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I Am Depressed

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    Have you ever felt that void in your chest,

    where nothing makes you warm or happy, everything just hurts? And you know what would make you feel better but you can't have it and that just makes the void darker and it gets so bad that you can't function normally, or even put on a fake smile anymore? Yeah... That's where I...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15, 2014

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    I know how to fake a smile

    even when I'm really low. Faking a smile is a good trick that helps me hide it. I don't want any stupid therapy
    VolenoieFoote VolenoieFoote 31-35, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    i cheated for a month,

    he didnt want sex, he didn't even look at me i told him i cheated and he said we should work on "us" then he drove four hours to miami and had sex with his ex (who he dated for 7 years and couldn't get over) i just dunno what to do im so hurt, as hypocritical as it sounds. i...
    ayeallycat ayeallycat 22-25, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    suffering with ibs and gerd.

    I recently been struggling since age 17 with these problems. I almost dropped out of college because ibs and gerd but I stuck through it but in my last years of college I showed noticeable signs of illness such as having pale skin and lost weight. after graduating I understood...
    megabear64 megabear64 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    Went to my job, that I quit like 2 days ago,

    and I did not want to be there. I felt like I had let everyone down, I couldn't look any of my old coworkers in the face and I stayed quiet the entire time. I was so anxious, I wanted to break down crying. And to make matters worse, I want to tell my mom and close family friend...
    WolfsLullaby WolfsLullaby 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I am 41, single, and live with my mother.

    Did I scare you away yet? This is how I got here. From birth to age 5, my mom stayed home with me every day while my dad was at work. She noticed something unusual. Whenever she went into another room, I went right with her. She would tell me to stay and play with my toys, but I...
    leopardz leopardz 41-45, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Sadness is tears after losing a game

    or a broken bone, depression is sobs at 3 am when you're all alone. Sadness makes you blue, depression makes you numb. Sadness loses to happy, depression loses to none. Sadness is the curious neighbor, depression is the unwanted houseguest. Sadness is your hotel room, depression...
    BabyBlondeOne BabyBlondeOne 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 6

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    This is the first time

    that I have admitted this to myself in the two years that I've been this way. And I don't care if this information makes you cringe when you read it. It's a sad reflection on the world that I haven't admitted this because I worry that people will just think I'm being dramatic...
    Littlemissshy25 Littlemissshy25 46-50, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I've suffered mild to severe depression

    for most of my adult life and ever since I was 16.
    cifer21 cifer21 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    I can't sleep at night

    because my body hurts. I've been depressed more then once in my life, but it's never hurt this much before...
    PoindexterFan PoindexterFan 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm starting to think about death a lot.

    I wouldn't say I was suicidal but I'm definitely starting to think about who would miss me if I was gone and what would happen to all my stuff. I accept that I need help because I don't want to die just yet even if depression tells me I do. I want to fight this.
    someonelikeyou9 someonelikeyou9 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    The entire world thinks your worthless.

    You have nothing good going for you. Today you are 23 and yet you are still to amount to anything. You're a coward, you'll never commit to anything, including the ending you justify so well. You're a shame to your father who taught you so well, the man that couldn't understand...
    muhmullet muhmullet 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    I need to leave now. I'm a worthless,

    empty, sick individual. Nobody gives a **** about me. It'd be so much easier on everyone if I was dead. I plan to be gone by this time tomorrow
    BrookeSandhurst BrookeSandhurst 16-17, F 13 Responses Mar 3

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    I am depressed because my friends have been

    leaving me out recently. I have been covering my sadness by smiling and pretending nothing happened when inside, I am crumbling down. I have trust issues too because of how I was bullied last year and everytime im having a normal conversation with someone, a flashback happens...
    kaonashiaway kaonashiaway 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I been feeling Very bad.

    I don't know what to do, I feel like I'm falling in a deep dark hole. I don't know, I just don't know. my thoughts are too much, I'm sick of thinking I can't listen to music, I feel like everything reminds me of something sad I keep crying my eyes are so puffy and my head is...
    Tamona35 Tamona35 36-40, F 1 day ago

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 28, 2014

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    I just want to die. I tried

    so long to find happiness and now I don't even want it, I just don't want to live at all. I have a healthy family who love me and it makes me even more upset because I know people would die to be in my position which is the reason why I hate myself more. I want to go sleep and...
    gracexxx gracexxx 16-17, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    Stuff Is Making Me Mad

    I've had issues with depression since I was 11. I eventually was put on medication when I wasn't self medicating with other things. I was forced to stay off my mood stabilizer when my mother went all nuts and threatened a lot of BS if I filled my prescription with her insurance...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    babyhaleigh95 babyhaleigh95 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    A friend of mine passed away yesterday.

    Her life was taken by someone who said he loved her. .....this world disgusts me But at the same time I don't not fully blame the man responsible. The world itself is dark and wicked. It leads us down dark paths. Eventually some of us travel down long enough to believe we...
    imjustaghost imjustaghost 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm getting tired of trying to fit your

    description of that boy who's so fake and who's so fiction. Wake up, your mind is stuck somewhere in a dream. Give me back all of my kisses, I should've kept them for somebody else. Baby, I'm real. Maybe you need to get over yourself. I'm not that naive, there's more underneath...
    Ruinsky Ruinsky 16-17 4 days ago

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I went to mcdonald's

    and they got rid of the minion toys and I didn't get the one that I wanted. It really is affecting me because it was my favorite one to look at. Now I can't ever touch it I'm so sorry life. I want to die so much you people don't know how much I love minions. I cried when I got...
    funnygirl90 funnygirl90 70+, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I think people often underestimate what

    depression does to a person. I go from externalization/narcissism in dissociative states to internalization/depression. In other words; I go back and forth from deluding myself and avoiding it, to not deluding myself, which gives room for the slow unbearable process of...
    Outdoctrination Outdoctrination 18-21 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I want to sleep my days away

    until I have none. I want a drunken stupor that lasts in silence of my own house so I can dwell and be completely lost but without being lost at all. No one to call. No one to see. No one to hear. Just me and my empty thoughts. Alone. In complete bitter silence where my mind...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    Well, i got a job baby sitting all summer i

    start Tuesday and will only get to go home on the weekends. hopefully itll take my mind off my depression and i can maybe actually start living a little better..just wish me luck ^^
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 7 Responses May 23

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 16-17, F 13 Responses Sep 4, 2014

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    My heart can only take

    so much. I don't know what to do to escape the pain. My thoughts frighten me.
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 8 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    so like idk its every day,

    and sometimes I'll feel okay ya know? like watching stuff i like or listening to music or night vale... but all the other times when im not escaping reality i just feel empty. and then i feel like a jerk because im soooo lucky! I have a good house, with wifi, and good friends...
    baldwinbitch baldwinbitch 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Icrossmyheart Icrossmyheart 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    It really annoys me when people say just get

    over your depression. Just think happy thoughts and be positive and it will be better? Think positive! Really? People with depression want happiness and if we could just will it we would. People who don't have it and I resent being told to get over it! **** off
    cmabbott14 cmabbott14 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I was depressed continuously

    for about a year and a half and now I get sudden waves of depression and my thoughts go wack and I start thinking of doing things I know are wrong and I wish this wouldn't happen but it does.
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    It sucks that no one understands how i am

    feeling right now. How depressed and suicidal I'm feeling and I wish my boyfriend and my family would take it serious cause right now I can't hold on any longer and I can just feel myself drifting into a black hole. Once it's done I can't come back nor do I want to. Just hope...
    BrokenGiggles BrokenGiggles 18-21, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    IntenseCookie IntenseCookie 16-17, F 7 Responses Mar 11

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    This is the hardest part I believe.

    Trying to explain how we do want help but at the same time want to be left alone. How after such a long time, we have fallen in love with our sadness and have convinced ourselves that without it we are nothing. We have come to identify ourselves with it; it's our comfort zone...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I still haven't went to get help,

    I can't bring myself to do it. Maybe I don't actually care and want to feel this way. I don't see my future, I can't see myself doing anything "happy and productive" in the next 5-10 years if I do live. I'm useless, not really good at anything. Although there are positive sides...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 3 Responses Jan 14

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    my mind is so messed up I know I need

    professional help but I am too afraid to even go in to the Doctors and book an appointment I know depression lessens self-esteem and self-confidence but I didn't know it could get this bad. when I started getting depressed I promise myself I would never cut and I haven't yet but...
    thelittlekidindiapers thelittlekidindiapers 16-17, M 21 Responses Jun 6

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    First off this is an old story everyone .

    Im happy now . NOVEMBER 26,2014 I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention i just want to put my story out there because I've hid it my...
    FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul 18-21, F 27 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    everythingispale everythingispale 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 1

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn 16-17, F 30 Responses Jun 30, 2014

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    Since I lost the greatest love of my life I

    have been asked countless times what I did to her that caused this. Unfortunately it is assumed that since I am a man, all men are jerks and thus I did something wrong. I can’t say that this did not offend me because I gave her nothing but kindness, love and respect. I did...
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 4 Responses Aug 13, 2014

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    When you lack motivation

    because you've accepted defeat...
    xoxoCharlierose xoxoCharlierose 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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