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I Am Depressed More Than People Realize

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    I am 24. Ever since I was a baby,

    my mother and father have been fighting with each other like cats and dogs for every small reason. I had an elder brother (10 years older to me) who suffered from Muscular Dystrophy.He passed away when I was 11. He was the only one who gave me sorta motherly love as he took care...
    Samsinh Samsinh 22-25, F Mar 1

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    Don't Want To Breathe

    Waking up every morning feels like the biggest struggle. I don't know whether to be thankful to god for letting me see another day or question myself as to why I'm alive. With great difficulty as I wake up and get myself out of bed, all I know is nothing has changed and today's...
    lifeastruggle lifeastruggle 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 20, 2013

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    I Try To Grin And Bear It Everyday

    Its refreshing, yet sad to see others suffer like myself. I am 34 years old and I suffer from anxiety, self esteem issues, and depression. Those that know me well know I have a problem with these but they think its pretty minor. I had it daily from my boyfriend of a year and we...
    katielee102 katielee102 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 26, 2013

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    When You See Me Coming Home..

    Yea, when you see me coming home with a large bag of potato chips, know that I'm feeling horrible. I think that's going to happen more often.. who gives a f u q anyway yay :) see I'm smilling, I'm sooooo happy I can't believe how happy I am, I am so damn happy to the point I...
    PiecingMeBackTogether PiecingMeBackTogether 18-21 Nov 20, 2013

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    Stream Of Love

    STREAM OF LOVE I wondring that night, My happiness is flying like a kite, I am standing in a flowing stream, With the princess of my beautiful dream.... Jealous was the star, Flower begain the war, Shine lost of golden sand, To see wonderful life in my hand.... In the cool...
    amanpeacelove amanpeacelove 18-21, M Oct 13, 2013

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    I have been suffering depression

    for about 2 years. I see a psychologist but only every so often as I can't afford it as often as I need. My mum thinks that I am fine nothing's wrong. I can't approach her because I am not her "golden child". If I try talk to her she changes the subject. Any advice?
    unknown331 unknown331 16-17 1 Response Mar 26

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    This Is Not Easy

    It seems lately my depression comes in waves. Like I can wake up feeling ok, just enough to go trough the day, and then this wave comes crushing me. I try to shake it out, to be positive as much as I can, but most of the time I end up failing. Right now I cant get rid of this...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 6, 2012

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    Two Halves

    I basically have two versions of myself, one the happy hyper laughing one that I show to everyone to make them happy and the other is the low suicidal numb one that literally thinks and feels nothing and is just the inside me. It gets really tiring to put up this like good front...
    onemorenotch onemorenotch 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2013

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    My Perfect Fake Smile

    People don't know me, often adults and strangers see me as an intelligent, young happy girl, not populair, but always caring about others. They're not completely wrong, but I'm not happy. Yes, I laugh with friends everyday, but as soon the laughing is over, the loneliness and...
    littlewolf1 littlewolf1 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 24, 2013

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    Idiot Politicians And Doctors

    Since I have been injured - 14 months ago - I have found that marijuana helps two things. I had always heard it was great for pain, and it is. But it's also great for depression. I never knew that until I smoked some while utterly depressed. But until things change, I cannot...
    stankadiddlehopper stankadiddlehopper 51-55, M 1 Response Mar 7, 2013

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    People look at me and see this happy go lucky

    person with a bubbly personality. Most of my friends, even my closest ones, can't name a time when I cried. However, that's not who I am. I have no one to go to. I hurt, emotionally. I hurt, all of the time, and I want to reach out. Really, I want to reach out, but there's a...
    faeriefate faeriefate 18-21 2 Responses Mar 3

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    I have just finished off one of the worst weeks

    in my life. I am not going to get into it right now, but my week was awful. I can only hope it will get better next week.....sooner rather than later. Because of the stress I have had depression and other negative health problems. I go to bed nightly with chest pains...
    glennr515 glennr515 46-50, M Feb 21

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    everyone just thinks I am happy all the time.

    .. truth is I am never happy. I'm depressed... always have been and always will be!๐Ÿ˜”
    bigtrucksss bigtrucksss 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 26

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    Sometimes during the day,

    I am good; I am happy and laughing and smiling. But most of the day, I am depressed and wishing I could just go away and never come back. First off, I am a lesbian who struggles with relationships; I can't seem to find other lesbians who I am interested in. And I have family...
    berlynn20 berlynn20 18-21, F Feb 26

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    I Hide It Well

    I hide the pain behind a smile. And I've done a good job. But now that I yearn for help, no one can hear me
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 11, 2010

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    They Don't Know Will They Get I'm Still Lost

    i'm 13 ( idfc what my profile says) and i'm still hurting my mother never shows up on her visit days she has been a no show 4 a while ever since i was rapped by my dad i've lived with my aunts i've tried 2 not be a victim and be all poor pitiful me but i'm still scared and...
    wintergold wintergold 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2013

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    so hard to accept the things i cannot change,

    my ex bf is getting married with my cousin..
    letitgoletitgoletitgo letitgoletitgoletitgo 31-35, F Feb 26

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    What Do I Do Now?

    I am so utterly lost right now, I don't even know which way is up. I'm just falling down, and fast. No, I would never do anything crazy, but I just feel like I could just stop the world and walk away. My childhood was good, until I lost my mom, my family fell apart, all my...
    TheLonelySongbird TheLonelySongbird 22-25 2 Responses Dec 13, 2010

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    I Am

    I am more depressed than people know i am always laughting and smiling but deep down iam so depressed . depresion you cant contole it like oh just be happy , ive had people sa that to me and its just not the answer . its something you cant change . my depression is...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 14 Responses Apr 12, 2010

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    Just Letting It Out.

    After losing my partner to infidelity through my child catching her in the act. I lost the plot and threatened to kill her. I went to jail and suffered dearly. Ive overcome drugs and other partners cheating on me in the past also ive just recently beaten a disease. Im completely...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 8, 2011

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    Imagine!

    Think of the darkest place you could be. No answers no way out. Just dark. A feeling of doom, dread and no way out. You can't tell anyone because you would be thrown in a place you don't want to go. That is how I feel.
    AlnAlli AlnAlli 46-50, M 2 Responses May 2, 2011

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    Jungle46 Jungle46 46-50, F 3 Responses Feb 26

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    My husband is the only one

    who truly knows me. Sometimes I feel like he knows me too good and I put my guard up to try and hide the battle inside my head. I'm 30 years old. I'm what most people consider good looking. I have 2 wonderful, perfectly healthy children. So I can't help but get frustrated at...
    apple29 apple29 26-30 Feb 26

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    Choices

    1. get my degree 2. run away 3. kill myself I can't think of any other options because there are really NONE!
    itsallinmyhead itsallinmyhead 18-21, F 8 Responses May 25, 2011

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    Ive been even more quiet

    and even more distant. No one knows or cares to realize just how depressed I really am.
    underageloner underageloner 13-15, F Mar 25

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    But then again, who's not?

    I would much rather fall into this category than the opposite; that would make me a drama queen and/or a whiner. Also, side note: people should be much more careful about throwing around statements such as, "I just don't want to live anymore." Even if we are depressed, we should...
    lovely9me lovely9me 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 20

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    People Think Im A Happy Person...

    and i think i could be if i would just hold my head up and get through the bad times. 1) I need to some how get her off my mind 2) I just got my first paycheck which was soposed to be alot more than it was. But my work didnt put in my first week there..so gipped me out of...
    carvingtr247 carvingtr247 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 13, 2009

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    I Need Help And I Don't Know Where To Go

    I am supposed to be the strong person.ย  I am so sad lately and I just want to curl up in a ball and just cry.ย  I have become an almost hermit.ย  I go to work and then home again.ย  I have nearly cut off contact with all close friends and family.ย  I am not suicidal, but I have...
    pm1985 pm1985 41-45 2 Responses May 12, 2011

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    Happy Guy

    Everyone at work likes me. They say I am always smiling and that I love being there. Truth is, I suffer from dysthymia. I just am very good at hiding it. No one knows that it is always raining in my head. I have my good days and bad days like everyone else. But most of the...
    kreese90 kreese90 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 18, 2013

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    I Am Lost Inside Myself

    well i made a appointment to see a therapist cause i am not doing so good emotionally. I am falling apart inside and i really dont have anyone to talk to and at times i feel so alone. i am sinking in quicksand and the more i try to free myself the further down i sink. i have...
    bcantrell bcantrell 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 11, 2010

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    They A Think I'M Better

    Everyone knew I was to the Pinot of wanting to die they sent me to counseling and a mental ward they got me on meds. They think I'm better now they think I take my meds and that I don't have thoughts. Truthfully I want to die I'm actually worse but I have to put a smile on my...
    Abb50 Abb50 18-21, F Aug 4, 2013

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    No More Strength

    [Hi! this is my first time ever sharing about me with other people] There's no one who really understands me. Maybe there's a few people who care about me, for example my parents. But there's no one who can help me out. Some people who know that I'm depressed keep saying that...
    VIKTOR5932 VIKTOR5932 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 8, 2013

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    Really??? I Did'nt Sign Up For This!!!

    Being me, well practicaly sucks... Yeah i know, positive thinking?? But, i mean, somewhere you just have to accept reality, and with that comes the obivous realisation that Karma, bad luck and murphies law, know you personaly! Or let me rephrase, you can't seem to be doing...
    Krieks Krieks 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 17, 2012

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    wonderlustdreamer wonderlustdreamer 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    Irony

    A man I know quite well became prone to bouts of deep depression, bordering on suicide. In desperation, he sought the services of a psychologist, telling them: "I seem to see nothing but shadows and darkness everywhere; the world seems so full of anger, horror and evil...
    amberdextrous amberdextrous 51-55, M 10 Responses Nov 9, 2009

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    Of Course...

    ...because no one REALLY wants to know how depressed and sad you are all the time. What a buzzkill, they say. So you put on a happy face, or at the very least a neutral face, and pretend that you're just a "little sad" or "grumpy" at that moment. But oh no, don't act that way for...
    Tuva Tuva 31-35, M 5 Responses Feb 13, 2011

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    Ruined Paradise

    I did suicide. I hanged myself with a big green power cord off our balcony. I woke up an just did it. Idk how or why that way it was like I was watching it happen like tv. I was already gone an my sisters heard it happen an cut me down. I fell onto a glass table beside our pool...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 5 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    I Hide It

    Not all scars show Not all wounds heal Sometimes you can't always see The pain that someone feels...
    DarkAngel123 DarkAngel123 18-21, F 3 Responses May 28, 2010

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    I Am Depressed More Than People Realize

    .Depression has been a part of my life as long as I can remember. I've been on antidepressants that long too. It should be an old friend by now. Right? People who are not or have never been deeply depressed can't understand why you don't just "snap out of it", "you have so much...
    BCBoomer58 BCBoomer58 56-60, F 15 Responses May 23, 2010

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    Don't Wanna Feel Vulnerable

    no body truly knows who i am yet people seem to think they have me figured out. i just have my guard up all the time and always try to put a smile on my face. its often not genuine but i refuse to let people see how sad i am or feel sorry for me. noww i know my problems are not...
    ullnevakno ullnevakno 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2010

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    I am always battling the demons in my heart

    and head. The often war with each other. The constant doubt. Feelings of inadequacy. Tormenting myself with every flaw I know of, and others I feel might be there. Worry over how I am seen and how I express myself. Constantly putting on a happy and healthy front is exhausting...
    BlissfulDreamer BlissfulDreamer 22-25, F Feb 10

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    Biting Through The Bullshit.

    Depression. Where could I even begin to explain depression ? It's invisible to others, but flashing bright lights in your face. You can't just tell someone who's dealing w/ depression that it's going to be okay. That's like teasing them. You could be having a great day, but all...
    FieldHockey57 FieldHockey57 13-15, F Jul 10, 2013

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    I feel so down and I don't know why.

    My life has become about trying to feel ok but I just end up feeling really bad. I'm blessed with good health and a comfortable life and I'm not trying to be ungrateful. I don't know why I feel so bad.
    100akerwoods 100akerwoods 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 11

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    Liquid Hope

    I have battled with this before...for a couple of years now, actually. I've learned to put on the smile, the laugh, the flirt...all as a cover. I have had moments of happiness here and there...but they are fleeting, few and far now. I've mastered the looks...I had to. For work...
    amodelcitizen amodelcitizen 36-40, M 4 Responses May 18, 2013

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    I Hate It Here

    I'm so angry and frustrated. I hate it here so bad. I hate this place I try to be strong for everyone that's how my dad taught me how to live. Today me and him were doing our workouts. I never knew how to do a pushup but I didn't want him to know. He kept on telling me to and...
    Pinklace44 Pinklace44 13-15, F Jul 21, 2012

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    Alone

    Have you ever been in a room full of people? So you are in a room full of so called friends...people that you have hung out withย  and what not. Then you come to a point when you are standing in front of a mirror. It's kinda like datingย  you neet some one and things seem to be...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 2, 2011

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    otakudesu otakudesu 16-17, F Mar 27

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    I hide it well. My father told me

    once that I was the greatest of life's survivors he had ever known, coming from him ... I don't want to survive anymore. I want to live. I want to get past these struggles that plague me daily and live like the rest of you. Thus, alas, is the life I lead. The daily attempt to...
    designbycassandra designbycassandra 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    I Can't Hide My Hurt Anymore

    I try to live the normal life and smile and pretend that all is ok with me but I feel like my life is never going to be right. I'm 30 yrs old with no kids I have a wonderful home and all that but I cope with this deep hurtful feeling because I think I can not have kids this is...
    Ckane81 Ckane81 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 2, 2012

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    ์‚ด ์˜์š•์ด ์—†๋‹ค.

    ์ฃฝ์ง€๋ชปํ•ด ์‚ฐ๋‹ค๋Š” ๋ง์ด ์ด์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ ๋‹ค๊ฐ€์˜ค๋Š” ์ˆœ๊ฐ„์€ ์—†์—ˆ๋˜ ๊ฒƒ ๊ฐ™๋‹ค.
    SeoEcho SeoEcho 18-21, M 5 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    I'am Depressed And Think I'am Losing My Mind

    life sucks! not knowing if i want to live any more or not in it's self is scary.i've been this way for a long time. i've been on meds. since 1995 i have had about all the drugs for depression but i still think of killing my self one day when i finaly get to tried to fight. i love...
    realmckoy realmckoy 51-55 2 Responses Feb 13, 2011

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    Why ......

    Yesterday I have disappointed with my man, and today my parents do same things to me. My father scream out to me in front of my all family and say that I'm a fool and trouble maker. Then my mother say that my father very hate me. It makes me feel more depressed than before, and...
    azmya azmya 26-30, F 4 Responses Feb 6, 2013

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    People know I'm depressed

    but I hide a lot, I try to hide more than I can though. I have been through so much for my age that I just can't handle. I really just want to die. I have cut before, but try not to do that so much anymore. I have picked up the bad habit of smoking and I'm fourteen. And I can't...
    RisingDemons RisingDemons 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    The Battle Between Me And Depression

    And I need help. A lot of it. I never realized I was depress until I always feel bad about myself, I was never excited to get up the next day, I am never happy, I am never contented, I am never feel special or loved, I always blame myself for everything, I eat when I'm...
    sunsetglow sunsetglow 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 10, 2010

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