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I Am Bulimic and Anorexic

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 284 People

    My Hopeless Life

    I have been diagnosed with bulimic anorexia or anorexia with binge/purging tendencies. My parents are currently paying an extortionate amount for recovery, but I'm going nowhere. The more I eat, the more I either want to restrict completely or binge so as I can purge all of my...
    fatanamia fatanamia 18-21, F Jun 5, 2013

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    Enough!

    I am 26. I have been anorexic and bulimic for 10+ years now. I have bad enough. I am determined to get well on my own. I tried therapists and treatment centers, now I am doing it on my own. I am really ready now. My highest ( and actualy healthy weight ) was 133, my lowest was 93...
    o0kymmie0o o0kymmie0o 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 16, 2012

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    Need Help.

      hi all. im not really sure what im meant to say in this.have never been good with talking about myself. I have never been happy with the way i look. My friends are all tiny and I feel disgusted with myself that I am not their size. I dont know why i find it so hard. I...
    endtransmission endtransmission 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 29, 2009

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    I usually starve myself

    but if I do eat I will make myself puke it all out.
    inducingeuphoria inducingeuphoria 13-15, F 2 Responses May 24

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    Really Some Need Advice...

    Honestly, I don't know where to start. Well, all my life I'm always dubbed as "very thin" or "underweight", around the time I was 12-17 years old, my weight always stays around 35-38kg, and I wasn't depressed much about it, I kinda think of it as genetics and keeps the whole I...
    snownymph snownymph 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 24, 2012

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    My Story

    I was diagnosed with anorexia when I was 7 years old because I was massively picked on That I was too fat and too ugly. Shortly after that I was diagnosed with bulimia because I was always getting screamed at, at school I went to an academy when I was younger. I have suffered...
    Lycankicker Lycankicker 26-30, F Oct 14, 2013

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    Ive been eating a lot lately,

    I don't know why I just have to have it. I hate it. I just ate 5 mcchickens and then threw it all up. Ive been feeling disgusting and worthless. I just had to eat until it felt gross, after throwing up I don't feel that disgusting but it still is. Im just gona sip on some diet...
    handache handache 18-21, F May 16

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    I've been throwing up

    for months. I've been skipping meals. Sometimes I wonder if it would be easier for everyone if I was just gone. No one cares, like actually cares, except my one friend, but she moved away. I'm so ****** up right now I don't know what to do. I have no one to talk to in person. I...
    BeAnAlly BeAnAlly 16-17, F Jan 30

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    Anorexic In Los Angeles?

    We are looking for people in Southern CA for a new documentary-style show about people who do not want to end up like their parents. We need men/women 19-27 who have started to exhibit some behavior they have "inherited" from their parents. We would like to find a young person...
    janesmith12 janesmith12 36-40, F Apr 24, 2013

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    How Did It Get This Bad?

    Its been worse. So much worse Before he knew and started called me and insisted I eat, being there to hold me back if I wanted to run to the bathroom and get rid of it. I am anorexic/bulimic. Both. Even as I thought I was recovering. Not acting on it didn't mean I wasn't...
    Londynne Londynne 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 20, 2009

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    Not Enough

    one thing that i have learned is this ED totaly consumes everything i do in every way. i really started trying to lose weight last september i was 120lbs(i'm 5'2) so by november i got myself down to 110lbs i was so happy .it was like there 4 a while i could not lose weight at all...
    fatgurl09 fatgurl09 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 19, 2009

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    How It All Started...

    5 years old sitting in a ballet studio starring up at the older ballerinas, I admired those girls more than anything... They where all so thin, so pretty, so perfect. Why didn't I look like them? Why was I so pudgy compared to them all? I grew up with this Idea of beauty that was...
    ConfessionsOfThatGirl ConfessionsOfThatGirl 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 12, 2013

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    ivegotasecret71 ivegotasecret71 41-45, M Feb 18

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    How I Feel - A Little Poem By Me. Sorry It's Not Good But It'S The Only Way I Can Express My Emotions.

    You weren't there for me when I was most troubled, When the scars on my wrists rapidly doubled, One tiny gram I was terrified to gain, My smile hides my horrible pain, And because you still don't seem to care, I have put a noose around my neck and will jump of this chair... Emily...
    AlisonDI AlisonDI 13-15 Apr 11, 2013

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    PaigeyPops PaigeyPops 13-15, F Jun 2

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    Binge, Purge, Starve, Repeat.

    This has been a constant cycle for nearly a year now and it's become normal to me. This disorder has taken over my entire life. I eat based on what I can purge, or the calorie content. I've lost about 35lbs in 4 months and it made me so happy. Well, as happy as I can be. I am...
    enterthebatcave enterthebatcave 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2013

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    I Just Feel Fat

    I've been having this urge to be bulimic/anorexic. I am not eating and after a meal I go to the bathroom and well.....yeah. I know most people might look at me and not think I'm fat but this idea in my head is bringing me down and making me weak!
    messImade messImade 16-17, F Aug 27, 2012

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    Anorexic

    i have been anorexic for about 8 months now , i am just looking for someone to motivate me cos i find i very hard at times but i love the feeling of being empty its great message me if you wanna chat
    blondie19931 blondie19931 18-21 2 Responses Sep 11, 2010

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    Wanting 2 B Skinny

    i constantly obsess over my weight of 100lbs i want 2 be 95 i know thats 2 skinny and i know it's wrong what i am doing and part of me wants help sometimes and the other part of me wants 2 get skinnier.
    fatgurl09 fatgurl09 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2009

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    My Best Friend.

    I have a best friend and her name is ana. She’s been my friend since I was about 5 or 6, she’s the mean girl of the school type but only mean to me.. She tells me what to wear and how I look at all times, she tells me when to eat and when to stop, but one thing she never...
    ConfessionsOfThatGirl ConfessionsOfThatGirl 18-21, F Sep 20, 2013

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    Am I Bulimic?

    Hi, I don't binge, I rarely eat junk.  I mainly eat protein and vegies (i love veggies) and I have never really been a fan of junk food (except McDonalds chicken burger and dominos pizza now and then).  So I am what I would consider normal; but I throw up at night if I...
    itzjustme itzjustme 31-35 1 Response Jul 30, 2009

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    My Life

    i have lived with anorexia and bulimia since i was in middle school,i always just wanted to be a bit skinnier and then it got out of control. It is so easy now with work and school to just not eat or eat and throw up and take laxatives to get rid of it all. sometimes i wish...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 24, 2013

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    Starting Over:

    I have been slack lately and now I'm starting to see the effects, I can feel my weight gaining and I hate it. Today I stopped myself from eating all day and when cravings hit I chewed food then spat it out.
    Rhiibear101 Rhiibear101 18-21, F Jun 24, 2013

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    Two Months Progress

    I'VE LOST 13.5KG SO FAR!!! Yay=)))))
    xbrokenangel xbrokenangel 16-17, F Oct 3, 2013

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    Size Is All That Matters

    The highest weight I've ever been was 175 lbs. I was 14 years old at the time. Even then, my weight fluctuated, which was normal. At 15-16 I was 165 lbs. That was a steady weight for me throughout the year. I'm 5'7. I have never been called fat. Most of my weight carried in my...
    Skinnylovesme Skinnylovesme 18-21, F Nov 27, 2013

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    I Guess I Am Both

    i have a problem, that much is clear. i starve then i binge,starve then binge....that has been like this for a while now at first i didnt know i was starving myself i just didnt feel hungry any more.... then i felt great cause i was losing weight so i continued:) last year i used...
    bellamajors bellamajors 13-15, F Aug 25, 2012

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    popcornpillows popcornpillows 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    The Worst Of It All

    Hands smell of vomit, throat swollen, bad breath. All of this to be thin? And i'm never thin enough. Oh what I'd do to give up this controlling part of life. I hate what I have become because of this. I can't do it anymore I fear going on dates to dinner, I fear I might start to...
    ConfessionsOfThatGirl ConfessionsOfThatGirl 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 13, 2013

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    Help. Please Take The Time To Read And Help Me Out, Im Desperate

    So it all started last summer. Things had been bad with my boyfriend for a while, he constantly made me feel worthless, he had cheated on me and i constantly felt like he was always looking for someone else. admittedly, ive always had low self esteem issues (i have red hair, was...
    lils18 lils18 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 30, 2012

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    Realizing

    I always thought that in order to be an anorexic or a bulimic u had to be super super skinny. But I was wrong. I came to realise that after having read many articles related to this subject,eating disorders. I never thought I was one. Even though I would restrict myself from food...
    Iwant2bsize0 Iwant2bsize0 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 30, 2013

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    I Have Never Been Diagnosed... Edno

     I am a strange cookie.  There are periods of times when  I am under stress that I do resort to bulimia, but only when I am under pressure emotionally.  Somehow the release of food makes my feelings feel better.   I used to stop eating for days and...
    beautyfull beautyfull 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 23, 2009

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    Ambivalence Of An Eating Disordered Mind

    I know now that it's become an addiction and I really am trying to stop. It's like I want to get better but I want to get worse, I want to recover but I don't want to gain weight, I love food so much but I hate eating it, I want to keep on trying but I want to give up, I know I'm...
    messImade messImade 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 15, 2012

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    Not Enough

    one thing that i have learned is this ED totaly consumes everything i do in every way. i really started trying to lose weight last september i was 120lbs(i'm 5'2) so by november i got myself down to 110lbs i was so happy .it was like there 4 a while i could not lose weight at all...
    fatgurl09 fatgurl09 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2009

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    Im Bulimic And Part Anorexic.

    It started one night when I puked up my dinner, because I felt fat after getting a new bathing suit. Every night I puked up just my dinner, telling myself I wouldn't do it more then that, and I just wanted to lose couple pounds. Here I am, puking after every meal, if I even eat...
    kkatiett kkatiett 13-15 Jul 8, 2011

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    I Hope That I Will Be Skinny

    I just want to be lovely beautiful I hate my body I hate fat..
    LinaJonesD LinaJonesD 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 11, 2013

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    Losing Hope

     Where do I start? I don't really feel like sharing my whole life story, Not after sharing it with so many psychiatrists, psychologists, dietitians, social workers etc'... This is the only site I found that has any kind of information on the situation I am in.  I am...
    JelizaRoze JelizaRoze 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 31, 2009

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    This Defines My Life

    My heart beats slow, my body feels heavy, my mind is empty, and I am feeling nothing. I am numb. I can't cry. I can't laugh. What is feeling? I don't remember what it feels like to actually feel. I am controlled by my other self (my ED). She makes me angry when the numbers on the...
    squelettique squelettique 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 15, 2013

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    Failed.

    Today, I threw up again. It's been awhile. And for some reason I felt content, like I am whole again.
    bLuuejewels bLuuejewels 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 23, 2012

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    I ate a brownie today,

    and I cried for about an hour... I had well over 2,000 calories. I binged some of it out.. But I know some of it is still in my system.😣 I need to stop eating now. 😓
    SimplySuicidal SimplySuicidal 13-15, F Mar 19

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    Stop Trying, It'S Not Fixing Anything

    People keep worrying about my food choices... At lunch, my friends yell at me because I'm not eating enough. When I do give in and eat the food that they are pushing at me, I just go and throw it up anyways. They don't know that. No one does. I hate making myself throw up but if...
    Ineverknow Ineverknow 13-15, F Apr 12, 2013

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    I have never truly came out about my eating

    disorder. I have been on and off with anorexia for a while. I recently became bulimic and I also binge eat a lot. I'm 17 and gay and want someone who has a similar struggle with this. You can message me or kick me at:ryanboy1996
    rchris96 rchris96 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 18

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    Hospital

    I woke up at 1:54 am in a pain I have never felt before. A pain that felt like someone was cutting my stomach open with a shredded knife. In tears, I call my girlfriend to see what I should do. When the phone call end, I am packing for a night in the Emergency Room. When we get...
    squelettique squelettique 18-21, F Aug 30, 2013

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    The Beginning

    When I was 12, my sister came home from college because of a terrible event. It turned out to be an eating disorder. Because she thought she was fat, I thought I was obese. She was naturally thin. I had to skate 3 hours a day to stay average. I started restricting at 12, started...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 6, 2010

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    chrispatey chrispatey 18-21, M Jun 8

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    A Scary Life I Have Come to Love

       So Hi! my name is Amber and I am 18 and I am a Bulimic / Anorexic (well to people in the medical field.) And here is my story! I became a Bulimic / Anorexic about 3 years ago when I was dating this guy I love so much! We went to Oregon camp with our church and he...
    thefatskinny1 thefatskinny1 18-21 8 Responses Jun 22, 2009

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    This is me. Yes, I know I'm a ******* whale.

    (At least that's what they say to me at school.) I was a lot happier before I became bulimic, I remember not know what an eating disorder was & being happy with food, but now I hate it, I hate being too big, I want to be smaller, every time somebody complaints about how much...
    inducingeuphoria inducingeuphoria 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 9

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    Hit Rock Bottom

    Today i Weighed my self Its 34.8 kg why do i feel Fatter like i gained weight? he Keeps telling me i Have..only drinking coffee and Tea everyday all I'm living on..Ive been week so i ha vent exercised much Ive been Sleeping all the while..Hes telling me im a blimp now that the...
    alucardx alucardx 18-21, M 9 Responses Nov 28, 2010

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    My Life Is Destroyed.

    It all started when my 'friends' said I'm fat and ugly. They laughed 'cause apparently it was a joke. But I didn't think like that. So I skipped a few meals and fell from 136 lbs to 125 lbs where I am now. I was happy that I lost weight but it's not enough. I'm stuck at the 125...
    perfectlyl0st perfectlyl0st 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 20, 2013

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    shenaepeebles shenaepeebles 13-15, F 1 Response May 29

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    Have I Got A Problem?

    I've even eating about 400 calories a day at the moment, when I eat dinner I make sure I throw it up afterwards and then exercise to that I would be at -50 calories without even throwing up. I weight 107 pounds which I think is wayy too high a number. I am struggling to loose...
    Libbyjx Libbyjx 16-17, F Nov 8, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    For two years I have been on the borderline of becoming anorexic and being anorexic. Its like a curse set deep into my heart. I can't help but only fall victim to the very thoughts...
    RockingRockel RockingRockel 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    I don't know if I am becoming anorexic but lately I have been obsessing in starving myself the more I could. I literally stopped eating lunch and breakfast. I would also skip...
    PureAmy PureAmy 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I've been looking up pro ana diets and thinspiration... I don't want to become anorexic, but I need to lose weight.
    bandssave bandssave 13-15, F Jun 29

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