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    ExecutiveDonald ExecutiveDonald 22-25, M Jul 19

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    December 4. Letting Go.

    "How much do we need to let go of?" a friend asked one day. "I'm not certain," I replied, "but maybe everything." Letting go is a spiritual, emotional, mental, and physical process, a sometimes mysterious metaphysical process of releasing to God and the Universe that which we...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 2 Responses Dec 4, 2014

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    my mood swings scare me.

    i can go from being happy to depressed in a matter of seconds.
    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 14, 2014

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    I need a change in my life,

    but so many things both inside myself and outside are holding me back. I can't get motivated to fix what's wrong because the depression overwhelms me. That and I have made the wrong decision so many times, I'm not sure which way to turn.
    LonesumnTx LonesumnTx 51-55, F Jul 19

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    so for a long time some friends have been

    trying to get me to stop being so down on myself and to stop hurting myself. And as of last month I stopped hurting myself, mostly because of this one friend....my problem now is that to me it seems that this friend had no desire to be my friend anymore and doesn't like me....so...
    deejdomingo deejdomingo 13-15, M a week ago

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    So a few days ago my ex boyfriend decides to

    message me after a year of not talking and it seems like he only wants to pillow talk. I dont why i am allowing this by messaging him back and forth even though sometimes he replies back with one word. I was just about healing until i had an anxiety attack last night thinking...
    KBeexo KBeexo 18-21, F Jun 18

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    December 29. Moving On.

    "Learn the art of acceptance. It's a lot of grief." —Codependent No More Sometimes, as part of taking care of ourselves, it becomes time to end certain relationships. Sometimes, it comes time to change the parameters of a particular relationship. This is true in love, in...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 28, 2014

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    I know it's bad to manipulate people,

    but if I'm manipulating someone into not cutting themselves/self-harming is it really that bad? I just don't want her to hurt herself anymore, and by threatening to cut myself if she cuts herself, am I doing the wrong thing? I don't really know what else to do here. It's not...
    Butane46 Butane46 13-15, T 1 Response Apr 29

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    November 27. We can Trust Ourselves.

    For many of us, the issue is not whether we can trust another person again; it's whether we can trust our own judgment again. "The last mistake I made almost cost me my sanity," said one recovering woman who married a sex addict. "I can't afford to make another mistake like...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 27, 2014

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    December 16. Taking Care of Ourselves

    Emotionally. What does it mean to take care of myself emotionally? I recognize when I'm feeling angry, and I accept that feeling without shame or blame. I recognize when I'm feeling hurt, and I accept those feelings without attempting to punish the source of my pain. I...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 16, 2014

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    So Much Hard To So Much To Ignore In Life......

    I have done my education and now actively searching  to get hook up with appropriate man of my life :) am desperately looking some honest , comitted  man . But , I always get wrong man....I always get hugely dis-honest & insincere man , even though I am always...
    sanasafinaz sanasafinaz 26-30, F 19 Responses Jun 27, 2010

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    My best friend punched me today.

    Although I know she didn't really mean to, she knew who I was and I don't know. She punched me in he lip and kept trying to fight me. I understand that she has a past. And I want to accept the fact that I don't know everything that went on in her past. But when she gets physical...
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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    I fell in love with a guy

    who has a two year old. At first I truly believed I could handle everything that came with him and his child. The baby mama was civil and I actually would find myself in her defense at most times. Her situation is hard. I don't underestimate that but some time ago her and her...
    howfarisheaven howfarisheaven 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    I'm just all of the above

    and then it's heightened by my overactive mind. My main crush doesn't like me back and I know cuz I told him. He's not into guys, but he has an over-friendly personality and is sometimes all on me, and I'm just like wtf are you doing if you don't like me. I still like him...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 11

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    I've been scared too post too much about this

    on my account because I'm scared about the reactions. I haven't expressed any emotions about my gender identity before. But recently as things are becoming clear I'm on the verge of tears occasionally. I can feel the tears coming down my cheeks but I can't exactly express it so...
    Autumnflowers Autumnflowers 18-21 1 Response Jul 19

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    i cant stop feeling anxious,

    in two weeks i will have to go through finals i cant help myself i swear i was trying to study instead of worrying about it but i just cant i just cried and i feel like throwing everything to the floor and kick the wall i cant get out of this feeling UGH
    whitenut whitenut 13-15, F May 31

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    December 30. Laying the Foundation.

    The groundwork has been laid. Do you not see that? Don't you understand that all you have gone through was for a purpose? There was a reason, a good reason, for the waiting, the struggle, the pain, and finally the release. You have been prepared. The same way a builder must...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    November 30. Detachment.

    One day, my son brought a gerbil home to live with us. We put it in a cage. Some time later, the gerbil escaped. For the next six months, the animal ran frightened and wild through the house. So did we - chasing it. "There it is. Get it!" we'd scream, each time someone spotted...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2014

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    November 3. Denial. Denial is fertile breeding

    ground for the behaviors we call codependent: controlling, focusing on others, and neglecting ourselves. Illness and compulsive or addictive behaviors can emerge during denial. Denial can be confusing because it resembles sleeping. We're not really aware we're doing it until we...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 3, 2014

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    MaddyBale MaddyBale 18-21, F Apr 14

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    December 2. Putting Our Life on Hold.

    We cannot afford to put our needs on hold, waiting for another person to fulfill us, make our life better, or come around and be who and what we want that person to be. That will create resentment, hostility, an unhealthy dependency, and a mess to deal with later on. If we...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 2, 2014

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    I have come so far, have seen

    so much and in the darkest of places i always guide people to look up to the sky and see that light shining just look down on those concrete that you stand and see this is the foundation that you have built to stand strong and look inside to see you are the fire that burns...
    Lugelogistics93 Lugelogistics93 22-25, M Jul 20

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    I just recently started self harming.

    It actually felt good. I just started on Monday... I think. The days blur for me. I haven't done much at all. I told my best friend and he kinda freaked out. He will probably freak out as soon as he sees this. When I told him I had pretty much just had a bunch of scratches. All...
    secretlife343 secretlife343 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 8

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    I need healing.. Nothing ever goes "right"

    for too long. Im always caught up in the struggle with no one to lean on. I have inconsiderate friends who think of me last; family too. Its just all getting real to me; no one cares - never did.
    epipfhani epipfhani 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 4, 2014

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    I'm so broken right now,

    I really just don't know what else to do. Nothing's working and I feel worthless and pathetic. People try to help but they get bored of the same **** I think in my head. I can't help it I ******* hate it but it won't stop. I want help but nobody really tries. I just get so...
    EmoloveAnime EmoloveAnime 16-17, F Jul 19

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    I lost my one and only

    and its 100% my fault.
    Neverforgether Neverforgether 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 20

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    I have social anxiety,

    I can't: - invite people over - go out with friends - go abroad without family - do sleepovers Without feeling anxious or feeling like I'm going to have a panic attack, it's normally the build up that makes me the most nervous normally I'll be alright for most of the time when...
    tillygeorrge tillygeorrge 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    November 5. Let's Make a Deal.

    "The relationship just wasn't working out, and I wanted it to so badly. I kept thinking if I just made myself look prettier, if I just tried to be a more loving, kind person, then he would love me. I turned myself inside out to be something better, when all along, who I was was...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2014

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    I have a guy best friend,

    and he's married, (bad marriage) but he sometimes asks to see my eyes, asks how old I am (only since I turned 18) and occasionally gives me pats on the head and back. He tells me lots of things about him, and last time he gave me a hug, he initiated it (and I was remembering the...
    zydeko zydeko 18-21 1 Response Apr 12

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    A Lonely Nerd

    I think I am more aware now to the sake of my social isolation. I think it's sinking in, how lonely I am at the end of the day. How my life has been one entire moment of loneliness, of rejection, of alienation. Of never fitting in. It's the end of the day. I'm about to sleep in a...
    GenineFilS GenineFilS 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 12, 2012

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    Honestly, Idk what's wrong with me

    but at the smallest things I overthink everything and start getting anxious and emotional. I feel like crying. I think I might have anxiety
    cassycass13 cassycass13 16-17, F Apr 25

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    I feel like i have no life all i do is go to

    work come home and stay in my room all day on the weekends i just stay in my room. i want to go out and do stuff but im nervous and i don't know what i want to do either. I feel as if i want more out of life i want to go places and have adventures. I'v been worrying about...
    smith2590 smith2590 22-25, M Jun 20

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    November 15. Benefits of Recovery.

    There are two benefits from recovery: we have short-term gains and long-term gains. The short-term gains are the things we can do today that help us feel better immediately. We can wake up in the morning, read for a few minutes in our meditation book, and feel lifted. We can...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2014

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    I use to be 6 months clean.

    I failed. I'm still cutting......
    SirensInReverse SirensInReverse 13-15, F 3 Responses May 26, 2014

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    April 8. Self Care. "I don't precisely know

    what you need to do to take care of yourself. But I know you can figure it out." —Beyond Codependency Rest when you're tired. Take a drink of cold water when you're thirsty. Call a friend when you're lonely. Ask God to help when you feel overwhelmed. Many of us have...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Apr 8, 2014

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    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449 22-25, F Mar 27

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    November 19. Accepting Our Feelings.

    Why do we struggle so with our feelings? Why do we work so hard to deny our emotions, especially concerning other people? They are only feelings! In the course of a day, we may deny we feel frustrated in reaction to someone who is selling us a service. We may deny that we...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Nov 19, 2014

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    December 3. Developing Healthy Tolerance.

    Many of us are skilled at denying and discounting what hurts us. We may endure a particular situation, telling ourselves repeatedly it's not that bad; we shouldn't be so demanding; it'll change any day; we should be able to live with it; it doesn't annoy us; the other person...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 3, 2014

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    Depression..Depression.

    .uh..it`s killing me every minute.I am getting anxious for no reason.I am crying a lot these days.I am embarrassed seeing my hopeless situation.I think I`m gonna become a nutjob within few days.
    MaddyBale MaddyBale 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    Short yet simple experience -- But today,

    I am exactly three months clean of self-injury. I know it might not seem like much, but I am so proud of myself, as selfish as it may sound.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 6 Responses May 26, 2014

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    jon1981 jon1981 31-35, M 2 Responses Mar 24

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    December 1. Letting People Be There

    for Us. Sometimes, we need nurturing. Sometimes, we need people to support us. Many of us have been deprived of support and nurturing for so long we may not realize it's something we want and need. Many of us have learned to block our stop ourselves from getting what we want...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 1, 2014

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    Hard to understand others around me

    and what they truly want from me.
    kittyluv78 kittyluv78 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 30, 2014

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    December 22. Good Things Coming.

    Do not worry about how the good that has been planned for you will come. It will come. Do not worry, obsess, and think you have to control it, go out hunting for it, or tangle your mind trying to figure out how and when it will find you. It will find you. Surrender to your...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    November 6. Enjoying Life.

    Do something fun today. If you're relaxing, let yourself relax, without guilt, without worrying about the work that is undone. If you're with loved ones, let yourself love them, and let them love you. Let yourself feel close. Let yourself enjoy your work, for that can be...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 6, 2014

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    November 26. Letting Go of Self-Criticism.

    Look how far we've come! It's good to focus on the task ahead, on what remains to be done. It's important to stop and feel pleased about what we've accomplished too. Yes, it may seem that the change has been slow. At times, change is grueling. Yes, we've taken steps backward...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Nov 26, 2014

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