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I Am Depressed

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    I want to sleep my days away

    until I have none. I want a drunken stupor that lasts in silence of my own house so I can dwell and be completely lost but without being lost at all. No one to call. No one to see. No one to hear. Just me and my empty thoughts. Alone. In complete bitter silence where my mind...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 2

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    Alone In This World

    i am alone.I need someone who understnds my feelings right now.I have many friends but they nevr gona understnd what im feeling is,nt even my familiy.I dnt knw y everythng has been changd.I wnt everythng to b same as befor.Im tryng my bst to b strong bt y cnt any1 understnds it.Y...
    MagiCizMe MagiCizMe 22-25, F 12 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    I'm suffering from depression most people think

    it's a bullshit illness but it's not I cry every single day because I feel very very alone :( I cry myself to sleep every night because I feel like if I take my life nobody would care/notice I was gone i have had thoughts about killing myself instantly
    Smilez3000 Smilez3000 22-25, F 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Since I lost the greatest love of my life I

    have been asked countless times what I did to her that caused this. Unfortunately it is assumed that since I am a man, all men are jerks and thus I did something wrong. I can’t say that this did not offend me because I gave her nothing but kindness, love and respect. I did...
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 5 Responses Aug 13

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    Right now I feel like I have no

    where i belong . I know that I am needed as a mother. I am married but not needed or wanted as a wife. Family broken and I want desperately to save my marriage, but I am the only one who is fighting for change and to better our marriage. Why when I talk about us or what we...
    rd2btrme rd2btrme 26-30, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 7

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    Everyday is a battle.

    The simplest things seem so hard to do. I feel heavy. I've had this heaviness since I can remember and have no recollection of where it came from. I have a family that loves me, more than enough admirers, and still I feel empty and useless. Most days I can get past it. I have a...
    Maxxinee Maxxinee 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    The Solution

    i climb so high just to fall it doesn't matter after all it pulls me in i try to leave there's just so much i cannot believe i hate this place i want to go although my sadness never shows step by step i slowly ascend where i'll fall will just depend tiny capsules of quick...
    irishnative irishnative 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 14, 2013

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    Its been a long time

    since I felt happy just like in the old times, my childhood. I know it's not that great. but i was free and peaceful, no worries and sorrow. Only hopes and imaginations.
    infurmul infurmul 26-30, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15

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    life seems so pointless.

    . anyone else feel like this?
    AlexAnimeFreak AlexAnimeFreak 13-15, F 10 Responses Mar 21

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    My life thus far, explained in years of age: 1.

    I cannot remember. For my first birthday I got a cake in the shape of a baseball, based on the few photos from my childhood I managed to acquire. 2. I can remember only vaguely. We lived in a different house then. Our father worked at Safeway at the time, and often came home...
    EthanFisher EthanFisher 16-17 3 Responses Jun 24

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    Ive had depression before

    but nothing this bad... antidepressants aren't helping, and I can feel myself shutting down. Don't think I can fight my way back if I do.
    Peachesanddream Peachesanddream 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I let mum's words get to me,

    for her, I am a burden. I don't know what I did, I just go home from school. I try to study hard to be a honor student so I can have a gift for dad. I love my mum but she makes me feel these days that I'm a burden to her. Oh well 😭😭
    TheKDoomsday TheKDoomsday 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 24

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    Depression is one of those things

    where you can't control it. Things that once made you happy don't anymore. You get sad all the time. You don't feel like yourself. It just truly sucks. Why can't I be happy like everyone else :'( why ?
    bballfanatic223 bballfanatic223 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 29

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    marianda01 marianda01 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 12

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    i thought i already snapped.

    but i guess with depression, i feel like im going to 'snap any day now' all the time.
    apex2 apex2 22-25, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Am I Dreaming Or Is It Me?

    I fall asleep to wake up to this dream. This dream of me. This dream of me falling off the track. Of things I can't take back. It's just a list of faces and known places. A heart that cannot be fixed. A mind that's on the fritz. What is this. What is this hole you've dug...
    solomon3020 solomon3020 18-21, M 18 Responses Jun 5

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    chippylovemrchips chippylovemrchips 26-30, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I slipped, so far, almost back to the start,

    I can't function, I feel cold all the time, and I've relapsed into self harming again. I feel so tired, all the time, it's like I'm being pulled into a sea of blackness and every time I breathe my lungs are being filled with water. I can't cope anymore... Worst of all... I was...
    Werekind Werekind 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Another end to the perfect summer.

    I have to wake up in five hours to go to school, I just can't sleep. And I really don't want to go, I'm always judged there, people just don't seem to like me. I remember getting bullied last year and the thought of that happening again scares me. I know, a 17 year old can't...
    Simon232 Simon232 16-17, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I'm joining college soon

    so I should be happy. It's just, my dad. I've just recently got back in contact with him and when I was with him I completely forgot about my depression. We hung out a Friday when I was visiting my granny, went to Newry to get my wee brother, it would be my first time seeing...
    cmdoran cmdoran 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I just quit my job as a part time manager.

    I really didn't like the job at all, but either way I don't have insurance to help pay for medical help for my depression or anorexia. Even if I did I'm scared to go into medical help for it. I have a lot of debt and I haven't even gone to college yet. I don't know if I could...
    Vespion437 Vespion437 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I am depressed. My parents don't understand,

    all they say is "people have it worse" "you're attention seeking" "don't be stupid".... I wish they'd understand.
    Arianna191 Arianna191 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Only here because they don't have an "I am

    suicidal" category. I don't even know why I am. I'm still with the man of my dreams. I'm in the best shape of my life (granted I've never actually been in shape, but you get the idea). I have plenty of ideas for my book series. Yet no matter how many good things come along...
    PearlRose PearlRose 18-21 8 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I wish I could just shut everyone

    and everything out . I don't know why
    Lonelyone6 Lonelyone6 46-50, F 4 Responses Jul 18

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    I'm just so close to ending it all.

    . I feel invisible.. I have nobody.. I have nobody else to talk to.. I don't know what to do. I don't want to live anymore.. But at the same time I feel like I have to. Like someone's forcing me to stay.. But nobody cares.. Nobody cares if I'm dead or alive..
    butterflyacid butterflyacid 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 99 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    so i just feel like ranting.

    Been sick for about 5 years now with ME and feel like total **** every day too exhausted to do anything super depressed it just feels like its never going to end, im 17 now and i have barley been to school since i got sick i just want to go back to school have a girlfriend hang...
    imtiredwastaken imtiredwastaken 16-17, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 28

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    I am so depressed that I have been questioning

    why I am alive quite a lot lately. Seriously, why am I alive? What do I do other than doing a sh*tty job for which I leave home early in the morning and come back late in the afternoon? I don't have a house of my own so I keep moving from one place to another, I don't have...
    2095TwistedTransistor3684 2095TwistedTransistor3684 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    pls talk to me if u can help.

    i feel like i cant go on. therapy doesnt help my situation
    basicallydead basicallydead 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    the only 2 things i care about anymore are 2

    members of this site and if both of them leave me in their individual ways its game over
    jackalfredthegr8 jackalfredthegr8 13-15, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am depressed. I mean I act happy

    and no one really knows that I'm sad, but my life is a constant feel bad for myself mentality and I don't know how to get out of it. I can't afford therepy but I would love to just talk to someone
    StrongFeirce StrongFeirce 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    There's that part of me

    that wants to wants to stop breathing and shut down all the system in my body forever. Tired of this life, tired of dealing with the all the bs life giving me, and tired of regretting the past and worrying about the future. I wish my mind would just obey me this once and shut up...
    onebeatleft onebeatleft 18-21 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I've wanted a relationship

    for a while now. I thought I'd found someone and thought maybe I could make her feel special. But she dumped me after the first date
    gothboy145 gothboy145 16-17, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I have reached a point in my depression

    where darkness is all that I can see for my future. I am feeling compelled to hurt myself for all the things that are hurting me. Talking about it does not help. Discussing why, does not make it stop hurting nor does it fix anything. Antidepressants don't feel like they are...
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Please Listen,

    hush little angel dont you cry, put down you lighter  and dont say goodbye, cuts will heal,  and you're bruises will fade,   i know it seems dark  but itll be ok, i know you feel alone but im right here, ill hold you real tight,  and chase away your fears,  i love you so...
    onelittlecat onelittlecat 13-15, F 7 Responses Sep 24, 2013

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    i feel horribly sad and depressed.

    ..dont know what to do...:/...juz keep feeling worthless n useless...need a positive outlook on life...desperately...but dont know how to be positive...
    ThatPrettyGirl ThatPrettyGirl 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I have been depressed like always

    and I tried to make myself feel better and I couldn't and a lot of things that are not ok crossed my mind suicide/cutting and I curled up in a ball and cried and I felt like my life was over and there was nothing else left for me but then I got a text from the most amazing...
    joshjudgment joshjudgment 13-15, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I hate it when I feel like that.

    I feel so pathetic. I feel ugly. I hear my list of flaws running through my brain point by point at super speed... I feel pushed away, when all I want is to be invited in. I feel panic. I feel misunderstood. I feel stupid. I feel sick. And this has all become so normal that...
    RAINandSTARS RAINandSTARS 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    For the first time I can truthfully use this

    word. I am utterly depressed. And yes I know that after you read this you'll think, "She shouldn't be depressed because almost everyone has it so worse." Please try not to, or at least don't say it because I've heard that line my whole life. Yes, I agree with it, but it's a...
    ForeverSmiling ForeverSmiling 13-15, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Stuff Is Making Me Mad

    I've had issues with depression since I was 11. I eventually was put on medication when I wasn't self medicating with other things. I was forced to stay off my mood stabilizer when my mother went all nuts and threatened a lot of BS if I filled my prescription with her insurance...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    Force myself out of bed,

    force a fake smile on my face to make a fake happiness. My entire body aches. I'm not motivated to do anything. I just wanna curl up in a ball and do nothing. I cry way too much and I overthink everything there is to think about. I get headaches all the time from pulling out my...
    DepressingKayla DepressingKayla 16-17, F 4 Responses May 28

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    From Me To You. A Story From Ep Friend That Motivates Me.

    From me. To you:"Just so you know depression is not a disease or a condition, it's...a state of the mind which coerces you to believe that you are all alone and helpless to the causes around you that is overwhelming your vision of life ahead, it can be beat if you surround...
    Shinesaathlove Shinesaathlove 46-50, M 7 Responses Dec 17, 2012

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 Apr 23, 2013

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    I've never been in a deeper place .

    It's like the darkness is swallowing me whole & all I can do is sit here & watch my life collapse into nothing .
    Grmoney Grmoney 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 16-17, F 67 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    I am depressed as **** I need someone

    preferably boy a girl to talk to today has sucked I fell down stairs and lost something important to me today
    picofire picofire 22-25, M 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn 13-15, F 34 Responses Jun 30

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    Just got home from work *sigh* The place

    where my boss makes me feel like an absolute retard and cusses at me when I don't know what to do. I just got assigned a new place and I'm learning so I wish he would just **** off
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I Do Know What It Feels Like. ...

    I do know what it feels like. I'm not there right now, but I certainly know what it feels like to not want to wake up again. Its a dark, dark, distant place and I could never wish that on anyone else. Its hard **** but you can get through it. The worse thing is it that you...
    pacwoman pacwoman 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 8, 2007

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