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I Am Bulimic

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    2Kawaii4u 2Kawaii4u 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 9

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    I don't want to be bulimic anymore.

    But I do. But I don't. Uggg. It's messing up my health. I have a constant sore throat even though I haven't purged in two days and it only gets worse when I eat. My stomach is bloated if I eat anything even a cracker. My teeth are transparent and very sensitive. My skin is...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2014

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    I have been struggling with bulimia

    and binge eating followed by fasting for a year now. its getting so frustrating. I had a rough/exciting/ strange year full of good and bad things, hospitalization and bipolar diagnosis, rape, intense and somewhat abusive friendship with a man, money stolen from me, binge...
    heathera94 heathera94 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    It all started last year.

    I was asked out by my friend, this is when I was a little heavier than what I am now. Currently, I am in my sophomore year. Freshman year was the 'push' to bring me into bulimia for me, really. I was astonished why he would ask me out, I had never been asked out before, no one...
    SlateCandy SlateCandy 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    Over the past 12 hours I have eaten 3/4 of an

    ice cream cake my roommate got me for my birthday, then threw it up while drunk in the shower and she walked in and thank god didn't notice because she was just going to the bathroom. Then I woke up and went for a 25 mile bike ride, and went to an all-you-can eat buffet that was...
    Ma1821 Ma1821 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 26, 2014

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    Nearly 11

    I have been suffering from bulimia and anorexia since I just turned 13....but issues with food started long before then.  I cant take myself anymore, and its so hard to stop.  I also cut.   I spend so much on food...all to binge it, and purge it.  I use to...
    NotUnderstood NotUnderstood 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 2, 2007

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    janke07 janke07 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 11

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    Purged again! Finally!

    It feels like it's been forever and I'm so glad I did it :)
    indecisivewitch indecisivewitch 18-21, F Jan 28

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    Threw Up Blood...What Do I Do?

    I'm a bit freaked out... I just threw up blood for the first time. I've been bulimic a bit over 2 years now (after being anorexic for 4 years) and I have been purging 2-3x a day for the past 3 months. As I was purging my dinner, thankfully at the end of my purge, my throat hurt...
    dancer4444 dancer4444 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 23, 2013

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    Distant Self

    (a poem about bulimia) She kneels desperately as her troubles are flushed alongside the rumble and thrashing of her soul. Demons intrude pilfering her spirit that beckons to be again. She parts from her fleshly existence into a world of forgiveness while begging, oh my distant...
    enblanco enblanco 46-50, F 2 Responses May 14, 2012

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    This is incredibly embarrassing to me; I will

    probably reconsider posting this many times while writing it. I have always been very weight conscious, sometimes I don't leave the house when I gain weight. I have called out of work because I didn't want people to see me that day. I've missed parties, weddings, funerals, and...
    AshleyJea AshleyJea 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 28

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    I'm fine.

    It's been a week since I was last sick..... I'm feeling okay, so all's looking good. I think it's going to stop because of what I did to myself last weekend. I realized how bad it made my depression when I was doing it.  It lasted for probably about...
    Achilles1989 Achilles1989 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 19, 2009

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    Well. It's been a tough few months.

    Stress filled months. I feel somewhat guilty in feeling so much stress, as truly my problems are not much compared to the stresses of so many others. I'm not sure what triggered it a few months back. It doesn't really matter. I just couldn't eat. If I tried, I would spit it out...
    Tico72 Tico72 41-45, F 3 Responses May 21, 2014

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    It has taken me seven years to admit that,

    but there it is. My bulimia has been the most debilitating thing I've ever had to deal with. It is a monster, and I'm hoping that I can get away from it now that I'm in recovery. I just want some freaking stability in my life right now.
    youropheliac youropheliac 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 2, 2014

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    2Kawaii4u 2Kawaii4u 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    Hi This is my first time on this site

    so I just thought I'd introduce myself haha :) I'm 18 and have been suffering with bulimia for 2 years now. I have always been a very happy positive person and still am! I eat healthily but am not able to keep any food down because I get a huge sense of guilt. I purge up to 6...
    MiaLacey MiaLacey 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    Feels like I'm going through purging

    withdrawals! I NEED to PURGE!!! Had a stressful day and I just NEED that feeling of discomfort when I binge because that's how I feel now. Then when I purge its like I'm letting all the stress and emotions and food out. It's awesome. But I know I shouldn't do it. I'm afraid ill...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 9, 2014

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    is there anyone here

    that would be up for exchanging email or something in order to help support each other through recovery? I feel like being able to talk to someone about it openly would really help and I want to help someone get back to health and happiness at the same time as me X
    diectoke diectoke 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2014

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    2Kawaii4u 2Kawaii4u 13-15, F Mar 12

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    I cannot fathom the thought of being bulimic my

    whole life, that's not a life. I am 22 and I'm in college. About a year ago, I broke up with my boyfriend of 4 years and did not know how to deal with it, so I turned to food. (I've never been a foodie or ever had any food addictions. In fact, I was an extremely picky eater. I...
    CaliEscape CaliEscape 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 31, 2014

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    I Am Bulimia

    It gives me a high, a sense of accomplishment. Food is evil. Throwing up is like throwing out all the evil, it's like all bad energy is leaving your body, you feel refreshed and new. people say bulimia is like a prison or like a hell, but bulimia is my heaven. Hell is eating...
    abbywhitaker abbywhitaker 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 2, 2010

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    insertnicknamehere insertnicknamehere 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 23, 2014

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    2Kawaii4u 2Kawaii4u 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 9

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    Well, I was for years

    but I've really changed my life for the better to a healthy lifestyle. It wasn't easy. I got lucky. Sometimes I do have the urge to revert when I have degrading thoughts of how I could be so much smaller and how 3-4 days a week of exercise isn't enough, but then I remember I'm a...
    twisteduniverse twisteduniverse 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 3

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    Hi... Um i wanted to know

    if anyone wanted to help me start this bulimic thing.. . Am fat frr.. Not the 100 and something pounds type but way higher like between 250-350...i know i can stop myself after i get lighter.. But diets are just not working. Please help me start... Someone.
    Regretiam Regretiam 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 28

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    For the past few months I have been wanting to

    stop binging/purging and every so often I manage to go a day without it and then I go right back to doing it once or twice a day. I just cant not do it. I really want to be able to eat only when i'm hungry but as soon as i eat when I'm not hungry I'm like, 'Okay, crap i'm...
    EmilyClaire6 EmilyClaire6 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 24

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    My Bulimia

    Two years ago, being proud of myself for not throwing up for a whole day would have been a completely strange thing for me. I used to be normal. What the heck happened? It usually comes in binges for me. I'll manage to resist it for one day, and then I'll be feeling...
    NormaJean NormaJean 18-21, F 22 Responses Apr 5, 2008

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    Hell

    It all strated when my mom and dad broke up. Than was when I was born. My dad has always called me fat since I was in 4th grade, and its kind of hard when you are suppose to me your daddys little angel and he thinks that you are fat. Then when I started High school, that was when...
    barbie215 barbie215 16-17, F 17 Responses Mar 15, 2008

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    4 months then it'll be 2 years.

    It's weird because I thought I'd only do it for a few months, a year the absolute max. And now it's coming to two years... I used to think it was a blessing as in the first year I lost more than a third of my body weight. But in the 2nd my weight fluctuates between 55-65kg, it's...
    EvaSFenty EvaSFenty 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 26, 2014

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    TO EVERYONE STRUGGLING WITH BULIMIA I can't

    even begin to keep up with the new stories everyday but I can share a story of hope and desire to help you all through your battles. It's only been since February 2012 that I ended my battle with bulimia/anorexia and decided to eat and do what ever I wanted whether I gained...
    Faith4869 Faith4869 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2013

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    There...I admitted it.

    It really just started. I need out, but I have so little willpower. I feel so alone 24/7 and DESPISE myself half the time. Anyone who wants to talk, I'd appreciate it. Either leave a comment or pm me, please. Thanks in advance.
    kitt7 kitt7 18-21 1 Response Mar 16

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    Had a sandwich really late.

    Felt immense anger at myself. Couldn't purge. Physically wouldn't work. Strange. But stranger still found myself cursing at myself that "you won". But really in the battle I DID WIN. Maybe by default. But in the scheme of life I won. But in my head I didn't win. I wanted it to...
    Tico72 Tico72 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 24, 2014

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    Recovery. My Battle Against Bully-mia.

    I am a bulimic. I am also a type one diabetic. I went to treatment at UCLA for two months. It helped but bulimia isn't something that just goes away. Bulimia isn't glamorous at all, although some people make it out to be like that. Bulimia isn't what people do to just "lose...
    meowrissa meowrissa 16-17 1 Response Jan 11, 2013

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    Opus

    my daily ritual consists of food, a toilet and a tooth brush. this does not mean i gag myself with a toothbrush, i just have this ruetine where i vomit all of my food, clean the toilet then brush my teeth. this has been going on four years strong now; i am 19 years old. I am...
    elizabethdoe elizabethdoe 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 24, 2012

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    Three weeks ago i started to purge again.

    I was 123.4 pounds and my boyfriend wanted me to start taking birth control pills. I've read online that birth control can make women gain weight so i started to purge. I am currently 111.6lbs and i want to lose more! my boyfriend is coming down in 16 days and his birthday is on...
    jamiieeee jamiieeee 18-21, F Dec 3, 2014

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    So here i sit, trying to throw up what I ate,

    and ended throwing up blood.
    ThatGirlR ThatGirlR 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 5

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    Crazy Inside

    To the rest of the world I probably look like I have it all put together. I am a recent law school graduate, have a gorgeous husband and a beautiful child. I am actually rather pretty, and in comparison to most I am in okay shape. I try to get to the gym a couple times...
    meglnk meglnk 26-30, F 23 Responses Jan 4, 2008

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    Why

    I am thirty years old and I have been bulimic since I was 15. It all started when I ate a whole bag of cheddar sour cream chips. Dang those things were so good...lol! I felt like a fat cow and I knew this girl who threw up her food so I tried it. OMG it felt soooo good to me...
    Sesheppard Sesheppard 26-30 1 Response Jul 16, 2011

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    Bulimia doesn't mean eating whatever you want

    and still getting skinny. For me at least, it means having a full-blown addiction to food. The law of addiction states that "administration of a drug to an addict will cause reestablishment of chemical dependence upon the addictive substance." So basically, if you slip up, you...
    Skirefly Skirefly 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    I just ate some cheese

    and feel really guilty. All I want to do is throw it back up but I can't because I had my sleeping pills with it , ugh!! >:-(
    Leteisha Leteisha 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 9, 2014

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    Have you ever experienced doing something you

    knew was bad but you cant stop doing it because it gives you comfort and reassurance? yeah, that's me and Mia (bulimia).
    jamiieeee jamiieeee 18-21, F Jan 17, 2014

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    Me And My Mia

    Mia took over my life at 12, an early developer, I had curves that I just did not want. Mia was easy for me. I didn't eat at school, and since my mum worked a lot, I could easily eat dinner and throw it up. No one noticed a thing. I beat Mia at 14 after passing out once too many...
    LJ160491 LJ160491 18-21 Oct 22, 2011

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    Omfg! I hate myself so much right now.

    I felt like literal **** because we went to a pizza buffet place and I ate 3 cinnamon sticks, 3 pizzas and a pie. I felt fine but like 30 minutes later I was in church and I got that anxious feeling I should purge. I tried really hard to be positive and not think but it was so...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Dec 4, 2014

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    When I was 8 I suffered from anorexia,

    I recovered. But when I was in 9th grade I started with bulimia, I stopped 'cause I got scared when I saw blood, sometimes when I get nervous I do it again, but in reality I can't stop.
    justlivingitup justlivingitup 16-17, F Apr 1

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    I think I am bulimic.

    I'm 14 years old and a female. I'm 5'2 and 126 lbs. I have the tendency to check my weight every 3 hours or so, i dont really keep track but I can tell you this much, I usually go to the scale 5 or 6 times a day, I practically live there. Also I have tried once to induce...
    Yasminemorales Yasminemorales 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 21

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    diectoke diectoke 18-21, F Sep 7, 2014

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