I Am Crying On the Inside

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    You would never guess

    when you are around me I'm near a panic attack, looking for the nearest exit, and often sobbing on the inside. All the while I'm sobbing on the inside the inside. The confidence you see and many say is very intimidating is really titanium wall around me.
    Bela21 Bela21
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Oct 9, 2014

    I opened up to my mom the other day

    when she found out that I hurt myself again, I told her I am bi and she explained how she hopes that I'm not, and I'm too young to know that I am, and I'm just following other people and not actually being myself. But she always asks me if she's ever given me any indication that...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 28, 2015

    To Be Or Not To Be

    all you need is love. if it's not enough, add the doze. be yourself, don't worry if you aren't funny enough, cool enough, smart enough, or any good enough. a girl who meant to be with you will attracted to you because you are you. if she loves you, she will think you are the...
    Nelangsa Nelangsa
    22-25, T
    Sep 10, 2013

    My eyes hurt from crying,

    my heart hurts from trying. I look so tired & worn out because inside I'm dying. I miss you, I need you, but I'm better off without you. Days will have to drag on longer, but eventually I will stop thinking about you. I wish I knew. I feel broken and unwanted, like it was easy...
    Moody95 Moody95
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Feb 5, 2014

    Having someone ask you " are you okay?

    " actually causes you to tear up even more when you're trying not to cry.
    iamsal iamsal
    13-15, F
    Mar 16

    It turns out that my boyfriend isn't getting

    stationed in California, but somewhere on the east coast. I feel so upset and I honestly just want to cry, I didn't get into UCLA, which was my dream school. Today was not a good day for me.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Mar 18

    Today, I'm feeling emotional

    for you, Remembering those past days where we laughed together, cried together, shared feelings & advised to each other. Hoping for the future, dreaming for sharing rest of life.. feeling sad for distance. and those funny moments, when I cooked as per your instructions and...
    bak4u bak4u
    26-30, M
    1 Response Mar 18

    I hate it. I wish I can cry.

    With such sadness in my heart I wish I can cry....but I can't. It seems that I can't cry at all these few weeks. I'm crying on the inside but not on the outside.. I'm unloveable and I know it. I don't need anything to lift up my hopes again.
    colourflame colourflame
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jul 20, 2015

    Is it normal to want to cry all the time?

    You get teary and anything can set you off?
    CuteLittleScrewUp CuteLittleScrewUp
    18-21, F
    Nov 6, 2015

    Do you ever have them moment

    when you just break down crying for ages alone and know that nobody can really see the inside of you and how you feel so you just break down into a thousand piece and wish it could just all be over with 😌😌👏👏
    ForeverLife ForeverLife
    16-17, F
    9 Responses Oct 6, 2014

    It hurts that I am just an option.

    An option whenever no one is there for you so you choose me. Whenever you feel sad/problematic/dramatic etc just because I'm this type of person who is overloaded with dramas since birth.... You said I should feel thankful because you trust me with your 'confidential' things or...
    trishasha trishasha
    13-15, F
    1 Response Mar 19
    BradleytheBeast BradleytheBeast
    16-17, M
    Aug 6, 2015

    Nobody sees.... But i feel it.

    ... I hate my life... Why does everybody die?
    xchrisjexx xchrisjexx
    13-15, F
    1 Response Mar 10

    I am not crying anymore

    because I know it's bad for me..... Yet it just feels so sad that it is really not working out......
    purplefreespirit purplefreespirit
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jul 15, 2014

    Im Tired

    Every day I wake up hating myself and crying. Im hurt, destroyed, im a worthless person. But every day I get up and front to be happy, put my brave face on and go on about my business. And im so tired of hiding my pain I drink to be happy and I am but when im not with my friends...
    bethinwonderland bethinwonderland
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 7, 2013
    Sen22 Sen22
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 22, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jul 20, 2015

    Smiling on the outside,

    crying and dying on the inside....
    Thatbrokengirl1 Thatbrokengirl1
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 20, 2014

    And now I'm on the brim of crying on the

    outside.. Not a day has gone by where I hasn't felt this
    Smileydork Smileydork
    16-17, F
    Feb 6, 2015

    Cold Tears

    I cry on the inside, and you will never see it. You know when you can just feel yourself ripping yourself piece by piece on the inside, that's how I feel. Some people you know when something is wrong by their eyes, you will never know by looking at me, I have been crying for so...
    TopKitten TopKitten
    13-15, F
    Aug 20, 2013

    Crying is how your body speaks

    when your mouth can't explain the pain you feel.
    iamsal iamsal
    13-15, F
    Mar 16
    Ruinsky Ruinsky
    16-17, M
    1 Response Aug 19, 2015

    I want friends who ask

    if I'm OK even though they no I'm not, they just want to no, and when I say: I'm fine. I want them to look me in the eye and say: I know your not
    emmacannon16 emmacannon16
    16-17, F
    Mar 17

    Broken.. I don't remember how I got this

    way How I cried for nights on end wondering who I use to be How am I now? Can someone do an observation? Do I look like I enjoy life? I don't.. Am I still fake smiling? It's fake. Am I still routinely grooming myself like the perfect angel? I hate pretending Someone please...
    crumbling389 crumbling389
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 6, 2014

    i love myself enough to know

    that i wont make it without him
    amari101 amari101
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 6, 2015
    Dana7371 Dana7371
    18-21, F
    Mar 19

    I am 18 & I loathe & despise my mother's fiance.

    I wanted to tell you about the things he's done to her and get your opinion. I think he's emotionally & mentally abusive & I just wanna make sure I'm right. Before I moved in with them, he promised he would never argue w/ my mom in front of me b/c my mom had a big rule about not...
    disgustedinshock disgustedinshock
    18-21, F
    Mar 17

    I cry every time he says good night to me

    and ends the call and I'm left alone in bed...without his voice or breathing on then other end, without his company.. I cry...every time inside and out
    EvelynElf EvelynElf
    18-21, F
    Dec 10, 2015

    "You never believed, what happened to me.

    You always just tore me down and wished that I would die, but I'm still alive. You never believed, what happened to me. You always just tore me down, now that I've survived, you look so surprised, Like a deer in the headlights" Deer in the Headlights - Dead Rabbits
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile
    22-25, M
    Mar 12, 2015

    Depressed for no reason again.

    intensive therapy, medication, mindfulness practice, living healthy... and yet it remains.. popping up every now and then to make my day miserable.
    BoBeara BoBeara
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 6, 2015

    When you cry SO much

    that everything starts to get blurry and it's hard to type on your pheon3. ii4fmciflp
    Sen22 Sen22
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 4, 2015

    Everyday I smile and laugh a lot.

    i have been crying in the inside and cry when know ones looking.i want someone to talk too but I don't trust because I'm afraid they won't understand my mom doesn't even understand I told her she called me an idiot and a fool I don't want to live anymore
    GamerJock GamerJock
    16-17, F
    2 Responses May 20, 2015

    Yes I am. Can't I have a really nice guy,

    there for me and will understand me and nit to sound spoiled or like a brat but will fudging help me with stupid university fees damn Like universities please stop being so expensive especially for outsiders like really don't you think I have to worry about my grade now money...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 24, 2015

    I'm just so overwhelmed with school right

    now that I don't even get to try to make friends; as a result, I have none. I feel like everything I'm going through internally and the external factors around me are making me crazy and I just wish it would go away.
    yasyaysgabgab yasyaysgabgab
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 28, 2015

    One smile can hide a million tears One laugh

    can hide many painful screams
    EternallyHeartBroken EternallyHeartBroken
    16-17, F
    Dec 10, 2014

    Yeah...before you get too emotional.

    ..I'm crying on the inside from laughter. Some of you all crack me up.
    luketepid luketepid
    56-60, M
    Mar 17
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 12, 2015

    I think today is one of those days

    when I wish I was a little girl again, so I could climb onto my mother's lap, and cry until the hurt goes away.
    Etherealinsanity Etherealinsanity
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 16, 2014

    the worst day ever...

    my last experience said that I didn't have to leave my house to have bad things happen.. well yet again, it did. late yesterday evening, my son got a call from his father. his father has been aiding him in the corrispondence between his GF mom and himself. the call told my 15 y...
    wnt2bneeded wnt2bneeded
    41-45, F
    1 Response Aug 26, 2015

    I am rereading our old messages

    and understand what a douchebag I was. Sarcastic, with my stupid jokes, indifferent. I am sorry she spent a year of her life on such an idiot. I want her to find a real prince and gentleman who will love her till the end. She was so fragile and I broke her heart. And my...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 29

    Got Through Number 1!

    Well my baby turned 10 on tuesday, the first birthday with just mummy and no daddy, by god it was hard...but I did it! I didnt cry, she was over the moon with her pressies and the rest of the week has been a jumbled chaos, I am working on a new shop for my yummies :) nearly there...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 10, 2013

    so sick of depression

    and anxiety crippling my emotions why can't I just have that one special person? instead I get to lay back and let them rip appart my emotions while I be lonely
    dsalter dsalter
    22-25, M
    Sep 1, 2015

    Tears are just getting harder by the second to

    stop, I don't even show them but I can just feel them on the inside of me wanting to come out all the time lately. Though I hate crying in front if people, because when I can't tell them what's wrong they worry and then I get even more upset on the inside.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 11, 2014

    How Much Can One Bear?

    I am crying on the inside.No one would ever know it because I keep a smile on my face even when I feel like dying on the inside.The pain is so intense but I don't let anyone else know how I am really feeling.I try to be strong for everyone else.I am the sounding board,I am that...
    dreamer33 dreamer33
    31-35
    5 Responses May 21, 2008

    You're the single person

    that I ******* need right now and you're not ******* there for me. thanks a ******* lot.
    Ohshewayoutt Ohshewayoutt
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Aug 20, 2015

    I just love being the wallet of a group.

    My 'friends' only talk to me when I offer to buy things, and my sister and brother only talk to me when I am either pretending to be happy or buying stuff. I'm so sick of it. I don't think they realize they make me feel worthless. I just want them to go away. I'm better of...
    BlackSunCrimsonFyre BlackSunCrimsonFyre
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Aug 8, 2015

    I know what it's like to hurt.

    I promise not to judge anyone. If anybody needs an ear I'll gladly listen. I honestly mean anyone. I don't care who you are. I'll try my best to be a good friend.
    jarocho jarocho
    22-25, M
    Mar 17

    I've been crying on the inside

    for many years as can't let it out might cry for a second or two then nothing else comes out. I cry inside as been hurt used and abused and had lose love ones so I just bottle it up now and again it comes out of the bottle and tears flow inside but I have been self tort to suck...
    Leylandlad Leylandlad
    36-40, M
    1 Response Dec 27, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 24, 2015
    Aeril Aeril
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 4, 2015

    I always say that I'm fine

    or okay but I just want to fall on my knees and cry.
    Mahrhindha Mahrhindha
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 8, 2015
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