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    I always yell and get angry

    for no reason but then out of nowhere i calm down. This happens every afternoon am i bipolar?
    Sammyboi6969 Sammyboi6969 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 26

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    Anywhere But Me..... So the doctor says I just

    need to get a little more sleep and I'll start to feel better. Guess he's never been in my head at bedtime. Hell, the reason I don't sleep is so that I can distract myself from all voices, all the noises that seem to come alive when I shut the lights off and close my eyes. I...
    JesseLeeJames JesseLeeJames 46-50, M 2 Responses Nov 10

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    It's almost like screaming underwater.

    No one can hear my screams and the pain from everything flooding into my lungs is deafening. Nothing helps and it never seems to get better. I just pray for Mania to make her way, so that Depression's deadly grip can subside. The enthusiasm and energy will fade once Mania...
    honestcloud honestcloud 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    haha so fun to have massive mood swings

    and go from wanting to be loved to wanting to throw myself down the stairs. having everyone around you telling you to control yourself and stop being a "*****" or that you are a freak. having gnawing feelings of people actually deeply hating you then over exercising to ignore...
    madoki madoki 16-17 1 Response Nov 2

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    Has anyone here taken Lamictol?

    If so, did you see a significant drop in your short term memory? I'm literally to the point where I turn around and can't remember what I'm doing. Like washing the dishes and turning around to look for more, but once I'm facing the other way I completely forget I was doing.
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    The Gifts Of Bipolar

    What is the nature of disability? What does the idea mean? It is a statistical concept, I think. Which is to say, it is a measure of comparison. We can only be “disabled” in comparison to a group of others who have more ability on this particular measure. Everyone can be...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 13 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    I am bipolar and it effects my life I can't do

    what other people do when my meds aren't working there is a lot of drama I don't always know what to say or do I am tired of being this way I want to move on with my life so bad but something always holds me back it not right so I am going to try and not let anyone hold me back...
    guinness26 guinness26 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 9

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    Experiencing mania big time.

    I feel awesome, but a little irritable.
    Danae102 Danae102 18-21, F Oct 28

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    To be honest I think everyone is little bipolar

    but there are some people that truly struggle with being bipolar.
    euphorian euphorian 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 21

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    yesiigarciaa yesiigarciaa 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13

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    I have Bipolar NOS. I take Lithium,

    anti psychotics and anti depressants. I have a stable life, I've been diagnosed for 3 years. I have depressive and manic episodes which are getting milder and milder - but still swing. I have psychotic episodes which get worser as time goes on. All in all I'm happy with my...
    atatt atatt 26-30, F Oct 19

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    It'S Who I Am !

    Learned I was bipolar about 3yrs ago I'm very different as I allways knew but sorta good way. I will try to make anyone laugh smile fit in. I'm prolly to open with life I will spill my guts to whoever will listen. I will try to find the good in anyone till prove me wrong. I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 27, 2013

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    A Short Narrative of a Manic Episode

        I was walking up to my high school’s football field as all of the school stood in the bleachers waiting for me but I had come up from behind to where the cheerleaders and dance team were. I remember one girl yelling, “Hey Scott...
    Scottsimdb Scottsimdb 18-21 34 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    Wish My Brain Would Shut The Hell Up!

    Yep...i'm bipolar.  Bipolar 1, manic depressive if we want to get clinical.  It royally sucks.  Can't really put a sugar coating on what it is.  I was diagnosed right before I started a 2 year prison sentence.  I'd embezzled mass amounts of money from a company I had worked...
    m2extreme m2extreme 31-35, F 13 Responses Apr 26, 2011

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    I was recently diagnosed with this disorder.

    I guess I've had it for a while, but the symptoms did not match until recently. I made many risky decisions during my manic stages, like spending too much money, when I am normally very frugal, and I thought I was invincible. Now I am in the "mixed stage". I am not super...
    heiseyjulia heiseyjulia 22-25 4 Responses Sep 18

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    OK, so, yes, I am and that's all fine

    and great. I'm also rapid cycling and that's been a huge problem these past 2 months or so. Today, well, for almost a week now, I've been getting very little sleep because of one of the kids being sick. This is messing with me pretty bad, as anyone with bipolar knows. Plus I'm...
    omgwut omgwut 41-45, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    La-la-love Latuda! I truly

    and honestly believed that I was never going to get better. I had had success with Lamictal and Geodon as far as controlling the mania and mixed episodes, but I still suffered from totally and completely crippling depression and anxiety. We had tried everything short of ECT...
    SeaOfMonsters SeaOfMonsters 26-30, F 7 Responses Jul 21

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    One minute I'm happy

    and everything is fine and the next minute I'm upset and angry and dont want anyone talking to me ugh I really got issues. That's the reason why everyone hate getting on my bad said cuz they all know that I'm bipolar
    catycaty16 catycaty16 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Bipolar

    I was first diagnosed with bipolar disorder at age 18. I was having a bible study with my girlfriend and her family when all of a sudden my personality just went from 0 to 60. I was super happy and energetic. I felt great. On my way home I was talking to people and even myself...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    I truly HATE the suicidal ideation

    that comes along with this mental health disease. It amazes me how our minds trick ourselves into thinking we are a "lost cause". "It will always be this way" and "it won't get better " Hollar if you hear me !
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 14

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    Got a new doctor and met with him today

    and in those 5 minutes without asking me anything he completely dismissed my bipolar. Only talking about my bpd. This made me angry because the doctor I've had since I was 15 said I did have it and I trust her and other doctors from when I was in hospital also think I do. He's...
    bananananaxo bananananaxo 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    One minute I want to run in a field of flowers,

    the next I want to put a bullet through my head... it ruins anything and everything. I'm incapable of happiness.. at first I felt I needed to hide myself away from everyone because of it now I'm just antisocial, it seems like every time I try to do what I think is right it turns...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 1 Response Nov 2

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    Bipolar Bares All! Film At 11:00!

    I'm Bipolar all right, I certainly don't make a secret of it.  I wrote a memoir of Manic Depression which I continue to flog with the annoying insistence of a child tugging on a parent's pant leg.  I've lectured on it at universities and medical schools.  I've...
    ElLagarto ElLagarto 56-60, M 12 Responses Jul 12, 2007

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    I AM AND I AM NOT AFRAID TO USE IT lol just

    kidding but like really i am Bipolar like, really :)
    jadelynthompson jadelynthompson 13-15, F 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    I ran out of meds for a

    while in between doctors recently, so I got a stuffed mammoth and named it Klonopin. My anti-anxiety mammoth.
    rainallthedays rainallthedays 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    My mood are very unpredictable sometimes.

    Sometimes, I experience a period of sadness and sometimes, I experience a period of euphoria. It is very unstable. That why I rather act impulsively sometimes and may do something stupid or spending my whole day depressed.
    DelonWulf DelonWulf 18-21, M Oct 24

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    I'm Bipolar, Not A Killer.

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about 7 years ago.  My meds have changed several times and the stuff I’m taking right now seems to be doing its job with minimal side effects.  My only problem is my family, they…treat me differently now, like they...
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F 151 Responses Jun 6, 2010

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    I'm in the hospital now

    because my symptoms got too out of control to manage. I was diagnosed in October 2013 and started lithium. A month later I started on my anti-psychotic, risperidone. These were the only two meds I was taking until I went through a period of depression so bad that I ended up in...
    avey10 avey10 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    I Am Not Bipolar, I Have Bipolar

    I want to start by explaining my story title. If you have Diabetes you are not Diabetes, you have Diabetes. Similarly I am not Bipolar, I have Bipolar. My story starts when I was very young, so I have no idea if I was born with Bipolar, or just developed it later. I can...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M Sep 7, 2012

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    Bipolar, But Without The Fun

    I've been diagnosed with Bipolar II, which they tell me is bipolar with only mild mania, but deeper depressions. Who knows if that's what I truly am, I've been misdiagnosed so many times, but it seems true. I've been coming down from a slight manic run, and the depression is...
    shygrl85 shygrl85 22-25, F 14 Responses Feb 15, 2010

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    ModifiedMamaofTwo ModifiedMamaofTwo 16-17, F Oct 17

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    And rapid cycling all day.

    All day. All fokyn day. Fok. Stoopid fokyn doctors. Greedy fokyn pill makers. Chicken shyte therapists. Want to win the lottery and start my own healing commune. But will probably have to do so overseas. Since cures aint popular in america.
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M Oct 21

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    I Am Not An Evil, Crazy Criminal!!!!

     Oh; bipolar. Bring up the word to many, and they will usually associate it with one they know whose mood flips at a switch. Or, better yet, they begin to tell you the story of their last girlfriend who chased them around the house with a knife. Oh, and the people in denial...
    dgrey63 dgrey63 46-50, F 5 Responses Sep 29, 2011

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    I have a secret. I'm Bipolar Type II.

    I hide my illness as well as I can for the fear of being stigmatized by society. The word bipolar is so popular in pop-culture now that it's very common to hear someone being called bipolar if they have mood swings, or if they are two faced and act like two different people. It...
    Enaud21 Enaud21 31-35, M 3 Responses May 22

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    I am a severe bipolar.

    My highs are composed of manic euphoria, ADHD, and insomnia, while my lows are chronic depression, body tremors, body memories, and anxiety. It is really hard for me to explain just how ****** up I am to people. My relationships usually end up in disaster. I was also adopted at...
    creativeinspiration creativeinspiration 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    At times it gets sad & depressed,

    then comes with extreme anger that needs lashing out, before going back to sadness and depression. But more than ever before on the second way round. And worse than ever. The depression on the second way on end of the three step cycle is worse than ever. The first is horrible...
    OKPunk OKPunk 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 25

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    I'm having a terrible mixed episode.

    Earlier my mind was going so fast, now I'm just scared. I feel like many people stuck in one body. I need help. IdK what to do. My boyfriend told me a few days ago he wished I was manic again because he can't stand it when I'm depressed. I was depressed for a month straight and...
    WolfOfDreams WolfOfDreams 22-25, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    I was diagnosed with manic depression,

    and since I've been drugged up full of meds, my lows aren't as long lasting and low anymore. Still, I can split, myseld into three different personalities. High, Numb and Low and the worst part is they can all emerge at random. It's kind of annoying but...
    TheSocialOutcast TheSocialOutcast 13-15, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    So I go in to get my monthly dosage.

    .. the whole gambit of the cocktail prescribed by this doctor and that. (all with a different set of initials following their name) The pharmacist was rather rude, and it took about 35 seconds of this rudeness to **** me off to the point where I started to get that.... hmmm...
    JLBetts JLBetts 46-50, M 1 Response Nov 1

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    I'm hoping exhaustion kicks in now

    so I can sleep tonight. This mixed state **** is ridiculous and medication isn't doing anything. Getting an appointment with my psychiatrist at the hospital is impossible and I'm slowly giving up.
    bananananaxo bananananaxo 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 15

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    What no one seems to talk much about is

    that there's a kind of psychological purgatory that exists somewhere in between the high points and the end of your rope. Those moments when you want to do nothing more than to run from yourself! We have a laundry list of triggers that catapult the slide into what feels like an...
    honestcloud honestcloud 26-30, F Oct 2

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    How do you explain bipolar to someone?

    I'm in my hypomanic stage.. The bad parts. I'm being an ******* to my boyfriend, I was rude to his friends last night, I actually left in promptly because I was tired of being there and I didn't want to go in the first place. I tried to tell him that but he continued to insist...
    kimberlyfaith kimberlyfaith 31-35, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    My Mother Claims That I'm Just Slavic.

    My mom's 100% Polish.  She says that Slavs just have mood swings.  I think I'm bipolar, but she doesn't believe in psychological illnesses.  I know that I'm old enough to go to a doctor and get diagnosed for myself, but I still live under my parents' thumbs while...
    Chanteuse1984 Chanteuse1984 26-30, F 10 Responses Jun 6, 2007

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    I M Bipolar

    Without medication i have racing speech, anxiety attacks, i wont sleep, and have lots of energy. I am taking meds and they are working for me. I go to a support group call DBSA (depression, bipolar support alliance) . I have friends that understand my mental illness. The...
    starship33 starship33 36-40, F 8 Responses Nov 6, 2012

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    I get very very high

    and then I crash. I hate when I crash.
    lovelinessbathes lovelinessbathes 31-35, M 4 Responses Apr 7

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    Being a Bipolar Student

    I have been officially diagnosed as being Bipolar I for a little over three years. As I have gotten older my symptoms and cycles have continually progressed and become more difficult to control or recognize. Luckily, I have an amazingly supportive family, and I have been...
    themanicmind themanicmind 22-25, F 12 Responses Mar 2, 2009

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    Bipolar is not psychotic I was first diagnosed

    with just depression & anxiety when i left home for college. Got on antidepressant meds. Didnt stay consistent with the meds til i was older. Once the meds were making steady improvement my new doctor thought i was having mania symptoms because i talked about some unrealistic...
    Stufy Stufy 46-50, F 1 Response May 26

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    Its sucks to have bipolar disorder

    and an anxiety disorder.
    Danae102 Danae102 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 28

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    Please someone talk to me.

    I really need a friend. I'm sick of living like this. I don't want to do this for the rest of my life, can't control myself, can't control my emotions, I explode on people, they resent me - if only they knew, inside my head, the demons that exist. They beat me up, they laugh at...
    happycupcake happycupcake 22-25, F 8 Responses 5 days ago

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    I don't know if I am officially

    but I feel like I could be. I can't focus, my moods come in stages & I feel like I have "episodes". I get very irritable & my thoughts are completely irrational. I've never liked the music from Iggy Azalea or Ariana Grande, it used to be that simple...I just didn't like them...
    ncon08 ncon08 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 28

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    What I Miss About Being Crazy!

    Almost five years ago I was diagnosed as bipolar. Or was I diagnosed with bipolar disorder? Is there a real difference between saying I’m bipolar and saying I have bipolar disorder? I mean, semantically, you can see one as a label for me and the other as the label for a...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 1 Response Sep 26, 2012

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