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I Am Clinically Depressed

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    20 Years And Counting...

    Maybe 30 but i didn't realize until 20 years ago. I have gone through life with very low self esteem and up to a point people would say 'but you are great, you've got so much going for you'...Im not the person I was. I am tired and I am what i think i am. I have acted to reflect...
    dereksmalls dereksmalls 36-40 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    Will The Depression Ever End?

    I've had depression for as long as I can remember, but wasn't officially diagnosed with it until seventh grade. I am seventeen now. Here is my story. My parents broke up when I was two and my mother married a man when I was about three and had my sister a year later. My step dad...
    aleshasummer aleshasummer 18-21, F Sep 7, 2013

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    Recently I have moved into my mom's home

    and decided to leave my dad. We've never quite got along and I really just could not take anymore of it. My mom and I have been trying so hard to have him just sign over custody papers just so it's simple on everyone. I'll be 18 this December coming up. Basically just one more...
    observando observando 18-21, F Jan 15, 2014

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    Depression: Low Self-esteem, Humilations And Public Ridicule

    I had three nervous breakdowns and is diagnosed as clinically depressed by a psychiatrist in our community. I literally became insane for three times with my mind out of the reality and immersed in fantasies. In these three breakdowns, i was literally insane; speaking and acting...
    fernan25 fernan25 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 7, 2010

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    Alone In A House Full Of People.

    If  only people would understand that I do not choose to be the way I am.  Depression is a hormonal imbalance in the brain.  At least that is what I have been told. My mother left me and my brother when we were just babies.  We never knew our father, so...
    daisysducky daisysducky 61-65, F Apr 4, 2010

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    I Found This

    I did not write it. It seems like I did. Exactly how I feel. So I copied and pasted. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ok, im a 13 year old girl and ive been suffering severe depression for over the last 2 or so years for...
    nomeatforshrimp nomeatforshrimp 16-17, F Jul 25, 2012

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    "tired"..................

    Im not sure where to start. I need to get things off my chest. I am a little depressed right now and have found that writting often helps. I am quite down at the moment and i am findin it really hard. I don't have any friends but one but i can't really turn to if im in trouble...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 22, 2011

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    Surrender

    I come from a broken home that appears to be perfect.i belong no where because i am unusual.i do not appear to be normal, and i have never met anyone like me.i push away those who seem to care about me,in fear of hurting them.i fear everything in life.i worry about every word i...
    Alightonthewater Alightonthewater 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    My Depression

    Hi, im 14 years old, i struggle with a lot of stuff, im medically diagnosed with depression since almost a year ago, and i take antidepressants every single morning, i also cut myself to feel better, it has become an addiction, i am bipolar, i am anorexic with bulimic tendences...
    ateenagegirl ateenagegirl 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 5, 2013

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    I Don't Like Life Anymore...

    Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe, just maybe, these feelings are all in my head or I'm having a bad nightmare that I have to wake up from-a nightmare that's lasted for more than 8 months. I realized I was depressed 9 months ago, when I asked people if it was possible to know by urself...
    lifesuxbigtime lifesuxbigtime 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 19, 2007

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    Life doesn't mean **** to me,

    nothing means **** to me, I can't seem to find joy in anything, I feel useless, I feel like my life is as valuable as that of an insect, that I just bug people and serve no purpose in this world, that I'm meant to be alone forever and I feel like I deserve it. I feel so...
    AmJordi AmJordi 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    I just told my parents

    that I am clinically depressed. They were acceptive, and I found out that some people on my dad's side of my family have problems with depression, too. I am going to see my doctor this week to get some help. So, my advice to all the teens who are worried is to just do it. I left...
    mcurling mcurling 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 26, 2014

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    Why Am I Trying?

    Every day the moments I spend faking a smile are appearing as an endless struggle now...Trying to appear ‘normal’, In some sort of way. It seems that the pain is always here with me and it hurt's to much to breathe...I know there’s been many who’ve had it worse than me...
    iPandaHero iPandaHero 16-17, F Sep 6, 2012

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    One Thing After Another.

    I feel like I just can't catch a break. I am only 16, and I've been depressed since the beginning of 8th grade.  It started off with my mom. She was sort of bad at doing what she was supposed to do, like picking me up on time to go over to her house for the weekend (every...
    Karley Karley 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2008

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    HIV Diagnosis And Being Gay Are Too Much

    Many days I don't feel like doing a thing since my youth and life has been ruined by this disease, by this world I was brought into where people hate me for being gay, want me to die of AIDS for it, which is a terrible burden for my soul to carry. I hope someday soon I die in my...
    codycosmo codycosmo 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

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    "Struggling Musician"

    The joy I get from making and studying music vs. the frustration it brings... Personal and professional. I sometimes feel soo inadequate. My teacher tells me I'm good and people love my music, but I don't even know why people say I'm good when I just look at it all and it feels...
    bluetree88 bluetree88 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 2, 2013

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    I am always sad and tired,

    want to end my misery. No one gives a **** about me which is fine. My dad's always working,moms got her own depression and she's grown tired of me, as she constantly reminds me. and my brothers dealing with his own ****. Can't focus on school always yelled at and told I'm...
    jojowillsaveyou jojowillsaveyou 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 29, 2014

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    So I saw something that to be clinically

    depressed you have to have 5 out of 9 symptoms and have them persist for at least 2 weeks... I think I have 3 of them, with persistence being on and off a bit. So I guess I'm not technically clinically depressed, but it sure feels like it and it really wrecks havoc on my life...
    goodloot3 goodloot3 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 22, 2014

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    Things I Hate...

    Here are the things that I hate hate hate....................# Making my lunch when I go to university.# Brushing my teeth in the morning.# Eating breakfast, lunch, and dinner...OMG I hate foods! (except pizza)# Getting dressed up to go out.# Peeing when I'm at my university...
    LisbethTylerMorgan LisbethTylerMorgan 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2013

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    I'm Always Upset.

    But things are getting worse. I foudn out today that i'm super failing math. and i am behind on my science because i tried to catch up on my math. And my parents think i'm a disappointment. again.
    keke89 keke89 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2007

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    When I'm Hurting I Get A Sick Pleasure From Indulging In Sadness

    Song lyrics are the main source of this. For all you out there who feel the same, here's one for the playlist. Grow Up And Blow Away By: Metric "Grow Up And Blow Away" Floating the room Two by two From the womb To the holiday There is no holiday First double-cross...
    mindgirl mindgirl 36-40, F Oct 22, 2012

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    A Quick Introduction, Probably The Same As All The Others.

    I've been in treatment for a little over 5 years, seeing a shrink, just drug therapy, on antidepressants for most of that time. At the time I started, I was crying every day. That went on for 8 months. I only missed a couple of days in that entire period. I should have asked for...
    atadir atadir 51-55, M 3 Responses Nov 1, 2011

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    What do you guys do on your down periods/days? i dont feel like spending he entire day crying and thinking about suicide and then hating myself for it today. tips, suggestions...
    peaceinmiles peaceinmiles 18-21, F 8 Responses May 2

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    I feel like I'm worthless more and more these days... I feel like I have nothing to live for and that I am going no where. That I've screwed up everything good in my life... And...
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    I'm twenty years old. Female. Born and raised Italian, but recently transplanted into the UK. I've been depressed since as far as I can remember. Not clinically, though, just a...
    hohkhma hohkhma 18-21, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    Three years ago, I asked God to show me the one, he did. Then two years later I've realized that he wasn't the one, and that he looked similar to my old crush. I got depressed, and...
    Christine99 Christine99 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    I'm new here at experience project... I am really depressed. A sophomore in college struggling to figure out if I want to change the career path I have been on for so long. I had...
    BlueFields BlueFields 18-21, F 2 Responses May 5

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    I don't know why I get depressed. Sometimes I'll just be sitting there and get super depressed for absolutely no reason...and I have no idea why. I wish I wasn't depressed because...
    emylauren27 emylauren27 18-21, F 1 Response May 14

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    Ok. So I secretly had a boyfriend once, and when I broke up with him, I got so sad. Wait not sad, depressed. I didn't even like him, and yet, I got like super depressed. I thought...
    Jossy7899 Jossy7899 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 24

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    This sounds really selfish, I know. I've just spent my whole entire life surrounded by depressed people. Family, friends, other halves. I'm very quiet and am naturally a very happy...
    Invisibubble Invisibubble 31-35, F 2 Responses May 3

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    My whole life was from all happiness to all this darkness and sadness. My family and I don't get alone so well. Even my friends I don't get alone well. I just feel sad. I get hurt...
    ImJulieTran ImJulieTran 18-21, F 2 Responses May 8

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    I keep getting depressed a lot more lately... Sometimes I really don't know why either. Like for the past 4 hours I've been depressed for absolutely no reason. Maybe it's because...
    brooketheunicorn brooketheunicorn 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I am depressed. I used to be extremely depressed way back. It felt awful, of course. Everyday, I'd feel like my emotions were dead or not functioning properly. All I could really...
    MisunderstoodGirl69 MisunderstoodGirl69 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    It’s been quite a long while since I wrote. So excuse any pent-up flashes of brilliance and Oscar-worthy writing that you may encounter in the next few sentences. Well. So...
    spotsinsun spotsinsun 18-21 2 days ago

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    I have heard so much about how suicide is selfish. I feel so much more selfish for staying alive and burdening everyone with my invisible intangible problems. My mental health...
    theoctopusesbowtie theoctopusesbowtie 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Somehow knowing that other people also have problems helps me feel more alive and normal. I'd like to know any depressing circumstances that people may be facing now. No pressure...
    eccentricpython eccentricpython 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 22

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    My mom has a way in pushing everyone away and then becomes really lonely and depressed, then blames everyone for her unhappiness. She tells me and my brother are cruel because we...
    Tealismyname Tealismyname 26-30 Apr 22

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    I feel very depressed today. I am trying to stay positive... But it's hard.
    princessalicia princessalicia 22-25, F 6 Responses Apr 22

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    Today I am depressed but I am happy.tonight I do not cry tonight my pillows dry for I for the night am happy. I don't believe depression ever goes away no matter what you do or...
    tupaclover tupaclover 16-17 1 Response Apr 23

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    I am depressed and I give up. No I am not suicidal but I have given up. Tired of struggling to make it. I wanted to post my story somewhere to get it out. I have been knocked down...
    orbie orbie 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 23

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    For some reason, it's like my normal depressed state of mind. It's not as intense. Things aren't depressing me one after the other. I can be happy. I can also fall apart as soon as...
    TheRogueWolf TheRogueWolf 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 23

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    I woke up from my coma yesterday. I have been trapped in my head. Seeing the girl I pushed away for a month and a half. She was crying infront of me. On we knees begging. Her brown...
    DeathMayCome DeathMayCome 16-17, M 6 Responses Apr 23

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    I'm feeling discouraged again, depressed. Is it just another phase or will I take that next step? To sleep, rest in peace. I am drained, tired again, I am tired once again.
    fgtorres fgtorres 31-35, M Apr 23