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I Am Depressed

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn 16-17, F 33 Responses Jun 30, 2014

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    burn me alive while you're at it,

    you managed to ***** me of everything i ever had just for some ****!ng entertainment purposes. I hope you're ****!ng happy.
    CaraBlossom CaraBlossom 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I want to describe what I'm feeling,

    but the words just won't come. I'm alone and sad, begging for someone to hold me and tell me I have worth. That I don't need to slit my wrists, not tonight. I need to describe this feeling but it seems there is not way to describe depression correctly..
    Sarabell00 Sarabell00 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 98 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    Since I lost the greatest love of my life I

    have been asked countless times what I did to her that caused this. Unfortunately it is assumed that since I am a man, all men are jerks and thus I did something wrong. I can’t say that this did not offend me because I gave her nothing but kindness, love and respect. I did...
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 4 Responses Aug 13, 2014

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    I was supposed to get up half an hour ago.

    Instead, I'm still in bed willing myself to just sit up. Getting out of bed is so hard right now.
    someonelikeyou9 someonelikeyou9 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 16-17, F 13 Responses Sep 4, 2014

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    Im not sure what im looking

    for well i guess support.. Not that it'll make a difference no offense but the two people i wish i could get support from were not talking anymore.It sucks when your alone it's just really you and you can cry about it,about the people u care about not caring anymore but it...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    If we knew how our life would plan out,

    would that make it easier or harder? Would we prepare for what's coming, or would we just run? We all get this feeling, this moment of regret, fear and sadness. This moment can either last for a minute or a lifetime. We promise ourselves that we are going to change, that we are...
    lifeofhope lifeofhope 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    I still haven't went to get help,

    I can't bring myself to do it. Maybe I don't actually care and want to feel this way. I don't see my future, I can't see myself doing anything "happy and productive" in the next 5-10 years if I do live. I'm useless, not really good at anything. Although there are positive sides...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 4 Responses Jan 14

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    I had an accident at work,

    i burn with oil yesterday, it was an accident, is true, but today i talk with the psychologist, yes i wanna die, do You want to live forever? I wanna die in Many years ago... No, Please i Dont want happy pils, i just wanna heal myself No, Im not retarded, Im not 100% lonely...
    Mysorrow Mysorrow 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Time's passage astonishes me.

    It's not so much a progression as it is something that just keeps getting swiped out from under me. Or, sometimes, I just am astonished at how I'm still around...like it was a miracle. Except, not really. More like a miracle of bad luck.
    Ewoo Ewoo 16-17 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Everyone around me DOESNT seem to understand.

    . I told my friend "im getting 1,300 dollars im looking for a car-", without letting me finish what I was going to say he instantly cuts me off to say "well give my dad 500 out of that" See im overpaying someone to sleep in a room that's already occupied, and on top of that his...
    NotBiasedBAM NotBiasedBAM 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I Do Know What It Feels Like. ...

    I do know what it feels like. I'm not there right now, but I certainly know what it feels like to not want to wake up again. Its a dark, dark, distant place and I could never wish that on anyone else. Its hard **** but you can get through it. The worse thing is it that you...
    pacwoman pacwoman 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 8, 2007

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    When I over think I'm unhappy.

    I am always over thinking..
    raynbow32 raynbow32 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I've been trying everything to have hope

    but now I think it's the end. I'm thinking of killing myself within the next few days. I have no friends, I live with an emotionally abusive family, I'm always stressed out & I'm not even doing well in school anymore. My grades were the only thing that made me want to live but...
    IntrovertedKat IntrovertedKat 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Alone In This World

    i am alone.I need someone who understnds my feelings right now.I have many friends but they nevr gona understnd what im feeling is,nt even my familiy.I dnt knw y everythng has been changd.I wnt everythng to b same as befor.Im tryng my bst to b strong bt y cnt any1 understnds it.Y...
    MagiCizMe MagiCizMe 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    it just gets worse and worse,

    i used to be able to hide it but i don't even have the energy to hide it anymore or pretend i'm anything else then depressed.. everytime i wake up i feel so depressed,and everytime i fall asleep i feel depressed because i know i'll just wake up here again. i don't want to commit...
    OccultumLapidem OccultumLapidem 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Ladybugprincess Ladybugprincess 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 15

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    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 16-17, F 66 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Stuff Is Making Me Mad

    I've had issues with depression since I was 11. I eventually was put on medication when I wasn't self medicating with other things. I was forced to stay off my mood stabilizer when my mother went all nuts and threatened a lot of BS if I filled my prescription with her insurance...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    Everybody is always so fuc*king "fine".

    But we are not. Sometimes, we are hurt and bruised and nearly completely shattered and this, sir, is not what one calls fine... No one knows what's happening and you have to wear that fake smile so you don't hurt others..
    JennyAB JennyAB 16-17, F 10 Responses Jan 4

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    My weekend is ruined,

    my only joy, now i am depressed.
    Nobunaga88 Nobunaga88 26-30, M 4 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    So I battle depression

    but today just ran over my husband's gone doing marine stuff and I found out mybest friends baby pasted away in his sleep last night at some point and the don't know why he was 9 months old well would have been sept 11 :(
    sweety7268 sweety7268 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 7, 2014

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    there, I finally said it.

    I hate life. nothing seems to go my way anymore. i'm tired of pretending to be happy. I cant keep doing this.
    ThatOneSomaliGirl ThatOneSomaliGirl 13-15, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    they always say that suicide isnt an option,

    but they never give you an better one......
    lilbit33 lilbit33 22-25, F 6 Responses Dec 4, 2014

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    My heart can only take

    so much. I don't know what to do to escape the pain. My thoughts frighten me.
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 9 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    sometimes I want to kill myself others,

    i want to kill everyone around me, im insane.....
    TheRealFenix TheRealFenix 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    A caged bird in a land

    where birds fly free The length of it ~ I walk from wall to wall How do you measure freedom? How do you measure anything? In a universe so vast, vast beyond knowing I am so small... There's too much life, I watch it from behind the bars Hearing the sounds of pleasure...
    HarlequinRose HarlequinRose 26-30, T 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    wassup305 wassup305 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Am I Dreaming Or Is It Me?

    I fall asleep to wake up to this dream. This dream of me. This dream of me falling off the track. Of things I can't take back. It's just a list of faces and known places. A heart that cannot be fixed. A mind that's on the fritz. What is this. What is this hole you've dug...
    solomon3020 solomon3020 18-21, M 16 Responses Jun 5, 2014

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    IM DOWN, TIRED SLEEPY NEVER HAVE ENERGY FOR

    ANYTHING BESIDES EATING AND SLEEP.. I NEED HELP, I CANT TRUST ANYONE I CANT TALK TO ANYONE PPL DONT KEEP SECRETS WELL THESE DAYS AND IM TIRED! I WANNA GO AWAY SEPARATE MYSELF FROM THIS NEGATIVE SPACE. EVERYDAY IS A CHALLENGE I NEED POSITIVE PPL THAT WONT JUDGE ME FOR MY CHOICES...
    MindConscious MindConscious 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    "What are those?" he asked pointing at the

    scars in my arm. "Battle wounds." I whispered. "Who were you fighting?" "Myself...." - K
    IAmACatXP IAmACatXP 13-15, F 8 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15, 2014

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    I saw a guy stealing my phone.

    Unfortunately, he got away. I think he's the same dude who stole my phone before. Bummer
    TheKDoomsday TheKDoomsday 16-17, F 10 Responses Jan 15

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    Sadness is tears after losing a game

    or a broken bone, depression is sobs at 3 am when you're all alone. Sadness makes you blue, depression makes you numb. Sadness loses to happy, depression loses to none. Sadness is the curious neighbor, depression is the unwanted houseguest. Sadness is your hotel room, depression...
    BabyBlondeOne BabyBlondeOne 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 6

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 22-25, F 5 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    Even when I'm super hungry,

    I hate to eat... And when I try to sleep: all I have are nightmares. I keep waking up in the middle of night. And thats when the thoughts come up, and I start getting bad again. Everything sucks...
    theperz217 theperz217 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    I want to sleep my days away

    until I have none. I want a drunken stupor that lasts in silence of my own house so I can dwell and be completely lost but without being lost at all. No one to call. No one to see. No one to hear. Just me and my empty thoughts. Alone. In complete bitter silence where my mind...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    Ugh, I'm having one of those moods today.

    I loooooove having my emotions all over the place. Thanks, depression.
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I feel like I'm sinking.

    Seeing flashes of all the ones I loved that are now gone. All the people that left. I feel my body turn brim cold and I start to shake. I feel the blood in my body halt and it slowly seeps out of me like a sickness. I feel my breath slow and my heart begin to thud lightly as if...
    DeathMayCome DeathMayCome 16-17, M 6 days ago

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    Sweetaugust Sweetaugust 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 1

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    It's hard being the tough friend

    who always is there for everyone else but feels so alone in their time of need. Once again, I feel like jumping off a high building to my death.
    whyusteens whyusteens 13-15, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    When you lack motivation

    because you've accepted defeat...
    xoxoCharlierose xoxoCharlierose 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    I'm going through depression

    but no one knows. no one around me cares enough to notice so I keep it all in. I can't deal with my own problems but when there is someone that is going through a tough time or someone is just feeling down, I help build them up. I try to make others feel as good as they can...
    Imstillhere122 Imstillhere122 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Im posting this to see

    who in my circle actually care. I am completely depressed. Nothing has been going right, I am being constantly ridiculed and insulted. I am being exiled and ignored. My friends treat me like a stranger, my family treats me like a discardable playing card. Im in several groups...
    Johnthewedgie Johnthewedgie 18-21, M 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I can't explain how ive felt the last three

    years 90 percent of the time I honestly don't see what there is to live for. ..
    tupaclover tupaclover 16-17 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Hello, not sure how to talk about this

    but I have been thinking about ending my own life. I have a good life, my husband loves me and I work from home with many hobbies available to me. I for whatever reason can't seem to pull myself out of this terrible depression, I am almost terrified of succeeding because that...