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I Am Depressed

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    Ladybugprincess Ladybugprincess 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 15

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    I Do Know What It Feels Like. ...

    I do know what it feels like. I'm not there right now, but I certainly know what it feels like to not want to wake up again. Its a dark, dark, distant place and I could never wish that on anyone else. Its hard **** but you can get through it. The worse thing is it that you...
    pacwoman pacwoman 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 8, 2007

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 16-17, F 13 Responses Sep 4, 2014

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    I am trying so hard to find the hope.

    I can't get my med stabilized and these Bipolar swings are wearing me out. NIghts are the worst. I want to call one of those crisis lines but I am scared. Of what? I don't know. I am afraid of being vulnerable and someone not understanding.
    givemenoname givemenoname 51-55, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Alone In This World

    i am alone.I need someone who understnds my feelings right now.I have many friends but they nevr gona understnd what im feeling is,nt even my familiy.I dnt knw y everythng has been changd.I wnt everythng to b same as befor.Im tryng my bst to b strong bt y cnt any1 understnds it.Y...
    MagiCizMe MagiCizMe 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    My ex text me... After 5 months without talking.

    .. I thought I was recovered... That text make me wish I was dead...
    Anotherfailmatty Anotherfailmatty 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I can't sleep. I miss class.

    I fail my tests. Even the things I'm "good at" I can't do. I feel like I can't make it in my field because when I start to try harder I stop by thinking about how much worse it will feel when I inevitably fail. These past few weeks I've been thinking about suicide daily. It's...
    CaptainBenza CaptainBenza 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Why am I always depressed

    as soon as I get to school? At home I am the happiest girl ever. But I get to school and my mood drops drastically. Why does this happen? I hate it so much and is there a way I can make myself cheer up before I get on the bus?
    alleycat888 alleycat888 13-15, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    So I battle depression

    but today just ran over my husband's gone doing marine stuff and I found out mybest friends baby pasted away in his sleep last night at some point and the don't know why he was 9 months old well would have been sept 11 :(
    sweety7268 sweety7268 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 7, 2014

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    I don't know why to live anymore.

    I need a reason to be alive but no matter where I look I cannot find anything. Contradicting myself I know I have a potential future though being smarter and more morally correct than the average and also being one of the most accepting people that I have ever known. If an alien...
    fatality500 fatality500 13-15, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I can't cope anymore feeling like this.

    It just won't go away. everything I try and it still remains. ******* my head up and my life.
    Unicornpeasant Unicornpeasant 18-21, F a week ago

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    I want to sleep my days away

    until I have none. I want a drunken stupor that lasts in silence of my own house so I can dwell and be completely lost but without being lost at all. No one to call. No one to see. No one to hear. Just me and my empty thoughts. Alone. In complete bitter silence where my mind...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    i screwed up badly today.

    .. as i always do, i dont understand why i keep trying, all i do is mess it up somehow in the end. i never thought it would come to this, but im tired.. of everything i have found out now that this nightmare will never end untill i end it myself.. im giving up. not that anyone...
    nightmarehorizons nightmarehorizons 13-15, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Everybody is always so fuc*king "fine".

    But we are not. Sometimes, we are hurt and bruised and nearly completely shattered and this, sir, is not what one calls fine... No one knows what's happening and you have to wear that fake smile so you don't hurt others..
    JennyAB JennyAB 16-17, F 10 Responses Jan 4

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    Am I Dreaming Or Is It Me?

    I fall asleep to wake up to this dream. This dream of me. This dream of me falling off the track. Of things I can't take back. It's just a list of faces and known places. A heart that cannot be fixed. A mind that's on the fritz. What is this. What is this hole you've dug...
    solomon3020 solomon3020 18-21, M 16 Responses Jun 5, 2014

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    Life... Days ago, You feel your body shaking,

    your c.o.c.k hard and desires your heart is like orchestra fingers racing each other to write stories lips wants passionate kisses Now, Body is numb c.o.c.k........... where heart........... not belong to me fingers......... locked lips.............. looking for a poison
    SensualRomantic SensualRomantic 36-40, M 1 day ago

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    I still haven't went to get help,

    I can't bring myself to do it. Maybe I don't actually care and want to feel this way. I don't see my future, I can't see myself doing anything "happy and productive" in the next 5-10 years if I do live. I'm useless, not really good at anything. Although there are positive sides...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 4 Responses Jan 14

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    I was at the hospital

    for 2 days because of my stupidity. The doctor said that I should be happy that I'm alive, but I don't know what to feel. Happy because I'm still here or sad because they put me back to my misery. I do regret what I did before. But it's complicated. After that incident my father...
    supernerd22 supernerd22 16-17, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    When you lack motivation

    because you've accepted defeat...
    xoxoCharlierose xoxoCharlierose 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    LonelySadMan17 LonelySadMan17 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    At this point i don't care about anything

    anymore. In the amount of time I've been on this earth i come to realize, no matter how hard i work my existence here serves no purpose.
    TheLastOfMe TheLastOfMe 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    The more days you go on,

    the more you become numb, the more numb you feel, the more dull everything looks. Things seem so dark and pointless. So sad and hopeless. I wish I had my 3 year old eyes to view the world how I used to. So colorful and beautiful, full of happiness and love.
    000111bh 000111bh 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    Sadness is tears after losing a game

    or a broken bone, depression is sobs at 3 am when you're all alone. Sadness makes you blue, depression makes you numb. Sadness loses to happy, depression loses to none. Sadness is the curious neighbor, depression is the unwanted houseguest. Sadness is your hotel room, depression...
    BabyBlondeOne BabyBlondeOne 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 6

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    Sweetaugust Sweetaugust 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 1

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    Well may some of my friends here know

    that I'm in Mexico for the whole summer, which I'm super excited about! I been hanging out with my cousins, been going out downtown, played soccer, walking around, and other stuff. But lately I been starting to feel sad, kinda depressed I would said it. I guess I really do miss...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 21, 2014

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    I need to leave now. I'm a worthless,

    empty, sick individual. Nobody gives a **** about me. It'd be so much easier on everyone if I was dead. I plan to be gone by this time tomorrow
    BrookeSandhurst BrookeSandhurst 16-17, F 17 Responses Mar 3

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    My heart can only take

    so much. I don't know what to do to escape the pain. My thoughts frighten me.
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 9 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    The one person who should understand me is the

    only person who consistently makes me feel like ****. I don't get how she can say such mean things. She makes me feel so worthless all the time. Doesn't she see the effect her words have on me?
    SingToTheSky2298 SingToTheSky2298 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 16-17, F 66 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    KizzyLeah KizzyLeah 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Dowandup Dowandup 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 98 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    I've been single for

    so long that people think I'm incapable of love and/or being loved. I'm starting to believe them.
    Scal92 Scal92 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Maybe our real loss of innocence doesn't come

    when we loose our virginity but when we loose sight of ourselves
    tatterdremains tatterdremains 13-15, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Stuff Is Making Me Mad

    I've had issues with depression since I was 11. I eventually was put on medication when I wasn't self medicating with other things. I was forced to stay off my mood stabilizer when my mother went all nuts and threatened a lot of BS if I filled my prescription with her insurance...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    Since I lost the greatest love of my life I

    have been asked countless times what I did to her that caused this. Unfortunately it is assumed that since I am a man, all men are jerks and thus I did something wrong. I can’t say that this did not offend me because I gave her nothing but kindness, love and respect. I did...
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 4 Responses Aug 13, 2014

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    this is my last cry for help.

    im done with this life if anyone from california wants to run away with me plaese message me.. i dont care who you are and please dont ask why.
    nightmarehorizons nightmarehorizons 13-15, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 28, 2014

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    IllusionaryGentleman39 IllusionaryGentleman39 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Poem of Illusion A smile can hide a lot,

    from purposes, desires, and emotions. Nothing is what it seems, especially in the case of the human mind. I wrote this poem after a shower, on a Wednesday night, after my dad had unknowingly cut deeply with his words, and he didn't know the reasons why I had done what I had done...
    nicias nicias 13-15, M 23 hrs ago

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    EmanonEvahi EmanonEvahi 36-40, M 9 Responses Sep 16, 2014

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    IntenseCookie IntenseCookie 16-17, F 5 Responses Mar 11

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    I'm so depressed for

    so many reasons it's not fair ):
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 5 days ago