I Am Breaking Down

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 155 People

    Every single time I think I'm okay.

    .. I break down. I'm not okay but at the same time I don't know what's really wrong with me. It's just a black hole of sadness. I hate it so much. I don't want to feel it anymore and I stay as positive as I can but sometimes it just doesn't work and I have no one to run to...
    lolabaybee lolabaybee
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 10, 2014

    Noticing The Physical Symptoms

    My emotional health is deteriorating and now it is starting to show on the outside. My friend Nicole can see it. She notices my hands shaking especially when we're playing cards because I hold my hands above the table. My body is a bit shaky because I am becoming less stable. I...
    chrysalid chrysalid
    18-21, F
    Dec 21, 2011

    lately, the only the word i can ever think of

    to describe how i feel is sad. i am sick of crying. i don't even understand how i still have the energy to cry. where are all these tears coming from? i just want to be normal again. i just wish life was a little bit easier for me and things made more sense at the moment...
    daydreamer27 daydreamer27
    18-21, F
    May 3, 2015

    Missing My Son

    Its been nearly 2 years now since seeing my son, at first it was ok as I had him weekends, then I got into a new relationship, then my ex found out n stopped me from seeing him, n I've got no way of contacting her, its killing me inside and i just feel useless, its effecting my...
    breakingdownbigtime breakingdownbigtime
    22-25
    1 Response Oct 29, 2012

    I work at a job that sucks

    where customers are mean,but i need the money to pay bills. The one guy i thought could make me happy just freindzoned me into oblivion. I don't know what to do? I at the moment have nothing to contribute to to this anymore...
    MissRose01 MissRose01
    22-25
    Sep 8, 2014

    It's hard to explain.

    It's like everything is just wrong. Life is wrong. Work is wrong. My friends are wrong. It's all wrong. There's absolutely no happiness in this life. Nothing to find joy in. Night after night I lay here and pray to die. I pray that tonight is the night I finally get my wish. I...
    bunnyXbunny bunnyXbunny
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 7, 2015

    I do not know what to do.

    .. it was so sudden. My kitty suddenly started acting weird. I went to bed and lost sleep because of her ususal "You are sleeping" routine. Then 6 hours later I wake up and notice something strange about her. She looks like she is limping... she cannot really turn around, she...
    ForgottenMale ForgottenMale
    26-30, M
    Dec 3, 2014

    I Am Broken Down

    I found myself literally on my knees today in shock. These last few months have been bad, but these last few weeks have been agonizing. I've failed everyone, and I dont think there is anyway to fix it. If there is, I dont know how, and I doubt anyone wants to help me. Ive...
    FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 27, 2009

    Every Second Is A Fight For Survival

    EP sure has changed. It's almost foreign, but at the same time it's comforting to know that I am welcomed home, to the place where I can vent freely without being judged. To get advice when no one on the outside can understand me. Today I had a bit of a realization that my very...
    Kymir Kymir
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 18, 2013

    A Moment Of Pain

    Blah. I have failed. Failed to acquire a person who would comfort me. Failed to establish connections which would care for me. It’s so damn cold in here. Alone, with no-one to keep me warm, with no-one to breathe life into me. No-one will come, because I won’t call anyone...
    AnotherOther AnotherOther
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Nov 22, 2011

    Debris Everywhere !

    I feel like I’m shutting down………..I’m such a ****** mess! I’m even upset writing this! I can’t bring myself to speak to anyone and everywhere I look there’s sadness. I’ve felt like this on and off for a while now, each time I put it down to another bad day...
    Bree10 Bree10
    36-40, T
    6 Responses Feb 25, 2011

    Well I Was When I Joined This Experience....

    and have broken down even more since but I hope bit by bit I'm putting myself back together again....I may be some time, but I'm gathering support, oh yes! I think I needed the breakdown in order to start the re-build.
    lostbird lostbird
    51-55, F
    9 Responses May 4, 2009

    Every Minute.

    I dont know why bad things happen to me but they do. I have gotten broken up with 2 days ago ad it still hurts like a *****. :/ i gave him eerything and i thought we would make it but we didnt.... i dnt understand. Im a great girl with a great personality. Why do i keep having...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 23, 2013

    tonight i just had a mental

    and emotional breakdown. and I hate the fact that i can't even say an acceptable reason for this much depression. if I try to reason it sounds sooo shallow.. but the truth is that all these many little shallow things added up to me and became a very huge heavy burden that...
    kangaroo02 kangaroo02
    18-21, F
    Feb 1, 2015

    You...

    You're slipping away from me. A tear is slipping out of my eye, down my cheek. You're not texting me like you used to. I wait hours each day just for your name to pop up on my cell screen. I go nights wondering what's up. If everything's okay. I can tell, you're distancing...
    imfalling4u imfalling4u
    36-40, F
    May 28, 2011

    Halloween Today

    I was doing alright for the past one week ish.. This morning a story in EP hit me and tears started to pour down my cheeks..  Like I have been holding on to the tear bank and finally letting go this morning.. I don't know how to explain to friends how I actually...
    Eternal Eternal
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 30, 2009
    StandardlyTom StandardlyTom
    22-25, M
    May 25, 2014

    So I told the people

    that were cyber bullying to stop because I'm going through enough and then I got told it's my excuse, does everything think this?! Because it is not an excuse! Can't even cope anymore😭😭
    macyrogers macyrogers
    13-15, F
    May 28, 2014

    Lost

    I turn around and I see you.When you laugh I hear youWhen you touch me I feel youI can feel the warmth in the air around you.I can feel your love in the hug.Why is this a problem?Your dead.
    woah666 woah666
    18-21, F
    May 14, 2011

    Best Face Forward.

    I am experiencing a traumatic time at the moment with my Mother so ill in Hospital.I will not post her illness again least to say she is very very ill. My days are now centered around visiting Mom and then informing her family in Ireland as to her condition. I Love that woman so...
    garvan garvan
    51-55, M
    3 Responses Jul 26, 2010

    So This Is What It's Like...

    to unravel. I've heard of people having 'breakdowns'. What does that mean? Is that when you sit at your computer and cry until your nose hurts and your eyes are puffy? Gee, I've been doing that a fair bit lately. Am I having a breakdown? At what point do you just close up shop? I...
    JackGrey JackGrey
    51-55, F
    11 Responses Mar 27, 2009

    so I've been through a lot

    and I need help getting out of my rut. all that jeeps happening is I get to the top and then I get pushed back down but its deeper this time. I try not to self harm. I try to stay strong. but I can't have all this pressure put on me. and its making me wanna quit and give up.
    ToukaKirishima ToukaKirishima
    13-15, F
    1 Response May 19, 2015

    I don't think I can't do this anymore,

    living, breathing, simply being is hard. I want to cry, but I seem to have run out of tears... Someone please help me...
    ImAlittleLost09 ImAlittleLost09
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 6, 2014

    Sometimes I just get bouts of loneliness

    and depression. It'll pass.
    existJenna existJenna
    13-15, F
    Dec 14, 2014

    I honestly can't deal with life anymore,

    do I escape by death or drowning, or do I run away. As over dramatic as I sound there is truth to my words. I require someone's constant attention, someone who makes me feel safe and holds back my many insecurities. I only feel comfortable to do so with my best guy friend, he is...
    Katastr0ph3 Katastr0ph3
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 23, 2014

    I cannot stand all the people problems i face

    anymore. I am currently crying and breaking down. I just cant handle it anymore. just this morning, my friend was mad at me because i did not help him with school work. I was rushing for the submission, he offered to help, like he do some of the questions and i do the rest, so...
    TJLK TJLK
    18-21, F
    May 29, 2014

    Breaking Down

    Today at lunch, I literally broke down. I lost it. My friend had accidentally triggered it. She had asked me why I take things so harshly and why I say things back when **** get's said about me. I thought she was going against me and I lost it. I told her how I can't handle it no...
    SammyNeedsHelp SammyNeedsHelp
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 6, 2013

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