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I Am Depressed

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    -------WARNING------- --DEPRESSION MODE-- I

    usually come across as a happy friendly guy no matter how I'm feeling in reality, but hey, experienceproject is about being honest right? My friend died, I'm in a country where I can't really express myself (not that I ever do anyway), I'm homesick and want to be with my...
    shellofaboy shellofaboy 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 13-15, F 14 Responses Sep 4

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    Tesla. Hang tough. http://youtu.

    be/0CWsV0deJxo Tesla. What you give. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9vwHuCC6nP8&sns=em Tesla. Love song. http://youtu.be/l2q_-xN2N54
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M 4 days ago

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    I am barely capable of surviving.

    I have virtually no money. My limited resources dwindle a little more every day, and my tolerance of this s*** storm wears thin. My mom and dad don't trust me and expect the unreasonable. They won't even let me inside their own house without supervision. They refuse to...
    Zerato2431 Zerato2431 26-30, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I hate the fact that I'm the one

    that asks people if they're ok, if they're alright, if they need anything I'll be there, if they want a shoulder to cry on, I'm there, if you need someone to talk to, I'm there, if you need comfort, I'm there, if your feeling sad, I'm there. But when I am in need, or need...
    RickaylaBeard RickaylaBeard 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    Nights like these make me feel

    as though I have no one. Seeing pictures of people around a campfire, of girls in tiny dresses drunkenly hugging their friends, of couples having dinner - it makes me wonder where my friends are. And then I start to think about how I got to be sitting here in my pajamas...
    someonelikeyou9 someonelikeyou9 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    my ex broke up with me

    and then went on to someone new three weeks later after 4 years. He knowingly played with my heart for three months, in the end I lost out and am depressed and hurt over this. How you can do that to someone that you loved for 4 years I don't understand.
    ll77 ll77 36-40, F 15 Responses Aug 11

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    I am not in a good place.

    Things just seem to keep getting worse. I'm seriously thinking about ending it ask.
    jpiper5 jpiper5 26-30, M 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I am going through the darkest hour yet.

    Fallen from heights of church and work life. Top performer with accolades, spurned and mistreated by new bosses and a-holes...I quit, I was so frustrated with every area of my life...now I am facing depression and small business woes and very realistically losing my house. I...
    Sezom Sezom 36-40, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    When you lack motivation

    because you've accepted defeat...
    xoxoCharlierose xoxoCharlierose 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 2

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    It's hard to snap out of it

    and i doubt friends and fam really get it i try to be less depressing as to not always annoy people with my moods but thats easier said than done i feel alone and isolated most of the time misunderstood which only makes things worse and im already hard enough on my self so i...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 30

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    I've never really shared my life story with

    anyone, it isn't easy for me but I figure I'll give it a shot. I apologize in advance for the long post, I don't know if that's what's "done" here, I'm new. Today is my birthday. It's always the worst on my birthday. Being reminded that another year has gone by and I still...
    AnotherPseudonym AnotherPseudonym 18-21, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I want to sleep my days away

    until I have none. I want a drunken stupor that lasts in silence of my own house so I can dwell and be completely lost but without being lost at all. No one to call. No one to see. No one to hear. Just me and my empty thoughts. Alone. In complete bitter silence where my mind...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 2

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    marianda01 marianda01 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 12

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    I felt I was getting a bit better,

    I made a lot of progress this year but I got news today.. my childhood friend I held so close to my heart has been strung out on heroin for awhile now, what tares me apart is that I feel a little responsible.. I ignored him, there for he went on to hang out with the people who'd...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    When your thinking you made your bestfriend

    feeling awful about herself and just in general doesnt makes anything better
    IrwinsScars IrwinsScars 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 2

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    nadia50 nadia50 16-17, M 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    So I battle depression

    but today just ran over my husband's gone doing marine stuff and I found out mybest friends baby pasted away in his sleep last night at some point and the don't know why he was 9 months old well would have been sept 11 :(
    sweety7268 sweety7268 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 7

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn 13-15, F 34 Responses Jun 30

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15

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    How i wanna just drink

    or whatever but i dont drink... Im so depress idk. What to do with life. Its so so so so dark in my head and now im just getting myself drunk with sad songs. Way to go, me ... And i 've been singing one line .. (Im talking a lot of sh*t baby) and then bang my head.. Wooohhhh...
    LittleMiss04 LittleMiss04 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Well, I wouldn't call it depression,

    but recently I've been thinking more and more about everything. Friendship, aspirations, human psychology, loneliness, insecurity, and life in general. I'll listen to a song, one I've heard 10,000 times, and just one time, for those few minutes I can't stop thinking. Deeper...
    sturmgewher44 sturmgewher44 18-21, M 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    I'm depressed . I just feel dead.

    .. Inside and out. I feel like my life is turning into a black and white photo. All the fun colors are being sucked out
    randicandi456 randicandi456 16-17, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    LostApothecary LostApothecary 16-17, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I got a broken home, with a broken family.

    .. Now there are screams. Another girl of my father? Its not new, im close to completing high school, and im going to get the hell out. Walk away, and just never come back. Never run with it. Until they straighten out.
    LittleMiss04 LittleMiss04 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    Stuff Is Making Me Mad

    I've had issues with depression since I was 11. I eventually was put on medication when I wasn't self medicating with other things. I was forced to stay off my mood stabilizer when my mother went all nuts and threatened a lot of BS if I filled my prescription with her insurance...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    I'm not sure if I'm depressed?

    I want to sit alone in the dark all the time but I love being. social & hanging out with my friends. is this part of being a teen? I don't think like suicidal thoughts but I'm not happy, but with my friends I am. I'm so confused.
    lilly2136 lilly2136 13-15, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 16-17, F 67 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Since I lost the greatest love of my life I

    have been asked countless times what I did to her that caused this. Unfortunately it is assumed that since I am a man, all men are jerks and thus I did something wrong. I can’t say that this did not offend me because I gave her nothing but kindness, love and respect. I did...
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 5 Responses Aug 13

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    Alone In This World

    i am alone.I need someone who understnds my feelings right now.I have many friends but they nevr gona understnd what im feeling is,nt even my familiy.I dnt knw y everythng has been changd.I wnt everythng to b same as befor.Im tryng my bst to b strong bt y cnt any1 understnds it.Y...
    MagiCizMe MagiCizMe 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    Well may some of my friends here know

    that I'm in Mexico for the whole summer, which I'm super excited about! I been hanging out with my cousins, been going out downtown, played soccer, walking around, and other stuff. But lately I been starting to feel sad, kinda depressed I would said it. I guess I really do miss...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 21

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 28

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    contact me if you want to talk.

    I'm here for you. 2ndchance2savealife
    GayboySammy94 GayboySammy94 18-21 19 hrs ago

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    I'm torturing myself with sad songs

    and I don't know what to do, I don't know what I want. there are so many I don't know's in life and we never really find them all out. I knew this when I was little. I was the kind of kid that was quiet but who easily got mad and I was also that kid that was absent a lot. I've...
    Picokill Picokill 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    I've been depressed for about 2-3 years now,

    funny thing is that if one was to see me normally, I am a very social person. I like talking to people, and making them laugh I guess. Back in my high school everyone loved me. But in the end, I always felt alone. I've really never opened up to people, my inner feelings are...
    JaRuss JaRuss 18-21 13 hrs ago

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    Nightshade777 Nightshade777 31-35, M 10 Responses Sep 16

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    Kick at sarahjohnston6778 thinks self harm

    and suicide are jokes and she needs to learn that it's not acceptable. She bully's and abuses humans and pets and needs to see that she's in the wrong and needs to change. Please support me as I've been bullied by her. she bullied my girl friend and me for being lesbian and make...
    1234567sam1234567 1234567sam1234567 36-40, T 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    sjwhit sjwhit 13-15, M 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am 13 years old and I have been feeling

    extremely depressed since the last four years, when I shifted to a new residence and changed my school. I remember I used to be very sensitive even when I was much younger. Like once I had to get a haircut and I cried for the whole day because I loved my long hair, and I used to...
    nickyra55 nickyra55 13-15 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 22-25, F 7 Responses Jul 9

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    I can't take this, I'm tired of all of this!

    Why is it always like this, why doesn't anyone like me? Why am I a failure! I'm sick of everything, if only they all knew! If only they all knew how I felt, but I'd never tell them! I'd hope they would get me help! I doubt they would, they would tell me to suck it up or you're...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    From Me To You. A Story From Ep Friend That Motivates Me.

    From me. To you:"Just so you know depression is not a disease or a condition, it's...a state of the mind which coerces you to believe that you are all alone and helpless to the causes around you that is overwhelming your vision of life ahead, it can be beat if you surround...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Dec 17, 2012

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    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M 4 days ago

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 99 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    Give me therapy, i'm a walking travesty.

    I've been in therapy for roughly 8 years. I'm 15 almost 16 years and I just wish things would get better. :'(
    cydneyxx cydneyxx 13-15, F 7 Responses 2 days ago

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    So I have been depressed again lately they

    found precancerous cells in my uterus along with that I have been taking care of my cousin who lost his arm in a car accident asking with my stressful job (cna) and to top it all off im struggling with my bills and more so now that we are taking care of my cousin and I'm having...
    sweety7268 sweety7268 18-21, F 7 Responses 4 days ago

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    Again. It happened again,

    and its my fault. I'm a bad person.
    LostApothecary LostApothecary 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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