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I Am Clinically Depressed

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 280 People

    Will The Depression Ever End?

    I've had depression for as long as I can remember, but wasn't officially diagnosed with it until seventh grade. I am seventeen now. Here is my story. My parents broke up when I was two and my mother married a man when I was about three and had my sister a year later. My step dad...
    aleshasummer aleshasummer 18-21, F Sep 7, 2013

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    Listener Here

    If you have stuff you want to talk about or vent about, feel free to contact me. I usually am the listener in my crowd and don't mind it. I tend to really want to hear people's stories and experiences.No judgments. I am also pretty open minded so there won't be much that I find I...
    Sowyfeil Sowyfeil 31-35, F Jun 19, 2013

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    Surrender

    I come from a broken home that appears to be perfect.i belong no where because i am unusual.i do not appear to be normal, and i have never met anyone like me.i push away those who seem to care about me,in fear of hurting them.i fear everything in life.i worry about every word i...
    Alightonthewater Alightonthewater 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    When I'm Hurting I Get A Sick Pleasure From Indulging In Sadness

    Song lyrics are the main source of this. For all you out there who feel the same, here's one for the playlist. Grow Up And Blow Away By: Metric "Grow Up And Blow Away" Floating the room Two by two From the womb To the holiday There is no holiday First double-cross...
    mindgirl mindgirl 36-40, F Oct 22, 2012

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    Why Am I Trying?

    Every day the moments I spend faking a smile are appearing as an endless struggle now...Trying to appear ‘normal’, In some sort of way. It seems that the pain is always here with me and it hurt's to much to breathe...I know there’s been many who’ve had it worse than me...
    iPandaHero iPandaHero 16-17, F Sep 6, 2012

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    One Thing After Another.

    I feel like I just can't catch a break. I am only 16, and I've been depressed since the beginning of 8th grade.  It started off with my mom. She was sort of bad at doing what she was supposed to do, like picking me up on time to go over to her house for the weekend (every...
    Karley Karley 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2008

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    I Found This

    I did not write it. It seems like I did. Exactly how I feel. So I copied and pasted. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ok, im a 13 year old girl and ive been suffering severe depression for over the last 2 or so years for...
    nomeatforshrimp nomeatforshrimp 16-17, F Jul 25, 2012

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    Things I Hate...

    Here are the things that I hate hate hate....................# Making my lunch when I go to university.# Brushing my teeth in the morning.# Eating breakfast, lunch, and dinner...OMG I hate foods! (except pizza)# Getting dressed up to go out.# Peeing when I'm at my university...
    LisbethTylerMorgan LisbethTylerMorgan 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2013

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    Alone In A House Full Of People.

    If  only people would understand that I do not choose to be the way I am.  Depression is a hormonal imbalance in the brain.  At least that is what I have been told. My mother left me and my brother when we were just babies.  We never knew our father, so...
    daisysducky daisysducky 61-65, F Apr 4, 2010

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    HIV Diagnosis And Being Gay Are Too Much

    Many days I don't feel like doing a thing since my youth and life has been ruined by this disease, by this world I was brought into where people hate me for being gay, want me to die of AIDS for it, which is a terrible burden for my soul to carry. I hope someday soon I die in my...
    codycosmo codycosmo 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

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    I'm Always Upset.

    But things are getting worse. I foudn out today that i'm super failing math. and i am behind on my science because i tried to catch up on my math. And my parents think i'm a disappointment. again.
    keke89 keke89 16-18, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2007

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    A Quick Introduction, Probably The Same As All The Others.

    I've been in treatment for a little over 5 years, seeing a shrink, just drug therapy, on antidepressants for most of that time. At the time I started, I was crying every day. That went on for 8 months. I only missed a couple of days in that entire period. I should have asked for...
    atadir atadir 51-55, M 3 Responses Nov 1, 2011

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    Depression: Low Self-esteem, Humilations And Public Ridicule

    I had three nervous breakdowns and is diagnosed as clinically depressed by a psychiatrist in our community. I literally became insane for three times with my mind out of the reality and immersed in fantasies. In these three breakdowns, i was literally insane; speaking and acting...
    fernan25 fernan25 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 7, 2010

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    20 Years And Counting...

    Maybe 30 but i didn't realize until 20 years ago. I have gone through life with very low self esteem and up to a point people would say 'but you are great, you've got so much going for you'...Im not the person I was. I am tired and I am what i think i am. I have acted to reflect...
    dereksmalls dereksmalls 36-40 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    So I saw something that to be clinically

    depressed you have to have 5 out of 9 symptoms and have them persist for at least 2 weeks... I think I have 3 of them, with persistence being on and off a bit. So I guess I'm not technically clinically depressed, but it sure feels like it and it really wrecks havoc on my life...
    goodloot3 goodloot3 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 22

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    "tired"..................

    Im not sure where to start. I need to get things off my chest. I am a little depressed right now and have found that writting often helps. I am quite down at the moment and i am findin it really hard. I don't have any friends but one but i can't really turn to if im in trouble...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 22, 2011

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    I Don't Like Life Anymore...

    Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe, just maybe, these feelings are all in my head or I'm having a bad nightmare that I have to wake up from-a nightmare that's lasted for more than 8 months. I realized I was depressed 9 months ago, when I asked people if it was possible to know by urself...
    lifesuxbigtime lifesuxbigtime 16-18, F 2 Responses Aug 19, 2007

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    Recently I have moved into my mom's home

    and decided to leave my dad. We've never quite got along and I really just could not take anymore of it. My mom and I have been trying so hard to have him just sign over custody papers just so it's simple on everyone. I'll be 18 this December coming up. Basically just one more...
    observando observando 16-17, F Jan 15

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    "Struggling Musician"

    The joy I get from making and studying music vs. the frustration it brings... Personal and professional. I sometimes feel soo inadequate. My teacher tells me I'm good and people love my music, but I don't even know why people say I'm good when I just look at it all and it feels...
    bluetree88 bluetree88 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 2, 2013

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    I am always sad and tired,

    want to end my misery. No one gives a **** about me which is fine. My dad's always working,moms got her own depression and she's grown tired of me, as she constantly reminds me. and my brothers dealing with his own ****. Can't focus on school always yelled at and told I'm...
    jojowillsaveyou jojowillsaveyou 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 29

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    My Depression

    Hi, im 14 years old, i struggle with a lot of stuff, im medically diagnosed with depression since almost a year ago, and i take antidepressants every single morning, i also cut myself to feel better, it has become an addiction, i am bipolar, i am anorexic with bulimic tendences...
    ateenagegirl ateenagegirl 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

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    I just told my parents

    that I am clinically depressed. They were acceptive, and I found out that some people on my dad's side of my family have problems with depression, too. I am going to see my doctor this week to get some help. So, my advice to all the teens who are worried is to just do it. I left...
    mcurling mcurling 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    Related Experiences

    Over the summer I went to the hospital because I wanted to end my life. Before that I found friends who were also depressed, and I started drinking all the time i was drunk at...
    sahr86 sahr86 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    I hate myself. I'm at a friends house and everyone is a sleep I'm here trying to find cigarettes, pills, or alcohol, to take away this feeling of loneliness. I don't know why I'm...
    sahr86 sahr86 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I don't feel anything today. Not happy or sad. I just came down from an upswing. i dont know what to do. i could hurt myself to feel something, but who am i kidding? a minute of...
    JustLittleMeee JustLittleMeee 16-17, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I am afraid today not because I am depressed. But the pain is ready to touch the max limit.. I've bipolar. Was diagnosed when I was in my late teen. Though my mom's friend who...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Yes I cry. Yes I feel sorry for myself. Yes I say I don't no how I can cope anymore. Yes I'm sad. NO I AM NOT DEPRESSED! I don't need medical help. I just need to be heard and...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    I always act happy so no one really knows how depressed I am I'm just the weirdo that doesn't talk and doesn't have friends but I can't make friends when I get scared to talk to...
    christinelol christinelol 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 24

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    People around me know that I have a tendency to get depressed and be sad. But it still hurts when people ask what's wrong and I give an honest answer, "I'm depressed.", and they...
    poopy0219 poopy0219 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Its not that im giving up... i just dont feel like fighting anymore. Im 16 and im so depressed. I dont know why..i dont know what to do..i havnt even been outside in 4 days the...
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    Why is it so hard for me to open up to people? I need support because I feel as though I'm getting worse but I don't open up to anyone and when I'm around people, I act the...
    fatality500 fatality500 13-15, M Dec 12

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    If I'm not numb, I'm depressed. If I'm not depressed, I'm numb. That's no way to live but I can't find my way back.
    poojibp poojibp 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 21

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    My husband died on Sept.22, 2014 after a three day illness. It was a shock...and I still feel like it couldn't really have happened. I don't really like the title of this group...
    jobee1950 jobee1950 61-65, F 1 Response Nov 21

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    I feel like my problems are minuscule after reading some of the posts on here, it makes me feel bad for being sad... I can’t help it though, I feel so worthless. I just turned...
    thecap246 thecap246 18-21, F Nov 27

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    I am thankful for the little things in life, and I try to smile and laugh, but it's not enough to help me. My head is fuzzy like a cotton ball. And grey, like a sorrowful sky. The...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    Even though my own mother is in complete denial, I am depressed. It's her job at making this easier for me, but she tends to always love doing the opposite. I'm feeling like I no...
    alexis3000 alexis3000 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    I guess I'm feeling pretty lonely and depressed today. Today wasn't a very productive day for me professionally. Worse yet, what would have been my 7 yr wedding anniversary is...
    nck12278 nck12278 36-40, M Dec 1

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    I've decided to stop trying to talk about my depression. I'm also ignoring the irony of talking about it right now. I just need to get this out of my mind. I've seen doctors for...
    NeverTrulyWanted NeverTrulyWanted 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 11

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    i thought I was getting better. I told my parents about my depression and I confessed about cutting myself and self harming. i got put on antidepressants, they took a really long...
    EnjoyTheSilenceX EnjoyTheSilenceX 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 12

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    I am a kind hearted and I truly do want (almost) everyone to be happy but seeing happy people only worsens my depression. I will see people having fun and smiling with their...
    oohfiretwerks oohfiretwerks 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    today i'm depressed , like every day and today i didn't just smoke weed like all time but also am absolutely drunk right now and i also took shrooms i am a depressed suicidal...
    Xnow Xnow 16-17, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    im really just worthless, i dont even know where i belong. i dont look right and i have no friends. i have the devil as my mother. i live in such an isolated place. i sit at home...
    msworstlife msworstlife 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I am 13 years old and I have been feeling extremely depressed since the last four years, when I shifted to a new residence and changed my school. I remember I used to be very...
    nickyra55 nickyra55 13-15 4 Responses Nov 22

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    I didn't think I would be depressed so soon...especially after I overcame it at the beginning of my college semester. Even thoughts of suicide came to mind for brief seconds...
    bkf2 bkf2 22-25, M Nov 23

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    For some reason, I have always found Sundays to be very depressing days. Ever since I was a child, Sundays have always been different and gray. Not matter what is or has been going...
    PhillyGuy1005 PhillyGuy1005 51-55, M Nov 23

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    I've been depressed for about 2-3 years now, funny thing is that if one was to see me normally, I am a very social person. I like talking to people, and making them laugh I guess...
    JaRuss JaRuss 18-21 Nov 24

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    I don't want nobody to know I am depressed. Nobody have a thing about my life. I am the only one who can decide what is better. The biggest problem of exposing my feelings is...
    roberamar roberamar 22-25, M Nov 24

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    I've thought of cutting myself many times, pretty much daily. Yet I've never done it. No one in my life knows I'm depressed, and I can't go to them to talk about this. Every time...
    Mokuba Mokuba 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 24

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