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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 7

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    marianda01 marianda01 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 12

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    so yesterday i went to see a specialist about

    my eye sight to see if i a, safe to drive. and i was told in 4 years since i was last there ,y eye sight has deteriorated substantially my left eye i admit i have never really been able to see out of so i didnt notice if it had gotten worse or not. but it seems my right eye has...
    Anth9012 Anth9012 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    The Solution

    i climb so high just to fall it doesn't matter after all it pulls me in i try to leave there's just so much i cannot believe i hate this place i want to go although my sadness never shows step by step i slowly ascend where i'll fall will just depend tiny capsules of quick...
    irishnative irishnative 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 14, 2013

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 99 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    From Me To You. A Story From Ep Friend That Motivates Me.

    From me. To you:"Just so you know depression is not a disease or a condition, it's...a state of the mind which coerces you to believe that you are all alone and helpless to the causes around you that is overwhelming your vision of life ahead, it can be beat if you surround...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Dec 17, 2012

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15

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    I'm not fighting it anymore though,

    people all around me kept saying why would you not eat more? Why'd you lost so much weight Are you stressed? It's no longer a diet for them, I'm probably losing weight too fast now. But well...that's the whole point I'm no longer fighting depression I'm surrendering.
    Concerto Concerto 22-25, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I hate being fat.This is

    so depressing :(
    Sweetaugust Sweetaugust 16-17, F 7 Responses 5 days ago

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    If that picture isn't me,

    I don't know what is.
    TheRouge TheRouge 16-17, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    My teacher wants me to take happy pills,

    so I will be happy in class Like Shut the **** up, your class is more depressing than my mind
    kittykira kittykira 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Watching the film the Great Gatsby

    why would there be scene where the killer puts the gun in his mouth and shot himself? Why do I have to see these scenes of people killing themselves? I can't stand it, it reminds me of my uncle he killed himself the same way. He doesn't even ask for help it was only because...
    Concerto Concerto 22-25, F 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I don't do anything and just eat very little

    everyone else compliments me and ask for tips. What to do? Should I just be honest to them and say, try depression and it'll solve it all :/ I will never be able to be loved by the ones I like and that's a fact I can't live with.
    Concerto Concerto 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I dont have a good realationship with my family.

    My sister hates me. We have never been close and we are basically like strangers if she does talk to me its never anything nice
    lovelace7 lovelace7 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    So my boyfriend decided I'm not worth the

    trouble after all and that he needed a break. I'm swearing off relationships. Humans are always a disappointment. Wish I could go to Mars or maybe Saturn. I wouldn't have to deal with this :(
    kwellanique kwellanique 13-15, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    do you know what its like to feel like you're

    in a world all alone and screaming for help but no one will come , i feel so dead i cant even put in words how i feel . people bully and judge others all the time but then when someone commits suicide they ask why? a simple smile can change someones day entirely. i feel so used...
    oilchick1488 oilchick1488 18-21, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    13AndMiserable 13AndMiserable 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 13-15, F 14 Responses Sep 4

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    I seriously have no idea

    why I am writing this down. I've told a few people that I haven't been feeling well, and some even know how depressed I am. All they could say was "I hope you pull through" or "I'm glad you told me, because I'm sure that telling people will help". It doesn't help. Nothing...
    Esturrr Esturrr 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 28

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    To be honest sometimes it feels good being

    depressed. Being in my own personal world, keeping all my draining thoughts to myself and having nothing to care about. It's nice being all alone having no one to disturb you. I feel dead but in a good way. It makes me a better person because I find my inner peace and calmness...
    anonamanda001 anonamanda001 16-17, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Yay!! I'm getting depressed again.

    I ******* hate the winter and fall because I get too damn depressed and I never go out!! I just stay inside in the dark 24/7!! Fuckk my life
    ItsRyyman ItsRyyman 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Since I lost the greatest love of my life I

    have been asked countless times what I did to her that caused this. Unfortunately it is assumed that since I am a man, all men are jerks and thus I did something wrong. I can’t say that this did not offend me because I gave her nothing but kindness, love and respect. I did...
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 5 Responses Aug 13

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    I'm sure I'll be forgotten

    as quickly as my cries for help.
    Enveleyna Enveleyna 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    lets just say the last 3 years of my life,

    have been like walking a tight-rope.
    sonofsasquatch sonofsasquatch 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 1

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    My life thus far, explained in years of age: 1.

    I cannot remember. For my first birthday I got a cake in the shape of a baseball, based on the few photos from my childhood I managed to acquire. 2. I can remember only vaguely. We lived in a different house then. Our father worked at Safeway at the time, and often came home...
    EthanFisher EthanFisher 16-17 3 Responses Jun 24

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    my ex broke up with me

    and then went on to someone new three weeks later after 4 years. He knowingly played with my heart for three months, in the end I lost out and am depressed and hurt over this. How you can do that to someone that you loved for 4 years I don't understand.
    ll77 ll77 36-40, F 15 Responses Aug 11

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    I was made redundant in August

    and I feel absolutely down in the dumps. I've had 4 unsuccessful and time-wasting interviews. My mom is very supportive she says not worry and to just keep trying and l'll find something but I'm really getting fed up. I spend most my days looking for work and I'm really...
    FierrrrceNadia FierrrrceNadia 18-21, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    Enveleyna Enveleyna 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    "What are those?" he asked pointing at the

    scars in my arm. "Battle wounds." I whispered. "Who were you fighting?" "Myself...." - K
    KLawliet KLawliet 16-17, F 9 Responses Sep 5

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    Nightshade777 Nightshade777 31-35, M 10 Responses Sep 16

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 Apr 23, 2013

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 16-17, F 67 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Am I Dreaming Or Is It Me?

    I fall asleep to wake up to this dream. This dream of me. This dream of me falling off the track. Of things I can't take back. It's just a list of faces and known places. A heart that cannot be fixed. A mind that's on the fritz. What is this. What is this hole you've dug...
    solomon3020 solomon3020 18-21, M 17 Responses Jun 5

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    Sometimes I wish I could just shut everyone

    and everything out . I don't know why
    Lonelyone6 Lonelyone6 46-50, F 8 Responses Jul 18

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 9

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    Sweetaugust Sweetaugust 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I Do Know What It Feels Like. ...

    I do know what it feels like. I'm not there right now, but I certainly know what it feels like to not want to wake up again. Its a dark, dark, distant place and I could never wish that on anyone else. Its hard **** but you can get through it. The worse thing is it that you...
    pacwoman pacwoman 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 8, 2007

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    I am constantly trying to find a purpose in

    life... And I believe one of the reasons I want to get married is to help give me that sense of purpose by caring for a wife and kids. I feel like that is a terrible reason.
    goodloot3 goodloot3 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    life seems so pointless.

    . anyone else feel like this?
    AlexAnimeFreak AlexAnimeFreak 13-15, F 11 Responses Mar 21

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    The trend of experiencing depression

    after stress is getting old
    PuckDrop PuckDrop 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    I just lost my job, I have responsibilities

    that I have to pay for and I'm scared. Having fiancé issues, and I don't want to leave my couch. I guess I just need a pep talk and some caring advise from
    StrongFeirce StrongFeirce 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Ex girlfriend is single

    and secretly texting me again. Not sure what to make of it. Depressed again. :p
    System113 System113 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Right now I feel so lightheaded

    and empty such a weird combination of feelings. How did I end up to be the way I am now? Perhaps being on EP is not good for me, perhaps it has lead me to self-harm, starving myself and also becoming an attention w****. But has given me a great lesson that finally I know I am...
    Concerto Concerto 22-25, F 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    I want to crawl under a rock

    and just die. I hate my life.
    JJjenniejones JJjenniejones 41-45, F 9 Responses 5 days ago

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    whats the point of life?

    !! no im not suicide i just wanna know what the point of life is and why should i care so much?!
    kissthechef kissthechef 18-21, F 8 Responses 6 days ago

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    Please Listen,

    hush little angel dont you cry, put down you lighter  and dont say goodbye, cuts will heal,  and you're bruises will fade,   i know it seems dark  but itll be ok, i know you feel alone but im right here, ill hold you real tight,  and chase away your fears,  i love you so...
    onelittlecat onelittlecat 13-15, F 7 Responses Sep 24, 2013

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    I want to sleep my days away

    until I have none. I want a drunken stupor that lasts in silence of my own house so I can dwell and be completely lost but without being lost at all. No one to call. No one to see. No one to hear. Just me and my empty thoughts. Alone. In complete bitter silence where my mind...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 2

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    So much is going on in my head right now.

    ... I do not know how to handle it :( I really wish I had someone who I could just rant to :(
    kenziebear69 kenziebear69 22-25, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Been a long battle...

    I dunno if I can keep going on...
    PrincessPayt PrincessPayt 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    i really need help because i am depressed.

    would be nice to talk to a girl
    unlovednbroken unlovednbroken 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Some of you may have seen my last post about

    social anxiety. This makes life very hard in the day to day. I am also falling behind in school which also makes the day to day very difficult because of the looming threat of failure. I was just wondering if it gets better?
    nwrner nwrner 16-17, M 4 days ago

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F