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    Let me start the post by saying thank you to

    BrokenOneX here on ep. She said she suspects I'm bipolar so I did some research and I have more than enough signs proving her statement. I also found out my father and grandfather are bipolar and it's genetic. Now I'm aware of it and know what I need to fix next time I see a...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 6 Responses Dec 7, 2014

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    Manic episode just came to a screeching halt.

    ..WTF do I do?? People are being so distant! More like WTF did I do? I have no self confidence & can't take it much longer! Help!
    IrisRays IrisRays 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    Converted Converted 46-50, M 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    Im extremely depressed

    and I went through a few manic episodes last year and got diagnosed with bipolar at 26 years old I really need some one to talk to the medication I've been on made me gain a lot of weight and I have not left my bed in months my dad also committed suicide in 2009 and he had a...
    branxo branxo 26-30, F 5 Responses Jun 1

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    I was recently diagnosed with this disorder.

    I guess I've had it for a while, but the symptoms did not match until recently. I made many risky decisions during my manic stages, like spending too much money, when I am normally very frugal, and I thought I was invincible. Now I am in the "mixed stage". I am not super...
    JuliaHiC JuliaHiC 22-25 5 Responses Sep 18, 2014

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    I wish I could regulate my moods,

    how I feel and how my brain works. I feel so stupid sometimes, like everyone else around me is all ahead on why they want to do with their lives and I'm just sitting here in my depression looking gross. I know what I'd love to do in the near future but, I have no motivation to...
    QuietKitten QuietKitten 18-21, F 3 Responses May 31

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    Hi everyone, I just found this site.

    I am 28 and bipolar 2, with symptoms of hypomania, depression, and anxiety, and mixed mania. My anxiety attacks used to be crippling. I also have p.m.d.d., psoriasis, psoriatic arthritis, asthma, and fibromyalgia. Not a lot of people sympathize with my conditions, I am sure a...
    TheMeanReds28 TheMeanReds28 26-30, F 4 Responses May 9

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    Bipolar

    I was first diagnosed with bipolar disorder at age 18. I was having a bible study with my girlfriend and her family when all of a sudden my personality just went from 0 to 60. I was super happy and energetic. I felt great. On my way home I was talking to people and even myself...
    groundshaker groundshaker 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 1, 2012

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    A Short Narrative of a Manic Episode

        I was walking up to my high school’s football field as all of the school stood in the bleachers waiting for me but I had come up from behind to where the cheerleaders and dance team were. I remember one girl yelling, “Hey Scott...
    Scottsimdb Scottsimdb 18-21 35 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    The Gifts Of Bipolar

    What is the nature of disability? What does the idea mean? It is a statistical concept, I think. Which is to say, it is a measure of comparison. We can only be “disabled” in comparison to a group of others who have more ability on this particular measure. Everyone can be...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M 13 Responses Feb 21, 2012

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    I've been everyday since taking the supplement.

    I'm thinking clearly and not getting cared away. It freeing every woman that I meet I'm not seeing more to things except friendship. Bipolars have big imagination and get so carried away. Meeting someone there's no stories I here anymore. Except things as they are. The changes I...
    equusrider equusrider 56-60, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    So an update on my bipolar

    and meds. I was having small ups and downs. but what bothered me more were the lows. I had gotten up to 900mgs (3x 300mgs a day) of trilepital. up to 200mg of trazodone for sleeping and 20mgs lexapro. the only thing thats changed is my trilepital. im now up to 1200mgs (4x...
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel 31-35, F 4 Responses May 12

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    It'S Who I Am !

    Learned I was bipolar about 3yrs ago I'm very different as I allways knew but sorta good way. I will try to make anyone laugh smile fit in. I'm prolly to open with life I will spill my guts to whoever will listen. I will try to find the good in anyone till prove me wrong. I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 27, 2013

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    My Mother Claims That I'm Just Slavic.

    My mom's 100% Polish.  She says that Slavs just have mood swings.  I think I'm bipolar, but she doesn't believe in psychological illnesses.  I know that I'm old enough to go to a doctor and get diagnosed for myself, but I still live under my parents' thumbs while...
    Chanteuse1984 Chanteuse1984 26-30, F 10 Responses Jun 6, 2007

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    It is humiliating. I am

    so ashamed of my mood swings. It takes away all confidence. One day I'm superwoman then I want to die. How I can I show face? How can I face the world? It's so embarrassing. I think I'd rather just stay depressed all the time then achieve some happiness just to come...
    stufy stufy 46-50 5 Responses May 23

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    Aagatha Aagatha 36-40, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    So its been 6 days that I've been on my meds.

    I feel amazing. No more rage, no more depression, no more mania (feeling like im so damn hyper and ready to go jump off a building for fun). I feel so calm. I can think more clearly. I can concentrate. Things dont bother me like they use to. Its just crazy how much a difference...
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 24

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    I Have an Illness One you cannot see - it's

    invisible unless you know where to look One you cannot hear - unless you listen very closely One you cannot feel - unless you truly know the person who's suffering or have been there yourself I was diagnosed with major depression and anxiety back in 2009, then bipolar...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Mar 2, 2014

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    Please someone talk to me.

    I really need a friend. I'm sick of living like this. I don't want to do this for the rest of my life, can't control myself, can't control my emotions, I explode on people, they resent me - if only they knew, inside my head, the demons that exist. They beat me up, they laugh at...
    happycupcake happycupcake 22-25, F 6 Responses Nov 17, 2014

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    Has anyone else become dependent on Benzos?

    I take Ativan... 3mg/day. I recently ran out and didn't realize how difficult it would be to get through the day without it.
    SeaOfMonsters SeaOfMonsters 26-30, F 3 Responses May 28

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    it's rough with racing thoughts,

    I hate them. I just can't handle it, I wish I had a pill to stop them. I think I'm going to talk to my pyschatrist. the coping skills aren't working. ugh this suxs so bad. I am so angry at my sons father he triggered me today and now all I think about is disappointing situations...
    smashmouth4eva smashmouth4eva 31-35, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    ThatOneNerdGirl ThatOneNerdGirl 16-17, F 3 Responses May 15

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    I lay in my bed staring at the ceiling.

    Everyone's voices sound so far away. My eyelids are heavy and I am curled in a ball. I can't move. I have go be still. If I am still nothing bad can happen. If I move the trail of fog and hatred will follow me like a shadow. I won't let it follow me. It consumes me too much . it...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 5

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    I haven't been diagnosed with "bipolar disorder"

    because I haven't been evaluated.. but I have a feeling that I am.. I go through so many mood swings & it's a daily shift of emotion.. I'm always feeling too many things at once and it's overwhelming I'm hardly ever in a neutral state it drives me crazy.. my brain activity...
    sicksadworldx sicksadworldx 16-17, F 3 Responses May 31

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    I'm in the hospital now

    because my symptoms got too out of control to manage. I was diagnosed in October 2013 and started lithium. A month later I started on my anti-psychotic, risperidone. These were the only two meds I was taking until I went through a period of depression so bad that I ended up in...
    avey10 avey10 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 6, 2014

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    I have a false belief system

    which leads me to believe I am a closed off person who has resigned his life only to fulfilling the curiosity of what the future holds. I substitute personal relationships for having an objective point of view. My complete lack of interest in knowing other people effects not...
    jammedapollo jammedapollo 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    I truly HATE the suicidal ideation

    that comes along with this mental health disease. It amazes me how our minds trick ourselves into thinking we are a "lost cause". "It will always be this way" and "it won't get better " Hollar if you hear me !
    Brisco221 Brisco221 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 14, 2014

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    I suppose it started around 15.

    More than twenty years later my life reads as a depressing case book of failed opportunity and terrible mistakes. I had been doing well for a few years, compromised and reconciled different emotions in my brain to find a balance. Recently things ended with the only woman I've...
    Polis195 Polis195 36-40, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My moods switch quickly I can go from laughing

    to crying to screaming real quick. For a example yesterday my ex called me a B**** and I started laughing then next thing you know I was throwing him out my house and crying.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 7

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    I have been under a doctor's care

    for 5 years, but lately he is not listening to me. Last July, I was in uncontrollable tears for several days, so I made an appointment when I couldn't stand it anymore because I thought maybe my medicines needing to be adjusted. Instead, he told me that I had to wait it out...
    Shampati Shampati 36-40, F 8 Responses Jun 8

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    dose anyone know if your bipolar meds help with

    anxiety? dose anyone else hate taking their meds?
    penpalwriter penpalwriter 41-45, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    So for the first time in my life I sought

    treatment for bipolar. I was put on meds. I gotta say. Damn I wish I'd of done this yrs ago! I feel calm. I don't feel that rage or depression or like im about to go fly off a building for fun. lol I just feel normal! The last few days have been the calmest I've ever been in my...
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 22

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    It's time again. It's time to hear people

    whisper like trees in light rain about how ugly I look. It's time to listen to my memories repeating the stupid thing I said a year ago, overandoverandover again. It's time to watch the wall all day and night and not really remember if it's day or night; to listen to no tv, no...
    H2point0 H2point0 36-40, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I get very very high

    and then I crash. I hate when I crash.
    lovelinessbathes lovelinessbathes 31-35, M 5 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    La-la-love Latuda! I truly

    and honestly believed that I was never going to get better. I had had success with Lamictal and Geodon as far as controlling the mania and mixed episodes, but I still suffered from totally and completely crippling depression and anxiety. We had tried everything short of ECT...
    SeaOfMonsters SeaOfMonsters 26-30, F 7 Responses Jul 21, 2014

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    Does anyone do things they regret during mixed

    episodes? I think I've been in a mixed episode for the past few weeks and I've committed to some things I now regret.
    animamia animamia 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 18, 2014

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    I M Bipolar

    Without medication i have racing speech, anxiety attacks, i wont sleep, and have lots of energy. I am taking meds and they are working for me. I go to a support group call DBSA (depression, bipolar support alliance) . I have friends that understand my mental illness. The...
    starship33 starship33 36-40, F 8 Responses Nov 6, 2012

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    It's important to have someone love you.

    It gets hard at times you need there support.
    equusrider equusrider 56-60, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Bipolar is not psychotic I was first diagnosed

    with just depression & anxiety when i left home for college. Got on antidepressant meds. Didnt stay consistent with the meds til i was older. Once the meds were making steady improvement my new doctor thought i was having mania symptoms because i talked about some unrealistic...
    stufy stufy 46-50 1 Response May 26, 2014

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    Being bipolar doesn't automatically make you

    evil or violent. I am bipolar and I do not hit or hurt people when angry. My mood swings can be really bad but I know not to harm people around me, for I would feel 100x worse :( so when someone tells you the are bipolar, don't run away. How do you think that makes us feel...
    QuietKitten QuietKitten 18-21, F 6 Responses May 29

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    6/19/15 at 5:36pm coming through the baby

    monitor “What’s wrong with mommy? She’s acting really weird.” “Mommy isn’t feeling well. You know this happens sometimes.” “I know but it’s different this time. She’s more weird. I’ve seen her sad, but…” “Mommy isn’t feeling well. She just needs...
    ThistleAndWeeds ThistleAndWeeds 31-35, F 4 Responses Jun 19

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    The interesting thing about having my heart

    shattered is that I've never been in a depressive state with racing thoughts. Normally when I'm depressed I experience emotional and mental haze. Right now I've not slept more than three hours a night in four or five days, my pulse is up, my mind won't slow. Not sure when it...
    Polis195 Polis195 36-40, M 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    F..ck me! I'm in a serious mania episode!

    Hyper and extremely irritable! I hate this type! I like the happy hyper! guess it looks like my meds need fixed again! Ugh! I was warned it was a challenge getting on the right meds and it might never work out! I'm not like some that their mood swings are mild. Mine are at least...
    GirLinterrupteD99 GirLinterrupteD99 31-35, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    Hi, has anyone had an experience in going off

    their meds?! I do not want to be off my meds but I recently took an overdose and it make me very sick and now when I even think of stomaching my medication or even an Advil I feel like I'm going to be sick. I'm cold all the time, my head is pounding, and I just don't feel very...
    avey10 avey10 18-21, F 10 Responses Jun 17

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    I'm Bipolar, Not A Killer.

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about 7 years ago.  My meds have changed several times and the stuff I’m taking right now seems to be doing its job with minimal side effects.  My only problem is my family, they…treat me differently now, like they...
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F 149 Responses Jun 6, 2010

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    One minute I want to run in a field of flowers,

    the next I want to put a bullet through my head... it ruins anything and everything. I'm incapable of happiness.. at first I felt I needed to hide myself away from everyone because of it now I'm just antisocial, it seems like every time I try to do what I think is right it turns...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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