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I Am Bulimic

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    i really want to be fit,

    but my mom just makes me eat so much. she's overweight and hates it when i seem to be controlling my food, so she makes me eat a lot of food. i don't want to become fat! i hate eating all of this food. she doesn't want me to be fit. so i've resorted to throwing up what i can. i...
    anonymousjuly anonymousjuly 13-15, F 1 Response May 24

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    Had a sandwich really late.

    Felt immense anger at myself. Couldn't purge. Physically wouldn't work. Strange. But stranger still found myself cursing at myself that "you won". But really in the battle I DID WIN. Maybe by default. But in the scheme of life I won. But in my head I didn't win. I wanted it to...
    Tico72 Tico72 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 24, 2014

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    My Bulimia

    Two years ago, being proud of myself for not throwing up for a whole day would have been a completely strange thing for me. I used to be normal. What the heck happened? It usually comes in binges for me. I'll manage to resist it for one day, and then I'll be feeling...
    NormaJean NormaJean 18-21, F 22 Responses Apr 5, 2008

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    Over the past 12 hours I have eaten 3/4 of an

    ice cream cake my roommate got me for my birthday, then threw it up while drunk in the shower and she walked in and thank god didn't notice because she was just going to the bathroom. Then I woke up and went for a 25 mile bike ride, and went to an all-you-can eat buffet that was...
    Ma1821 Ma1821 18-21, F Oct 26, 2014

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    For the past few months I have been wanting to

    stop binging/purging and every so often I manage to go a day without it and then I go right back to doing it once or twice a day. I just cant not do it. I really want to be able to eat only when i'm hungry but as soon as i eat when I'm not hungry I'm like, 'Okay, crap i'm...
    EmilyClaire6 EmilyClaire6 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 24

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    Three weeks ago i started to purge again.

    I was 123.4 pounds and my boyfriend wanted me to start taking birth control pills. I've read online that birth control can make women gain weight so i started to purge. I am currently 111.6lbs and i want to lose more! my boyfriend is coming down in 16 days and his birthday is on...
    jamiieeee jamiieeee 18-21, F Dec 3, 2014

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    Somebody please help me.

    I can't stop eating. I want to purge so badly but I've been clean for a week. Can somebody talk? Please
    BeAnAlly BeAnAlly 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2014

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    It all started last year.

    I was asked out by my friend, this is when I was a little heavier than what I am now. Currently, I am in my sophomore year. Freshman year was the 'push' to bring me into bulimia for me, really. I was astonished why he would ask me out, I had never been asked out before, no one...
    SlateCandy SlateCandy 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    today I purged twice.

    I hope its helping
    xXNeverGoodEnoughXx xXNeverGoodEnoughXx 13-15, F Mar 26

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    Distant Self

    (a poem about bulimia) She kneels desperately as her troubles are flushed alongside the rumble and thrashing of her soul. Demons intrude pilfering her spirit that beckons to be again. She parts from her fleshly existence into a world of forgiveness while begging, oh my distant...
    enblanco enblanco 46-50, F 2 Responses May 14, 2012

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    I think I am bulimic.

    I'm 14 years old and a female. I'm 5'2 and 126 lbs. I have the tendency to check my weight every 3 hours or so, i dont really keep track but I can tell you this much, I usually go to the scale 5 or 6 times a day, I practically live there. Also I have tried once to induce...
    Yasminemorales Yasminemorales 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 21

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    Nearly 11

    I have been suffering from bulimia and anorexia since I just turned 13....but issues with food started long before then.  I cant take myself anymore, and its so hard to stop.  I also cut.   I spend so much on food...all to binge it, and purge it.  I use to...
    NotUnderstood NotUnderstood 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 2, 2007

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    xXNeverGoodEnoughXx xXNeverGoodEnoughXx 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 9

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    This is incredibly embarrassing to me; I will

    probably reconsider posting this many times while writing it. I have always been very weight conscious, sometimes I don't leave the house when I gain weight. I have called out of work because I didn't want people to see me that day. I've missed parties, weddings, funerals, and...
    AshleyJea AshleyJea 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 28

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    So here i sit, trying to throw up what I ate,

    and ended throwing up blood.
    ThatGirlR ThatGirlR 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 5

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    Recovery. My Battle Against Bully-mia.

    I am a bulimic. I am also a type one diabetic. I went to treatment at UCLA for two months. It helped but bulimia isn't something that just goes away. Bulimia isn't glamorous at all, although some people make it out to be like that. Bulimia isn't what people do to just "lose...
    meowrissa meowrissa 16-17 1 Response Jan 11, 2013

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    Just wondering how often you binge/purge

    and what shape your teeth are in?
    EmilyClaire6 EmilyClaire6 18-21, F Jan 29

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    When I was 8 I suffered from anorexia,

    I recovered. But when I was in 9th grade I started with bulimia, I stopped 'cause I got scared when I saw blood, sometimes when I get nervous I do it again, but in reality I can't stop.
    justlivingitup justlivingitup 16-17, F Apr 1

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    Hi This is my first time on this site

    so I just thought I'd introduce myself haha :) I'm 18 and have been suffering with bulimia for 2 years now. I have always been a very happy positive person and still am! I eat healthily but am not able to keep any food down because I get a huge sense of guilt. I purge up to 6...
    MiaLacey MiaLacey 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    I'm fine.

    It's been a week since I was last sick..... I'm feeling okay, so all's looking good. I think it's going to stop because of what I did to myself last weekend. I realized how bad it made my depression when I was doing it.  It lasted for probably about...
    Achilles1989 Achilles1989 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 19, 2009

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    I Am Bulimia

    It gives me a high, a sense of accomplishment. Food is evil. Throwing up is like throwing out all the evil, it's like all bad energy is leaving your body, you feel refreshed and new. people say bulimia is like a prison or like a hell, but bulimia is my heaven. Hell is eating...
    abbywhitaker abbywhitaker 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 2, 2010

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    I have been struggling with bulimia

    and binge eating followed by fasting for a year now. its getting so frustrating. I had a rough/exciting/ strange year full of good and bad things, hospitalization and bipolar diagnosis, rape, intense and somewhat abusive friendship with a man, money stolen from me, binge...
    heathera94 heathera94 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    4 months then it'll be 2 years.

    It's weird because I thought I'd only do it for a few months, a year the absolute max. And now it's coming to two years... I used to think it was a blessing as in the first year I lost more than a third of my body weight. But in the 2nd my weight fluctuates between 55-65kg, it's...
    princessfenty princessfenty 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 26, 2014

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    janke07 janke07 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 11

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    I used to be bulimic,

    but I haven't purged in over 3 months. I still have a really hard time keeping things down sometimes but the freedom to eat whatever I want is such a relief.
    goodatnothing goodatnothing 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    Well. It's been a tough few months.

    Stress filled months. I feel somewhat guilty in feeling so much stress, as truly my problems are not much compared to the stresses of so many others. I'm not sure what triggered it a few months back. It doesn't really matter. I just couldn't eat. If I tried, I would spit it out...
    Tico72 Tico72 41-45, F 3 Responses May 21, 2014

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    I Hate the Feeling

    I'm 14, 5'4 and 194 it's disgusting. I hate the way I look and I'm fixing that. I don't eat. Only when I have to and when I do I head straight for the bathroom to dispose of the things I ate. I hate the feeling of my stomach begging for food. I'd rather...
    Isabellesheart Isabellesheart 18-21, F Apr 22, 2009

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    TO EVERYONE STRUGGLING WITH BULIMIA I can't

    even begin to keep up with the new stories everyday but I can share a story of hope and desire to help you all through your battles. It's only been since February 2012 that I ended my battle with bulimia/anorexia and decided to eat and do what ever I wanted whether I gained...
    Faith4869 Faith4869 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2013

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    insertnicknamehere insertnicknamehere 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 23, 2014

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    Bulimia doesn't mean eating whatever you want

    and still getting skinny. For me at least, it means having a full-blown addiction to food. The law of addiction states that "administration of a drug to an addict will cause reestablishment of chemical dependence upon the addictive substance." So basically, if you slip up, you...
    Skirefly Skirefly 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    I need help. I purge every time I feel gross.

    Even if I didn't binge. If I weigh too much one day I will restrict food until I break down and binge then I purge it all. If someone says something mean to me I purge. I know it's gonna start being really bad for my health but I can't stop
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 27

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    xXNeverGoodEnoughXx xXNeverGoodEnoughXx 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 9

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    A Fraction Of Introduction

    04/22/10 I've restarted this story several times from several different angles. Maybe I should start out small and work my way up. I don't want to pressure myself to make this perfect right now, but one upcoming night the mood will be just right to tell my story the way I...
    LancyG LancyG 18-21, F Apr 22, 2010

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    There Is Hope

    I could have swore to God and all living things that I was the most miserable sap on the surface of the earth about 12 years ago. I was thick in my eating disorders and trying to finish college and probably smoking too much pot at the time... Anyway.. now, later on in life.. i...
    anadas anadas 31-35 Jul 23, 2013

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    Have you ever experienced doing something you

    knew was bad but you cant stop doing it because it gives you comfort and reassurance? yeah, that's me and Mia (bulimia).
    jamiieeee jamiieeee 18-21, F Jan 17, 2014

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    Here it goes, I am 29 year old female

    and I've been bulimic for nearly 12 years now. It's always been a shameful secret I've kept and I'm feeling as I'm getting older I'm finding it harder to accomplish my gaols because of this disease. I have never received professional treatment probably because I always try and...
    maria29 maria29 26-30, F 1 Response May 13

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    Why don't I tell my parents?

    For the simplest reasons. First they'll start yelling at me and making me feel bad for something I have no control of, they'll make everything about them and tell me how they get me what I want and **** "isn't that enough?" None of parents nor my family will understand that...
    Aircatcher34 Aircatcher34 13-15, F 1 Response May 31

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    There...I admitted it.

    It really just started. I need out, but I have so little willpower. I feel so alone 24/7 and DESPISE myself half the time. Anyone who wants to talk, I'd appreciate it. Either leave a comment or pm me, please. Thanks in advance.
    kitt7 kitt7 18-21 2 Responses Mar 16

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    xXNeverGoodEnoughXx xXNeverGoodEnoughXx 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    Why

    I am thirty years old and I have been bulimic since I was 15. It all started when I ate a whole bag of cheddar sour cream chips. Dang those things were so good...lol! I felt like a fat cow and I knew this girl who threw up her food so I tried it. OMG it felt soooo good to me...
    Sesheppard Sesheppard 26-30 1 Response Jul 16, 2011

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    xXNeverGoodEnoughXx xXNeverGoodEnoughXx 13-15, F Mar 12

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    Crazy Inside

    To the rest of the world I probably look like I have it all put together. I am a recent law school graduate, have a gorgeous husband and a beautiful child. I am actually rather pretty, and in comparison to most I am in okay shape. I try to get to the gym a couple times...
    meglnk meglnk 26-30, F 23 Responses Jan 4, 2008

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    I am not anorexic or too thin

    or overweight.I have had a great body all my life without having to try for it.But the past few years I have been gaining weight and losing it.I love food and when I think of something I want to eat the idea gets stuck in my head and it drives me crazy until I actually eat what...
    NamesAreOverrated NamesAreOverrated 16-17, F Jun 9

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    I don't eat. When I do I always throw it up.

    I'm so upset because of what everyone was saying, about something I worked really hard on. Everyone thinks I'm just a loser well because I am. But it's my sisters birthday so lots of people are going out to dinner. I have to go. Idk how I'm going to throw up what I eat unless I...
    torijoy torijoy 13-15, F 1 Response May 26

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    Hi... Um i wanted to know

    if anyone wanted to help me start this bulimic thing.. . Am fat frr.. Not the 100 and something pounds type but way higher like between 250-350...i know i can stop myself after i get lighter.. But diets are just not working. Please help me start... Someone.
    Regretiam Regretiam 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 28

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    Hell

    It all strated when my mom and dad broke up. Than was when I was born. My dad has always called me fat since I was in 4th grade, and its kind of hard when you are suppose to me your daddys little angel and he thinks that you are fat. Then when I started High school, that was when...
    barbie215 barbie215 16-17, F 17 Responses Mar 15, 2008

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