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I Am Clinically Depressed

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 277 People

    I am always sad and tired,

    want to end my misery. No one gives a **** about me which is fine. My dad's always working,moms got her own depression and she's grown tired of me, as she constantly reminds me. and my brothers dealing with his own ****. Can't focus on school always yelled at and told I'm...
    jojowillsaveyou jojowillsaveyou 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 29, 2014

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    Recently I have moved into my mom's home

    and decided to leave my dad. We've never quite got along and I really just could not take anymore of it. My mom and I have been trying so hard to have him just sign over custody papers just so it's simple on everyone. I'll be 18 this December coming up. Basically just one more...
    observando observando 18-21, F Jan 15, 2014

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    HIV Diagnosis And Being Gay Are Too Much

    Many days I don't feel like doing a thing since my youth and life has been ruined by this disease, by this world I was brought into where people hate me for being gay, want me to die of AIDS for it, which is a terrible burden for my soul to carry. I hope someday soon I die in my...
    codycosmo codycosmo 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

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    20 Years And Counting...

    Maybe 30 but i didn't realize until 20 years ago. I have gone through life with very low self esteem and up to a point people would say 'but you are great, you've got so much going for you'...Im not the person I was. I am tired and I am what i think i am. I have acted to reflect...
    dereksmalls dereksmalls 36-40 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    Will The Depression Ever End?

    I've had depression for as long as I can remember, but wasn't officially diagnosed with it until seventh grade. I am seventeen now. Here is my story. My parents broke up when I was two and my mother married a man when I was about three and had my sister a year later. My step dad...
    aleshasummer aleshasummer 18-21, F Sep 7, 2013

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    Why Am I Trying?

    Every day the moments I spend faking a smile are appearing as an endless struggle now...Trying to appear ‘normal’, In some sort of way. It seems that the pain is always here with me and it hurt's to much to breathe...I know there’s been many who’ve had it worse than me...
    iPandaHero iPandaHero 16-17, F Sep 6, 2012

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    "Struggling Musician"

    The joy I get from making and studying music vs. the frustration it brings... Personal and professional. I sometimes feel soo inadequate. My teacher tells me I'm good and people love my music, but I don't even know why people say I'm good when I just look at it all and it feels...
    bluetree88 bluetree88 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 2, 2013

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    I Found This

    I did not write it. It seems like I did. Exactly how I feel. So I copied and pasted. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ok, im a 13 year old girl and ive been suffering severe depression for over the last 2 or so years for...
    nomeatforshrimp nomeatforshrimp 16-17, F Jul 25, 2012

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    One Thing After Another.

    I feel like I just can't catch a break. I am only 16, and I've been depressed since the beginning of 8th grade.  It started off with my mom. She was sort of bad at doing what she was supposed to do, like picking me up on time to go over to her house for the weekend (every...
    Karley Karley 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2008

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    My Depression

    Hi, im 14 years old, i struggle with a lot of stuff, im medically diagnosed with depression since almost a year ago, and i take antidepressants every single morning, i also cut myself to feel better, it has become an addiction, i am bipolar, i am anorexic with bulimic tendences...
    ateenagegirl ateenagegirl 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 5, 2013

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    Alone In A House Full Of People.

    If  only people would understand that I do not choose to be the way I am.  Depression is a hormonal imbalance in the brain.  At least that is what I have been told. My mother left me and my brother when we were just babies.  We never knew our father, so...
    daisysducky daisysducky 61-65, F Apr 4, 2010

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    I just told my parents

    that I am clinically depressed. They were acceptive, and I found out that some people on my dad's side of my family have problems with depression, too. I am going to see my doctor this week to get some help. So, my advice to all the teens who are worried is to just do it. I left...
    mcurling mcurling 13-15, F Jan 26, 2014

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    Depression: Low Self-esteem, Humilations And Public Ridicule

    I had three nervous breakdowns and is diagnosed as clinically depressed by a psychiatrist in our community. I literally became insane for three times with my mind out of the reality and immersed in fantasies. In these three breakdowns, i was literally insane; speaking and acting...
    fernan25 fernan25 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 7, 2010

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    Life doesn't mean **** to me,

    nothing means **** to me, I can't seem to find joy in anything, I feel useless, I feel like my life is as valuable as that of an insect, that I just bug people and serve no purpose in this world, that I'm meant to be alone forever and I feel like I deserve it. I feel so...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    "tired"..................

    Im not sure where to start. I need to get things off my chest. I am a little depressed right now and have found that writting often helps. I am quite down at the moment and i am findin it really hard. I don't have any friends but one but i can't really turn to if im in trouble...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 22, 2011

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    Surrender

    I come from a broken home that appears to be perfect.i belong no where because i am unusual.i do not appear to be normal, and i have never met anyone like me.i push away those who seem to care about me,in fear of hurting them.i fear everything in life.i worry about every word i...
    Alightonthewater Alightonthewater 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    When I'm Hurting I Get A Sick Pleasure From Indulging In Sadness

    Song lyrics are the main source of this. For all you out there who feel the same, here's one for the playlist. Grow Up And Blow Away By: Metric "Grow Up And Blow Away" Floating the room Two by two From the womb To the holiday There is no holiday First double-cross...
    mindgirl mindgirl 36-40, F Oct 22, 2012

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    I'm Always Upset.

    But things are getting worse. I foudn out today that i'm super failing math. and i am behind on my science because i tried to catch up on my math. And my parents think i'm a disappointment. again.
    keke89 keke89 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2007

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    I Don't Like Life Anymore...

    Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe, just maybe, these feelings are all in my head or I'm having a bad nightmare that I have to wake up from-a nightmare that's lasted for more than 8 months. I realized I was depressed 9 months ago, when I asked people if it was possible to know by urself...
    lifesuxbigtime lifesuxbigtime 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 19, 2007

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    Things I Hate...

    Here are the things that I hate hate hate....................# Making my lunch when I go to university.# Brushing my teeth in the morning.# Eating breakfast, lunch, and dinner...OMG I hate foods! (except pizza)# Getting dressed up to go out.# Peeing when I'm at my university...
    LisbethTylerMorgan LisbethTylerMorgan 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2013

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    A Quick Introduction, Probably The Same As All The Others.

    I've been in treatment for a little over 5 years, seeing a shrink, just drug therapy, on antidepressants for most of that time. At the time I started, I was crying every day. That went on for 8 months. I only missed a couple of days in that entire period. I should have asked for...
    atadir atadir 51-55, M 3 Responses Nov 1, 2011

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    So I saw something that to be clinically

    depressed you have to have 5 out of 9 symptoms and have them persist for at least 2 weeks... I think I have 3 of them, with persistence being on and off a bit. So I guess I'm not technically clinically depressed, but it sure feels like it and it really wrecks havoc on my life...
    goodloot3 goodloot3 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 22, 2014

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    Life thus far has been one big mood swing. The peaks and valleys of my condition have become cliffs and canyons that stretch ever deeper into the abyss that is my mind. Some days...
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    ive been feeling suicidal recently. but im christian. im always going home alone. i walk down the hallways alone. i dont have anyone whom i can relate to. except for one person but...
    SolaCeEncE SolaCeEncE 16-17, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I think in the back of my mind, I'm always sad. But it's days like these that I know that I really am depressed. Those days where I'm lying on my bed, staring at my ceiling...
    AKGhost98 AKGhost98 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm pretty sure I've been depressed the majority of my life. I've been a cutter since I was molested at 12 by my step dad. I struggle with self harm and as much as I try to stop...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 27

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    So I am really depressed. I think. I'm trying to just get use to the fact that I'm not gonna find the one. It seems like all guys ever want is just sex. I know there are guys out...
    manders831 manders831 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 27

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    I'm so lonely at 32 years old I would never imagine my life being like this I thought I would be married with a couple of kids a career a house and a dog but but I'm single and...
    spiritualvirgo82 spiritualvirgo82 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 27

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    The reason why I joined EP because I was a little depressed, but over the time, after reading a lot of stories and exploring, I noticed that a lot of people here have worse...
    miggyquin miggyquin 13-15, M Jun 27

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    The reason why I joined EP because I was a little depressed, but over the time, after reading a lot of stories and exploring, I noticed that a lot of people here have worse...
    miggyquin miggyquin 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 27

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    I am a stay home dad and have two daughters (11 and 13) -My 13 year old always wanted to be a big girl and is independent. Makes it very easy on me to watch her grow up. My 11...
    ilikebeingme ilikebeingme 46-50, M Jun 26

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    I am a 23 yr old student in college and unfortunately to say, I have been extremely depressed for the past couple of years. This mostly has to do with the fact that I have no...
    lonelyman1113 lonelyman1113 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 25

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    I'm depressed. I tried to overcome it, but I sure did fail...
    Christine99 Christine99 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 25

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    I been depressed since my parents got separated and it's been a while. I guess because of my dad. What he did was wrong and still right now I can't forgive him. I don't think I can...
    Smilegirl1 Smilegirl1 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 25

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    i never thought i could be this depressed. i just miss this girl so much and ive heard about things like soulties and stuff like that and idk it might be true cause i feel like...
    pepetheanarchistfrog pepetheanarchistfrog 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 24

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    I recently broke up with my ex and I just found she cheated on me and now she is happily either the person they cheated with and I'm just left here alone. It doesn't really seem...
    karizombie07 karizombie07 22-25, T Jun 24

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    Why does everyone come to me when they're depressed or sad or whatever? Just leave me alone! I have my own problems! I can't carry your problems on top of mine. I'm sorry, but I...
    HidingBehindTheShadows HidingBehindTheShadows 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 24

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    Someone please put me out of my misery my heart hurts so much and it's depressing me no one loves me and no one ever will im always a second choice it's feels like **** I wanna...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 3 Responses Jun 24

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    I do not remember a time where I have been 100% happy with myself and with life itself. I was depressed at a very young age because of things at home but no one knew how I was...
    Charli101 Charli101 16-17 Jun 24

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    I always thought people could tell that I was insecure and depressed, but I have a mask that I put on and everyone says I look perfect. You can almost never tell that I'm depressed...
    sirianstarsoul sirianstarsoul 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 24

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    I see it, my mom, my gf ,my sisters , cousins, everyone sees it, I'm just becoming more and more depressed more and more each day, I literally cut myself out of depression...
    Jerseyboi Jerseyboi 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 24