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I Am Clinically Depressed

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    20 Years And Counting...

    Maybe 30 but i didn't realize until 20 years ago. I have gone through life with very low self esteem and up to a point people would say 'but you are great, you've got so much going for you'...Im not the person I was. I am tired and I am what i think i am. I have acted to reflect...
    dereksmalls dereksmalls 36-40 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    Alone In A House Full Of People.

    If  only people would understand that I do not choose to be the way I am.  Depression is a hormonal imbalance in the brain.  At least that is what I have been told. My mother left me and my brother when we were just babies.  We never knew our father, so...
    daisysducky daisysducky 61-65, F Apr 4, 2010

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    So I saw something that to be clinically

    depressed you have to have 5 out of 9 symptoms and have them persist for at least 2 weeks... I think I have 3 of them, with persistence being on and off a bit. So I guess I'm not technically clinically depressed, but it sure feels like it and it really wrecks havoc on my life...
    goodloot3 goodloot3 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 22, 2014

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    I Don't Like Life Anymore...

    Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe, just maybe, these feelings are all in my head or I'm having a bad nightmare that I have to wake up from-a nightmare that's lasted for more than 8 months. I realized I was depressed 9 months ago, when I asked people if it was possible to know by urself...
    lifesuxbigtime lifesuxbigtime 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 19, 2007

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    Things I Hate...

    Here are the things that I hate hate hate....................# Making my lunch when I go to university.# Brushing my teeth in the morning.# Eating breakfast, lunch, and dinner...OMG I hate foods! (except pizza)# Getting dressed up to go out.# Peeing when I'm at my university...
    LisbethTylerMorgan LisbethTylerMorgan 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2013

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    Depression: Low Self-esteem, Humilations And Public Ridicule

    I had three nervous breakdowns and is diagnosed as clinically depressed by a psychiatrist in our community. I literally became insane for three times with my mind out of the reality and immersed in fantasies. In these three breakdowns, i was literally insane; speaking and acting...
    fernan25 fernan25 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 7, 2010

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    I just told my parents

    that I am clinically depressed. They were acceptive, and I found out that some people on my dad's side of my family have problems with depression, too. I am going to see my doctor this week to get some help. So, my advice to all the teens who are worried is to just do it. I left...
    mcurling mcurling 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 26, 2014

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    Will The Depression Ever End?

    I've had depression for as long as I can remember, but wasn't officially diagnosed with it until seventh grade. I am seventeen now. Here is my story. My parents broke up when I was two and my mother married a man when I was about three and had my sister a year later. My step dad...
    aleshasummer aleshasummer 18-21, F Sep 7, 2013

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    I'm Always Upset.

    But things are getting worse. I foudn out today that i'm super failing math. and i am behind on my science because i tried to catch up on my math. And my parents think i'm a disappointment. again.
    keke89 keke89 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2007

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    I Found This

    I did not write it. It seems like I did. Exactly how I feel. So I copied and pasted. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ok, im a 13 year old girl and ive been suffering severe depression for over the last 2 or so years for...
    nomeatforshrimp nomeatforshrimp 16-17, F Jul 25, 2012

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    My Depression

    Hi, im 14 years old, i struggle with a lot of stuff, im medically diagnosed with depression since almost a year ago, and i take antidepressants every single morning, i also cut myself to feel better, it has become an addiction, i am bipolar, i am anorexic with bulimic tendences...
    ateenagegirl ateenagegirl 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 5, 2013

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    A Quick Introduction, Probably The Same As All The Others.

    I've been in treatment for a little over 5 years, seeing a shrink, just drug therapy, on antidepressants for most of that time. At the time I started, I was crying every day. That went on for 8 months. I only missed a couple of days in that entire period. I should have asked for...
    atadir atadir 51-55, M 3 Responses Nov 1, 2011

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    When I'm Hurting I Get A Sick Pleasure From Indulging In Sadness

    Song lyrics are the main source of this. For all you out there who feel the same, here's one for the playlist. Grow Up And Blow Away By: Metric "Grow Up And Blow Away" Floating the room Two by two From the womb To the holiday There is no holiday First double-cross...
    mindgirl mindgirl 36-40, F Oct 22, 2012

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    "Struggling Musician"

    The joy I get from making and studying music vs. the frustration it brings... Personal and professional. I sometimes feel soo inadequate. My teacher tells me I'm good and people love my music, but I don't even know why people say I'm good when I just look at it all and it feels...
    bluetree88 bluetree88 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 2, 2013

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    "tired"..................

    Im not sure where to start. I need to get things off my chest. I am a little depressed right now and have found that writting often helps. I am quite down at the moment and i am findin it really hard. I don't have any friends but one but i can't really turn to if im in trouble...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 22, 2011

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    Recently I have moved into my mom's home

    and decided to leave my dad. We've never quite got along and I really just could not take anymore of it. My mom and I have been trying so hard to have him just sign over custody papers just so it's simple on everyone. I'll be 18 this December coming up. Basically just one more...
    observando observando 18-21, F Jan 15, 2014

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    I am always sad and tired,

    want to end my misery. No one gives a **** about me which is fine. My dad's always working,moms got her own depression and she's grown tired of me, as she constantly reminds me. and my brothers dealing with his own ****. Can't focus on school always yelled at and told I'm...
    jojowillsaveyou jojowillsaveyou 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 29, 2014

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    HIV Diagnosis And Being Gay Are Too Much

    Many days I don't feel like doing a thing since my youth and life has been ruined by this disease, by this world I was brought into where people hate me for being gay, want me to die of AIDS for it, which is a terrible burden for my soul to carry. I hope someday soon I die in my...
    codycosmo codycosmo 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

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    Why Am I Trying?

    Every day the moments I spend faking a smile are appearing as an endless struggle now...Trying to appear ‘normal’, In some sort of way. It seems that the pain is always here with me and it hurt's to much to breathe...I know there’s been many who’ve had it worse than me...
    iPandaHero iPandaHero 16-17, F Sep 6, 2012

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    Surrender

    I come from a broken home that appears to be perfect.i belong no where because i am unusual.i do not appear to be normal, and i have never met anyone like me.i push away those who seem to care about me,in fear of hurting them.i fear everything in life.i worry about every word i...
    Alightonthewater Alightonthewater 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    One Thing After Another.

    I feel like I just can't catch a break. I am only 16, and I've been depressed since the beginning of 8th grade.  It started off with my mom. She was sort of bad at doing what she was supposed to do, like picking me up on time to go over to her house for the weekend (every...
    Karley Karley 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2008

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    Life doesn't mean **** to me,

    nothing means **** to me, I can't seem to find joy in anything, I feel useless, I feel like my life is as valuable as that of an insect, that I just bug people and serve no purpose in this world, that I'm meant to be alone forever and I feel like I deserve it. I feel so...
    AmJordi AmJordi 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    Basically I've been depressed for four years and have struggled with suicidal thoughts and actions for this time. Now, I've gone through psychosis and have been diagnosed as...
    hippiesugar hippiesugar 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    I hope no one thinks that having a plan for suicide makes me seem like a pity case. Tell my therapist my plan for suicide was out of fear for my own safety. The suffering was...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 8

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    This the worst depression yet. I'm so frightened.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 9

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    You know, I'm a bit of a basket case.. But hey, the sister I thought I once had is long gone. She's been lying to me and my family this entire time. I can't believe it. The...
    EmoMarceline EmoMarceline 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    What do you guys do on your down periods/days? i dont feel like spending he entire day crying and thinking about suicide and then hating myself for it today. tips, suggestions...
    peaceinmiles peaceinmiles 18-21, F 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    You know what hurts... You know??? Letting your feelings go and letting your sadness intertwine with the others. While the others promise that things will be fine. and the fcking...
    CursedRaven CursedRaven 16-17, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    "Do you ever hear your silent cries. They call and call but fall on death ears, without knowing you are being consumed from the inside out. It's upto you to save you from yourself...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F 4 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I've been depressed for most of my life and I hate it,sometimes I can't even remember the last time I was truly happy,it ****** me off when people think depression isn't a big...
    DepressedAngell DepressedAngell 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    I am 15 years old and I would say I have been depressed for a about four years or at least about the time I began secondary school. Some days I just get to a point where I can't...
    safiya999 safiya999 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    Ok. So I secretly had a boyfriend once, and when I broke up with him, I got so sad. Wait not sad, depressed. I didn't even like him, and yet, I got like super depressed. I thought...
    Jossy7899 Jossy7899 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 24

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    What random thoughts go through the mind of one depressed person? I decided to expose myself just this once, if not any more in future. If anyone out there relates to this, I know...
    mysteriouseverything mysteriouseverything 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    I'm living in an abusive household, and it's made me depressed. When I wasn't living here, I wasn't suicidal like I am now, and I wasn't depressed. Tim (my father), yells at me...
    Maelui Maelui 26-30, F Apr 7

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    I have had a really tough year. I guess I have reason to feel the way I do. I don't know how anyone wouldn't. why do I feel so ashamed at being depressed. I know I don't really...
    wthdoido wthdoido 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    For months I have been getting more and more anxious and depressed. I mostly feel fine through out the day...but when night hits, I always have so many negative thoughts about...
    CoreyG97 CoreyG97 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 13

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    Someone was being mean to be at school and I was already in my depressed mood so I said yes I know I'm emo! So could u please leave this depressed emo b**** alone!
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 1 Response Apr 14

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    This sounds really selfish, I know. I've just spent my whole entire life surrounded by depressed people. Family, friends, other halves. I'm very quiet and am naturally a very happy...
    Invisibubble Invisibubble 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    a lot of the time, I can forget the reasons why. I'm depressed, sure, whatever. I ignore it, force my way past it, don't look at it, don't examine it. But then something happens...
    anata1 anata1 22-25, F Apr 4

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    Ive been starving myself for a while and now i started cutting. I am pretty sure I'm depressed :'(
    2Kawaii4u 2Kawaii4u 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    Anyone? Im realy depressed Now :(
    antomg1 antomg1 16-17, F Apr 5

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    I am depressed like one week every month and I can't find out why the only poeple I will talk to is my boyfriend and sister and mom can you all help me
    tackett2002 tackett2002 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    Id have my moments when I was feeling depressed but then id go back to being the happy person I was, but not this time. Im numb....I feel like the pain and sadness is a permanent...
    Imstillhere122 Imstillhere122 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 6

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