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I Am Bulimic and Anorexic

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 337 People

    This Defines My Life

    My heart beats slow, my body feels heavy, my mind is empty, and I am feeling nothing. I am numb. I can't cry. I can't laugh. What is feeling? I don't remember what it feels like to actually feel. I am controlled by my other self (my ED). She makes me angry when the numbers on the...
    squelettique squelettique
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 15, 2013
    ivegotasecret71 ivegotasecret71
    46-50, M
    Feb 18, 2014

    The more stressed out

    and of control my life feels, the more I start to hate the way I look. I feel like if my life is chaos, at least I can control what I eat. I know that not eating is horrible for me, so then I try to eat. After, I usually just feel worse about myself and get rid of it.
    iamhannahh iamhannahh
    18-21, F
    Dec 6, 2015

    Am I Bulimic?

    Hi, I don't binge, I rarely eat junk.  I mainly eat protein and vegies (i love veggies) and I have never really been a fan of junk food (except McDonalds chicken burger and dominos pizza now and then).  So I am what I would consider normal; but I throw up at night if I...
    itzjustme itzjustme
    Jul 30, 2009

    I usually starve myself

    but if I do eat I will make myself puke it all out.
    inducingeuphoria inducingeuphoria
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 24, 2014

    My Story

    I was diagnosed with anorexia when I was 7 years old because I was massively picked on That I was too fat and too ugly. Shortly after that I was diagnosed with bulimia because I was always getting screamed at, at school I went to an academy when I was younger. I have suffered...
    Lycankicker Lycankicker
    26-30, F
    Oct 14, 2013

    Size Is All That Matters

    The highest weight I've ever been was 175 lbs. I was 14 years old at the time. Even then, my weight fluctuated, which was normal. At 15-16 I was 165 lbs. That was a steady weight for me throughout the year. I'm 5'7. I have never been called fat. Most of my weight carried in my...
    Skinnylovesme Skinnylovesme
    22-25, F
    Nov 27, 2013

    I Have Never Been Diagnosed... Edno

     I am a strange cookie.  There are periods of times when  I am under stress that I do resort to bulimia, but only when I am under pressure emotionally.  Somehow the release of food makes my feelings feel better.   I used to stop eating for days and...
    beautyfull beautyfull
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jun 23, 2009

    My Life Is Destroyed.

    It all started when my 'friends' said I'm fat and ugly. They laughed 'cause apparently it was a joke. But I didn't think like that. So I skipped a few meals and fell from 136 lbs to 125 lbs where I am now. I was happy that I lost weight but it's not enough. I'm stuck at the 125...
    perfectlyl0st perfectlyl0st
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 20, 2013

    I am Ana in the morning

    and Mia in the night.. TBH I kinda hate mia.. any tips for not binging??
    Unstableteen Unstableteen
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 15, 2014

    Have I Got A Problem?

    I've even eating about 400 calories a day at the moment, when I eat dinner I make sure I throw it up afterwards and then exercise to that I would be at -50 calories without even throwing up. I weight 107 pounds which I think is wayy too high a number. I am struggling to loose...
    Libbyjx Libbyjx
    18-21, F
    Nov 8, 2013

    I've been throwing up

    for months. I've been skipping meals. Sometimes I wonder if it would be easier for everyone if I was just gone. No one cares, like actually cares, except my one friend, but she moved away. I'm so ****** up right now I don't know what to do. I have no one to talk to in person. I...
    BeAnAlly BeAnAlly
    18-21, F
    Jan 30, 2014
    PaigeyPops PaigeyPops
    16-17, F
    Jun 2, 2014
    chrispatey chrispatey
    22-25, M
    Jun 8, 2014


    I am 26. I have been anorexic and bulimic for 10+ years now. I have bad enough. I am determined to get well on my own. I tried therapists and treatment centers, now I am doing it on my own. I am really ready now. My highest ( and actualy healthy weight ) was 133, my lowest was 93...
    o0kymmie0o o0kymmie0o
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 16, 2012

    How It All Started...

    5 years old sitting in a ballet studio starring up at the older ballerinas, I admired those girls more than anything... They where all so thin, so pretty, so perfect. Why didn't I look like them? Why was I so pudgy compared to them all? I grew up with this Idea of beauty that was...
    ConfessionsOfThatGirl ConfessionsOfThatGirl
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 12, 2013
    Bungholio55 Bungholio55
    16-17, F
    Mar 30, 2015

    Help. Please Take The Time To Read And Help Me Out, Im Desperate

    So it all started last summer. Things had been bad with my boyfriend for a while, he constantly made me feel worthless, he had cheated on me and i constantly felt like he was always looking for someone else. admittedly, ive always had low self esteem issues (i have red hair, was...
    lils18 lils18
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 30, 2012

    I Just Feel Fat

    I've been having this urge to be bulimic/anorexic. I am not eating and after a meal I go to the bathroom and well.....yeah. I know most people might look at me and not think I'm fat but this idea in my head is bringing me down and making me weak!
    messImade messImade
    18-21, F
    Aug 27, 2012
    popcornpillows popcornpillows
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 8, 2014

    My dad made me eat and I had to

    but when he left I threw the rest away and rushed to the bathroom. Now my mind is going crazy and I get handle it... I'm sorry
    vyrlox vyrlox
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 5, 2014

    This is me. Yes, I know I'm a ******* whale.

    (At least that's what they say to me at school.) I was a lot happier before I became bulimic, I remember not know what an eating disorder was & being happy with food, but now I hate it, I hate being too big, I want to be smaller, every time somebody complaints about how much...
    inducingeuphoria inducingeuphoria
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 9, 2014

    Really Some Need Advice...

    Honestly, I don't know where to start. Well, all my life I'm always dubbed as "very thin" or "underweight", around the time I was 12-17 years old, my weight always stays around 35-38kg, and I wasn't depressed much about it, I kinda think of it as genetics and keeps the whole I...
    snownymph snownymph
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 24, 2012

    Binge, Purge, Starve, Repeat.

    This has been a constant cycle for nearly a year now and it's become normal to me. This disorder has taken over my entire life. I eat based on what I can purge, or the calorie content. I've lost about 35lbs in 4 months and it made me so happy. Well, as happy as I can be. I am...
    enterthebatcave enterthebatcave
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 23, 2013

    I Guess I Am Both

    i have a problem, that much is clear. i starve then i binge,starve then binge....that has been like this for a while now at first i didnt know i was starving myself i just didnt feel hungry any more.... then i felt great cause i was losing weight so i continued:) last year i used...
    bellamajors bellamajors
    13-15, F
    1 Response Aug 25, 2012

    looking for a ana buddy to help with my gw.

    as of right now im 205 ( my highest weight) 5"5 18. if anyone is intrested please let me know thank you
    kittengirl5569 kittengirl5569
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 15, 2015

    I feel like a fat ******* cow!

    ! Like who the hell invented food and being fat? I hate myself, I hate food, I hate everything! I have eaten so ******* much and I feel so fat! I spend 4 hours sitting on the bathroom floor crying to myself about how fat I am! Someone help me!
    vyrlox vyrlox
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 25, 2014

    My Life

    i have lived with anorexia and bulimia since i was in middle school,i always just wanted to be a bit skinnier and then it got out of control. It is so easy now with work and school to just not eat or eat and throw up and take laxatives to get rid of it all. sometimes i wish...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 24, 2013

    I have struggled with bulimia

    and anorexia for about a year and a half. I used to weigh more than my friend and I felt like the odd one out. People say I'm really skinny, but I don't believe them. I weigh less than the friend now, but it's not enough. Eating disorders are a trap. When you start loosing...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 12, 2014

    I hate to ask, but my last ana/mia buddy

    totally gave up so i need a new buddy to do this with me. Anyoneeee? :)
    shinexnaked shinexnaked
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 24, 2015

    I eat like a normal ppl

    and sometimes binging too but still getting skinny.BUT i still feel so disgustingly fat ew
    Unstableteen Unstableteen
    16-17, F
    Dec 5, 2014

    Two Months Progress

    I'VE LOST 13.5KG SO FAR!!! Yay=)))))
    xbrokenangel xbrokenangel
    18-21, F
    Oct 3, 2013

    Losing Hope

     Where do I start? I don't really feel like sharing my whole life story, Not after sharing it with so many psychiatrists, psychologists, dietitians, social workers etc'... This is the only site I found that has any kind of information on the situation I am in.  I am...
    JelizaRoze JelizaRoze
    22-25, F
    8 Responses Oct 31, 2009

    I ate a brownie today,

    and I cried for about an hour... I had well over 2,000 calories. I binged some of it out.. But I know some of it is still in my system.😣 I need to stop eating now. 😓
    SimplySuicidal SimplySuicidal
    18-21, F
    Mar 19, 2014

    Hit Rock Bottom

    Today i Weighed my self Its 34.8 kg why do i feel Fatter like i gained weight? he Keeps telling me i Have..only drinking coffee and Tea everyday all I'm living on..Ive been week so i ha vent exercised much Ive been Sleeping all the while..Hes telling me im a blimp now that the...
    alucardx alucardx
    18-21, M
    9 Responses Nov 28, 2010

    A Scary Life I Have Come to Love

       So Hi! my name is Amber and I am 18 and I am a Bulimic / Anorexic (well to people in the medical field.) And here is my story! I became a Bulimic / Anorexic about 3 years ago when I was dating this guy I love so much! We went to Oregon camp with our church and he...
    thefatskinny1 thefatskinny1
    7 Responses Jun 22, 2009

    Wanting 2 B Skinny

    i constantly obsess over my weight of 100lbs i want 2 be 95 i know thats 2 skinny and i know it's wrong what i am doing and part of me wants help sometimes and the other part of me wants 2 get skinnier.
    fatgurl09 fatgurl09
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 3, 2009
    shenaepeebles shenaepeebles
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 29, 2014

    My Best Friend.

    I have a best friend and her name is ana. She’s been my friend since I was about 5 or 6, she’s the mean girl of the school type but only mean to me.. She tells me what to wear and how I look at all times, she tells me when to eat and when to stop, but one thing she never...
    ConfessionsOfThatGirl ConfessionsOfThatGirl
    22-25, F
    Sep 20, 2013

    The Beginning

    When I was 12, my sister came home from college because of a terrible event. It turned out to be an eating disorder. Because she thought she was fat, I thought I was obese. She was naturally thin. I had to skate 3 hours a day to stay average. I started restricting at 12, started...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Oct 6, 2010

    After all these years,

    I think I just cut/scratched my throat. I still taste blood and it hurts when I put pressure on my neck where my esophagus is. I'm not worried or anything, I just don't know what to do?? Like, should I just fast until it heals and how do I know it's healed? Amy response would...
    70lbs 70lbs
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jun 23, 2015

    How Did It Get This Bad?

    Its been worse. So much worse Before he knew and started called me and insisted I eat, being there to hold me back if I wanted to run to the bathroom and get rid of it. I am anorexic/bulimic. Both. Even as I thought I was recovering. Not acting on it didn't mean I wasn't...
    Londynne Londynne
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jul 20, 2009

    i need an ana/mia buddy stats: 19 female

    Cw:108 lbs GW: 100 lbs UGW: 95 lbs
    dreamingthinmo dreamingthinmo
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 6, 2015

    Sometimes i sit there

    and stare at myself in the mirror, fully naked just thinking of how noticeable it looks when i eat anything. More specifically larger quantities as ive been getting used to since modernizing from my almost "farm boy" like life. I was thinking of fasting for a while and i just...
    Vixkit Vixkit
    18-21, M
    1 Response Oct 20, 2015


    I woke up at 1:54 am in a pain I have never felt before. A pain that felt like someone was cutting my stomach open with a shredded knife. In tears, I call my girlfriend to see what I should do. When the phone call end, I am packing for a night in the Emergency Room. When we get...
    squelettique squelettique
    22-25, F
    Aug 30, 2013

    My last post here was

    when i was deep into my eating disorder. since then i was hospitalized many times mostly because i tried to kill myself and eventually agreed to reefed at the hospital and gained weight. I was doing better for a long time but i still suffer great emotional pain. I don't binge...
    JelizaRoze JelizaRoze
    22-25, F
    Sep 12, 2015

    Ambivalence Of An Eating Disordered Mind

    I know now that it's become an addiction and I really am trying to stop. It's like I want to get better but I want to get worse, I want to recover but I don't want to gain weight, I love food so much but I hate eating it, I want to keep on trying but I want to give up, I know I'm...
    messImade messImade
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 15, 2012
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