I Am Bulimic

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    Bulimia doesn't mean eating whatever you want

    and still getting skinny. For me at least, it means having a full-blown addiction to food. The law of addiction states that "administration of a drug to an addict will cause reestablishment of chemical dependence upon the addictive substance." So basically, if you slip up, you...
    Skirefly Skirefly
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Apr 26, 2014

    It all started last year.

    I was asked out by my friend, this is when I was a little heavier than what I am now. Currently, I am in my sophomore year. Freshman year was the 'push' to bring me into bulimia for me, really. I was astonished why he would ask me out, I had never been asked out before, no one...
    SlateCandy SlateCandy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 10, 2013

    I Am Bulimia

    It gives me a high, a sense of accomplishment. Food is evil. Throwing up is like throwing out all the evil, it's like all bad energy is leaving your body, you feel refreshed and new. people say bulimia is like a prison or like a hell, but bulimia is my heaven. Hell is eating...
    abbywhitaker abbywhitaker
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Apr 2, 2010
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Sep 14, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 15, 2015

    Recovery. My Battle Against Bully-mia.

    I am a bulimic. I am also a type one diabetic. I went to treatment at UCLA for two months. It helped but bulimia isn't something that just goes away. Bulimia isn't glamorous at all, although some people make it out to be like that. Bulimia isn't what people do to just "lose...
    meowrissa meowrissa
    16-17
    Jan 11, 2013

    Crazy Inside

    To the rest of the world I probably look like I have it all put together. I am a recent law school graduate, have a gorgeous husband and a beautiful child. I am actually rather pretty, and in comparison to most I am in okay shape. I try to get to the gym a couple times...
    meglnk meglnk
    26-30, F
    23 Responses Jan 4, 2008

    My Secret

    I was introduced to the world of modeling and pagents at the age of 10. It was at the age of eleven that I began forcing myself to throw up. Being told that your arms are "too chubby" for the runway show that you have been trying so hard to book is devistating. Growing up...
    jrctahoe jrctahoe
    18-21
    6 Responses May 18, 2011

    I don't eat. When I do I always throw it up.

    I'm so upset because of what everyone was saying, about something I worked really hard on. Everyone thinks I'm just a loser well because I am. But it's my sisters birthday so lots of people are going out to dinner. I have to go. Idk how I'm going to throw up what I eat unless I...
    torijoy torijoy
    16-17, F
    May 26, 2015

    And one else feel satisfied

    after purging ?
    Maaayrey Maaayrey
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 15, 2015
    Bungholio55 Bungholio55
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 9, 2015

    my bulimic attitude makes me feel more depressed

    than i already am. It feels so difficult, believing that I can't talk to my family about it because I'm scared that if they knew about it then i'd feel even more depressed. So I chose to suffer in silence because I feel like no one else understands me. But I know that I need...
    TheGirlThatNobodyNoticed TheGirlThatNobodyNoticed
    13-15
    Aug 29, 2015

    I Stuffed My Face I Ate Until I Couldn't Take

    It Anymore...As I Was About To Purge It All Out I Remembered A Promise That I Made To Someone That I Love So Very Much. At That Moment I Took A Deep Breath And Let It All Out. There Was Blood And Puke Everywhere As I Was Getting Up I Felt My Heart Beat Getting Faster And Faster...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jan 22, 2014

    Binging and Purging..

    . No regrets.
    Mau5ington Mau5ington
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 15

    A Fraction Of Introduction

    04/22/10 I've restarted this story several times from several different angles. Maybe I should start out small and work my way up. I don't want to pressure myself to make this perfect right now, but one upcoming night the mood will be just right to tell my story the way I...
    LancyG LancyG
    18-21, F
    Apr 22, 2010

    There...I admitted it.

    It really just started. I need out, but I have so little willpower. I feel so alone 24/7 and DESPISE myself half the time. Anyone who wants to talk, I'd appreciate it. Either leave a comment or pm me, please. Thanks in advance.
    kitt7 kitt7
    18-21
    2 Responses Mar 16, 2015

    I post on here a lot,

    I know. So my parents are worried about me because they a scared that I'm struggling with Bulimia. But they are showing it in a weird way. When they thought I was struggling with Anorexia they were mad at me because I was refusing to eat. But with this, it's almost like they're...
    Hiway202 Hiway202
    16-17, F
    1 Response Dec 17, 2015

    Had a sandwich really late.

    Felt immense anger at myself. Couldn't purge. Physically wouldn't work. Strange. But stranger still found myself cursing at myself that "you won". But really in the battle I DID WIN. Maybe by default. But in the scheme of life I won. But in my head I didn't win. I wanted it to...
    Tico72 Tico72
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Jun 24, 2014

    i really want to be fit,

    but my mom just makes me eat so much. she's overweight and hates it when i seem to be controlling my food, so she makes me eat a lot of food. i don't want to become fat! i hate eating all of this food. she doesn't want me to be fit. so i've resorted to throwing up what i can. i...
    anonymousjuly anonymousjuly
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 24, 2015

    I am bulimic since i was 13 amd

    now i am 16. I feel weak sometimes cause I can control myself or take care of myself
    Bel202 Bel202
    18-21, F
    Oct 12, 2015

    Hi This is my first time on this site

    so I just thought I'd introduce myself haha :) I'm 18 and have been suffering with bulimia for 2 years now. I have always been a very happy positive person and still am! I eat healthily but am not able to keep any food down because I get a huge sense of guilt. I purge up to 6...
    MiaLacey MiaLacey
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 26, 2014

    Impulsively, I devour anything in site.

    I continue eating, even after losing the enjoyment of the food's taste. In these moments, there's a hole inside of me that can't be filled. Eventually the plate is empty and my head is full of regret. I head to the bathroom, knowing the more time that elapses the harder it is...
    bawstenbrewin bawstenbrewin
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 20

    So I'm babysitting right now

    and I ate less than the girl I babysit (she's 4) and now I'm making myself purge because I feel fst. Don't tell me I shouldn't do that, I know but it makes me feel better.
    anazahra anazahra
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Dec 8, 2015

    When I was 8 I suffered from anorexia,

    I recovered. But when I was in 9th grade I started with bulimia, I stopped 'cause I got scared when I saw blood, sometimes when I get nervous I do it again, but in reality I can't stop.
    justlivingitup justlivingitup
    18-21, F
    Apr 1, 2015

    I'm not bulimic. But I almost wish I was.

    I'm 19, 5'5 and 220lbs... I've been researching anorexia/bulimia as a form of weight loss since nothing that I've tried so far has worked (and I've tried a lot). I was thinking maybe if I had someone to hold me accountable it would be easier?
    Pelennor Pelennor
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 6

    4 months then it'll be 2 years.

    It's weird because I thought I'd only do it for a few months, a year the absolute max. And now it's coming to two years... I used to think it was a blessing as in the first year I lost more than a third of my body weight. But in the 2nd my weight fluctuates between 55-65kg, it's...
    princessfenty princessfenty
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 26, 2014

    I just ate way too much,

    so ready to purge!!!!!
    GodsArte GodsArte
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 14, 2015
    Bungholio55 Bungholio55
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 12, 2015

    I've been bulimic for a year now,

    almost lah. I mean in the start, I used to do it very rarely like every once in a blue moon, that was like 4 months ago. Nowadays, I do it almost every meal but I'm not losing much, I mean I've lost around 3 kg but it's not enough. I'm around 113 pounds now and I'm aiming to...
    ShineWithTheStars ShineWithTheStars
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Oct 26, 2015
    Bungholio55 Bungholio55
    16-17, F
    Mar 12, 2015

    I truly believe I am a sick

    and twisted person. I can't believe I've been so fine for so long and now I'm losing it again. No matter how much medication I take to numb the insanity, it always stumbles back. I don't know if I can do this anymore. It's a wonder my body has held out for so long. I don't want...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 10, 2015

    Have you ever experienced doing something you

    knew was bad but you cant stop doing it because it gives you comfort and reassurance? yeah, that's me and Mia (bulimia).
    itsjamieee itsjamieee
    18-21, F
    Jan 17, 2014

    Nearly 11

    I have been suffering from bulimia and anorexia since I just turned 13....but issues with food started long before then.  I cant take myself anymore, and its so hard to stop.  I also cut.   I spend so much on food...all to binge it, and purge it.  I use to...
    NotUnderstood NotUnderstood
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Nov 2, 2007

    I used to be bulimic,

    but I haven't purged in over 3 months. I still have a really hard time keeping things down sometimes but the freedom to eat whatever I want is such a relief.
    goodatnothing goodatnothing
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 2, 2015
    Bungholio55 Bungholio55
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 9, 2015

    Why

    I am thirty years old and I have been bulimic since I was 15. It all started when I ate a whole bag of cheddar sour cream chips. Dang those things were so good...lol! I felt like a fat cow and I knew this girl who threw up her food so I tried it. OMG it felt soooo good to me...
    Sesheppard Sesheppard
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 16, 2011

    TO EVERYONE STRUGGLING WITH BULIMIA I can't

    even begin to keep up with the new stories everyday but I can share a story of hope and desire to help you all through your battles. It's only been since February 2012 that I ended my battle with bulimia/anorexia and decided to eat and do what ever I wanted whether I gained...
    Faith4869 Faith4869
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Dec 28, 2013

    My Bulimia

    Two years ago, being proud of myself for not throwing up for a whole day would have been a completely strange thing for me. I used to be normal. What the heck happened? It usually comes in binges for me. I'll manage to resist it for one day, and then I'll be feeling...
    NormaJean NormaJean
    26-30, F
    22 Responses Apr 5, 2008

    Here it goes, I am 29 year old female

    and I've been bulimic for nearly 12 years now. It's always been a shameful secret I've kept and I'm feeling as I'm getting older I'm finding it harder to accomplish my gaols because of this disease. I have never received professional treatment probably because I always try and...
    maria29 maria29
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 13, 2015

    Threw Up Blood...What Do I Do?

    I'm a bit freaked out... I just threw up blood for the first time. I've been bulimic a bit over 2 years now (after being anorexic for 4 years) and I have been purging 2-3x a day for the past 3 months. As I was purging my dinner, thankfully at the end of my purge, my throat hurt...
    dancer4444 dancer4444
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 23, 2013

    today I purged twice.

    I hope its helping
    Bungholio55 Bungholio55
    16-17, F
    Mar 26, 2015

    It has taken me seven years to admit that,

    but there it is. My bulimia has been the most debilitating thing I've ever had to deal with. It is a monster, and I'm hoping that I can get away from it now that I'm in recovery. I just want some freaking stability in my life right now.
    youropheliac youropheliac
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 2, 2014

    remember when I lost 30 pounds

    and couldn't keep a thing down to save my life? bc lol back to 115lbs and I still can't keep anything down.
    goodatnothing goodatnothing
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 29

    Me And My Mia

    Mia took over my life at 12, an early developer, I had curves that I just did not want. Mia was easy for me. I didn't eat at school, and since my mum worked a lot, I could easily eat dinner and throw it up. No one noticed a thing. I beat Mia at 14 after passing out once too many...
    LJ160491 LJ160491
    18-21
    Oct 22, 2011

    Well. It's been a tough few months.

    Stress filled months. I feel somewhat guilty in feeling so much stress, as truly my problems are not much compared to the stresses of so many others. I'm not sure what triggered it a few months back. It doesn't really matter. I just couldn't eat. If I tried, I would spit it out...
    Tico72 Tico72
    41-45, F
    1 Response May 21, 2014

    Hell

    It all strated when my mom and dad broke up. Than was when I was born. My dad has always called me fat since I was in 4th grade, and its kind of hard when you are suppose to me your daddys little angel and he thinks that you are fat. Then when I started High school, that was when...
    barbie215 barbie215
    16-17, F
    17 Responses Mar 15, 2008

    I went to my psychiatrist yesterday

    and she said that I'm beginning to develop bulimia. Whenever I eat i feel guilty and I just have to get the food out of my body. I'm not eating much and when I do eat it's usually not healthy, so I have to get rid of it. I hate throwing up but something makes me feel better for...
    Hiway202 Hiway202
    16-17, F
    1 Response Dec 11, 2015

    You Won't Do This Again

    That's what I tell myself every time I find myself there, huddled in the corner of the bathroom. I know I should probably get up and brush my teeth. I've heard all the horror stories of what throwing up can do to you. That scares me too. Not enough to make me quit. Instead I just...
    KnaveOfClubs KnaveOfClubs
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jan 8, 2013

    I was just told by my psychiatrist

    that I'm developing Bulimia. And it sucks. I feel really bad because I don't want to 'purge' as they call it. I just don't want to have any food in my body. I know SI is bad, but for some reason I mentally can't wrap my mind around the fact that my ED is as bad for me as self...
    Hiway202 Hiway202
    16-17, F
    1 Response Dec 13, 2015

    I am not anorexic or too thin

    or overweight.I have had a great body all my life without having to try for it.But the past few years I have been gaining weight and losing it.I love food and when I think of something I want to eat the idea gets stuck in my head and it drives me crazy until I actually eat what...
    NamesAreOverrated NamesAreOverrated
    18-21, F
    Jun 9, 2015

    I don't know whether this is the correct term

    nor do I care anymore. I've been suffering from bouts of not eating for days and suddenly binge eating a lot due to uncontrollable hunger. Mostly it's the feeling of eating food and not anymore about whatever the fck I'm eating anymore. I don't know anymore. I've been like this...
    RVLP RVLP
    16-17, M
    3 Responses Oct 30, 2015

    Why don't I tell my parents?

    For the simplest reasons. First they'll start yelling at me and making me feel bad for something I have no control of, they'll make everything about them and tell me how they get me what I want and **** "isn't that enough?" None of parents nor my family will understand that...
    Aircatcher34 Aircatcher34
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 31, 2015

    I'm fine.

    It's been a week since I was last sick..... I'm feeling okay, so all's looking good. I think it's going to stop because of what I did to myself last weekend. I realized how bad it made my depression when I was doing it.  It lasted for probably about...
    Achilles1989 Achilles1989
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Apr 19, 2009
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