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I Am Bulimic

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    Yep and not a day goes by

    that i don't hate myself😩
    picKLe47 picKLe47 18-21, F Mar 30

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    I Stuffed My Face I Ate Until I Couldn't Take

    It Anymore...As I Was About To Purge It All Out I Remembered A Promise That I Made To Someone That I Love So Very Much. At That Moment I Took A Deep Breath And Let It All Out. There Was Blood And Puke Everywhere As I Was Getting Up I Felt My Heart Beat Getting Faster And Faster...
    DalaKumono DalaKumono 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    I'm almost 16 and this has been a problem of

    mine for only over a year... I can't even begin to imagine living like this for another year, let alone another day. I threw up blood like last month for the first time and since then I have felt paranoid. I feel like everyone is watching me and everyone is talking about how fat...
    cynthiarosee cynthiarosee 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 12

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    There Is Hope

    I could have swore to God and all living things that I was the most miserable sap on the surface of the earth about 12 years ago. I was thick in my eating disorders and trying to finish college and probably smoking too much pot at the time... Anyway.. now, later on in life.. i...
    anadas anadas 31-35 Jul 23, 2013

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    All Over The Place

    I can't even really remember how my bulimia started, or why. I love myself, absolutely one-hundred percent. Anyone who says all bulimics are depressed is wrong. I've always been healthy, only eating what's good for me. I've also always prided myself in my weight and size...
    howdyma howdyma 18-21, F 7 Responses Oct 22, 2009

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    Bulimia Free Verse

    Well, I am obviously bulimic. So I don't know where to start. It started in 8th grade, along with a lot of things. I told myself I tried purging out of curiosity, but I really did it maybe for people to feel sorry for me or that I did it really because I had identity issues, in...
    HaveQuestion HaveQuestion 16-17, F 6 Responses Sep 19, 2008

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    I am an Addict. I love the feeling in my throat

    when food comes out. I love the feeling of my heart pounding; the tears that roll down my cheeks. I love how cold my body gets after an hour of throwing up, I love the cold. I am Addicted and I can't stop. No, I won't stop. and that's the problem. I just love it too much.
    jamiieeee jamiieeee 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    I have been a binge eater

    since I was 5 when my uncle died and my mom stopped caring what I did. I eat with my emotions. I was morbidly obese when I was 6 and stayed that way until high school. In high school I didn't eat as much, because I was into other bad things. Then, senior year, I quit it all...
    rory2012 rory2012 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    I'll Never Be Perfect

    I'm bulimic with anorexic tendencies. I don't purge, but I exercise five or six hours and take 25-30 laxatives everyday. I have a hard time eating, and I'm terrified of eating real "meals". I snack on little things to avoid eating a meal. I'm a perfectionist, but I have...
    nikki98 nikki98 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 4, 2008

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    Dark Little Ritual...

    I used to be anorexic; I had a very controlled routine of ‘meals’ throughout the week and a daily exercise regime of 4-8hrs depending on the day. I just HAD to exercise for more than 4 hours or I’d feel like an absolute failure. I stopped being anorexic after...
    nessian nessian 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 18, 2010

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    insertnicknamehere insertnicknamehere 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 23

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    Falling Back Into It All Again!

    Chistmas times supposed to be a happy time, and for a moment I actually was, but all the stress and hasstle has made me keep on purging again.  I tryed my best but as always it wasn't enough,  can feel myself slipping back the way insted of forward onto the road of...
    SekritObsession SekritObsession 18-21, F 9 Responses Dec 26, 2009

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    My Bulimia

    Two years ago, being proud of myself for not throwing up for a whole day would have been a completely strange thing for me. I used to be normal. What the heck happened? It usually comes in binges for me. I'll manage to resist it for one day, and then I'll be feeling...
    NormaJean NormaJean 18-21, F 22 Responses Apr 5, 2008

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    Why

    I am thirty years old and I have been bulimic since I was 15. It all started when I ate a whole bag of cheddar sour cream chips. Dang those things were so good...lol! I felt like a fat cow and I knew this girl who threw up her food so I tried it. OMG it felt soooo good to me...
    Sesheppard Sesheppard 26-30 Jul 16, 2011

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    I'm fine.

    It's been a week since I was last sick..... I'm feeling okay, so all's looking good. I think it's going to stop because of what I did to myself last weekend. I realized how bad it made my depression when I was doing it.  It lasted for probably about...
    Achilles1989 Achilles1989 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 19, 2009

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    Help me! I'm scared of tomorrow.

    I really really am.
    jamiieeee jamiieeee 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    Im a Happy Bulimic

    Well it may sound weird but i am happy being a bulimic!.I was not fat but due to my small height i wanted to slim down more.So i started with a very strict diet but i eventually ended up with severe gastric problems.I then tried laxatives but it was not a very good option as i am...
    ayushi ayushi 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 8, 2009

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    My Secret Told For The First Time, Advice Please!!!!

    So I have never ever actually said I have an eating disorder. I still dont beleive I have a problem, but then the logical part of me is saying "well of course you do, look at all the signs stupid." So i have lots of friends who care about me, boys who want to date me, people who...
    babydoll333 babydoll333 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 10, 2011

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    No one knows but I have major self esteem

    issues especially about my weight. I eat when I'm stressed so I ate a lot one day and was crying my eyes out because I felt like a pig so I tried purging. I tried until I about gagged my brains out and I kept coughing and made myself cry. I tried until I finally did it and my...
    madisonanna madisonanna 13-15, F 5 Responses Feb 8

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    Threw Up Blood...What Do I Do?

    I'm a bit freaked out... I just threw up blood for the first time. I've been bulimic a bit over 2 years now (after being anorexic for 4 years) and I have been purging 2-3x a day for the past 3 months. As I was purging my dinner, thankfully at the end of my purge, my throat hurt...
    dancer4444 dancer4444 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 23, 2013

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    TO EVERYONE STRUGGLING WITH BULIMIA I can't

    even begin to keep up with the new stories everyday but I can share a story of hope and desire to help you all through your battles. It's only been since February 2012 that I ended my battle with bulimia/anorexia and decided to eat and do what ever I wanted whether I gained...
    Faith4869 Faith4869 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2013

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    Crazy Inside

    To the rest of the world I probably look like I have it all put together. I am a recent law school graduate, have a gorgeous husband and a beautiful child. I am actually rather pretty, and in comparison to most I am in okay shape. I try to get to the gym a couple times...
    meglnk meglnk 26-30, F 23 Responses Jan 4, 2008

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    My fiends went to the school guidance counselor

    to apparently get me help. I don't want to go. I don't want to get help. My friends say this is "stressing them out" but it's my disorder and they're dragging me through more ****. My friend said my teeth are getting yellower and I look sick. Lovely friends I have, aren't they?
    BeAnAlly BeAnAlly 13-15, F Feb 3

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    Never Good Enough

    I'm a 19 year old female college student. I'm also in a sorority. About 5 months ago in February, my boyfriend cheated on me in front of my face. Needless to say, we ended our relationship. He is now dating the girl that he cheated on me with. I think that was the...
    localred1245 localred1245 18-21 2 Responses Jul 6, 2009

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    Bulimia and My Life

    it started a year ago..yes, it has not been that long but it has done a lot to ruin my life. I was always self concious, and a mirror addict. Every time i pass the mirror I would lift my shirt up looking at my belly..its fat i would always think...It really wasnt fat, because i...
    MissDependent MissDependent 16-17 2 Responses Sep 29, 2008

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    You Won't Do This Again

    That's what I tell myself every time I find myself there, huddled in the corner of the bathroom. I know I should probably get up and brush my teeth. I've heard all the horror stories of what throwing up can do to you. That scares me too. Not enough to make me quit. Instead I just...
    KnaveOfClubs KnaveOfClubs 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 8, 2013

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    I've got a friend over.

    With a nickname like "cooking mama #1" my friends look forward to my meals. I always make it something nice. I eat with them too, but I fight purging after. I'm sitting here after a dinner of Cornish Hens and garlic rice. We drank soda and we joked. We laughed and smiled. I...
    burrowbunni burrowbunni 18-21, F Feb 27

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    I am 14 and bulimic and anorexic.

    I'll starve for so log then binge and puke until I see blood
    secretstokeep secretstokeep 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2013

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    Only 15... Any Advice??

    Hi I am 15 years old. I am not sure why I am here but maybe you can tell me/help me. The first time I vomited was in march of 2013 and during that month I vomited 5/6 times. This Saturday I came home from girl scouts where I ate at least 4000 calories and so I started vomiting. I...
    belieber1 belieber1 16-17, F Nov 18, 2013

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    I ate again today, I was doing

    so well until I fell into temptation. It isn't easy getting food off my mind. it is constantly there, mocking me, calling out to me. I know that throwing up isn't the answer but sometimes I do it because, well, it is the only thing that gives me a sense of satisfaction. After I...
    jamiieeee jamiieeee 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 21

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    it all started in the 8th grade

    for me. i was always made fun of for my weight by family members and the easiest thing to do for me was to throw up. i am now 24 and i struggle with it. although it has gotten better sometimes it defeats me.
    arsnow arsnow 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    The doctor says all the help they can give me

    as much help as I need for my bulimia, but unless i actually want to quit myself then i wont be able, how do i get to the point that i actually want to get rid of this disorder? feel like il never fully get there :(
    confusedegg confusedegg 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    Nothing Tastes As Good As Skinny Feels

    Where do I start?! I'm 25 and have been bulimic on and off for 5 years. I couldn't even say how it started. Unfortunately there is a plethora of things that could have triggered this trouble in my life. The confusing part about it is, that I'm a perfectly normal and happy person...
    DeeLacey DeeLacey 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 16, 2012

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    My Secret

    I was introduced to the world of modeling and pagents at the age of 10. It was at the age of eleven that I began forcing myself to throw up. Being told that your arms are "too chubby" for the runway show that you have been trying so hard to book is devistating. Growing up...
    jrctahoe jrctahoe 18-21 6 Responses May 18, 2011

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    I hate when I am at work

    and can't find a place to quietly purge. I just feel so helpless
    pgl88 pgl88 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 5

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    I think I threw up blood.

    Only a little, what do I do? How do I know if it's serious?
    BeAnAlly BeAnAlly 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    Sigh... I tried so hard

    but fell so short. Will I ever get better 😢
    peculiarperegrine peculiarperegrine 22-25, F Feb 1

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    Okay, seriously. I'm trying to do my coursework

    and I can't focus. All I keep thinking about is food and wanting to binge so badly. Maybe if I let myself b/p I will be able to continue my coursework. Ha! Who am I kidding it'll only make things worse but I can't focus and I feel like I'm going insane!
    peculiarperegrine peculiarperegrine 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    It's Starting To Comsume Me.

    It started a few months ago. Looking in the mirror I felt like a fat whale that nobody would ever love. I tried throwing up my food a few times but never to the extreme that it is now. I have found myself thinking of ways to steal food from my work to binge on when I got home...
    lessthanlovely lessthanlovely 18-21, F 2 Responses May 25, 2010

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    Hell

    It all strated when my mom and dad broke up. Than was when I was born. My dad has always called me fat since I was in 4th grade, and its kind of hard when you are suppose to me your daddys little angel and he thinks that you are fat. Then when I started High school, that was when...
    barbie215 barbie215 16-18, F 16 Responses Mar 15, 2008

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    It all started last year.

    I was asked out by my friend, this is when I was a little heavier than what I am now. Currently, I am in my sophomore year. Freshman year was the 'push' to bring me into bulimia for me, really. I was astonished why he would ask me out, I had never been asked out before, no one...
    SlateCandy SlateCandy 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    Bulimia Will Kill Me

    ...and I don't care. I'm tired of living with eating disorders. It's all I think about, and it's ruining every part of my life. All I do is binge and purge, I can't focus on school or work any more. I know I'm getting weak from not eating and purging all the time, the end is so...
    dancer4444 dancer4444 18-21, F Nov 15, 2013

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    Today I are over 3500 calories

    and then spent 1-2 hours purging i can't stand myself I really really hate myself.. My mom said I have to lose weight then that same day my sister said that I need to start going to the gym because she doesn't want to have a fat sister anymore ...(do they know how they make me...
    picKLe47 picKLe47 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I Am Bulimia

    It gives me a high, a sense of accomplishment. Food is evil. Throwing up is like throwing out all the evil, it's like all bad energy is leaving your body, you feel refreshed and new. people say bulimia is like a prison or like a hell, but bulimia is my heaven. Hell is eating...
    abbywhitaker abbywhitaker 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 2, 2010

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    Recovery. My Battle Against Bully-mia.

    I am a bulimic. I am also a type one diabetic. I went to treatment at UCLA for two months. It helped but bulimia isn't something that just goes away. Bulimia isn't glamorous at all, although some people make it out to be like that. Bulimia isn't what people do to just "lose...
    meowrissa meowrissa 16-17 1 Response Jan 11, 2013

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    A Fraction Of Introduction

    04/22/10 I've restarted this story several times from several different angles. Maybe I should start out small and work my way up. I don't want to pressure myself to make this perfect right now, but one upcoming night the mood will be just right to tell my story the way I...
    LancyG LancyG 18-21, F Apr 22, 2010

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    Untitled

    It started when some kid broke my heart. Albeit, it sounds childish, this planted the seed to my self destruction. I was with someone for 1 year and gave him my virginity, with everything else. We ordered pizza and watched movies and just behaved like any other. When he left me...
    sarahkirtley sarahkirtley 18-21, F Nov 17, 2013

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    Raising Its Ugly Head

    it started in my teens i coped with it 4 years i seeked help and began to deal with it felt like it had gon away guess what its back and out of control im sick sumtimes 5 to 6 times a day im tired and miserable all the time my friends and family dont no how do u begin to tell...
    SINISTERCC SINISTERCC 2 Responses Jan 26, 2008

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    Ive been bulimic for 9 years been to numerous

    rehabs even went to the same rehab as kesha and demi lovato but I choose not to stop dont think I could even if I wanted to. I messed up alot the last 6 months and started putting on weight not that I was fat just thicker than I wanted to be (see profile pic jan 1) recently in...
    SweetAsSugar10 SweetAsSugar10 22-25 6 days ago

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    Have you ever experienced doing something you

    knew was bad but you cant stop doing it because it gives you comfort and reassurance? yeah, that's me and Mia (bulimia).
    jamiieeee jamiieeee 18-21, F Jan 17

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    Opus

    my daily ritual consists of food, a toilet and a tooth brush. this does not mean i gag myself with a toothbrush, i just have this ruetine where i vomit all of my food, clean the toilet then brush my teeth. this has been going on four years strong now; i am 19 years old. I am...
    elizabethdoe elizabethdoe 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 24, 2012

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    Distant Self

    (a poem about bulimia) She kneels desperately as her troubles are flushed alongside the rumble and thrashing of her soul. Demons intrude pilfering her spirit that beckons to be again. She parts from her fleshly existence into a world of forgiveness while begging, oh my distant...
    enblanco enblanco 46-50, F 2 Responses May 14, 2012

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    I am an overweight bulimic.

    My mind races and I think about food all day everyday. My body is under too much stress and I'm dying, I know it. I can feel my body shutting down. I just wish it would end....
    peculiarperegrine peculiarperegrine 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    I have been bulimic for 6.

    5 years. I was always the "Fat girl". When i was 9 years old my dad told me i was fat and ugly. i weighed 135lbs. I hit my heaviest at 15 when i got to 200lbs. i left school my freshman year for summer and experimented with binging and purging and lost 65lbs over the 3 months. i...
    LamboGirly LamboGirly 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 8

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    Somebody please help me.

    I can't stop eating. I want to purge so badly but I've been clean for a week. Can somebody talk? Please
    BeAnAlly BeAnAlly 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    Related Experiences

    Hi, I'm 17 years old and need help. I am bulimic. I never thought to use this term before until now, I've never thought of myself as bulimic. I started when I was 13 years old and...
    KhailahKat KhailahKat 16-17, F Apr 7

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    I have never truly came out about my eating disorder. I have been on and off with anorexia for a while. I recently became bulimic and I also binge eat a lot. I'm 17 and gay and...
    rchris96 rchris96 16-17, M 4 days ago