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I Am Building This Wall Around My Heart

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 201 People

    I Need To Feel Safe

    Outgoing and sarcastic, fun loving, loyal.... Always up for a new adventure, this is the illusion that I portray to everyone..... In reality I'm the complete opposite. I will always assume that you have a hidden motive in getting to know me. I think I'm better off just being...
    Jan 29, 2013

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    Hard To Let Go

    If you ever read this, i want you to know that i love you with all my heart. You are my life. My reason for breathing. I want to have your children. I want to be with you for as long as i live. There is only 1 problem, you dont love me. You dont even consider me as a girlfriend...
    tracili tracili 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 3, 2010

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    I realize that I am doing now but it isn't to keep one person out but all others. 
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 28 Responses May 29, 2010

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    Hurt By Those Whom Shouldn't

    Ever since I was a small girl I have always kept people at a distance. Useing masks or remaining emotionless, keeping others who stand in the light of life away from the dark shadows in which I seek sanctuary. Why? I'm not entirely sure... I think a part of it is because I was...
    buckisinfomedia buckisinfomedia 18-21, F 1 Response May 30, 2010

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    Safety ...

    This is just not me at all.  I've never been this way ... no wall building for me.   But recently I can feel myself getting ready to go out shopping for the bricks and mortar ... looking for the trowel ... getting the "How to Build a Wall" manual out ...  It's a...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 4 Responses May 30, 2010

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    I just recently broke up with my boyfriend that i love with all my heart. Being to attached to him i realize now was a very bad thing. I fell to hard for him and i feel lost in this world. There is this guy who seems interested in me in my school. I feel like no matter how nice...
    karleemcdonald1 karleemcdonald1 16-17, F May 31, 2010

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    I Need To Protect My Heart

    No matter what i do in a relationship they always leave me for someone else and take a piece of my heart with them. I'm so sick of being hurt because everytime i let someone into my heart they turn around and hurt me. So this time i wont let down my walls ... I wont get hurt...
    Tayuya Tayuya 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 1, 2010

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    Yep! Snowy Is A Wall Builder ~

    I am a wall builder..ask anyone that knows me well. If you hurt me- up the wall goes, if you betray me- up the wall goes... higher and higher each time. And while I know this is a defense mechanism it is so hard not to do even to those who love me. In my lifetime I have been...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 46 Responses May 30, 2010

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    A Valentines Poem... I Wish You Can See This...

    I love valentines with hate so dear Loathing with eyes wide as hearts appear On this day i begin to see Valentines does not begin with C Everytime I feel its presence Yelling and screaming while they smile with presents Ordinarily I would partake Understand now that there is no...
    poying55 poying55 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 15, 2011

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    Done

    Finished.  End.  No more love from me.  I just can't keep giving it out when i never seem to get it back.  In the end, it's just me here, always.  Shame I don't really like myself. 
    Anesthesia Anesthesia 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2010

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    :-/

    Why do people have to be this lonely? What's the point of it all? Millions of people in this world, all of them yearning, looking to others to satisfy them, yet isolating themselves. Why? Was the earth put here just to nourish human loneliness?
    chellaa chellaa 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 5, 2011

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    I Won't Disturb The Slumber Of Feelings That Have Died

      This pretty much says it all.....
    underconstruction underconstruction 41-45, F 6 Responses Dec 14, 2010

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    I Don't Mean To But I'm Afraid Of What I'll Do Otherwise.

    Like many other people (because what's wrong with being a truthful cliché?,) I just want to be held and loved for being who I am. But I don't want to push people away by even attempting to express that wanting. I doubt it would do any good, anyway. Whatever -_-
    p1nkmatter p1nkmatter 22-25 Oct 24, 2013

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    Hmm More Like A Cage

    Has anyone see the sponge bob episode where he has the old krappy pati in the cage and it braked and growled everytime someone came near. That's like my heart. Has a cage around it..
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F Jan 15, 2011

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    Thursday Night 'Fun'

    So here it is...currently at a live night concert with a friend. Local bands playing throughout, you know, all fun and stuff. People enjoying themselves, conversation going on, supposedly a great time. Here's the truth though...really not as fun. Every Thursday our local brewery...
    karpovich karpovich 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 29, 2013

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    I know I'm not the type to be loved.

    I know what men want and it has nothing to do with my heart. The walls are slowly being built. It is a long painful process but one that will be worth it in the end. I will not fall again.
    bzylady bzylady 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    The Reason Why I'm Guarded

    I have watched so many failed marriages growing up that it really tainted my views of love and relationships. My parents have been married several times each. My mom left two out of three of her husbands for another man and my dad always married the wrong women. I am also pretty...
    neverbroken21 neverbroken21 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2010

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    Building Up My Wall, Permanently

    I don't want to have another broken heart ever. It's humiliating, dillusioning, wasteful, egotistical and pathetic. I don't tell people of the pain I feel, I have people at armslength but not even my closest friends know of my perpetual sadness. I prefer to grow old alone than to...
    roxyyn roxyyn 18-21 2 Responses Jan 10, 2011

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    Quote...

    Quote: sometimes we build up walls - not to keep people out but to see who cares enough to knock them down?
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 28, 2010

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    You Call It "hiding",i Call It "protection".

    Sometimes we build walls not to keep people out,but to see who cares enough to knock them down.You may say that Im hiding i say im protecting my heart,for it has been broke way too many times because i let all of the wrong people in. well i am tired of trying to hide the...
    SadEyedAngel126 SadEyedAngel126 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2010

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    This Wall Of Mine ... I'm Gonna Let It Shine

    You won't break into this heart again! I must keep you out because you are breaking it all over again into those tiny little shards that cut me deeply and i am trying to place them all back together when you have finished. To me you was once just a dream ... someone i was...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F Jul 10, 2013

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    These walls were built for my protection to take your affection and run. I've tried to care but I'm surrounded my hearts there but you won't find it so move on...
    Missmonroe95 Missmonroe95 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9

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    I hate that feeling where you feel like you cant let yourself get too close to people..you hold yourself back a bit.. Let them in at times but never quite let yourself all the way...
    sunpea sunpea 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 5

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    I feel helpless. It really is out of my control. I don't know if there's anything else that I can do. I'm frustrated because I had just typed out a long paragraph and it got erased...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    I have a broken heart and it's the worst feeling in the world I feel so helplessly abandoned My heart break is caused by the sudden realization that no one in my life has ever...
    applesnbananas applesnbananas 51-55, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    The whistle of a freight train howled into the night. It sounded like that noise when you blow across an empty bottleneck, but like way louder. Wind slithered past the open door...
    BlueMetalChick BlueMetalChick 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 25

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    I don't know how, or why, I keep going back to you, or why I don't just let you go. I know this is gonna end in disaster and heart break but I'd be willing to give my heart to you...
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F Sep 28

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    No one ever tore down my walls like that, no one ever made me feel so loved. No one ever touched me like you did. And no one ruined me as beutifully as you. You broke into my heart...
    ColourfulDreams ColourfulDreams 13-15, F Oct 10

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    I'm the most skeptical person on this earth. Give me a good romance book or movie and my heart is melting like chocolate. Give me reality, and my heart has it's armor and my walls...
    GetYourFreakOn GetYourFreakOn 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 11

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    I've always been silent and very observant of others. In a crowded room, I hide in the corner. I am nothing special, although the people who know me tell me I am extraordinary...
    kariroo kariroo 16-17 4 days ago

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    Cricket is not just a game it is a sacred honor for all its players to represent their country to let the world perceive their dedication and commitment towards this game. Every...
    edr567 edr567 26-30, M a week ago

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    Its beating time with mineYou thought loveLove, love was on the lineHe holds you downBut I know you want to runBut you're hot, hotLoaded like a gunOh you feel oh so trapped and...
    Incognito666 Incognito666 18-21, M Oct 4

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    need to read Just about every put up for striving to know the content material then We'll produce the quality impression in these threads as other many associates. By in this...
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    I wish that the moment we met your eyes didn't take me to another world wishing upon a dream come true, you'd wrap me in your arms One Day and Love Me unconditionally. A Love I've...
    Xenasdreams Xenasdreams 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 5

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    I made the mistake awhile ago to step back from the world... To take a deep breath.. With the purpose of finding my balance.. Feeling like the world was spiraling out of my control...
    sunpea sunpea 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    Right now, I need to focus on mending my insecurities and problems. Here are some quotes that I can relate to. I'll come back and read these every time I feel like breaking down...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F Oct 10

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    With its stunning sands and coral lagoon, Baros is quite possibly probably the most image great of all of the Maldives islands. An personal vacation resort providing a whole...
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    Diving at Biyadhoo is like diving into an aquarium with a great deal to check out within the crystal apparent waters. Don’t be amazed whenever you see sharks, rays, turtles...
    Wendolynce106 Wendolynce106 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 27

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    Maybe I'm only 17, which is pretty young and never have I ever liked a guy too much that it hurt to let go. Crush? Yes I've had crushes on a lot of people but they never last. But...
    UN3P0KEN UN3P0KEN 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I also had open heart surgery shortly after I was born but the doctors just told my parents to leave me there, forget about me, and try again because there was no way I was going...
    EnigmaticYoshi EnigmaticYoshi 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 9

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    It is city owned and I am tired of some of the people who live here. There are many good and caring people here. And there are selfish, self-serving and ugly minded people here...
    kazmisan kazmisan 61-65, F 1 Response Sep 28

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    Protection from the unknown Protection from the possible hurt that can crush your inner being. Protection from the fear of being exposed without the mutual return. Protection...
    ThoughtFulMoments ThoughtFulMoments 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    I don't know what to do. I can't persuade him of anything. He has to figure it out on his own. I just hope the happiness and love I brought into this relationship is enough for him...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 12

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    or buildings that similar in design 
    PawnStarsHistory PawnStarsHistory 26-30, M Oct 17

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    I remember meeting you. I remember sitting with my friend, talking nonsense. We were laughing about something so silly. When I heard a voice, oh a beautiful voice. I looked...
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    I am I and you are you whatever we are to each other our hearts know. I speak to your heart ,every moment I crave for your touch. Knowing Impossible cant be made possible still why...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 19 hrs ago

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    Almost a year ago, the love of my life left me for another man, whom she had a child with. We were together for almost 12 years and besides our kids, I've never loved another human...
    midwesterndad74 midwesterndad74 46-50, M 3 Responses Oct 13

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    I feel like a broken hearted girl , too be ( && ) #LOVE with someone who I feel like they cheating i don't understand WHY do I put MYSELF thru this LUST we have , my hold LIFE...
    Moneea Moneea 22-25, F Oct 15

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