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I Am Depressed More Than People Realize

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    Just Letting It Out.

    After losing my partner to infidelity through my child catching her in the act. I lost the plot and threatened to kill her. I went to jail and suffered dearly. Ive overcome drugs and other partners cheating on me in the past also ive just recently beaten a disease. Im completely...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 8, 2011

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    Born2Inspire Born2Inspire 18-21, M 3 Responses Jun 9

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    Really??? I Did'nt Sign Up For This!!!

    Being me, well practicaly sucks... Yeah i know, positive thinking?? But, i mean, somewhere you just have to accept reality, and with that comes the obivous realisation that Karma, bad luck and murphies law, know you personaly! Or let me rephrase, you can't seem to be doing...
    Krieks Krieks 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 17, 2012

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    No one knows. My family has some knowledge,

    but turn a blind eye. They don't want to hear about it. Too many years being depressed and alone. Just finished reading "The Fault in Our Stars", not a good book if you're depressed. Towards the end, they ask the main character, a girl dying of cancer, "why don't you die...
    chumiloons chumiloons 41-45, F 1 Response May 26

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    Irony

    A man I know quite well became prone to bouts of deep depression, bordering on suicide. In desperation, he sought the services of a psychologist, telling them: "I seem to see nothing but shadows and darkness everywhere; the world seems so full of anger, horror and evil...
    amberdextrous amberdextrous 51-55, M 10 Responses Nov 9, 2009

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    Ok ik I'm not that new

    but compared to some of these members xD anyways I might be offline more or just seem distant for a while idk why but I've been wicked depressed lately more then usual I'm on my period ATM and I can't stand living I'm just so out of it like idk I might go bak to a therapist at...
    FamousLastWordsMCR FamousLastWordsMCR 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 11

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    Hey everyone. I want to just put this message

    out there. Many of us, including myself, have been helped by this site and some of the wonderful people who are a part of it. But there's still a lot of people who are still hurting. If you're like me, you want to help. The question is, how? Well, here's your answer...
    cyndercrys cyndercrys 18-21, F Jul 26

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    I'am Depressed And Think I'am Losing My Mind

    life sucks! not knowing if i want to live any more or not in it's self is scary.i've been this way for a long time. i've been on meds. since 1995 i have had about all the drugs for depression but i still think of killing my self one day when i finaly get to tried to fight. i love...
    realmckoy realmckoy 51-55 2 Responses Feb 13, 2011

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    Its night once again.

    .. During the day I can pass off as if I'm okay... but I'm not... My mind just wants to shut down and not reawaken. I can smile, joke, and give advice... but as soon as I close my door and no one is around to see I lose myself completely. Trying to hold myself together has become...
    MysticallyForbidden MysticallyForbidden 18-21, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Most my blogs is about depressing & failure .

    I used to be this happy uncaring . Anime / video games lover / & I remember my happiest year 2009 wAs a happy year . I wish someone would show me the way . I have a bad addiction plus . Going back to school in less of a month . I feel all the world is on my shoulders .
    lordeley952 lordeley952 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    I don't know if I'm technically depressed,

    but I've been feeling like that for a long time now. I'm not saying that my life is **** or whatever, at least not totally, but definitely I've been screwing it up since my depression started. And it's hard because I don't have anyone to talk to about this. If someone out there...
    YukiUeda17 YukiUeda17 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 9

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    I feel so down and I don't know why.

    My life has become about trying to feel ok but I just end up feeling really bad. I'm blessed with good health and a comfortable life and I'm not trying to be ungrateful. I don't know why I feel so bad.
    100akerwoods 100akerwoods 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 11

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    Why ......

    Yesterday I have disappointed with my man, and today my parents do same things to me. My father scream out to me in front of my all family and say that I'm a fool and trouble maker. Then my mother say that my father very hate me. It makes me feel more depressed than before, and...
    azmya azmya 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 6, 2013

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    I Am Depressed More Than People Realize

    .Depression has been a part of my life as long as I can remember. I've been on antidepressants that long too. It should be an old friend by now. Right? People who are not or have never been deeply depressed can't understand why you don't just "snap out of it", "you have so much...
    BCBoomer58 BCBoomer58 56-60, F 16 Responses May 23, 2010

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    This Is Not Easy

    It seems lately my depression comes in waves. Like I can wake up feeling ok, just enough to go trough the day, and then this wave comes crushing me. I try to shake it out, to be positive as much as I can, but most of the time I end up failing. Right now I cant get rid of this...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 6, 2012

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    And everyone thinks I'm a happy kid.

    They were quite surprised that my physiological test resulted in high levels of depression, stress and anxiety which is true because I answered the questions true to myself. I may look cheerful on the outside but deep down I'm a really dark person who hates everything in the...
    MeXYours MeXYours 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    I was depressed for a long time.

    Then it became on and off. I will talk others about they're problems and be there no matter how late it is, if you feel like you commit suicide, if your about to cut etc. I'm always the one my friends come to of whoever comes to if they have any problem. Even if they've killed...
    sashakimi4 sashakimi4 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I Can't Hide My Hurt Anymore

    I try to live the normal life and smile and pretend that all is ok with me but I feel like my life is never going to be right. I'm 30 yrs old with no kids I have a wonderful home and all that but I cope with this deep hurtful feeling because I think I can not have kids this is...
    Ckane81 Ckane81 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 2, 2012

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    People don't know. Just wake up

    and put on my fake smile for the day. I don't let people in on what is going on with me, my boyfriend doesn't know that I cry myself to sleep. What should I do?
    tututata2126 tututata2126 16-17, F May 26

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    I've taken a big decision in my life:

    after 6 years living in Europe, I decided to go back to my homeland, with my husband, who is a very true European. I've got myself some nice degrees, and with my family's support, I got a job easily. The job is OK, and stable, but for now I can't afford much. Still in the...
    azureazalea azureazalea 22-25, F Jun 30

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    PLEASE BE MY CO-WRITER FOR A REALISTIC DRAMA

    NOVEL ABOUT A WOMAN IN PRISON!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Blipsycat Blipsycat 16-17, M Aug 9

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    PLEASE BE MY CO-WRITER FOR A REALISTIC DRAMA

    NOVEL ABOUT A WOMAN IN PRISON!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Blipsycat Blipsycat 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 6

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    My friends and family know I've got depression,

    but even so, I feel like telling them didn't make any difference. I was already very negative to begin with, but even that feels pretends. I'm far more worse than that. (If I'd let the negativity take over, a cloud full of rain will probably start following me around.) And the...
    Sourminds Sourminds 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 8

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    Definitely depressed

    than most people around me would realize. But I am used to it now & as long as people around me are happy I feel content. I feel it's a phase and this shall pass too. I am still finding my inner self to see what I really want & the day I truly understand what is it that I want...
    uselessguy uselessguy 36-40, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Suicidal thoughts and cutting

    but no one cares.
    ipiceno ipiceno 18-21, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Nothing Saves Me.

    I am all alone although someone holds me while I cry. Maybe I am way more depressed than people realize. Maybe that's the saddest f ucking thing that makes me lose all my hope.
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 18, 2011

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    :))) I'm fine. :) I'll stay happy

    for you. So, you don't have to deal with me.
    JadedDivinity JadedDivinity 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 3

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    Of Course...

    ...because no one REALLY wants to know how depressed and sad you are all the time. What a buzzkill, they say. So you put on a happy face, or at the very least a neutral face, and pretend that you're just a "little sad" or "grumpy" at that moment. But oh no, don't act that way for...
    Tuva Tuva 31-35, M 5 Responses Feb 13, 2011

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    Ive been even more quiet

    and even more distant. No one knows or cares to realize just how depressed I really am.
    underageloner underageloner 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    I Am

    I am more depressed than people know i am always laughting and smiling but deep down iam so depressed . depresion you cant contole it like oh just be happy , ive had people sa that to me and its just not the answer . its something you cant change . my depression is...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 14 Responses Apr 12, 2010

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    Ruined Paradise

    I did suicide. I hanged myself with a big green power cord off our balcony. I woke up an just did it. Idk how or why that way it was like I was watching it happen like tv. I was already gone an my sisters heard it happen an cut me down. I fell onto a glass table beside our pool...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 5 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    I'm too self conscious.

    I dislike my features, I don't like my teeth when I smile, or how my face looks when I do. I don't like my white face, that seems to be naturally red around the nose. i hate my white body that needs a tan. I feel too fat to show off my body. If I can't feel good, how can I enjoy...
    vaashapenin vaashapenin 13-15, F 1 Response May 14

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    The stuff I write on here compared to how I act

    in person, is so different in mood. I wish the real me, that is here, was more like how I try and portray myself in real life: happy. I often to feel happy. So, I don't feel like I'm constantly depressed. But, with that being sad, I post more things to vent than I want. I'm...
    JadedDivinity JadedDivinity 18-21, F Jul 17

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    I Need Help And I Don't Know Where To Go

    I am supposed to be the strong person.  I am so sad lately and I just want to curl up in a ball and just cry.  I have become an almost hermit.  I go to work and then home again.  I have nearly cut off contact with all close friends and family.  I am not suicidal, but I have...
    pm1985 pm1985 41-45 2 Responses May 12, 2011

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    Liquid Hope

    I have battled with this before...for a couple of years now, actually. I've learned to put on the smile, the laugh, the flirt...all as a cover. I have had moments of happiness here and there...but they are fleeting, few and far now. I've mastered the looks...I had to. For work...
    amodelcitizen amodelcitizen 36-40, M 4 Responses May 18, 2013

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    The scariest thing is

    that I've gotten soooo damn good and pretending that some days I don't even realize just how sad I am. I had to force myself to smile because I was sick of people asking me what was wrong. I often felt that people were thinking omg, she's STILL sad. Nobody understands....
    JnyJny JnyJny 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Imagine!

    Think of the darkest place you could be. No answers no way out. Just dark. A feeling of doom, dread and no way out. You can't tell anyone because you would be thrown in a place you don't want to go. That is how I feel.
    AlnAlli AlnAlli 46-50, M 2 Responses May 2, 2011

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    I know that it doesn't solve anything,

    but I would honestly rather die than be me. I would rather do that than me bothering people, than me disappointing people, than me living.
    jordins22 jordins22 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 13

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    I Hide It Well

    I hide the pain behind a smile. And I've done a good job. But now that I yearn for help, no one can hear me
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 11, 2010

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    Oh, there were some bad triggers today.

    Now I have red skin and red palms from slapping myself. It stings. Not as bad as how some people cut. But it's pain to some degree. It's self-punishment.
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    everyone just thinks I am happy all the time.

    .. truth is I am never happy. I'm depressed... always have been and always will be!😔
    bigtrucksss bigtrucksss 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 26

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    No More Strength

    [Hi! this is my first time ever sharing about me with other people] There's no one who really understands me. Maybe there's a few people who care about me, for example my parents. But there's no one who can help me out. Some people who know that I'm depressed keep saying that...
    VIKTOR5932 VIKTOR5932 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 8, 2013

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    Don't Wanna Feel Vulnerable

    no body truly knows who i am yet people seem to think they have me figured out. i just have my guard up all the time and always try to put a smile on my face. its often not genuine but i refuse to let people see how sad i am or feel sorry for me. noww i know my problems are not...
    ullnevakno ullnevakno 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2010

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    ...and by people, maybe I mean myself.

    Being in this state I am in, i think I really need to realie that I have a problem and therefore, I need to watch myself and my actions well. Lately I have been doing and saying things which I regret short time later, whether it is about disclosing secrets, sharing stuff or...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 10

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    Idiot Politicians And Doctors

    Since I have been injured - 14 months ago - I have found that marijuana helps two things. I had always heard it was great for pain, and it is. But it's also great for depression. I never knew that until I smoked some while utterly depressed. But until things change, I cannot...
    stankadiddlehopper stankadiddlehopper 51-55, M 1 Response Mar 7, 2013

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    I thought people didn't notice,

    but apparently some people at work figured it out and confronted me. But I can't tell them the truth. Why can't I ask for help? There are a couple people who would help, but I don't know that I want help. I wish I were dead. I've wished that for years. How long do I have to keep...
    chumiloons chumiloons 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 20

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    Ya that just about summarizes it.

    Like I can have a total breakdown like I won't talk, I lose life from my eyes, and it's like I'm not even me anymore but every1 sees me as fine. I only tell my closest friend my dark secrets so they try to cheer me up but it never works even though I act like it does. I feel...
    fredlez2306 fredlez2306 13-15, M 1 Response May 20

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    I Hate It Here

    I'm so angry and frustrated. I hate it here so bad. I hate this place I try to be strong for everyone that's how my dad taught me how to live. Today me and him were doing our workouts. I never knew how to do a pushup but I didn't want him to know. He kept on telling me to and...
    Pinklace44 Pinklace44 13-15, F Jul 21, 2012

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    I want to karate chop someone

    so bad. Black belt for 4 years!
    Driftingminds Driftingminds 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    When You See Me Coming Home..

    Yea, when you see me coming home with a large bag of potato chips, know that I'm feeling horrible. I think that's going to happen more often.. who gives a f u q anyway yay :) see I'm smilling, I'm sooooo happy I can't believe how happy I am, I am so damn happy to the point I...
    PiecingMeBackTogether PiecingMeBackTogether 18-21 Nov 20, 2013

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    I am actually depressed most of the time

    but nobody ever can see or realize it, I don't like to be sad. I just end up thinking of all the bad things in my life, and it seems almost impossible, but i can rarely remember any of the good things that have happened to me. I was never happy as a child, i'd never smile or...
    Anathina Anathina 18-21, F 2 Responses May 5

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison. Please help me.
    Blipsycat Blipsycat 16-17, M Aug 6

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    Recently I was placed back on antidepressants

    after being med-free for 4+ years. This time around the battle is worse, and I can DEFINITELY tell when I've accidentally skipped a day. I start feeling, well, depressed again. Only in a rush. I'm useless, really. I feel like I annoy everyone around me so I don't talk much...
    cyndercrys cyndercrys 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 29

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