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I Am Clinically Severely Depressed

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    A Life I Would Love To Have

    A life where I wake up and everybody is happy to see me when I come out of my room. Where my siblings treat me just as nicely as they treat each other. Where being the youngest doesn't matter. A life I would love to have is one where I have a boyfriend that is affectionate and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 14, 2012

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    I Am So Done.

    I am feeling the worst I have been since 1999-2005. I feel completely alone. I'm becoming house bound. I don't want to see anyone now. I've finally accepted that all the people I knew have left me behind. In the beginning I tried to commit suicide, nearly did it too. Some people...
    sld57 sld57 56-60, F 7 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    Meds

     i needa go get my new meds tomorrow & this was my daily note to self moment. the end.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 9, 2012

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    I Guess So.

    My shrink keeps making appointments to see me again and again and my script for meds keeps getting renewed.  Does that make me "Clinically Depressed"?  It doesn't work anyway, **** it.  I've given up on the meds and have stopped taking them.  They...
    Dropbear Dropbear 41-45, M 5 Responses Nov 2, 2009

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    Brain Problem?

    I must have a brain problem ....   I cannot seem to focus and I feel like a retard who cannot accomplish much right now. It seems like all my life experiences have not helped to mature more and that I have regressed so much.    I go to work and struggle with a project...
    ckennes ckennes 41-45 1 Response Mar 8, 2012

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    Okay, so, I'm depressed but not suicidal, I fail to see the joys of life. I want to constantly sleep. I have heard here and there. That I should volunteer. I... Don't feel I am...
    deademotion11 deademotion11 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Thinking about getting a dog. Not only will he/or she provide emotional therapy, but will be a continual companion that will love without condition... Or at least that's what I...
    Austinforshort Austinforshort 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 23

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    I was almost taken to the hospital to tonight. My family is extremely worried about me. I told them about my suicide plan, my plan is to throw a turned on blow dryer in the bath...
    NoRegretsAndNoRemorse NoRegretsAndNoRemorse 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    I would rather die than go to word today. My health problems are bringing me down. I can't stand feeling sick everyday anymore it makes my depression worse.
    NoRegretsAndNoRemorse NoRegretsAndNoRemorse 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 6

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    I have been dealing with severe depression since eighth grade....I'm a college freshman now. The thing is, I'm used to this..I love it when I sink so low that I don't feel pain...
    ellarain ellarain 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    I don't understand what is going on with me !I have been crying alot, and I just have this awful sadness that is lingering over me.I use to be this strong woman, capable of...
    roses2004 roses2004 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 12

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    I sleep 12-17 hours a day, I don't really understand why. I mean, my life is rocky but it's not as bad now, as it was 2 years and 3 months ago. Now things are... Neutral...
    deademotion11 deademotion11 22-25, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    When I find out someone I have a crush on is in a relationship. I just get really sad, avoid them like the plague and try to forget and disregard all my feelings. Happened in high...
    TransmutedHeart TransmutedHeart 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    Over the summer I went to the hospital because I wanted to end my life. Before that I found friends who were also depressed, and I started drinking all the time i was drunk at...
    sahr86 sahr86 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    I am afraid today not because I am depressed. But the pain is ready to touch the max limit.. I've bipolar. Was diagnosed when I was in my late teen. Though my mom's friend who...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Yes I cry. Yes I feel sorry for myself. Yes I say I don't no how I can cope anymore. Yes I'm sad. NO I AM NOT DEPRESSED! I don't need medical help. I just need to be heard and...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    I always act happy so no one really knows how depressed I am I'm just the weirdo that doesn't talk and doesn't have friends but I can't make friends when I get scared to talk to...
    christinelol christinelol 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 24

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    People around me know that I have a tendency to get depressed and be sad. But it still hurts when people ask what's wrong and I give an honest answer, "I'm depressed.", and they...
    poopy0219 poopy0219 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Its not that im giving up... i just dont feel like fighting anymore. Im 16 and im so depressed. I dont know why..i dont know what to do..i havnt even been outside in 4 days the...
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    Why is it so hard for me to open up to people? I need support because I feel as though I'm getting worse but I don't open up to anyone and when I'm around people, I act the...
    fatality500 fatality500 13-15, M Dec 12

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    If I'm not numb, I'm depressed. If I'm not depressed, I'm numb. That's no way to live but I can't find my way back.
    poojibp poojibp 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 21

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    My husband died on Sept.22, 2014 after a three day illness. It was a shock...and I still feel like it couldn't really have happened. I don't really like the title of this group...
    jobee1950 jobee1950 61-65, F 1 Response Nov 21

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    I feel like my problems are minuscule after reading some of the posts on here, it makes me feel bad for being sad... I can’t help it though, I feel so worthless. I just turned...
    thecap246 thecap246 18-21, F Nov 27

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    I am thankful for the little things in life, and I try to smile and laugh, but it's not enough to help me. My head is fuzzy like a cotton ball. And grey, like a sorrowful sky. The...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    Even though my own mother is in complete denial, I am depressed. It's her job at making this easier for me, but she tends to always love doing the opposite. I'm feeling like I no...
    alexis3000 alexis3000 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    I guess I'm feeling pretty lonely and depressed today. Today wasn't a very productive day for me professionally. Worse yet, what would have been my 7 yr wedding anniversary is...
    nck12278 nck12278 36-40, M Dec 1

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    I've decided to stop trying to talk about my depression. I'm also ignoring the irony of talking about it right now. I just need to get this out of my mind. I've seen doctors for...
    NeverTrulyWanted NeverTrulyWanted 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 11

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    i thought I was getting better. I told my parents about my depression and I confessed about cutting myself and self harming. i got put on antidepressants, they took a really long...
    EnjoyTheSilenceX EnjoyTheSilenceX 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 12

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    I am a kind hearted and I truly do want (almost) everyone to be happy but seeing happy people only worsens my depression. I will see people having fun and smiling with their...
    oohfiretwerks oohfiretwerks 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    today i'm depressed , like every day and today i didn't just smoke weed like all time but also am absolutely drunk right now and i also took shrooms i am a depressed suicidal...
    Xnow Xnow 16-17, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    im really just worthless, i dont even know where i belong. i dont look right and i have no friends. i have the devil as my mother. i live in such an isolated place. i sit at home...
    msworstlife msworstlife 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I am 13 years old and I have been feeling extremely depressed since the last four years, when I shifted to a new residence and changed my school. I remember I used to be very...
    nickyra55 nickyra55 13-15 4 Responses Nov 22

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    I didn't think I would be depressed so soon...especially after I overcame it at the beginning of my college semester. Even thoughts of suicide came to mind for brief seconds...
    bkf2 bkf2 22-25, M Nov 23

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    For some reason, I have always found Sundays to be very depressing days. Ever since I was a child, Sundays have always been different and gray. Not matter what is or has been going...
    PhillyGuy1005 PhillyGuy1005 51-55, M Nov 23

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    I've been depressed for about 2-3 years now, funny thing is that if one was to see me normally, I am a very social person. I like talking to people, and making them laugh I guess...
    JaRuss JaRuss 18-21 Nov 24

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    I don't want nobody to know I am depressed. Nobody have a thing about my life. I am the only one who can decide what is better. The biggest problem of exposing my feelings is...
    roberamar roberamar 22-25, M Nov 24

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    I've thought of cutting myself many times, pretty much daily. Yet I've never done it. No one in my life knows I'm depressed, and I can't go to them to talk about this. Every time...
    Mokuba Mokuba 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    I'm so tierd of feeling this way, I feel so alone and just so sad. I try staying positive that things will be better again but they never are it seems like everything comes...
    taid2000 taid2000 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    I don't want to be depressed. I just want to be happy. My mom doesn't let me go out the house nor hang out with friends when I ask her if I can go she flips out and she says that...
    Delssy Delssy 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    Well I might be depressed...I might just be going insane...perhaps it's both...
    sturmgewher44 sturmgewher44 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 26

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    My close friend. Is there life after death? Could my friend still be with me in spirit but I don't see? So sad... So so depressed knowing never again will I see him.
    Kimbizz Kimbizz 46-50, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    I literally have no one. Not a single person I can lean on or vent to. Yes I'm seeing some one but the situation is difficult so I really don't have him as much as I deserve to. I...
    markiealex markiealex 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    i blast music when i feel depressed or lonely.. and i listen to it all night ;0
    livinglife789 livinglife789 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    My two best friends ****** me over an now I'm so depressed, my family is now noticing. They kept me smiling and making me feel like I existed but lately they have been ignoring me...
    BrokenDesires BrokenDesires 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 28

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    I had a friend, who was my biggest confidante. I loved him so much, but now the things are messed up. I hid something from him as I was afraid to lose him.. And now he has got to...
    TheLivingDead TheLivingDead 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    I'm so depressed. I don't know what to do. I feel like droping out of school, because I don't care anymore. Nothing gives me the joy it used to. I'm just so tired and stressed. I...
    KimTin33 KimTin33 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 29