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I Am Depressed

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    I'm not sure how much people will actually read

    this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention i just want to put my story out there because I've hid it my whole life . I may just be 17 but here's my life story so far ! Let's start it off to...
    AlissaCupcakes AlissaCupcakes 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    my ex broke up with me

    and then went on to someone new three weeks later after 4 years. He knowingly played with my heart for three months, in the end I lost out and am depressed and hurt over this. How you can do that to someone that you loved for 4 years I don't understand.
    ll77 ll77 36-40, F 15 Responses Aug 11

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    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 16-17, F 67 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Nightshade777 Nightshade777 31-35, M 10 Responses Sep 16

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    They do so much for other people

    while they only tell me they love me. They keep promises they make to other people but always break the ones they make to me. They make other people happy yet become angry at me if I get upset. It hurts. I'm so tired. I just want to disappear. My chest hurts. I just want the...
    kwellanique kwellanique 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I feel like my problems are minuscule

    after reading some of the posts on here, it makes me feel bad for being sad... I can’t help it though, I feel so worthless. I just turned twenty and I didn’t do the best in high school, I didn’t take super advanced classes, I didn’t get all A’s and I graduated a year...
    thecap246 thecap246 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Not having a mother because she died last year,

    waiting for college exam results, wondering what I'll do in the holidays and worrying about what the future holds for me is not a nice feeling.
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333 22-25, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I made this, Opinions?

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=43ne2L9WXmU
    prettybrowneyes1993 prettybrowneyes1993 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    As I type this, I'm crying a river of tears.

    .................I don't know what to do at this point.........I've been trying so hard to prove to my girlfriend how much I love her and I feel like she doesn't even trust me :'( I sometimes feel like she doesn't even want to talk to me anymore about anything. I feel as if I'm...
    SgtRecker97 SgtRecker97 16-17, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    From Me To You. A Story From Ep Friend That Motivates Me.

    From me. To you:"Just so you know depression is not a disease or a condition, it's...a state of the mind which coerces you to believe that you are all alone and helpless to the causes around you that is overwhelming your vision of life ahead, it can be beat if you surround...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Dec 17, 2012

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    marianda01 marianda01 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 12

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    It's Thanksgiving. I keep remembering how my

    family is not like others. we don't enjoy big family dinners, at least not like 10 years ago. I feel lonely, I feel like cutting. I just need someone to show me what Thanksgiving was like those years ago. I don't like myself, I don't like where I am right now. I am not even in...
    ash2533 ash2533 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    I've been depressed for about 2-3 years now,

    funny thing is that if one was to see me normally, I am a very social person. I like talking to people, and making them laugh I guess. Back in my high school everyone loved me. But in the end, I always felt alone. I've really never opened up to people, my inner feelings are...
    JaRuss JaRuss 18-21 4 days ago

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    SheIsBroken SheIsBroken 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    It's gotten so old.. I've been considering

    trying to od being trying to hang myself or slit my wrists didn't go as I'd planned, but then I think about my loved ones.. I realize it's selfish and weak minded of me and I most definitely haven't accomplished anything I want to in life just yet, so here I am again, meloncholy...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 1 day ago

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    Bullied12 Bullied12 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    contact me if you want to talk.

    I'm here for you. 2ndchance2savealife
    GayboySammy94 GayboySammy94 18-21 5 days ago

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    Since I lost the greatest love of my life I

    have been asked countless times what I did to her that caused this. Unfortunately it is assumed that since I am a man, all men are jerks and thus I did something wrong. I can’t say that this did not offend me because I gave her nothing but kindness, love and respect. I did...
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 5 Responses Aug 13

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    People where you live,

    " the little prince said, "grow five thousand roses in one garden... yet they don't find what they're looking for... And yet what they're looking for could be found in a single rose, or a little water..." And the little prince added, "But eyes are blind. You have to look with...
    ChangingFaces5 ChangingFaces5 22-25 1 day ago

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    Alone In This World

    i am alone.I need someone who understnds my feelings right now.I have many friends but they nevr gona understnd what im feeling is,nt even my familiy.I dnt knw y everythng has been changd.I wnt everythng to b same as befor.Im tryng my bst to b strong bt y cnt any1 understnds it.Y...
    MagiCizMe MagiCizMe 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    Well may some of my friends here know

    that I'm in Mexico for the whole summer, which I'm super excited about! I been hanging out with my cousins, been going out downtown, played soccer, walking around, and other stuff. But lately I been starting to feel sad, kinda depressed I would said it. I guess I really do miss...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 21

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    Soldiergirl3 Soldiergirl3 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I really poorly, in my head.

    I need help. I know I am not the only person with depression, or bi-polar, or whatever I have, but I feel like I am. I need someone so I am not so alone. I am sad and I cannot get better.
    LostApothecary LostApothecary 16-17, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I just hate feeling so alone.

    I hate feeling like no matter what i do im just never enough for anyone or anyone special to someone. I hate why i always seem to be pushed to the side or overlooked or someone always changing their mind about me. I cant stand feeling so unwanted anymore sometimes i just worried...
    Lilcrazyducky93 Lilcrazyducky93 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    Life seems so pointless to me sometimes.

    What the hell are we here for. To make a difference? Sure. But why? Why are we here? What is our purpose? What’s my purpose? What am I supposed to be doing? I feel like my life is just one big fat blob and I absolutely hate living it. I have no purpose. I have no motivation. I...
    macynicole96 macynicole96 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Iv loved iv lost iv died iv lost all

    that matters to me and have nothing to live for have not much to look up to are be glad about all I do is loss and play the game of cool lame ot weird hot or ugly successful or failure I don't have much always deppressed but don't show it I try to be happy parents don't...
    SCARFACEkyle SCARFACEkyle 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    Just sitting here listening to music wondering

    what to do with my life! Two years and I will be off to college if I make it that far! I battle depression and I have high anxiety, I also have suicidal thoughts often! I am questioning everything! I feel like I'm failing at life! I have no true friends, they are all just people...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    What can I do pictures of you still make me

    cry Trying to live without your love, it's so hard to do Some nights I'll wake up I'll look at your pillow Hoping that I'll see you there But I get up each day Not much to say I've nowhere to go Loneliness fills me up inside 'cause I'm missing you So if you'll give us a chance...
    Lex2420 Lex2420 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't want to be depressed.

    I just want to be happy. My mom doesn't let me go out the house nor hang out with friends when I ask her if I can go she flips out and she says that she's not crazy to let me go out with friends. My brother talked to my mom about letting me go out with friends and she said no...
    Delssy Delssy 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    sometimes i just get in these moods

    and i dont know what to do. i feel like no one likes me and no one would care if i just disappeared. i dont like these thoughts.
    nadia50 nadia50 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I Do Know What It Feels Like. ...

    I do know what it feels like. I'm not there right now, but I certainly know what it feels like to not want to wake up again. Its a dark, dark, distant place and I could never wish that on anyone else. Its hard **** but you can get through it. The worse thing is it that you...
    pacwoman pacwoman 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 8, 2007

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    I want to sleep my days away

    until I have none. I want a drunken stupor that lasts in silence of my own house so I can dwell and be completely lost but without being lost at all. No one to call. No one to see. No one to hear. Just me and my empty thoughts. Alone. In complete bitter silence where my mind...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 2

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    When you lack motivation

    because you've accepted defeat...
    xoxoCharlierose xoxoCharlierose 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 2

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    Have you ever had those friends

    that tell you they will be with you forever...and as they start slipping away and fading from your life they still bother to tell you that they are there for you..... Yeah. It sucks. And when I need a friend the most I'm all alone... My best friend lives 3000 miles away I haven...
    GoodbyesandHellos GoodbyesandHellos 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 22-25, F 7 Responses Jul 9

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    Well I might be depressed.

    ..I might just be going insane...perhaps it's both...
    sturmgewher44 sturmgewher44 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    LostApothecary LostApothecary 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    When your thinking you made your bestfriend

    feeling awful about herself and just in general doesnt makes anything better
    IrwinsScars IrwinsScars 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 2

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    Stuff Is Making Me Mad

    I've had issues with depression since I was 11. I eventually was put on medication when I wasn't self medicating with other things. I was forced to stay off my mood stabilizer when my mother went all nuts and threatened a lot of BS if I filled my prescription with her insurance...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    The Solution

    i climb so high just to fall it doesn't matter after all it pulls me in i try to leave there's just so much i cannot believe i hate this place i want to go although my sadness never shows step by step i slowly ascend where i'll fall will just depend tiny capsules of quick...
    irishnative irishnative 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 14, 2013

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 28

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 13-15, F 14 Responses Sep 4

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    just got back from Thanksgiving dinner with

    siblings. they had their children there and none of mine were there. all i could think about was my children and what fun they could have. every time i do anything where they might have fun i start thinking what if they could be here....look at my brother's children, that used...
    turnpike1971 turnpike1971 41-45, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 99 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    It's hard to snap out of it

    and i doubt friends and fam really get it i try to be less depressing as to not always annoy people with my moods but thats easier said than done i feel alone and isolated most of the time misunderstood which only makes things worse and im already hard enough on my self so i...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 30

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15

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    I hate the fact that I'm the one

    that asks people if they're ok, if they're alright, if they need anything I'll be there, if they want a shoulder to cry on, I'm there, if you need someone to talk to, I'm there, if you need comfort, I'm there, if your feeling sad, I'm there. But when I am in need, or need...
    RickaylaBeard RickaylaBeard 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    It's only been two days

    and already it's killing me :"'( My girlfriend broke up with me and ever since, I've been going through absolute Hell :"( I ******* love this girl to death and I'd do anything for her to come back :""( She was the only source of love and protection I'l