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I Am Depressed More Than People Realize

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    I've told my friends

    that I'm feeling depressed. One of them told me she's been through it all before but I know that the way it affects you can be very different from person to person. I've been so moody and unpredictable for the past few months no matter how hard I try to control myself. My...
    futurecrazycatlady1 futurecrazycatlady1 18-21, F Jan 17

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    Sometimes, I feel like I'm in the eye of a

    storm. I went through hell to get there, barely surviving the storm around me. And I realize, I'm safe here. After all, the eye of the storm is the safest part, and so I stay there, content. However, while I'm feeling that I'm hyper-aware of the storm constantly going on around...
    faeriefate faeriefate 18-21 4 days ago

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    I know a lot of people on here don't believe in

    God, but I could seriously use some prayers right now.
    Rachel335 Rachel335 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 21, 2015

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    everyone thinks i am a negative idiot.

    they think im just negative about everything, but really, im just really depressed
    itrytobepositivebuticant itrytobepositivebuticant 16-17 2 Responses Sep 15, 2015

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    I don't know how to get passed this depression,

    it's completely taken over my whole being. Like I've been thrown into a pit 1000 miles deep with no hope of escape. No one can hear my screams echoing off the walls cause my the time it reaches the surface it has long dissipated. They pass by this pit with no idea that someone...
    Starvin9Artist1 Starvin9Artist1 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 19, 2015

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    I feel like garbage and have lost everything

    and everyone who cared about me. I just want to know if anyone who have expirienced this can tell me how to get through it. I cry every day and the only thing that can make me happy is listening to my favorite songs 'til I fall asleep...
    CMPatrick434 CMPatrick434 13-15, M 3 Responses Dec 4, 2015

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    again i am setting in a dark room smoking,

    having a drink, tv on for background noise. feeling depressed
    kometsr kometsr 61-65, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am getting picked on by a lot of people,

    but I'm still here and I think I know why I'm still here, maybe because I have 1 friend that I can trust, and I care about them a lot and they are really important to me, I get happy when I text them but idk why. this person is probably the only reason why I'm still here. even...
    acdevin acdevin 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 11, 2015

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    I feel like everyone around me thinks my

    depression is a joke. I try not to talk about it because people don't understand how much of a struggle it really is. I get that my life isn't terrible but I can't help that I always feel down. Even during good moments in life, my heart still feels heavy and I still feel...
    macieelise33 macieelise33 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 3

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    I hate myself more then anything.

    I've given myself so many chances, but each time my depression comes back, but its worse then before. I can never learn to love myself until I've completed what I have to do. But I just don't know what I have to do, yet.
    Himidio Himidio 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    My family doesnt know,

    and I dont think they can know any time soon. There's so much going on right now with my brother's mental health, my mom's cancer and hospital visits, and my dad just not acting like our dad anymore that I just dont want to add more **** to the mix. My mom needs to stay positive...
    tarara0414 tarara0414 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 30, 2015

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    I'm 27. I'm a woman. I've been depressed more

    than half of my life. I realized that I was different when I was younger. I was very sensitive, anything could make me cry, and I worried a lot about the inevitable. My mind constantly cycled through thoughts, problems, fears,stress. My first bout with depression was when I was...
    theempire20 theempire20 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 15, 2015

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    Irony

    A man I know quite well became prone to bouts of deep depression, bordering on suicide. In desperation, he sought the services of a psychologist, telling them: "I seem to see nothing but shadows and darkness everywhere; the world seems so full of anger, horror and evil...
    amberdextrous amberdextrous 51-55, M 10 Responses Nov 9, 2009

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    You know that kid you called **** well he

    killed himself yesterday. That girl you called fat,She starved herself to death. And the boy who you called retarded is now on life support for a failed suicide attempt that went wrong. Let me tell you something, the words you say hurt.Whether you are joking or not the other...
    BrandonDay BrandonDay 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 3, 2015

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    I had a dream where I died.

    When I woke up this morning, I wished it were true. I hardly ever feel this way but I guess I don't understand what's going on in my head very well. This scared me a little.
    Rucbrar Rucbrar 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I want to runaway from everything

    for awhile. I want to scream SO LOUD and cry! I'm tired physically, emotionally & mentally. I need to breath.
    coronaborealis coronaborealis 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 22, 2015

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    Emotionally, I 'm a wreck.

    I'm in pain, all the time, and the only other option I'm given is crippling numbness. But I can't let my friends know. I have to keep my happy face on for them. How can I let them know that the best friend that always smiled with them, laughed with them, that they accepted no...
    faeriefate faeriefate 18-21 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm feeling the moment

    when I'm happy sometimes I don't get it . Lift isn't always perfect but it has its ways that makes you happy! I'm sometimes happy people don't realize how deep inside I'm very sad I cry when no ones around me .. Does anyone feel this way ??
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 30, 2015

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    I often feel like I have no one.

    I am trying to make it on my own which is a good feeling to have and something to be proud of. I don't really lean on anyone and that can be empowering; however, it can also be really exhausting not have anyone, even just for a day, someone that you can go to for advice, to...
    cowboyspikespeigal cowboyspikespeigal 26-30, M Nov 16, 2014

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    I am the eldest in my sisters.

    But i constantly have this pressure to get better grades than my sister, she's quite smart. This makes me depressed a lot. The kids in my class believe i never get sad for long, but that's not the case. I live in this constant depresing cloud. It makes me not like anyone better...
    Lalaloopsiebabe Lalaloopsiebabe 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 22, 2015

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    No More Strength

    [Hi! this is my first time ever sharing about me with other people] There's no one who really understands me. Maybe there's a few people who care about me, for example my parents. But there's no one who can help me really. Some people who know that I'm depressed keep saying that...
    kRylE7 kRylE7 18-21 3 Responses Oct 8, 2013

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    Every single days I have to deal with ; All the

    insults which really hurts me in the inside People laughing at me ,for every little thing I do wrong, the People laughing behind my back I act as though everything is fine even after enduring all of this pain each day,but all i was was in denial but I wish that everyone who...
    Marcysonline Marcysonline 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 4, 2015

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    im fine... having a lot of stress

    and trouble in my life I just want a miracle.I'm innocent,only human,been suffering for 8 years now
    leahxlife leahxlife 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    This is why I'm so depressed: I feel left out.

    Okay I have this friend (let's call her Emily since I don't like mentioning their real names) who has been with another friend for a while(let's call the other friend Olivia) I feel like a third wheel. Olivia always brags about the time she spends with Emily and the fact that I...
    Randompersondemandinghelp Randompersondemandinghelp 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    I put on this mask for the world to see.

    .I'm not this extremely happy Kaylee. I cry myself to sleep a lot of nights and just feel so alone. No one understands and no one seems to care so I keep it to myself.
    Kayleehere Kayleehere 18-21, F Feb 21, 2015

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    nobody knows me anymore,

    if they did they'd drop me like that. Because I'm crazy I here voices in my head telling me to kill me self take that drug etc, if I sleep I have nightmares , I lose sleep for days at a time, people I love keep dying my life's a mess I need help
    Bigwillyk Bigwillyk 13-15, M 4 Responses Mar 21, 2015

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    I don't want my mom to know about it.

    She gave herself such a hard time when I got caught shoplifting and thought she raised me incorrectly. I'm afraid that she'd blame herself again for my depression. Besides that, she'd ask questions and want to understand, but I don't like talking to her about problems and I don...
    tarara0414 tarara0414 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 1, 2015

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    parents saw my phone,

    saw texts related to me talking and asking for weed. all social media taken from me. lost two best friends through no contact because of my parents. but. i mostly did that to myself. i should've known they would've found out. and on top of that, my arms are going to scar now...
    kethina kethina 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 3, 2015

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    I hide it very well. Many years learning how.

    I don't know if you could classify me as a manic depressive, but I am probably borderline. I have wished for death daily since I was in my teens, but yet in my 40's now, I still wish that one day I just won't wake up and this constant hell that is my life will finally be over...
    rattlethatlock rattlethatlock 41-45, M 2 Responses Nov 30, 2015

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    I've got 11 more days of being 15

    and then I turn 16, I feel like I'm getting older to fast, I also just am ready to give up, so many things are happening and It's hard to keep up. I'm SO tired, I am exhuasted from the moment I get up till the moment I go to sleep, I could for sleep 10 hours, stay up for an hour...
    RyRyOfAwesomeness RyRyOfAwesomeness 16-17, M 4 Responses Jan 29, 2015

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    I've been going threw this guinea pig thing

    lately. it started when I started playing with my step dad's guinea pig. he's all soft and cuddley. I've become absolutely obsessed with them. learned everything there is to know about them. it's one of the only things in my life that is actually making me happy. when I go to...
    oceansix oceansix 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 14, 2015

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    You never really understand how much you take

    advantage of your emotions. A feeling. I have many issues, and I always thought that I'd look back at them and think they were childish. Hell, every time I said them allowed I distanced myself from that person because I realized how childish it sounds. When I look back, though...
    faeriefate faeriefate 18-21 1 Response Nov 30, 2015

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    Sooooooooooooooo much depression,

    no one care or understand about me at all.........................................
    Amago Amago 13-15, M 2 Responses Jun 21, 2015

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    Of Course...

    ...because no one REALLY wants to know how depressed and sad you are all the time. What a buzzkill, they say. So you put on a happy face, or at the very least a neutral face, and pretend that you're just a "little sad" or "grumpy" at that moment. But oh no, don't act that way for...
    Tuva Tuva 31-35, M 5 Responses Feb 13, 2011

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    megans0988 megans0988 26-30, F Jan 11

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    bradley600 bradley600 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 22, 2015

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    I'm having a bad day,

    and nothing seems to help... What happened? Nothing. Often my darkness creeps unprovoked... I have tried everything in my immediate power to feel better, nothing is helping. I'm trying to sleep it off but can't get sleepy enough... And some wonder why I used to do binge drink...
    RenegadeReaper RenegadeReaper 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 15, 2015

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    Sadly, what I've found is

    that I don't know anyone who wouldn't stab me in the back. There isn't a sole I can trust. It's very lonely. I've always had trouble making friends. I don't understand people. On the rare occasion that I ever did think that I had someone I could call and talk to it always turned...
    a68taurus a68taurus 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2015

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    I've never known such self loathing

    and depression until I got married to him. I didn't know what it was to be depressed until I met him. Now I feel like I'm being sucked in. I've nearly lasted a decade and have been trying to counteract and help him out of the funk, but I find myself failing as of late. There...
    moonlitplaid moonlitplaid 31-35, F Jan 3

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    Ever since I've been on steady medication my

    mood has improved greatly. I'm still a bit odd, yes, but I'm not miserable. However an issue I've noticed is within a day or two of missing my pills my mood shifts dramatically. I stop loving, I want is to die, I can't think coherently, I can bearly stay awake, and I have...
    greatgost greatgost 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    It gets harder and harder,

    everyday, to pretend to be okay...
    ChanteSica ChanteSica 18-21, F 2 Responses May 7, 2015

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    I just don't discuss my feelings often

    because most people don't want to be bothered with it all. I might look happy but sometimes it is just a mask to hide my sadness.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic 26-30, F 4 Responses Oct 15, 2015

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    I'm on immigration process

    and am not allowed to work or get a driver's license until I'm authorized. My husband needs to take me places even though he is exhausted with hard work. He works triple hard to cover all bills and stuff because I can't make money. I've been feeling so sorry for him. I try not...
    VogueChloe VogueChloe 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 22, 2015

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    These memories never seem to fade.

    . The hurt never goes away.. No matter how hard I try, peace never stays... I'd love a resolution, but nothing eases my mind.. I truly know that i'm engaged to this hurt, and we seem to be loyal... But i'm not happy.. These days, it's been so hard for me to walk, because I know...
    ShallowDreamers ShallowDreamers 22-25, M 5 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    I have been depressed all of my adult life,

    but I have only been able to truly admit it to myself this year. Only one close friend know about it. Sharing with someone and admitting it was the hardest thing to do.... I live with depression every day, and I am not only living with depression, but I live alone, am pretty...
    thinkwithyourheart thinkwithyourheart 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 15, 2015

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