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    I've been struggling with major depression,

    self harm and off and on being suicidal for over a year now. I'm starting to feel worse again and I don't want it to get any further. My old coping strays aren't working anymore. I need some new coping strategies for my depression and self harm. Just hoping maybe somebody who...
    mtailz200 mtailz200 13-15, T 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Muted Chanting his name His reply is still

    the same Soundless left by breeze of air It ticked my soul with despair Desperate to bring back time I'll sold everything, even dime To hold back what once mine Even my life, i'll put in line But what had made him flew afar To left my heart, bitter and sour Is it because I never...
    MutedWords MutedWords 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    Well may some of my friends here know

    that I'm in Mexico for the whole summer, which I'm super excited about! I been hanging out with my cousins, been going out downtown, played soccer, walking around, and other stuff. But lately I been starting to feel sad, kinda depressed I would said it. I guess I really do miss...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 21

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    So about 44 minutes ago I was in a group chat

    with someone friends and I told them about me and a really close guy friend, Jalen... I showed them me and his messages which said, Jalen: you gave me a *****. He was being serious cus I sent him a pic. I thought I could trust my friend but she went and asked him. Jalen got mad...
    mackenziee28 mackenziee28 13-15, F 8 Responses Feb 15

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    MarienaMorello MarienaMorello 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn 13-15, F 36 Responses Jun 30

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    My life thus far, explained in years of age: 1.

    I cannot remember. For my first birthday I got a cake in the shape of a baseball, based on the few photos from my childhood I managed to acquire. 2. I can remember only vaguely. We lived in a different house then. Our father worked at Safeway at the time, and often came home...
    EthanFisher EthanFisher 16-17 3 Responses Jun 24

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    I am sorry... I did it again.

    .. and I'm venting towards EP again... I'm just too tired you know, and I can't really tell anyone about all of this.
    Sagata Sagata 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 13-15, F 14 Responses Sep 4

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    my ex broke up with me

    and then went on to someone new three weeks later after 4 years. He knowingly played with my heart for three months, in the end I lost out and am depressed and hurt over this. How you can do that to someone that you loved for 4 years I don't understand.
    ll77 ll77 36-40, F 16 Responses Aug 11

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    Muted Chanting his name His reply is still

    the same Soundless left by breeze of air It ticked my soul with despair Desperate to bring back time I'll sold everything, even dime To hold back what once mine Even my life, i'll put in line But what had made him flew afar To left my heart, bitter and sour Is it because I never...
    MutedWords MutedWords 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I did something and my classmate tasted the

    outcome of it.. Its all my fault. Because of it i hurt myself, cut while chanting the words "Die" Why cant i just ******* die? After that my classmates saw and. Kept telling me that this isntvthe way.. Why cant people understand? I did something wrong and its my job to be...
    MutedWords MutedWords 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I Do Know What It Feels Like. ...

    I do know what it feels like. I'm not there right now, but I certainly know what it feels like to not want to wake up again. Its a dark, dark, distant place and I could never wish that on anyone else. Its hard **** but you can get through it. The worse thing is it that you...
    pacwoman pacwoman 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 8, 2007

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    unlovednbroken unlovednbroken 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm only 13. Having to deal with depression is

    ******* hell. I promised myself I would stop harming myself but I seem to be getting worse day by day. Am I seeking help? Yes I am. Is it helping? Not at all. Suicide has been attempted, failed. I'm trying. I'm trying hard. But giving seems to be my only option. Tell me it's...
    ContinuousFlame666 ContinuousFlame666 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 9

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    I want to sleep my days away

    until I have none. I want a drunken stupor that lasts in silence of my own house so I can dwell and be completely lost but without being lost at all. No one to call. No one to see. No one to hear. Just me and my empty thoughts. Alone. In complete bitter silence where my mind...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 2

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm not alive. I merely exist.

    My existence is completely void of meaning and reason, expect for being a disappointment to everyone. Life is supposed to be filled with happiness, feelings and purpose. I can't say I live when I don't feel anything but sheer isolation and emptiness. I don't see why I should...
    imjackandimdark imjackandimdark 16-17, M 5 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    life seems so pointless.

    . anyone else feel like this?
    AlexAnimeFreak AlexAnimeFreak 13-15, F 10 Responses Mar 21

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    Since I lost the greatest love of my life I

    have been asked countless times what I did to her that caused this. Unfortunately it is assumed that since I am a man, all men are jerks and thus I did something wrong. I can’t say that this did not offend me because I gave her nothing but kindness, love and respect. I did...
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 5 Responses Aug 13

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    Yes i am depressed i tried

    so hard not to be and to keep optimistic and all that **** but its just not working! I have no reason not to be depressed! Im a senior so i should get high marks but no matter how hard i study i still get a ****** marks! I have no friends and i tried so many times to make some...
    Nobody112 Nobody112 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    From Me To You. A Story From Ep Friend That Motivates Me.

    From me. To you:"Just so you know depression is not a disease or a condition, it's...a state of the mind which coerces you to believe that you are all alone and helpless to the causes around you that is overwhelming your vision of life ahead, it can be beat if you surround...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Dec 17, 2012

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    The Solution

    i climb so high just to fall it doesn't matter after all it pulls me in i try to leave there's just so much i cannot believe i hate this place i want to go although my sadness never shows step by step i slowly ascend where i'll fall will just depend tiny capsules of quick...
    irishnative irishnative 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 14, 2013

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 Apr 23, 2013

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    My hand brushed the pillow lightly,

    and I attempted to describe the feel of it... but all I could think of was that it reminded me of running my hand gently through a woman's hair. Jeff Buckley's rendition of 'Hallelujah' continued to play in the background, as I did my best to describe as delicately as I could...
    accidentalme accidentalme 22-25, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    MarienaMorello MarienaMorello 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    When I need you the most,

    you are not there... :(
    calmbear calmbear 22-25, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    When someone you love is hurt

    and all you can think about is... Yourself? How are you going to cope with this? How it's all affecting you.... Are you a monster? I mean... Am I a monster? ...
    MissLorii MissLorii 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 28

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    Am I Dreaming Or Is It Me?

    I fall asleep to wake up to this dream. This dream of me. This dream of me falling off the track. Of things I can't take back. It's just a list of faces and known places. A heart that cannot be fixed. A mind that's on the fritz. What is this. What is this hole you've dug...
    solomon3020 solomon3020 18-21, M 17 Responses Jun 5

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    I'm sick of everything.

    And I push everyone I care about away because I don't want them to deal with me.... Now I'm pushing away the few people that have stuck around for me.
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    There's so much going on here

    that It'll take a while to type down, so bear with me. One, I'm very depressed because I screw up every little thing. I'm a sixteen year old male in High School, by the way. Anyway, me and my best female friend's boyfriend keep getting into fights because he thinks I'm too...
    NeoBoy NeoBoy 16-17, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Tornapart64 Tornapart64 16-17, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I ******* can't. Every thing ****** me off.

    My family ****** me off, **** ****** me off, I'm actually a pretty chill person but I recently realized how meaningless everything is. I understand that half of what I sat is hormones, so I'm probably just being a little pms trot, but I seriously hate myself, and everything...
    KelleighsLifeSucks KelleighsLifeSucks 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    "What are those?" he asked pointing at the

    scars in my arm. "Battle wounds." I whispered. "Who were you fighting?" "Myself...." - K
    KLawliet KLawliet 16-17, F 10 Responses Sep 5

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    Please Listen,

    hush little angel dont you cry, put down you lighter  and dont say goodbye, cuts will heal,  and you're bruises will fade,   i know it seems dark  but itll be ok, i know you feel alone but im right here, ill hold you real tight,  and chase away your fears,  i love you so...
    onelittlecat onelittlecat 13-15, F 7 Responses Sep 24, 2013

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    Nightshade777 Nightshade777 31-35, M 10 Responses Sep 16

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    Force myself out of bed,

    force a fake smile on my face to make a fake happiness. My entire body aches. I'm not motivated to do anything. I just wanna curl up in a ball and do nothing. I cry way too much and I overthink everything there is to think about. I get headaches all the time from pulling out my...
    DepressingKayla DepressingKayla 16-17, F 4 Responses May 28

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    Its getting to the point to

    where i cant function. Every night i cry.
    CuddlesNSnuggles CuddlesNSnuggles 13-15, M 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    If you don't care if you live

    or not, it's kind of hard to try to make yourself care about things like school...
    TheRouge TheRouge 16-17, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    Stuff Is Making Me Mad

    I've had issues with depression since I was 11. I eventually was put on medication when I wasn't self medicating with other things. I was forced to stay off my mood stabilizer when my mother went all nuts and threatened a lot of BS if I filled my prescription with her insurance...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    DepressingKayla DepressingKayla 16-17, F 13 Responses Jun 27

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15

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    The guidance counselor called my mom

    for the third time now because I talk to my teacher about thing s going on and the counselor. I told them that I started cutting again but thankfully the counselor only told my mom I was thinking about it. My mom was mad. She always asks me what's wrong in a voice you would use...
    LittleBlackSubmarine LittleBlackSubmarine 16-17, M 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I really need help. I'm feeling depressed :(

    and I'm very alone right now because I feel no one cares to talk or to even listen to me . I try my best to care for everybody but nobody could care more for me . It seems as though even my best friend can't deal with me I feel frustrated, trapped, demotivated, dragging a long...
    helpmeplease10 helpmeplease10 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 7

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 99 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    I hate it.. What am i doing in my life?

    ? Yes i was left by the most wonderful person in my life but it never slipped my young mind that i've been destroying it for 3 weeks. When will I stop? I know what i was doing but Why won'"t i stop? This day i would never forget. I woke up and realized that my heart was long gone...
    MutedWords MutedWords 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 16-17, F 67 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    I hope that I go to sleep,

    and never wake up. I have lot of things that many people don't have. But still I feel so hollow and empty. Like every is pretending that i'm there just to be nice to me they don't really care that much. If i could give my live to some poor kid i would, he would appreciate my...
    aimon22 aimon22 22-25, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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