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I Am Clown Damaged

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    Clowns Are Scary

    When I was a kid, despite my mother’s history of being abused, she occasionally left me to stay with my grandparents. Apparently, she minimized her childhood in her head. That’s the only way that I can really comprehend why she would even think of leaving me alone there. It...
    RhombusInTheSquare RhombusInTheSquare 36-40, F 7 Responses Jan 26, 2013

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    I give up. Friendships are too complicated. Relationships are too complicated. I'm tired of feeling lonely and alone almost all the time (social life = near zero). I'm tired of...
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    We were doing (ward) rounds earlier today, and this is about a colleague of mine, a few years senior than me, let's call him A. A usually would chatted with the nurses on other...
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    I have borderline personality disorder, depression, strong anger & anxiety. I quit my last two jobs because I couldn't deal with people. I signed up for disability, and I'm not...
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    All kinds of people, old, young, lonely and especially those who are vulnerable.. It hurts me when i hear of people who have been hurt, or used, taken advantage of and left hurting...
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    R.I.P. Starman... 'It's a God-awful sad affair, To the girl with the mousy hair. Whose mother had just said 'No' And her father has told her to go, But her friend is nowhere to be...
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    I had a very bad road accident coming home from work (March 2001). My brain was very badly damaged; I was told that there was no part around the outside of the brain which was not...
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    there's a lot of men and women who behave as if they will have all eternity to stop fooling around with clowns and actually genuinely seek a real relationship. people don't...
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    Emotionally, I 'm a wreck. I'm in pain, all the time, and the only other option I'm given is crippling numbness. But I can't let my friends know. I have to keep my happy face on...
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    My stepfather has a kid. A boy, I think. Told me when he was drunk. She probably heard. She's sneaky that way. Mom came over and pulled his hair. That made me laugh. He may have...
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    I feel like I lost who I am, but I can't figure out where. I need to find myself, I'm tired of being emotionless and watching everyone around me succeed and live their life. I feel...
    DaisyKaine DaisyKaine 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    I came here -which was supposed to be an ironic group- to ruin your irony and make it real... Because yeah, I'm a sh¡tty person, so whatever, besides the problem is not even...
    oneiric13 oneiric13 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 3

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    C2 "If this is some type of practical joke its NOT FUNNY! And I know funny, I'm a clownfish! C1 "Ohhh ddear I'm so so sorry, see I suffer from short term memory loss" C2...
    yaotl5 yaotl5 18-21, M Feb 3

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    Having the past I have had my nightmares are pretty consistent. With these consistent nightmares I have a fear of being eaten, raped, and killed by a clown. Nightmares are no fun...
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    “I’m trying so hard to move on. And sometimes I find myself crying into my pillow at 3am, or kissing people I shouldn’t kiss to try and erase you, or staring blankly at the...
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    i never really physically self harmed myself. it was mainly emotionally. there were times when i would publicly humiliate myself on purpose. every time i felt depressed , i would...
    HeySafaaJust HeySafaaJust 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    I used to go to a gym class twice a week with my neighbour but I moved and she stopped going so I stopped too. I HATE going places alone. I feel like a clown with all eyes on me...
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    She says she's granite but would rather be jade. Either way, she's solid. She says she's fire but I think she's air either way she's there. I think I'm a minstrel but I'm really...
    puck61 puck61 51-55, M 6 Responses Jan 31

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    I don't want to dwell on it or play the victim here, cause I know you kinds of people would love an excuse to come at me, I feel now my primary purpose for breathing is to take...
    Cocrispy Cocrispy 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 31

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    It started with a coffee and toast, then a hour crashed on the couch watching tv, then a hr with you clowns on EP, now im off to the beach to hit the surf its 90f outside, a bit of...
    ExtremeNext ExtremeNext 26-30 5 Responses Jan 30

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    Korn- Clown What's with you boy? Think hard A tattooed body to hide who you are Scared to be honest Be yourself, a cowardly man! I don't run around trying to be what's not within...
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    Bestie !!!!!Clowny????????? Please come find me.....i lost!!
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    I met this girl who was always bright and full of life. Everyday she came to school, she was always so enthusiastic and positive about everything. Being the class clown, she loved...
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    I have lost all trust of everybody, that I have met and probably will meet. I was brutally slandered/libel and cyber bullied in ways by people who were supposed to be my friends...
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    Midnight, gettin' uptight. Where are you? You said you'd meet me, now it's quarter to two I know I'm hangin' but I'm still wantin' you. Hey, Jack, It's a fact they're talkin' in...
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    now I am 17, only on this site because an old friend reminded me of it. I have had a rough year and many months and I'll be 18 in less than a month. I feel proud but i have lost my...
    MentoPiano MentoPiano 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    I didn't start wearing lipstick until a few years because I thought Id look like a clown.But I realized it was all about finding the right color for my skin tone.I think red...
    JamieAlbright JamieAlbright 26-30, F Jan 24

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    Why does this clown pretend to be my friend and then not allow me to go to her daughters birthday party when I've known her since before she could walk? I think I'll give the...
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F Jan 24

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    "Why cant Richard accept reality and fvck off? " The answer is that as long as he has a nut or 2 to manipulate then inside his head he is still in with a chance to have them...
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