I Am Complex

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 351 People

    Calm The Storm from a favorite song of mine.

    ..... It's hard to believe so many years have passed So many lessons heard and how some things never last Holding on to dreams waiting for tomorrow to come So many bridges were burn from all the things we can't outrun All the pages you turned and how I never learned Well I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 2, 2014

    Questions

    Don't ask my why I do anything that I do unless you want to wait for the answer. I never know why I do the things I do until the answer is given to me.
    PROprium PROprium
    31-35, F
    Jun 18, 2010

    Yep, That's What My Friends Al...

    Yep, that's what my friends always say.
    sondosia sondosia
    18-21, F
    Jan 27, 2007

    Oh Boi!

    People wonder why their experiences with me are bad so I decided to tell here on EP why that is. I grew up in a childhood of torture and trauma. I have seen the cruelty of humanity because my stepfathers tortured me while my mother sat and did nothing, an accessory more or less...
    PROprium PROprium
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Jun 15, 2010

    Unconditional Positive Regard

    I think one thing that is complex about me is that after all the bullshit is said and done I am one of the easiest persons to talk to as far as unconditional positive regard goes. However, I think my specialty really is children. Teenage girls love me and I can relate to them...
    PROprium PROprium
    31-35, F
    Jun 21, 2010

    Pushing Away!

    If I have made you dislike me and made you so sick of seeing my face or so sick of reading my words then it was all intentional on my part. I pushed you to the limit in order to make you hate me. Why? Because you either did something or said something that put the concrete...
    PROprium PROprium
    31-35, F
    Jun 17, 2010

    When you feel like you have two personalities

    and trying to figure out how to combine them together.... I want one thing but also want another, I need to figure out how to balance the two. Yhea, growing up and figuring out yourself is harder than. Life itself haha.
    MysteriousRose MysteriousRose
    18-21, F
    Dec 13, 2014

    In My Head, Yes, But My Emo...

    In my head, yes, but my emotions always show themselves on my face, without a word said.
    justANNIE justANNIE
    46-50, F
    Feb 21, 2009

    Complex Is My Second Name

    I MYSELF IS COMPLEX. i'm made up of billions of cells, of codons, of hormones, of ideas, and of thoughts. as much as i want things to be simple, as much as i want things to appear as they seem, as much as i want to easily get the picture, nope, i just can't there are always...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 21, 2012

    Faraway.

    But up close i'm not that complicated or that interesting. lol
    TheRealMimi TheRealMimi
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jun 15, 2010

    Forgiveness

    I strongly believe in unconditional positive regard along with forgiveness. However, I think that there are some things that are simply unforgivable. I am having a inner conflict right now with this and the person(s) in subject I cannot forgive and I will carry this unforgiveness...
    PROprium PROprium
    31-35, F
    Jun 17, 2010

    Puzzled

    I used to think I was a simple man until about three years ago. When I mentioned that thought to the few people in my small world pre EP, they laughed. I asked the therapist if she was willing to take me on as a patient after the intial one hour of conversation. Her reply...
    paco35 paco35
    56-60, M
    3 Responses Oct 7, 2009

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