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I Am Depressed

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    my mind is so messed up I know I need

    professional help but I am too afraid to even go in to the Doctors and book an appointment I know depression lessens self-esteem and self-confidence but I didn't know it could get this bad. when I started getting depressed I promise myself I would never cut and I haven't yet but...
    thelittlekidindiapers thelittlekidindiapers 16-17, M 17 Responses Jun 6, 2015

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    whall1971 whall1971 41-45, M 3 Responses Feb 1

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    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 18-21, F 64 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    I need to leave now. I'm a worthless,

    empty, sick individual. Nobody gives a **** about me. It'd be so much easier on everyone if I was dead. I plan to be gone by this time tomorrow
    BrookeSandhurst BrookeSandhurst 16-17, F 14 Responses Mar 3, 2015

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    Nothing ever goes right

    for me it seems like. My asshat husband is going to get everything in the divorce while I'll get almost nothing. He was emotionally abusive to me, controlling and just a **** all around. Now that I'm finally free of him I'll get no justice and he'll get everything! How is that...
    GoldenHeart69 GoldenHeart69 22-25, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I hope you did and will have a good day.

    Please be positive and be kind to others. We'll never know what they're going through. I hope it gets better for you. Please see the beauty in life. Kick that negativity off! Conquer the trials and hardship! Tell this cruel life, " In your face you cruel life!!! Who's...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    Life is just some sick joke.

    I have no drive to do anything. I can't even talk to people because I'm so screwed up. Every day is the same, it's just some stupid routine. The only thing I look forward to everyday is getting to lay in bed. It's literally the only thing I enjoy. I'm scared of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Oct 14, 2015

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    Everybody is always so fuc*king "fine".

    But we are not. Sometimes, we are hurt and bruised and nearly completely shattered and this, sir, is not what one calls fine... No one knows what's happening and you have to wear that fake smile so you don't hurt others..
    JennyAB JennyAB 16-17, F 9 Responses Jan 4, 2015

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn 16-17, F 30 Responses Jun 30, 2014

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    I randomly came across this website

    when I was looking for ways to assuage my unhappiness. I have been feeling depressed for the past year and I couldn't heal myself with everything that's been going on in school. I don't have anyone to talk to about it either, because I left everyone. I have family, but my family...
    Silh0uettes Silh0uettes 16-17, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Well, i got a job baby sitting all summer i

    start Tuesday and will only get to go home on the weekends. hopefully itll take my mind off my depression and i can maybe actually start living a little better..just wish me luck ^^
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 6 Responses May 23, 2015

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    Im just going to stay away from ep

    for a while. I would still log in almost everyday. I just need a break because this is too much that I can't take.. I'm working on getting better.. it's not like anybody will miss me lol.. I will come back when I start feeling better
    sparklingillusion sparklingillusion 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    EmanonEvahi EmanonEvahi 36-40, M 9 Responses Sep 16, 2014

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    Sometimes I have a strong urge to cry at random

    times, when I'm in the car mostly. I cry at night all the time so no one will know. I am severely over weight and get made fun of all the time for it, and my constant diet plans always fail.
    ButteryToast ButteryToast 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    First off this is an old story everyone .

    Im happy now . NOVEMBER 26,2014 I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention i just want to put my story out there because I've hid it my...
    FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul 18-21, F 25 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 16-17, F 13 Responses Sep 4, 2014

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    Well , I lost all my friends over a guy ,

    the guy was my best guy friend and one of my friend's ex from a year ago but, they were just **** buddies for a week .clearly after her finding out about me and him because we started seeing eachother after, she turned everyone against me , and now I just don't know what to do...
    ASA15 ASA15 16-17, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I want to not care, but how can I

    when they remind me how my life sucks everyday
    Fallbeforewefallout Fallbeforewefallout 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I am very depressed right now.

    It's funny how you are so happy and having a good life and the next it all starts coming down
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Jan 11

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    I been depressed for a long time now.

    .. I was molested four times by different people. Two were girls when i was younger. I just got out of a controlling relationship. I dont have anyone to talk to. im anti social. I just need help.
    SimplyEbonie SimplyEbonie 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15, 2014

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    I still haven't went to get help,

    I can't bring myself to do it. Maybe I don't actually care and want to feel this way. I don't see my future, I can't see myself doing anything "happy and productive" in the next 5-10 years if I do live. I'm useless, not really good at anything. Although there are positive sides...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 2 Responses Jan 14, 2015

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    I never really knew quite what depression was.

    I thought that it was extreme sadness. that's why I believed that I never really truly had depression. recently I have realized that I actually do have depression. I identified with close to close to all the symptoms. I have this almost constant feeling of no emotion, as if I...
    UnusualArtist UnusualArtist 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 2

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 95 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    I have it all. I look great on paper.

    People are envious of me. But guess what? I'd trade this life in a heartbeat for a life of poverty if only it meant I could be HAPPY. ALL I WANT IS HAPPINESS. Why is that so much to ask for?
    unpredictableprediction unpredictableprediction 22-25, F 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    I always feel like I don't want to live in this

    world. I am so lonely and there is violence everywhere. I live in an orphanage and my boyfriend just broke up with me. And when I go to a social network I always read that people think girls are just useful for that one thing. And I feel like nobody loves me or will love me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 12 Responses Aug 15, 2015

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    having the worst day of my life.

    just finally coming to terms with my best friends suicide. Hope I can make it through the day. #MissyouforeverMySister
    maya0871 maya0871 13-15, F 6 Responses Aug 16, 2015

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    i am really depressed

    because i talked to one of my old ex's broke up with me last month and i talked to her today and shes getting married and dosent want to be friends no more plus she pregnant but the thing is i still love her she has really upset me and broken my heart i have never been this hurt...
    jamesb2243 jamesb2243 22-25, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    It's the fact that I could talk to anyone right

    now and have a shoulder to cry on, but I don't because I don't want to be a constant burden and give my baggage to them, that troubles me when I sleep at night.
    sickofthisw0rld sickofthisw0rld 18-21, F 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 28, 2014

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    Today is already a regret,

    I wish I would've never woken up.
    sassycookie sassycookie 18-21, F 11 Responses Oct 15, 2015

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    ITn3v3rEnds ITn3v3rEnds 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    haileeilenenanderson haileeilenenanderson 13-15, F 5 Responses Feb 3

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    IntenseCookie IntenseCookie 16-17, F 6 Responses Mar 11, 2015

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    My heart can only take

    so much. I don't know what to do to escape the pain. My thoughts frighten me.
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 7 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    I figured out how to fix it.

    I have to change. But in order to understand what I have to change I have to be able to identify what's causing me pain. My pain seems to stem from hope. Hope that one day some person will care enough to help me. I have prayed, I have reached out to family, friends, and even...
    imjustaghost imjustaghost 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 3

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    So here we go again,

    after nearly 8 years of feeling ok it's the same old ****. Hopefully it won't take me a year to get over it this time
    Adelh Adelh 22-25, F 7 Responses Dec 20, 2015

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    I'm a single mum of 2

    and 36 my husband was emtionaly abusive still is even tho we are apart. I work a reception Job where I sit on my own for 8 hours a day. I have my mum who helps me out with kids a bit but she is so up and down with her moods and anything she does for me she holds against me. My...
    winterusa winterusa 36-40, F 6 days ago

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    I need someone to talk to,

    my ki-k is Hunter221133664455
    Jacob2111 Jacob2111 13-15, M Feb 4

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    I don't want to be here anymore.

    ... I really just want to give up. I hate myself so much. I'm just a useless piece of sh*t. Just a waste of space.
    bblemonlime09 bblemonlime09 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Do you see me?? Do you see how i fake it.

    .? Do you see how i hate it..? Do you see??? I rarely laugh.. i rarely speak face to face with people. Do you know how it is to feel like you got a phobia about people?? How I got a big trust issue?? Do you see that I may have gotten better with studying.. That i can no longer...
    KarasuEm KarasuEm 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 11, 2015

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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