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I Am Dead Inside

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    having my heart broken by the love of my life

    ended who I was as a person. I'm a shell of the woman I use to be.
    InfiniteDreaming InfiniteDreaming 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    DanielPhillips DanielPhillips 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 6

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    HarlotCurse HarlotCurse 22-25, M Jan 10

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    HarlotCurse HarlotCurse 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    Very Much So....

    I am very much Dead Inside, if I was dead outside, well than, everything would be, A O K again, but sadly, suicide just ins't an option for me anymore, I wish it was, but its not. I hate this feeling I have, this feeling of emptyness, this feeling, like, its all I am ever going...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 29, 2010

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    ChangedAgain ChangedAgain 16-17, M 3 Responses Apr 16, 2014

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    I want God to come and take me home.

    'Cause I'm all alone in this crowd. Who are you to me? Who am I supposed to be? Not exactly sure anymore... Where is this going to? Can I follow though? Or just follow you... For a while... Dose anyone ever get this right? I feel no love...
    HarlotCurse HarlotCurse 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 26

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    For the past 5 years i have felt dead on the

    inside. I use to feel so alive but after the awestruck events of betrayal, backstab, lies, emotional abuse, destruction of my reputation,my mom leaving years ago and the ultimate pain of my life becoming ruined I'm dead on the inside there is no life force left in this fragile...
    Coolrocker Coolrocker 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 25, 2014

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    Emptiness

    I have been coping with my feelings pretty well for the past few weeks. But on certain nights like tonight, It just all comes out and attacks me... I'm not sure why. A part of me is missing. I feel so lifeless without it.. without him. I feel so sick, so empty, so numb and alone...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 28, 2011

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    I find it really hard to feel anything.

    On rare occasions when my feelings do come out, they're very extreme. Anger is the only emotion that I can release at will. But most of the time I'm just numb.
    KingLaserDestroyer KingLaserDestroyer 18-21, M Feb 10

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    I die slowly each day

    and fear that I have lost too much to truly salvage joy and happiness in this life.
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 10

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    pansexualgirl pansexualgirl 13-15, F May 17

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    There is just a huge voidness in my life

    that just constantly has me questioning my very existence
    TheFreeSpirit TheFreeSpirit 18-21, F Apr 12

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    Like That Song, Numb

    I wouldn`t call myself exactly dead but..it`s like, I`ve been through so many rough waves, that I guess I`ve become this numb thing inside. Cold, empty..dry. Like somebody sucked the life out of me and left me with nothing inside.I have a narcisistic family, you can say I`m the...
    gia99 gia99 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2011

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    Dead

    where have I gone.... I am not really here. I am a robot, I am numb, yet it hurts.    I am killing myself and not slowly.  
    solarcybele solarcybele 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2009

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    Ice-like, my body. Laid out on my back.

    Neck in a noose. Never coming back
    HarlotCurse HarlotCurse 22-25, M Mar 18

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    Ya I'm probably gonna experience heart Break

    all my life now!! The woman i love so much will want to party and stuff so she's gonna get drunk and do stuff with other guys and ****. Then she'll not love me anymore and not tell me things. I'll just be there totally oblivious. Then eventually she'll dump me after she's used...
    Hippy99 Hippy99 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    I don't know why I cry.

    Its always the same every time. They always lie, tell me they love me, and then leave. I guess I'm used to it. It still hurts every time. What hurts the most is that the feelings are always one sided. I'm always the one who loves them, they never love me back. They say they do...
    LoveandLoss17 LoveandLoss17 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    I am dead on the inside

    and I'm just waiting for my brain the get the message.
    100PercentMe 100PercentMe 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 10, 2014

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    You Whom I Think I Am Inlove With!

    I will always repeteadly say sorry to you. I've come and learn to like you so much, that makes me cry every time I remember you. Maybe, this is not LIKE yet it evolve into LOVE that uncontrollably wanting to see you over and over again. I am missing you so much so deeply. Yet...
    Eureka85 Eureka85 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 2, 2012

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    You shot the bullet; And I caught it with my

    heart; Now my hearts broken; Someone please fix it.
    Catho Catho 18-21, F Apr 7

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    Wearing A Facade For Too Long

    I feel like over the past few years all I have been doing is what people wanted me to do. I haven't tried to make myself happy in a long time. I can't get motivated enough to make a change in my life. I don't know if there's a certain point in life where you just find yourself...
    kalinakat kalinakat 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 7, 2011

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    I am dead inside and I hate it.

    having no feelings is the worst feeling at all and it's something.I have to live with daily.
    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F Apr 8

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    Emptiness

    I don't have any reason to pursue anything worthwhile: a career, a relationship, anything. Every morning, I wake and question why I even bothered. I question why I feel this way. I question whether it is worth going through the motions of the day. The answer is usually no, but I...
    powersauce powersauce 26-30 2 Responses Sep 19, 2012

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    every night before I go to sleep.

    There is a demon inside of me screaming, crying, clawing its way out of me. And in response I cry myself to sleep. I am obsesses with finding love, and its making me crazy. Demonic crazy. I dont want to be alone anymore.
    mihochancullen mihochancullen 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 3

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    my mom has always told me

    that everything happens for a reason. i just wonder what good it does for me to be the one to suffer. im not really religious but ive always believed in a god above who watches over me. i believe this less and less every day. my best friend came over today. i know she didnt mean...
    Matthew224 Matthew224 16-17, M 2 Responses Feb 23

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    I used to be able to make lists of all of the

    bad things that had happened to me in my life, but now I can't make lists like that anymore, because I can't tell all of the things apart. It's like looking at a vast garbage dump, from a distance it all just looks like a mass of garbage, you can't really tell what any of the...
    crashwreck crashwreck 31-35, M Apr 21

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    I just feel dead. The only emotions I have are

    sad ones. I hide it. I hade it very well. I always smile regardless of what I'm feeling. My life feels so pointless right now. Just going through the motions. I always feel depressed or paranoid or on edge or nothing at all. This is an odd thing for me, to open up like this, I...
    confusedforever132 confusedforever132 13-15, F Nov 26, 2014

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    I M Not Dead..I Won'T Let It Happen

    My life right now is of living dead. Everything passes by me..I don't have the word for it but time it just flows by while I stare like the dead. I do not know what happened, where things went so wrong..Is this how you grow up? Lack of activities? Lack of life in life? I do not...
    wishfordeath wishfordeath 22-25, M 5 Responses Feb 16, 2013

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    I Don't Understand Emotions Other People Feel Or Have

    I have always had trouble with my emotions. I was abandoned by my dad after being abused for 2 years. My brother died when I was 14. My mom never wanted me or showed interest in me. She was always playing with her grandchildren and ignoring me. Me and my sisters children are very...
    inn3rshadow inn3rshadow 18-21, M 6 Responses Oct 28, 2011

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    Dead inside , lost hope,

    nothing happy and being upset all the time is a mixture for hell. I'm living in hell. I'm feeling like the most miserable person around . The only thing worse is being homeless or a horrible disease or being crippled.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses May 3

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    I feel dead inside. Like I can't form opinions

    and I don't have emotions. I can't concentrate or even focus on anything. I just feel detached from myself, it's so hard to explain.. Anyone relate? Can anyone help me understand this feeling?
    rileyxyz rileyxyz 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 23

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    Every Day Is The Same When You Cant Feel The World Turning

    Hi possible reader, I’m Gabriel Lara and I’m a complete and utter failure as a human being and a full-time looser like most people in this group. I’m dead inside as well, I cant feel anything except the horrible despair of existence all my waking hours, there is nothing out...
    GABRIELxxLARA GABRIELxxLARA 22-25, M 3 Responses Mar 14, 2013

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    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Dec 18, 2014

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    Do You Know What Dead Inside Means?

    it means i don't give a **** about anything/anyone based on this definition i'm 80-90% dead inside i can feel myself dying
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2013

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    I am willing to let depression kill me off.

    It's too late, now. I no longer have a desire to live or get better, only to die. Therefore, I reject every possible solution to get better, because I've let depression ride with me for three years. Now, it's too late. I am finally giving up, and I can allow depression to...
    losingNemo losingNemo 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Dead and heartless.. Pretty much just told an

    ex to **** of out of my life... But in a nice way... I guess it would suck to be him... But because I'm heartless I couldn't feel anything.. I told him to stop loving me... And to move on, find someone else after another argument... Things didn't end that well .. Oh well...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Why Am I Alive

    im asking this because I cant figure out why I cant just die I mean no body wants me around anyway and my soul has already shriveled up and disappated already because of the emotional pain that I feel. im dead inside but still breathing and moving on the outside I cant figure out...
    lunamariemoon lunamariemoon 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 1, 2013

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    Angry Smash

    Every day the same. Same crappy clothes. Same microwave breakfast. Same crowded train. Same dead office. Same silence. Different people. Same shame and loneliness. I never speak more than five words a day if possible. All they're gonna do is make fun of you, so don't give...
    lonelyme886 lonelyme886 36-40 2 Responses Oct 22, 2012

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    Big brown eyes...used to be sharp.

    ...look deep inside, they are dull, lifeless, nothing there but emptiness...once used to sparkle and shine...capture....now dead dark pools....A face that would be always smiling....full of energy...make you feel good just looking at her....now a lifeless mask....no smile...just...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 1 Response May 3

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    The True Is I Can Be Alone

    i don't know why but as long as i cant remember i never being happy i always felt as if i was empty but then i met her and she made me feel happy but it didn't last i star it to feel as before unhappy until we got slit up now i feel even worst then before i dont may be the true...
    thedudefromtheshield thedudefromtheshield 26-30 1 Response Jun 12, 2013

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    I have had no emotions

    for 3 years. It-s awful.
    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    I'm Dead Inside

    Isn't that a horried thing to admit....I'm dead inside. There's a great big world out there, full of stuff...I see it on the television...I read about it... I reach out for it... But somehow, I have been excluded from it. Slowly my dreams have become fewer, those I have I...
    whoeverami whoeverami 46-50, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2011

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    The Deadly Volcano

    I act like i am okay, but inside is a volcano waiting to explode with pain, remorse, guilt, pleasure, lies, screams, and cries....it's wrong to hold it in, but i feel as if i tell someone they will hate me for all the things i have done.....i not only feel dead inside but alone...
    Theonethatlivesatnight Theonethatlivesatnight 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 14, 2012

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    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 6

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    The world may be full of people,

    but it's just as empty as my heart
    inkedmommy inkedmommy 22-25, F Dec 17, 2013

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    I dont have much options

    for life cos its allways the same. Im lonely, have noone to talk, i have no work cos i have disabled daughter and i must care for her the most of my time. I was bullied in my past and all this thoughts creep in if im allways at home and cant go out. Then anger grows and im...