I Am Depressed

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn
    16-17, F
    30 Responses Jun 30, 2014

    Hey, I found this app called Pacifica.

    It might help you if you're anxious or depressed. It keeps track of your mood, allows you to write things down, you can join groups who feel the same as you do, and it has a similar vibe to ep. Check it out!
    Lynnd520 Lynnd520
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 20

    having the worst day of my life.

    just finally coming to terms with my best friends suicide. Hope I can make it through the day. #MissyouforeverMySister
    maya0871 maya0871
    13-15, F
    6 Responses Aug 16, 2015

    I feel like I gave up on life.

    I don't know what to do no more. 😔😢
    aliciaj945 aliciaj945
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 14

    just... flat out depressed.

    my self esteem is at an all time low, yet right now I have more friends than I ever had before. anything they say to me... "you're cute" "we love you" "we'll always be here for you" "you're such a sweet person" ....I don't know. I have a very hard time comprehending the fact...
    imsorryimlonely imsorryimlonely
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 31
    IntenseCookie IntenseCookie
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Mar 11, 2015

    **** everything, if anyone wants to talk to me

    to make sure I'm okay(Which Ik no one will cause no one gives a ****) then pm me
    Jason2111 Jason2111
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Apr 10

    I still haven't went to get help,

    I can't bring myself to do it. Maybe I don't actually care and want to feel this way. I don't see my future, I can't see myself doing anything "happy and productive" in the next 5-10 years if I do live. I'm useless, not really good at anything. Although there are positive sides...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny
    70+, F
    2 Responses Jan 14, 2015

    Sadness is tears after losing a game

    or a broken bone, depression is sobs at 3 am when you're all alone. Sadness makes you blue, depression makes you numb. Sadness loses to happy, depression loses to none. Sadness is the curious neighbor, depression is the unwanted houseguest. Sadness is your hotel room, depression...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 6, 2015

    Today is already a regret,

    I wish I would've never woken up.
    sassycookie sassycookie
    18-21, F
    10 Responses Oct 15, 2015

    These past few weeks have been more of a

    struggle. I can feel myself dipping back into the depths of darkness. How do you motivate yourself to work if you barely have the motivation to live?
    PuckDrop PuckDrop
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Apr 7

    Every time I wake up,

    I try to give myself a reason to not go back to sleep and live my life. This is difficult for me because my dreams tend to be 100x better than real life. 😔
    simpleowl simpleowl
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 14

    First off this is an old story everyone .

    Im happy now . NOVEMBER 26,2014 I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention i just want to put my story out there because I've hid it my...
    FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul
    18-21, F
    22 Responses Nov 26, 2014

    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jul 28, 2014

    Days are becoming more

    and more of a struggle, writing doesn't help anymore, my contemplations of suicide, cutting and other forms of self harm are beginning to rupture my thoughts. I'm unstable. I feel like a flash shell. I can't walk, my legs are paper and my mouth is sealed shut. I hate who I am...
    AnthonysThoughts AnthonysThoughts
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 1

    I really need some advice.

    I'm currently in my last semester of college and I should be graduating in May of this year with a degree. However, I jammed myself with 6 different classes and over loaded myself. I felt overwhelmed and I couldn't do it. With two jobs, 6 classes, an internship, and family I...
    Softballplayer04 Softballplayer04
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 14

    Do you see me?? Do you see how i fake it.

    .? Do you see how i hate it..? Do you see??? I rarely laugh.. i rarely speak face to face with people. Do you know how it is to feel like you got a phobia about people?? How I got a big trust issue?? Do you see that I may have gotten better with studying.. That i can no longer...
    KarasuEm KarasuEm
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jun 11, 2015

    My boyfriend went on vacation

    and we've only been able to send letters for the past 2 months. He just got back and was texting me all sweet, then quit replying. I went on Facebook and saw he has a new girlfriend whom he's in love with.. He changed all his Bios and pictures from me to her.. I feel so...
    Kenzie66 Kenzie66
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Apr 2

    So here we go again,

    after nearly 8 years of feeling ok it's the same old ****. Hopefully it won't take me a year to get over it this time
    Adelh Adelh
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Dec 20, 2015

    My wife went out and cheated on me with one of

    my coworkers last night. I hate my life
    XXXFT XXXFT
    31-35, M
    5 Responses Apr 10

    I just want help.. I can't stop cutting

    and I can't stop thinking about suicide. So I've decided to kill myself tonight.. Goodbye, loves.
    xxAlexBridgerxx xxAlexBridgerxx
    16-17, T
    4 Responses Mar 31

    I have my second therapy appointment tonight.

    Last week it felt great to find someone who understood me. Tonight, I don't even know what I should talk to her about. This whole past week just blends together.
    starling156 starling156
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 12
    Aurena Aurena
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 17

    Today I had a portfolio review in college

    and some other stuff required by my major and my advisor said I was doing really well, so that made me happy. Then I went into a meeting for art honors society, which I haven't gone to yet, and I introduced myself to the leaders. I was in a good mood and feeling proud. I also...
    starling156 starling156
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 7

    I always feel like I don't want to live in this

    world. I am so lonely and there is violence everywhere. I live in an orphanage and my boyfriend just broke up with me. And when I go to a social network I always read that people think girls are just useful for that one thing. And I feel like nobody loves me or will love me...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    11 Responses Aug 15, 2015

    Well, i got a job baby sitting all summer i

    start Tuesday and will only get to go home on the weekends. hopefully itll take my mind off my depression and i can maybe actually start living a little better..just wish me luck ^^
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77
    26-30, F
    5 Responses May 23, 2015
    NogoodElizabeth NogoodElizabeth
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 13
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Aug 6, 2015

    "You don't wanna be depressed do you?

    Then don't" Why the hell didn't I think of that?! All this time the answer was just right in front of me! The answer to all my problems sitting me square in the face and I never thought to just simply not be depressed! Why the FREAK would anyone choose to be depressed if they...
    holygrailofvampires holygrailofvampires
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 7

    I feel like I don't belong in this world.

    I think something is wrong with me. I'm drawn to the darkness and I feel that it has become me. It's embarrassing really how it always comes back to this, but I feel like I am already dead and things wont ever get any better. I'm just here to watch bad things happen to good...
    NoDaveParty NoDaveParty
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Feb 19

    my mind is so messed up I know I need

    professional help but I am too afraid to even go in to the Doctors and book an appointment I know depression lessens self-esteem and self-confidence but I didn't know it could get this bad. when I started getting depressed I promise myself I would never cut and I haven't yet but...
    thelittlekidindiapers thelittlekidindiapers
    16-17, M
    15 Responses Jun 6, 2015

    Well may some of my friends here know

    that I'm in Mexico for the whole summer, which I'm super excited about! I been hanging out with my cousins, been going out downtown, played soccer, walking around, and other stuff. But lately I been starting to feel sad, kinda depressed I would said it. I guess I really do miss...
    Zimry96 Zimry96
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jun 21, 2014
    meliefry meliefry
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Apr 10

    Why can't i just die already?

    Why can't i feel loved? What is the point of living? I am a depressed attention wanting idiot.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 6
    EmanonEvahi EmanonEvahi
    36-40, M
    8 Responses Sep 16, 2014

    I know another depressing story

    but its my forte... Ive recently been going through a downward spiral. I feel sad and i wanna cry and i am but i have no idea why. I slept with a guy who has a girlfriend and just constantly feel numb.... Almost presuicidal which im not saying im gonna kill myself im just...
    imalameo imalameo
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 11

    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne
    18-21
    1 Response Apr 23, 2013

    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD
    18-21, F
    63 Responses Nov 13, 2012

    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Nov 10, 2012

    Everybody is always so fuc*king "fine".

    But we are not. Sometimes, we are hurt and bruised and nearly completely shattered and this, sir, is not what one calls fine... No one knows what's happening and you have to wear that fake smile so you don't hurt others..
    JennyAB JennyAB
    18-21, F
    9 Responses Jan 4, 2015

    Life is just some sick joke.

    I have no drive to do anything. I can't even talk to people because I'm so screwed up. Every day is the same, it's just some stupid routine. The only thing I look forward to everyday is getting to lay in bed. It's literally the only thing I enjoy. I'm scared of...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Oct 14, 2015
    NogoodElizabeth NogoodElizabeth
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Apr 18

    I can't take it, being alone.

    If anyone reads this please talk to me, be my friend. I've posted my contact details at https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dQw4w9WgXcQ Please just come and talk to me.
    Deleted00 Deleted00
    26-30, M
    Apr 21

    https://www.psychologytoday.

    com/blog/the-squeaky-wheel/201307/10-surprising-facts-about-rejection
    dragoncub dragoncub
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Apr 7

    My mother heard me crying in the bathroom.

    I don't know why I got so overwhelmed right now, I just did. She stood outside the locked door. Asks me a few questions I didn't answer. She told me my depression was hurting the family. Then she left.
    annie221 annie221
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 12

    Hello my fellow EPians.

    I'm saddened to see the site go but I'll post one last experience. I first came to this site as a way to express myself anonymously so that if I were judged negatively,it wouldn't affect me so badly. My first story here detailed the depression I was going through. It felt good...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Mar 28

    I want to sleep my days away

    until I have none. I want a drunken stupor that lasts in silence of my own house so I can dwell and be completely lost but without being lost at all. No one to call. No one to see. No one to hear. Just me and my empty thoughts. Alone. In complete bitter silence where my mind...
    Iamvindicated Iamvindicated
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jan 2, 2014

    I just want to be loved .

    .........by someone real ......who doesn't turn out to be fake
    roseblood123 roseblood123
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 5

    everything just keeps getting harder.

    Nothing lasts forever. I'm use to not being happy it's okay . No it's not. I really need help im going to become a drug addict or alcoholic I feel it in my bones
    NogoodElizabeth NogoodElizabeth
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 13

    I am depressed about my son growing up.

    A little background: My husband has a daughter that lives with us full time. Her mother left when she was only 1. I met my husband when she was 4, we got married and had our son when she was almost 6. And from the day we moved in together she was a nightmare, violence, saying...
    proudmama5711 proudmama5711
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 13

    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee
    18-21, F
    13 Responses Sep 4, 2014

    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jul 7, 2014

    i am depressed for many reasons ,

    there are so many reasons i can't name all of em but it is killing me so much idk what other way to solve it besides killing myself which i honestly think its a better way to solve everything else thats in me cause ill be somewhere better and happier .
    babyyyelisa babyyyelisa
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 12

    I am very depressed right now.

    It's funny how you are so happy and having a good life and the next it all starts coming down
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    9 Responses Jan 11

    I am going downhill completely,

    I've fallen asleep in two of my classes in the past week. I cut normally twice a day. People have been talking about depression a lot lately and it upsets me that they can't just except it so instead I have to hide.
    ReactiveDepression ReactiveDepression
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Apr 1

    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    89 Responses Jan 23, 2013

    I need to leave now. I'm a worthless,

    empty, sick individual. Nobody gives a **** about me. It'd be so much easier on everyone if I was dead. I plan to be gone by this time tomorrow
    BrookeSandhurst BrookeSandhurst
    18-21, F
    13 Responses Mar 3, 2015

    Lost my job house truck my kidney.

    I have hiv. Gave my $ to a sister to build a new house so I could stay with her. She kicked me out after I cut my wrists. I feel so done!!!
    Randy802 Randy802
    46-50, M
    1 Response Apr 18

    I just joined experience project

    and I heard it is shutting down, so bad
    nspacedust nspacedust
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 17

    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd
    26-30, M
    8 Responses Sep 5, 2013
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