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I Am Crossing the Abyss

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    Crossing The Abyss

    I took the oath of the abyss in 1990. been there ever since!
    Allala Allala 46-50, M May 13, 2010

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    Just a bunch of random songs in no particular order. I'll probably end up thinking of more songs I should've put on this list later. But anyway lots of videogames and anime and...
    seasalticecream seasalticecream 16-17, M 3 hrs ago

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    There is nothing to live for. No reason behind my suicide just tired of life. Call me selfish. Tell me to hold on and stay strong. It will fall upon deaf ears. I know it won't fix...
    calicorex4 calicorex4 13-15, F 5 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    The one Slayer song I can live happily with - Seasons in the Abyss, going insane... ahhhhh 
    0nest0 0nest0 31-35, M 4 hrs ago

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    Sometimes we sink and we fall deeper into the abyss we call life. When we fall and sink, we look around and see nothing but darkness. We open our eyes wide and look real hard at...
    BobFrost BobFrost 36-40, M Mar 19

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    America - By Luner007 and scorpioman84 [ intro ] Government got us programmed got us programmed to believe they lies programmed to not care when a little kid dies...
    LunarDream LunarDream 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 1

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    but there is nowhere to go ..nowhere to hide am stuck living this eternal misery ...ok its not that miserable but I need something stronger something more wholesome the drudgery...
    psychicprayer psychicprayer 36-40 a week ago

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    About 3 or 4 years ago I was riding my bike home from school. When I was coming up to a road which I had to cross, and I looked left and right before crossing and I swear there...
    Nimoligist Nimoligist 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    I never knew a guy could be a home wrecker. My husband has a bi male friend that soooooo badly wants to **** him. They just started talking again. They stopped talking before...
    ReeseThompson0424 ReeseThompson0424 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    It's almost like I'm suffocating right now. What surrounds me seems more...real. But I am detached from it all. As I suffocate I can almost hear that voice that calls to me in...
    IcyDragon IcyDragon 16-17, F Mar 18

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    I claw the dark circles hanging low around my eyes. Stay up an eternity thinking of you. The same she I plotted and schemed my escape from. You tired me out... I contemplated...
    faintking faintking 26-30, M Mar 18

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    Yonder it is and dreadfully luminescent An elegance unsurpassed As if her mind were in physical form So exquisite it is for it to liquescent my emotions and flush them into abyss...
    liquescent liquescent 18-21 Mar 19

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    ...but you know, I'd like things to be different. Wouldn't it be splendid if there were an avuncular omnipotent presence watching and guiding benignly? There isn't though, is...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Mar 19

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    ....It always ****** me off, to a varying degree depending o how the sentiment is meant, when people tell me to just stop, to just find something else to do to cope, to just go one...
    BlackRosesTurnBlue BlackRosesTurnBlue 18-21, F Mar 19

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    "Mona Lisa"Mona LisaI am the Mona Lisa with the unwanted smileA fake smile, which is filled,With an abyss of pain.The silence are my words-Like the wind blowing through the treesMy...
    WolfChick WolfChick 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    Contrails - Astronautalis She always made the best of deaf and blind, Fashionable dress of canes and signs. Tracing their apparel, like a judge of character in braille, She...
    kixisback kixisback 22-25 Mar 21

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    My story I keep asking myself when it all started. If there was a specific day or a specific event to be able to pinpoint when I started to loose myself. There is no day or...
    NoDavid NoDavid 46-50 1 Response Mar 22

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    I have a very active social life in college im a fresher and will be dropping out of college to switch courses. Im part of different types of groups in my college and one thing...
    lakshayp lakshayp 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 23

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    I am 44 years old, but I have only been alive for 4 years. I slept walk through my first four decades. Blindly following my ego, grasping at this and that, in a vain attempt to...
    ProgressNotPerfection ProgressNotPerfection 41-45, M 1 Response Mar 25

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    Happy I have let go of some miserable people in my life. Really let go. I am not angry or vengeful. Not anymore anyway. I held onto those feelings for a little too long. I still...
    DarkestTrance DarkestTrance 36-40, F 5 Responses Mar 26

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    I stand in the window gazing out at the moon, I enjoy the silence in the cabin. Only thin traces of moonlight cut through the darkness the fills the room. I have left you asleep in...
    Interstellartraveler Interstellartraveler 36-40, M 1 Response Mar 26

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    I didn't know him long, but he quickly became very important to me. And now he's gone - I can't believe how much I miss him. He'll never know that he was wrong to think that I was...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 27

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    I wake up every morning feeling useless and pointless and irrelevant. The only reason I haven't off'd myself yet is because I wouldn't want to make my parents feel like they...
    eMojave eMojave 16-17, M Mar 31

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    Flashing streaks of violent rays burst through me like a dam shattering through the glass frame of an empty abyss. The taverns of fire built within the confines of severe distress...
    Votonic Votonic 16-17 1 Response Mar 31

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    Deeper I’m not happy; the world inside me is left empty. So where am I to go now? It seem every passing day the light fades into the abyss of reason, the season is changed in...
    AndersonAlexander AndersonAlexander 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 1

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    Depression is like an abyss; there is no bottom and the only way out is to go up and over.
    Bracelets Bracelets 18-21, F Apr 1

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    I have a few groups of people who knows my name and I know theirs; who while talking to them or referring to them, I would say they are a friend. Behind the veil of formality and a...
    EndSeeker EndSeeker 18-21, M Apr 6

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    You choose... To live in fear or to to live without it to see beauty in imperfection or to see imperfection in beauty you choose to trust them or to doubt their intentions to...
    Unlearn Unlearn 31-35, M 2 Responses Apr 6

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    Can You Pronounce All These Words Correctly? Dearest creature in creation, Study English pronunciation. I will teach you in my verse Sounds like corpse, corps, horse, and worse...
    MSeigler MSeigler 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 6

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    I remember when I was younger all I felt was pain and in being so young, I naturally mistook that feeling as normal of which led to the eventual numbness to protect against the...
    leafwindblown leafwindblown 36-40, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    This is a difficult subject for me, so lemme talk in a analogy instead... Life for me has been a mellow train ride on a gently sloping railway to hell. I have years to burn 'til...
    Ewoo Ewoo 16-17 Apr 7

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    While I have had many days to contemplate the sadness that has befallen me, I still cannot find rhyme to the events. Except in that humanity has become a failed experiment. And...
    TheAlchemistIsIn TheAlchemistIsIn 26-30, F a week ago

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    At a loss… A friend of mine, who is beside themselves over their 12 year old's recalcitrant behavior, asked me what spanking implement is most appropriate to use in disciplining...
    phillysteve phillysteve 36-40, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    Inner Hell... Mind o mind of mine will you ever stop You've turned into my frankenstien Thought we were friends but your vices never seem to end Had enough of running into your...
    Unlearn Unlearn 31-35, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm in need: I'm a busy man. At work, I've set up processes to send me alarms on my phone when anything that pertains to my job goes wrong. Because something may fail, but...
    lovegentle lovegentle 36-40, M 7 Responses 6 days ago

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    Just something i wrote when i was bored (its a little strange). The train was putrid. It reeked heavily of cigarette smoke, urine and vomit. A plethora of dried gum, candy...
    GlobalInfamy GlobalInfamy 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    The title says it all. Why do we fall into these holes that we ourselves have dug for us to only dwell awhile until we notice we don't want to be in this hole anymore....and about...
    Falcor88 Falcor88 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I always stare into peoples eyes when they speak to me. It's like there voice is just a decoy from looking at the abyss of stars in their eyes
    GeminiKali1920 GeminiKali1920 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    It calls me closer, its calls me near "Just once and it'll be over" Death whispers in my ear Irresistible is its sweet entice Staring down, which one to slice, I observe my...
    butthumbs butthumbs 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Stumbling blocks in my path at every turn. All my strength reserved for keeping upright, on my feet and off my ***. While it would be easy to surrender to the frustration, to fall...
    redhotridinghood redhotridinghood 41-45, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Do I dare make that first cut? Doing so shall open an abyss I'm not sure I have the strength to close. Do I dare make that first jab? I can hear both sides vividly. Do I dare...
    AVampireGirl AVampireGirl 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I was online dating on the Polyamory subsidiary of AFF and was looking for someone older by a few years, someone who could treat me like a woman instead of a replacement mother...
    coconutgirl27 coconutgirl27 22-25, F Mar 18

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    I have great male friends but prefer cyber female. My life and experience is about hurt and affairs. If I am to grow and not to repeat my history then thank you for crossing my...
    AgingGracefully AgingGracefully 51-55, M 2 Responses Mar 18

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    There comes a time when you have to stop crossing oceans for people who wouldn't even jump puddle for you.
    BarzyBurhan BarzyBurhan 13-15, M Mar 19

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    I have a life filled with people that love me and are loved back unconditionally. Yet, when it all comes into focus, I feel empty inside. I feel as if I were a pumpkin and I was...
    BobFrost BobFrost 36-40, M Mar 19

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    Deep inside me I felt her pain! There on the street corner she was standing in the cold and the rain collecting for the st.vicent de Paul homeless charity!i like many others was...
    Sandyshaw13 Sandyshaw13 36-40, F Mar 19

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    Vera: That's not why you came here. Tom: Oh. Why did I come here then? Vera (seductively): The oldest reason there is .... Tom: There are friendlier places to drink. - From Miller...
    Woody6 Woody6 41-45, M 1 Response Mar 20

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    I've lived right outside of Boston my entire life. Just a few stops on the Orange Line from Malden Center and your right in the middle of Downtown Crossing. Such a beautiful...
    FarrahRelates FarrahRelates 18-21, F Mar 20

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    Just a quick update, its been 2-3 weeks since I refused the "reset sex" and has definitely ramped up affection (not sex, but hugs) and now makes a point to say she loves me and...
    Xaeth Xaeth 36-40, M 11 Responses Mar 21

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    I finished the important interview. I am crossing my fingers and hoping the school can give me a offer. 🙏🙇🙏🙇🙏🙇
    fitwealth fitwealth 22-25, F Mar 21

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    Last night i waited until my parents fell asleep. Then i snuck outside and took my underwear off (the only thing i was wearing). I carfully made my way to the front of our house. I...
    nudyboy14 nudyboy14 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 21