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I Am Building This Wall Around My Heart

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 197 People

    I Need To Protect My Heart

    No matter what i do in a relationship they always leave me for someone else and take a piece of my heart with them. I'm so sick of being hurt because everytime i let someone into my heart they turn around and hurt me. So this time i wont let down my walls ... I wont get hurt...
    Tayuya Tayuya 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 1, 2010

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    :-/

    Why do people have to be this lonely? What's the point of it all? Millions of people in this world, all of them yearning, looking to others to satisfy them, yet isolating themselves. Why? Was the earth put here just to nourish human loneliness?
    chellaa chellaa 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 5, 2011

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    Safety ...

    This is just not me at all.  I've never been this way ... no wall building for me.   But recently I can feel myself getting ready to go out shopping for the bricks and mortar ... looking for the trowel ... getting the "How to Build a Wall" manual out ...  It's a...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 4 Responses May 30, 2010

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    You Call It "hiding",i Call It "protection".

    Sometimes we build walls not to keep people out,but to see who cares enough to knock them down.You may say that Im hiding i say im protecting my heart,for it has been broke way too many times because i let all of the wrong people in. well i am tired of trying to hide the...
    SadEyedAngel126 SadEyedAngel126 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2010

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    This Wall Of Mine ... I'm Gonna Let It Shine

    You won't break into this heart again! I must keep you out because you are breaking it all over again into those tiny little shards that cut me deeply and i am trying to place them all back together when you have finished. To me you was once just a dream ... someone i was...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F Jul 10, 2013

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    I just recently broke up with my boyfriend that i love with all my heart. Being to attached to him i realize now was a very bad thing. I fell to hard for him and i feel lost in this world. There is this guy who seems interested in me in my school. I feel like no matter how nice...
    karleemcdonald1 karleemcdonald1 16-17, F May 31, 2010

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    I know I'm not the type to be loved.

    I know what men want and it has nothing to do with my heart. The walls are slowly being built. It is a long painful process but one that will be worth it in the end. I will not fall again.
    bzylady bzylady 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 21, 2014

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    The Reason Why I'm Guarded

    I have watched so many failed marriages growing up that it really tainted my views of love and relationships. My parents have been married several times each. My mom left two out of three of her husbands for another man and my dad always married the wrong women. I am also pretty...
    neverbroken21 neverbroken21 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2010

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    Hurt By Those Whom Shouldn't

    Ever since I was a small girl I have always kept people at a distance. Useing masks or remaining emotionless, keeping others who stand in the light of life away from the dark shadows in which I seek sanctuary. Why? I'm not entirely sure... I think a part of it is because I was...
    buckisinfomedia buckisinfomedia 18-21, F 1 Response May 30, 2010

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    I Don't Mean To But I'm Afraid Of What I'll Do Otherwise.

    Like many other people (because what's wrong with being a truthful cliché?,) I just want to be held and loved for being who I am. But I don't want to push people away by even attempting to express that wanting. I doubt it would do any good, anyway. Whatever -_-
    p1nkmatter p1nkmatter 22-25 Oct 24, 2013

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    Quote...

    Quote: sometimes we build up walls - not to keep people out but to see who cares enough to knock them down?
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 28, 2010

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    I realize that I am doing now but it isn't to keep one person out but all others. 
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 27 Responses May 29, 2010

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    Hmm More Like A Cage

    Has anyone see the sponge bob episode where he has the old krappy pati in the cage and it braked and growled everytime someone came near. That's like my heart. Has a cage around it..
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F Jan 15, 2011

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    A Valentines Poem... I Wish You Can See This...

    I love valentines with hate so dear Loathing with eyes wide as hearts appear On this day i begin to see Valentines does not begin with C Everytime I feel its presence Yelling and screaming while they smile with presents Ordinarily I would partake Understand now that there is no...
    poying55 poying55 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 15, 2011

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    Hard To Let Go

    If you ever read this, i want you to know that i love you with all my heart. You are my life. My reason for breathing. I want to have your children. I want to be with you for as long as i live. There is only 1 problem, you dont love me. You dont even consider me as a girlfriend...
    tracili tracili 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 3, 2010

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    I Won't Disturb The Slumber Of Feelings That Have Died

      This pretty much says it all.....
    underconstruction underconstruction 41-45, F 6 Responses Dec 14, 2010

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    Thursday Night 'Fun'

    So here it is...currently at a live night concert with a friend. Local bands playing throughout, you know, all fun and stuff. People enjoying themselves, conversation going on, supposedly a great time. Here's the truth though...really not as fun. Every Thursday our local brewery...
    DenKarp DenKarp 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 29, 2013

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    Done

    Finished.  End.  No more love from me.  I just can't keep giving it out when i never seem to get it back.  In the end, it's just me here, always.  Shame I don't really like myself. 
    Anesthesia Anesthesia 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2010

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    Building Up My Wall, Permanently

    I don't want to have another broken heart ever. It's humiliating, dillusioning, wasteful, egotistical and pathetic. I don't tell people of the pain I feel, I have people at armslength but not even my closest friends know of my perpetual sadness. I prefer to grow old alone than to...
    roxyyn roxyyn 18-21 2 Responses Jan 10, 2011

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    Yep! Snowy Is A Wall Builder ~

    I am a wall builder..ask anyone that knows me well. If you hurt me- up the wall goes, if you betray me- up the wall goes... higher and higher each time. And while I know this is a defense mechanism it is so hard not to do even to those who love me. In my lifetime I have been...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 44 Responses May 30, 2010

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    I am a girl. I was dating a guy but suddenly got feelings for a girl. I broke with my bf to be with her and now she doesn't war wasn't me. I don't understand why. we've been...
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    once you fall your screwed and once your weak you fall farther cause they tell you what you want to hear . something everyone tries to avoid but you always fall
    nightmare06 nightmare06 13-15, F May 10

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    It's easier.. And then you don't have to deal with people letting you down constantly.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 11

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    It's funny how I always say, today will be the day..... I've been holding things in for such a long time, yet finding it harder to open up. Closing doors and building walls seem...
    EyeDontGiveAHoot EyeDontGiveAHoot 36-40, F 5 days ago

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    Part 2; Oh what a night that was!!!!! Due to EP censoring this is the Disney version of events. lol I drove the garage courtesy car to my wife's work's customer's car park with 2...
    AmandaCarrington AmandaCarrington 56-60, T 3 Responses a week ago

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    Call it a defense mechanism or perhaps a built-in safeguard of sorts... When you allow others in, you open your self up to get hurt My heart is already torn I don't know if it can...
    Restless71 Restless71 41-45, F 5 hrs ago

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    My heart has been teaching me lots of lessons lately. He's been in the spot light for awhile now by going through the roller coaster journey of his own. A while ago, exactly a...
    StrongWoman9 StrongWoman9 26-30, F Apr 28

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    I met him at 18 while travelling abroad. He was a childhood friend that my mother insisted i visit even if its for a few days. Our fathers were best friends and as children they...
    soulshatttttered soulshatttttered 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    There are numerous older men in the world who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to...
    Julieccaa Julieccaa 26-30, F May 12

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    There are numerous older men in the world who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to...
    sarahccaa sarahccaa 26-30, F May 18

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    I'm a girl who likes girls and it's kinda hard to find girls I guess I'm shy afraid of rejection etc. but when I am in a relationship I'm the best gf ever I'll do what ever to make...
    Cecevuitton Cecevuitton 26-30, F a week ago

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    There are numerous older men in the world who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to...
    norahcc11 norahcc11 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    There are numerous older men in the world who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to...
    norahcc11 norahcc11 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    After a failed marriage and going through a lot in life. I longed for a second chance. A second chance at life and a second chance for love. It’s tough being alone in this world...
    brokenant brokenant 26-30, M May 14

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    I'm still talking care of my mom....and working the evening job....Over the last couple of weeks...ive been seeing an old lady friend....i used to walk her boxer dog years ago...
    expressomarkie expressomarkie 46-50, M 1 Response May 13

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    yep love it sitting around a camp fire telling ghost stories to others is fun just looking at the fire in this atmosphere feels great but i usually prefer going alone so i...
    Mdesires Mdesires 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I think in todays world, With its constant revolving and with it comes more change by the days as they go by. I think with that, people will change with it but some do not. Change...
    Traveller96 Traveller96 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    hey laiqa many will say they love you but i wonder how many will actually mean it many will make you laugh but i wonder how many will keep you happy forever many will look in...
    Mdesires Mdesires 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    I met this guy at the beginning of the school year, he was super sweet and kind to me. He's funny and open minded and hearted. I really liked him. We began to talk more as track...
    sincerelysl sincerelysl 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    Ok I don't lick my walls. I'm addicted to flirting with sexy curvy Women. Is that you? Message me 😝
    TexasRocker TexasRocker 46-50, M 1 Response May 8

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    leaving some one you totally love behind who you love with all your heart . Because his family are so horrible to him. You cannot stick around because you felt like dying...
    gallagher1969 gallagher1969 46-50, F May 11

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    I need advice, I feel depressed & stuck like I don't know what to do anymore... Well let's start by 7 months ago, after healing from domestic abuse I decide to start dating again...
    Egarcia37 Egarcia37 22-25, F 4 Responses May 17

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