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I Am Breaking Down

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    It's hard to explain.

    It's like everything is just wrong. Life is wrong. Work is wrong. My friends are wrong. It's all wrong. There's absolutely no happiness in this life. Nothing to find joy in. Night after night I lay here and pray to die. I pray that tonight is the night I finally get my wish. I...
    bunnyXbunny bunnyXbunny 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 7

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    I work at a job that sucks

    where customers are mean,but i need the money to pay bills. The one guy i thought could make me happy just freindzoned me into oblivion. I don't know what to do? I at the moment have nothing to contribute to to this anymore...
    MissRose01 MissRose01 22-25 Sep 8, 2014

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    You...

    You're slipping away from me. A tear is slipping out of my eye, down my cheek. You're not texting me like you used to. I wait hours each day just for your name to pop up on my cell screen. I go nights wondering what's up. If everything's okay. I can tell, you're distancing...
    imfalling4u imfalling4u 36-40, F May 28, 2011

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    I do not know what to do.

    .. it was so sudden. My kitty suddenly started acting weird. I went to bed and lost sleep because of her ususal "You are sleeping" routine. Then 6 hours later I wake up and notice something strange about her. She looks like she is limping... she cannot really turn around, she...
    ForgottenMale ForgottenMale 26-30, M Dec 3, 2014

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    tonight i just had a mental

    and emotional breakdown. and I hate the fact that i can't even say an acceptable reason for this much depression. if I try to reason it sounds sooo shallow.. but the truth is that all these many little shallow things added up to me and became a very huge heavy burden that...
    kangaroo02 kangaroo02 16-17, F Feb 1

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    StandardlyTom StandardlyTom 18-21, M May 25, 2014

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    Every Second Is A Fight For Survival

    EP sure has changed. It's almost foreign, but at the same time it's comforting to know that I am welcomed home, to the place where I can vent freely without being judged. To get advice when no one on the outside can understand me. Today I had a bit of a realization that my very...
    Kymir Kymir 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 18, 2013

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    Best Face Forward.

    I am experiencing a traumatic time at the moment with my Mother so ill in Hospital.I will not post her illness again least to say she is very very ill. My days are now centered around visiting Mom and then informing her family in Ireland as to her condition. I Love that woman so...
    garvan garvan 46-50, M 3 Responses Jul 26, 2010

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    So This Is What It's Like...

    to unravel. I've heard of people having 'breakdowns'. What does that mean? Is that when you sit at your computer and cry until your nose hurts and your eyes are puffy? Gee, I've been doing that a fair bit lately. Am I having a breakdown? At what point do you just close up shop? I...
    JackGrey JackGrey 51-55, F 11 Responses Mar 27, 2009

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    Noticing The Physical Symptoms

    My emotional health is deteriorating and now it is starting to show on the outside. My friend Nicole can see it. She notices my hands shaking especially when we're playing cards because I hold my hands above the table. My body is a bit shaky because I am becoming less stable. I...
    chrysalid chrysalid 18-21, F Dec 21, 2011

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    I Am Broken Down

    I found myself literally on my knees today in shock. These last few months have been bad, but these last few weeks have been agonizing. I've failed everyone, and I dont think there is anyway to fix it. If there is, I dont know how, and I doubt anyone wants to help me. Ive...
    FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 27, 2009

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    I cannot stand all the people problems i face

    anymore. I am currently crying and breaking down. I just cant handle it anymore. just this morning, my friend was mad at me because i did not help him with school work. I was rushing for the submission, he offered to help, like he do some of the questions and i do the rest, so...
    TJLK TJLK 18-21, F May 29, 2014

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    I don't think I can't do this anymore,

    living, breathing, simply being is hard. I want to cry, but I seem to have run out of tears... Someone please help me...
    ImAlittleLost09 ImAlittleLost09 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 6, 2014

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    Debris Everywhere !

    I feel like I’m shutting down………..I’m such a ****** mess! I’m even upset writing this! I can’t bring myself to speak to anyone and everywhere I look there’s sadness. I’ve felt like this on and off for a while now, each time I put it down to another bad day...
    Bree10 Bree10 36-40, T 6 Responses Feb 25, 2011

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    Lost

    I turn around and I see you.When you laugh I hear youWhen you touch me I feel youI can feel the warmth in the air around you.I can feel your love in the hug.Why is this a problem?Your dead.
    woah666 woah666 18-21, F May 14, 2011

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    Every single time I think I'm okay.

    .. I break down. I'm not okay but at the same time I don't know what's really wrong with me. It's just a black hole of sadness. I hate it so much. I don't want to feel it anymore and I stay as positive as I can but sometimes it just doesn't work and I have no one to run to...
    lolabaybee lolabaybee 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 10, 2014

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    Missing My Son

    Its been nearly 2 years now since seeing my son, at first it was ok as I had him weekends, then I got into a new relationship, then my ex found out n stopped me from seeing him, n I've got no way of contacting her, its killing me inside and i just feel useless, its effecting my...
    breakingdownbigtime breakingdownbigtime 22-25 1 Response Oct 29, 2012

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    A Moment Of Pain

    Blah. I have failed. Failed to acquire a person who would comfort me. Failed to establish connections which would care for me. It’s so damn cold in here. Alone, with no-one to keep me warm, with no-one to breathe life into me. No-one will come, because I won’t call anyone...
    AnotherOther AnotherOther 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 22, 2011

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    Well I Was When I Joined This Experience....

    and have broken down even more since but I hope bit by bit I'm putting myself back together again....I may be some time, but I'm gathering support, oh yes! I think I needed the breakdown in order to start the re-build.
    lostbird lostbird 51-55, F 9 Responses May 4, 2009

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    I honestly can't deal with life anymore,

    do I escape by death or drowning, or do I run away. As over dramatic as I sound there is truth to my words. I require someone's constant attention, someone who makes me feel safe and holds back my many insecurities. I only feel comfortable to do so with my best guy friend, he is...
    Katastr0ph3 Katastr0ph3 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 23, 2014

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    Halloween Today

    I was doing alright for the past one week ish.. This morning a story in EP hit me and tears started to pour down my cheeks..  Like I have been holding on to the tear bank and finally letting go this morning.. I don't know how to explain to friends how I actually...
    Eternal Eternal 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 30, 2009

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    Sometimes I just get bouts of loneliness

    and depression. It'll pass.
    existJenna existJenna 13-15, F Dec 14, 2014

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    Every Minute.

    I dont know why bad things happen to me but they do. I have gotten broken up with 2 days ago ad it still hurts like a *****. :/ i gave him eerything and i thought we would make it but we didnt.... i dnt understand. Im a great girl with a great personality. Why do i keep having...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 23, 2013

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    Breaking Down

    Today at lunch, I literally broke down. I lost it. My friend had accidentally triggered it. She had asked me why I take things so harshly and why I say things back when **** get's said about me. I thought she was going against me and I lost it. I told her how I can't handle it no...
    SammyNeedsHelp SammyNeedsHelp 16-17, F 1 Response May 6, 2013

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    So I told the people

    that were cyber bullying to stop because I'm going through enough and then I got told it's my excuse, does everything think this?! Because it is not an excuse! Can't even cope anymore😭😭
    macyrogers macyrogers 13-15, F May 28, 2014

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