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    lockedsweetheart lockedsweetheart 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 12

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    I Am Bulimia

    It gives me a high, a sense of accomplishment. Food is evil. Throwing up is like throwing out all the evil, it's like all bad energy is leaving your body, you feel refreshed and new. people say bulimia is like a prison or like a hell, but bulimia is my heaven. Hell is eating...
    abbywhitaker abbywhitaker 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 2, 2010

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    I can't stomach a meal I always end up purging

    it. I'm 120lbs yes my collar bones show and hip bones but feel like the fattest girl ever I feel I'm never gonna be accepted
    Karisss Karisss 18-21, F 1 Response May 5

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    Im a Happy Bulimic

    Well it may sound weird but i am happy being a bulimic!.I was not fat but due to my small height i wanted to slim down more.So i started with a very strict diet but i eventually ended up with severe gastric problems.I then tried laxatives but it was not a very good option as i am...
    ayushi ayushi 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 8, 2009

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    My Secret

    I was introduced to the world of modeling and pagents at the age of 10. It was at the age of eleven that I began forcing myself to throw up. Being told that your arms are "too chubby" for the runway show that you have been trying so hard to book is devistating. Growing up...
    jrctahoe jrctahoe 18-21 6 Responses May 18, 2011

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    I messed up really badly this week,

    with not purging im time and have gained more weight then im comfortable with I start by 7 day fast tomm morning any one want to join its so much easier wheb your not doing it alone!
    SweetAsSugar10 SweetAsSugar10 22-25 1 Response Jul 20

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    Ugh. Binging. Binging.

    Binging. And ummmm more freaking binging! "Oh your so skinny" yeah right! I'm a fat waste of space!
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 3 Responses May 15

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    Blancasmiles Blancasmiles 16-17, F May 19

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    diectoke diectoke 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    I Hate the Feeling

    I'm 14, 5'4 and 194 it's disgusting. I hate the way I look and I'm fixing that. I don't eat. Only when I have to and when I do I head straight for the bathroom to dispose of the things I ate. I hate the feeling of my stomach begging for food. I'd rather...
    Isabellesheart Isabellesheart 18-21, F Apr 22, 2009

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    blossomingMe blossomingMe 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 26

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    It has taken me seven years to admit that,

    but there it is. My bulimia has been the most debilitating thing I've ever had to deal with. It is a monster, and I'm hoping that I can get away from it now that I'm in recovery. I just want some freaking stability in my life right now.
    youropheliac youropheliac 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 2

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    TO EVERYONE STRUGGLING WITH BULIMIA I can't

    even begin to keep up with the new stories everyday but I can share a story of hope and desire to help you all through your battles. It's only been since February 2012 that I ended my battle with bulimia/anorexia and decided to eat and do what ever I wanted whether I gained...
    Faith4869 Faith4869 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2013

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    Sometimes I voluntary purge

    but I was wondering how long does it take to damage your teeth.
    skinnywishes99 skinnywishes99 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 7

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    I sit here, watching some ****** Lifetime movie

    about some girl who likes to starve herself. I'm getting too old for this. I don't throw up much. Every now and then. A reminder to my body of what I can do to it if I don't like its behavior. I usually eat close to nil after that, for awhile. Starving is better than puking...
    WhoAmI613 WhoAmI613 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 12

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    I cannot fathom the thought of being bulimic my

    whole life, that's not a life. I am 22 and I'm in college. About a year ago, I broke up with my boyfriend of 4 years and did not know how to deal with it, so I turned to food. (I've never been a foodie or ever had any food addictions. In fact, I was an extremely picky eater. I...
    CaliEscape CaliEscape 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 31

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    Constantly throwing up

    as if it's a normal thing to do. First started from wanting to be desperately like Blair Waldorf in hopes of being something I'll never be. Constantly comparing myself to models and getting ridiculed by society. Trying so hard to escape my so called "life". Whenever I'm in a...
    cringing cringing 16-17, F May 19

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    Bulimia doesn't mean eating whatever you want

    and still getting skinny. For me at least, it means having a full-blown addiction to food. The law of addiction states that "administration of a drug to an addict will cause reestablishment of chemical dependence upon the addictive substance." So basically, if you slip up, you...
    Skirefly Skirefly 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 26

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    Supersize vs Superskinny.

    I would like to know people's opinion of this UK show.
    findmeholdmeloveme findmeholdmeloveme 18-21 2 days ago

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    is there anyone here

    that would be up for exchanging email or something in order to help support each other through recovery? I feel like being able to talk to someone about it openly would really help and I want to help someone get back to health and happiness at the same time as me X
    diectoke diectoke 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    Crazy Inside

    To the rest of the world I probably look like I have it all put together. I am a recent law school graduate, have a gorgeous husband and a beautiful child. I am actually rather pretty, and in comparison to most I am in okay shape. I try to get to the gym a couple times...
    meglnk meglnk 26-30, F 23 Responses Jan 4, 2008

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    4 months then it'll be 2 years.

    It's weird because I thought I'd only do it for a few months, a year the absolute max. And now it's coming to two years... I used to think it was a blessing as in the first year I lost more than a third of my body weight. But in the 2nd my weight fluctuates between 55-65kg, it's...
    EvaSFenty EvaSFenty 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 26

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    Hell

    It all strated when my mom and dad broke up. Than was when I was born. My dad has always called me fat since I was in 4th grade, and its kind of hard when you are suppose to me your daddys little angel and he thinks that you are fat. Then when I started High school, that was when...
    barbie215 barbie215 16-18, F 16 Responses Mar 15, 2008

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    Nearly 11

    I have been suffering from bulimia and anorexia since I just turned 13....but issues with food started long before then.  I cant take myself anymore, and its so hard to stop.  I also cut.   I spend so much on food...all to binge it, and purge it.  I use to...
    NotUnderstood NotUnderstood 21-25, F 7 Responses Nov 2, 2007

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    Distant Self

    (a poem about bulimia) She kneels desperately as her troubles are flushed alongside the rumble and thrashing of her soul. Demons intrude pilfering her spirit that beckons to be again. She parts from her fleshly existence into a world of forgiveness while begging, oh my distant...
    enblanco enblanco 46-50, F 2 Responses May 14, 2012

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    At the beginning I didn't want to accept it

    but the wound on my knuckle made me realize I have a problem. No I do not think I'm fat, but I'm scared of becoming fat. It sucks when I really want to eat something and I only let myself eat after promising to puke later
    Claire212 Claire212 16-17, F Aug 31

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    Does anyone else get really jealous of anorexics

    because they actually lose ******* weight and they don't have to b/p multiple times a day?
    Skirefly Skirefly 13-15, F 2 Responses May 17

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    I lost 8 pounds in 8 days Need help with

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    lockedsweetheart lockedsweetheart 26-30, F Jun 11

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    i am worried about the side effects of bulimia.

    if anyone can help please do. i only want to be skinny, like everyone else but i don't want rotten teeth or no oesophogus. please help!
    lolbluo lolbluo 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 11

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    I'm fine.

    It's been a week since I was last sick..... I'm feeling okay, so all's looking good. I think it's going to stop because of what I did to myself last weekend. I realized how bad it made my depression when I was doing it.  It lasted for probably about...
    Achilles1989 Achilles1989 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 19, 2009

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    WHOAMI613 Yeah, your right.

    I've had an ED for the past 15 years and I've never been transparent and stupid enough to be caught, labeled and forced into eating just to do it all over again. So I wonder....who's the moron here? Not me you ugly fat *****. ☺️ And way to try to block me so I couldn't...
    lockedsweetheart lockedsweetheart 26-30, F Aug 6

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    insertnicknamehere insertnicknamehere 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 23

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    I Stuffed My Face I Ate Until I Couldn't Take

    It Anymore...As I Was About To Purge It All Out I Remembered A Promise That I Made To Someone That I Love So Very Much. At That Moment I Took A Deep Breath And Let It All Out. There Was Blood And Puke Everywhere As I Was Getting Up I Felt My Heart Beat Getting Faster And Faster...
    DalaKumono DalaKumono 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    I am desperate to be free of this disease

    and just be happy. I remember the feeling of waking up and being THRILLED to be alive and couldn't wait to take on the day, and now waking up, I already have the weight of the world on my shoulders and I'm yet to do anything. Bulimia has even edged it's way into my dreams when I...
    diectoke diectoke 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 30

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    Binged. Binged. Binged.

    I'm only a fat bulimic cow.
    Blancasmiles Blancasmiles 16-17, F 1 Response May 14

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    mutedvibe mutedvibe 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 13

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    Can anyone be my coach to help me start this

    lifestyle? Working out and dieting isn't working anymore, I need to loose weight, please help 😢
    lockedsweetheart lockedsweetheart 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 3

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    A Fraction Of Introduction

    04/22/10 I've restarted this story several times from several different angles. Maybe I should start out small and work my way up. I don't want to pressure myself to make this perfect right now, but one upcoming night the mood will be just right to tell my story the way I...
    LancyG LancyG 18-21, F Apr 22, 2010

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    Threw Up Blood...What Do I Do?

    I'm a bit freaked out... I just threw up blood for the first time. I've been bulimic a bit over 2 years now (after being anorexic for 4 years) and I have been purging 2-3x a day for the past 3 months. As I was purging my dinner, thankfully at the end of my purge, my throat hurt...
    dancer4444 dancer4444 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 23, 2013

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    There Is Hope

    I could have swore to God and all living things that I was the most miserable sap on the surface of the earth about 12 years ago. I was thick in my eating disorders and trying to finish college and probably smoking too much pot at the time... Anyway.. now, later on in life.. i...
    anadas anadas 31-35 Jul 23, 2013

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    It all started last year.

    I was asked out by my friend, this is when I was a little heavier than what I am now. Currently, I am in my sophomore year. Freshman year was the 'push' to bring me into bulimia for me, really. I was astonished why he would ask me out, I had never been asked out before, no one...
    SlateCandy SlateCandy 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    Have you ever experienced doing something you

    knew was bad but you cant stop doing it because it gives you comfort and reassurance? yeah, that's me and Mia (bulimia).
    jamiieeee jamiieeee 18-21, F Jan 17

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    Opus

    my daily ritual consists of food, a toilet and a tooth brush. this does not mean i gag myself with a toothbrush, i just have this ruetine where i vomit all of my food, clean the toilet then brush my teeth. this has been going on four years strong now; i am 19 years old. I am...
    elizabethdoe elizabethdoe 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 24, 2012

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    I've been stugguling with this

    for a year. I want to stop but I just keep eating and eating. I would do zumba every day and I was thinner, but I think that was when I would purge the most, I got odf it this summer because of my piano and church things. I cant waint until school starts again, then I'll loose...
    nekokitty13 nekokitty13 16-17, F Jul 26

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    Had a sandwich really late.

    Felt immense anger at myself. Couldn't purge. Physically wouldn't work. Strange. But stranger still found myself cursing at myself that "you won". But really in the battle I DID WIN. Maybe by default. But in the scheme of life I won. But in my head I didn't win. I wanted it to...
    Tico72 Tico72 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 24

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    It's starting to get bad again.

    I hadn't really thought much about it, but I went on a pretty intense binge last weekend and haven't eaten much of anything since. I'm hungry, but the thought of eating makes me feel so gross. Ironically, my life is actually starting to get better. My birthday was last week, I...
    ReesesPeaces ReesesPeaces 16-17, F 2 Responses May 10

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    Well. It's been a tough few months.

    Stress filled months. I feel somewhat guilty in feeling so much stress, as truly my problems are not much compared to the stresses of so many others. I'm not sure what triggered it a few months back. It doesn't really matter. I just couldn't eat. If I tried, I would spit it out...
    Tico72 Tico72 41-45, F 4 Responses May 21

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    Recovery. My Battle Against Bully-mia.

    I am a bulimic. I am also a type one diabetic. I went to treatment at UCLA for two months. It helped but bulimia isn't something that just goes away. Bulimia isn't glamorous at all, although some people make it out to be like that. Bulimia isn't what people do to just "lose...
    meowrissa meowrissa 16-17 1 Response Jan 11, 2013

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    Hey guyz. I'm soooooo fat.

    I'm starting today. No food or drink until this time next year!!!! I know it's not feasible, but I only want to weigh two pounds. I have to. I'm so worthless and stupid and I need my bestest friend ANA to help meeeeee! I don't care if I die. I'll throw up any saliva I swallow...
    WhoAmI613 WhoAmI613 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 6

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    Somebody please help me.

    I can't stop eating. I want to purge so badly but I've been clean for a week. Can somebody talk? Please
    BeAnAlly BeAnAlly 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    You Won't Do This Again

    That's what I tell myself every time I find myself there, huddled in the corner of the bathroom. I know I should probably get up and brush my teeth. I've heard all the horror stories of what throwing up can do to you. That scares me too. Not enough to make me quit. Instead I just...
    KnaveOfClubs KnaveOfClubs 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 8, 2013

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    My Bulimia

    Two years ago, being proud of myself for not throwing up for a whole day would have been a completely strange thing for me. I used to be normal. What the heck happened? It usually comes in binges for me. I'll manage to resist it for one day, and then I'll be feeling...
    NormaJean NormaJean 18-21, F 22 Responses Apr 5, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    It took me long enough to admit it. I mean i realised i was bingeing and purging and all that jazz But something didn't click in my head that i was actually suffering from a...
    kerryfofo kerryfofo 18-21, F Aug 22

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