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I met him through some close friends of mine on a camping trip.  They had been married for 3 yrs. and have no children.  It started out as friends with benifits, then he said he was falling for me and I thought by the way he acted and looked at me that he really did.  In Oct he finally told her he wanted a divorce.  He said he didn't want to tell her about me bc he wanted this divorce to go easily.  A couple of days ago I confronted him bc we got into a fight Friday and he called a few hrs explaining to me he was under stress.  I confronted him a couple of days ago bc he seemed to be avoiding me.  He said he was gonna work things out with her.  I could type the whole story but it would be too long and no one would want to read it.  I did tell his wife out of selfishness; I wanted to get even and didn't feel that I should be the only one to suffer the consequences and him get off scot-free.  She said that their sex life didn't change and that the time when she supposedly kicked him out for trying to kill himself, she just called his mom and sister to pick him up and get him help.  A week later he told me she called having chest pains.  She denied that.  For the past month the has been spending time with her behind my back.  Everything he ever told me was a lie.  Last night he called me telling me he hated my guts and that I am psycho.  That hurts more I think than any other guy has ever hurt me, however I did expect it.  My whole world has been flipped upside down.  After everything I still love him but I know now he never loved me.  I am the biggest idiot in the world for not seeing it bc I have been played more times than anyone can count.