I Am Clown Damaged

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    Clowns Are Scary

    When I was a kid, despite my mother’s history of being abused, she occasionally left me to stay with my grandparents. Apparently, she minimized her childhood in her head. That’s the only way that I can really comprehend why she would even think of leaving me alone there. It...
    RhombusInTheSquare RhombusInTheSquare
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Jan 26, 2013

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