I Am Certain I Am Fuckked Up In The Head, Like Big Time

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    I have been showing symptoms of nearly every disorder you can name since I could walk, even before I could talk. And I still feel like there's something wrong with me, even though my psychologist says all I have is Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, Sociophobia Anxiety Disorder, and...
    IzunaCelestia IzunaCelestia
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2013

    oooo yes lol. This group is

    so me, i get angry much quicker than i used to, i worry abotu stuff that other people don't - for example do you have a purpose in life, what is the reaseon to care, is there a point to what your doing, is "God" really God etc, and now i don't care, i've ginen up on life, i have...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 20, 2013

    I'm Asking For Advice... Is It Hopeless?

    I tried to commit scuicide the other day and  well obviously failed... no one who knows me knows I even tried... I need help and don't know where to look... I'm trying to get better because you only get one life and I'm tired of wasting mine on this ******* bullshit! I feel...
    makenopain makenopain
    13-15, M
    Mar 13, 2011

    F You

    I have my sense of humor, I like it. Btw if you are reading this I dont care, Shush it. :P
    FuqItallWithHumor FuqItallWithHumor
    18-21, M
    Jul 30, 2012

    Aka Can't Contol Me

    Seems like things got better for a short time but then it's amazing how quickly things go from good to total ****-storm... I don't know how to handle my issues... My resolve is shattered and sometimes I scare myself because I don't even know what I'll do. I still have homocidal...
    makenopain makenopain
    13-15, M
    1 Response Mar 7, 2011

    Sick Again Today

    I was feeling "off" all day. I finally took Klonopin and went to bed. I lit my Mary candle and started to pray to her to please help me with various things. It turned into a sobfest. I whined and squeaked out my words. I don't know where it came from but I was upset over things...
    deleted deleted
    Jun 10, 2011

    Fuckked Up...Big Time

    I was taking a shower and started having a panic attack. I put on clothes and waited for it. I knew it was coming. Why? Well I read that the meds I will be taking are gonna make me fat. Yep, that's right. The things that are supposed to help me are also gonna be my worst enemy...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    25 Responses Feb 12, 2011

    So Confused

    is it possible at all to be 2 different people in 1 body. because i feel like thats what i am. 2 different people. i want completely opposite things on 1 subject. how can i want to have sex with my bf and want to remain a virgin until marriage at the same time. am i completely...
    monigoes monigoes
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 10, 2011


    I fell it's a storm up there and a storm of utter confusion. Nothing that I can do about it bit still there must be a solution, not the therapist,not momy or dady.SOMETHING! And I'm sure it's not about teen age phases, well most adult actually think it is about it.What I need is...
    GothicFlower GothicFlower
    18-21, F
    Oct 31, 2011

    In The Night 2.

    Suddenly I awake in the instituion once again. My heart is racing and beating. I feel someone is watching me. I look at the window the curtains are open. Heightening my anxiety. I turn to my roomate fast asleep in her bed. Cursing her for leaving the curtains open. Making me face...
    KraziiKitti KraziiKitti
    18-21, F
    Nov 29, 2012

    Because Of Many Things...

    Mainly because of my current lifestyle. 25 going on 26, still living at home, single, no friends and no social life. But also because of my feelings and thoughts. I tend to worry about and think about things that others probably don't. I can't be sure that they don't think about...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jun 1, 2011

    I Don'T Know What To Do

    My girlfriend means so much to me. But I think I'm starting to like my ex again. I'm not sure though. It's so confusing
    justanothertroubledgirl justanothertroubledgirl
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 18, 2013

    Certainty is one thing.

    Knowing it for a fact is quite another. I am young, 25~but I have experienced some horrible **** in my short existence. Over the past three years my mind has been overcome with disgusting and exciting sexual thoughts and ideas of torture in general. Ways to relinquish my wrath...
    deleted deleted
    Sep 19, 2015


    I have Kleinfelter Syndrome. I was born with 2 female chromosomes instead of one(guys= xy, girls=xx, me=xxy). I have desires. I sometimes wish I was born a girl. I love chicks as any normal bloke would, but I wish I could be a chick and have sex with another chick. Sometimes I...
    imabeaker imabeaker
    1 Response Oct 31, 2013

    I am screwed up on the head.

    I get angry easily all the time I have been bullied I cut myself and I feel like society hates me. I don't do drugs, smoke, or drink. I might start though I got invited to a party and I might actually fit in for once. I don't really care if I have to do drugs or drink alcohol...
    superabe11 superabe11
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jul 5, 2014

    Well Ya

    Dude, it runs in the family. Everyone I know that's related to me is at least a little weird. I seriously think I may have some sort of mental illness, but I have no desire to get locked up in a mental hospital, so I'm not gonna get er' checked out. Why bother?
    Veronica4 Veronica4
    18-21, F
    Aug 24, 2011

    So I was looking at my fb

    and I'm glad she's happy but is it okay to be sickened by it a little too?
    Chessland Chessland
    26-30, M
    Apr 13, 2015

    In The Night.

    3:00 Am at the insititution I woke in a slumber Wild Animals in the hallway Screeching Crying Fighting I float over to the door Peaking through the glass There I see 100s 100s of people The door its locked I try to claw through I want to join in the darkness A nurse comes I...
    KraziiKitti KraziiKitti
    18-21, F
    Nov 29, 2012

    Well Ya

    Dude, it runs in the family. Everyone I know that's related to me is at least a little weird. I seriously think I may have some sort of mental illness, but I have no desire to get locked up in a mental hospital, so I'm not gonna get er' checked out. Why bother?
    Veronica4 Veronica4
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 24, 2011


    I eat myself into a state of bliss.  It seems as if the more I eat the better I feel. The bigger I get the more unhappy I become.  I rant and rave at everyone and cuss some people out.  My temper is out of control at times.  I often think of shotting people on the street or...
    whykeeper whykeeper
    36-40, F
    4 Responses May 27, 2011
    Alexajj Alexajj
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 29, 2015

    I Crave Excitment, Maybe?

    Where to start? I know a guy called i, his life has been crazy, as a kid he'd ride his dirtbike wherever, he saw a ghost, fell right into the empathy within drug culture, crashed cars drunk, overdosed on E, had cocaine problem, got away, it was hard, went the other side of the...
    PersonL PersonL
    31-35, M
    Sep 25, 2012

    Stuck Every Month

    Boy am I sick of it. It never fails. I end up short of money. Im just going downhill. Now I can't bear the thought of leaving the house tomorrow to see my psych nurse. I think its kind of pointless anyway as I don't have the money for the Klonopin which I have to pay out of...
    deleted deleted
    11 Responses May 15, 2012


    how do you know when you are sane? when you question yor sanity.
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jul 6, 2011

    All I Do Is Foolish

    when i want to be someone special , i fall down like a fool , i can't see things clearly ,i feel like i'm blind because i do everything with wrong way ; i lied to my self , i never been honest to my self , i make myself believe tht i'm alright and everything aright but it's just...
    silentpain1 silentpain1
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 9, 2011

    Hopefully I Can Shed A Bit Of Insight From My Experience That You Guys And Gals Find Useful!!!!!

    My Societal Diagnosis is Bipolar Depressed Severe with Psychotic Features, I also have severe Panic and Anxiety Disorders, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, ADD. THIS MENTAL CRAP IS ONLY PART OF WHO I AM AS A PERSON. I will not be put in the closet by family etc, as something...
    KrazyCoyoteKim KrazyCoyoteKim
    46-50, F
    Oct 31, 2011

    Control Me

     I want to be controlled by a man. I want to be his slave/pet for the night.I want him to use me for his pleasure.I promise to obey.I kneel before him on the floor with head lowered.I await his command.I want this more then anything else.I need to hear his voice of steel.I want...
    misery22 misery22
    36-40, F
    4 Responses May 31, 2012

    For as long as I can remember I have been

    different from everyone else around me, not by loads but enough. The things I think, the sexual things I think, I don't think they are right...when i try to talk to someone online about it they think I'm a fake or some old man, I'm neither I'm a 27 year old male. I am the...
    natrualisbest natrualisbest
    26-30, M
    Aug 10, 2015
    thehippielife thehippielife
    13-15, F
    Sep 1, 2015

    I'm obnoxious and I still expect people to like

    me. When I'm no comedian, just plain stupid.
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Mar 1, 2014

    My Shadow

    my shadow will only help me it tells me destroy and takeout anybody that stands in my way. a few nights ago their i ways sitting in the darkness clearing my mind letting the darkness enter my thoughts and hope that it will tell me more about what to do
    joel2014 joel2014
    13-15, M
    2 Responses Mar 6, 2012
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