Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Am Depressed More Than People Realize

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 3,279 People

    everyone just thinks I am happy all the time.

    .. truth is I am never happy. I'm depressed... always have been and always will be!😔
    ItsRyyman ItsRyyman 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 26, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I wish I was normal like everybody else.

    I hate my social anxiety! It has destroyed my life. I had to give up on my dream to be an actor. I loved to be on stage and front of the camera, just to be someone else and leave anxious me for a while makes me feel good and comfortable! But now in the last time the anxiety has...
    Erivalentino Erivalentino 22-25, M Aug 16

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Instagram is way better then this ****.

    You can still message on that app. Even older people have an Instagram and there like 50-60 this app you can't really express who you are. I mean this is just my opinion I think all the 13-15 year olds should get an Instagram instead of talking to older people.
    AbiDove AbiDove 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 21

    Your Response

    Cancel

    No More Strength

    [Hi! this is my first time ever sharing about me with other people] There's no one who really understands me. Maybe there's a few people who care about me, for example my parents. But there's no one who can help me really. Some people who know that I'm depressed keep saying that...
    VIKTOR5932 VIKTOR5932 18-21 3 Responses Oct 8, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I feel so embarrassed.

    I feel like it let everyone down.
    maddie91101 maddie91101 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 2

    Your Response

    Cancel

    i could see what was in front of me

    but couldn't hear any sound. i was completely overwhelmed by the sensation of breathlessness. i thought i was dying. i later realised that it was just my despair.
    Lana14 Lana14 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 22

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I've been quite good at making people believe

    that I have control. Most of them know I'm a bit, as they would say, sad and down sometimes. But I kept my real feelings to myself. I got the diagnos PTSD last year and after that I stopped seeing my psychologist. It just got to real. After that I felt pretty good, I even...
    StEaMa StEaMa 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 7

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I had a smoke, cut myself

    and still suicidal as ****.
    ihatemegirl ihatemegirl 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 21

    Your Response

    Cancel

    nobody knows me anymore,

    if they did they'd drop me like that. Because I'm crazy I here voices in my head telling me to kill me self take that drug etc, if I sleep I have nightmares , I lose sleep for days at a time, people I love keep dying my life's a mess I need help
    Bigwillyk Bigwillyk 13-15, M 5 Responses Mar 21

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I smile so I don't have to go through the

    conversations of "why I am the way I am" it only adds on to my worries and stress; to pretend it's not real has always been my method, not saying I recommend it, but it's my way to cope with how I feel..
    higherminded higherminded 18-21, F May 3

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm doing a little better today.

    yesterday was a really bad day. um I cut myself even though I had someone to talk to um I just wasn't doing good at all. I feel so weak because I stop cutting for 2 months and I cut again yesterday. but I'm doing better today I guess. no one in my family except my dad knows I...
    DontKnow2013 DontKnow2013 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 2

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Liquid Hope

    I have battled with this before...for a couple of years now, actually. I've learned to put on the smile, the laugh, the flirt...all as a cover. I have had moments of happiness here and there...but they are fleeting, few and far now. I've mastered the looks...I had to. For work...
    RisenFromAshes RisenFromAshes 36-40, M 3 Responses May 18, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    parents saw my phone,

    saw texts related to me talking and asking for weed. all social media taken from me. lost two best friends through no contact because of my parents. but. i mostly did that to myself. i should've known they would've found out. and on top of that, my arms are going to scar now...
    kethina kethina 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 3

    Your Response

    Cancel

    You know that kid you called **** well he

    killed himself yesterday. That girl you called fat,She starved herself to death. And the boy who you called retarded is now on life support for a failed suicide attempt that went wrong. Let me tell you something, the words you say hurt.Whether you are joking or not the other...
    BrandonDay BrandonDay 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 3

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Every moment of every day I spend all of my

    energy pretending I'm ok. Even when I'm honest about being depressed I lie about the severity of it. I can't tell them why, so I don't even try. I can't tell them because I don't know. I don't tell them because in the most difficult times I do things I'm not proud of. I'm...
    BlissfulDreamer BlissfulDreamer 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 15

    Your Response

    Cancel

    love is a wonderful feeling,

    am living the life i met for me.thanks to dr faust a spell caster i met here..my love life is back..thanks Faust..if u are having issues in any issues of life.......thanks to him my husband came back.give him a try +447035914441
    rosemyers rosemyers 51-55, F Aug 17

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I have realised something in my eighteen years.

    And that is that life isn't easy, it's not hunky dory and perfect. You don't fly through life without pain and heartache. In fact you don't fly through life at all, you stumble and fall and fall again. You walk into walls and fall down deep, dark holes. You get picked up by an...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 5

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I have friends. I have a niece

    that visits me twice a week, to hang out and talk, play games, watch tv, bbq. I love her dearly, but I am truly alone. My only family is my son who travels the world, and I don't get to talk to him much. My friends have their own families to deal with on their spare time. I have...
    BrokeBandit BrokeBandit 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 21

    Your Response

    Cancel

    03:31 and I can't sleep,

    and that's too bad because the voices on my head starts to tell me horrible things about myself, they tell me the truth and it's so hard to me, they make me believe that I don't deserve to be here, I don't deserve to be alive, and they tell me millions of ways to end with this...
    faithtobehappy faithtobehappy 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 17

    Your Response

    Cancel

    This Is Not Easy

    It seems lately my depression comes in waves. Like I can wake up feeling ok, just enough to go trough the day, and then this wave comes crushing me. I try to shake it out, to be positive as much as I can, but most of the time I end up failing. Right now I cant get rid of this...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 6, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I am the eldest in my sisters.

    But i constantly have this pressure to get better grades than my sister, she's quite smart. This makes me depressed a lot. The kids in my class believe i never get sad for long, but that's not the case. I live in this constant depresing cloud. It makes me not like anyone better...
    Lalaloopsiebabe Lalaloopsiebabe 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 22

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm tired of wearing these masks.

    I keep everything to myself and pretend that I'm okay. I don't let people in is because I don't want people's sympathy, I don't want your pity, and I don't want to be judged I just want empathy, I just want to feel loved, I just want to be happy.
    benj3 benj3 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 28

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I really need to vent.

    Infertility is driving me crazy. All I can do is cry. Why can't I be like everyone else? All of these very young girls messing up one time, and bam. The worst part is knowing that no matter what I do I can't change it. It has got to the point where I can't eat and I don't want...
    HappilyMrsLetson HappilyMrsLetson 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 31

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I don't know how to get passed this depression,

    it's completely taken over my whole being. Like I've been thrown into a pit 1000 miles deep with no hope of escape. No one can hear my screams echoing off the walls cause my the time it reaches the surface it has long dissipated. They pass by this pit with no idea that someone...
    Starvin9Artist1 Starvin9Artist1 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 19

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I put on this mask for the world to see.

    .I'm not this extremely happy Kaylee. I cry myself to sleep a lot of nights and just feel so alone. No one understands and no one seems to care so I keep it to myself.
    Kayleehere Kayleehere 18-21, F Feb 21

    Your Response

    Cancel

    It’s like every time I am optimistic about my

    future, something suddenly hits up. Hate the fact that I am being treated like a child as if people really know me. Society we live in is harsh and corruptive. What does it really come down too; kids or money. I’ve lost hope in society and holding on to the only hope that is...
    alexifan alexifan 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 17

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Of Course...

    ...because no one REALLY wants to know how depressed and sad you are all the time. What a buzzkill, they say. So you put on a happy face, or at the very least a neutral face, and pretend that you're just a "little sad" or "grumpy" at that moment. But oh no, don't act that way for...
    Tuva Tuva 31-35, M 5 Responses Feb 13, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    These memories never seem to fade.

    . The hurt never goes away.. No matter how hard I try, peace never stays... I'd love a resolution, but nothing eases my mind.. I truly know that i'm engaged to this hurt, and we seem to be loyal... But i'm not happy.. These days, it's been so hard for me to walk, because I know...
    ShallowDreamers ShallowDreamers 22-25, M 5 Responses Sep 11, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Just Letting It Out.

    After losing my partner to infidelity through my child catching her in the act. I lost the plot and threatened to kill her. I went to jail and suffered dearly. Ive overcome drugs and other partners cheating on me in the past also ive just recently beaten a disease. Im completely...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 8, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    It gets harder and harder,

    everyday, to pretend to be okay...
    ChanteSica ChanteSica 18-21, F 2 Responses May 7

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Or people choose to ignore it.

    In fact, that's probably more accurate.
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M Jul 12

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I always try to act happy,

    even when I'm not. I always tell my friends if they need help they can come to me. if they need a shoulder to cry on, I'll be there. if they need someone to lean on or someone to hear them. I'll be here. but, I never want to share how sad or unhappy I am . when I need help I don...
    uniquelypositioned uniquelypositioned 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    bradley600 bradley600 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 22

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Sooooooooooooooo much depression,

    no one care or understand about me at all.........................................
    Amago Amago 13-15, M 3 Responses Jun 21

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm on immigration process

    and am not allowed to work or get a driver's license until I'm authorized. My husband needs to take me places even though he is exhausted with hard work. He works triple hard to cover all bills and stuff because I can't make money. I've been feeling so sorry for him. I try not...
    VogueChloe VogueChloe 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 22

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I would say broken but this seems to be similar

    to what I'm gonna say anyway. I have a very judgemental family members on my biological dad side, moms and step-dads. I get judge everywhere from friends, family and people I thought cared, not everyone, there is always somebody to keep you hoping that everything will get better...
    Soullessangel16 Soullessangel16 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I am surprised no one has noticed more.

    One friend knows but she only knows because I explained a lot of who I am to her otherwise she would not have ever know just like everyone else.
    XxBloodyLullabyxX XxBloodyLullabyxX 22-25, M Aug 17

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I know a lot of people on here don't believe in

    God, but I could seriously use some prayers right now.
    Rachel335 Rachel335 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 21

    Your Response

    Cancel

    People think that I am lazy.

    But I'm just depressed.. Er, maybe I'm actually lazy. But I'm depressed.
    halohai halohai 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 18

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Ruined Paradise

    I did suicide. I hanged myself with a big green power cord off our balcony. I woke up an just did it. Idk how or why that way it was like I was watching it happen like tv. I was already gone an my sisters heard it happen an cut me down. I fell onto a glass table beside our pool...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 16-17, M 4 Responses Sep 5, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    i m like blank diary rite

    now with lots of empty pages. so u can fill those pages any time u want :)
    mannankaur3 mannankaur3 18-21, M Aug 18

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I often feel like I have no one.

    I am trying to make it on my own which is a good feeling to have and something to be proud of. I don't really lean on anyone and that can be empowering; however, it can also be really exhausting not have anyone, even just for a day, someone that you can go to for advice, to...
    cowboyspikespeigal cowboyspikespeigal 26-30, M Nov 16, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I've got 11 more days of being 15

    and then I turn 16, I feel like I'm getting older to fast, I also just am ready to give up, so many things are happening and It's hard to keep up. I'm SO tired, I am exhuasted from the moment I get up till the moment I go to sleep, I could for sleep 10 hours, stay up for an hour...
    RyRyOfAwesomeness RyRyOfAwesomeness 16-17, M 4 Responses Jan 29

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I used to be a good and sincere guy.

    But then bullying and emotional home violence and then continued failure broke me. Now I don't have anybody to share how I feel. I need dire help. I've lost all my friends and now I've superficial friends with whom I stay so that not to seen as a total loner and stalker. I haven...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 21

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I don't want my mom to know about it.

    She gave herself such a hard time when I got caught shoplifting and thought she raised me incorrectly. I'm afraid that she'd blame herself again for my depression. Besides that, she'd ask questions and want to understand, but I don't like talking to her about problems and I don...
    tarara0414 tarara0414 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 1

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Irony

    A man I know quite well became prone to bouts of deep depression, bordering on suicide. In desperation, he sought the services of a psychologist, telling them: "I seem to see nothing but shadows and darkness everywhere; the world seems so full of anger, horror and evil...
    amberdextrous amberdextrous 51-55, M 10 Responses