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    I'm Dead Inside

    Isn't that a horried thing to admit....I'm dead inside. There's a great big world out there, full of stuff...I see it on the television...I read about it... I reach out for it... But somehow, I have been excluded from it. Slowly my dreams have become fewer, those I have I...
    whoeverami whoeverami 46-50, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2011

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    I used to be able to make lists of all of the

    bad things that had happened to me in my life, but now I can't make lists like that anymore, because I can't tell all of the things apart. It's like looking at a vast garbage dump, from a distance it all just looks like a mass of garbage, you can't really tell what any of the...
    crashwreck crashwreck 31-35, M Apr 21

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    Wearing A Facade For Too Long

    I feel like over the past few years all I have been doing is what people wanted me to do. I haven't tried to make myself happy in a long time. I can't get motivated enough to make a change in my life. I don't know if there's a certain point in life where you just find yourself...
    kalinakat kalinakat 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 7, 2011

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    Today was awful. That feeling,

    that hole inside. I wish I could just cry myself to sleep, but instead I am stuck unable to cry. Wide awake long into the night.
    NoBodyKnowsMeLikeIKnowMe NoBodyKnowsMeLikeIKnowMe 26-30, M Jun 10

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    "why Does He Do This"?...........................

    Long story short.....................My Husband says and does things............and deny's that he does..He wouls day he loves me today and then says he never said it to me. Sometimes we get along really well then.......................he hates me for no reason and he ย can never...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F Aug 16, 2011

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    Well, its time for another sleepless night.

    It feels like I am dead inside from lack of sleep.
    ijb2012 ijb2012 16-17, M May 27

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    Angry Smash

    Every day the same. Same crappy clothes. Same microwave breakfast. Same crowded train. Same dead office. Same silence. Different people. Same shame and loneliness. I never speak more than five words a day if possible. All they're gonna do is make fun of you, so don't give...
    lonelyme886 lonelyme886 36-40 2 Responses Oct 22, 2012

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    I wouldn't say completely.

    . Over the years I've been slowly dying and it's been slowly getting faster. Now I'm so close I don't know when it'll be full.
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F Jun 10

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    The Deadly Volcano

    I act like i am okay, but inside is a volcano waiting to explode with pain, remorse, guilt, pleasure, lies, screams, and cries....it's wrong to hold it in, but i feel as if i tell someone they will hate me for all the things i have done.....i not only feel dead inside but alone...
    Theonethatlivesatnight Theonethatlivesatnight 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 14, 2012

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    pansexualgirl pansexualgirl 13-15, F May 17

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    I am dead inside and I hate it.

    having no feelings is the worst feeling at all and it's something.I have to live with daily.
    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F Apr 8

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    Why Am I Alive

    im asking this because I cant figure out why I cant just die I mean no body wants me around anyway and my soul has already shriveled up and disappated already because of the emotional pain that I feel. im dead inside but still breathing and moving on the outside I cant figure out...
    lunamariemoon lunamariemoon 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 1, 2013

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    I Don't Understand Emotions Other People Feel Or Have

    I have always had trouble with my emotions. I was abandoned by my dad after being abused for 2 years. My brother died when I was 14. My mom never wanted me or showed interest in me. She was always playing with her grandchildren and ignoring me. Me and my sisters children are very...
    inn3rshadow inn3rshadow 18-21, M 6 Responses Oct 28, 2011

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    No Hope For My Marriage

    I am a Father of a beautiful three year old little girl and the husband of a wife who does not want to have sex with me. I know other people have bigger problems in their life but knowing that does not take away the pain and rejection i feel from the woman i love. I am a God...
    1 Response Jan 20, 2013

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    Big brown eyes...used to be sharp.

    ...look deep inside, they are dull, lifeless, nothing there but emptiness...once used to sparkle and shine...capture....now dead dark pools....A face that would be always smiling....full of energy...make you feel good just looking at her....now a lifeless mask....no smile...just...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses May 3

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    Very Much So....

    I am very much Dead Inside, if I was dead outside, well than, everything would be, A O K again, but sadly, suicide just ins't an option for me anymore, I wish it was, but its not. I hate this feeling I have, this feeling of emptyness, this feeling, like, its all I am ever going...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 29, 2010

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    Like That Song, Numb

    I wouldn`t call myself exactly dead but..it`s like, I`ve been through so many rough waves, that I guess I`ve become this numb thing inside. Cold, empty..dry. Like somebody sucked the life out of me and left me with nothing inside.I have a narcisistic family, you can say I`m the...
    gia99 gia99 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2011

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    Will I Ever Feel?

    My whole life I have been emotionally crippled. I've been dead inside for as long as I can remember. All I ever wanted was o be normal, until I got older. I then realized that being normal is bad, and being me is good. Is it? Is it really better to be empty. to be frozen, to be...
    TheHumanIceCube TheHumanIceCube 26-30, M 57 Responses Feb 27, 2008

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    Clearly Im Not....

    because... well... id be dead then.... but everything feels far away. like my feelings are packed in bubble wrap. i know theyre there, but i dont feel them fully. yet it still hurts. my apathy scares me. if i were laying in the road and a car came towards me  i wonder if i...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 17 Responses Jun 22, 2008

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    I find it really hard to feel anything.

    On rare occasions when my feelings do come out, they're very extreme. Anger is the only emotion that I can release at will. But most of the time I'm just numb.
    KingLaserDestroyer KingLaserDestroyer 18-21, M Feb 10

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    Everyone I care about is dead

    or in prison yet I am still here and will always be until I am dead โœŒ๐Ÿผ๏ธ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐ŸผโœŒ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป #thug #forever #gang #mob #3hunnak #bdk #the #movement
    swaged104 swaged104 13-15, M 2 days ago

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    Knowing that the guy I like don't see the way I

    see him ... He went for interview in London and he asked me what I wanted from London so I told him ... He's back and he never mentioned if he had bought it or not. And I heard nothing from him when he was there for a week. He's treating me less than a friend ... Coz even for a...
    thousandcuts thousandcuts 22-25, F May 25

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    Emptiness

    I don't have any reason to pursue anything worthwhile: a career, a relationship, anything. Every morning, I wake and question why I even bothered. I question why I feel this way. I question whether it is worth going through the motions of the day. The answer is usually no, but I...
    powersauce powersauce 26-30 2 Responses Sep 19, 2012

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    For the past 5 years i have felt dead on the

    inside. I use to feel so alive but after the awestruck events of betrayal, backstab, lies, emotional abuse, destruction of my reputation,my mom leaving years ago and the ultimate pain of my life becoming ruined I'm dead on the inside there is no life force left in this fragile...
    Coolrocker Coolrocker 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 25, 2014

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    Ice-like, my body. Laid out on my back.

    Neck in a noose. Never coming back
    HarlotCurse HarlotCurse 22-25, M Mar 18

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    The world may be full of people,

    but it's just as empty as my heart
    inkedmommy inkedmommy 22-25, F Dec 17, 2013

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    Every Day Is The Same When You Cant Feel The World Turning

    Hi possible reader, Iโ€™m Gabriel Lara and Iโ€™m a complete and utter failure as a human being and a full-time looser like most people in this group. Iโ€™m dead inside as well, I cant feel anything except the horrible despair of existence all my waking hours, there is nothing out...
    GABRIELxxLARA GABRIELxxLARA 22-25, M 3 Responses Mar 14, 2013

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    Dead inside , lost hope,

    nothing happy and being upset all the time is a mixture for hell. I'm living in hell. I'm feeling like the most miserable person around . The only thing worse is being homeless or a horrible disease or being crippled.
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses May 3

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    Emptiness

    I have been coping with my feelings pretty well for the past few weeks. But on certain nights like tonight, It just all comes out and attacks me... I'm not sure why. A part of me is missing. I feel so lifeless without it.. without him. I feel so sick, so empty, so numb and alone...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 28, 2011

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    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Dec 18, 2014

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    losing my true love an finding out she ******

    her new boy when she promise to wait for me
    incesttalk incesttalk 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 9

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    Do You Know What Dead Inside Means?

    it means i don't give a **** about anything/anyone based on this definition i'm 80-90% dead inside i can feel myself dying
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2013

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    I have had no emotions

    for 3 years. It-s awful.
    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    You shot the bullet; And I caught it with my

    heart; Now my hearts broken; Someone please fix it.
    Catho Catho 18-21, F Apr 7

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    I am a Dead person and my name is obsession I

    feed on the living.I possessed a guy so I can feed on his soul. My real name is deceptus my friends call me OB that stands for obsession you can believe me or not.
    Obsession666 Obsession666 26-30, M Apr 27

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    having my heart broken by the love of my life

    ended who I was as a person. I'm a shell of the woman I use to be.
    InfiniteDreaming InfiniteDreaming 18-21, F 1 Response May 25

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    LeeMcguck LeeMcguck 13-15, M 2 Responses Jun 10

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    I M Not Dead..I Won'T Let It Happen

    My life right now is of living dead. Everything passes by me..I don't have the word for it but time it just flows by while I stare like the dead. I do not know what happened, where things went so wrong..Is this how you grow up? Lack of activities? Lack of life in life? I do not...
    wishfordeath wishfordeath 22-25, M 5 Responses Feb 16, 2013

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    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 6

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    You Whom I Think I Am Inlove With!

    I will always repeteadly say sorry to you. I've come and learn to like you so much, that makes me cry every time I remember you. Maybe, this is not LIKE yet it evolve into LOVE that uncontrollably wanting to see you over and over again. I am missing you so much so deeply. Yet...
    Eureka85 Eureka85 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 2, 2012

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    jjaynes01 jjaynes01 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 30

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    I am willing to let depression kill me off.

    It's too late, now. I no longer have a desire to live or get better, only to die. Therefore, I reject every possible solution to get better, because I've let depression ride with me for three years. Now, it's too late. I am finally giving up, and I can allow depression to...
    losingNemo losingNemo 13-15, F 1 Response May 24

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    Dead and heartless.. Pretty much just told an

    ex to **** of out of my life... But in a nice way... I guess it would suck to be him... But because I'm heartless I couldn't feel anything.. I told him to stop loving me... And to move on, find someone else after another argument... Things didn't end that well .. Oh well...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 1 Response May 24

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    Yeah, I feel dead inside.

    But it helps that if you take the first step to make yourself happy. Like treating yourself to a vacation, spending time with loved ones. Doing things that you enjoy. It really helps to boost your self-esteem.
    amiribrahimg amiribrahimg 18-21, M Jun 10

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    I am constantly moving in slow motion.

    While everyone else is moving on with their life I am still a mile behind. All I can think about it death and darkness and of how dead I really am inside. I am screaming for help. I haven't had a straight thought in months and it's starting to make an impact on my life.
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 27

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    every night before I go to sleep.

    There is a demon inside of me screaming, crying, clawing its way out of me. And in response I cry myself to sleep. I am obsesses with finding love, and its making me crazy. Demonic crazy. I dont want to be alone anymore.
    mihochancullen mihochancullen 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 3

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    DanielPhillips DanielPhillips 18-21, M