I Am Broken Beyond Repair

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 353 People

    Ive been hurting and depressed

    and everything else you name it for the past 5 years. People have tried to help me but to no avail. I feel bad for them, for wasting their precious time they have on me. Im not worth anything. Ive been beyond repair since the day I was born. Theres no hope for me anyway. Soon...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 3, 2015

    It's Hard For Me To Show Emotions

    My husband and I married about six years ago.  Now that I look back, I don't know why I married him.  I have lots of excuses, like protecting his kids from his horrible temper, loneliness, thinking that marrying me would change him and his poor confused children etc...
    hope1963 hope1963
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Nov 22, 2010

    They say time heals all wounds I'm not

    so sure I think that when the damage is done from an early age it's so hard to pick up the pieces especially when some were crushed into sand no matter how much glue you use without all the pieces how can someone be fixed. life has improved for me but the damage lies in the...
    Bluelanterndodgerstark Bluelanterndodgerstark
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 1, 2014

    Why Do You Love The Ones That Hurt The Most?

    I am so broken, I can not pick up the pieces. I live in a void of ups and downs. To love someone so much that you would do anything for them, and they have done nothing but abuse you and your love. It's been so misguided. I don't know why I love and need him so much, when...
    Zarinia Zarinia
    36-40
    3 Responses Sep 27, 2011

    I Need Someone There For Me.

    I struggle with self harm and an eating disorder. I need someone there for me. Here is my story. When I first started to feel fat, I was in fourth grade. I didn't really think about anyone other than myself. I was always worried about how skinny I would look in my clothes, and...
    mjlover1958 mjlover1958
    13-15, F
    Nov 21, 2012

    Reaching Out.

    No more love, No more laughter, Only silence, Cold drafters, Take this pain away, Before I go completely Insane, I feel sick, With everything, I knew if I didn't say, Those Three stupid words, I might not have been where I am today. Yet my heart still loves him, But my soul...
    Goldpaw Goldpaw
    16-17
    Jun 26, 2013

    I value all commitments ,

    nothing against anyone . And against You, my life, How can I? But depressive thoughts have eaten up my mind completely , I am only a existence ,every breath I take I feel I am repaying my debt. I have tried to steer them but reality has struck me so bad I am totally finished...
    winterfall winterfall
    41-45
    1 Response Dec 6, 2014

    I can't believe he can do this to me.

    After more than 2 years of being in a relationship he left me for another girl. When we were still together he was so sweet and would always tell me how much he loves me. I thought he loved me so much that he can't afford to lose me. I never saw it coming. Where did I go wrong...
    biancable biancable
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 30, 2015

    Who can feel the storm

    neither you nor I but when everything is left broken then we realize how devastating it can be. How I failed to see the signs now broken lost the ability to read between the lines. I shrunk inside myself and not willing to ask for any help I have ruined my senses .The fault...
    winterfall winterfall
    41-45
    Apr 27, 2015

    I'll be fine i swear,

    I'm just gone beyond repair.
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Apr 10, 2015

    Do you know how it feels to have everything

    that was going so good turn for the worst. My heart has been shattered, put back together, and shattered again. Why don't people understand that when someone's heart is broken then fixed, there are still cracks left over. I just want to be happy again that's all.
    hearmecryandwatchmedie hearmecryandwatchmedie
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 12, 2014

    Tired And Want To Go To Bed

    If you've ever felt like your mind is slowly leaving you and your body is slowly but surely telling you that you're going to die, then you're in the same boat with me. My whole person, body, mind, and soul feel as if there is no way to fix anything. I've sought out professional...
    misternobrain misternobrain
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jun 29, 2011

    Broken

    Robbed of love Only mocking laughter Life is the path to the slaughter I am broken Beyond repair Wishing someone Would truly care Begging to die My wrists cry Crimson tears Pain from years The cries of my pain That no one hears
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 27, 2013

    I Think This Will Be The Week

    My wife killed herself four years ago out of pain and loneliness from my constant neglect of being wrapped up in my own depression all the time. All she wanted was some attention for me and I completely ignored her despite the miracle of having found someone so amazing. Had a...
    randomseriesofletters randomseriesofletters
    36-40
    1 Response Sep 5, 2012

    Crying is sometimes easy to not cry is far

    harder. I think I have cried enough and should not grieve any further.But when your absence looms on my soul my flesh creeps ,my spirit shivers. Knowing those eyes that stare can’t comfort me with promises,days pass with no meaning all I do is keep trying but to no avail.
    winterfall winterfall
    41-45
    4 Responses Feb 17, 2015

    A Small Admittance..

    For someone such as me who was already a more then shattered soul I have come to the realization, with the loss of the man I had once given my heart to, that I simply don't care to try again. I'm too old of a soul to be bothered with the trivial entrancement of love..it becomes...
    HanaNoMizu HanaNoMizu
    26-30, F
    16 Responses Nov 16, 2009

    Every aspect of my life is destroyed.

    My ex destroyed me financially...I've tried for four years to fix it, unsuccessfully. My career is over. My family despises me. Socially my friends abandoned me. Emotionally I have no support system. I have no romantic life and haven't had romance in a relationship in many...
    sassyg1rl sassyg1rl
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Mar 22, 2014

    God Why?

    GOD IS IN CONTROL, RIGHT? SO, WHY DID HE ALLOW THIS PERSON, THIS MAN TO WALK INTO MY LIFE. PLZ GOD TELL ME WHY. SHOW ME .I'M SO BROKEN BY HIM. HE GETS TO WALK OFF INTO THE SUNSET,WHILE I CRY EVERY DAY BCUZ HE IS GONE.THIS HAS NEVER HAPPEN TO ME B4.GOD, DID U USE HIM TO GET MY...
    veronicamcp veronicamcp
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Oct 23, 2012

    A breath of air is all I need

    and a little time with you …… But……….
    winterfall winterfall
    41-45
    Dec 20, 2014

    Judge Me. Do It.

    You want to judge me? Before you do, you could at least take the time to learn a few things about me... 1. Before you make fun of my weight, you should know that I have an eating disorder. Called bulimia. You should look it up. 2. Before you call me a freak, you should know...
    mjlover1958 mjlover1958
    13-15, F
    1 Response Sep 30, 2012

    Sorry

    The logo was too cute, I couldn't resist it.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort
    36-40, F
    6 Responses Jul 26, 2009

    Lost Everything.

    Don't even try to love me. I don't deserve one bit. Resent me, hate me, call me a *****. I've lost my mate. Now my sister. And my rank. Kill me. Send a bullet through my head, leaving me dead. I can't take this any more. I'm done fighting. Done loving. Hate me, resent me, call me...
    Goldpaw Goldpaw
    16-17
    4 Responses Jul 4, 2013

    For years I have accepted suicide

    as an inevitability. Not tomorrow or next week, but sometime. When I have failed for the last time, and it is clear that I cannot be happy and successful I will finally kill myself. All I see are my failures, past and future. I will try to be successful at my goals, but will...
    Richard462 Richard462
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jan 11, 2014

    I'm back but the sad part is I fee the same way

    I've always have. I just want to be happy again ? Why can't I be happy ?
    hearmecryandwatchmedie hearmecryandwatchmedie
    18-21, F
    Nov 8, 2014

    Glass Doll.

    I'm a glass doll sitting on a shelf. After a while of abuse I'm falling apart. I've fallen in love, then been replaced. The heart I used to have has crumbled up and fallen to peices. Every time he tells her he loves her I crack a bit. I start to break more and more. Living...
    TwistedOak TwistedOak
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Apr 10, 2013
    Faust76 Faust76
    70+, M
    Aug 19, 2014

    Betryal..........

    I am broken inside too because for the past year I stuck by a man that has verbally, mentally and pyschologically abused me. I feel the core of my being is so damaged and distroyed that it cant be repaired ever. I gave him my all and now I cant hardly concentrate on things. I...
    buttercups1966 buttercups1966
    41-45, F
    9 Responses Jul 30, 2009

    Why do I feel like I don't deserve help?

    I feel like a low life loser for getting help. I feel like I'm cheating, sounds weird, but that's how i feel. i feel like i should just suck it up and quit complaining. All the abuse I went thru, I just wanna be happy, but I think I'm just broken beyond repair.
    gr8love gr8love
    36-40, F
    1 Response May 3, 2014

    I don't know where to

    even begin. My life has been a tumultuous failure thus far. I'm 23. In that23 years there has been nothing but heartache, failure and misery. I suppose there have been good moments but I am cursed with always remembering the bad things in life I suppose. To my coworkers and...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 2, 2014

    I realize now that I have to stop lying to

    myself and face the truth. I am broken. I have lost myself to far back. I have a child inside me that I know I'm not ready for. Im ready to just let go. Im done trying to be strong.
    ScarletAva ScarletAva
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jan 6, 2014

    Lost My Feel Of Everything

    I'm seventeen and i'm going throughthemost important year of my life in high school and i can't seem to feel the pressure. It all started when i discovered i had trichotillomania (A hair-pulling disorder, ever since then i would cry every night and every day, i'm always worried...
    Rika95 Rika95
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Dec 8, 2012

    Suddenly...

    Suddenly memories and flashbacks hit. I look at pictures, i remember the pain, the love, the loss. I notice how dumb i am and how blind ive been. I feel so bad and i wonder if things REALLY are as they seem. am i delusional? am i just living in my own little world? i dont know...
    TwistedOak TwistedOak
    13-15, F
    1 Response Mar 3, 2013

    Sweet, Sweet Insanity

    I guess I'm broken. Even if you don't know it, I won't blame you. Even my parents don't know. Go ahead, hate me. Kill me, if you wish. I won't care. It would be a gift for me. I don't deserve any bit of your attention. Except the kind that leads to death. Send a bullet through my...
    BENDrowned BENDrowned
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 20, 2013

    This, Is Me

    I prefer not to think about these events, and indeed have spent years perfecting the art of blocking out bad memories, but lately my mind has been bringing them up without my consent, turning my dreams into nightmares and creeping into my waking thoughts as well. As more of my...
    EmptyUnderMyHat EmptyUnderMyHat
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 20, 2013

    Empty

    I hate myself...I feel empty...I can't think...I just want to close my eyes and never wake up...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Oct 22, 2013

    Down In The Dumps.

    I have been dating this guy ever since 2010. everything was strong we were strong, then my living situation got so rocky and unstable he started to cheat on me. The female got pregnant but she had an abortion. I was so heartbroken to have found that out instead of being told. But...
    Godschildd Godschildd
    18-21, F
    Jan 30, 2013

    As I crawl into the bed I can see my tears

    falling into the empty space. The night is indeed very sad ..in its heaviness my fears spread into my veins, depressive thoughts scream inside the head , My chest hurts I feel so sad & empty within. Tonight if I touch my quill its surely going to bleed. But I know not what is...
    winterfall winterfall
    41-45
    Apr 9, 2015

    Tonight

    I was frayed, at the end of my rope for the longest time...I was okay with staying there, as long as I didn't snap right? I would be fine...I was okay with my unrequited love-- well as okay as you can be with such a thing. I dealt with everything I could by cutting, unhealthy i...
    CowgirlMagic CowgirlMagic
    18-21, F
    Nov 22, 2010

    Put to rest what you thought of me

    as I clean the slate with hands of uncertainty, tears falling ,fingers shivering ,I am breaking ,am breaking …cos am not an angel but a human being . I really don’t know why I found myself in this situation ,You might be somewhere near ,really speaking I am failing to...
    winterfall winterfall
    41-45
    Oct 4, 2015

    .....................

    ...................................................................................................................................................................................................... Nothing more left in me even words bade farewell to me.
    winterfall winterfall
    41-45
    Dec 13, 2014

    Love Hurts

    Broken, yes i am. Cant leave my gf for marrying another girl of parent's choice. Feeling blank. I will be nothing if I loose her. Why on earth people love if they are to be separated. It hurts so badly. There is a limit for tears to come out.
    steve43210 steve43210
    26-30, M
    1 Response Oct 30, 2013

    The Broken

    Ha! Funny, i wrote a lot about the broken.......... I would get into detail but, in the end do the details matter? No. Its still the same result. Cracked, shattered, fractured, broken....... You are not what you once were.I've learned to deal with it. I've accepted it. I have...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    16 Responses Jan 29, 2010
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