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I Am Depressed

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    Since I lost the greatest love of my life I

    have been asked countless times what I did to her that caused this. Unfortunately it is assumed that since I am a man, all men are jerks and thus I did something wrong. I can’t say that this did not offend me because I gave her nothing but kindness, love and respect. I did...
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 4 Responses Aug 13, 2014

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    My life sucks I have no friends

    and never had a girlfriend before, I am going to die alone. I am going to be alone forever until I die and its not my fault either.
    atr7887 atr7887 26-30, M 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn 16-17, F 32 Responses Jun 30, 2014

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    Everybody is always so fuc*king "fine".

    But we are not. Sometimes, we are hurt and bruised and nearly completely shattered and this, sir, is not what one calls fine... No one knows what's happening and you have to wear that fake smile so you don't hurt others..
    JennyAB JennyAB 16-17, F 9 Responses Jan 4

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    I've been feeling realy down lately.

    . First thing first I'm a 15 year old boy and I love playing video games and that's the reason I preety much suck at every ball sport.I never had a girlfriend,always wanted to however and I often care about my appearance.I have long hair(which is unusual for boys at my age and I...
    oneMidnightstar oneMidnightstar 13-15, M 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    Its getting uncontrollably worse.

    . Feeling no emotion whatsoever towards everything.. Like theres this void inside where my soul, dreams and hopes you yo exist...now there is nothing.. Emptiness..Vacuum.. And then my demented mind starts the flow of the nasty thoughts thats poisoning my vision so i start...
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 18-21, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I need to leave now. I'm a worthless,

    empty, sick individual. Nobody gives a **** about me. It'd be so much easier on everyone if I was dead. I plan to be gone by this time tomorrow
    BrookeSandhurst BrookeSandhurst 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3

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    Depressed scars worthless hopeless forgotten

    this is what I feel everyday of my life
    MusicLover4Eternity MusicLover4Eternity 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I was so so numb.. but at the end of this sad

    rainbow is a pot of pain. How can you stop this.. please.. please stop this pain.. ;-; its too much :'( too much...
    CursedRaven CursedRaven 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    warrior1467 warrior1467 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I have tried to receive help from professionals

    in every way possible, no one seems to care. They just give me pills and leave me to get on with it. I just don't want to go on living if nobody cares. My family don't care, my friends don't care and professionals don't care. What is the point anymore? I've tried to get through...
    tvdlover1865 tvdlover1865 18-21, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Sweetaugust Sweetaugust 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 1

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    I Do Know What It Feels Like. ...

    I do know what it feels like. I'm not there right now, but I certainly know what it feels like to not want to wake up again. Its a dark, dark, distant place and I could never wish that on anyone else. Its hard **** but you can get through it. The worse thing is it that you...
    pacwoman pacwoman 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 8, 2007

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    bw32 bw32 31-35, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    it's really depressing

    when you can't love the guy you love the most. it's forbidden love, and it hurts a lot.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Would locking myself in my trunk be a good way

    to die? I'm thinking I'll fall asleep and run out of air and just die or maybe pass out then die.
    Betrbleave Betrbleave 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I really wish i had a girlfriend

    that cared about me and loved me. Its been so long since i could hold someone and tell them i love them. I dont remember the feeling. I couldnt recall it if i tried. Really bums me out being alone. I dont care about looks or sex. I just want someone to love me and tell me they...
    MadButcherOFKingsburyRun MadButcherOFKingsburyRun 18-21, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Am I Dreaming Or Is It Me?

    I fall asleep to wake up to this dream. This dream of me. This dream of me falling off the track. Of things I can't take back. It's just a list of faces and known places. A heart that cannot be fixed. A mind that's on the fritz. What is this. What is this hole you've dug...
    solomon3020 solomon3020 18-21, M 15 Responses Jun 5, 2014

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 98 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    You know what hurts..

    . You know??? Letting your feelings go and letting your sadness intertwine with the others. While the others promise that things will be fine. and the fcking sad part is that promise will be broken. no freaking difference will it give to you except for being more depressed.
    CursedRaven CursedRaven 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    I feel so cold.. so much cold.

    like an ice was all over my cell.... I feel like my heart isn't there.. I feel like my feet is on ice.. my whole body is on ice... and reality is just so cruel. It is all falling apart as I ended up crying my heart out cause i know no one would ever hug me and make me feel warm...
    CursedRaven CursedRaven 16-17, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    lol i kept dreaming about me dying.

    . lol its funny how a guy hammered me in the head and when i was trying to crawl away, he stabbed me a lot and i was left alone on the floor. Bleeding and lifeless and when i woke up.. i feel stoic. Like i got no soul. Later this day i kept seeing dead animals. Bird .... snake...
    CursedRaven CursedRaven 16-17, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I still haven't went to get help,

    I can't bring myself to do it. Maybe I don't actually care and want to feel this way. I don't see my future, I can't see myself doing anything "happy and productive" in the next 5-10 years if I do live. I'm useless, not really good at anything. Although there are positive sides...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 3 Responses Jan 14

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    Alone In This World

    i am alone.I need someone who understnds my feelings right now.I have many friends but they nevr gona understnd what im feeling is,nt even my familiy.I dnt knw y everythng has been changd.I wnt everythng to b same as befor.Im tryng my bst to b strong bt y cnt any1 understnds it.Y...
    MagiCizMe MagiCizMe 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    Looks like marriage is over,

    there's too much to fix, and she keeps going back on her word.
    Bryan29 Bryan29 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15, 2014

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    I feel so so sad.. one minute i was too numb

    then another . . . i just wanna cry.. i dont want to have mental break down again.. it sucks when you cant breathe.. that feeling where you dont have the air to breathe in.. and you keep crying.. and your heart feels like its crashing and bleeding heavily...
    CursedRaven CursedRaven 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    "What are those?" he asked pointing at the

    scars in my arm. "Battle wounds." I whispered. "Who were you fighting?" "Myself...." - K
    IAmACatXP IAmACatXP 13-15, F 8 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    It's got worse. I can't express my feelings

    anymore, I feel empty and numb. I can't even write in my own diary anymore. I can't cry. Depression is deeper than crying and mental breakdowns. I know it got worse when I absolutely feel nothing inside anymore.. I am soulless.
    introverteddementor introverteddementor 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I've made so many bad decisions,

    and so many mistakes. I've jeopardized relationships, hurt people I love most, and set myself way back than I should be at this point. I want to be a better mother, girlfriend, person. I just don't know how. My anger always gets the best of me. And in the end, I always regret...
    JustTiredOfTrying JustTiredOfTrying 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I would really want to know what I am doing

    wrong. I want to know why boys won't talk to me. I want to know why I don't make friends as easily as others. what is wrong with me. is it because I'm not as pretty or skinny as other girls? or because I don't wear designer clothes or converse? is it because of my personality...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 days ago

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    i just remembered.. while i was plucking my

    guitar and singing 'Your Call' by Secondhand Serenade... I felt teary when I sang the part 'We used to sing.. in the car.. you remember butterflies..' that's the part that me and his song is butterflies. Oh God . . . no.... :'( why do i have to experience this.. im breaking down...
    CursedRaven CursedRaven 16-17, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Been battling depression

    for almost a decade now... every 2-3 years I keep tumbling down the dark path... Can't forget and forgive people. I keep thinking of the world as a utopian place. If not for my friends, I would have left earth a long time back. They and my will power are my source of strength...
    thekafir thekafir 26-30, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    When you lack motivation

    because you've accepted defeat...
    xoxoCharlierose xoxoCharlierose 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    First off this is an old story everyone .

    Im happy now . NOVEMBER 26,2014 I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention i just want to put my story out there because I've hid it my...
    FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul 18-21, F 21 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    My life is 0..... Looooooser.

    .. My end id soooon but sure
    suresh36 suresh36 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    Icrossmyheart Icrossmyheart 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 15

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    i cant do anything right.

    my whole life i have not been able to gain weight or absorb fat in my body. ive been bullied so much thats my life. i hate how i look. im a stick. and i can never get a boyfriend. and im 21. i ruined the only thing i had which was my beautiful face two years ago because i didnt...
    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    please can someone talk to me i need someone to

    talk to. i cant even describe what im going through. im so confused. i need someone who can listen
    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I want to sleep my days away

    until I have none. I want a drunken stupor that lasts in silence of my own house so I can dwell and be completely lost but without being lost at all. No one to call. No one to see. No one to hear. Just me and my empty thoughts. Alone. In complete bitter silence where my mind...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 16-17, F 13 Responses Sep 4, 2014

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