligence tests but I hadn't had an actual therapy session at this "hospital". So this Thursday me and my mum...
    littlebird88 littlebird88 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I feel like I am screaming

    and no one hears. This hollow is so deep dark and never-ending. What future can Be before me Whos hand will I hold. Where is the manuel for this rollercoaster The highs and lows truly govern my life. The unanswered questions The rejection of the ones you love Hurts more...
    complex7 complex7 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    Not go today another scammer approached me I

    hadn't taken my meds and I to them the big F off
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    Mania to depressed and back rapid cycling can't

    get any sleep. The cycling all today and going mad
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