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I Am Clinically Depressed

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    A Quick Introduction, Probably The Same As All The Others.

    I've been in treatment for a little over 5 years, seeing a shrink, just drug therapy, on antidepressants for most of that time. At the time I started, I was crying every day. That went on for 8 months. I only missed a couple of days in that entire period. I should have asked for...
    atadir atadir 51-55, M 3 Responses Nov 1, 2011

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    Things I Hate...

    Here are the things that I hate hate hate....................# Making my lunch when I go to university.# Brushing my teeth in the morning.# Eating breakfast, lunch, and dinner...OMG I hate foods! (except pizza)# Getting dressed up to go out.# Peeing when I'm at my university...
    LisbethTylerMorgan LisbethTylerMorgan 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2013

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    Alone In A House Full Of People.

    If  only people would understand that I do not choose to be the way I am.  Depression is a hormonal imbalance in the brain.  At least that is what I have been told. My mother left me and my brother when we were just babies.  We never knew our father, so...
    daisysducky daisysducky 61-65, F Apr 4, 2010

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    I'm Always Upset.

    But things are getting worse. I foudn out today that i'm super failing math. and i am behind on my science because i tried to catch up on my math. And my parents think i'm a disappointment. again.
    keke89 keke89 16-18, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2007

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    Recently I have moved into my mom's home

    and decided to leave my dad. We've never quite got along and I really just could not take anymore of it. My mom and I have been trying so hard to have him just sign over custody papers just so it's simple on everyone. I'll be 18 this December coming up. Basically just one more...
    observando observando 16-17, F Jan 15

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    "tired"..................

    Im not sure where to start. I need to get things off my chest. I am a little depressed right now and have found that writting often helps. I am quite down at the moment and i am findin it really hard. I don't have any friends but one but i can't really turn to if im in trouble...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 22, 2011

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    I am always sad and tired,

    want to end my misery. No one gives a **** about me which is fine. My dad's always working,moms got her own depression and she's grown tired of me, as she constantly reminds me. and my brothers dealing with his own ****. Can't focus on school always yelled at and told I'm...
    jojowillsaveyou jojowillsaveyou 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I Don't Like Life Anymore...

    Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe, just maybe, these feelings are all in my head or I'm having a bad nightmare that I have to wake up from-a nightmare that's lasted for more than 8 months. I realized I was depressed 9 months ago, when I asked people if it was possible to know by urself...
    lifesuxbigtime lifesuxbigtime 16-18, F 2 Responses Aug 19, 2007

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    I Found This

    I did not write it. It seems like I did. Exactly how I feel. So I copied and pasted. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ok, im a 13 year old girl and ive been suffering severe depression for over the last 2 or so years for...
    nomeatforshrimp nomeatforshrimp 16-17, F Jul 25, 2012

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    20 Years And Counting...

    Maybe 30 but i didn't realize until 20 years ago. I have gone through life with very low self esteem and up to a point people would say 'but you are great, you've got so much going for you'...Im not the person I was. I am tired and I am what i think i am. I have acted to reflect...
    dereksmalls dereksmalls 36-40 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    Depression: Low Self-esteem, Humilations And Public Ridicule

    I had three nervous breakdowns and is diagnosed as clinically depressed by a psychiatrist in our community. I literally became insane for three times with my mind out of the reality and immersed in fantasies. In these three breakdowns, i was literally insane; speaking and acting...
    fernan25 fernan25 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 7, 2010

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    So I saw something that to be clinically

    depressed you have to have 5 out of 9 symptoms and have them persist for at least 2 weeks... I think I have 3 of them, with persistence being on and off a bit. So I guess I'm not technically clinically depressed, but it sure feels like it and it really wrecks havoc on my life...
    goodloot3 goodloot3 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 22

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    Surrender

    I come from a broken home that appears to be perfect.i belong no where because i am unusual.i do not appear to be normal, and i have never met anyone like me.i push away those who seem to care about me,in fear of hurting them.i fear everything in life.i worry about every word i...
    Alightonthewater Alightonthewater 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    Why Am I Trying?

    Every day the moments I spend faking a smile are appearing as an endless struggle now...Trying to appear ‘normal’, In some sort of way. It seems that the pain is always here with me and it hurt's to much to breathe...I know there’s been many who’ve had it worse than me...
    iPandaHero iPandaHero 16-17, F Sep 6, 2012

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    Will The Depression Ever End?

    I've had depression for as long as I can remember, but wasn't officially diagnosed with it until seventh grade. I am seventeen now. Here is my story. My parents broke up when I was two and my mother married a man when I was about three and had my sister a year later. My step dad...
    aleshasummer aleshasummer 18-21, F Sep 7, 2013

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    Listener Here

    If you have stuff you want to talk about or vent about, feel free to contact me. I usually am the listener in my crowd and don't mind it. I tend to really want to hear people's stories and experiences.No judgments. I am also pretty open minded so there won't be much that I find I...
    Sowyfeil Sowyfeil 31-35, F Jun 19, 2013

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    When I'm Hurting I Get A Sick Pleasure From Indulging In Sadness

    Song lyrics are the main source of this. For all you out there who feel the same, here's one for the playlist. Grow Up And Blow Away By: Metric "Grow Up And Blow Away" Floating the room Two by two From the womb To the holiday There is no holiday First double-cross...
    mindgirl mindgirl 36-40, F Oct 22, 2012

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    I just told my parents

    that I am clinically depressed. They were acceptive, and I found out that some people on my dad's side of my family have problems with depression, too. I am going to see my doctor this week to get some help. So, my advice to all the teens who are worried is to just do it. I left...
    mcurling mcurling 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    My Depression

    Hi, im 14 years old, i struggle with a lot of stuff, im medically diagnosed with depression since almost a year ago, and i take antidepressants every single morning, i also cut myself to feel better, it has become an addiction, i am bipolar, i am anorexic with bulimic tendences...
    ateenagegirl ateenagegirl 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

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    One Thing After Another.

    I feel like I just can't catch a break. I am only 16, and I've been depressed since the beginning of 8th grade.  It started off with my mom. She was sort of bad at doing what she was supposed to do, like picking me up on time to go over to her house for the weekend (every...
    Karley Karley 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2008

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    Just Diagnossed Today

    I met with a counselor 2 hours ago, and she diagnossed me as being clinically depressed. Next stage in life I guess, it took me years of feeling like crap and constantly beating myself on the inside before picking up the phone to make the appointment. She wants me to call my dr...
    nscappoose nscappoose 41-45, M 5 Responses Aug 23, 2012

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    HIV Diagnosis And Being Gay Are Too Much

    Many days I don't feel like doing a thing since my youth and life has been ruined by this disease, by this world I was brought into where people hate me for being gay, want me to die of AIDS for it, which is a terrible burden for my soul to carry. I hope someday soon I die in my...
    codycosmo codycosmo 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

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    "Struggling Musician"

    The joy I get from making and studying music vs. the frustration it brings... Personal and professional. I sometimes feel soo inadequate. My teacher tells me I'm good and people love my music, but I don't even know why people say I'm good when I just look at it all and it feels...
    bluetree88 bluetree88 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 2, 2013

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    It's hard to snap out of it and i doubt friends and fam really get it i try to be less depressing as to not always annoy people with my moods but thats easier said than done i feel...
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    I seriously have no idea why I am writing this down. I've told a few people that I haven't been feeling well, and some even know how depressed I am. All they could say was "I hope...
    Esturrr Esturrr 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 21

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    So, I know someone who is depressed. That someone is not just a someone either, it's surprisingly, a teacher. People don't notice that he has been depressed, but I actually do...
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    darkestpartofmymind33 darkestpartofmymind33 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 9

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    My story is probably similar to a lot of people's but I just wanted to get it out there in the world to tell somebody how I feel. I've grown up in what many would call the...
    goodloot3 goodloot3 22-25, M 5 Responses Oct 10

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    My heart aches. My soul crushed. You can read about why, in detail, in my other stories. I don't feel I can truly relate to many people. The one woman I thought I had truly...
    ctguitardude ctguitardude 26-30, M 3 Responses Oct 3

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    Sometimes I think so much that it's my mind is my own worst enemy. Usually when it's my girly time of the month, (sorry) I get super emotional and start thinking about everything...
    lydianneverly lydianneverly 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    Im losing interest in everything I have except vary few things, can't focus, mind wont stop racing with countless things, emotions have been diminished or higher then usual (which...
    DeathAngelS300 DeathAngelS300 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 9

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    I have recently started graduate school, I have worked so hard to get here. My partner and I moved across the country so that I could attend this school. Now that I am here I am...
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    "Ugh. I'm depressed." We've all said it, and even the most happy-go-lucky among us will have an occasional bout of the blues. Sometimes it's the big stuff that triggers it—like...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 12

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    I'm miserable! Lately i don't even know myself.. I have never been this depressed! It's affecting my senior year at college, my grades aren't good! Plus i've lost 2 close friends...
    lara15 lara15 18-21, F Oct 13

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    Hi I like to pretend that im not depressed to everyone around but the truth is I am severely depressed and I have even tried to end it all. I don't like people knowing how I feel...
    rhondaclarke rhondaclarke 18-21, F Oct 14

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    I have always been the happy, go-lucky type of person. I always had a smile on my face...even now i smile more than the usual person, and to most i seem to be the same person but I...
    babybop12 babybop12 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 15

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    The worst thing I think someone can say to a depressed person is.. "Come on, why are you so sad? Just be happy!!" Statements like that are so invalidating. If you've ever been...
    Harmony242 Harmony242 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I dont think a million pounds, a big house, a good job, a perfect boyfriend, perfect good looks, a perfect group of friends, would make me less depressed. Get it now? Dont ask me...
    Hubbahubba1 Hubbahubba1 18-21 1 Response 3 days ago

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    It's like a dark cloud that likes to hover over me when i'm doing great. I don't choose it, although people think that giving up is my choice. Of course i don't want this. I want...
    ElenaExplaina ElenaExplaina 22-25 1 Response Oct 1

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    So today something triggered me and I just got so depressed but I'm stuck in social situations for the next 4-5 hours
    SincerelyMYlife SincerelyMYlife 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 1

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    I wonder if I am depressed. The only point of reference I have is my past self. If I compared my current self to how I once was, everything would seem fine; in fact, it would seem...
    bowlofsurreal bowlofsurreal 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 2

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    I have dealt with being depressed for most of my life, but today, I am glad I can say, is not so bad. Depression is this thing that likes to loom over everything that I do...
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