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I Am Bipolar

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    La-la-love Latuda! I truly

    and honestly believed that I was never going to get better. I had had success with Lamictal and Geodon as far as controlling the mania and mixed episodes, but I still suffered from totally and completely crippling depression and anxiety. We had tried everything short of ECT...
    SeaOfMonsters SeaOfMonsters 26-30, F 7 Responses Jul 21

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    Crashing..

    I welcome you like I welcome an old familiar enemy. I know you all too well, you are a part of me. Whenever I go through a period filled with energy and initiative, you are there. Always. To bring me back to reality, to keep me from having fun and enjoying life. It's time again...
    livingalieforsolong livingalieforsolong 31-35 6 Responses Jul 29, 2013

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    my delusions are achievable.

    and realistic. haha
    Mihkowakayios Mihkowakayios 13-15, M Sep 10

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    I Have an Illness One you cannot see - it's

    invisible unless you know where to look One you cannot hear - unless you listen very closely One you cannot feel - unless you truly know the person who's suffering or have been there yourself I was diagnosed with major depression and anxiety back in 2009, then bipolar...
    SaturnSenshi SaturnSenshi 26-30, F 5 Responses Mar 2

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    For all of you fighting this,

    I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression and bipolar http://bipolar2medstudent.blogspot.com/
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F Sep 11

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    I have a secret. I'm Bipolar Type II.

    I hide my illness as well as I can for the fear of being stigmatized by society. The word bipolar is so popular in pop-culture now that it's very common to hear someone being called bipolar if they have mood swings, or if they are two faced and act like two different people. It...
    Enaud21 Enaud21 31-35, M 3 Responses May 22

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    It'S Who I Am !

    Learned I was bipolar about 3yrs ago I'm very different as I allways knew but sorta good way. I will try to make anyone laugh smile fit in. I'm prolly to open with life I will spill my guts to whoever will listen. I will try to find the good in anyone till prove me wrong. I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 27, 2013

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    What I Miss About Being Crazy!

    Almost five years ago I was diagnosed as bipolar. Or was I diagnosed with bipolar disorder? Is there a real difference between saying I’m bipolar and saying I have bipolar disorder? I mean, semantically, you can see one as a label for me and the other as the label for a...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 1 Response Sep 26, 2012

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    Two years ago I was diagnosed with depression

    (although I have been suffering from depression for much longer). Since then, I have been questioning whether I suffer from depression alone, or whether I might be bipolar. Looking back at my life I notice that I've had episodes of Hypomania. I'm going to seek professional...
    HelpMeSurviveDepression HelpMeSurviveDepression 22-25, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have bipolar disorder I with psychosis.

    I have lost relationships, jobs, money and self-esteem to impulsive acts while sick. I have been hospitalized 7 times. I have attempted suicide 4 times. My grandfather committed suicide and my father has tried twice. I hate when bipolar is used in everyday slang to mean "I...
    eliza0220 eliza0220 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 23

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    Wish My Brain Would Shut The Hell Up!

    Yep...i'm bipolar.  Bipolar 1, manic depressive if we want to get clinical.  It royally sucks.  Can't really put a sugar coating on what it is.  I was diagnosed right before I started a 2 year prison sentence.  I'd embezzled mass amounts of money from a company I had worked...
    m2extreme m2extreme 31-35, F 13 Responses Apr 26, 2011

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    Bipolar Bares All! Film At 11:00!

    I'm Bipolar all right, I certainly don't make a secret of it.  I wrote a memoir of Manic Depression which I continue to flog with the annoying insistence of a child tugging on a parent's pant leg.  I've lectured on it at universities and medical schools.  I've...
    ElLagarto ElLagarto 56-60, M 12 Responses Jul 12, 2007

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    Bipolar is not psychotic I was first diagnosed

    with just depression & anxiety when i left home for college. Got on antidepressant meds. Didnt stay consistent with the meds til i was older. Once the meds were making steady improvement my new doctor thought i was having mania symptoms because i talked about some unrealistic...
    Stufy Stufy 46-50, F 1 Response May 26

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    Somewhat, not exactly bipolar

    but little things can set me off like a bomb
    bisexuwhale bisexuwhale 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 19

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    I am bipolar and suffer from binge eating

    disorder. I have read up a lot about bipolar medication and the weight gain which results from taking them and as such have been avoiding taking them. I know this sounds insane but I really cannot afford to be gaining any weight at the moment because I am overweight enough as it...
    Thin234 Thin234 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 15

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    Bipolar, But Without The Fun

    I've been diagnosed with Bipolar II, which they tell me is bipolar with only mild mania, but deeper depressions. Who knows if that's what I truly am, I've been misdiagnosed so many times, but it seems true. I've been coming down from a slight manic run, and the depression is...
    shygrl85 shygrl85 22-25, F 14 Responses Feb 15, 2010

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    My mom has bipolar disorder.

    She was improperly diagnosed, and treated with the wrong medications for years. They curbed her manic phases, but made her depression worse. My childhood was extremely inconsistent with her mood swinging all over the place, and I found that being in control of myself was the...
    casuallyscreaming casuallyscreaming 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 23

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    For all of you fighting this,

    I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression and bipolar http://bipolar2medstudent.blogspot.com/
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    A poem I wrote about Bipolar,

    which I call simply 'River'. Pain like a river, a tsunami if you will I feel it deep within my veins, god how it makes me feel ill. I cast out tonight, desperate and blind, reeled in some new friends for whose virtual hugs I do pine. Bipolar river, the black and blue sea...
    RealJax0009 RealJax0009 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    I can't deal with manic depression,

    it's ruining my life. I feel absolutely exhausted. :(
    HelpMeSurviveDepression HelpMeSurviveDepression 22-25, F 9 hrs ago

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    LSCouple LSCouple 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 22

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    Ha ha. That was great.

    My god life is good. Don't bother me. Wasn't that sunset beautiful? It was ok. Just let me sleep. I can't wait for the trip. I'm dreading it. I might not go. Listen to this song. It's so pretty. It sounds like crap. I want to see the new movie. Good. Go.
    joecell joecell 46-50, M 2 Responses Sep 15

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    I've been experiencing

    such a low this past month, people who are not bipolar or who have not suffered mental illness don't seem to understand what it's like when you can feel helpless as it completely encases you and you don't have the strength sometimes to fight it. I can't stand it when someone...
    Mystic74 Mystic74 36-40, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Hey people, I was diagnosed with Bipolar I

    disorder this year and here's the back story of all of that -- I knew something's been wrong with me since I was 14. Even before I was 14, as a child, I used to get the urge to harm myself. At 14 years old is when my pill addiction started. I would take ANY pill I could find...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 7

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    Being a Bipolar Student

    I have been officially diagnosed as being Bipolar I for a little over three years. As I have gotten older my symptoms and cycles have continually progressed and become more difficult to control or recognize. Luckily, I have an amazingly supportive family, and I have been...
    themanicmind themanicmind 22-25, F 12 Responses Mar 2, 2009

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    Im type 2, moderate with no psychosis.

    Don't confuse bipolar disorder with BPD because that's abbreviation for borderline personality disorder, (although they sometimes go together.)Bipolar disorder used to be called manic depressive which is more descriptive. Since it's a mood disorder in which the patient has severe...
    Stufy Stufy 46-50, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    I get very very high

    and then I crash. I hate when I crash.
    lovelinessbathes lovelinessbathes 31-35, M 3 Responses Apr 7

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    I am really pissed at some idiot commenting on

    a post saying I wasn't bipolar and should just go out get drunk and have sex.. Seriously I am feeling better now, but if I had seen that when I was at my lowest I don't know what I would have done.. I hate how people try to tell us how this isn't as big as we are making it, no...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 15

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    Acceptance

    I am a diagnosed BiPolar II. And also dual diagnosis with many other associated types of dissorders, anxiety-panic-border personality-etc.    I was diagnosed at 16 but went off meds at about 18. I am now 31 and only last year have sought help for these issues. Am...
    KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher 31-35, F 15 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    Doctor doctor, give me the news!

    I've got a bad case of bi-polar depression. Sorry to throw you off by not following the lyric. Seriously though. These lows are getting stronger and my resistance is weak. Searching for escape routes is only a detour, how do i truly tackle an obstacle without veering off...
    princessslaya princessslaya 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I am bipolar and it effects my life I can't do

    what other people do when my meds aren't working there is a lot of drama I don't always know what to say or do I am tired of being this way I want to move on with my life so bad but something always holds me back it not right so I am going to try and not let anyone hold me back...
    guinness26 guinness26 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 9

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    i tend to have small pains inside my body .

    ... and wash my hands like a lot. i have a past of substance abuse. i dropped out of school , again.. i have social anxiety , i have experienced grandoise delusions , guilt. y u do dis allah?
    Mihkowakayios Mihkowakayios 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 16

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    A Short Narrative of a Manic Episode

        I was walking up to my high school’s football field as all of the school stood in the bleachers waiting for me but I had come up from behind to where the cheerleaders and dance team were. I remember one girl yelling, “Hey Scott...
    Scottsimdb Scottsimdb 18-21 33 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    They are pushing me down.

    I was rapid cycling for awhile so my job performance slipped. Then my performance gets better and they tell me that they are going to put me on a corrective action plan or I can resign. I was able to talk them into letting me voluntarily demote myself. It's a huge pay cut. I'm...
    kiragirl79 kiragirl79 31-35, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    A letter to the boy at the diner: I see you

    every Tuesday. It's almost like you come in just to study me. You've memorized shifts I miss, only to ask me if I was okay. You've seen the circles under my eyes, and you've noticed the champagne smiles I wear on good days. I know you notice and you know I've noticed you, too. I...
    breannajust breannajust 18-21, F Sep 14

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    For all of you fighting this,

    I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression and bipolar http://bipolar2medstudent.blogspot.com/
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F Sep 7

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    I'm Bipolar, Not A Killer.

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about 7 years ago.  My meds have changed several times and the stuff I’m taking right now seems to be doing its job with minimal side effects.  My only problem is my family, they…treat me differently now, like they...
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F 153 Responses Jun 6, 2010

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    My Mother Claims That I'm Just Slavic.

    My mom's 100% Polish.  She says that Slavs just have mood swings.  I think I'm bipolar, but she doesn't believe in psychological illnesses.  I know that I'm old enough to go to a doctor and get diagnosed for myself, but I still live under my parents' thumbs while...
    Chanteuse1984 Chanteuse1984 26-30, F 10 Responses Jun 6, 2007

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    I'm in the hospital now

    because my symptoms got too out of control to manage. I was diagnosed in October 2013 and started lithium. A month later I started on my anti-psychotic, risperidone. These were the only two meds I was taking until I went through a period of depression so bad that I ended up in...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    I Am Not Bipolar, I Have Bipolar

    I want to start by explaining my story title. If you have Diabetes you are not Diabetes, you have Diabetes. Similarly I am not Bipolar, I have Bipolar. My story starts when I was very young, so I have no idea if I was born with Bipolar, or just developed it later. I can...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M Sep 7, 2012

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    i get irritated really easily

    and sometimes throw sh i t around or break something , or when i get depressed i feel like running away but i have nowhere to really go , at times i feel like i have somewhere to go and someone too see but i really dont because of social isolation , i think thats what trggered...
    Mihkowakayios Mihkowakayios 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 10

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    I ran out of meds for a

    while in between doctors recently, so I got a stuffed mammoth and named it Klonopin. My anti-anxiety mammoth.
    rainallthedays rainallthedays 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    I m Not holding the same opinions from things

    over the time, I may get position from something and the day after get another position and the day after i get back to The previously position and so on.
    chakibmhiri chakibmhiri 31-35, M Sep 13

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    Mihkowakayios Mihkowakayios 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 13

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    Afraid to really Live!

    Not sure why . Afraid to kill myself. Though.
    heathee heathee 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 18

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    Bipolar

    I was first diagnosed with bipolar disorder at age 18. I was having a bible study with my girlfriend and her family when all of a sudden my personality just went from 0 to 60. I was super happy and energetic. I felt great. On my way home I was talking to people and even myself...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    pity and sympathy aint

    for me xD .........
    Mihkowakayios Mihkowakayios 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 13

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    If I were to write this experience in my own

    words it would be, I have been diagnosed with what people know as bipolar, in reality I have experienced something which has transformed my life in a positive way. So much is unknown about "bipolar", and one day we will understand it better.
    deckodfreams deckodfreams 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 15

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    Being bipolar is driving me crazy :/ medication

    and therapy didn't help. I feel like ill never have an actually normal life like i will always just be trapped in the never ending cycle.. Nothing helps i just want to feel normal :(
    StephsReality StephsReality 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 9

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    mmissy1012 mmissy1012 31-35, F Sep 18

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    I was diagnosed bipolar 2 months ago

    after having a breakdown of epic proportions, deciding to end it all, and waiting on the train tracks at 3 in the morning. I've been bipolar all my life as so many have joked in the past so having a chemical imbalance is hardly reason to blame for the epic meltdown but it did...
    johnnyringo23 johnnyringo23 31-35, M 2 Responses Jun 4

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    The Gifts Of Bipolar

    What is the nature of disability? What does the idea mean? It is a statistical concept, I think. Which is to say, it is a measure of comparison. We can only be “disabled” in comparison to a group of others who have more ability on this particular measure. Everyone can be...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 13 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    I Am Not An Evil, Crazy Criminal!!!!

     Oh; bipolar. Bring up the word to many, and they will usually associate it with one they know whose mood flips at a switch. Or, better yet, they begin to tell you the story of their last girlfriend who chased them around the house with a knife. Oh, and the people in denial...
    dgrey63 dgrey63 46-50, F 5 Responses Sep 29, 2011

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