I Am Depressed But Hide It

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    My Secret

    Coworkers have no idea.Acquaintances have no idea.Friends have an inkling.Close friends heavily suspect.But honestly, I don't think anyone knows exactly how extreme my depression really is. Every day I think about suicide. Then I feel ashamed and horrible for thinking of such a...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    36-40, F
    1 Response Oct 26, 2011

    Trying to Make It Each Day

    i am depressed but hide it.  most people think i'm happy but i think of sucide often.  i go to church and take medication but it dosen't help.  i'm not sure it dosen't help it may help some.  i take anything for comfort prescribed or not.
    orrum orrum
    Oct 12, 2008

    Warped Way of Thinking

    I'm sure there are people who feel like this, but so far I havent been able to find someone that I can relate to. So most of the time, as you might guess, I'm very depressed or at least sad. Sometimes it's for a "good" reason. Other times it's something minor that sets...
    inuratus inuratus
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 5, 2008


    I have never been diagnosed as being depressed and I do not take any medications.  But I know I am depressed because I feel hollow inside.  I cry alot and feel depleted of energy.  The depression is eating me away and I do not know what to do.  I...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings
    16 Responses Jan 31, 2009

    I Hide Depression Well...to Most

    I have been depressed for several years.  I abuse RX meds, now, starting to drink again, all to escape.  See I am a married man, I love my wife, but I haven't been IN LOVE with her for a long time. (we've been married 16 years, together 18).  The one...
    wishingforlove wishingforlove
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Dec 31, 2008

    I am very very depressed my family don't know

    and I've been single for so long i can't remember how long and each time I think I've found someone it blows up in my face so now I just shut the would out by listening to music constantly through headphones pleas help!!
    ash18bmth ash18bmth
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 21, 2014

    My Story

    Well it was one year ago I was in the summer between 5th and 6th grade . I got cyber-bullied . By my own friends , I felt worthless . One day I finally told my mom I was being bullied through text msg . She talked to their moms and they stopped . 6th grade rolled around I got...
    emilycx emilycx
    26-30, F
    Aug 17, 2013

    I cry a lot but can't seem to put in words why.

    I tried seeing a councillor once but she pretty much did nothing. I don't have any friends I can talk to. I haven't suffered any traumatic experience that I can recall. Simply I'm just not happy with any aspect of my life and I don't know why.
    Topcat05 Topcat05
    46-50, F
    Oct 11, 2014


    i have lived a life where i had to grow up with i was 5 years old my parents where so messed up on meth that they didnt care if we ate or if we went to school they only cared about themselfs and it sucks cause im not the book worm that gets good grades im the girl that cant...
    katlyn4121 katlyn4121
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 25, 2012

    My Life

    when i was a 18 yrs old or so i started to become depressed when someone who i thought was my friend that i worked with and trusted i told him that i was gay cuz i was tired of hideing it i thought that he would keep it a secret and instead he told all of my fellow employes i...
    marcusduncan1 marcusduncan1
    26-30, M
    Nov 20, 2013

    Am I Fake?

    When you see me in person, I look happy and seem like I have no problems at all. My friends and co-workers never hear sad or bitter stories from me. They never see me sad or frowning. I'm always the one who makes them laugh. They see me as a person who enjoys life and every...
    anschel anschel
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Feb 1, 2009

    The slightest thing can trigger my

    uncontrollable crying! I find it hard to show emotion, a few years back I was the class clown always making ppl laugh everyday! But now I'm quiet and reserved and I need help so I can be the loud and funny person I once was!
    sheriff96 sheriff96
    18-21, M
    Apr 21, 2014

    I have lost all motivation.

    For everything. To lose weight. To care about work. To take care of myself. At this point, my depression has gotten so bad that I'm not even sure how it is that I get up every morning. I don't know how to change this.
    melodytc melodytc
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 28, 2015

    I am at a low once gain in my life.

    I have been trying and trying I do my best to keep on keeping on and have had many days, weeks and even months this year where I have been happy of proud of the person I am. But; I just can't keep pretending. When I have been happy I've been truly happy but now I feel as though...
    Love2Express Love2Express
    26-30, F
    Apr 21, 2014

    I Always Smile Even When I Feel Like Crying

    i have been battling depression for several years since i was a teen-ager. i have never been diagnosed, i am afraid to go. i do not want the world to know i am depressed so i hide it. a few close friends could know, but it is not something we talk about. everyday i think about...
    wtchyldy wtchyldy
    1 Response Feb 1, 2009

    I've always been sad

    and down inside, never telling people what i actually feel ever since I was around 6 years old, which was when the bullying started. I just put up a facade, a shield. Something to hide behind so people can never really know me... Some days I even start to believe that shield...
    Firiro Firiro
    18-21, M
    Mar 3, 2014
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