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I Am Depressed More Than People Realize

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    i could see what was in front of me

    but couldn't hear any sound. i was completely overwhelmed by the sensation of breathlessness. i thought i was dying. i later realised that it was just my despair.
    Lana14 Lana14 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 22

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    So in the past month,

    My best friend was murdered, and in turn, my other friend killed herself. I haven't been doing to well...
    Believera Believera 16-17, F May 26

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    I'm on immigration process

    and am not allowed to work or get a driver's license until I'm authorized. My husband needs to take me places even though he is exhausted with hard work. He works triple hard to cover all bills and stuff because I can't make money. I've been feeling so sorry for him. I try not...
    VogueChloe VogueChloe 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    My family thinks they know how I am,

    but I can't really talk with them. My dad, brother and my stepmum know the most about me, I can talk with them about a lot (Though, they don't really understand me, haha). Besides that, my sister think she knows me pretty good, but all she knows is that she hates me. A lot. She...
    Seinaru Seinaru 18-21, M Jun 21

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    sometimes I don't wanna

    even move I wanna lay on the cold hard ground and just wait for it to take me in. I'll shake from crying so bad I can't feel my legs. I feel so alone and hated. I hate what I see when I look in the mirror I can't stand what I look like and I can't tell you how empty I feel.
    youngkinyteenmom youngkinyteenmom 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 27

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    I have realised something in my eighteen years.

    And that is that life isn't easy, it's not hunky dory and perfect. You don't fly through life without pain and heartache. In fact you don't fly through life at all, you stumble and fall and fall again. You walk into walls and fall down deep, dark holes. You get picked up by an...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 5

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    I've been quite good at making people believe

    that I have control. Most of them know I'm a bit, as they would say, sad and down sometimes. But I kept my real feelings to myself. I got the diagnos PTSD last year and after that I stopped seeing my psychologist. It just got to real. After that I felt pretty good, I even...
    StEaMa StEaMa 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 7

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    Of Course...

    ...because no one REALLY wants to know how depressed and sad you are all the time. What a buzzkill, they say. So you put on a happy face, or at the very least a neutral face, and pretend that you're just a "little sad" or "grumpy" at that moment. But oh no, don't act that way for...
    Tuva Tuva 31-35, M 5 Responses Feb 13, 2011

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    No More Strength

    [Hi! this is my first time ever sharing about me with other people] There's no one who really understands me. Maybe there's a few people who care about me, for example my parents. But there's no one who can help me really. Some people who know that I'm depressed keep saying that...
    VIKTOR5932 VIKTOR5932 18-21 3 Responses Oct 8, 2013

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    I often feel like I have no one.

    I am trying to make it on my own which is a good feeling to have and something to be proud of. I don't really lean on anyone and that can be empowering; however, it can also be really exhausting not have anyone, even just for a day, someone that you can go to for advice, to...
    cowboyspikespeigal cowboyspikespeigal 26-30, M Nov 16, 2014

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    ...and by people, maybe I mean myself.

    Being in this state I am in, i think I really need to realie that I have a problem and therefore, I need to watch myself and my actions well. Lately I have been doing and saying things which I regret short time later, whether it is about disclosing secrets, sharing stuff or...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 10, 2014

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    if I had a gun, I'd place it between my eyes

    and pull the trigger. however, I do not. don't know why I am hating myself so much tonight, just am. depression sucks. wish something would make it go away.
    sueshell sueshell 51-55, F 3 Responses May 16

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    I have friends. I have a niece

    that visits me twice a week, to hang out and talk, play games, watch tv, bbq. I love her dearly, but I am truly alone. My only family is my son who travels the world, and I don't get to talk to him much. My friends have their own families to deal with on their spare time. I have...
    BrokeBandit BrokeBandit 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 21

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    I am 15 years old and I would say I have been

    depressed for a about four years or at least about the time I began secondary school. Some days I just get to a point where I can't even do anything but I try make sure that no one sees that however just yesterday I had enough and I went and told my mum that I was depressed over...
    safiya999 safiya999 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    I'm doing a little better today.

    yesterday was a really bad day. um I cut myself even though I had someone to talk to um I just wasn't doing good at all. I feel so weak because I stop cutting for 2 months and I cut again yesterday. but I'm doing better today I guess. no one in my family except my dad knows I...
    DontKnow2013 DontKnow2013 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 2

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    Irony

    A man I know quite well became prone to bouts of deep depression, bordering on suicide. In desperation, he sought the services of a psychologist, telling them: "I seem to see nothing but shadows and darkness everywhere; the world seems so full of anger, horror and evil...
    amberdextrous amberdextrous 51-55, M 10 Responses Nov 9, 2009

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    I feel so embarrassed.

    I feel like it let everyone down.
    maddie91101 maddie91101 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 2

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    Ruined Paradise

    I did suicide. I hanged myself with a big green power cord off our balcony. I woke up an just did it. Idk how or why that way it was like I was watching it happen like tv. I was already gone an my sisters heard it happen an cut me down. I fell onto a glass table beside our pool...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    I want to take a knife

    and just stab it in from the collar bone and pull it down to my belly and rip my heart out right now. Yeah, I should just do that right now. No one notices a missing person until after 48 hours and after 7 years I am officially dead to you anyways. I, I already am dead to you...
    YouDontNeedaKnow YouDontNeedaKnow 18-21 1 Response Apr 17

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    I know a lot of people on here don't believe in

    God, but I could seriously use some prayers right now.
    Rachel335 Rachel335 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 21

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    I am the eldest in my sisters.

    But i constantly have this pressure to get better grades than my sister, she's quite smart. This makes me depressed a lot. The kids in my class believe i never get sad for long, but that's not the case. I live in this constant depresing cloud. It makes me not like anyone better...
    Lalaloopsiebabe Lalaloopsiebabe 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 22

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    I put on this mask for the world to see.

    .I'm not this extremely happy Kaylee. I cry myself to sleep a lot of nights and just feel so alone. No one understands and no one seems to care so I keep it to myself.
    Kayleehere Kayleehere 18-21, F Feb 21

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    It gets harder and harder,

    everyday, to pretend to be okay...
    ChanteSica ChanteSica 18-21, F 2 Responses May 7

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    This Is Not Easy

    It seems lately my depression comes in waves. Like I can wake up feeling ok, just enough to go trough the day, and then this wave comes crushing me. I try to shake it out, to be positive as much as I can, but most of the time I end up failing. Right now I cant get rid of this...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 6, 2012

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    i was insulted by that person to whom i gave my

    everything. now i m left with nothing and i dont want to be with that person
    mannankaur3 mannankaur3 18-21, M Apr 15

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    Liquid Hope

    I have battled with this before...for a couple of years now, actually. I've learned to put on the smile, the laugh, the flirt...all as a cover. I have had moments of happiness here and there...but they are fleeting, few and far now. I've mastered the looks...I had to. For work...
    RisenFromAshes RisenFromAshes 36-40, M 3 Responses May 18, 2013

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    I keep thinking that

    if maybe i was sick enough people will start listening..
    xxlolaxx xxlolaxx 16-17 1 day ago

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    Part of me is ready to just give up.

    It's not about being alone ..people always say "your not alone" and I'm like.. I know, but it dosent make a difference
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 27

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    I looked at my phone today

    and realized that no one has called me or text me in three days. Would it make a difference to anyone if I wasn't there anymore?
    Others2468 Others2468 31-35, M 6 Responses Jun 21

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    I don't want my mom to know about it.

    She gave herself such a hard time when I got caught shoplifting and thought she raised me incorrectly. I'm afraid that she'd blame herself again for my depression. Besides that, she'd ask questions and want to understand, but I don't like talking to her about problems and I don...
    tarara0414 tarara0414 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 1

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    You know that kid you called **** well he

    killed himself yesterday. That girl you called fat,She starved herself to death. And the boy who you called retarded is now on life support for a failed suicide attempt that went wrong. Let me tell you something, the words you say hurt.Whether you are joking or not the other...
    BrandonDay BrandonDay 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 3

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    Just Letting It Out.

    After losing my partner to infidelity through my child catching her in the act. I lost the plot and threatened to kill her. I went to jail and suffered dearly. Ive overcome drugs and other partners cheating on me in the past also ive just recently beaten a disease. Im completely...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 8, 2011

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    Sooooooooooooooo much depression,

    no one care or understand about me at all.........................................
    Amago Amago 13-15, M 3 Responses Jun 21

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    I don't know how to get passed this depression,

    it's completely taken over my whole being. Like I've been thrown into a pit 1000 miles deep with no hope of escape. No one can hear my screams echoing off the walls cause my the time it reaches the surface it has long dissipated. They pass by this pit with no idea that someone...
    Starvin9Artist1 Starvin9Artist1 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    I smile so I don't have to go through the

    conversations of "why I am the way I am" it only adds on to my worries and stress; to pretend it's not real has always been my method, not saying I recommend it, but it's my way to cope with how I feel..
    higherminded higherminded 18-21, F May 3

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    parents saw my phone,

    saw texts related to me talking and asking for weed. all social media taken from me. lost two best friends through no contact because of my parents. but. i mostly did that to myself. i should've known they would've found out. and on top of that, my arms are going to scar now...
    kethina kethina 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 3

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    everyone just thinks I am happy all the time.

    .. truth is I am never happy. I'm depressed... always have been and always will be!😔
    ItsRyyman ItsRyyman 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 26, 2014

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    I used to be a good and sincere guy.

    But then bullying and emotional home violence and then continued failure broke me. Now I don't have anybody to share how I feel. I need dire help. I've lost all my friends and now I've superficial friends with whom I stay so that not to seen as a total loner and stalker. I haven...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 21

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    Wake up in the morning.

    ...feel so heavy you just do not want to move...head hurts because only slept two - three hours, sleeping is just the hardest thing.... maybe....let a big sigh out..."do I have to do another day?" ask one self......Drag myself out of bed, coffee is going....sitting around looking...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F Apr 25

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    bradley600 bradley600 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 22

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    These memories never seem to fade.

    . The hurt never goes away.. No matter how hard I try, peace never stays... I'd love a resolution, but nothing eases my mind.. I truly know that i'm engaged to this hurt, and we seem to be loyal... But i'm not happy.. These days, it's been so hard for me to walk, because I know...
    ShallowDreamers ShallowDreamers 22-25, M 5 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    I've got 11 more days of being 15

    and then I turn 16, I feel like I'm getting older to fast, I also just am ready to give up, so many things are happening and It's hard to keep up. I'm SO tired, I am exhuasted from the moment I get up till the moment I go to sleep, I could for sleep 10 hours, stay up for an hour...
    RyRyOfAwesomeness RyRyOfAwesomeness 16-17, M 4 Responses Jan 29

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    I had a smoke, cut myself

    and still suicidal as ****.
    ihatemegirl ihatemegirl 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 21

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    Or people choose to ignore it.

    In fact, that's probably more accurate.
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M Jul 12

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    Depression is a place,

    I never thought i'd be. But i'm tied down by its chains and i can't break free. In this prison I'm left chained and bound I try to scream but i can't make a sound. So I show on my body what words can't express. It's my cry for help, to show you i'm a mess. I'm lost and confused...
    Lyxdesicgal Lyxdesicgal 22-25, F 1 Response May 6

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    It’s like every time I am optimistic about my

    future, something suddenly hits up. Hate the fact that I am being treated like a child as if people really know me. Society we live in is harsh and corruptive. What does it really come down too; kids or money. I’ve lost hope in society and holding on to the only hope that is...
    alexifan alexifan 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 17

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