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I Am Clinically Depressed

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    I am always sad and tired,

    want to end my misery. No one gives a **** about me which is fine. My dad's always working,moms got her own depression and she's grown tired of me, as she constantly reminds me. and my brothers dealing with his own ****. Can't focus on school always yelled at and told I'm...
    jojowillsaveyou jojowillsaveyou 16-17, F Oct 29, 2014

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    "tired"..................

    Im not sure where to start. I need to get things off my chest. I am a little depressed right now and have found that writting often helps. I am quite down at the moment and i am findin it really hard. I don't have any friends but one but i can't really turn to if im in trouble...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 22, 2011

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    Things I Hate...

    Here are the things that I hate hate hate....................# Making my lunch when I go to university.# Brushing my teeth in the morning.# Eating breakfast, lunch, and dinner...OMG I hate foods! (except pizza)# Getting dressed up to go out.# Peeing when I'm at my university...
    LisbethTylerMorgan LisbethTylerMorgan 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2013

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    When I'm Hurting I Get A Sick Pleasure From Indulging In Sadness

    Song lyrics are the main source of this. For all you out there who feel the same, here's one for the playlist. Grow Up And Blow Away By: Metric "Grow Up And Blow Away" Floating the room Two by two From the womb To the holiday There is no holiday First double-cross...
    mindgirl mindgirl 36-40, F Oct 22, 2012

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    I want to kill myself,

    I want to make it stop.
    DepressiveDementor DepressiveDementor 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 27, 2015

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    I just told my parents

    that I am clinically depressed. They were acceptive, and I found out that some people on my dad's side of my family have problems with depression, too. I am going to see my doctor this week to get some help. So, my advice to all the teens who are worried is to just do it. I left...
    mcurling mcurling 13-15, F Jan 26, 2014

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    I Found This

    I did not write it. It seems like I did. Exactly how I feel. So I copied and pasted. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ok, im a 13 year old girl and ive been suffering severe depression for over the last 2 or so years for...
    nomeatforshrimp nomeatforshrimp 16-17, F Jul 25, 2012

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    Why Am I Trying?

    Every day the moments I spend faking a smile are appearing as an endless struggle now...Trying to appear ‘normal’, In some sort of way. It seems that the pain is always here with me and it hurt's to much to breathe...I know there’s been many who’ve had it worse than me...
    iPandaHero iPandaHero 16-17, F Sep 6, 2012

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    Depression: Low Self-esteem, Humilations And Public Ridicule

    I had three nervous breakdowns and is diagnosed as clinically depressed by a psychiatrist in our community. I literally became insane for three times with my mind out of the reality and immersed in fantasies. In these three breakdowns, i was literally insane; speaking and acting...
    fernan25 fernan25 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 7, 2010

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    I'm Always Upset.

    But things are getting worse. I foudn out today that i'm super failing math. and i am behind on my science because i tried to catch up on my math. And my parents think i'm a disappointment. again.
    keke89 keke89 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2007

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    Surrender

    I come from a broken home that appears to be perfect.i belong no where because i am unusual.i do not appear to be normal, and i have never met anyone like me.i push away those who seem to care about me,in fear of hurting them.i fear everything in life.i worry about every word i...
    Alightonthewater Alightonthewater 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    Recently I have moved into my mom's home

    and decided to leave my dad. We've never quite got along and I really just could not take anymore of it. My mom and I have been trying so hard to have him just sign over custody papers just so it's simple on everyone. I'll be 18 this December coming up. Basically just one more...
    observando observando 18-21, F Jan 15, 2014

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    Will The Depression Ever End?

    I've had depression for as long as I can remember, but wasn't officially diagnosed with it until seventh grade. I am seventeen now. Here is my story. My parents broke up when I was two and my mother married a man when I was about three and had my sister a year later. My step dad...
    aleshasummer aleshasummer 18-21, F Sep 7, 2013

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    So I saw something that to be clinically

    depressed you have to have 5 out of 9 symptoms and have them persist for at least 2 weeks... I think I have 3 of them, with persistence being on and off a bit. So I guess I'm not technically clinically depressed, but it sure feels like it and it really wrecks havoc on my life...
    goodloot3 goodloot3 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 22, 2014

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    One Thing After Another.

    I feel like I just can't catch a break. I am only 16, and I've been depressed since the beginning of 8th grade.  It started off with my mom. She was sort of bad at doing what she was supposed to do, like picking me up on time to go over to her house for the weekend (every...
    Karley Karley 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2008

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    Life doesn't mean **** to me,

    nothing means **** to me, I can't seem to find joy in anything, I feel useless, I feel like my life is as valuable as that of an insect, that I just bug people and serve no purpose in this world, that I'm meant to be alone forever and I feel like I deserve it. I feel so...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    I Don't Like Life Anymore...

    Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe, just maybe, these feelings are all in my head or I'm having a bad nightmare that I have to wake up from-a nightmare that's lasted for more than 8 months. I realized I was depressed 9 months ago, when I asked people if it was possible to know by urself...
    lifesuxbigtime lifesuxbigtime 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 19, 2007

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    It's been 6 years since I was diagnosed with

    clinical depression. Today, and for the first time ever I realized that it might never go away and I'm the key to my treatment, but I'm too weak. I hate myself.
    DepressiveDementor DepressiveDementor 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 17, 2015

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    HIV Diagnosis And Being Gay Are Too Much

    Many days I don't feel like doing a thing since my youth and life has been ruined by this disease, by this world I was brought into where people hate me for being gay, want me to die of AIDS for it, which is a terrible burden for my soul to carry. I hope someday soon I die in my...
    codycosmo codycosmo 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

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    My Depression

    Hi, im 14 years old, i struggle with a lot of stuff, im medically diagnosed with depression since almost a year ago, and i take antidepressants every single morning, i also cut myself to feel better, it has become an addiction, i am bipolar, i am anorexic with bulimic tendences...
    ateenagegirl ateenagegirl 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 5, 2013

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    Pain insists upon being attended to.

    God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our consciences, but shouts in our pains. It is his megaphone to rouse a deaf world. - C.S. Lewis
    anonymousxdave anonymousxdave 31-35, M Oct 25, 2015

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    20 Years And Counting...

    Maybe 30 but i didn't realize until 20 years ago. I have gone through life with very low self esteem and up to a point people would say 'but you are great, you've got so much going for you'...Im not the person I was. I am tired and I am what i think i am. I have acted to reflect...
    dereksmalls dereksmalls 36-40 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    Alone In A House Full Of People.

    If  only people would understand that I do not choose to be the way I am.  Depression is a hormonal imbalance in the brain.  At least that is what I have been told. My mother left me and my brother when we were just babies.  We never knew our father, so...
    daisysducky daisysducky 61-65, F Apr 4, 2010

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    A Quick Introduction, Probably The Same As All The Others.

    I've been in treatment for a little over 5 years, seeing a shrink, just drug therapy, on antidepressants for most of that time. At the time I started, I was crying every day. That went on for 8 months. I only missed a couple of days in that entire period. I should have asked for...
    atadir atadir 51-55, M 3 Responses Nov 1, 2011

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    "Struggling Musician"

    The joy I get from making and studying music vs. the frustration it brings... Personal and professional. I sometimes feel soo inadequate. My teacher tells me I'm good and people love my music, but I don't even know why people say I'm good when I just look at it all and it feels...
    bluetree88 bluetree88 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 2, 2013

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    I want to not care, but how can I when they remind me how my life sucks everyday
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    Just don't feel like myself anymore.
    BillionDollarDream BillionDollarDream 18-21, M 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I feel like a broken record everyday. School, family, and life overall have made me feel overwhelmed. I can't act like myself because I'm too depressed and my school is...
    Imbolcumbra Imbolcumbra 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have been depressed over 3 weeks and none of my friends and family realize it because I always fake smile and fake laugh and it's so easy to foul them and I know that they won't...
    Iszy143 Iszy143 16-17, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    That moment when smoking with your best friends makes you think more about what's bugging the **** out of you , but you're high and if u think about it for too long you'll end up...
    HolyTears HolyTears 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I've noticed a change in my mood in the past month or so and I think it's because of Spring and Summer approaching. I don't know why but I'm dreading the hotter months and the bugs...
    emjm013 emjm013 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Nothing ever goes right for me it seems like. My asshat husband is going to get everything in the divorce while I'll get almost nothing. He was emotionally abusive to me...
    GoldenHeart69 GoldenHeart69 22-25, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I randomly came across this website when I was looking for ways to assuage my unhappiness. I have been feeling depressed for the past year and I couldn't heal myself with...
    Silh0uettes Silh0uettes 16-17, M 3 days ago

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    I figured out how to fix it. I have to change. But in order to understand what I have to change I have to be able to identify what's causing me pain. My pain seems to stem from...
    imjustaghost imjustaghost 26-30, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm bipolar II and it's mostly the severe depression. I'm not sure where to turn to. I was wondering if anyone knew of any good online outlets (besides 7cupsoftea) that would be...
    customconcerned94 customconcerned94 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I dont know if i am really this depressed. I feel sometimes useless and powerless. I was born in a broken family and that makes me becomes insecure in so many ways, ashamed, no one...
    findingmerlyn findingmerlyn 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 31

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    I like to help the depressed populace because I may not be going through the same situation that they're facing; but depression, that is something I have suffered like so many...
    MyLifeIsStrange MyLifeIsStrange 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    I'm depressed because I feel like life isn't getting any better . I feel like I'm trapped in this depressing cage of a life . Every time something bad happens I long for the past...
    MysticEmerald MysticEmerald 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 29

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    I wish I hadn't had so much to drink at my friend's birthday party. I got very upset later because I had way too much, possibly the most I've ever had. I think it was because I'd...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 29

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    normal people avoid depressed people like the plague. EP is the only place where people listen with empathy
    Q2013 Q2013 46-50, F 4 Responses Jan 29

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    Self diagnosed and completely hidden in my real life. I've known for a while now that I'd crept past just simply feeling down to something more serious. I'm an intelligent woman...
    snoopysgirl snoopysgirl 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 29