I Am Depressed More Than People Realize

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    I'm on immigration process

    and am not allowed to work or get a driver's license until I'm authorized. My husband needs to take me places even though he is exhausted with hard work. He works triple hard to cover all bills and stuff because I can't make money. I've been feeling so sorry for him. I try not...
    VogueChloe VogueChloe
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 22, 2015

    I have been getting more depressed lately.

    I thought since I moved away from my mom things would get better. Things have gotten better but not without some bad times happening in the process. I'm still not where I want to be, but I'm open to transforming. It's odd how some people stay the same & then there are people who...
    AliAlien AliAlien
    Mar 29, 2016

    For with God nothing will be impossible (Luke

    1:37). There yet is hope for you in Christ. Whatever your problem may be, and however seemingly grave the situation miay be, it is nothing to the Age of Ages. There yet is hope for you in Christ. All other things are void of actual help. Some may help in soothing the problem...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 3, 2016

    I hate myself more then anything.

    I've given myself so many chances, but each time my depression comes back, but its worse then before. I can never learn to love myself until I've completed what I have to do. But I just don't know what I have to do, yet.
    Himidio Himidio
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 11, 2016

    everyone thinks i am a negative idiot.

    they think im just negative about everything, but really, im just really depressed
    itrytobepositivebuticant itrytobepositivebuticant
    2 Responses Sep 15, 2015

    These memories never seem to fade.

    . The hurt never goes away.. No matter how hard I try, peace never stays... I'd love a resolution, but nothing eases my mind.. I truly know that i'm engaged to this hurt, and we seem to be loyal... But i'm not happy.. These days, it's been so hard for me to walk, because I know...
    ShallowDreamers ShallowDreamers
    26-30, M
    5 Responses Sep 11, 2014

    Emotionally, I 'm a wreck.

    I'm in pain, all the time, and the only other option I'm given is crippling numbness. But I can't let my friends know. I have to keep my happy face on for them. How can I let them know that the best friend that always smiled with them, laughed with them, that they accepted no...
    faeriefate faeriefate
    1 Response Feb 6, 2016

    I'm numb. I have all these things I should be

    doing, and yet here I am laying in bed, wishing I could cry or feel something, but nothing comes. maybe I will just go back to sleep, that's my safe place.
    Forevertired23 Forevertired23
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 18, 2016

    I can pretend that everything is okay.

    . . but in my head it's like war in an ER. . . I have parts of me in pain, other pieces trying to nurse me back to health and surgeons covered to their elbows in blood trying to fix my heart. Meanwhile outside, I smile, I laugh and tell everyone everything is okay.
    RebekahWriter13 RebekahWriter13
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 5, 2016

    I don't want my mom to know about it.

    She gave herself such a hard time when I got caught shoplifting and thought she raised me incorrectly. I'm afraid that she'd blame herself again for my depression. Besides that, she'd ask questions and want to understand, but I don't like talking to her about problems and I don...
    tarara0414 tarara0414
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 1, 2015

    For those of you who have lost your desire to

    pray, to sing,I'm asking God to put that melody back in your hearts tonight; cause you to lift your voice, even though you don't understand. Your Father in Heaven loves you, do not forsake Him...do not forget the benefits of the Lord. God bless you.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 1, 2016

    Everyone needs compassion,

    a love that's never failing, let mercy fall on us. Everyone needs forgiveness, the kindness of a Savior, the Hope of nations. Savior, He can move the mountains My God is mighty to save. He is mighty to save. Forever, author of Salvation He rose and conquered the grave. Jesus...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 3, 2016

    I want to runaway from everything

    for awhile. I want to scream SO LOUD and cry! I'm tired physically, emotionally & mentally. I need to breath.
    coronaborealis coronaborealis
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 22, 2015

    This is why I'm so depressed: I feel left out.

    Okay I have this friend (let's call her Emily since I don't like mentioning their real names) who has been with another friend for a while(let's call the other friend Olivia) I feel like a third wheel. Olivia always brags about the time she spends with Emily and the fact that I...
    Randompersondemandinghelp Randompersondemandinghelp
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 25, 2016

    For with God nothing will be impossible (Luke

    1:37). There yet is hope for you in Christ. Whatever your problem may be, and however seemingly grave the situation miay be, it is nothing to the Age of Ages. There yet is hope for you in Christ. All other things are void of actual help. Some may help in soothing the problem...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 3, 2016

    You know that kid you called **** well he

    killed himself yesterday. That girl you called fat,She starved herself to death. And the boy who you called retarded is now on life support for a failed suicide attempt that went wrong. Let me tell you something, the words you say hurt.Whether you are joking or not the other...
    BrandonDay BrandonDay
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jul 3, 2015

    nobody knows me anymore,

    if they did they'd drop me like that. Because I'm crazy I here voices in my head telling me to kill me self take that drug etc, if I sleep I have nightmares , I lose sleep for days at a time, people I love keep dying my life's a mess I need help
    Bigwillyk Bigwillyk
    16-17, M
    4 Responses Mar 21, 2015

    I'm having a bad day,

    and nothing seems to help... What happened? Nothing. Often my darkness creeps unprovoked... I have tried everything in my immediate power to feel better, nothing is helping. I'm trying to sleep it off but can't get sleepy enough... And some wonder why I used to do binge drink...
    RenegadeReaper RenegadeReaper
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 15, 2015

    I'm 16 years old and I know its a young age.

    but last year on July my mom was murdered by and ex of mine I know its hard to believe but its true. he wanted to kill me and her cuz I found somebody new and he got mad but the reason why I didn't die was because I wasn't with my mom .. and since that day I feel like its all my...
    slgc1 slgc1
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Feb 28, 2016

    It gets harder and harder,

    everyday, to pretend to be okay...
    ChanteSica ChanteSica
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 7, 2015

    I put on this mask for the world to see.

    .I'm not this extremely happy Kaylee. I cry myself to sleep a lot of nights and just feel so alone. No one understands and no one seems to care so I keep it to myself.
    Kayleehere Kayleehere
    22-25, F
    Feb 21, 2015

    my ******* life sucks ***,

    i get **** grades, even though i try my hardest, i always want to kill myself, especially from burning, everyone hates me, overall life is ******* **** and is not worth living for
    46-50, M
    Mar 17, 2016

    "-Hey, how are you today ?

    -I'm fine" And it's like that everyday. Don't show how f*cked up you feel, don't make others feel uneasy because of how depressed you are… "You are depressed ? I never knew…" is a sentence I hear a lot. I might be good at hiding it… But I'm definitely not happy. The smile...
    AlaRubra AlaRubra
    18-21, T
    Mar 11, 2016

    When life is rough, pray.

    -----:------:------:----- Pray, when life is great.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 1, 2016

    People have no idea what's going on in my head.

    I hide every emotion and feeling from them. I fake a smile and pretend I'm ok and tell them I'm just tired.
    xxemoscenechickxx xxemoscenechickxx
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 5, 2016

    I feel like everyone around me thinks my

    depression is a joke. I try not to talk about it because people don't understand how much of a struggle it really is. I get that my life isn't terrible but I can't help that I always feel down. Even during good moments in life, my heart still feels heavy and I still feel...
    macieelise33 macieelise33
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 3, 2016

    Sooooooooooooooo much depression,

    no one care or understand about me at all.........................................
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jun 21, 2015

    No More Strength

    [Hi! this is my first time ever sharing about me with other people] There's no one who really understands me. Maybe there's a few people who care about me, for example my parents. But there's no one who can help me really. Some people who know that I'm depressed keep saying that...
    kRylE7 kRylE7
    3 Responses Oct 8, 2013

    Sometimes the tiniest feeling of doubt

    and failure, brought on by something so small and simple, will ruin my whole day. And all the work I've done to battle and win the fight with depression goes down the drain and suddenly I hate myself, the world and everyone in it and all I can think of is how badly I wanna...
    RenegadeReaper RenegadeReaper
    22-25, F
    Jan 21, 2016
    bradley600 bradley600
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jun 22, 2015

    Of Course...

    ...because no one REALLY wants to know how depressed and sad you are all the time. What a buzzkill, they say. So you put on a happy face, or at the very least a neutral face, and pretend that you're just a "little sad" or "grumpy" at that moment. But oh no, don't act that way for...
    Tuva Tuva
    31-35, M
    5 Responses Feb 13, 2011
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 14, 2016

    im fine... having a lot of stress

    and trouble in my life I just want a miracle.I'm innocent,only human,been suffering for 8 years now
    leahxlife leahxlife
    13-15, F
    Feb 6, 2016

    So yesterday my dad discovered

    that my mom was cheating on him. It was so heartbreaking, and this is probably the first time I seen my dad cry. I was filled with anger confusion and a desire to cut get drunk anything to escape. At least my dad and siblings are still here but if my dad went along with his...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 20, 2016

    Just Letting It Out.

    After losing my partner to infidelity through my child catching her in the act. I lost the plot and threatened to kill her. I went to jail and suffered dearly. Ive overcome drugs and other partners cheating on me in the past also ive just recently beaten a disease. Im completely...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 8, 2011

    (I refer this to Christians going through

    TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up) Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God doesn't give us what we can handle but helps us handle what we are given, because, just as impure gold is passed through fire and made pure, we...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 10, 2016

    Sometimes, I feel like I'm in the eye of a

    storm. I went through hell to get there, barely surviving the storm around me. And I realize, I'm safe here. After all, the eye of the storm is the safest part, and so I stay there, content. However, while I'm feeling that I'm hyper-aware of the storm constantly going on around...
    faeriefate faeriefate
    Feb 6, 2016

    I've got 11 more days of being 15

    and then I turn 16, I feel like I'm getting older to fast, I also just am ready to give up, so many things are happening and It's hard to keep up. I'm SO tired, I am exhuasted from the moment I get up till the moment I go to sleep, I could for sleep 10 hours, stay up for an hour...
    RyRyOfAwesomeness RyRyOfAwesomeness
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Jan 29, 2015

    I looked at my phone today

    and realized that no one has called me or text me in three days. Would it make a difference to anyone if I wasn't there anymore?
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Jun 21, 2015

    I'm literally too depressed to stay awake any

    longer. Partially I was bored and didn't want to go to the gym this late with Dad I'm more so to depressed to stay awake any longer
    XxRazorbladeRomancexX XxRazorbladeRomancexX
    22-25, M
    5 Responses Mar 5, 2016

    Do I even care anymore?

    I am just seen as a nuisance to most people at this point. I would be better off disappearing.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    Mar 29, 2016

    Ever have times where ANYTHING would be better

    than how you currently feel? That's me right now. I don't want to be here. I don't want to hurt. I don't want to be me. Tomorrow I'll put on makeup, go to work, smile. But tonight... Tonight I just want it to end.
    Shardsofsorrow Shardsofsorrow
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Feb 28, 2016

    While most teens have both

    or even one of their parents, I have none. It's not even because they are deceased, but because I feel like I'm not supported by them, I feel so alone. My mom pays more attention her boyfriend and my dad rarely sees me; yet, I am expected to "excel at everything" without any...
    deleted deleted
    Apr 1, 2016

    parents saw my phone,

    saw texts related to me talking and asking for weed. all social media taken from me. lost two best friends through no contact because of my parents. but. i mostly did that to myself. i should've known they would've found out. and on top of that, my arms are going to scar now...
    kethina kethina
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Jun 3, 2015

    My family doesnt know,

    and I dont think they can know any time soon. There's so much going on right now with my brother's mental health, my mom's cancer and hospital visits, and my dad just not acting like our dad anymore that I just dont want to add more **** to the mix. My mom needs to stay positive...
    tarara0414 tarara0414
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 30, 2015

    again i am setting in a dark room smoking,

    having a drink, tv on for background noise. feeling depressed
    kometsr kometsr
    66-70, M
    1 Response Feb 9, 2016

    I am the eldest in my sisters.

    But i constantly have this pressure to get better grades than my sister, she's quite smart. This makes me depressed a lot. The kids in my class believe i never get sad for long, but that's not the case. I live in this constant depresing cloud. It makes me not like anyone better...
    Lalaloopsiebabe Lalaloopsiebabe
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Jun 22, 2015


    A man I know quite well became prone to bouts of deep depression, bordering on suicide. In desperation, he sought the services of a psychologist, telling them: "I seem to see nothing but shadows and darkness everywhere; the world seems so full of anger, horror and evil...
    amberdextrous amberdextrous
    51-55, M
    9 Responses Nov 9, 2009

    I don't know how to get passed this depression,

    it's completely taken over my whole being. Like I've been thrown into a pit 1000 miles deep with no hope of escape. No one can hear my screams echoing off the walls cause my the time it reaches the surface it has long dissipated. They pass by this pit with no idea that someone...
    Starvin9Artist1 Starvin9Artist1
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 19, 2015

    This is how nerdy I am ,

    I have been researching different suicide methods. Yes I know all the reasons not to commit suicide, and I am holding on for my family. My wife, kids, granddaughter. The bad news, unfortunately keeps piling on me, and it will not get any better. I want to see my next...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Feb 18, 2016

    I smile so I don't have to go through the

    conversations of "why I am the way I am" it only adds on to my worries and stress; to pretend it's not real has always been my method, not saying I recommend it, but it's my way to cope with how I feel..
    higherminded higherminded
    22-25, F
    May 3, 2015

    I know a lot of people on here don't believe in

    God, but I could seriously use some prayers right now.
    Rachel335 Rachel335
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 21, 2015

    I just don't discuss my feelings often

    because most people don't want to be bothered with it all. I might look happy but sometimes it is just a mask to hide my sadness.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Oct 15, 2015
    eternalove293 eternalove293
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 17, 2016

    I have been depressed over 3 weeks

    and none of my friends and family realize it because I always fake smile and fake laugh and it's so easy to foul them and I know that they won't understand the **** that I go threw so it's fine no one wants to help me anyways as you can see a lot of people care about them self...
    Iszysoftsoles Iszysoftsoles
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Feb 7, 2016

    most days im all smiles

    but most days are all pain
    statically statically
    26-30, M
    1 Response Mar 9, 2016
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