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I Am Clinically Depressed

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 276 People

    Depression: Low Self-esteem, Humilations And Public Ridicule

    I had three nervous breakdowns and is diagnosed as clinically depressed by a psychiatrist in our community. I literally became insane for three times with my mind out of the reality and immersed in fantasies. In these three breakdowns, i was literally insane; speaking and acting...
    fernan25 fernan25 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 7, 2010

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    When I'm Hurting I Get A Sick Pleasure From Indulging In Sadness

    Song lyrics are the main source of this. For all you out there who feel the same, here's one for the playlist. Grow Up And Blow Away By: Metric "Grow Up And Blow Away" Floating the room Two by two From the womb To the holiday There is no holiday First double-cross...
    mindgirl mindgirl 36-40, F Oct 22, 2012

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    Surrender

    I come from a broken home that appears to be perfect.i belong no where because i am unusual.i do not appear to be normal, and i have never met anyone like me.i push away those who seem to care about me,in fear of hurting them.i fear everything in life.i worry about every word i...
    Alightonthewater Alightonthewater 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    A Quick Introduction, Probably The Same As All The Others.

    I've been in treatment for a little over 5 years, seeing a shrink, just drug therapy, on antidepressants for most of that time. At the time I started, I was crying every day. That went on for 8 months. I only missed a couple of days in that entire period. I should have asked for...
    atadir atadir 51-55, M 3 Responses Nov 1, 2011

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    So I saw something that to be clinically

    depressed you have to have 5 out of 9 symptoms and have them persist for at least 2 weeks... I think I have 3 of them, with persistence being on and off a bit. So I guess I'm not technically clinically depressed, but it sure feels like it and it really wrecks havoc on my life...
    goodloot3 goodloot3 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 22, 2014

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    Life doesn't mean **** to me,

    nothing means **** to me, I can't seem to find joy in anything, I feel useless, I feel like my life is as valuable as that of an insect, that I just bug people and serve no purpose in this world, that I'm meant to be alone forever and I feel like I deserve it. I feel so...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    My Depression

    Hi, im 14 years old, i struggle with a lot of stuff, im medically diagnosed with depression since almost a year ago, and i take antidepressants every single morning, i also cut myself to feel better, it has become an addiction, i am bipolar, i am anorexic with bulimic tendences...
    ateenagegirl ateenagegirl 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 5, 2013

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    Alone In A House Full Of People.

    If  only people would understand that I do not choose to be the way I am.  Depression is a hormonal imbalance in the brain.  At least that is what I have been told. My mother left me and my brother when we were just babies.  We never knew our father, so...
    daisysducky daisysducky 61-65, F Apr 4, 2010

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    Recently I have moved into my mom's home

    and decided to leave my dad. We've never quite got along and I really just could not take anymore of it. My mom and I have been trying so hard to have him just sign over custody papers just so it's simple on everyone. I'll be 18 this December coming up. Basically just one more...
    observando observando 18-21, F Jan 15, 2014

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    I'm Always Upset.

    But things are getting worse. I foudn out today that i'm super failing math. and i am behind on my science because i tried to catch up on my math. And my parents think i'm a disappointment. again.
    keke89 keke89 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2007

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    Things I Hate...

    Here are the things that I hate hate hate....................# Making my lunch when I go to university.# Brushing my teeth in the morning.# Eating breakfast, lunch, and dinner...OMG I hate foods! (except pizza)# Getting dressed up to go out.# Peeing when I'm at my university...
    LisbethTylerMorgan LisbethTylerMorgan 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2013

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    Why Am I Trying?

    Every day the moments I spend faking a smile are appearing as an endless struggle now...Trying to appear ‘normal’, In some sort of way. It seems that the pain is always here with me and it hurt's to much to breathe...I know there’s been many who’ve had it worse than me...
    iPandaHero iPandaHero 16-17, F Sep 6, 2012

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    Will The Depression Ever End?

    I've had depression for as long as I can remember, but wasn't officially diagnosed with it until seventh grade. I am seventeen now. Here is my story. My parents broke up when I was two and my mother married a man when I was about three and had my sister a year later. My step dad...
    aleshasummer aleshasummer 18-21, F Sep 7, 2013

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    20 Years And Counting...

    Maybe 30 but i didn't realize until 20 years ago. I have gone through life with very low self esteem and up to a point people would say 'but you are great, you've got so much going for you'...Im not the person I was. I am tired and I am what i think i am. I have acted to reflect...
    dereksmalls dereksmalls 36-40 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    I Found This

    I did not write it. It seems like I did. Exactly how I feel. So I copied and pasted. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ok, im a 13 year old girl and ive been suffering severe depression for over the last 2 or so years for...
    nomeatforshrimp nomeatforshrimp 16-17, F Jul 25, 2012

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    HIV Diagnosis And Being Gay Are Too Much

    Many days I don't feel like doing a thing since my youth and life has been ruined by this disease, by this world I was brought into where people hate me for being gay, want me to die of AIDS for it, which is a terrible burden for my soul to carry. I hope someday soon I die in my...
    codycosmo codycosmo 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

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    I Don't Like Life Anymore...

    Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe, just maybe, these feelings are all in my head or I'm having a bad nightmare that I have to wake up from-a nightmare that's lasted for more than 8 months. I realized I was depressed 9 months ago, when I asked people if it was possible to know by urself...
    lifesuxbigtime lifesuxbigtime 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 19, 2007

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    I just told my parents

    that I am clinically depressed. They were acceptive, and I found out that some people on my dad's side of my family have problems with depression, too. I am going to see my doctor this week to get some help. So, my advice to all the teens who are worried is to just do it. I left...
    mcurling mcurling 13-15, F Jan 26, 2014

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    "Struggling Musician"

    The joy I get from making and studying music vs. the frustration it brings... Personal and professional. I sometimes feel soo inadequate. My teacher tells me I'm good and people love my music, but I don't even know why people say I'm good when I just look at it all and it feels...
    bluetree88 bluetree88 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 2, 2013

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    "tired"..................

    Im not sure where to start. I need to get things off my chest. I am a little depressed right now and have found that writting often helps. I am quite down at the moment and i am findin it really hard. I don't have any friends but one but i can't really turn to if im in trouble...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 22, 2011

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    One Thing After Another.

    I feel like I just can't catch a break. I am only 16, and I've been depressed since the beginning of 8th grade.  It started off with my mom. She was sort of bad at doing what she was supposed to do, like picking me up on time to go over to her house for the weekend (every...
    Karley Karley 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2008

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    I am always sad and tired,

    want to end my misery. No one gives a **** about me which is fine. My dad's always working,moms got her own depression and she's grown tired of me, as she constantly reminds me. and my brothers dealing with his own ****. Can't focus on school always yelled at and told I'm...
    jojowillsaveyou jojowillsaveyou 13-15, F Oct 29, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    One of my parents always told me I shouldn't feel bad because others have it worse. I guess it's been burned into my mind. Any time I get depressed I feel guilty. It doesn't help...
    ZER0RPHEUS ZER0RPHEUS 18-21, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Suddenly I felt like crying. It's been forever since I cried. I don't know why now. Just suddenly my whole past flashed in my mind. Now I'm sad and crying my eyes out. Screaming...
    PoopieNoodle PoopieNoodle 18-21, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I never really get down or depressed, I always spring back from my problems no matter what. Because of this I like to help people who suffer from depression.
    Blackalon Blackalon 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    seriously I've been going through such a hard time and no one even bothers to text me or anything. when they have anything I dropped every single thing even when I'm busy and when...
    sanityyy sanityyy 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    im really depressed because no one wants me no one will talk to me are any thing im so lonely
    JamesB20 JamesB20 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I GET depressed......have to just "soldier through" it ^_^ ( a sense of humour helps :-)
    cashetty69 cashetty69 51-55, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I have been depressed for 4 days now. I feel that my family is isolating themselves from me. They also seem upset at me about something, I confronted them about it and they said...
    Perseph0ne Perseph0ne 26-30, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm really depressed being in my home town brings back alot of memories and seeing my old child hood home that was home to me for 19 years of my life makes it very hard
    JamesB20 JamesB20 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Don't know why very depressed and frustrated, alone in my apartment.
    sologhost sologhost 36-40, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Is anyone else depressed and has breakdowns all the time, but your family or friends don't know ...
    kxtrinx kxtrinx 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    In depressed for two reasons 1: I miss my bf so much. I haven't seen him in like almost 3 weeks. We don't go to the same school anymore. So that sucks a lot. Like he my sun and...
    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F 5 Responses Aug 23

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    I feel depressed to be alive.
    bluebunny01 bluebunny01 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    i actually think i am depressed but i am only like 98% sure!!!
    someoneyoumightknow00 someoneyoumightknow00 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 22

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    Being depressed has to affect every aspect of my life. My wife hates me. I'm tired of medical doctors and it stresses me watching her struggle. Driving down the road the other day...
    Blaker19 Blaker19 41-45, M Aug 21

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    Idk why sometimes I just feel depressed and to get rid of it I drink to try to forget and then take pill to just knock out .
    sioma17 sioma17 18-21, F Aug 21

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    :-( I'm so depressed and hopeless well maybe I have a microscopic particle of hope left but the rest is history .
    BlesstheChild BlesstheChild 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 21

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    My mother died on November 11, 2011. My dad died on June 10 this year. My older brother ran away with all the inheritance money that was supposed to be for both of us because he...
    xingru xingru 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 21

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    So recently I've been dating this guy. I am going to be a senior in high school and he is on his way to college. My parents have been asking me when is he starting , I told them in...
    maryblake maryblake 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    mom (over phone): I need on ur fb. me: No mom: why not? me: bc when ur on my fb u get on my stuff and never log out. plus I'm not a way for you to mess **** up even more for...
    100BlackRoses 100BlackRoses 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    No one knows. No one needs to know. I've been secretly depressed for a year now. Way too many things have been happening in my so far short life. But, I won't tell anyone...
    Ai101 Ai101 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    So my friend came over and she had a headache, which I don't blame her because her family is a hot mess. She didn't know I'm depressed or that I take meds or that I see a therapist...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 19

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