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I Am Dead

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    People say you live with the scars you choose.

    That's not true.. Sometimes the scars choose you.
    akaKitten akaKitten 16-17, F Sep 3

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    I cant feel happy I cant smile I cant laugh I

    feel sad for no reason I am becoming rude & annoying I wanna run away to my best ep friend but i cant..
    mahdiraza mahdiraza 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    I died a long time ago,

    I'm rotting. I'm a fool. I have the lowes IQ in the world! hah I'm laughing at myself!! haha I was so stupid to ever think that I deserve to be happy! pff i deserve to die a horrible way to die slow really slow that I can feel all the pain that I desirve !
    Ilovebunbunnies Ilovebunbunnies 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    I cant feel happy I cant smile I cant laugh I

    feel sad for no reason I am becoming rude & annoying I wanna run away to my best ep friend but i cant..
    mahdiraza mahdiraza 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Hey guys, this isn't your normal Marshall,

    in fact this is his friend, Gabe. Marshall killed himself June 29th, 2014. We've been trying to get into his account for months now. He wrote individual suicide notes for everybody that made his life miserable, and everyone that kept him afloat for his short 13 years...
    Marshallman90 Marshallman90 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 9

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    I Want to Live Again

     I dream of emotions, whether they be anger, frustration, love, happiness, distress, whatever the emotion, I want to feel again.   Its been since the 22nd of June that I have lost my ability to feel and it was instead replaced with numbness. I wonder if the people...
    Andre3000 Andre3000 18-21 6 Responses Dec 28, 2008

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    5/9/00-8/9/14 Surgery complications on his

    third surgery. He will be forever missed.
    KoolKandon KoolKandon 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 15

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    Dead

    Dead,Sometimes,That's how I feel,Death warmed up,This place,Worse than hell,Wanna move on,Can't wait,Get outta 'ere,Be free again,Start livin' again,And most of all,Be alive!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 28, 2012

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    The dead want those who are living.

    Everyone wants the living, that vital life.
    mariatheresae mariatheresae 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    Well Yeah

    Its about her. A year and half since she left me. Maybe i should tell you first we were together for 30+ long months. It was intense those 30 months. Life was good all was well, then her friend intefered but lets save that story for another day. she left me, it was a blow, i got...
    Floydian Floydian 22-25, M 22 Responses Apr 14, 2009

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    Wtf just happened, I'm home alone

    so am so going to get the blame for this:s. I was in the bathroom, heard a massive bang so went into the kitchen to have a look and saw the devastation that lay in front of me:L, the shelf collapsed Yeah my mums coming home now I think and I'm dead :/
    moonziggy moonziggy 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 27

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    Inside...

    inside i am dead. right now i am just existing. I don't feel alive at all, and I feel like life be better for everyone is i already was dead. 
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 3, 2011

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    No, I Didn't Do It.

    No, I didn't do it. But it's getting there. How can I believe in them without believing in myself? I guess I just don't make the cut anymore. But I was a tool. I faked it as hard as I could. And will until the day I die. They will see. They will see.
    WhoisChaff WhoisChaff 26-30 Jan 19, 2012

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    Veterandepression Veterandepression 22-25 1 Response Mar 15

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    Alive Outside, Dead Inside

    What will you do if you failed so many times? Can't find a new start? Are totally lost? Well here is my life story briefly: I'm 16 this year, and 3 years back I was very rebellious, I didn't think straight, I never expected things would turn out this way. I've been through a fair...
    choices195 choices195 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 30, 2011

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    I Am Dead

    You already are Everything experienced illuminated You have always been Illumination Is pure memory made real From the belief in each other As the collective source of light Giving bright golden awareness Actively everywhere Living through everything Flowing through you As you...
    PureGoodSoul PureGoodSoul 26-30, M Aug 5, 2012

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    Hm..

    What else could I possibly be?!  Alive?! -scoffs-.  
    Krayons Krayons 16-18, F 3 Responses Feb 4, 2008

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    xSilentlySufferingx xSilentlySufferingx 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 25, 2010

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    The Things That Keep This A Metaphor

    I know I am dead because there are only two things that make me stay alive. There is my cat, who has lived a hard life. She is old and was unloved for many years at her house. Now she is sweet and happy with me. So I do not want to make her suffer living in a pet shelter for...
    ForgottenMale ForgottenMale 26-30, M 4 Responses Apr 21, 2012

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    Numbness is something I feel most of the time. I don't feel anything at all then I start to ask myself.. .. Are you dead or alive? I don't know. I know I'm alive but I feel dead...
    PureLies PureLies 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    I have been able to communicate with the dead since I was a child. I think I'm haunted because everywhere I go, every home I live in I see the dead. Now my children are terrorized...
    BrownieJames83 BrownieJames83 31-35, F Sep 29

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    Most of the music I grew up with was from the 60's and early 70's, even though I was not. I was made to listen to the music my mom listened to in high school... and I LOVED it! I...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 Sep 29

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    So if the walking dead premieres in 9 days and I finish all the reruns over again. Then I have to watch 1.3 episodes daily in order to be done before the premiere of season 5. (I...
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 3

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    I used to be a writer. I used to be a philosopher. I used to be filled with hopes and dreams and light. I used to love passionately and deeply; my friends, my family, my boyfriend...
    HopefulBunny89 HopefulBunny89 22-25 2 Responses Oct 6

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    I can't stop talking about it! I have my Walking Dead food ready for tonight,I have my Walking Dead friend (Cali, wink wink) you know who you are ;) watching it with me!!! EXCITED...
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    My day started with a little hope in My heart. That died halfway through the day. Its foolish to ever get hopeful! I have tried to become the Person everyone wanted me to be...
    monah monah 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 24

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    Actually first track of theirs I heard, from their 1987 album, and I was hooked... Though I guess it's been kind of long since I've been listened to anything else by them, but I...
    Faust76 Faust76 36-40, M 1 Response Sep 25

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    I'm 53 and have wished I were dead my whole life. I used to try to commit suicide but after failing 4 times I have given that up. I am resigned to the belief that I will live...
    depressedrobin depressedrobin 51-55, F Sep 26

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    I'm 53 and have wished I were dead my whole life. I used to try to commit suicide but after failing 4 times I have given that up. I am resigned to the belief that I will live like...
    depressedrobin depressedrobin 51-55, F 4 Responses Sep 26

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    Love the song "the one" by theory of a deadman <3
    beautifulher beautifulher 18-21, F Sep 28

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    I love the walking dead! I have never missed an episode and I plan on watching it until the end. The new episodes are so close! Im excited! Who wants to have a walker party!? :P
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 2

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    I love this movie. I just watched it and absolutely love it. GODS NOT DEAD!
    kittykattt6918 kittykattt6918 16-17, F Oct 4

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    My God's not dead. He surely alive. #newboys
    chinkychic chinkychic 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 5

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    OMG I LOVE THIS SHOW!!!! I always was a fan of zombies but now its a tv show about them and its exciting and thrilling and a little bit of gore.! Who else love the walking dead.?
    Dsanders13 Dsanders13 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 6

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    Dead certain this damn film summoned a sneaky *** cockroach to crawl up my arm during the scariest part of the movie.
    bombchu bombchu 22-25, F Oct 9

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    Yup. I freaking love this guy. He's so hilarious, badass, and sometimes heart-breakingly tragic. It might just be my cracky fangirl brain, but I think he's adorable, scars and all...
    WinterSoldierBucky WinterSoldierBucky 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    I oppose this statement, but I respect others' opinions: it's not dead. Believe me, I've met a really wonderful guy who loves me for me (and boy am I a lot to handle). He respects...
    GhastlyRendition GhastlyRendition 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    My cat is sitting in my lap and I'm watching the walking dead Marathon XD classic fangirl
    NerdForLife NerdForLife 18-21, F a week ago

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    To be dead, its a wish I have, its something I dream about, something I have been aching for, but no one will ever know this, because I paint a smile on my face, and act like its...
    SouthernBella89 SouthernBella89 22-25, F a week ago

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    Call me weird, but every time before I past a grave I like to say a prayer for the dead. I saw my first grave yard when I was 8 and ever since then, I've always had an urge to.
    MarGuz5334 MarGuz5334 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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      I'm not really. Just that on the maths noticeboards at my school, there is a board with people's faces on it and saying something that they got wrong in the summer...
    Kyprioi Kyprioi 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    My favorite Grateful Dead song "Ripple" Lyrics by: Robert Hunter Music by: Jerry Garcia If my words did glow with the gold of sunshine And my tunes were played on the harp...
    KlaraVoyet KlaraVoyet 36-40, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Hell I lived, still do, its enduring now. Everyday is the same, always alone, always unsure, always cold. I never knew what was wrong with me. I always got badly punished at home...
    Lexi3is0dreaming Lexi3is0dreaming 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    Walking Dead s.5 came now !!!!! I hate a man who will strangle Judict baby . /.
    Patties26 Patties26 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I've see one before and it was the day before the funeral and he has all the makeup on that the put on dead bodies so they can look okay. Only the family could see him since what...
    bvbandmcr bvbandmcr 13-15, F 7 hrs ago

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    Only a few more minutes before the new The Walking Dead
    firedog301 firedog301 26-30, M 7 hrs ago

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    Got a text from my biological father today... I don't think I could be more upset. I have no idea what to say to him or how to feel/act toward him. I feel like bawling my eyes out...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    I really do. When I'm 18 I'll run far far away from this ****** place.
    halfpace halfpace 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 26

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    See here how everything Leads up to this day And it's just like Every other day that's Ever been. Sun comin' up and then The sun it goin' down. Shine through my window And my...
    johnstlouis johnstlouis 56-60, M Sep 27