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I Am Dead Inside

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    hazelnuts143 hazelnuts143 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 10, 2014

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    Well, ya so once I was at the doctors,

    and they checked my knee reflection, but my knee wouldn't move, so they kinda said I am half dead :)
    TheOneAndOnlyMaster TheOneAndOnlyMaster 13-15, F Jul 26, 2014

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    I Don't Understand Emotions Other People Feel Or Have

    I have always had trouble with my emotions. I was abandoned by my dad after being abused for 2 years. My brother died when I was 14. My mom never wanted me or showed interest in me. She was always playing with her grandchildren and ignoring me. Me and my sisters children are very...
    inn3rshadow inn3rshadow 18-21, M 5 Responses Oct 28, 2011

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    The Deadly Volcano

    I act like i am okay, but inside is a volcano waiting to explode with pain, remorse, guilt, pleasure, lies, screams, and cries....it's wrong to hold it in, but i feel as if i tell someone they will hate me for all the things i have done.....i not only feel dead inside but alone...
    Theonethatlivesatnight Theonethatlivesatnight 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 14, 2012

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    I dont have much options

    for life cos its allways the same. Im lonely, have noone to talk, i have no work cos i have disabled daughter and i must care for her the most of my time. I was bullied in my past and all this thoughts creep in if im allways at home and cant go out. Then anger grows and im...
    angel8i angel8i 31-35 2 Responses Dec 3, 2014

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    Right now, everything is just numb.

    I knew it was coming but I never knew it would happen again. It shouldn't have happened. I should have done more to prevent it. Maybe she's right, I asked for it by not being more prepared. I'm sorry. But now i know that there's no going back. I'm dead. They're alive. I'm not...
    JustAskAnything JustAskAnything 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 16, 2014

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    I'm not dead inside most of the time,

    my friends and family revive me most of the time and make me happy. But someone special used to keep me from dying completely. She was the only one who kept me alive and truly at peace. But she moved away to another country, and ever since I started to die slowly everyday. I'm...
    emilesfault emilesfault 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 16, 2014

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    My dog has died to night she was only 2 years

    old I just don't know what to do with myself it's not fair that such a young dog had to die when she had so much to live for
    Sproketsocet Sproketsocet 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 23, 2014

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    The world may be full of people,

    but it's just as empty as my heart
    inkedmommy inkedmommy 22-25, F Dec 17, 2013

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    Emptiness

    I don't have any reason to pursue anything worthwhile: a career, a relationship, anything. Every morning, I wake and question why I even bothered. I question why I feel this way. I question whether it is worth going through the motions of the day. The answer is usually no, but I...
    powersauce powersauce 26-30 2 Responses Sep 19, 2012

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    I am dead inside, I love you

    and I can't tell you because you don't feel thee same. Love happens once in a lifetime I can't learn to love again
    NoraWilliams NoraWilliams 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2014

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    Angry Smash

    Every day the same. Same crappy clothes. Same microwave breakfast. Same crowded train. Same dead office. Same silence. Different people. Same shame and loneliness. I never speak more than five words a day if possible. All they're gonna do is make fun of you, so don't give...
    lonelyme886 lonelyme886 36-40 2 Responses Oct 22, 2012

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    Depression isn't something you pity someone

    for having. It is the only thing I can rely on. It makes you feel absolutely nothing. It blocks out the pain, loneliness and despair. And these are the only things I've felt in so long. Depression has saved me from the pain people have caused me, every single person I've ever...
    silentyping silentyping 16-17, F Jan 1

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    The True Is I Can Be Alone

    i don't know why but as long as i cant remember i never being happy i always felt as if i was empty but then i met her and she made me feel happy but it didn't last i star it to feel as before unhappy until we got slit up now i feel even worst then before i dont may be the true...
    thedudefromtheshield thedudefromtheshield 26-30 1 Response Jun 12, 2013

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    HarlotCurse HarlotCurse 22-25, M Jan 10

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    lovebug19980 lovebug19980 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 18, 2014

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    I just feel dead. The only emotions I have are

    sad ones. I hide it. I hade it very well. I always smile regardless of what I'm feeling. My life feels so pointless right now. Just going through the motions. I always feel depressed or paranoid or on edge or nothing at all. This is an odd thing for me, to open up like this, I...
    confusedforever132 confusedforever132 13-15, F Nov 26, 2014

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    I am constantly moving in slow motion.

    While everyone else is moving on with their life I am still a mile behind. All I can think about it death and darkness and of how dead I really am inside. I am screaming for help. I haven't had a straight thought in months and it's starting to make an impact on my life.
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    What to say, like a fool I loved this girl.

    She avoided me, abandoned me and told me mean things. I am dead long back. I dont want this anymore. I am ok if everything ends, what is the point of living anymore in a world where even love is not true.
    dreamingdarkness dreamingdarkness 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 25, 2014

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    I am unhappy and don't know how to fix my

    statement for a long time
    Unkyy Unkyy 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 27, 2014

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    Dead

    where have I gone.... I am not really here. I am a robot, I am numb, yet it hurts.    I am killing myself and not slowly.  
    solarcybele solarcybele 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2009

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    Sometimes I feel pushed close to the edge,

    and I just want to disappear. Not necessarily die, but just stop existing. Just have all my problems stop existing. I don't want to stay dead forever, just to sleep forever. And then I realize. . . that I am depressive only SOMETIMES, and I am not suicidal. Depressive as I am...
    Kurokagi Kurokagi 18-21 Sep 16, 2014

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    I M Not Dead..I Won'T Let It Happen

    My life right now is of living dead. Everything passes by me..I don't have the word for it but time it just flows by while I stare like the dead. I do not know what happened, where things went so wrong..Is this how you grow up? Lack of activities? Lack of life in life? I do not...
    wishfordeath wishfordeath 22-25, M 4 Responses Feb 16, 2013

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    I've never felt such a strong emptiness in my

    life. I've never felt the pain of breathing before. I've never had tears push from my eyes without warning before. I'm so sick of this hollow feeling I have.
    Saccahride Saccahride 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 22, 2014

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    Clearly Im Not....

    because... well... id be dead then.... but everything feels far away. like my feelings are packed in bubble wrap. i know theyre there, but i dont feel them fully. yet it still hurts. my apathy scares me. if i were laying in the road and a car came towards me  i wonder if i...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 17 Responses Jun 22, 2008

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    I don't know why I cry.

    Its always the same every time. They always lie, tell me they love me, and then leave. I guess I'm used to it. It still hurts every time. What hurts the most is that the feelings are always one sided. I'm always the one who loves them, they never love me back. They say they do...
    LoveandLoss17 LoveandLoss17 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    I don't think I love anyone,

    not even myself and I'm here screaming for attention "Look at me! See me! Please care about me! Please!" And then I realize I spend lesser time caring about my family members I've been this way for a long time ever since that damn mental illness struck. My parents used to have...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F Sep 1, 2014

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    I'm Dead Inside

    Isn't that a horried thing to admit....I'm dead inside. There's a great big world out there, full of stuff...I see it on the television...I read about it... I reach out for it... But somehow, I have been excluded from it. Slowly my dreams have become fewer, those I have I...
    whoeverami whoeverami 46-50, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2011

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    and have been since the day i was born.

    i have two extremely loving parents and a great family, no abuse. i am not depressed, not sad, not longing. just empty, cold, and uncaring. i don't hate myself. i don't even dislike the fact that i am falling back into a place where a lack of emotion is key. it's just that it...
    wsatcher wsatcher 22-25, M Apr 28, 2014

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    ChangedAgain ChangedAgain 16-17, M 4 Responses Apr 16, 2014

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    Pain by Three Days Grace All

    that needs to be said......
    forgottenluna forgottenluna 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 13, 2014

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    Like That Song, Numb

    I wouldn`t call myself exactly dead but..it`s like, I`ve been through so many rough waves, that I guess I`ve become this numb thing inside. Cold, empty..dry. Like somebody sucked the life out of me and left me with nothing inside.I have a narcisistic family, you can say I`m the...
    gia99 gia99 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2011

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    I am dead on the inside

    and I'm just waiting for my brain the get the message.
    100PercentMe 100PercentMe 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 10, 2014

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    Do You Know What Dead Inside Means?

    it means i don't give a **** about anything/anyone based on this definition i'm 80-90% dead inside i can feel myself dying
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2013

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    Wearing A Facade For Too Long

    I feel like over the past few years all I have been doing is what people wanted me to do. I haven't tried to make myself happy in a long time. I can't get motivated enough to make a change in my life. I don't know if there's a certain point in life where you just find yourself...
    kalinakat kalinakat 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 7, 2011

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    I used to be a writer.

    I used to be a philosopher. I used to be filled with hopes and dreams and light. I used to love passionately and deeply; my friends, my family, my boyfriend at the time, my beloved pets. My heart was open and free. Now I just don't give a ****. I feel nothing. I'm dead inside...
    HopefulBunny89 HopefulBunny89 22-25 2 Responses Oct 6, 2014

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    I thought I could handle this

    but I really can't. I am so so scared of what is gonna happen I literally have nothing to be around for anymore. I just can't do it😭 Nothing or no one can help I'm in to deep and just can't get out What's the point in fighting a losing battle when we all know the outcome in...
    herebutinvisible herebutinvisible 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 6, 2014

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    Why Am I Alive

    im asking this because I cant figure out why I cant just die I mean no body wants me around anyway and my soul has already shriveled up and disappated already because of the emotional pain that I feel. im dead inside but still breathing and moving on the outside I cant figure out...
    lunamariemoon lunamariemoon 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 1, 2013

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    I want God to come and take me home.

    'Cause I'm all alone in this crowd. Who are you to me? Who am I supposed to be? Not exactly sure anymore... Where is this going to? Can I follow though? Or just follow you... For a while... Dose anyone ever get this right? I feel no love...
    HarlotCurse HarlotCurse 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    HarlotCurse HarlotCurse 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    You Whom I Think I Am Inlove With!

    I will always repeteadly say sorry to you. I've come and learn to like you so much, that makes me cry every time I remember you. Maybe, this is not LIKE yet it evolve into LOVE that uncontrollably wanting to see you over and over again. I am missing you so much so deeply. Yet...
    Eureka85 Eureka85 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 2, 2012

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    No one truly loves me

    and I feel terrible
    hazelnuts143 hazelnuts143 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 10, 2014

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    Will I Ever Feel?

    My whole life I have been emotionally crippled. I've been dead inside for as long as I can remember. All I ever wanted was o be normal, until I got older. I then realized that being normal is bad, and being me is good. Is it? Is it really better to be empty. to be frozen, to be...
    TheHumanIceCube TheHumanIceCube 26-30, M 55 Responses Feb 27, 2008

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    For the past 5 years i have felt dead on the

    inside. I use to feel so alive but after the awestruck events of betrayal, backstab, lies, emotional abuse, destruction of my reputation,my mom leaving years ago and the ultimate pain of my life becoming ruined I'm dead on the inside there is no life force left in this fragile...
    Coolrocker Coolrocker 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 25, 2014

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    Emptiness

    I have been coping with my feelings pretty well for the past few weeks. But on certain nights like tonight, It just all comes out and attacks me... I'm not sure why. A part of me is missing. I feel so lifeless without it.. without him. I feel so sick, so empty, so numb and alone...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 28, 2011

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    Facts about

    myself: sad suicidal depressed schizophrenic antisocial misunderstanding not alive
    Xnow Xnow 16-17, M Nov 8, 2014

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    Every Day Is The Same When You Cant Feel The World Turning

    Hi possible reader, I’m Gabriel Lara and I’m a complete and utter failure as a human being and a full-time looser like most people in this group. I’m dead inside as well, I cant feel anything except the horrible despair of existence all my waking hours, there is nothing out...
    GABRIELxxLARA GABRIELxxLARA 22-25, M 3 Responses Mar 14, 2013

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    "why Does He Do This"?...........................

    Long story short.....................My Husband says and does things............and deny's that he does..He wouls day he loves me today and then says he never said it to me. Sometimes we get along really well then.......................he hates me for no reason and he  can never...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F Aug 16, 2011

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    You claimed You claimed you loved me Then said

    you had no time for me You claimed you loved me But you would not hug me, You would not kiss me You would not even go on a date with me Yet you claimed you loved me You claimed you wanted a life with me I gave up my life and moved to be with you I gave up my house to be with...
    GaBound GaBound 41-45, M May 21, 2014

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    I die slowly each day

    and fear that I have lost too much to truly salvage joy and happiness in this life.
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    Very Much So....

    I am very much Dead Inside, if I was dead outside, well than, everything would be, A O K again, but sadly, suicide just ins't an option for me anymore, I wish it was, but its not. I hate this feeling I have, this feeling of emptyness, this feeling, like, its all I am ever going...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 29, 2010

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