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I Am Depressed

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    IntenseCookie IntenseCookie 16-17, F 7 Responses Mar 11

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    I think people often underestimate what

    depression does to a person. I go from externalization/narcissism in dissociative states to internalization/depression. In other words; I go back and forth from deluding myself and avoiding it, to not deluding myself, which gives room for the slow unbearable process of...
    Outdoctrination Outdoctrination 18-21 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    babyhaleigh95 babyhaleigh95 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    suffering with ibs and gerd.

    I recently been struggling since age 17 with these problems. I almost dropped out of college because ibs and gerd but I stuck through it but in my last years of college I showed noticeable signs of illness such as having pale skin and lost weight. after graduating I understood...
    megabear64 megabear64 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    I find it so much easier

    for me to stop breathing.
    MyInsideLife MyInsideLife 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I was depressed continuously

    for about a year and a half and now I get sudden waves of depression and my thoughts go wack and I start thinking of doing things I know are wrong and I wish this wouldn't happen but it does.
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    everythingispale everythingispale 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 1

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    I need to leave now. I'm a worthless,

    empty, sick individual. Nobody gives a **** about me. It'd be so much easier on everyone if I was dead. I plan to be gone by this time tomorrow
    BrookeSandhurst BrookeSandhurst 16-17, F 13 Responses Mar 3

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    yes i am feeling lonley

    and ugly and worthless! i feel so old i cant enjoy life i dont feel anything; lazy all the time i dont want to do anything my days are all the same
    llys llys 22-25, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    Do you see me?? Do you see how i fake it.

    .? Do you see how i hate it..? Do you see??? I rarely laugh.. i rarely speak face to face with people. Do you know how it is to feel like you got a phobia about people?? How I got a big trust issue?? Do you see that I may have gotten better with studying.. That i can no longer...
    CursedRaven CursedRaven 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 11

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    Well, i got a job baby sitting all summer i

    start Tuesday and will only get to go home on the weekends. hopefully itll take my mind off my depression and i can maybe actually start living a little better..just wish me luck ^^
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 7 Responses May 23

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    Stuff Is Making Me Mad

    I've had issues with depression since I was 11. I eventually was put on medication when I wasn't self medicating with other things. I was forced to stay off my mood stabilizer when my mother went all nuts and threatened a lot of BS if I filled my prescription with her insurance...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 16-17, F 65 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Im actually much more depressed

    than i was before.. I think all the people who hates me were right.. I should just kill myself.. I've been actually considering it before but their were people who begged me not to.. But now no one is here.. So i guess this is goodbye then.. I love you all..
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    Well may some of my friends here know

    that I'm in Mexico for the whole summer, which I'm super excited about! I been hanging out with my cousins, been going out downtown, played soccer, walking around, and other stuff. But lately I been starting to feel sad, kinda depressed I would said it. I guess I really do miss...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 21, 2014

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    PurpleHart PurpleHart 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I have experienced a mild depression most of my

    life, and although it still affects me at times, it has been replaced by anger due to certain situations. I am not going to discuss the anger, but instead I'd like to focus on the 'depressed' part. It's a wide spectrum and even people who experience this vague "emotion" cannot...
    anothertheletter anothertheletter 22-25, F 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 16-17, F 13 Responses Sep 4, 2014

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    EmanonEvahi EmanonEvahi 36-40, M 9 Responses Sep 16, 2014

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    I just feel like crap all the time

    and don't know what to do about it. I just can't concentrate on university anymore and my hirsutism just makes me feel lonely and hopeless. I cry almost everyday and just want to lie in bed and do nothing or sleep. I get tired just thinking about starting the new academic year...
    BellaItalia68 BellaItalia68 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Icrossmyheart Icrossmyheart 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    Went to my job, that I quit like 2 days ago,

    and I did not want to be there. I felt like I had let everyone down, I couldn't look any of my old coworkers in the face and I stayed quiet the entire time. I was so anxious, I wanted to break down crying. And to make matters worse, I want to tell my mom and close family friend...
    WolfsLullaby WolfsLullaby 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    my mind is so messed up I know I need

    professional help but I am too afraid to even go in to the Doctors and book an appointment I know depression lessens self-esteem and self-confidence but I didn't know it could get this bad. when I started getting depressed I promise myself I would never cut and I haven't yet but...
    thelittlekidindiapers thelittlekidindiapers 16-17, M 21 Responses Jun 6

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    so like idk its every day,

    and sometimes I'll feel okay ya know? like watching stuff i like or listening to music or night vale... but all the other times when im not escaping reality i just feel empty. and then i feel like a jerk because im soooo lucky! I have a good house, with wifi, and good friends...
    baldwinbitch baldwinbitch 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    This is the hardest part I believe.

    Trying to explain how we do want help but at the same time want to be left alone. How after such a long time, we have fallen in love with our sadness and have convinced ourselves that without it we are nothing. We have come to identify ourselves with it; it's our comfort zone...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I can't sleep at night

    because my body hurts. I've been depressed more then once in my life, but it's never hurt this much before...
    PoindexterFan PoindexterFan 18-21, F 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn 16-17, F 30 Responses Jun 30, 2014

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    I'm getting tired of trying to fit your

    description of that boy who's so fake and who's so fiction. Wake up, your mind is stuck somewhere in a dream. Give me back all of my kisses, I should've kept them for somebody else. Baby, I'm real. Maybe you need to get over yourself. I'm not that naive, there's more underneath...
    Ruinsky Ruinsky 16-17, M 2 days ago

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    It's funny how you are the last one up

    and thoughts consume your mind but the people who said they'd always be there are suddenly gone
    tatterdremains tatterdremains 16-17, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I still haven't went to get help,

    I can't bring myself to do it. Maybe I don't actually care and want to feel this way. I don't see my future, I can't see myself doing anything "happy and productive" in the next 5-10 years if I do live. I'm useless, not really good at anything. Although there are positive sides...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 3 Responses Jan 14

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    Sadness is tears after losing a game

    or a broken bone, depression is sobs at 3 am when you're all alone. Sadness makes you blue, depression makes you numb. Sadness loses to happy, depression loses to none. Sadness is the curious neighbor, depression is the unwanted houseguest. Sadness is your hotel room, depression...
    BabyBlondeOne BabyBlondeOne 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 6

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    Am I Dreaming Or Is It Me?

    I fall asleep to wake up to this dream. This dream of me. This dream of me falling off the track. Of things I can't take back. It's just a list of faces and known places. A heart that cannot be fixed. A mind that's on the fritz. What is this. What is this hole you've dug...
    solomon3020 solomon3020 18-21, M 15 Responses Jun 5, 2014

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    My heart can only take

    so much. I don't know what to do to escape the pain. My thoughts frighten me.
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 8 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    I know how to fake a smile

    even when I'm really low. Faking a smile is a good trick that helps me hide it. I don't want any stupid therapy
    VolenoieFoote VolenoieFoote 31-35, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I went to mcdonald's

    and they got rid of the minion toys and I didn't get the one that I wanted. It really is affecting me because it was my favorite one to look at. Now I can't ever touch it I'm so sorry life. I want to die so much you people don't know how much I love minions. I cried when I got...
    funnygirl90 funnygirl90 70+, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I am feeling empty, very empty

    for no reason. I just hope there are better days ahead of me. Been away for sometime and don't expect to be this quick depressed. Slept all day and woke up around 5pm.
    Afua77 Afua77 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 98 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    I just want to die. I tried

    so long to find happiness and now I don't even want it, I just don't want to live at all. I have a healthy family who love me and it makes me even more upset because I know people would die to be in my position which is the reason why I hate myself more. I want to go sleep and...
    gracexxx gracexxx 16-17, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    I Do Know What It Feels Like. ...

    I do know what it feels like. I'm not there right now, but I certainly know what it feels like to not want to wake up again. Its a dark, dark, distant place and I could never wish that on anyone else. Its hard **** but you can get through it. The worse thing is it that you...
    pacwoman pacwoman 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 8, 2007

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    Everybody is always so fuc*king "fine".

    But we are not. Sometimes, we are hurt and bruised and nearly completely shattered and this, sir, is not what one calls fine... No one knows what's happening and you have to wear that fake smile so you don't hurt others..
    JennyAB JennyAB 16-17, F 9 Responses Jan 4

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    First off this is an old story everyone .

    Im happy now . NOVEMBER 26,2014 I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention i just want to put my story out there because I've hid it my...
    FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul 18-21, F 27 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    My mom doesn't believe

    that I'm depressed and It make me feel fake and a liar ..
    sassysmahname sassysmahname 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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