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I Am Clown Damaged

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    Clowns Are Scary

    When I was a kid, despite my mother’s history of being abused, she occasionally left me to stay with my grandparents. Apparently, she minimized her childhood in her head. That’s the only way that I can really comprehend why she would even think of leaving me alone there. It...
    RhombusInTheSquare RhombusInTheSquare 36-40, F 8 Responses Jan 26, 2013

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    I wouldn't really say I'm SCARED of clowns per se, but I have always found them unsettling and not at all cute or cuddly. They freak me out. What is endearing about someone that...
    licoriceandlace licoriceandlace 41-45, F 4 Responses Jul 12

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    Clowns have always been creepy. John Wayne Gacy and Stephen King's "It," made things so worse.
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 Jun 29

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    I have the hugest fear of clowns 😭
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    I love too hard. I care too much. I hate too little. I always forgive even when I shouldn't. I bury my pain deep inside my heart. All the hurt I carry leads back to my faults. I am...
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    both are creepy and up to no good.
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    For me it's the painted on smile.
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    Climbing the mountain....sometimes I am dragging myself up, feel like I'm going to fall back down again. Sometimes I am holding on by my fingertips...some days I want to give up...
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    Don't tell me that I'm pretty, Cause I won't believe you. Don't tell me that I'm cute, Because I still won't believe you. Don't tell me I'm beautiful, I just won't believe you...
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    Hong Kong turned me into one of the wrinkled faced people who work a lot for little money. I am a Canadian autistic who has never had anyone truly care for him and I was never...
    Miserablechildhood Miserablechildhood 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 16

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    I've been through so much. I'm such a good person but I always hook up with the wrong type of people. Once they get to know me they me they find a weakness and use me. Or try to...
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    Stopped meds and now feeling like I should go back onto them. I feel like I will never get better. I am so scared. It is not normal to feel this terrible all the time. How will I...
    kbeary kbeary 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 19

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    I hate living because life sucks
    Derrick1987 Derrick1987 26-30, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Years of abuse...little confidence. Im getting to be a better person but i still cant shake the insecurities. I know i have the insecurities of a 14 year old but they are very real...
    Annirox Annirox 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    It hurts me so much, I hold things against people I just want to rid them off my mind and of this planet once they have hurt me... I'm in a relationship that I have no idea why...
    Rkfj Rkfj 18-21, F 11 hrs ago

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    I miss my frnd, i knw we can never talk to each other again n our frndshp is damage beyond repair but i still miss my frnd. I use to talk alot about different stuff, many fun...
    furmal furmal 26-30, F 10 hrs ago

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    Yeah, pretty much. Like if you see me, i am probably wearing my nirvana t-shirt or one of my dad's beer t-shirts. Like i don't care. I do have this problem, because i was so shy i...
    MayaMoonShadow MayaMoonShadow 16-17, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    I have to start my story about my experiences living in Australia, saying that I'm not advising anyone not to come here if you want to. Although, I had very difficult experiences...
    joseerickson joseerickson 41-45, M 7 hrs ago

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    "Tennis Court" Don't you think that it's boring how people talk Making smart with their words again, well I'm bored Because I'm doing this for the thrill of it, killin' it...
    Anaaaaa345 Anaaaaa345 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    I was chased by a mean *** clown in my nightmare last night. I dont know what caused this crazy dream. It might be the medicine I got from a clinic due to my cold. All I took was a...
    caramelLova1 caramelLova1 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    This may appeal to be your regular, cliché, stereotypical 'I have trust issues' post. One cannot deny the simple fact that actually, yes, it is that. My trust issues stemmed from...
    boneache boneache 18-21, F Jul 12

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    My main fears are clowns and then the basic being cheated on/being alone fears. But anyone here scared of clowns?
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    When we went shopping my aunt went to the makeup section at Walmart and my little cousin told me "Is mama going to be a clown?" I was laughing my buns off XD She thought makeup...
    DysfunctionalPiano DysfunctionalPiano 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 11

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    "haiku's of a madwomans mind" her silent monologue inside the cage of her mind leaves fleeting expressions catapulting across her vacant face like a strange circus act the pasty...
    mudmen mudmen 46-50 5 days ago

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    this is me. damaged, broken me. there nothing special about me, im just an average women trying to muddle through life with ease. i was always a 'strange' child according to people...
    littlemiss052014 littlemiss052014 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 3

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    I fell in love with an angel. My angel was more than anything I could ever ask for and he loves me and supports me despite that I am very damaged. I hate that I'm damaged. I spit...
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    The void I felt as I fell apart was, at least to what I could imagine in my mind, probably equal to what you felt when I'd left you in the hospital. I began to feel very sad. I...
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    "Send In The Clowns"-Frank Sinatra
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    Tennis court...
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