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I Am Breaking Down

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    Breaking Down

    Today at lunch, I literally broke down. I lost it. My friend had accidentally triggered it. She had asked me why I take things so harshly and why I say things back when **** get's said about me. I thought she was going against me and I lost it. I told her how I can't handle it no...
    SammyNeedsHelp SammyNeedsHelp 16-17, F 1 Response May 6, 2013

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    You...

    You're slipping away from me. A tear is slipping out of my eye, down my cheek. You're not texting me like you used to. I wait hours each day just for your name to pop up on my cell screen. I go nights wondering what's up. If everything's okay. I can tell, you're distancing...
    imfalling4u imfalling4u 36-40, F May 28, 2011

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    Every single time I think I'm okay.

    .. I break down. I'm not okay but at the same time I don't know what's really wrong with me. It's just a black hole of sadness. I hate it so much. I don't want to feel it anymore and I stay as positive as I can but sometimes it just doesn't work and I have no one to run to...
    lolabaybee lolabaybee 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 10, 2014

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    I honestly can't deal with life anymore,

    do I escape by death or drowning, or do I run away. As over dramatic as I sound there is truth to my words. I require someone's constant attention, someone who makes me feel safe and holds back my many insecurities. I only feel comfortable to do so with my best guy friend, he is...
    Katastr0ph3 Katastr0ph3 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 23, 2014

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    I do not know what to do.

    .. it was so sudden. My kitty suddenly started acting weird. I went to bed and lost sleep because of her ususal "You are sleeping" routine. Then 6 hours later I wake up and notice something strange about her. She looks like she is limping... she cannot really turn around, she...
    ForgottenMale ForgottenMale 26-30, M Dec 3, 2014

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    So This Is What It's Like...

    to unravel. I've heard of people having 'breakdowns'. What does that mean? Is that when you sit at your computer and cry until your nose hurts and your eyes are puffy? Gee, I've been doing that a fair bit lately. Am I having a breakdown? At what point do you just close up shop? I...
    JackGrey JackGrey 51-55, F 11 Responses Mar 27, 2009

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    I cannot stand all the people problems i face

    anymore. I am currently crying and breaking down. I just cant handle it anymore. just this morning, my friend was mad at me because i did not help him with school work. I was rushing for the submission, he offered to help, like he do some of the questions and i do the rest, so...
    TJLK TJLK 18-21, F May 29, 2014

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    It's hard to explain.

    It's like everything is just wrong. Life is wrong. Work is wrong. My friends are wrong. It's all wrong. There's absolutely no happiness in this life. Nothing to find joy in. Night after night I lay here and pray to die. I pray that tonight is the night I finally get my wish. I...
    bunnyXbunny bunnyXbunny 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 7

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    so I've been through a lot

    and I need help getting out of my rut. all that jeeps happening is I get to the top and then I get pushed back down but its deeper this time. I try not to self harm. I try to stay strong. but I can't have all this pressure put on me. and its making me wanna quit and give up.
    Sadiemay523 Sadiemay523 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    A Moment Of Pain

    Blah. I have failed. Failed to acquire a person who would comfort me. Failed to establish connections which would care for me. It’s so damn cold in here. Alone, with no-one to keep me warm, with no-one to breathe life into me. No-one will come, because I won’t call anyone...
    AnotherOther AnotherOther 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 22, 2011

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    lately, the only the word i can ever think of

    to describe how i feel is sad. i am sick of crying. i don't even understand how i still have the energy to cry. where are all these tears coming from? i just want to be normal again. i just wish life was a little bit easier for me and things made more sense at the moment...
    daydreamer27 daydreamer27 16-17, F May 3

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    Every Second Is A Fight For Survival

    EP sure has changed. It's almost foreign, but at the same time it's comforting to know that I am welcomed home, to the place where I can vent freely without being judged. To get advice when no one on the outside can understand me. Today I had a bit of a realization that my very...
    Kymir Kymir 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 18, 2013

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    Every Minute.

    I dont know why bad things happen to me but they do. I have gotten broken up with 2 days ago ad it still hurts like a *****. :/ i gave him eerything and i thought we would make it but we didnt.... i dnt understand. Im a great girl with a great personality. Why do i keep having...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 23, 2013

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    Sometimes I just get bouts of loneliness

    and depression. It'll pass.
    existJenna existJenna 13-15, F Dec 14, 2014

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    Missing My Son

    Its been nearly 2 years now since seeing my son, at first it was ok as I had him weekends, then I got into a new relationship, then my ex found out n stopped me from seeing him, n I've got no way of contacting her, its killing me inside and i just feel useless, its effecting my...
    breakingdownbigtime breakingdownbigtime 22-25 1 Response Oct 29, 2012

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    Debris Everywhere !

    I feel like I’m shutting down………..I’m such a ****** mess! I’m even upset writing this! I can’t bring myself to speak to anyone and everywhere I look there’s sadness. I’ve felt like this on and off for a while now, each time I put it down to another bad day...
    Bree10 Bree10 36-40, T 6 Responses Feb 25, 2011

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    I Am Broken Down

    I found myself literally on my knees today in shock. These last few months have been bad, but these last few weeks have been agonizing. I've failed everyone, and I dont think there is anyway to fix it. If there is, I dont know how, and I doubt anyone wants to help me. Ive...
    FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 27, 2009

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    StandardlyTom StandardlyTom 18-21, M May 25, 2014

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    Best Face Forward.

    I am experiencing a traumatic time at the moment with my Mother so ill in Hospital.I will not post her illness again least to say she is very very ill. My days are now centered around visiting Mom and then informing her family in Ireland as to her condition. I Love that woman so...
    garvan garvan 46-50, M 3 Responses Jul 26, 2010

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    Well I Was When I Joined This Experience....

    and have broken down even more since but I hope bit by bit I'm putting myself back together again....I may be some time, but I'm gathering support, oh yes! I think I needed the breakdown in order to start the re-build.
    lostbird lostbird 51-55, F 9 Responses May 4, 2009

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    tonight i just had a mental

    and emotional breakdown. and I hate the fact that i can't even say an acceptable reason for this much depression. if I try to reason it sounds sooo shallow.. but the truth is that all these many little shallow things added up to me and became a very huge heavy burden that...
    kangaroo02 kangaroo02 16-17, F Feb 1

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    I don't think I can't do this anymore,

    living, breathing, simply being is hard. I want to cry, but I seem to have run out of tears... Someone please help me...
    ImAlittleLost09 ImAlittleLost09 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 6, 2014

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    Halloween Today

    I was doing alright for the past one week ish.. This morning a story in EP hit me and tears started to pour down my cheeks..  Like I have been holding on to the tear bank and finally letting go this morning.. I don't know how to explain to friends how I actually...
    Eternal Eternal 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 30, 2009

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    I work at a job that sucks

    where customers are mean,but i need the money to pay bills. The one guy i thought could make me happy just freindzoned me into oblivion. I don't know what to do? I at the moment have nothing to contribute to to this anymore...
    MissRose01 MissRose01 22-25 Sep 8, 2014

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    Noticing The Physical Symptoms

    My emotional health is deteriorating and now it is starting to show on the outside. My friend Nicole can see it. She notices my hands shaking especially when we're playing cards because I hold my hands above the table. My body is a bit shaky because I am becoming less stable. I...
    chrysalid chrysalid 18-21, F Dec 21, 2011

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    Lost

    I turn around and I see you.When you laugh I hear youWhen you touch me I feel youI can feel the warmth in the air around you.I can feel your love in the hug.Why is this a problem?Your dead.
    woah666 woah666 18-21, F May 14, 2011

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    So I told the people

    that were cyber bullying to stop because I'm going through enough and then I got told it's my excuse, does everything think this?! Because it is not an excuse! Can't even cope anymore😭😭
    macyrogers macyrogers 13-15, F May 28, 2014

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    Each day she wakes up, tired....feeling like she has not slept in days, body just does not want to work with her at first.....she looks in the mirror, hates what she sees looking...
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    I am at the time where I feel like breaking down every day. This is really hard to understand. I've always felt like i can be strong and hold on to dear life until the disasters...
    Wewerethereinthattime Wewerethereinthattime 18-21, F 3 Responses May 9

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    I am close to breaking down with all the bills that I have to pay with the fact that my husband is not working that I bury all the burden and work all the time and I'm never home...
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    theres a lot I wish I could tell people, but I don't because when I do it just breaks me. I don't understand why people have to be mean to people they don't even know what's going...
    Sadiemay523 Sadiemay523 18-21, F 1 Response May 16

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    In the times of silence that is when I am deepest in thought. I shut myself off from the world around me. I have been told I have a tendency to go into ghost mode. Some think it is...
    NewBeginnings77 NewBeginnings77 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 30

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    I can't believe this but I'm actually considering breaking up w my boyfriend...especially after tonight- it was an idea before, but tonight through his actions it seemed like he...
    Fidge3 Fidge3 22-25, F 1 Response May 9

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    If you are thinking that any of the above sounds extremely hard? Way too superior for being accurate? Feel over and over! Hear intently and hear properly, mainly because soon...
    Michael0962opo3 Michael0962opo3 31-35, M 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    I feel like I am slowly breaking into many pieces. Each day it feels like I am getting worse and worse. I more often cry myself to sleep or go to sleep early so I don't have to...
    internationalkoala internationalkoala 18-21, F Apr 25

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    Just been watching "my prequel" of Breaking Bad. Seen Better Call Saul, which was mediocre, but had missed the first season and half of BB. Its brilliant seeing Walter and Jessie...
    EndlessRiver EndlessRiver 41-45, M 2 days ago

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    More like my heart is broken. There is a girl I fell for, and I expressed my feelings to her. We fought a lot about it. Our friendship was up and down for months. Until today she...
    AaliyahRobinson AaliyahRobinson 18-21 1 day ago

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    i went to my friends house with my cousin . and we went down to the big stream that was about idk a mile or two . well any way when we get there we clime on the swinging rope and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 26

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    When I am upset and someone tells me to calm down ( or cheer up ), it is like throwing gasoline on a fire. It's not helpful, and it actually fuels my anger or frustration. To me...
    atpeacewithme atpeacewithme 31-35 1 Response Apr 28

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    Hell yeah mmmmmm Up and down mmmm ohh that's it ahhh Up and down oh yessss Up and down mmmm get it get it ahhhh Up and down Up and down Holly push-ups bat man !! That's the...
    wolffive wolffive 51-55, M 1 Response May 3

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    I have had many friends introduce me to their new bfs and fiances.I smile, say hello and look them up and down. I'm thinking 'Oh Lord! Another thug'.I'm always right.I see too many...
    Outofeden Outofeden 31-35, F May 8

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    There was a point where I actually contemplated suicide and dying. I was exhausted and didn't know what else I wanted to do with my life as I had explored all that I had wanted to...
    Elsahen Elsahen 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    If you are always comfortable, you wont change. Change only happens when you become disturbed, uncomfortable being placed on an edge ready to break down thats when change can take...
    RestlessFlame RestlessFlame 18-21, F Apr 24

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    Literally though, I'm kinda short (5ft 7" and 13 years old) and loads of people just look down to talk to me and its horrible... Especially when its patronizing :S
    philex2014 philex2014 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 26

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