I Am Close To Breaking Down

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    I'm so tired of faking smiles.

    It would be so much easier to just end it. 😒
    shipmateelyssa shipmateelyssa
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jul 29, 2014
    DreaSmurph DreaSmurph
    22-25, F
    Nov 14, 2014

    just so many thing going on

    and idk what to do... I wanna talk about it but I feel like it would just make things worse and you have others to worry about. I wanna talk but idk what to say, how to sort it out. its just one big mess, one big clump...
    WentAway WentAway
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 25, 2015

    I thought i could handle this.

    ...but really i cant.
    Isabella545 Isabella545
    18-21
    1 Response Dec 9, 2014

    i don't know how much more of this pain i can

    take tonight. They said to sit with my feet up - but it hurts too much. Sitting with my feet down seems to hurt the least right now... but i don't see how i can sleep with my feet down. i just want to sit here and cry right now.
    LoneSouls LoneSouls
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Feb 8, 2016

    I'm venting right now.

    I have to work but all I can think about is why even try if its going nowhere then you end up dying anyway... Still trying to understand.
    spaceylibra spaceylibra
    36-40, F
    Dec 29, 2014

    So the other day, I got tested by a couple of

    dudes on the streets. They really were trying to pull me into a fight, or just being plain jerks. I knew i'd be able to beat the **** out of one of the dudes who left himself open, I immediately looked at the other two, and thought to myself, that it is worth a try. I was this...
    Voidspirit Voidspirit
    22-25, M
    1 Response May 27, 2014

    I am so close to the limit.

    So close. I have to take moments away from everything and just clear my head, regularly throughout the day; or I'll end up losing it. This is not me. Its my job to be dependable to be dependable. The soothing friend, the forever calm family member. No matter the crisis I have to...
    KindaPyro KindaPyro
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jan 4, 2016

    I have anxiety. It's hitting me really bad right

    now & the person I trust with my life, my boyfriend has gone away :( I have nobody to talk to. I have so much going in my head I can't take this anymore :(
    sweetashoney3 sweetashoney3
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 10, 2014

    My friend told me to tell her boyfriend

    that she loved him before she went to bed. She couldn't tell him because she's really sick and she can barely move so she asked me to. We were on FaceTime so it was easier for her to talk to me. I told her bf what she said and he just started bitching for no reason at all. He...
    mikaylahoguexo mikaylahoguexo
    18-21, F
    Jul 8, 2014

    The line between not talking

    and crying - the fear of being too quiet or too loud. I don't know why but I feel like everything is falling apart. It sucks because I was at such a high point and now I feel myself falling lower and lower into the despair I know so well.
    ImagineA ImagineA
    18-21
    Mar 20, 2016

    I have so much that has to get done by next week

    and I don't want it to go wrong. Ugh I need a break
    Misunderstood7889 Misunderstood7889
    22-25, M
    Nov 14, 2014

    I am close to breaking down with all the bills

    that I have to pay with the fact that my husband is not working that I bury all the burden and work all the time and I'm never home but yet I still pay the bills there and I feel like I don't even belong there the only thing I have left are my 3 little kids. Aka my dogs I feel...
    SpiritWolfe741 SpiritWolfe741
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Apr 24, 2015

    as our family is slowly drifting a part I am

    just getting more and more aware of the size of space you are leaving in my life my dear twin brother you used to always be there for me and with our older siblings moved out and starting their own families I have never felt so alone I have my friends mom and dad but they don't...
    Furyohfury Furyohfury
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 26, 2015

    I am on the verge of breaking down

    and it will be bad. I don't want this
    FallingApart33 FallingApart33
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 7, 2016

    theres a lot I wish I could tell people,

    but I don't because when I do it just breaks me. I don't understand why people have to be mean to people they don't even know what's going on. I feel like what people say are true and then I just want to give up. I try my hardest. but people jeep bringing me down. please help me...
    ToukaKirishima ToukaKirishima
    13-15, F
    3 Responses May 16, 2015

    Why does all this have to happen to me?

    Why to us? I'm not hungry. I'm tired but not enough to sleep. My thoughts are only of her "I can't be alone again. It will kill me." I just want to cry until I can't anymore. I want to cry myself to sleep.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 9, 2015

    I'm supposed to be studying

    for test right now but instead have spent the past hour crying on and off and laying in bed. I feel like I can't handle anything right now, and really just want to stay holed up in this room for as long as I can.
    girlanonymous girlanonymous
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 19, 2016

    Just watched him drive away to "just drive

    around".. I wanted to yell, I wanted to scream, I wanted to throw rocks at his car like a total crazy person but I just took a deep breath and walked back inside to my sleeping babies! I'm dying a little more each day and this hate inside of me, for the man I once loved with all...
    snarkybookworm snarkybookworm
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 14, 2014

    Why. Why does life hate me.

    Just let me die.
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 20, 2014

    I'm really here just to find people to talk to.

    Fresh out of losing a long lasting girlfriend and just want people to talk with.
    ShaneSouther ShaneSouther
    18-21, M
    Apr 21, 2015

    I'm done being my own hero.

    If no one else cares then why should I.
    Jewl1997 Jewl1997
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 30, 2013
    Juuuuuulia Juuuuuulia
    18-21, F
    Nov 14, 2014

    I am trying so hard to keep my s**t together

    and trying to pretend that I am okay, but in all honesty I'm not. I feel like I am just about so snap and fall and no one will be there to catch me and I'll just keep falling till I hit rock bottom and I won't be able to get back up. I'm so tired....
    WentAway WentAway
    22-25, F
    8 Responses Aug 1, 2015

    Some people don't know how great they have it

    and yet choose to be a selfish person. only caring about themselves or how it effects them. I want so badly to be out. My depression is getting the best of me tonight. I hid in my closet for a while just trying to calm myself down. I get so mad so quickly i get so sad so quickly...
    learellie learellie
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jan 4, 2016

    well I'm not even sure what to say im feeling

    but confused is the main emotion ,,like my heart hurts and I just wanna like cuddle with idk I guess 😞
    DreaSmurph DreaSmurph
    22-25, F
    Nov 15, 2014

    I isolate myself, to keep me safe.

    I'd rather not be around anyone. I hate my family, my life, my "so called" friends, I'm even starting to hate myself. FML.
    EeMmMmAa EeMmMmAa
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Apr 27, 2014

    Like it's pretty bad

    when it's got to the point where when someone asks me "Are you still dating Ty?", and I tell them I don't know. There looking at me like crazy like how in the world don't you know. It's really complicated. I just don't know how much longer I can take all this.
    Brokenheart06 Brokenheart06
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 16, 2015

    I am breaking. Falling apart.

    A spectator in my own downfall. I simply don't know what to do. Why is it so hard?
    maiomeN maiomeN
    18-21, F
    Dec 3, 2014

    So i need to go for an intimate medical check

    up... and i'm triggering so much right now. i'm fighting the desire to hurt myself as we speak, and i'm wondering if i'm strong enough to get through it without doing something that i know i'll come to regret when i realise that i threw away 6 years of recovery over this.
    LoneSouls LoneSouls
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 21, 2016

    I'm so heart broken! My bf

    and I split... I feel so sad and stressed out! I really liked him but I broke it off because his roommates g/f wanted to pick a fight and she hit me and I was upset that he didn't do anything he didn't even defend me or anything. I even apologized and the following day his...
    missyluvslilies missyluvslilies
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jan 27, 2015

    well I feel like a complete **** up ive cut

    like 4 times this week 😞
    DreaSmurph DreaSmurph
    22-25, F
    Nov 14, 2014

    I am so close to my breaking point I can feel

    it boiling in my heart everyone gets to enjoy life, I feel so restricted no one ever understands what I feel and I'm always taking on everyone else's burdens and nobody has time for mine
    Misunderstood7889 Misunderstood7889
    22-25, M
    1 Response Nov 13, 2014

    I been going 4 in a half month without my fiance

    and i am about to break down i been crying for a hole day. and his family said he did it to his self to get lock up. will his young brother gave him some bad stuff and now he is in prison and will not get out into July 22-2016 and i am hurt bad
    Buttercake30 Buttercake30
    41-45
    Feb 8, 2016

    Crying To Hard. I Feel Like My Heart Is

    Breaking In So Many People's. I Need Calming Down, Any One Please ;(
    KateMost KateMost
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 23, 2014

    Wide awake thinking about the way things used

    to be. Wish I could just not let it get to me but it's not that easy. I got a 12 hour work shift tomorrow and no sleep because of these "things." I'm never going to understand why things happen in life.... Why does it have to hurt so much?!
    DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt
    18-21, F
    Jun 5, 2014

    IM TIRED OF SAYING IM OKAY AND THEN THE PEOPLE

    I TELL IM FALLING APART PUSH ME AWAY AND SAY DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO EVEN MY PARENTS DONT ACKNOWLEDGE IT I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO TO SAY IM ******* SERIOUs 😣😣😣😣😣
    CeleBB CeleBB
    18-21, F
    Nov 13, 2014

    It feels like there never is anyone here

    for me.. Not even my girlfriend.. I can't talk to any family members because most of them are old school.. My mom ignores most of what i say and completely changes everything around into an argument with it always ending up to me needing help.. I don't know what to do.. Today i...
    MysticGohan18 MysticGohan18
    18-21, M
    1 Response Nov 14, 2014

    I'm so alone and just wanting to die.

    Maybe it's time. No one would care anyway.
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 2, 2014

    Well I about beat the **** out of a kid in my

    section be he, although is older, hasn't played this as long as me and keeps trying to use seniority over me its like (<<<<<~~~~~<<<<<)
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jan 23, 2016

    Ugh 19 and just want someone to talk to cuss

    I'm missing my ex a lot and feel like ****. Need a friend
    ShaneSouther ShaneSouther
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 22, 2015

    I am so sick and tired of my life.

    I never have good days. There is nothing good in life.
    alliefjc alliefjc
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 9, 2014
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Feb 21, 2014

    Each day she wakes up,

    tired....feeling like she has not slept in days, body just does not want to work with her at first.....she looks in the mirror, hates what she sees looking back at her, turns away,she keeps herself busy as she can during the day, trying to keep those sad little thoughts from...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 24, 2015
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