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I Am Broken Beyond Repair

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    For years I have accepted suicide

    as an inevitability. Not tomorrow or next week, but sometime. When I have failed for the last time, and it is clear that I cannot be happy and successful I will finally kill myself. All I see are my failures, past and future. I will try to be successful at my goals, but will...
    Richard462 Richard462 26-30, M Jan 11

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    I realize now that I have to stop lying to

    myself and face the truth. I am broken. I have lost myself to far back. I have a child inside me that I know I'm not ready for. Im ready to just let go. Im done trying to be strong.
    ScarletAva ScarletAva 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 6

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    Broken

    Robbed of love Only mocking laughter Life is the path to the slaughter I am broken Beyond repair Wishing someone Would truly care Begging to die My wrists cry Crimson tears Pain from years The cries of my pain That no one hears
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 27, 2013

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    The Broken

    Ha! Funny, i wrote a lot about the broken.......... I would get into detail but, in the end do the details matter? No. Its still the same result. Cracked, shattered, fractured, broken....... You are not what you once were.I've learned to deal with it. I've accepted it. I have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Jan 29, 2010

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    Sweet, Sweet Insanity

    I guess I'm broken. Even if you don't know it, I won't blame you. Even my parents don't know. Go ahead, hate me. Kill me, if you wish. I won't care. It would be a gift for me. I don't deserve any bit of your attention. Except the kind that leads to death. Send a bullet through my...
    BENDrowned BENDrowned 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 20, 2013

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    Lost My Feel Of Everything

    I'm seventeen and i'm going throughthemost important year of my life in high school and i can't seem to feel the pressure. It all started when i discovered i had trichotillomania (A hair-pulling disorder, ever since then i would cry every night and every day, i'm always worried...
    Rika95 Rika95 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 8, 2012

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    Do you know how it feels to have everything

    that was going so good turn for the worst. My heart has been shattered, put back together, and shattered again. Why don't people understand that when someone's heart is broken then fixed, there are still cracks left over. I just want to be happy again that's all.
    hearmecryandwatchmedie hearmecryandwatchmedie 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 12

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    God Why?

    GOD IS IN CONTROL, RIGHT? SO, WHY DID HE ALLOW THIS PERSON, THIS MAN TO WALK INTO MY LIFE. PLZ GOD TELL ME WHY. SHOW ME .I'M SO BROKEN BY HIM. HE GETS TO WALK OFF INTO THE SUNSET,WHILE I CRY EVERY DAY BCUZ HE IS GONE.THIS HAS NEVER HAPPEN TO ME B4.GOD, DID U USE HIM TO GET MY...
    veronicamcp veronicamcp 41-45, F 3 Responses Oct 23, 2012

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    All Broke Up

    Somethings just can't be fixed and I am one of them.  I've been broken for so long I doubt that I can ever be fixed.
    RagingSkillet RagingSkillet 31-35, M Oct 5, 2011

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    I don't know where to

    even begin. My life has been a tumultuous failure thus far. I'm 23. In that23 years there has been nothing but heartache, failure and misery. I suppose there have been good moments but I am cursed with always remembering the bad things in life I suppose. To my coworkers and...
    MissManaged MissManaged 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 2

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    Glass Doll.

    I'm a glass doll sitting on a shelf. After a while of abuse I'm falling apart. I've fallen in love, then been replaced. The heart I used to have has crumbled up and fallen to peices. Every time he tells her he loves her I crack a bit. I start to break more and more. Living...
    TwistedOak TwistedOak 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 10, 2013

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    Why do I feel like I don't deserve help?

    I feel like a low life loser for getting help. I feel like I'm cheating, sounds weird, but that's how i feel. i feel like i should just suck it up and quit complaining. All the abuse I went thru, I just wanna be happy, but I think I'm just broken beyond repair.
    gr8love gr8love 31-35, F 1 Response May 3

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    A Small Admittance..

    For someone such as me who was already a more then shattered soul I have come to the realization, with the loss of the man I had once given my heart to, that I simply don't care to try again. I'm too old of a soul to be bothered with the trivial entrancement of love..it becomes...
    HanaNoMizu HanaNoMizu 22-25, F 16 Responses Nov 16, 2009

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    Tonight

    I was frayed, at the end of my rope for the longest time...I was okay with staying there, as long as I didn't snap right? I would be fine...I was okay with my unrequited love-- well as okay as you can be with such a thing. I dealt with everything I could by cutting, unhealthy i...
    CowgirlMagic CowgirlMagic 18-21, F Nov 22, 2010

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    Why Do You Love The Ones That Hurt The Most?

    I am so broken, I can not pick up the pieces. I live in a void of ups and downs. To love someone so much that you would do anything for them, and they have done nothing but abuse you and your love. It's been so misguided. I don't know why I love and need him so much, when...
    Zarinia Zarinia 36-40 3 Responses Sep 27, 2011

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    Lost Everything.

    Don't even try to love me. I don't deserve one bit. Resent me, hate me, call me a *****. I've lost my mate. Now my sister. And my rank. Kill me. Send a bullet through my head, leaving me dead. I can't take this any more. I'm done fighting. Done loving. Hate me, resent me, call me...
    Goldpaw Goldpaw 13-15 4 Responses Jul 4, 2013

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    Judge Me. Do It.

    You want to judge me? Before you do, you could at least take the time to learn a few things about me... 1. Before you make fun of my weight, you should know that I have an eating disorder. Called bulimia. You should look it up. 2. Before you call me a freak, you should know...
    mjlover1958 mjlover1958 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 30, 2012

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    Down In The Dumps.

    I have been dating this guy ever since 2010. everything was strong we were strong, then my living situation got so rocky and unstable he started to cheat on me. The female got pregnant but she had an abortion. I was so heartbroken to have found that out instead of being told. But...
    Godschildd Godschildd 18-21, F Jan 30, 2013

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    Every aspect of my life is destroyed.

    My ex destroyed me financially...I've tried for four years to fix it, unsuccessfully. My career is over. My family despises me. Socially my friends abandoned me. Emotionally I have no support system. I have no romantic life and haven't had romance in a relationship in many...
    sassyg1rl sassyg1rl 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 22

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    It's Hard For Me To Show Emotions

    My husband and I married about six years ago.  Now that I look back, I don't know why I married him.  I have lots of excuses, like protecting his kids from his horrible temper, loneliness, thinking that marrying me would change him and his poor confused children etc...
    hope1963 hope1963 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 22, 2010

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    Reaching Out.

    No more love, No more laughter, Only silence, Cold drafters, Take this pain away, Before I go completely Insane, I feel sick, With everything, I knew if I didn't say, Those Three stupid words, I might not have been where I am today. Yet my heart still loves him, But my soul...
    Goldpaw Goldpaw 13-15 1 Response Jun 26, 2013

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    This, Is Me

    I prefer not to think about these events, and indeed have spent years perfecting the art of blocking out bad memories, but lately my mind has been bringing them up without my consent, turning my dreams into nightmares and creeping into my waking thoughts as well. As more of my...
    EmptyUnderMyHat EmptyUnderMyHat 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 20, 2013

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    Love Hurts

    Broken, yes i am. Cant leave my gf for marrying another girl of parent's choice. Feeling blank. I will be nothing if I loose her. Why on earth people love if they are to be separated. It hurts so badly. There is a limit for tears to come out.
    steve43210 steve43210 26-30, M Oct 30, 2013

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    They say time heals all wounds I'm not

    so sure I think that when the damage is done from an early age it's so hard to pick up the pieces especially when some were crushed into sand no matter how much glue you use without all the pieces how can someone be fixed. life has improved for me but the damage lies in the...
    Bluelanterndodgerstark Bluelanterndodgerstark 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 1

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    I Need Someone There For Me.

    I struggle with self harm and an eating disorder. I need someone there for me. Here is my story. When I first started to feel fat, I was in fourth grade. I didn't really think about anyone other than myself. I was always worried about how skinny I would look in my clothes, and...
    mjlover1958 mjlover1958 13-15, F Nov 21, 2012

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    Tired And Want To Go To Bed

    If you've ever felt like your mind is slowly leaving you and your body is slowly but surely telling you that you're going to die, then you're in the same boat with me. My whole person, body, mind, and soul feel as if there is no way to fix anything. I've sought out professional...
    misternobrain misternobrain 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 29, 2011

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    Sorry

    The logo was too cute, I couldn't resist it.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort 36-40, F 6 Responses Jul 26, 2009

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    Faust76 Faust76 36-40, M 1 Response Aug 19

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    Betryal..........

    I am broken inside too because for the past year I stuck by a man that has verbally, mentally and pyschologically abused me. I feel the core of my being is so damaged and distroyed that it cant be repaired ever. I gave him my all and now I cant hardly concentrate on things. I...
    buttercups1966 buttercups1966 41-45, F 9 Responses Jul 30, 2009

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    Suddenly...

    Suddenly memories and flashbacks hit. I look at pictures, i remember the pain, the love, the loss. I notice how dumb i am and how blind ive been. I feel so bad and i wonder if things REALLY are as they seem. am i delusional? am i just living in my own little world? i dont know...
    TwistedOak TwistedOak 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 3, 2013

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    I Think This Will Be The Week

    My wife killed herself four years ago out of pain and loneliness from my constant neglect of being wrapped up in my own depression all the time. All she wanted was some attention for me and I completely ignored her despite the miracle of having found someone so amazing. Had a...
    randomseriesofletters randomseriesofletters 36-40 Sep 5, 2012

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    Empty

    I hate myself...I feel empty...I can't think...I just want to close my eyes and never wake up...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 22, 2013

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