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I Am Building This Wall Around My Heart

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 194 People

    I Don't Mean To But I'm Afraid Of What I'll Do Otherwise.

    Like many other people (because what's wrong with being a truthful cliché?,) I just want to be held and loved for being who I am. But I don't want to push people away by even attempting to express that wanting. I doubt it would do any good, anyway. Whatever -_-
    p1nkmatter p1nkmatter 22-25 Oct 24, 2013

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    Hard To Let Go

    If you ever read this, i want you to know that i love you with all my heart. You are my life. My reason for breathing. I want to have your children. I want to be with you for as long as i live. There is only 1 problem, you dont love me. You dont even consider me as a girlfriend...
    tracili tracili 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 3, 2010

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    I Won't Disturb The Slumber Of Feelings That Have Died

      This pretty much says it all.....
    underconstruction underconstruction 41-45, F 6 Responses Dec 14, 2010

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    I just recently broke up with my boyfriend that i love with all my heart. Being to attached to him i realize now was a very bad thing. I fell to hard for him and i feel lost in this world. There is this guy who seems interested in me in my school. I feel like no matter how nice...
    karleemcdonald1 karleemcdonald1 16-17, F May 31, 2010

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    Done

    Finished.  End.  No more love from me.  I just can't keep giving it out when i never seem to get it back.  In the end, it's just me here, always.  Shame I don't really like myself. 
    Anesthesia Anesthesia 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2010

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    :-/

    Why do people have to be this lonely? What's the point of it all? Millions of people in this world, all of them yearning, looking to others to satisfy them, yet isolating themselves. Why? Was the earth put here just to nourish human loneliness?
    chellaa chellaa 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 5, 2011

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    Quote...

    Quote: sometimes we build up walls - not to keep people out but to see who cares enough to knock them down?
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 28, 2010

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    I know I'm not the type to be loved.

    I know what men want and it has nothing to do with my heart. The walls are slowly being built. It is a long painful process but one that will be worth it in the end. I will not fall again.
    bzylady bzylady 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 21, 2014

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    Building Up My Wall, Permanently

    I don't want to have another broken heart ever. It's humiliating, dillusioning, wasteful, egotistical and pathetic. I don't tell people of the pain I feel, I have people at armslength but not even my closest friends know of my perpetual sadness. I prefer to grow old alone than to...
    roxyyn roxyyn 18-21 2 Responses Jan 10, 2011

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    This Wall Of Mine ... I'm Gonna Let It Shine

    You won't break into this heart again! I must keep you out because you are breaking it all over again into those tiny little shards that cut me deeply and i am trying to place them all back together when you have finished. To me you was once just a dream ... someone i was...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F Jul 10, 2013

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    I Need To Protect My Heart

    No matter what i do in a relationship they always leave me for someone else and take a piece of my heart with them. I'm so sick of being hurt because everytime i let someone into my heart they turn around and hurt me. So this time i wont let down my walls ... I wont get hurt...
    Tayuya Tayuya 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 1, 2010

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    A Valentines Poem... I Wish You Can See This...

    I love valentines with hate so dear Loathing with eyes wide as hearts appear On this day i begin to see Valentines does not begin with C Everytime I feel its presence Yelling and screaming while they smile with presents Ordinarily I would partake Understand now that there is no...
    poying55 poying55 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 15, 2011

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    You Call It "hiding",i Call It "protection".

    Sometimes we build walls not to keep people out,but to see who cares enough to knock them down.You may say that Im hiding i say im protecting my heart,for it has been broke way too many times because i let all of the wrong people in. well i am tired of trying to hide the...
    SadEyedAngel126 SadEyedAngel126 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2010

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    Thursday Night 'Fun'

    So here it is...currently at a live night concert with a friend. Local bands playing throughout, you know, all fun and stuff. People enjoying themselves, conversation going on, supposedly a great time. Here's the truth though...really not as fun. Every Thursday our local brewery...
    DenKarp DenKarp 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 29, 2013

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    The Reason Why I'm Guarded

    I have watched so many failed marriages growing up that it really tainted my views of love and relationships. My parents have been married several times each. My mom left two out of three of her husbands for another man and my dad always married the wrong women. I am also pretty...
    neverbroken21 neverbroken21 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2010

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    Hmm More Like A Cage

    Has anyone see the sponge bob episode where he has the old krappy pati in the cage and it braked and growled everytime someone came near. That's like my heart. Has a cage around it..
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F Jan 15, 2011

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    Safety ...

    This is just not me at all.  I've never been this way ... no wall building for me.   But recently I can feel myself getting ready to go out shopping for the bricks and mortar ... looking for the trowel ... getting the "How to Build a Wall" manual out ...  It's a...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 4 Responses May 30, 2010

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    Yep! Snowy Is A Wall Builder ~

    I am a wall builder..ask anyone that knows me well. If you hurt me- up the wall goes, if you betray me- up the wall goes... higher and higher each time. And while I know this is a defense mechanism it is so hard not to do even to those who love me. In my lifetime I have been...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 44 Responses May 30, 2010

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    I realize that I am doing now but it isn't to keep one person out but all others. 
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 27 Responses May 29, 2010

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    Hurt By Those Whom Shouldn't

    Ever since I was a small girl I have always kept people at a distance. Useing masks or remaining emotionless, keeping others who stand in the light of life away from the dark shadows in which I seek sanctuary. Why? I'm not entirely sure... I think a part of it is because I was...
    buckisinfomedia buckisinfomedia 18-21, F 1 Response May 30, 2010

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    Regardless the pain my hearts been under for several years, I chose to finally stop and listen. My heart took all the pain from men it can handle. Not just thru my past...
    EyeDontGiveAHoot EyeDontGiveAHoot 36-40, F 5 Responses Apr 13

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    There in the still of the night where no one can see, nor feel me. I look up to see if the light from the moon shines down upon me. There is complete dark surrounding me, the...
    Xenasdreams Xenasdreams 26-30, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I have been a wallflower all my life it seems. Always on the edges of the action, always feeling a little left out a little like I don't belong. At school I was the third person...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 17

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    This bugs my family. I stand in the corner of the room, overhearing the conversations being carried on between my mother and my aunt. They talk as if I'm not there, as if I can't...
    hgrover hgrover 18-21, F Mar 28

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    Out of no where A heart Silently pleading to be filled Words So powerful Full of emotions, depth, and intent Broken soul Voids Cracks Hurts Resentment Emptiness Isolated...
    WithinTheHeart WithinTheHeart 36-40, F 3 Responses Apr 5

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    Many nights I dreamt of you not knowing who you were Waiting for the one my heart truly ever desired Many times sitting in bed alone in those cold nights Slowly falling in love...
    ChantouKimmy ChantouKimmy 41-45, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    My heart has always wanted to be in love. In love with one woman who will love me back as much as I will love her.I'm loyal to the core.All I need is one woman.I gave it a try when...
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 46-50, M Mar 31

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    It was after we had been on the rifle ranges, one afternoon - towards the end of the course. We'd finished the live firing exercise early for some reason. The range we had been...
    treborsniknej treborsniknej 56-60, M Apr 17

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    I see u everyday.. that fricking class-room of which walls are squeezing me dry ... my dreams are no longer mine.. how can i stop the ache .. i have understood that u r not mine...
    lukehamza lukehamza 22-25, M Apr 8

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    There are numerous older men in the world who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to...
    caraccaa caraccaa 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    There are numerous older men in the world who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to...
    caraccaa caraccaa 26-30, F Apr 7

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    Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi born 2 October 1869 died 30 January 1948) was the preeminent leader of Indian independence movement in British-ruled India. Employing nonviolent civil...
    quantumike quantumike 51-55, M Apr 13

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    There are numerous older men in the world who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to...
    dalidacc11 dalidacc11 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    There are numerous older men in the world who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to...
    dalidacc11 dalidacc11 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    Well it is no tragic heart breaking romance, It's simple , my Father left eleven years ago on January 13, 2004. He just up and left I was six years old and I just got back from a...
    DevinaLockwood DevinaLockwood 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 28

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    It was her 22nd birthday yesterday and she is now the same age as me. I meant to write this story yesterday but that never happened. Many times have I shared the story about the...
    Orchards Orchards 22-25, M Apr 15

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    It was horrible. When I was between the ages of 16 to 17 in 2011 in my first year of sixth form I had a crush on this girl. I liked her because she actually seemed interested in me...
    ZemaLDFM ZemaLDFM 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 15

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    What does it even mean to have a "broken heart"? Sounds silly. Firstly, your real heart pumps blood around the body for survival... It's not that mythical place in your chest that...
    missssyme missssyme 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    ​Not so much the old building themselves, although they do hold amazing history that peaks my curiosity. I like to solve the mystery, see the story behind contents of the place...
    Yeahbaybey Yeahbaybey 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 30

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    i have a weakness for building muscles but still i cant isolate those bicep muscles.
    279g465 279g465 22-25, M Apr 11

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    There are several holes in the walls right now that I covered up with posters and drawings. It's actually something I'm ashamed of, but I always act on impulse t.
    morekisses morekisses 13-15, F Apr 3

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    Just 5 seconds ago I watched the film 'the perks of being a wallflower' and I cried. But I diddnt cry because the film was sad or I felt bad for charlie, I cried because i know...
    Daisy123456789101112 Daisy123456789101112 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 8

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