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I Am Confused, Anxious, and Depressed

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    Sometimes i just feel like i am drowning

    but i can see everyone else swimming and they are so happy and im not i want to feel loved and wanted but i just feel rejected and not good enough i just need to breathe before i go back and pretend to smile and act like its not a bad day
    Hope6800 Hope6800 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 16

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    So I don't know what to do ,

    I made a good friend but I've got depression and anger issues and because of that I've been taking a lot of things out on him. We also used to be close friends but now we barely talk and most of the times that we do we just seem to argue. I just want my friend back and I want...
    adaytoparade adaytoparade 18-21, F Apr 5

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    July 16. Insisting on the Best.

    We deserve the best life and love has to offer, but we are each faced with the challenge of learning to identify what that means in our life. We must each come to grips with our own understanding of what we believe we deserve, what we want, and whether we are receiving it...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Jul 16

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    lovebug5524 lovebug5524 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    May 18. Don't stop living your life!

    So often, when a problem occurs, inside or around us, we revert to thinking that if we put our life on hold we can positively contribute to the solution. If a relationship isn't working, if we face a difficult decision, if we're feeling depressed, we may put our life on hold...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response May 18

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    “I waste at least an hour every day lying in

    bed. Then I waste time pacing. I waste time thinking. I waste time being quiet and not saying anything because I'm afraid I'll stutter.”
    newerebe newerebe 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    I am scared to death I am going to fail.

    My life is going direct to hell. I am recently sober, and I am terrified. I can seldom sleep in peace. I have no friends anymore, because I have drank them all away. I am a Vet, with PTSD and a list of physical disabilities and I am only 27. I live in a place I know I will...
    oconchobhair oconchobhair 26-30, M Jul 15

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    Anyone else feel lonely idk

    but being single gets lonely sometimes
    Obreyn Obreyn 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 7

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    Self-care with Family Members.

    July 15. "I was thirty five years old the first time I spoke up to my mother and refused to buy into her games and manipulation. I was terribly frightened and almost couldn't believe I was doing this. I found I didn't have to be mean. I didn't have to start an argument. But I...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Jul 15

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    July 30. Accepting Powerlessness.

    Since I've been a child, I've been in an antagonistic relationship with an important emotional part of myself: my feelings. I have consistently tried to ignore, repress, or force my feelings away. I have tried to create unnatural feelings or force away feelings that were...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 8 hrs ago

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    July 22. Learning to Trust Again.

    Many of us have trust issues. Some of us tried long and hard to trust untrustworthy people. Over and again, we believed lies and promises never to be kept. Some of us tried to trust people for the impossible; for instance, trusting a practicing alcoholic not to drink again...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Jul 22

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    So Much Hard To So Much To Ignore In Life......

    I have done my education and now actively searching  to get hook up with appropriate man of my life :) am desperately looking some honest , comitted  man . But , I always get wrong man....I always get hugely dis-honest & insincere man , even though I am always...
    sanasafinaz sanasafinaz 26-30, F 20 Responses Jun 27, 2010

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    I need healing.. Nothing ever goes "right"

    for too long. Im always caught up in the struggle with no one to lean on. I have inconsiderate friends who think of me last; family too. Its just all getting real to me; no one cares - never did.
    epipfhani epipfhani 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 4

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    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F Jul 16

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    July 24. Denial. Denial is a powerful tool.

    Never underestimate its ability to cloud your vision. Be aware that, for many reasons, we have become experts at using this tool to make reality more tolerable. We have learned well how to stop the pain caused by reality - not by changing our circumstances, but by pretending...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 6 days ago

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    so I have depression

    and lately so called friends have been ignoring me and my family is just making me feel worse. No word of a lie and don't mean to come across as attention seeking but because of all that I'm getting quite suicidal and I honestly just don't care anymore.
    adaytoparade adaytoparade 18-21, F Apr 8

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    April 16. Letting Things Happen.

    We do not have to work so hard at gaining our insights. Yes, we're learning that painful and disappointing things happen, often for a reason and a higher purpose. Yes, these things often work out for good. But we don't have to spend so much time and energy figuring out the...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Apr 16

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    My bipolar depression has been getting the best

    of me lately. It's not easy losing your blood family because of standing up for how you feel. Being attacked by my dad with painful words has really not only brought me confusion but extreme sadness. I grew up with my two siblings bullying me, it was mostly my sister but then...
    PinkUnicorn26 PinkUnicorn26 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 24

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    Going to force myself not to sleep I don't know

    why just feel like I need to do something
    bringmeback555 bringmeback555 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    April 26. Negativity.

    Some people are carriers of negativity. They are storehouses of pent up anger and volatile emotions. Some remain trapped in the victim role and act in ways that further their victimization. And others are still caught in the cycle of addictive or compulsive patterns. Negative...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Apr 26

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    July 27. Letting Go. Stop trying

    so hard to control things. It is not our job to control people, outcomes, circumstances, and life. Maybe in the past we couldn't trust and let things happen. But we can now. The way life is unfolding is good. Let it unfold. Stop trying so hard to do better, be better, and be...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 3 days ago

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    July 17. Love, in Words

    and Actions. Many of us have confused notions about what it means to be loved and cared about. Many of us were loved and cared for by people who had discrepancies between what they said and did. We may have had a mother or father who said, "I love you" to us, and then...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Jul 17

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    July 25. Keep at It. Keep practicing your

    recovery behaviors, even when they feel awkward, even when they haven't quite taken yet, even if you don't get it yet. Sometimes it takes years for a recovery concept to move from our mind into our heart and soul. We need to work at recovery behaviors with the diligence, effort...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 5 days ago

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    July 19. Proving It to Ourselves.

    "I spent a year trying to prove to my husband how much his drinking was hurting me. When I began to recover, I realized I was the one who needed to realize how much his drinking was hurting me." —Anonymous "I spent months trying to prove to a man I was dating how...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Jul 19

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    July 14. We Are Lovable.

    "Even if the most important person in your world rejects you, you are still real, and you are still okay." —Codependent No More Do you ever find yourself thinking: How could anyone possibly love me? For many of us, this is a deeply ingrained belief that can become a self...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Jul 14

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    May 9. Learning New Behaviors.

    Sometimes we'll take a few steps backward. That's okay too. Sometimes it's necessary. Sometimes it's part of going forward. —Codependent No More Life is a Gentle Teacher. She wants to help us learn. The lessons she wants to teach us are the ones we need to learn. Some say...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F May 9

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    Not all the time but getting more

    and more as days go by.
    meme111111 meme111111 36-40, M 4 Responses Jun 15

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    July 23. Making It Happen.

    Stop trying so hard to make it happen. Stop doing so much, if doing so much is wearing you out or not achieving the desired results. Stop thinking so much and so hard about it. Stop worrying so about it. Stop trying to force, to manipulate, to coerce, or to make it happen...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F a week ago

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    July 20. Letting Go of Resistance.

    Do not be in such a hurry to move on. Relax. Breathe deeply. Be. Be in harmony today. Be open. There is beauty around and in us today. There is purpose and meaning in today. There is importance in today - not so much in what happens to us, but in how we respond. Let today...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Jul 20

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    April 8. Self Care. "I don't precisely know

    what you need to do to take care of yourself. But I know you can figure it out." —Beyond Codependency Rest when you're tired. Take a drink of cold water when you're thirsty. Call a friend when you're lonely. Ask God to help when you feel overwhelmed. Many of us have...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Apr 8

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    I use to be 6 months clean.

    I failed. I'm still cutting......
    SirensInReverse SirensInReverse 13-15, F 3 Responses May 26

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    my mood swings scare me.

    i can go from being happy to depressed in a matter of seconds.
    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 14

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    June 24. Detachment. Detachment doesn't come

    naturally for many of us. But once we realize the value of this recovery principle, we understand how vital detachment is. The following story illustrates how a woman came to understand detachment. "The first time I practiced detachment was when I let go of my alcoholic husband...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    I've been really depressed lately

    and my family has recently been at war and I've tried to stop it and it's stressing me out and then my ex boy friend keeps popping up out of no where and it still hurts me and then my best friends aren't there anymore and my boyfriend and I haven't talked in like a week and all...
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F 1 Response May 4

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    Please

    Please. You cant stand me, yet I cannot stand to be without you. You think I'm repulsive, I think you are the most beautiful person I've ever known. My interests bore you, your interests enthral me. You are a genius, I'm a disappointment. You're everything and more, I'm nothing...
    butyouweregagginforit butyouweregagginforit 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 22, 2013

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    I feel like my whole life is falling down

    around me. I'm just going through so much stuff right now that it makes it hard to sleep which makes me lethargic when I work and upset with the few people I have contact with. And it basically all comes back to me being too poor. Working is fine, but sometimes it's stressful...
    wishiwasamillionaire wishiwasamillionaire 18-21, F 8 hrs ago

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    July 12. Letting Go of Fear of Abandonment.

    "Where are you, God? Where did you go?" So many people have gone away. We may have felt so alone so much. In the midst of our struggles and lessons, we may wonder if God has gone away too. There are wondrous days when we feel God's protection and presence, leading and guiding...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Jul 12

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    I don't know what to do.

    And I don't even know why I'm confused. I'm not sure if I should call it confusion but this overwhelming feeling always comes when I get sad and it's almost like between confusion and insanity. I don't know how to explain it but it feels like I might get swallowed up into a dark...
    JayyPsythe JayyPsythe 13-15, M 2 Responses May 27

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    July 28. Fear. One day,

    I decided to try something new. I took my ten-year-old son out on the St. Croix River on a Waverunner. A Waverunner is a small boating vehicle resembling a motorcycle. We donned life jackets and embarked on an experience that turned out to be both exhilarating and frightening...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 day ago

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    May 25. Loving Ourselves Unconditionally.

    Love yourself into health and a good life of your own. Love yourself into relationships that work for you and the other person. Love yourself into peace, happiness, joy, success, and contentment. Love yourself into all that you always wanted. We can stop treating ourselves...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response May 25

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    July 21. Being Is Enough.

    We are not always clear about what we are experiencing, or why. In the midst of grief, transition, transformation, learning, healing, or discipline - it's difficult to have perspective. That's because we have not learned the lesson yet. We are in the midst of it. The gift of...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Jul 21

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    Life is getting too tiring

    and exasperating for me to deal with. Everything's like a never ending day gone wrong.
    EvanescentIridescent EvanescentIridescent 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    April 27. Letting Go of the Need to Control.

    "The rewards from detachment are great: serenity; a deep sense of peace; the ability to give and receive love in self-enhancing, energizing ways, and the freedom to find real solutions to our problems." —Codependent No More Letting go of our need to control can set others...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Apr 27

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    Short yet simple experience -- But today,

    I am exactly three months clean of self-injury. I know it might not seem like much, but I am so proud of myself, as selfish as it may sound.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 9 Responses May 26

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    May 10. Enjoying the Good Days.

    Good feelings can become a habitual part of our life. There is absolutely no virtue in the unnecessary suffering, which many of us have felt for much of our life. We don't have to allow others to make us miserable, and we don't have to make ourselves miserable. A good day...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F May 10

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    March 17. Empowering.

    You can think. You can feel. You can solve your problems. You can take care of yourself. Those words have often benefited me more than the most profound and elaborate advice. How easy it is to fall into the trap of doubting others and ourselves. When someone tells us about a...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Mar 17

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    bringmeback555 bringmeback555 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    April 7. Those Old Time Feelings.

    "I still have bad days. But that's okay. I used to have bad years." —Anonymous Sometimes, the old feelings creep back in. We may feel fearful, ashamed, and hopeless. We may feel not good enough, unlovable, victimized, helpless, and resentful about it all. This is...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    bringmeback555 bringmeback555 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 15

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    July 26. Owning Our Power.

    Don't you see? We do not have to be so victimized by life, by people, by situations, by work, by our friends, by our love relationships, by our family, by our feelings, our thoughts, our circumstances, and ourselves. We are not victims. We do not have to be victims. That is...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 4 days ago

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    A Lonely Nerd

    I think I am more aware now to the sake of my social isolation. I think it's sinking in, how lonely I am at the end of the day. How my life has been one entire moment of loneliness, of rejection, of alienation. Of never fitting in. It's the end of the day. I'm about to sleep in a...
    GenineFilS GenineFilS 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 12, 2012

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    July 18. Time to Get Angry.

    It's about time you got angry - yes, that angry. Anger can be such a potent, frightening emotion. It can also be a feeling that guides us to important decisions, sometimes decisions difficult to make. It can signal other people's problems, our problems, or simply problems we...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Jul 18

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