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    Being a person is so difficult.

    . The heart is either in complete pleasure or pain. The mind is never right. Where is the middle group?
    octoberlovely octoberlovely 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I am again dead. Why did I do this to myself.

    Why did I bring it back into my life. I am so lost. All I can do is lay in bed. I have no energy. I can't breathe and my mind is everywhere but there's nothing in it. If that makes any sense at all. All I can do is stare straight. I can't talk or move.
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    i know it's a uncaring apathetic world,

    I just need to get this out. I feel cursed, my entire life is so screwed up with no end in site. My dad was physically abusive and verbally. I thought my first boyfriend actually loved me, and after 6 months of pressuring me I got pregnant my first time because the condom broke...
    mstarship mstarship 31-35, F 10 mins ago

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    Do you see me?? Do you see how i fake it.

    .? Do you see how i hate it..? Do you see??? I rarely laugh.. i rarely speak face to face with people. Do you know how it is to feel like you got a phobia about people?? How I got a big trust issue?? Do you see that I may have gotten better with studying.. That i can no longer...
    CursedRaven CursedRaven 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 11

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    Soo idk if I'm having a mid life crisis

    and I'm 23 now. Right now I have no money in officially broke, it's a good think all the bills got taken care off with the lil money I had in my account and on my cash card. At first I thought I had some lil money left over on my cash card but when I had called it it's say zero...
    dreamB1G dreamB1G 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    I was gonna post a long thing I rambled

    but I don't know if I want to. Too much effort. I want to be distracted. I should be more sad but I'm just angry. Hahha I wouldn't do those but jigsaw kind f knew maybe what it's like. People not appreciating their lives. They have everyday advantage but don't notice . They don...
    MissJey MissJey 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn 16-17, F 32 Responses Jun 30, 2014

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    I'm so sad...I lay in bed all day dreaming

    about the day someone will come...the day I'll actually feel loved by someone...I want to show people my true colors ..I want to treat a special girl like a princess but...no girl will let me...I'm to ugly...to gross...to stupid...
    JordanLyle JordanLyle 13-15, M 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    IntenseCookie IntenseCookie 16-17, F 7 Responses Mar 11

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    It's starting to set in again.

    The self doubt, the loneliness, all of it is seeping into me. My spirit is giving up, and it feels more and more like nobody is interested. And it's all because it feels like nobody wants anything to do with me. Very few people talk to me regardless of me reaching out to them...
    KiwiDan KiwiDan 22-25, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Someone tell me I can do this.

    This whole job search thing is taking so much out of me and I just want a job. I just don't want to worry. I just want to live in my own apartment. I miss feeling like I have a home. I miss my man. I'm so tired of doing this without someone. I want to go to sleep next to...
    Theartsmusic Theartsmusic 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I am depressed okay the one thing in my life

    has gone, blocked me from his life, I love him so much and he's just gone. I hate my life and I hate myself, the tears don't end, I don't know what I've done wrong I just want him back like we were, how we were was great and now everything's changed
    fvckmia fvckmia 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Fam issues don't help either.

    I hate living with my parent's my mother is unbearable and so controlling too,she got mad today at my sis for staying out when she's a freaking adult and she was being a total ***** too insulting my sis calling her names arguing with my dad about it too how he never sets rules...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Diyadev Diyadev 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I still haven't went to get help,

    I can't bring myself to do it. Maybe I don't actually care and want to feel this way. I don't see my future, I can't see myself doing anything "happy and productive" in the next 5-10 years if I do live. I'm useless, not really good at anything. Although there are positive sides...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 3 Responses Jan 14

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    And today my depression

    and anxiety are winning. I'm not wanting to do anything but lay in bed and cry and sleep all day. I am so tired of these feelings..
    secretchey secretchey 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Yep, got diagnosed with Chronic Depression.

    They gave me "happy pills" or anti-depressants. Now I just feel numb. They don't make me feel better. The only people who know I take them is my brother, my mom and my dad. I don't even understand how it got so bad. Maybe it was coming out, maybe it was being molested, maybe it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 98 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 16-17, F 65 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    I always do this Things start looking up

    for me & I always screw it up :'(
    parso16 parso16 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    Everybody is always so fuc*king "fine".

    But we are not. Sometimes, we are hurt and bruised and nearly completely shattered and this, sir, is not what one calls fine... No one knows what's happening and you have to wear that fake smile so you don't hurt others..
    JennyAB JennyAB 16-17, F 9 Responses Jan 4

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    Am I Dreaming Or Is It Me?

    I fall asleep to wake up to this dream. This dream of me. This dream of me falling off the track. Of things I can't take back. It's just a list of faces and known places. A heart that cannot be fixed. A mind that's on the fritz. What is this. What is this hole you've dug...
    solomon3020 solomon3020 18-21, M 15 Responses Jun 5, 2014

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    Stuff Is Making Me Mad

    I've had issues with depression since I was 11. I eventually was put on medication when I wasn't self medicating with other things. I was forced to stay off my mood stabilizer when my mother went all nuts and threatened a lot of BS if I filled my prescription with her insurance...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I'm so tired of life,

    but too scared to end it.
    supernerd22 supernerd22 16-17, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    i been miserable the entire weekend.

    at my job i been dealing with harsh customers more than ever lately because of the holiday and i have an upcoming training to become cashier. a bagger about to become cashier. i been so nervous and anxious about it because i never been a cashier before. i cant count money fast...
    zanityone zanityone 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I recently took a PHQ questionnaire.

    I self-report as moderately depressed. I am not too disturbed or troubled by this, seeing that I have suffered loss, emotional and finicial abuse.
    Enfme Enfme 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    When you lack motivation

    because you've accepted defeat...
    xoxoCharlierose xoxoCharlierose 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    Some days I don't know

    if I am going to kill myself, or if I am going to decide to let myself live another day. I am going through some much pain homelessness, heartbreak,loneliness, and depression. It is a roller coaster ride everyday, I want to die I want to live over and over again :/ we will see...
    ac5225 ac5225 36-40, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    EmanonEvahi EmanonEvahi 36-40, M 9 Responses Sep 16, 2014

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 16-17, F 13 Responses Sep 4, 2014

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    so people at my school act like my friends then

    stab me in the back by talking **** or whatever and I have gone through numerous suicide experiences and what not and I vowed I wouldn't do it again so I don't know how to express my depression and I'm so confused I don't know what to do
    ThatSexyB ThatSexyB 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    Sweetaugust Sweetaugust 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 1

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    I need to leave now. I'm a worthless,

    empty, sick individual. Nobody gives a **** about me. It'd be so much easier on everyone if I was dead. I plan to be gone by this time tomorrow
    BrookeSandhurst BrookeSandhurst 16-17, F 13 Responses Mar 3

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    Found myself crying in a hospital bed

    after 4 years of heavy drug usage because I was depressed. My mind was ****** and filled with darkness. Not thinking straight for quite a while. I hate society and all its requirements. I hate people and what they do to each other. *Rolling another joint to forget all the...
    Yetu Yetu 22-25, M 3 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I feel so lost . My life has come to a halt

    and I don't know how to get it moving again. I'm so lost, so depressed, so confused. Why me God ? My life is useless and pointless. This pain is never ending and I'm tired of this .
    Unbelievable244 Unbelievable244 26-30, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    tatterdremains tatterdremains 16-17, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I miss you, I keep thinking

    that I'll wake up and you'll be back in my life, but you won't. You're probably with someone else by now. I can't sleep.
    ofthisgirl90 ofthisgirl90 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I just feel so depressed.

    .. I feel so done... done with being sexual all the time...tired of guy messaging me on here wanting to be all sexual... I feel so alone and all the attention I get is guys wanting something... I feel like an attention whor# and am sick of it... why does everything have to be...
    stuff950 stuff950 22-25, F 9 Responses 5 days ago

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    I Do Know What It Feels Like. ...

    I do know what it feels like. I'm not there right now, but I certainly know what it feels like to not want to wake up again. Its a dark, dark, distant place and I could never wish that on anyone else. Its hard **** but you can get through it. The worse thing is it that you...
    pacwoman pacwoman 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 8, 2007

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 28, 2014

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    my mind is so messed up I know I need

    professional help but I am too afraid to even go in to the Doctors and book an appointment I know depression lessens self-esteem and self-confidence but I didn't know it could get this bad. when I started getting depressed I promise myself I would never cut and I haven't yet but...
    thelittlekidindiapers thelittlekidindiapers 13-15, M 21 Responses Jun 6

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    Sadness is tears after losing a game

    or a broken bone, depression is sobs at 3 am when you're all alone. Sadness makes you blue, depression makes you numb. Sadness loses to happy, depression loses to none. Sadness is the curious neighbor, depression is the unwanted houseguest. Sadness is your hotel room, depression...
    BabyBlondeOne BabyBlondeOne 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 6

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