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I Am Depressed

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    I don't like to use the word "Depressed"

    lightly. But I think I'm allowed to use it now, after not wanting to admit it for months, maybe even years. It's later than 3 am and I'm not asleep, and I can't stop thinking about everything. I know thinking just gets you more thoughts, and that my life is pretty good all...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 3 Responses Jan 29

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    I just had a huge fight with my bf

    and I really need someone to talk to because I'm crying đź‘Ť
    Jason2111 Jason2111 13-15, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Today is already a regret,

    I wish I would've never woken up.
    sassycookie sassycookie 18-21, F 11 Responses Oct 15, 2015

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    I still haven't went to get help,

    I can't bring myself to do it. Maybe I don't actually care and want to feel this way. I don't see my future, I can't see myself doing anything "happy and productive" in the next 5-10 years if I do live. I'm useless, not really good at anything. Although there are positive sides...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 2 Responses Jan 14, 2015

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    I'm depressed because I feel like life isn't

    getting any better . I feel like I'm trapped in this depressing cage of a life . Every time something bad happens I long for the past . The future is uncertain and even scary to me. There's no one I can relate to around me.
    MysticEmerald MysticEmerald 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 29

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    When the rage inside of you turns into sorrow.

    ... Thanks god that I have music
    Rustedarmor Rustedarmor 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm a single mum of 2

    and 36 my husband was emtionaly abusive still is even tho we are apart. I work a reception Job where I sit on my own for 8 hours a day. I have my mum who helps me out with kids a bit but she is so up and down with her moods and anything she does for me she holds against me. My...
    winterusa winterusa 36-40, F 15 hrs ago

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    Do you see me?? Do you see how i fake it.

    .? Do you see how i hate it..? Do you see??? I rarely laugh.. i rarely speak face to face with people. Do you know how it is to feel like you got a phobia about people?? How I got a big trust issue?? Do you see that I may have gotten better with studying.. That i can no longer...
    KarasuEm KarasuEm 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 11, 2015

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15, 2014

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn 16-17, F 30 Responses Jun 30, 2014

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    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 18-21, F 64 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    hi am very very depressed hi do need love in my

    heart my nasty family have depress me my brother and his daughter
    Kittymad1968 Kittymad1968 46-50, M Jan 28

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    I always feel like I don't want to live in this

    world. I am so lonely and there is violence everywhere. I live in an orphanage and my boyfriend just broke up with me. And when I go to a social network I always read that people think girls are just useful for that one thing. And I feel like nobody loves me or will love me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 12 Responses Aug 15, 2015

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    Life hasn't been great the last while.

    .. Well, it's had some amazing parts, and I guess I enjoy those. But I go through most days just wishing I was dead instead... I push these thoughts away. I've dealt with and overcome depression before. But this is different... Then, I was waiting for life to start. Now, I feel...
    John1Freeman John1Freeman 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I need someone to talk to,

    my ki-k is Hunter221133664455
    Jacob2111 Jacob2111 13-15, M 2 days ago

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    I need to leave now. I'm a worthless,

    empty, sick individual. Nobody gives a **** about me. It'd be so much easier on everyone if I was dead. I plan to be gone by this time tomorrow
    BrookeSandhurst BrookeSandhurst 16-17, F 14 Responses Mar 3, 2015

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 28, 2014

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    Nothing ever goes right

    for me it seems like. My asshat husband is going to get everything in the divorce while I'll get almost nothing. He was emotionally abusive to me, controlling and just a **** all around. Now that I'm finally free of him I'll get no justice and he'll get everything! How is that...
    GoldenHeart69 GoldenHeart69 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    I'm so good at hiding it,

    I end up believing that I'm not depressed... then the feeling of depression hits me and I just crash and sabotage myself. #sigh
    PreciselyUnknown PreciselyUnknown 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    The worst part about feeling

    so terrible is desperately wanting to ask people for help but not doing so because you know there's nothing they can do.
    istillknownothing istillknownothing 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Sadness is tears after losing a game

    or a broken bone, depression is sobs at 3 am when you're all alone. Sadness makes you blue, depression makes you numb. Sadness loses to happy, depression loses to none. Sadness is the curious neighbor, depression is the unwanted houseguest. Sadness is your hotel room, depression...
    BabyBlondeOne BabyBlondeOne 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 6, 2015

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    having the worst day of my life.

    just finally coming to terms with my best friends suicide. Hope I can make it through the day. #MissyouforeverMySister
    maya0871 maya0871 13-15, F 6 Responses Aug 16, 2015

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    Everybody is always so fuc*king "fine".

    But we are not. Sometimes, we are hurt and bruised and nearly completely shattered and this, sir, is not what one calls fine... No one knows what's happening and you have to wear that fake smile so you don't hurt others..
    JennyAB JennyAB 16-17, F 9 Responses Jan 4, 2015

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    I want to sleep my days away

    until I have none. I want a drunken stupor that lasts in silence of my own house so I can dwell and be completely lost but without being lost at all. No one to call. No one to see. No one to hear. Just me and my empty thoughts. Alone. In complete bitter silence where my mind...
    Iamvindicated Iamvindicated 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    I figured out how to fix it.

    I have to change. But in order to understand what I have to change I have to be able to identify what's causing me pain. My pain seems to stem from hope. Hope that one day some person will care enough to help me. I have prayed, I have reached out to family, friends, and even...
    imjustaghost imjustaghost 26-30, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I wish I hadn't had so much to drink at my

    friend's birthday party. I got very upset later because I had way too much, possibly the most I've ever had. I think it was because I'd been drinking occasionally for the past month or two and not getting upset at all, so I thought I could drink a lot like my friends and be...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 29

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    Went to the gym the other night

    and took a look in the mirror. I've been working out for a while and I have a pretty nice body but through those years I've tried working on my face but that's still ugly. I wish I could take my head off and give my body to someone else with a prettier face so at least it could...
    rotimi12 rotimi12 18-21 1 Response Jan 28

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    haileeilenenanderson haileeilenenanderson 13-15, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    IntenseCookie IntenseCookie 16-17, F 6 Responses Mar 11, 2015

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    Life is just some sick joke.

    I have no drive to do anything. I can't even talk to people because I'm so screwed up. Every day is the same, it's just some stupid routine. The only thing I look forward to everyday is getting to lay in bed. It's literally the only thing I enjoy. I'm scared of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Oct 14, 2015

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    If we are depressed it is to lead us back to

    the light; and when we're there in the light we can give the light to others!
    LoveIsWithinYou LoveIsWithinYou 26-30, M Jan 27

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    I suffer from hyperhidrosis

    or excessive sweating. Does anyone else in the UK suffer from this?
    pbarn pbarn 31-35, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    Im just going to stay away from ep

    for a while. I would still log in almost everyday. I just need a break because this is too much that I can't take.. I'm working on getting better.. it's not like anybody will miss me lol.. I will come back when I start feeling better
    sparklingillusion sparklingillusion 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    My heart can only take

    so much. I don't know what to do to escape the pain. My thoughts frighten me.
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 7 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    I randomly came across this website

    when I was looking for ways to assuage my unhappiness. I have been feeling depressed for the past year and I couldn't heal myself with everything that's been going on in school. I don't have anyone to talk to about it either, because I left everyone. I have family, but my family...
    Silh0uettes Silh0uettes 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    Does anyone ever feel miserable they are poor?

    I am not dirt poor but don't have it as lucky as everyone else I read about on groups in apart of. There are things I want but can't get them. I've never been on holiday and i wish I could go. There are art supplies I need, can't afford them. Want a new bible because mine is...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 46-50 1 Response a week ago

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    whall1971 whall1971 41-45, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    anyone get to a point of depression they feel

    nothing? i do. when im feeling a really bad depression moment i have no emotions at all, i dont feel anything not hunger or thirst, not happiness or sadness, i just feel empty. i feel like it more than i like to admit, when i am feeling like it, i dont feel amny motivation to do...
    rebornlover101 rebornlover101 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 29

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    So here we go again,

    after nearly 8 years of feeling ok it's the same old ****. Hopefully it won't take me a year to get over it this time
    Adelh Adelh 22-25, F 8 Responses Dec 20, 2015

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 95 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    EmanonEvahi EmanonEvahi 36-40, M 9 Responses Sep 16, 2014

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