I Am Constantly At War With Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 110 People

    I struggle with wanting to be outgoing

    and afraid of being hurt. I want friends but have a hard time making myself open. My fears are so hard to overcome. I want so much, but have been hurt so much by so many. The war is never ending.
    Amateddy Amateddy
    41-45, M
    Jan 14, 2016

    I don't know what to do most of the time,

    but in the end i decide anyways, and the Dilemma never lasts more than 2-3 days at most. However I am stuck in a major one... That's been going on for 6 weeks, and a serious issue at that. I'm not sure if i want to stay in my current relationship... When I'm away from her i don...
    ThatInsaneHenry ThatInsaneHenry
    Jan 17, 2015

    Its Like Theres Always A Battle Going On Inside My Head

    i have no idea what to do with myself. i have become such a lonely anti-social recluse. i dont care about people or society in anyway. i just want to find that special someone. but ill probably just sit here and rot in my head alone until the day i die.
    EdgeCrusher EdgeCrusher
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jun 18, 2011

    Body and Soul Calls F Cease Fire. Negotions Fail!

    I guess I can't understand my own self at times. I try to control how I think and feel, but, my mind, for me, is uncontrollable, and it seems almost every second of the day is spent reliving only the bad things I've done, as if as a punishment. I can put up with that though...
    HellScyth HellScyth
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Sep 22, 2009

    I dont know if that is completely true.

    .. I think i lost that war years ago, and now i am simply living in the depressing aftermath trying to fix everything
    Jcarto Jcarto
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 20, 2016

    No Matter How Hard I Try: She Is Pulling At My

    Strings. No Matter How Much I Try To Resist Her Temptation: She Consumes Me With Promises Of A Better Life. No Matter The Times That I Have Managed To Suppress Her: She Seeps Her Thoughts Into My Mind. I Cannot Beat Her. I Will Never Be Free Of Her. I Can Never Be Separated...
    AmaterasuNoOkami AmaterasuNoOkami
    18-21, F
    Jan 13, 2016

    I try and be a good person

    and it has failed me I have invested so much in my last gf that I lost myself. how do I reinvent myself
    willdad willdad
    36-40, M
    1 Response Jan 14, 2016

    this is a problem, i just destroyed the best

    relationship i have ever had because of this... the only person i fully trusted, the only person who i could be open with... the only person i loved... just gone
    Jcarto Jcarto
    18-21, M
    Jan 18, 2016
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