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I Am Depressed

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    Seems like a dark cloud is always following me

    that no one else can see. Feels like I'm separated from everyone else. Can't dig myself out of this hole. Screaming in my head, noises in my head then it all turns into nothing.
    PotatoKid PotatoKid 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I used to be that strong woman.

    I don’t know what is going on with me now, I feel so empty sometimes, and I feel so alone. I wish one day I can meet someone who love me, care about me, and make me feel alive. I wish …
    leila2010 leila2010 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I have heard so much about how suicide is

    selfish. I feel so much more selfish for staying alive and burdening everyone with my invisible intangible problems. My mental health issues are not something that anyone can seem to understand. People don't seem to notice that there is a difference between depressed and sad...
    theoctopusesbowtie theoctopusesbowtie 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Is it normal to feel

    so alone while everyone is so close? Even the one I love seems to feel far away.
    Meadowruelover Meadowruelover 18-21, F 8 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15, 2014

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    Am I Dreaming Or Is It Me?

    I fall asleep to wake up to this dream. This dream of me. This dream of me falling off the track. Of things I can't take back. It's just a list of faces and known places. A heart that cannot be fixed. A mind that's on the fritz. What is this. What is this hole you've dug...
    solomon3020 solomon3020 18-21, M 15 Responses Jun 5, 2014

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn 16-17, F 32 Responses Jun 30, 2014

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    I'm feeling really down today

    and I just want to disappear and vanish. I am just feeling sad and can't shake it off today.
    ranabp ranabp 41-45 3 days ago

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    I was told that if I cut again I will be sent

    to a mental institution.....
    FiguringOutLife21 FiguringOutLife21 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Stuff Is Making Me Mad

    I've had issues with depression since I was 11. I eventually was put on medication when I wasn't self medicating with other things. I was forced to stay off my mood stabilizer when my mother went all nuts and threatened a lot of BS if I filled my prescription with her insurance...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    When you lack motivation

    because you've accepted defeat...
    xoxoCharlierose xoxoCharlierose 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    EmanonEvahi EmanonEvahi 36-40, M 9 Responses Sep 16, 2014

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    IntenseCookie IntenseCookie 16-17, F 7 Responses Mar 11

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    I still haven't went to get help,

    I can't bring myself to do it. Maybe I don't actually care and want to feel this way. I don't see my future, I can't see myself doing anything "happy and productive" in the next 5-10 years if I do live. I'm useless, not really good at anything. Although there are positive sides...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 3 Responses Jan 14

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    Well may some of my friends here know

    that I'm in Mexico for the whole summer, which I'm super excited about! I been hanging out with my cousins, been going out downtown, played soccer, walking around, and other stuff. But lately I been starting to feel sad, kinda depressed I would said it. I guess I really do miss...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 21, 2014

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    Three years ago, I asked God to show me the one,

    he did. Then two years later I've realized that he wasn't the one, and that he looked similar to my old crush. I got depressed, and a year later, I get another dream of him and my heart went like crazy, as if I knew him for years. But when I remember that he's not real, I just...
    Christine99 Christine99 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Icrossmyheart Icrossmyheart 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 15

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    I Do Know What It Feels Like. ...

    I do know what it feels like. I'm not there right now, but I certainly know what it feels like to not want to wake up again. Its a dark, dark, distant place and I could never wish that on anyone else. Its hard **** but you can get through it. The worse thing is it that you...
    pacwoman pacwoman 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 8, 2007

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 16-17, F 13 Responses Sep 4, 2014

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    I live on the top floor of my flat,

    I'm looking out the window thinking if I should jump
    Mloomps Mloomps 13-15, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I want to sleep my days away

    until I have none. I want a drunken stupor that lasts in silence of my own house so I can dwell and be completely lost but without being lost at all. No one to call. No one to see. No one to hear. Just me and my empty thoughts. Alone. In complete bitter silence where my mind...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    It’s been quite a long while

    since I wrote. So excuse any pent-up flashes of brilliance and Oscar-worthy writing that you may encounter in the next few sentences. Well. So there, I said it. I am depressed. Notice it is not past/future tense. It is ongoing. It is terrifying real. I am suffering from...
    spotsinsun spotsinsun 18-21 3 days ago

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    Alone In This World

    i am alone.I need someone who understnds my feelings right now.I have many friends but they nevr gona understnd what im feeling is,nt even my familiy.I dnt knw y everythng has been changd.I wnt everythng to b same as befor.Im tryng my bst to b strong bt y cnt any1 understnds it.Y...
    MagiCizMe MagiCizMe 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    i feel like the saddest girl alive.

    im mad that everyone is happier then me but i dont want them to know... so i smile and act happy. ugh...
    gemmed gemmed 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    i cant do anything right.

    im a failure. i dont know how to do anything. i dont have common sense. i have all the bad luck in the world. nothing good ever happens to me. i just wish i never even exisited
    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Depressed again. That

    or bipolar disorder. I really can't tell the difference. Maybe I have both or maybe ...... Idk. Either way I just wish I had a normal life with no restrictions
    FiguringOutLife21 FiguringOutLife21 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    My heart can only take

    so much. I don't know what to do to escape the pain. My thoughts frighten me.
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 8 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    I'm twenty years old.

    Female. Born and raised Italian, but recently transplanted into the UK. I've been depressed since as far as I can remember. Not clinically, though, just a weird and uncomfortable feeling which I've had for my entire life, alongside a latent but ineradicable desire of death. The...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Big shocker for anyone to feel this way,

    right? Yeah, blah, anyway... I feel immensely alone and honestly, it's mostly my own doing. I do not connect well with other humans. Never have, still don't, probably will never truly find the way to do so either. I can sever ties easily but make bonds minimally. So at this...
    EngulfingBreeze EngulfingBreeze 22-25, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 98 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    Sometimes we have to pay our full life

    for one mistake. I don't know how to survive now in life... I am not getting a small hope for live my life... Only going my life stubbornly... Don't know how much time I will fight for my life....
    raj4849 raj4849 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    again tonight..i just feel

    so empty....like i just want to cry and i dont know why..maybe if i just could cry id feel better..
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    My soul just aches like words cannot describe.

    I feel like I'm drowning. I am so angry at life and the hand I was dealt. I just don't know any more.....
    theoctopusesbowtie theoctopusesbowtie 18-21, F 17 hrs ago

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    Everybody is always so fuc*king "fine".

    But we are not. Sometimes, we are hurt and bruised and nearly completely shattered and this, sir, is not what one calls fine... No one knows what's happening and you have to wear that fake smile so you don't hurt others..
    JennyAB JennyAB 16-17, F 9 Responses Jan 4

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    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 16-17, F 66 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Hey , i feel quite depressed these days ,

    once in a while my mind just wants to blow up 'cause of all the **** that roams on it and haunts me , and the worse is that there is no escape no matter what this depression just comes back every while and then
    Dezsire Dezsire 22-25, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    there's a knife in my heart.

    Won't somebody pull it out and let me bleed to death?
    theoctopusesbowtie theoctopusesbowtie 18-21, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    I admit. I am depressed.

    It's not because of the people around me that makes me feel of sadness but my depression goes beyond that. The things happening in this world, the society being delusionally famished over ridiculous things, and we have not truly achieved anything as a human race that we are...
    Xemplefied Xemplefied 26-30, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    First off this is an old story everyone .

    Im happy now . NOVEMBER 26,2014 I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention i just want to put my story out there because I've hid it my...
    FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul 18-21, F 21 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    My boyfriend went to bed.

    ..it's only 20:45 for me and the time in Finland is 22:45. I wanted to spend my Friday night with him...but f*****g time-zones... I feel so lonely.
    GalaxyTradgedy GalaxyTradgedy 16-17, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    yeah, so? and i tho have not been severely

    suicidal for maybe a couple of years. but tonight. i feel so awful.....so what..... everytime i get up when im able to, as i keep collapsing in tears all day and tonight. but everytime i get to heading out the door to go on up to the train tracks. at least a few ago turning to...
    MeZero0 MeZero0 41-45 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I hate being in one of my dark days… Well,

    everyday is a dark day. I just want to end everything... I honestly can't go on like this. No one even knows how serious this is. I'm so drained, I just wanna take all of my pills and never wake up, and I can't ******* stress it enough.
    escapedfeelings escapedfeelings 16-17, F 3 Responses 23 hrs ago

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