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I Am Clown Damaged

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    Clowns Are Scary

    When I was a kid, despite my mother’s history of being abused, she occasionally left me to stay with my grandparents. Apparently, she minimized her childhood in her head. That’s the only way that I can really comprehend why she would even think of leaving me alone there. It...
    RhombusInTheSquare RhombusInTheSquare 36-40, F 8 Responses Jan 26, 2013

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    I don't have a LOT of things that truly terrify me, but one thing that I am scared of, like panic attack scared of is Clowns! I can not handle it! It brings back the worst...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    i really don't know why im afraid of clowns its just ever since my mom got one to come to my birthday party when i was 5 i was playing around with my ball when i saw it and he...
    pixeymagic17 pixeymagic17 16-17, F Apr 3

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    I know, I know it's completely idiotic but I'm terrified of clowns. They scare me to death!
    SweetAlone13 SweetAlone13 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    Its irrational i know but clowns creeps me out
    Skythrone29 Skythrone29 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    I've gone through so much in my short 20 years that its insane. My parents weren't around when I was a child. They were always at the bar and my brother and I were always at the...
    beautifullybrokengirl beautifullybrokengirl 18-21, F Mar 21

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    Sometimes I wonder if I have been through too much. My counselor has told me that I am brave and strong but I am not. I shut most people out - It's easier that way - I don't get...
    pandora1964 pandora1964 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    Having so much anger inside that you just want to scream and cry as loud as you can. Screaming out your lungs to see if this feeling rips off your chest.. It's like this knot...
    foreeveralone foreeveralone 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    That's my saying... And sticking with it! If anything I've learned from it. I'm moving on and WANT to enjoy REAL love!! I have ALOT of love to give once I find my soulmate. He...
    Cydney525K Cydney525K 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    Hello. Are you listening to me? Are you talking to me? Are you trying to give me a lesson? Just give me a sign.. I feel silly talking to myself in my head, and crazy when I hear...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 29

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    Hey guys... I figured out how to feel better about myself, and be happier and I'd like to share it with you all. (I am aware this might all sound very hippie like...but I'm just...
    xxersabooxx xxersabooxx 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    I guess to understand the full depth of my story, it's best to start at the very beginning It all started when I turned 7. Up until that age, I has a great family. My mom and dad...
    heartsofgold22 heartsofgold22 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    I believe god or evolution played a dirty trick on females by giving males superior upper body strength, allowing men to subjugate females from the beginning. Imagine that all...
    sevnan2 sevnan2 51-55, M 1 Response Mar 30

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    I was picked on in elementary school for being overweight. For three straight years I took those kids' crap. Now I have a severe social anxiety disorder. It really sucks.
    mongo275 mongo275 22-25, M Mar 30

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    Please for my health and safety. Don't use the word rape towards me.
    jessixoxo4 jessixoxo4 16-17, F Apr 3

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    It began when I was as young as 7 years old. Heartbreak and loss. Each time I trusted somebody, they eventually left. And everytime it happened, it felt as though they took a...
    Ally95xx Ally95xx 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Im a bipolar hell spawned demon ***** but when I'm in a good mood, i like to bake cookies and **** 😍😘💋
    MissUnderstoodx MissUnderstoodx 18-21, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    The Deadly Clown and I Accidentally Kicked My Cat In The Face. I was getting ready to brush my teeth when my Mom called for me downstairs. I charged down the stairs. Little...
    NFDenmark NFDenmark 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 31

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    JAMES DARREN "Goodbye Cruel World" (Goodbye cruel world) (Goodbye cruel world) Oh, goodbye cruel world, I'm off to join the circus Gonna be a broken-hearted clown Paint my face...
    sherrianna sherrianna 18-21, F 11 hrs ago

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    Ok so yesterday at 11:30pm (yes I know its late x3 ) I went jogging. I just started exercising btw .. anyways theres this place behind my neighborhood and its just a long street...
    findingmyplace98 findingmyplace98 16-17, F Mar 24

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    I've been dubbed "class clown" of my senior class with a photo in the year book and everything. How I really feel though contradicts strongly to how a "class clown" would feel. I...
    caseylouise caseylouise 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    Mandrew the clown, that'll be my name. My real name is Andrewso it makes sense. I've just called a few hospitals enquiring about going in and cheering up the children. I know what...
    baconrind baconrind 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 2

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    " peeky-boo" her dyed blonde hair stood out starkly against the grey concrete as me and my girl take up squating for the momentary grease on the public step as the alligators swim...
    mudmen mudmen 46-50 Apr 4

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    I asked for a divorce 2 months ago. He moved out 2 weeks ago. Divorce will be final in 6 months. I wrote all my stories in I live in a sexless marriage group. I have been a member...
    Cucly80 Cucly80 31-35, F 5 Responses Apr 2

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    My name is ben im 22.im currently married and have a beautiful daughter.sounds good right,but theres a large problem im in the middle of a divorce with the woman i love. Although...
    benbite5 benbite5 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 3

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    I felt like **** today. Headache, cramps, back pain. Gained weight and so I feel crappy and bloated an yucky. Phone calls to the church so annoying, the people overall annoying. I...
    searchingfar searchingfar 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    Because I like to look good with or without clothes. Or maybe it's because I'm holding on to that hope that I can still be competitive in anything I take on. Also, if and when I...
    TexasGuyRy TexasGuyRy 31-35, M 3 Responses Mar 21

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    Who are you to judge me have you stepped into my shoes Why can't you just let it be haven't you got the news I'm no longer to be enslaved the spirit you can kill no longer a game...
    scorpioman84 scorpioman84 26-30 1 Response Mar 22

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    Interview with Paul Raymond Carrisosa, Paranormal Experiencer Interviewed by HPI Journalist Assistant Deanna Jaxine Stinson HPI (Hegelianism Paranormal Intelligence) International...
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    Tired and hurt today...so I wrote: I almost saw a glimmer of sunshine, then...now grey skies...again, how pathetic. I can't settle into one emotion from the grey pallet that has...
    RadRen RadRen 22-25, F Mar 24

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    I don't feel like socializing at all. All I want is to directly come home from school and lay in my bed with a mug of tea and maybe something to read. I can spend days at home as...
    daphiedoofie daphiedoofie 13-15, F Mar 24

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    If I Could Tell You - W.H. Auden http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AmArhniFZOo&list=PL14DABD8952EDB079 Time will say nothing but I told you so Time only knows the price we have to...
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    This has been a big problem in my life. When my depression starts I feel so empty, useless, and unloved. My anxiety has two sides. a family side where I can't stop acting like a...
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    I love make-up! I've been doing my make up the same for years because I think if you find something that compliments you why change it? I have pale skin, seriously I look like a...
    Renezra Renezra 22-25, F Mar 27

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    I'm about to fly in 3 days and I'm wishing for that fly to crash down... I'm living that moment ... It's amazing how life can push you and corner you up into this mindset even...
    urius urius 26-30 Mar 28

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    2pac -keep you head up! The first verse speaks to my soul it's just an amazing song! Verse 1; Some say the blacker the berry, the sweeter the juice I say the darker the flesh...
    YoungHeartOldSoul YoungHeartOldSoul 18-21, F Mar 29

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    So I went to an engagement party for one of my high school friends... It was amazing. Well, mind boggling anyway... The minute I walked through the door I revered back to the...
    Anaihsohs Anaihsohs 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    Five times I thought of the way You molded my mind out of earthly clay Across the seas and the vast lands My shoes are filled with so much sand Along the woods I have walked alone...
    BobFrost BobFrost 36-40, M Apr 1

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    An addition to the 100 things I already shared.. 1. I love playing video games 2. My favourites are the GTA Games 3. I enjoy talking about nerdy things 4. Even when I'm really sad...
    Ortolan Ortolan 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    "Bright Shiny Colors" - the Shirelles (Sha la la la la la la la la la, sha la la la la la la la la la) Come on baby, won't you come with me? There's so many things for us to see...
    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M 1 Response Apr 3

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    I experienced it and it surely was an eye-opener. It was a breath of fresh air. My most successful clean slate ever. Now when I returned, the old me did as well. Although I know...
    kixisback kixisback 22-25 Apr 4

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    Interesting... Here's mine! 1 - I am afraid of clowns 2- I have been to almost all 50 states 3- I love coffee 4- I eat mostly organic foods 5- I love to cook for people 6- I...
    Jerseygirl72 Jerseygirl72 41-45 2 Responses Apr 5

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    [X] the dark [X] staying single forever [ ] being a parent [X] being in front of others [ ] open spaces [X] closed spaces [ ] heights [ ] dogs [ ] birds [ ] fish [X] spiders...
    Ally95xx Ally95xx 18-21, F Apr 5

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    I reach out my strangers helping hand, yet it is rejected. I am honest, a real person with no hidden agendas. I reach because of my past, my hands are clean, sincere, and strong...
    13by13one 13by13one 56-60, M Apr 7

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    DION "The Wanderer" (Ernie Maresca) Oh well, I'm the type of guy who will never settle down Where pretty girls are well, you know that I'm around I kiss 'em and I love 'em...
    sherrianna sherrianna 18-21, F Apr 7

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    This was written about a lady Bob Dylan was in love with named Edie Sedgwick. But he couldn't pry her away from the 'Paris Hilton' life she was living, being part of artist* Andy...
    jayciedubb jayciedubb 46-50, M 2 Responses Apr 7

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    I was once confident and outgoing with girls. Not that I was a player, but I could easily maintain a conversation with them and flirt every now and then. When I reached my freshman...
    NoPseudonym NoPseudonym 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 7

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    Being a class clown, I have the habit of cheering my friends up whenever they feel down in their respective relationships, but I realized, just now, that nobody takes me seriously...
    Ansonicchi Ansonicchi 18-21, M Apr 7

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    what did one cannibal say to another cannibal as they were eating a clown? Does this taste funny to you?
    dwc294 dwc294 46-50, M 2 Responses Apr 9

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    If I Could Tell You - WH Auden Time will say nothing but I told you so Time only knows the price we have to pay; If I could tell you I would let you know. If we should weep...
    yeronlyman yeronlyman 41-45, M Apr 9

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    This is one of the most frustrating experiences I have ever written. There's just so many songs that I like but I'll narrow it down to 50 for ya :) 1. Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis...
    SylenaEverlasting SylenaEverlasting 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 9