I Am Confused, Anxious, and Depressed

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     I have bipolar depression

    and generalized anxiety disorder.
    zak1attack zak1attack
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Nov 4, 2015

    April 8. Self Care. "I don't precisely know

    what you need to do to take care of yourself. But I know you can figure it out." —Beyond Codependency Rest when you're tired. Take a drink of cold water when you're thirsty. Call a friend when you're lonely. Ask God to help when you feel overwhelmed. Many of us have...
    zeeva70 zeeva70
    41-45, F
    Apr 8, 2014

    when my brain is scattered

    and my day has not gone good my mood makes me look stupid. my brain wants to say so much but it's too much so when I say something I sound mean or rude or like k don't wanna be bothered. idk what to say or how to say it become panicky and overwhelmed. I can't say sorry because...
    mentallyhigh mentallyhigh
    18-21, F
    Dec 12, 2015

    December 2. Putting Our Life on Hold.

    We cannot afford to put our needs on hold, waiting for another person to fulfill us, make our life better, or come around and be who and what we want that person to be. That will create resentment, hostility, an unhealthy dependency, and a mess to deal with later on. If we...
    zeeva70 zeeva70
    41-45, F
    Dec 2, 2014

    I feel like i have no life all i do is go to

    work come home and stay in my room all day on the weekends i just stay in my room. i want to go out and do stuff but im nervous and i don't know what i want to do either. I feel as if i want more out of life i want to go places and have adventures. I'v been worrying about...
    smith2590 smith2590
    26-30, M
    Jun 20, 2015

    Guys. I'm sorry. I have been

    so negative I really do not mean to be but I think I have hit my mid life crisis. Nothing, absolutely nothing makes me happy lately. The smallest things set me off and everyone at work says it makes them sad I do not smile anymore and I am not happy like I usually am. It makes...
    Positivevibes12 Positivevibes12
    18-21, F
    Mar 26, 2016

    sometimes I feel like words have no meaning

    and that my life is just stuck in this maze and I can't get out. I go through things I'm not suppose to but because of certain situation I do what needs to be done. it like having no one to talk too because everyone is busy trying to build their future while stumping me to the...
    Nikirika Nikirika
    22-25, F
    Sep 16, 2015

    Sometimes i just feel like i am drowning

    but i can see everyone else swimming and they are so happy and im not i want to feel loved and wanted but i just feel rejected and not good enough i just need to breathe before i go back and pretend to smile and act like its not a bad day
    Hope6800 Hope6800
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jul 16, 2014

    November 5. Let's Make a Deal.

    "The relationship just wasn't working out, and I wanted it to so badly. I kept thinking if I just made myself look prettier, if I just tried to be a more loving, kind person, then he would love me. I turned myself inside out to be something better, when all along, who I was was...
    zeeva70 zeeva70
    41-45, F
    1 Response Nov 5, 2014

    December 22. Good Things Coming.

    Do not worry about how the good that has been planned for you will come. It will come. Do not worry, obsess, and think you have to control it, go out hunting for it, or tangle your mind trying to figure out how and when it will find you. It will find you. Surrender to your...
    zeeva70 zeeva70
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Dec 22, 2014

    My best friend punched me today.

    Although I know she didn't really mean to, she knew who I was and I don't know. She punched me in he lip and kept trying to fight me. I understand that she has a past. And I want to accept the fact that I don't know everything that went on in her past. But when she gets physical...
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 21, 2015

    November 3. Denial. Denial is fertile breeding

    ground for the behaviors we call codependent: controlling, focusing on others, and neglecting ourselves. Illness and compulsive or addictive behaviors can emerge during denial. Denial can be confusing because it resembles sleeping. We're not really aware we're doing it until we...
    zeeva70 zeeva70
    41-45, F
    1 Response Nov 3, 2014

    I recently was in a accident

    that changed my whole life not only physically but emotionally and even months later I haven't gotten over it and from what I hear that's only normal. How I feel though is that I should be over it but I feel stuck like I can't rewind what happened and I can't move forward. I...
    AnonymousT92 AnonymousT92
    22-25, F
    Feb 3, 2016

    November 27. We can Trust Ourselves.

    For many of us, the issue is not whether we can trust another person again; it's whether we can trust our own judgment again. "The last mistake I made almost cost me my sanity," said one recovering woman who married a sex addict. "I can't afford to make another mistake like...
    zeeva70 zeeva70
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Nov 27, 2014

    my mood swings scare me.

    i can go from being happy to depressed in a matter of seconds.
    1livingstars 1livingstars
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 14, 2014

    December 4. Letting Go.

    "How much do we need to let go of?" a friend asked one day. "I'm not certain," I replied, "but maybe everything." Letting go is a spiritual, emotional, mental, and physical process, a sometimes mysterious metaphysical process of releasing to God and the Universe that which we...
    zeeva70 zeeva70
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Dec 4, 2014

    I gotta climb out of this hole I'm in.

    but honestly I'd rather just be high and forget I'm in a hole.
    raynbow32 raynbow32
    18-21, F
    Mar 13, 2016

    I'm so broken right now,

    I really just don't know what else to do. Nothing's working and I feel worthless and pathetic. People try to help but they get bored of the same **** I think in my head. I can't help it I ******* hate it but it won't stop. I want help but nobody really tries. I just get so...
    EmoloveAnime EmoloveAnime
    18-21, F
    Jul 19, 2015

    November 15. Benefits of Recovery.

    There are two benefits from recovery: we have short-term gains and long-term gains. The short-term gains are the things we can do today that help us feel better immediately. We can wake up in the morning, read for a few minutes in our meditation book, and feel lifted. We can...
    zeeva70 zeeva70
    41-45, F
    1 Response Nov 15, 2014

    December 16. Taking Care of Ourselves

    Emotionally. What does it mean to take care of myself emotionally? I recognize when I'm feeling angry, and I accept that feeling without shame or blame. I recognize when I'm feeling hurt, and I accept those feelings without attempting to punish the source of my pain. I...
    zeeva70 zeeva70
    41-45, F
    Dec 16, 2014

    So scared...of myself

    and hating myself for being such a coward. I can't end it and I can't live. What do I do? Who can I turn to? Where can I go? Just want to dig a hole and lay there and wait for death...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Aug 23, 2015

    I worry so much that my head hurts.

    going through the pain and the struggles of feeling that nobody wants to help me. sometime death is better than the agrony of life. I'm tired of fighting this war....I think I'm going to give up now :-(
    Nikirika Nikirika
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 5, 2015

    I m feeling abit sad today.

    Just feel that I m not really good at anything u know and I have difficulty to be attached with anyone...
    thousandcuts thousandcuts
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Aug 31, 2015

    November 29. Step Twelve.

    The Twelfth Step says that having had a spiritual awakening, we try to carry this message to others. Our message is one of hope, love, comfort, health - a better way of life, one that works. How do we carry it? Not by rescuing. Not by controlling. Not by obsessing. Not by...
    zeeva70 zeeva70
    41-45, F
    1 Response Nov 29, 2014

    I need a change in my life,

    but so many things both inside myself and outside are holding me back. I can't get motivated to fix what's wrong because the depression overwhelms me. That and I have made the wrong decision so many times, I'm not sure which way to turn.
    deleted deleted
    Jul 19, 2015

    i cant stop feeling anxious,

    in two weeks i will have to go through finals i cant help myself i swear i was trying to study instead of worrying about it but i just cant i just cried and i feel like throwing everything to the floor and kick the wall i cant get out of this feeling UGH
    whitenut whitenut
    18-21, F
    May 31, 2015

    A Lonely Nerd

    I think I am more aware now to the sake of my social isolation. I think it's sinking in, how lonely I am at the end of the day. How my life has been one entire moment of loneliness, of rejection, of alienation. Of never fitting in. It's the end of the day. I'm about to sleep in a...
    GenineFilS GenineFilS
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Feb 12, 2012

    Today is not good for me.

    I guess I could say I'm feeling depressed. I'm never really a depressed person. And when I feel what I assume must be what some of my friends feel often, depression, it strikes me strangely. I've been going through emotions I don't know how to handle. Hope one moment, despair...
    Ardenes Ardenes
    31-35, F
    1 Response Sep 27, 2015

    November 14. Letting Our Anger Out.

    It's okay to be angry, but it isn't healthy to be resentful. Regardless of what we learned as children, no matter what we saw role modeled, we can learn to deal with our anger in ways that are healthy for us and for those around us. We can have our angry feelings. We can...
    zeeva70 zeeva70
    41-45, F
    Nov 14, 2014

    November 6. Enjoying Life.

    Do something fun today. If you're relaxing, let yourself relax, without guilt, without worrying about the work that is undone. If you're with loved ones, let yourself love them, and let them love you. Let yourself feel close. Let yourself enjoy your work, for that can be...
    zeeva70 zeeva70
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Nov 6, 2014

    It's so weird, my feelings.

    . . It seems like I only get a break when I'm high, everything seems alright and like I can keep on keeping on when under the influence. I complain about others around me doing pills and whatnot all of the time, though I do also, practically my entire family does drugs; I guess...
    cuntcake cuntcake
    70+, F
    1 Response Feb 22, 2015

    December 30. Laying the Foundation.

    The groundwork has been laid. Do you not see that? Don't you understand that all you have gone through was for a purpose? There was a reason, a good reason, for the waiting, the struggle, the pain, and finally the release. You have been prepared. The same way a builder must...
    zeeva70 zeeva70
    41-45, F
    1 Response Dec 30, 2014


    .uh..it`s killing me every minute.I am getting anxious for no reason.I am crying a lot these days.I am embarrassed seeing my hopeless situation.I think I`m gonna become a nutjob within few days.
    MaddyBale MaddyBale
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 30, 2015

    My anxiety is eating me from the inside

    and out. I just wanna fall down and cry. I reach out my hand to my best friend and she don't care anymore... This stops me from doing anything at all! I can stop thinking about how she hurting me, when I've told her my deepest thoughts and she now ignores me... I hoped this was...
    realcomplicated realcomplicated
    31-35, M
    Jan 14, 2016

    December 29. Moving On.

    "Learn the art of acceptance. It's a lot of grief." —Codependent No More Sometimes, as part of taking care of ourselves, it becomes time to end certain relationships. Sometimes, it comes time to change the parameters of a particular relationship. This is true in love, in...
    zeeva70 zeeva70
    41-45, F
    Dec 28, 2014

    I've been scared too post too much about this

    on my account because I'm scared about the reactions. I haven't expressed any emotions about my gender identity before. But recently as things are becoming clear I'm on the verge of tears occasionally. I can feel the tears coming down my cheeks but I can't exactly express it so...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 19, 2015

    I like her but I think she likes me back

    but I don't know I don't wanna assume ahhhh I'm confused!
    margarett19 margarett19
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 6, 2015

    I lost my one and only

    and its 100% my fault.
    Neverforgether Neverforgether
    26-30, M
    Jul 20, 2015

    I am not okay. She used

    and I have to stay strong for her. She's being brain washed and is thinking about doing drugs again. I am so dead and I have to stay positive with her but it's so hard because she thinks I don't understand. Which I don't. But I'm so sad and scared and I can't go through her...
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 9, 2015

    Locked in a cell the same thing repeating over

    and over again. I sense impending doom, do you know how it feels?. I doubt you do. I feel guilty for feeling frustration how dare I complain about my life. But how can I not when I feel so unwanted. 'But God is there for you and he is the only one you should care about' that's...
    Imforgottenx Imforgottenx
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Aug 29, 2015

    I need healing.. Nothing ever goes "right"

    for too long. Im always caught up in the struggle with no one to lean on. I have inconsiderate friends who think of me last; family too. Its just all getting real to me; no one cares - never did.
    epipfhani epipfhani
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 4, 2014

    Today I have one of those days.

    I just need to be alone together with a friend. Don't need to talk. Just sitting back to back and read books. Or have her in my lap and stroke her hair. And see her smile... The thing is that I told her, and she answered: "wouldn't it be your wife that way" I answer honest...
    realcomplicated realcomplicated
    31-35, M
    Jan 8, 2016

    Short yet simple experience -- But today,

    I am exactly three months clean of self-injury. I know it might not seem like much, but I am so proud of myself, as selfish as it may sound.
    gh0st13 gh0st13
    18-21, F
    6 Responses May 26, 2014

    :( I can't take this anymore.

    I want it to stop...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Aug 6, 2015

    I use to be 6 months clean.

    I failed. I'm still cutting......
    SirensInReverse SirensInReverse
    16-17, F
    3 Responses May 26, 2014

    December 3. Developing Healthy Tolerance.

    Many of us are skilled at denying and discounting what hurts us. We may endure a particular situation, telling ourselves repeatedly it's not that bad; we shouldn't be so demanding; it'll change any day; we should be able to live with it; it doesn't annoy us; the other person...
    zeeva70 zeeva70
    41-45, F
    Dec 3, 2014

    So Much Hard To So Much To Ignore In Life......

    I have done my education and now actively searching  to get hook up with appropriate man of my life :) am desperately looking some honest , comitted  man . But , I always get wrong man....I always get hugely dis-honest & insincere man , even though I am always...
    sanasafinaz sanasafinaz
    26-30, F
    19 Responses Jun 27, 2010

    My life has been a world of pain

    and confusion. This started when i was 7, when my best friend was shot by his dad. As i grew older i thought life would get better, i was wrong. At the age of 11 my cousin died in a car crash, causing our family to change. I had my first question upon my sexuality when i was 12...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Oct 6, 2015

    Hello, I am a girl and I am a dreamer i have

    always believed firmly on every dream I had and am ready to give everything for them. I have seen my dreams die last year when my 4 year long relationship got into rough patches, I spent almost all year to sort things with my guy but when he did not showed any care in the world...
    Blackangel4u Blackangel4u
    26-30, F
    Aug 27, 2014

    My son is depressed and bulimic.

    As his dad I am supposed to have answers and help him but I am powerless. This makes me feel useless as a parent.
    shakenbaker76 shakenbaker76
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Aug 2, 2015

    People say love is in the air then

    why can't I feel it: (
    deleted deleted
    Oct 12, 2015

    Hard to understand others around me

    and what they truly want from me.
    kittyluv78 kittyluv78
    36-40, F
    1 Response Aug 30, 2014

    November 30. Detachment.

    One day, my son brought a gerbil home to live with us. We put it in a cage. Some time later, the gerbil escaped. For the next six months, the animal ran frightened and wild through the house. So did we - chasing it. "There it is. Get it!" we'd scream, each time someone spotted...
    zeeva70 zeeva70
    41-45, F
    1 Response Nov 30, 2014

    I wish I could go back in time

    or just go ahead of time, Helplessness is my companion nowadays, Complaining from my Creator has been in increasing, I wish I could finish this torment, Why this happen to me, Why it is always me, Why I have born, I wish I could go somewhere, and no one can see me or talk...
    Humayra345 Humayra345
    26-30, F
    Nov 14, 2015

    Ok ! So I am absent minded

    and dishonest and I have to improve my looks? you Stuff me up with unwanted tension. And still asking me to take it the right way? Where in the world was the appreciation when I needed it.You never ever did it once.I don't even remember once.I doubted myself when others gave...
    mellifluousme mellifluousme
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 19, 2015

    This is just so I can vent this out.

    Ok so I have bpd and today was the start of my low period after an amazing week. I finally managed to meet people I respect and even managed to chat to but seeing as they are semi famous I also have my doubts on how much was a show due to their image or if they were actually...
    zelllambert zelllambert
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 18, 2015
    ExecutiveDonald ExecutiveDonald
    22-25, M
    Jul 19, 2015
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