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    Dec. 25. The Holidays.

    Sometimes, the holidays are filled with the joy we associate with that time of year. The season flows. Magic is in the air. Sometimes, the holidays can be difficult and lonely. Here are some ideas I've learned through personal experience, and practice, to help us get through...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 24, 2014

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    I feel like I'm falling.

    .everything around me is crashing down. I don't want to take medicines, but there's no one to tell me not to! I want to go out, hang out with ppl..but I don't really have a company that will not look for a benefit before joining me. I hate staying at this place and there is just...
    angelcares angelcares 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    Not all the time but getting more

    and more as days go by.
    meme111111 meme111111 41-45, M 3 Responses Jun 15, 2014

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    December 21. Balance.

    Strive for balanced expectations of others. Strive for healthy tolerance. In the past, we may have tolerated too much or too little. We may have expected too much or too little. We may swing from tolerating abuse, mistreatment, and deception to refusing to tolerate normal...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 21, 2014

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    Circle’s complete. 365 days.

    Thank you all for reading my daily posts from Melody Beattie’s book, “The Language of Letting Go.” Wishing you and yours an amazing New Year filled with infinite good, love and light.
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Jan 1

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    November 14. Letting Our Anger Out.

    It's okay to be angry, but it isn't healthy to be resentful. Regardless of what we learned as children, no matter what we saw role modeled, we can learn to deal with our anger in ways that are healthy for us and for those around us. We can have our angry feelings. We can...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Nov 14, 2014

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    my mood swings scare me.

    i can go from being happy to depressed in a matter of seconds.
    1livingstars 1livingstars 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 14, 2014

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    Short yet simple experience -- But today,

    I am exactly three months clean of self-injury. I know it might not seem like much, but I am so proud of myself, as selfish as it may sound.
    gh0st13 gh0st13 18-21, F 6 Responses May 26, 2014

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    Hard to understand others around me

    and what they truly want from me.
    kittyluv78 kittyluv78 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 30, 2014

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    November 27. We can Trust Ourselves.

    For many of us, the issue is not whether we can trust another person again; it's whether we can trust our own judgment again. "The last mistake I made almost cost me my sanity," said one recovering woman who married a sex addict. "I can't afford to make another mistake like...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 27, 2014

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    December 31. Affirming the Good.

    "Fun becomes fun, love becomes love, life becomes worth living. And we become grateful." —Beyond Codependency Wait, and expect good things - for yourself and your loved ones. When you wonder what is coming, tell yourself the best is coming, the very best life and love...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 31, 2014

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    So many guys and girls call me cute

    and adorable and within the first two days of meeting they tell me they love me? They are never in my hometown and most aren't even in my state and I thought I wanted love but I don't think I'm ready and it's difficult having multiple conversations simultaneously and then...
    EpicBrotato EpicBrotato 13-15, M Jan 20

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    November 6. Enjoying Life.

    Do something fun today. If you're relaxing, let yourself relax, without guilt, without worrying about the work that is undone. If you're with loved ones, let yourself love them, and let them love you. Let yourself feel close. Let yourself enjoy your work, for that can be...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 6, 2014

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    December 18. Staying Open to Our Feelings.

    Many of us have gotten so good at following the "don't feel" rule that we can try to talk ourselves out of having feelings, even in recovery. "If I was really working a good program, I wouldn't feel angry." "I don't get angry. I'm a Christian. I forgive and forget." "I'm not...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 18, 2014

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    December 4. Letting Go.

    "How much do we need to let go of?" a friend asked one day. "I'm not certain," I replied, "but maybe everything." Letting go is a spiritual, emotional, mental, and physical process, a sometimes mysterious metaphysical process of releasing to God and the Universe that which we...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 2 Responses Dec 4, 2014

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    December 3. Developing Healthy Tolerance.

    Many of us are skilled at denying and discounting what hurts us. We may endure a particular situation, telling ourselves repeatedly it's not that bad; we shouldn't be so demanding; it'll change any day; we should be able to live with it; it doesn't annoy us; the other person...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 3, 2014

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    November 5. Let's Make a Deal.

    "The relationship just wasn't working out, and I wanted it to so badly. I kept thinking if I just made myself look prettier, if I just tried to be a more loving, kind person, then he would love me. I turned myself inside out to be something better, when all along, who I was was...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2014

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    So Much Hard To So Much To Ignore In Life......

    I have done my education and now actively searching  to get hook up with appropriate man of my life :) am desperately looking some honest , comitted  man . But , I always get wrong man....I always get hugely dis-honest & insincere man , even though I am always...
    sanasafinaz sanasafinaz 26-30, F 20 Responses Jun 27, 2010

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    December 27. Near the Top.

    I know you're tired. I know you feel overwhelmed. You may feel as though this crisis, this problem, this hard time will last forever. It won't. You are almost through. You don't just think it has been hard; it has been hard. You have been tested, tried, and retested on what...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 27, 2014

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    December 24. Getting Through the Holidays.

    For some, the sights, signs, and smells of the holidays bring joy and a warm feeling. But, while others are joyously diving into the season, some of us are dipping into conflict, guilt, and a sense of loss. We read articles on how to enjoy the holidays, we read about the...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 24, 2014

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    April 8. Self Care. "I don't precisely know

    what you need to do to take care of yourself. But I know you can figure it out." —Beyond Codependency Rest when you're tired. Take a drink of cold water when you're thirsty. Call a friend when you're lonely. Ask God to help when you feel overwhelmed. Many of us have...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Apr 8, 2014

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    December 22. Good Things Coming.

    Do not worry about how the good that has been planned for you will come. It will come. Do not worry, obsess, and think you have to control it, go out hunting for it, or tangle your mind trying to figure out how and when it will find you. It will find you. Surrender to your...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    Im Aesha, from kolkata,

    22 years old. I dont exactly remember when all of this started- according to the ppl around me, Im always sad..never happy...never hang out and do nothing. It didnt bother me for a long time because i got fair grades until some years ago, when i lost interest in studies too...
    angelcares angelcares 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    This is the time when my depression got the

    best in me! It's been so long from my last depression! I thought i am all cured until the beginning of this year! I had a huge fight with my bf and received bad news from my family and also losing a chance to be able achieve one of my goals in life! I am a mess! I have...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F Jan 13

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    I don't know what to think

    or do anymore. I am so depressed and always on the verge of tears or having seizures from the stress. I want to run and not tell anyone where I am going or die or something... sometime between September and January I am supposed to have a hearing about my ssi. But I have...
    tig1991 tig1991 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 17, 2014

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    December 19. Work Roles.

    How easy it is to dive into roles at work. How easy it is to place other people in roles. Sometimes, this is necessary, appropriate, and expedient. But we can also let our self-shine through our role. There is joy in giving our gift of skill at work, at giving ourselves to...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 19, 2014

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    December 16. Taking Care of Ourselves

    Emotionally. What does it mean to take care of myself emotionally? I recognize when I'm feeling angry, and I accept that feeling without shame or blame. I recognize when I'm feeling hurt, and I accept those feelings without attempting to punish the source of my pain. I...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 16, 2014

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    December 26. Growth. Just

    as when we were children and grew out of favorite toys and clothes, we sometimes grow out of things as adults - people, jobs, and homes. This can be confusing. We may wonder why someone or something that was so special and important to us last year doesn't fit the same way in...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 26, 2014

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    December 15. Feelings.

    It's okay to have and feel our feelings - all of them. Years into recovery, we may still be battling with ourselves about this issue. Of all the prohibitions we've lived with, this one is potentially the most damaging and the most long-lived. Many of us needed to shut down...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 15, 2014

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    Sometimes i just feel like i am drowning

    but i can see everyone else swimming and they are so happy and im not i want to feel loved and wanted but i just feel rejected and not good enough i just need to breathe before i go back and pretend to smile and act like its not a bad day
    Hope6800 Hope6800 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 16, 2014

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    I am very confused about my relationship with

    my dad. Over the past 19 years my dad has never really been there for me emotionally. Even though he has always made sure I have had a roof over my head, clothes to wear, and food to eat, which I will be eternally grateful for, he has never really been there for me. A lot of...
    LonelyGirl547 LonelyGirl547 18-21, F Dec 18, 2014

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    November 19. Accepting Our Feelings.

    Why do we struggle so with our feelings? Why do we work so hard to deny our emotions, especially concerning other people? They are only feelings! In the course of a day, we may deny we feel frustrated in reaction to someone who is selling us a service. We may deny that we...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Nov 19, 2014

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    Today, once again I feel this way.

    I feel lonely and left out. Whether it was choice or accident, I don't know. Whether its the right thing or not, I don't know. All I know is that I don't like it! I hate people remembering me only when they need me- and afterwards treating me like a trash.. I hate when people...
    angelcares angelcares 22-25, F Jan 7

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    A Lonely Nerd

    I think I am more aware now to the sake of my social isolation. I think it's sinking in, how lonely I am at the end of the day. How my life has been one entire moment of loneliness, of rejection, of alienation. Of never fitting in. It's the end of the day. I'm about to sleep in a...
    GenineFilS GenineFilS 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 12, 2012

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    May 25. Loving Ourselves Unconditionally.

    Love yourself into health and a good life of your own. Love yourself into relationships that work for you and the other person. Love yourself into peace, happiness, joy, success, and contentment. Love yourself into all that you always wanted. We can stop treating ourselves...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response May 25, 2014

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    December 2. Putting Our Life on Hold.

    We cannot afford to put our needs on hold, waiting for another person to fulfill us, make our life better, or come around and be who and what we want that person to be. That will create resentment, hostility, an unhealthy dependency, and a mess to deal with later on. If we...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 2, 2014

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    December 29. Moving On.

    "Learn the art of acceptance. It's a lot of grief." —Codependent No More Sometimes, as part of taking care of ourselves, it becomes time to end certain relationships. Sometimes, it comes time to change the parameters of a particular relationship. This is true in love, in...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 28, 2014

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    December 23. Holiday Triggers.

    "One year, when I was a child, my father got drunk and violent at Christmas. I had just unwrapped a present, a bottle of hand lotion, when he exploded in an alcoholic rage. Our Christmas was disrupted. It was terrible. It was frightening for the whole family. Now, thirty-five...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 23, 2014

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    December 12. God's Will.

    Each day, ask God what God wants us to do today; then ask God to help. A simple request, but so profound and far reaching it can take us anywhere we need to go. Listen: all that we want, all that we need, all the answers, all the help, all the good, all the love, all the...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Dec 12, 2014

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    I feel completely worthless

    and simply pathetic. I feel like I let everyone down and everyone lets me down. I don't know why I'm even put on this Earth I don't understand my purpose. I feel so sad most of the time and I hate it. My parents don't understand or help make anything better for me. I don't know...
    lemonade5 lemonade5 16-17, F Jan 2

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    Hi everyone. I am dealing with depression

    and anxiety. I just got back on EP because I needed some support and wanted to give support. If you need someone to talk to I'm here or would like to talk to me about my depression, etc, I am here. Thank you.
    beautifuleyes13 beautifuleyes13 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    December 17. Nurturing Ourselves.

    Many of us have been so deprived of nurturing that we think it's silly or self-indulgent. Nurturing is neither silly nor self-indulgent; it's how we show love for ourselves. That's what we're striving for in recovery - a loving relationship with ourselves that works, so we can...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2014

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    I use to be 6 months clean.

    I failed. I'm still cutting......
    SirensInReverse SirensInReverse 13-15, F 3 Responses May 26, 2014

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    I don't know. Im just exactly how the title of

    this text says. It's hard to elaborate how I feel right now. And I really wish to have a friend and at the same a conversative... Here. I, honestly, would like to talk to someone right now. In reality, there's no one. No one.
    Prinzyon Prinzyon 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    November 30. Detachment.

    One day, my son brought a gerbil home to live with us. We put it in a cage. Some time later, the gerbil escaped. For the next six months, the animal ran frightened and wild through the house. So did we - chasing it. "There it is. Get it!" we'd scream, each time someone spotted...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2014

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    you can never be yourself in the world because

    being yourself is like a damn crime i'm forced to be someone i am not i do not want to fit in i do not want to be conformed to this world but i have no choice over my own life
    sixlives sixlives 22-25, F Dec 19, 2014

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    November 29. Step Twelve.

    The Twelfth Step says that having had a spiritual awakening, we try to carry this message to others. Our message is one of hope, love, comfort, health - a better way of life, one that works. How do we carry it? Not by rescuing. Not by controlling. Not by obsessing. Not by...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2014

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    December 30. Laying the Foundation.

    The groundwork has been laid. Do you not see that? Don't you understand that all you have gone through was for a purpose? There was a reason, a good reason, for the waiting, the struggle, the pain, and finally the release. You have been prepared. The same way a builder must...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    Ok ! So I am absent minded

    and dishonest and I have to improve my looks? you Stuff me up with unwanted tension. And still asking me to take it the right way? Where in the world was the appreciation when I needed it.You never ever did it once.I don't even remember once.I doubted myself when others gave...
    mellifluousme mellifluousme 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 19

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    November 3. Denial. Denial is fertile breeding

    ground for the behaviors we call codependent: controlling, focusing on others, and neglecting ourselves. Illness and compulsive or addictive behaviors can emerge during denial. Denial can be confusing because it resembles sleeping. We're not really aware we're doing it until we...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2014

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    December 28. Panic. Don't panic!

    If panic strikes, we do not have to allow it to control our behaviors. Behaviors controlled by panic tend to be self-defeating. No matter what the situation or circumstance, panic is usually not a good foundation. No matter what the situation or circumstance, we usually have at...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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