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I Am Dead Inside

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    Clearly Im Not....

    because... well... id be dead then.... but everything feels far away. like my feelings are packed in bubble wrap. i know theyre there, but i dont feel them fully. yet it still hurts. my apathy scares me. if i were laying in the road and a car came towards me  i wonder if i...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 17 Responses Jun 22, 2008

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    A man is scared and decides to hide from death,

    so he locks himself away his basement for the rest of his life. He brings food, water, a knife, and blankets down with him. He runs out of water, but he can't go up and get more, so he drinks his own urine He runs out of food, so he cuts off his left hand with his knife and...
    deathday deathday 16-17, M a week ago

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    Dead and heartless.. Pretty much just told an

    ex to **** of out of my life... But in a nice way... I guess it would suck to be him... But because I'm heartless I couldn't feel anything.. I told him to stop loving me... And to move on, find someone else after another argument... Things didn't end that well .. Oh well...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 1 Response May 24, 2015

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    ChangedAgain ChangedAgain 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 16, 2014

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    Every Day Is The Same When You Cant Feel The World Turning

    Hi possible reader, I’m Gabriel Lara and I’m a complete and utter failure as a human being and a full-time looser like most people in this group. I’m dead inside as well, I cant feel anything except the horrible despair of existence all my waking hours, there is nothing out...
    GABRIELxxLARA GABRIELxxLARA 22-25, M 3 Responses Mar 14, 2013

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    Like That Song, Numb

    I wouldn`t call myself exactly dead but..it`s like, I`ve been through so many rough waves, that I guess I`ve become this numb thing inside. Cold, empty..dry. Like somebody sucked the life out of me and left me with nothing inside.I have a narcisistic family, you can say I`m the...
    gia99 gia99 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2011

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    I barely have any emotions left.

    It sucks but it's good at the same time cuz I can't get hurt now :)
    Brudy6 Brudy6 18-21, M Aug 23, 2015

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    Everyone I care about is dead

    or in prison yet I am still here and will always be until I am dead βœŒπŸΌοΈπŸ‘ŒπŸΌβœŒπŸΌπŸ’ͺ🏻 #thug #forever #gang #mob #3hunnak #bdk #the #movement
    swaged104 swaged104 13-15, M Jul 31, 2015

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    I Don't Understand Emotions Other People Feel Or Have

    I have always had trouble with my emotions. I was abandoned by my dad after being abused for 2 years. My brother died when I was 14. My mom never wanted me or showed interest in me. She was always playing with her grandchildren and ignoring me. Me and my sisters children are very...
    inn3rshadow inn3rshadow 18-21, M 6 Responses Oct 28, 2011

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    Do You Know What Dead Inside Means?

    it means i don't give a **** about anything/anyone based on this definition i'm 80-90% dead inside i can feel myself dying
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2013

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    Big brown eyes...used to be sharp.

    ...look deep inside, they are dull, lifeless, nothing there but emptiness...once used to sparkle and shine...capture....now dead dark pools....A face that would be always smiling....full of energy...make you feel good just looking at her....now a lifeless mask....no smile...just...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 3, 2015

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    The Deadly Volcano

    I act like i am okay, but inside is a volcano waiting to explode with pain, remorse, guilt, pleasure, lies, screams, and cries....it's wrong to hold it in, but i feel as if i tell someone they will hate me for all the things i have done.....i not only feel dead inside but alone...
    Theonethatlivesatnight Theonethatlivesatnight 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 14, 2012

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    I'm Dead Inside

    Isn't that a horried thing to admit....I'm dead inside. There's a great big world out there, full of stuff...I see it on the television...I read about it... I reach out for it... But somehow, I have been excluded from it. Slowly my dreams have become fewer, those I have I...
    whoeverami whoeverami 46-50, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2011

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    I wouldn't say completely.

    . Over the years I've been slowly dying and it's been slowly getting faster. Now I'm so close I don't know when it'll be full.
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 18-21, F Jun 10, 2015

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    It's father's day so I send a card.

    I'm married so I say I love you.It's sunny so I thank the stars.But I don't feel anything. All feeling is gone...it's been gone for months. But I know how I'm supposed to act and I'm good at deceit.The days are dark....a bitter soundtrack plays in my head. A bile that resonates...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 18, 2015

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    LeeMcguck LeeMcguck 13-15, M 2 Responses Jun 10, 2015

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    It's difficult to explain,

    but it feels as though I've been dead for years. Things haven't been important in a long time, and my "feelings" don't feel like my own. Half the time my body and mind don't feel like my own. A sort of autopilot to shut everything out when uninterested, which is most of the time...
    Sinfool13 Sinfool13 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 8

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    Will I Ever Feel?

    My whole life I have been emotionally crippled. I've been dead inside for as long as I can remember. All I ever wanted was o be normal, until I got older. I then realized that being normal is bad, and being me is good. Is it? Is it really better to be empty. to be frozen, to be...
    TheHumanIceCube TheHumanIceCube 26-30, M 58 Responses Feb 27, 2008

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    Yeah, I feel dead inside.

    But it helps that if you take the first step to make yourself happy. Like treating yourself to a vacation, spending time with loved ones. Doing things that you enjoy. It really helps to boost your self-esteem.
    amiribrahimg amiribrahimg 18-21, M Jun 10, 2015

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    I can't even post my emotions here.

    I tried to write them. I wrote a paragraph, maybe. Then, deleted it feeling that it did not yet accurately describe the hollowness I feel right now. I feel as I breath, the howl of emptiness whistle through the caverns of my soul. Forgive me if I fail in describing something...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 7, 2015

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    Emptiness

    I have been coping with my feelings pretty well for the past few weeks. But on certain nights like tonight, It just all comes out and attacks me... I'm not sure why. A part of me is missing. I feel so lifeless without it.. without him. I feel so sick, so empty, so numb and alone...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 28, 2011

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    Im dead inside anyway.

    I have no reason to live anymore. My last breathes finally arrived. Bye.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 24, 2015

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    The world may be full of people,

    but it's just as empty as my heart
    inkedmommy inkedmommy 22-25, F Dec 17, 2013

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    losing my true love an finding out she ******

    her new boy when she promise to wait for me
    incesttalk incesttalk 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 9, 2015

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    I am dead on the inside

    and I'm just waiting for my brain the get the message.
    100PercentMe 100PercentMe 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2014

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    I M Not Dead..I Won'T Let It Happen

    My life right now is of living dead. Everything passes by me..I don't have the word for it but time it just flows by while I stare like the dead. I do not know what happened, where things went so wrong..Is this how you grow up? Lack of activities? Lack of life in life? I do not...
    wishfordeath wishfordeath 22-25, M 5 Responses Feb 16, 2013

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    I am constantly moving in slow motion.

    While everyone else is moving on with their life I am still a mile behind. All I can think about it death and darkness and of how dead I really am inside. I am screaming for help. I haven't had a straight thought in months and it's starting to make an impact on my life.
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 27, 2015

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    and so im here to ****

    and moan a bit more, soon I will have lost all remnants and i'll be nothing. but please endure my bleeding heart for a bit longer, (I'm sure to bleed out eventually) I was right about everything, my mistake was listening to someone and believing I was worth anything. in this...
    LovingDead LovingDead 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 30, 2015

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    You Whom I Think I Am Inlove With!

    I will always repeteadly say sorry to you. I've come and learn to like you so much, that makes me cry every time I remember you. Maybe, this is not LIKE yet it evolve into LOVE that uncontrollably wanting to see you over and over again. I am missing you so much so deeply. Yet...
    Eureka85 Eureka85 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 2, 2012

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    etdragonstrom etdragonstrom 18-21, M Aug 8, 2015

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    Very Much So....

    I am very much Dead Inside, if I was dead outside, well than, everything would be, A O K again, but sadly, suicide just ins't an option for me anymore, I wish it was, but its not. I hate this feeling I have, this feeling of emptyness, this feeling, like, its all I am ever going...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 29, 2010

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    every night before I go to sleep.

    There is a demon inside of me screaming, crying, clawing its way out of me. And in response I cry myself to sleep. I am obsesses with finding love, and its making me crazy. Demonic crazy. I dont want to be alone anymore.
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Mar 3, 2015

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    I kind of like it this way.

    Much better than feeling so much pain all of the time.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 29, 2015

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    When I put the torch to the bridge,

    I mean it. It's just like pulling the trigger on that gun. It's not something you play with. If you're going to pull that trigger, you better understand the implications and consequences of that, and know that's what you wanted. Otherwise, put the gun down and give it back to...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 18, 2015

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    Today was awful. That feeling,

    that hole inside. I wish I could just cry myself to sleep, but instead I am stuck unable to cry. Wide awake long into the night.
    NoBodyKnowsMeLikeIKnowMe NoBodyKnowsMeLikeIKnowMe 26-30, M Jun 10, 2015

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    Oh no, not now at least.

    I joined this group when I was suffering after a breakup with my very good friend. And when I joined it, I really was interested in nothing and was thinking about nothing and nobody but her and doing nothing except for dragging a miserable existence. So, yeah, I was dead inside...
    Tourion Tourion 22-25, M Dec 21, 2015

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    I can't take it anymore .

    My heart has been shattered once again and the pain has become to much to bare . Please tell me what can I do to make the pain stop . Ever since I was a child ,I was so beautiful but abuse had to take that from me .I overcame it and still kept my optimist ways .Through my pre...
    undeterminedd undeterminedd 13-15, F Oct 12, 2015

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    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Dec 18, 2014

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    Completely...

    I am dead inside, I am just here physical, emotions are long gone. I am comfortablly numb. There is nothing left in me, I don't have the strength to deal anymore, so I am just here, dealing with life the best I can, waiting for it to just take me, and that be it. Till than, I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 14, 2010

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    I think these long days are really doing me in

    I love my gf and niece and nephew and stuff like that but I have a sadness and im depressed about life a lot just tired of it most days
    chexmixgod86 chexmixgod86 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 18

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    Why Am I Alive

    im asking this because I cant figure out why I cant just die I mean no body wants me around anyway and my soul has already shriveled up and disappated already because of the emotional pain that I feel. im dead inside but still breathing and moving on the outside I cant figure out...
    lunamariemoon lunamariemoon 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 1, 2013

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    LoloRegz LoloRegz 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2015

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    For the past 5 years i have felt dead on the

    inside. I use to feel so alive but after the awestruck events of betrayal, backstab, lies, emotional abuse, destruction of my reputation,my mom leaving years ago and the ultimate pain of my life becoming ruined I'm dead on the inside there is no life force left in this fragile...
    Coolrocker Coolrocker 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 25, 2014

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    Angry Smash

    Every day the same. Same crappy clothes. Same microwave breakfast. Same crowded train. Same dead office. Same silence. Different people. Same shame and loneliness. I never speak more than five words a day if possible. All they're gonna do is make fun of you, so don't give...
    lonelyme886 lonelyme886 36-40 2 Responses Oct 22, 2012

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    jjaynes01 jjaynes01 18-21, M Jun 30, 2015

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