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I Am Depressed

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn 13-15, F 34 Responses Jun 30

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    Okay so I have been feeling awful lately (not

    gonna get into the details) but I called NHS 24 and the guy came out (note I never asked him too) and he before I even sat down told me that I had wasted his time that there was nothing wrong with me just because I could walk down the stairs and looked fine that it was in my...
    SophieeChapman SophieeChapman 18-21, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 99 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    Well may some of my friends here know

    that I'm in Mexico for the whole summer, which I'm super excited about! I been hanging out with my cousins, been going out downtown, played soccer, walking around, and other stuff. But lately I been starting to feel sad, kinda depressed I would said it. I guess I really do miss...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 21

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    marianda01 marianda01 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 12

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    I am barely capable of surviving.

    I have virtually no money. My limited resources dwindle a little more every day, and my tolerance of this s*** storm wears thin. My mom and dad don't trust me and expect the unreasonable. They won't even let me inside their own house without supervision. They refuse to...
    Zerato2431 Zerato2431 26-30, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    sjwhit sjwhit 13-15, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    Am I Dreaming Or Is It Me?

    I fall asleep to wake up to this dream. This dream of me. This dream of me falling off the track. Of things I can't take back. It's just a list of faces and known places. A heart that cannot be fixed. A mind that's on the fritz. What is this. What is this hole you've dug...
    solomon3020 solomon3020 18-21, M 17 Responses Jun 5

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    I felt I was getting a bit better,

    I made a lot of progress this year but I got news today.. my childhood friend I held so close to my heart has been strung out on heroin for awhile now, what tares me apart is that I feel a little responsible.. I ignored him, there for he went on to hang out with the people who'd...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Nothing seems too seem right now.

    I feel like I can't be happy with the choices I make and so I drink my feelings away. It feels lonely without her, it's been a while since it feels that I've held her. All I want is to be with her. Too bad I feel used in the end but oh we'll lets go on.( smh.)
    JusDave JusDave 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm depressed . I just feel dead.

    .. Inside and out. I feel like my life is turning into a black and white photo. All the fun colors are being sucked out
    randicandi456 randicandi456 16-17, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    When I was growing up my mom lost her sister

    because she was overweight, i think that she was so afraid to lose someone else that she would say to me that I am fat,that I need to lose weight, sometimes she would make me look at myself in the mirror to look at my stretch marks, large legs & things got worse when i was 14 I...
    ImBipolar ImBipolar 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Alone In This World

    i am alone.I need someone who understnds my feelings right now.I have many friends but they nevr gona understnd what im feeling is,nt even my familiy.I dnt knw y everythng has been changd.I wnt everythng to b same as befor.Im tryng my bst to b strong bt y cnt any1 understnds it.Y...
    MagiCizMe MagiCizMe 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M 2 days ago

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 28

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    I want to sleep my days away

    until I have none. I want a drunken stupor that lasts in silence of my own house so I can dwell and be completely lost but without being lost at all. No one to call. No one to see. No one to hear. Just me and my empty thoughts. Alone. In complete bitter silence where my mind...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 2

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 22-25, F 7 Responses Jul 9

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    I hate the fact that I'm the one

    that asks people if they're ok, if they're alright, if they need anything I'll be there, if they want a shoulder to cry on, I'm there, if you need someone to talk to, I'm there, if you need comfort, I'm there, if your feeling sad, I'm there. But when I am in need, or need...
    RickaylaBeard RickaylaBeard 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    My heart has been broken

    and I just dont know what to do right any help
    jones10375 jones10375 18-21, M a week ago

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    I am 13 years old and I have been feeling

    extremely depressed since the last four years, when I shifted to a new residence and changed my school. I remember I used to be very sensitive even when I was much younger. Like once I had to get a haircut and I cried for the whole day because I loved my long hair, and I used to...
    nickyra55 nickyra55 13-15 3 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    I am a loser. Everything i do just ***** my

    life up.i never succeed in anything .
    Bagh8 Bagh8 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 16-17, F 67 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    "What are those?" he asked pointing at the

    scars in my arm. "Battle wounds." I whispered. "Who were you fighting?" "Myself...." - K
    KLawliet KLawliet 13-15, F 9 Responses Sep 5

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    nadia50 nadia50 16-17, M 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    Tesla. Hang tough. http://youtu.

    be/0CWsV0deJxo Tesla. What you give. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9vwHuCC6nP8&sns=em Tesla. Love song. http://youtu.be/l2q_-xN2N54
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M 2 days ago

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    I try really hard, but I find myself in this

    black hole of nothingness every other week. It lasts for a few days usually. During these few days, it becomes really intense and I am constantly faced with my options. What fascinates me about depression is the black hole I feel trapped in when it hits. The only thing in...
    AnomalousEarthling AnomalousEarthling 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Why is it okay for others to have a bad day

    or feel down but as soon as I have a touch of depression I am overreacting?
    iamokaynow iamokaynow 31-35, M 5 Responses Nov 4

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    Stuff Is Making Me Mad

    I've had issues with depression since I was 11. I eventually was put on medication when I wasn't self medicating with other things. I was forced to stay off my mood stabilizer when my mother went all nuts and threatened a lot of BS if I filled my prescription with her insurance...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    My life is so depressing lost everything,

    I have cause of x husband. He made sure I had nothing left, before he left me.
    biggirlylyn biggirlylyn 46-50, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Since I lost the greatest love of my life I

    have been asked countless times what I did to her that caused this. Unfortunately it is assumed that since I am a man, all men are jerks and thus I did something wrong. I can’t say that this did not offend me because I gave her nothing but kindness, love and respect. I did...
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 5 Responses Aug 13

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    -------WARNING------- --DEPRESSION MODE-- I

    usually come across as a happy friendly guy no matter how I'm feeling in reality, but hey, experienceproject is about being honest right? My friend died, I'm in a country where I can't really express myself (not that I ever do anyway), I'm homesick and want to be with my...
    shellofaboy shellofaboy 18-21, M 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    I just found out right

    now that my mom's sister hung herself, my mom is at work right now..and i don't know how to tell her. I'm so nervous. My mom is already Diabetic, and she has heart problems. I don't want her to have a heart attack or something. My mother is the only thing i have in this world.
    venah23 venah23 13-15, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I Do Know What It Feels Like. ...

    I do know what it feels like. I'm not there right now, but I certainly know what it feels like to not want to wake up again. Its a dark, dark, distant place and I could never wish that on anyone else. Its hard **** but you can get through it. The worse thing is it that you...
    pacwoman pacwoman 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 8, 2007

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    So I have been depressed again lately they

    found precancerous cells in my uterus along with that I have been taking care of my cousin who lost his arm in a car accident asking with my stressful job (cna) and to top it all off im struggling with my bills and more so now that we are taking care of my cousin and I'm having...
    sweety7268 sweety7268 18-21, F 7 Responses 2 days ago

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 13-15, F 14 Responses Sep 4

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    I just..... I don't know .

    .. I just wanna lay here... and just not move, and I'm starting to hide my emotions and feelings again.. I can't believe it... why is everything breaking and falling apart now and why can't I stop it !? I can't do it !! I just can't ! life is **** and I don't want to be in it
    debonaireash debonaireash 16-17, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Nights like these make me feel

    as though I have no one. Seeing pictures of people around a campfire, of girls in tiny dresses drunkenly hugging their friends, of couples having dinner - it makes me wonder where my friends are. And then I start to think about how I got to be sitting here in my pajamas...
    someonelikeyou9 someonelikeyou9 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    help me feel human ..

    ...................................
    unlovednbroken unlovednbroken 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I'm really sad and I feel like nobody around me

    notices. I'm just tired of being the last choice and alway the one who is doing something wrong. I feel like I can never please anyone. My mom especially she is always saying what I could do or have done better. I'm a pretty good student but I'm just getting tired of all the...
    Cora126 Cora126 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Childhood me would be

    so disappointed in 20 year old me now. I had so many goals and dreams for myself. I used to change my mind weekly with career ideas because I was so passionate about life. I don't know what I want now and I don't care to be honest. That's what scares me... That I don't care. I...
    messymwahh messymwahh 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    When your thinking you made your bestfriend

    feeling awful about herself and just in general doesnt makes anything better
    IrwinsScars IrwinsScars 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 2

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    The Solution

    i climb so high just to fall it doesn't matter after all it pulls me in i try to leave there's just so much i cannot believe i hate this place i want to go although my sadness never shows step by step i slowly ascend where i'll fall will just depend tiny capsules of quick...
    irishnative irishnative 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 14, 2013

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    I've never really shared my life story with

    anyone, it isn't easy for me but I figure I'll give it a shot. I apologize in advance for the long post, I don't know if that's what's "done" here, I'm new. Today is my birthday. It's always the worst on my birthday. Being reminded that another year has gone by and I still...
    AnotherPseudonym AnotherPseudonym 18-21, M 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    my ex broke up with me

    and then went on to someone new three weeks later after 4 years. He knowingly played with my heart for three months, in the end I lost out and am depressed and hurt over this. How you can do that to someone that you loved for 4 years I don't understand.
    ll77 ll77 36-40, F 15 Responses Aug 11

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    So I battle depression

    but today just ran over my husband's gone doing marine stuff and I found out mybest friends baby pasted away in his sleep last night at some point and the don't know why he was 9 months old well would have been sept 11 :(
    sweety7268 sweety7268 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 7

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    From Me To You. A Story From Ep Friend That Motivates Me.

    From me. To you:"Just so you know depression is not a disease or a condition, it's...a state of the mind which coerces you to believe that you are all alone and helpless to the causes around you that is overwhelming your vision of life ahead, it can be beat if you surround...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Dec 17, 2012

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