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I Am Clinically Depressed

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    "Struggling Musician"

    The joy I get from making and studying music vs. the frustration it brings... Personal and professional. I sometimes feel soo inadequate. My teacher tells me I'm good and people love my music, but I don't even know why people say I'm good when I just look at it all and it feels...
    bluetree88 bluetree88 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 2, 2013

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    When I'm Hurting I Get A Sick Pleasure From Indulging In Sadness

    Song lyrics are the main source of this. For all you out there who feel the same, here's one for the playlist. Grow Up And Blow Away By: Metric "Grow Up And Blow Away" Floating the room Two by two From the womb To the holiday There is no holiday First double-cross...
    mindgirl mindgirl 36-40, F Oct 22, 2012

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    HIV Diagnosis And Being Gay Are Too Much

    Many days I don't feel like doing a thing since my youth and life has been ruined by this disease, by this world I was brought into where people hate me for being gay, want me to die of AIDS for it, which is a terrible burden for my soul to carry. I hope someday soon I die in my...
    codycosmo codycosmo 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

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    Alone In A House Full Of People.

    If  only people would understand that I do not choose to be the way I am.  Depression is a hormonal imbalance in the brain.  At least that is what I have been told. My mother left me and my brother when we were just babies.  We never knew our father, so...
    daisysducky daisysducky 61-65, F Apr 4, 2010

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    I Found This

    I did not write it. It seems like I did. Exactly how I feel. So I copied and pasted. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ok, im a 13 year old girl and ive been suffering severe depression for over the last 2 or so years for...
    nomeatforshrimp nomeatforshrimp 16-17, F Jul 25, 2012

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    Life doesn't mean **** to me,

    nothing means **** to me, I can't seem to find joy in anything, I feel useless, I feel like my life is as valuable as that of an insect, that I just bug people and serve no purpose in this world, that I'm meant to be alone forever and I feel like I deserve it. I feel so...
    AmJordi AmJordi 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    "tired"..................

    Im not sure where to start. I need to get things off my chest. I am a little depressed right now and have found that writting often helps. I am quite down at the moment and i am findin it really hard. I don't have any friends but one but i can't really turn to if im in trouble...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 22, 2011

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    I'm Always Upset.

    But things are getting worse. I foudn out today that i'm super failing math. and i am behind on my science because i tried to catch up on my math. And my parents think i'm a disappointment. again.
    keke89 keke89 16-18, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2007

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    I just told my parents

    that I am clinically depressed. They were acceptive, and I found out that some people on my dad's side of my family have problems with depression, too. I am going to see my doctor this week to get some help. So, my advice to all the teens who are worried is to just do it. I left...
    mcurling mcurling 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 26, 2014

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    Things I Hate...

    Here are the things that I hate hate hate....................# Making my lunch when I go to university.# Brushing my teeth in the morning.# Eating breakfast, lunch, and dinner...OMG I hate foods! (except pizza)# Getting dressed up to go out.# Peeing when I'm at my university...
    LisbethTylerMorgan LisbethTylerMorgan 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2013

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    A Quick Introduction, Probably The Same As All The Others.

    I've been in treatment for a little over 5 years, seeing a shrink, just drug therapy, on antidepressants for most of that time. At the time I started, I was crying every day. That went on for 8 months. I only missed a couple of days in that entire period. I should have asked for...
    atadir atadir 51-55, M 3 Responses Nov 1, 2011

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    Recently I have moved into my mom's home

    and decided to leave my dad. We've never quite got along and I really just could not take anymore of it. My mom and I have been trying so hard to have him just sign over custody papers just so it's simple on everyone. I'll be 18 this December coming up. Basically just one more...
    observando observando 18-21, F Jan 15, 2014

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    I am always sad and tired,

    want to end my misery. No one gives a **** about me which is fine. My dad's always working,moms got her own depression and she's grown tired of me, as she constantly reminds me. and my brothers dealing with his own ****. Can't focus on school always yelled at and told I'm...
    jojowillsaveyou jojowillsaveyou 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 29, 2014

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    My Depression

    Hi, im 14 years old, i struggle with a lot of stuff, im medically diagnosed with depression since almost a year ago, and i take antidepressants every single morning, i also cut myself to feel better, it has become an addiction, i am bipolar, i am anorexic with bulimic tendences...
    ateenagegirl ateenagegirl 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 5, 2013

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    I Don't Like Life Anymore...

    Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe, just maybe, these feelings are all in my head or I'm having a bad nightmare that I have to wake up from-a nightmare that's lasted for more than 8 months. I realized I was depressed 9 months ago, when I asked people if it was possible to know by urself...
    lifesuxbigtime lifesuxbigtime 16-18, F 2 Responses Aug 19, 2007

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    Surrender

    I come from a broken home that appears to be perfect.i belong no where because i am unusual.i do not appear to be normal, and i have never met anyone like me.i push away those who seem to care about me,in fear of hurting them.i fear everything in life.i worry about every word i...
    Alightonthewater Alightonthewater 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    Why Am I Trying?

    Every day the moments I spend faking a smile are appearing as an endless struggle now...Trying to appear ‘normal’, In some sort of way. It seems that the pain is always here with me and it hurt's to much to breathe...I know there’s been many who’ve had it worse than me...
    iPandaHero iPandaHero 16-17, F Sep 6, 2012

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    Will The Depression Ever End?

    I've had depression for as long as I can remember, but wasn't officially diagnosed with it until seventh grade. I am seventeen now. Here is my story. My parents broke up when I was two and my mother married a man when I was about three and had my sister a year later. My step dad...
    aleshasummer aleshasummer 18-21, F Sep 7, 2013

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    20 Years And Counting...

    Maybe 30 but i didn't realize until 20 years ago. I have gone through life with very low self esteem and up to a point people would say 'but you are great, you've got so much going for you'...Im not the person I was. I am tired and I am what i think i am. I have acted to reflect...
    dereksmalls dereksmalls 36-40 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    One Thing After Another.

    I feel like I just can't catch a break. I am only 16, and I've been depressed since the beginning of 8th grade.  It started off with my mom. She was sort of bad at doing what she was supposed to do, like picking me up on time to go over to her house for the weekend (every...
    Karley Karley 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2008

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    So I saw something that to be clinically

    depressed you have to have 5 out of 9 symptoms and have them persist for at least 2 weeks... I think I have 3 of them, with persistence being on and off a bit. So I guess I'm not technically clinically depressed, but it sure feels like it and it really wrecks havoc on my life...
    goodloot3 goodloot3 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 22, 2014

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    Depression: Low Self-esteem, Humilations And Public Ridicule

    I had three nervous breakdowns and is diagnosed as clinically depressed by a psychiatrist in our community. I literally became insane for three times with my mind out of the reality and immersed in fantasies. In these three breakdowns, i was literally insane; speaking and acting...
    fernan25 fernan25 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 7, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    I haven't been on here for so long, I used to be here everyday every moment almost. I had nothing, I had broken into so many pieces that I had nothing left to break. I had no hope...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Feb 6

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    Whenever I see someone smiling or laughing I become depressed, whenever I see someone smart person smiling or laughing I become depressed, whenever I see a mother loving her baby I...
    pracie25 pracie25 18-21, T Feb 8

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    Its funny how people use the word 'depressed' so freely. Some dont even know the true meaning of depression yet they seem to be saying they are depressed like its the same as the...
    shhyoudontknowme shhyoudontknowme 16-17, F Feb 21

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    I am depressed. I hate those words. I can't admit to my therapist that I am, in fact, a depressed teenage girl. They don't understand. You can only understand if you are or were...
    MatildaBlack MatildaBlack 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    oke so i guess its time 2 post some stories so eh i was kinda always depressed already since i was young it started when my parents divorced i had to live with my mom that i hate...
    Mirasel Mirasel 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 8

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    it just gets worse and worse,i used to be able to hide it but i don't even have the energy to hide it anymore or pretend i'm anything else then depressed.. everytime i wake up i...
    OccultumLapidem OccultumLapidem 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    I've just recently come to terms with being depressed. I didn't feel I was. Depressed was for people who were sad, upset, hated themselves, cut themselves, thought about suicide...
    Haerodiel Haerodiel 22-25, F Feb 4

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      I came across this forum after searching for advice or similar stories online. Here's my story anyway; I'm about to turn 25 this April and feel completely at a loss with...
    Mardybum1 Mardybum1 22-25, M Feb 5

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    I spent my two week Xmas holiday depressed in bed, I'm on day 10 of lying to work saying I'm working, but I'm depressed in bed. My relationship is tearing me down
    RoseTintedB RoseTintedB 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 5

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    I know, I shouldn't let it get to me....but when it's Valentines Day, and I'm very romantic, and all I have is silence as my companion....then I get depressed. Which hurts my...
    Sinjintiger Sinjintiger 41-45, M 1 Response Feb 15

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    For three years now I have been depressed. It started out as repeated failure, then spiraled out from their to isolation, anti-social disorder and social anxiety. I thought that if...
    Guest4111 Guest4111 13-15, M Feb 18

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    I've been randomly feeling depressed since I was in the third grade. At least that's the earliest that I can remember, and remember vividly. I locked myself in my room and put a...
    Jaivous Jaivous 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    I walk around with a smile. Joke around with everyone I know on campus. Though, no one knows that I'm depressed. No one truly understands and no one takes the time to actually see...
    DesignBlack DesignBlack 18-21, M 6 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    It's strange to come back to this website 2 almost 3 years later, and realize I'm in the same boat I left in. Still cutting, still depressed, still wasting my life. The only thing...
    Lynnboatright Lynnboatright 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 3

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    And it makes me even more depressed.. I want to be happy, but my smile is always fake..
    proanonymous proanonymous 18-21, F Feb 3

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    I feel like maybe if I could sleep like a normal person, I wouldn't be so bitchy and whiny and depressed all the time. Despite that, I plan on binge watching Netflix, eating lucky...
    ThatBitch15 ThatBitch15 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    My husband has severe depression, anxiety, and ADD (don't get me started on adult ADD). It's like it's rubbed off on me, but we can't afford for both of us to be depressed. I take...
    happilyeverafter5110 happilyeverafter5110 26-30, F Feb 3

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    A friend is leaving EP and I am overly depressed over it, I don't know what to do anymore
    deanratzloff deanratzloff 13-15 1 Response Feb 4

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    I am definitely suffering. Severe depression is like being in hell on earth. It's like crawling through the abyss in reverse. The pain, the anxiety and the feeling of...
    PiscesDream PiscesDream 46-50, F Feb 5

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    I feel depressed when I stay alone..
    Taurus1993s Taurus1993s 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    I eat until I throw up when I'm so depressed, like now, I got yelled at and can't do anything for the rest of the month
    Ceaser55 Ceaser55 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 5

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    I don't have a fake smile. I have a full on mask. A mask that smiles giggles and tells jokes. instead of the real me crying and brooding and depressed
    thebladeisbae0718 thebladeisbae0718 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 5

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