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I Am Clinically Depressed

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 273 People

    Depression: Low Self-esteem, Humilations And Public Ridicule

    I had three nervous breakdowns and is diagnosed as clinically depressed by a psychiatrist in our community. I literally became insane for three times with my mind out of the reality and immersed in fantasies. In these three breakdowns, i was literally insane; speaking and acting...
    fernan25 fernan25 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 7, 2010

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    Why Am I Trying?

    Every day the moments I spend faking a smile are appearing as an endless struggle now...Trying to appear ‘normal’, In some sort of way. It seems that the pain is always here with me and it hurt's to much to breathe...I know there’s been many who’ve had it worse than me...
    iPandaHero iPandaHero 16-17, F Sep 6, 2012

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    When I'm Hurting I Get A Sick Pleasure From Indulging In Sadness

    Song lyrics are the main source of this. For all you out there who feel the same, here's one for the playlist. Grow Up And Blow Away By: Metric "Grow Up And Blow Away" Floating the room Two by two From the womb To the holiday There is no holiday First double-cross...
    mindgirl mindgirl 36-40, F Oct 22, 2012

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    Surrender

    I come from a broken home that appears to be perfect.i belong no where because i am unusual.i do not appear to be normal, and i have never met anyone like me.i push away those who seem to care about me,in fear of hurting them.i fear everything in life.i worry about every word i...
    Alightonthewater Alightonthewater 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    I Found This

    I did not write it. It seems like I did. Exactly how I feel. So I copied and pasted. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ok, im a 13 year old girl and ive been suffering severe depression for over the last 2 or so years for...
    nomeatforshrimp nomeatforshrimp 13-15, F Jul 25, 2012

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    Alone In A House Full Of People.

    If  only people would understand that I do not choose to be the way I am.  Depression is a hormonal imbalance in the brain.  At least that is what I have been told. My mother left me and my brother when we were just babies.  We never knew our father, so...
    daisysducky daisysducky 61-65, F Apr 4, 2010

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    A Quick Introduction, Probably The Same As All The Others.

    I've been in treatment for a little over 5 years, seeing a shrink, just drug therapy, on antidepressants for most of that time. At the time I started, I was crying every day. That went on for 8 months. I only missed a couple of days in that entire period. I should have asked for...
    atadir atadir 51-55, M 2 Responses Nov 1, 2011

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    I just told my parents

    that I am clinically depressed. They were acceptive, and I found out that some people on my dad's side of my family have problems with depression, too. I am going to see my doctor this week to get some help. So, my advice to all the teens who are worried is to just do it. I left...
    mcurling mcurling 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    Will The Depression Ever End?

    I've had depression for as long as I can remember, but wasn't officially diagnosed with it until seventh grade. I am seventeen now. Here is my story. My parents broke up when I was two and my mother married a man when I was about three and had my sister a year later. My step dad...
    aleshasummer aleshasummer 18-21, F Sep 7, 2013

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    Recently I have moved into my mom's home

    and decided to leave my dad. We've never quite got along and I really just could not take anymore of it. My mom and I have been trying so hard to have him just sign over custody papers just so it's simple on everyone. I'll be 18 this December coming up. Basically just one more...
    observando observando 16-17, F Jan 15

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    I Don't Like Life Anymore...

    Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe, just maybe, these feelings are all in my head or I'm having a bad nightmare that I have to wake up from-a nightmare that's lasted for more than 8 months. I realized I was depressed 9 months ago, when I asked people if it was possible to know by urself...
    lifesuxbigtime lifesuxbigtime 16-18, F 2 Responses Aug 19, 2007

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    HIV Diagnosis And Being Gay Are Too Much

    Many days I don't feel like doing a thing since my youth and life has been ruined by this disease, by this world I was brought into where people hate me for being gay, want me to die of AIDS for it, which is a terrible burden for my soul to carry. I hope someday soon I die in my...
    codycosmo codycosmo 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

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    20 Years And Counting...

    Maybe 30 but i didn't realize until 20 years ago. I have gone through life with very low self esteem and up to a point people would say 'but you are great, you've got so much going for you'...Im not the person I was. I am tired and I am what i think i am. I have acted to reflect...
    dereksmalls dereksmalls 36-40 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    One Thing After Another.

    I feel like I just can't catch a break. I am only 16, and I've been depressed since the beginning of 8th grade.  It started off with my mom. She was sort of bad at doing what she was supposed to do, like picking me up on time to go over to her house for the weekend (every...
    Karley Karley 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2008

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    I'm Always Upset.

    But things are getting worse. I foudn out today that i'm super failing math. and i am behind on my science because i tried to catch up on my math. And my parents think i'm a disappointment. again.
    keke89 keke89 16-18, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2007

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    My Depression

    Hi, im 14 years old, i struggle with a lot of stuff, im medically diagnosed with depression since almost a year ago, and i take antidepressants every single morning, i also cut myself to feel better, it has become an addiction, i am bipolar, i am anorexic with bulimic tendences...
    ateenagegirl ateenagegirl 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

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    Things I Hate...

    Here are the things that I hate hate hate....................# Making my lunch when I go to university.# Brushing my teeth in the morning.# Eating breakfast, lunch, and dinner...OMG I hate foods! (except pizza)# Getting dressed up to go out.# Peeing when I'm at my university...
    LisbethTylerMorgan LisbethTylerMorgan 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2013

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    Listener Here

    If you have stuff you want to talk about or vent about, feel free to contact me. I usually am the listener in my crowd and don't mind it. I tend to really want to hear people's stories and experiences.No judgments. I am also pretty open minded so there won't be much that I find I...
    Sowyfeil Sowyfeil 31-35, F Jun 19, 2013

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    "tired"..................

    Im not sure where to start. I need to get things off my chest. I am a little depressed right now and have found that writting often helps. I am quite down at the moment and i am findin it really hard. I don't have any friends but one but i can't really turn to if im in trouble...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 22, 2011

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    Just Diagnossed Today

    I met with a counselor 2 hours ago, and she diagnossed me as being clinically depressed. Next stage in life I guess, it took me years of feeling like crap and constantly beating myself on the inside before picking up the phone to make the appointment. She wants me to call my dr...
    nscappoose nscappoose 41-45, M 5 Responses Aug 23, 2012

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    "Struggling Musician"

    The joy I get from making and studying music vs. the frustration it brings... Personal and professional. I sometimes feel soo inadequate. My teacher tells me I'm good and people love my music, but I don't even know why people say I'm good when I just look at it all and it feels...
    bluetree88 bluetree88 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 2, 2013

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    I'm in school right now...I want to kill myself so bad...
    suicideDepression suicideDepression 13-15, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    For all of you fighting this, I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F Sep 7

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    One of these days my ******* ***** of a mother is gonna push me too far and that'll be the end of me
    suicideDepression suicideDepression 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 7

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    For all of you fighting this, I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F Sep 11

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    Well I was diagnosed 2 days ago with bipolar I've been diagnosed with depression for about 6 months. Weirdly the bipolar isn't shocking. My dad is bipolar, but now I feel like I'm...
    Dhess1198 Dhess1198 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 19

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    For all of you fighting this, I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    There's so much going on here that It'll take a while to type down, so bear with me. One, I'm very depressed because I screw up every little thing. I'm a sixteen year old male in...
    NeoBoy NeoBoy 16-17, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    I depressed because of the loneliness. When can I ever change my life. Going through a routine life can be very depressing, how to get this of this feeling... ...
    Steve2186 Steve2186 26-30, M 15 hrs ago

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    I really need help. I'm feeling depressed :( and I'm very alone right now because I feel no one cares to talk or to even listen to me . I try my best to care for everybody but...
    helpmeplease10 helpmeplease10 22-25, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I am 38 year old single i am feeling depressed since my childhood. Now everyday of my is more depressed and i am looking as end of life. Each night i am taking sleeping pills and...
    amarindersingh amarindersingh 36-40, M 5 Responses Sep 10

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    Don't even know why i am doing this, but here it goes. I am 22 year old guy, who had his share of sorrow trough most of my life. My first memories as child are of my grandfather...
    TheLostSoulTravaler TheLostSoulTravaler 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 10

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    I hear people tell me I'm pretty on this website but not in my real life. I get called ugly, fat, a looser and so much more. Even if I actually was pretty(I'm not) it wouldn't...
    bellsmarrie bellsmarrie 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 11

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    I try to tell my friends what it's like to be depressed but unless they have been themselves they don't understand. It's just so hard to explain unless you've been there. I think...
    crookedteethteen crookedteethteen 13-15, F Sep 13

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    I always thought that I am an unemotional person who doesn't get too sad or depressed with whatever happens. But, recently all this changed with an incident where I hurt a person...
    AGuyTurnedOptimist AGuyTurnedOptimist 22-25, M 3 Responses Sep 16

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    ...but I'm not anymore. Just a year back, I was so badly depressed. I thought it would be the end of my life: actually, I didn't even look forward to any life. I thought there was...
    sunflowerheaven sunflowerheaven 18-21, F Sep 19

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    Am i depressed? I don't know when someone is diagnosed as depressed but i think i am. I have felt like this for maybe 2 years; always feeling tired and sad. I like to be alone...
    leaskyy leaskyy 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 20

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    I've never been this kind of depressed before though. I know that I am depressed but I also know what I want to make myself feel better. I just need some kind of help. I go to...
    samyoung8 samyoung8 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 21

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    There's a battle going on inside me that no one can see. Two forces are fighting for power and control, they are gripping every part of me. How can i be happy, when I am in total...
    taurusboi23 taurusboi23 22-25, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Im not saying im completely depressed all the time, but i know that even when im happy ill always be sad.. y'know? It's like im not meant to be happy... I get into depressed states...
    Gallowsweet Gallowsweet 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    Today I had to run the mile in gym while on my period. Which as you can imagine was fantastic. My entire body aches. I find it hard to tell if it is from physical activities or my...
    BlueSailboat BlueSailboat 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    I have been depressed before~ People I knew had cancer 2 died 1 is surviving 1my grandma -died 2my friend -died 3 my mum -lived I was depressed The first time is when I found...
    RainbowWolf13 RainbowWolf13 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 5

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    I feel like nobody gives an effing **** about me. That nobody cares about me, nobody notices me, nobody wants to talk to me, that everybody hates me, that everybody talks about me...
    gotohell227 gotohell227 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 7

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    Hi, I'm a 29 year woman who has been depressed since I was 12 for many reasons, the main is that I'm ugly. I live and 3rd world country that I hate, I had many family problems...
    MinekoChan MinekoChan 26-30, F 4 Responses Sep 7

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    I am living in Northern England, rapidly approaching the age of 35, depressed that I've never been able to have a real social life. The problem is that I'm still living with my...
    CodemonkeyNE CodemonkeyNE 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 10

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    Ok, I know I shouldn't feel depressed but I do. I have always had a great relationship with my dad and thought I did with my mom up until I lost my job of 12 years, 3 years ago. I...
    bluefireball4949 bluefireball4949 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 12

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    The worst day of school I've had all year so far. Had a complete gasping for breath ugly crying panic attack in front of my old teacher who held my hand. He sat with me for a bit...
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599 16-17, F Sep 12

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    I have days where I have ups and downs or just occurrences that make me depressed. It just really depends on the situation but most of the time I am usually happy or just have...
    MiZShortiiE MiZShortiiE 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 13

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    Depression is complicated. Like your sad but you have no real reason for it. I have reasons but there excuses. Because in the end I'm not sad because of things happening to me. I'm...
    alyssakayart alyssakayart 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 15

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