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I Am Depressed

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    Sadness is tears after losing a game

    or a broken bone, depression is sobs at 3 am when you're all alone. Sadness makes you blue, depression makes you numb. Sadness loses to happy, depression loses to none. Sadness is the curious neighbor, depression is the unwanted houseguest. Sadness is your hotel room, depression...
    BabyBlondeOne BabyBlondeOne 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 6, 2015

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 16-17, F 13 Responses Sep 4, 2014

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    Sometimes I have a strong urge to cry at random

    times, when I'm in the car mostly. I cry at night all the time so no one will know. I am severely over weight and get made fun of all the time for it, and my constant diet plans always fail.
    ButteryToast ButteryToast 18-21, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    I'm a single mum of 2

    and 36 my husband was emtionaly abusive still is even tho we are apart. I work a reception Job where I sit on my own for 8 hours a day. I have my mum who helps me out with kids a bit but she is so up and down with her moods and anything she does for me she holds against me. My...
    winterusa winterusa 36-40, F 4 days ago

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    tony1411 tony1411 56-60, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 95 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    Life hasn't been great the last while.

    .. Well, it's had some amazing parts, and I guess I enjoy those. But I go through most days just wishing I was dead instead... I push these thoughts away. I've dealt with and overcome depression before. But this is different... Then, I was waiting for life to start. Now, I feel...
    John1Freeman John1Freeman 18-21, M Feb 1

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    I always feel like I don't want to live in this

    world. I am so lonely and there is violence everywhere. I live in an orphanage and my boyfriend just broke up with me. And when I go to a social network I always read that people think girls are just useful for that one thing. And I feel like nobody loves me or will love me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 12 Responses Aug 15, 2015

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    So here we go again,

    after nearly 8 years of feeling ok it's the same old ****. Hopefully it won't take me a year to get over it this time
    Adelh Adelh 22-25, F 7 Responses Dec 20, 2015

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    I am very depressed right now.

    It's funny how you are so happy and having a good life and the next it all starts coming down
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Jan 11

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    Today is already a regret,

    I wish I would've never woken up.
    sassycookie sassycookie 18-21, F 11 Responses Oct 15, 2015

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    BillionDollarDream BillionDollarDream 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I just had a huge fight with my bf

    and I really need someone to talk to because I'm crying 👍
    Jason2111 Jason2111 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 31

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    I try to be happy... It's pretty hard to be

    genuinely happy when you're family makes jokes about your flaws! (An example is me never having a girlfriend) not everyone needs to know these things but why not tell all the friends and family at events! I just love everyone knowing I'm a pathetic worthless loser!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M Jan 30

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 28, 2014

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    I suffer from hyperhidrosis

    or excessive sweating. Does anyone else in the UK suffer from this?
    pbarn pbarn 31-35, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Everyone seems to hate me outside of the

    Internet I just want t feel cared for and loved but even my parents ignore every word I say and I have no friends and I haven't since 5 years ago. I wish I'd just die it seems like I'm worthless.
    TheOddOne1999 TheOddOne1999 16-17, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I still haven't went to get help,

    I can't bring myself to do it. Maybe I don't actually care and want to feel this way. I don't see my future, I can't see myself doing anything "happy and productive" in the next 5-10 years if I do live. I'm useless, not really good at anything. Although there are positive sides...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 2 Responses Jan 14, 2015

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    EmanonEvahi EmanonEvahi 36-40, M 9 Responses Sep 16, 2014

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    I never really knew quite what depression was.

    I thought that it was extreme sadness. that's why I believed that I never really truly had depression. recently I have realized that I actually do have depression. I identified with close to close to all the symptoms. I have this almost constant feeling of no emotion, as if I...
    UnusualArtist UnusualArtist 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 2

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    I want to die so badly.

    I just wanna finally have peace, the scars don't seem to work no more. I just want to be happy.. Is that too much to ask? I would do anything to finally grow that balls to put the knife on my neck rather than my wrist
    sadwithasmile sadwithasmile 16-17, M 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Everybody is always so fuc*king "fine".

    But we are not. Sometimes, we are hurt and bruised and nearly completely shattered and this, sir, is not what one calls fine... No one knows what's happening and you have to wear that fake smile so you don't hurt others..
    JennyAB JennyAB 16-17, F 9 Responses Jan 4, 2015

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    When the rage inside of you turns into sorrow.

    ... Thanks god that I have music
    Rustedarmor Rustedarmor 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I want to sleep my days away

    until I have none. I want a drunken stupor that lasts in silence of my own house so I can dwell and be completely lost but without being lost at all. No one to call. No one to see. No one to hear. Just me and my empty thoughts. Alone. In complete bitter silence where my mind...
    Iamvindicated Iamvindicated 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    The worst part about feeling

    so terrible is desperately wanting to ask people for help but not doing so because you know there's nothing they can do.
    istillknownothing istillknownothing 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 30

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15, 2014

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    Nothing ever goes right

    for me it seems like. My asshat husband is going to get everything in the divorce while I'll get almost nothing. He was emotionally abusive to me, controlling and just a **** all around. Now that I'm finally free of him I'll get no justice and he'll get everything! How is that...
    GoldenHeart69 GoldenHeart69 22-25, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    My heart can only take

    so much. I don't know what to do to escape the pain. My thoughts frighten me.
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 7 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 18-21, F 64 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    I hope you did and will have a good day.

    Please be positive and be kind to others. We'll never know what they're going through. I hope it gets better for you. Please see the beauty in life. Kick that negativity off! Conquer the trials and hardship! Tell this cruel life, " In your face you cruel life!!! Who's...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F 11 hrs ago

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    I want to not care, but how can I

    when they remind me how my life sucks everyday
    Fallbeforewefallout Fallbeforewefallout 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Well, i got a job baby sitting all summer i

    start Tuesday and will only get to go home on the weekends. hopefully itll take my mind off my depression and i can maybe actually start living a little better..just wish me luck ^^
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 6 Responses May 23, 2015

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    Where the Hell I imagined myself today around

    10:00 now I'm not saying that parents should have to pay for college but at least I expected mine to help me out some type away. For an example it took my mom 8-10 ******* months in order to fill out Fafsa. Really are you ******* kidding me. -.- I am truly pissed! I wanted to go...
    blahblahblahxoxo blahblahblahxoxo 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 31

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    Lately it's been so hard to find interest in

    anything whatsoever, my grades are falling, I haven't been doing much more than trying to sleep and crying hysterically… And I'm scared this will mess up my relationship with my bf
    love11915 love11915 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Suicide? noooo! Please DON'T.

    Don't do it! Never! There's always a better way. If you feel so miserable and you think it's the only way out, YOU'RE WRONG! If you're being bullied or abused or some people are just so stupid enough to not see your worth... don't give them the satisfaction of proving they were...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Do you see me?? Do you see how i fake it.

    .? Do you see how i hate it..? Do you see??? I rarely laugh.. i rarely speak face to face with people. Do you know how it is to feel like you got a phobia about people?? How I got a big trust issue?? Do you see that I may have gotten better with studying.. That i can no longer...
    KarasuEm KarasuEm 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 11, 2015

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    my mind is so messed up I know I need

    professional help but I am too afraid to even go in to the Doctors and book an appointment I know depression lessens self-esteem and self-confidence but I didn't know it could get this bad. when I started getting depressed I promise myself I would never cut and I haven't yet but...
    thelittlekidindiapers thelittlekidindiapers 16-17, M 17 Responses Jun 6, 2015

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    I figured out how to fix it.

    I have to change. But in order to understand what I have to change I have to be able to identify what's causing me pain. My pain seems to stem from hope. Hope that one day some person will care enough to help me. I have prayed, I have reached out to family, friends, and even...
    imjustaghost imjustaghost 26-30, M 1 Response a week ago

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    haileeilenenanderson haileeilenenanderson 13-15, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    morimotonari morimotonari 13-15, M 3 Responses Aug 6, 2015

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    Im just going to stay away from ep

    for a while. I would still log in almost everyday. I just need a break because this is too much that I can't take.. I'm working on getting better.. it's not like anybody will miss me lol.. I will come back when I start feeling better
    sparklingillusion sparklingillusion 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Envying somebody who is about to die

    or died. This is my feelings right now. Somebody I barely knew had a cancer. That person sent a message to my parents. "I don't want to die". The only thing I focused was the word die. I was starting to envy that person. Then that person died. It made me feel unhappy. Yes...
    Tazmanou Tazmanou 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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