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I Am Depressed

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    I was at the hospital

    for 2 days because of my stupidity. The doctor said that I should be happy that I'm alive, but I don't know what to feel. Happy because I'm still here or sad because they put me back to my misery. I do regret what I did before. But it's complicated. After that incident my father...
    supernerd22 supernerd22 16-17, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 22-25, F 5 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    My ex text me... After 5 months without talking.

    .. I thought I was recovered... That text make me wish I was dead...
    Anotherfailmatty Anotherfailmatty 18-21, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    When you lack motivation

    because you've accepted defeat...
    xoxoCharlierose xoxoCharlierose 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    I keep on having suicidal dreams it's weird b/c

    I remember one so well it felt like it was real
    wateverforever wateverforever 18-21, M Mar 24

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Lyin on the floor crying.

    Listening to our song. Feelin weak. Asking myself what went wrong. Sayin to myself I still love you?. Knowing I need to get over you. I wish he would say he loves me still. I feel these feelings are killing me slowly. And I ask myself is life even worth it without you?
    RainbowWolf13 RainbowWolf13 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Life... Days ago, You feel your body shaking,

    your c.o.c.k hard and desires your heart is like orchestra fingers racing each other to write stories lips wants passionate kisses Now, Body is numb c.o.c.k........... where heart........... not belong to me fingers......... locked lips.............. looking for a poison
    SensualRomantic SensualRomantic 36-40, M 6 days ago

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    Why am I always depressed

    as soon as I get to school? At home I am the happiest girl ever. But I get to school and my mood drops drastically. Why does this happen? I hate it so much and is there a way I can make myself cheer up before I get on the bus?
    alleycat888 alleycat888 13-15, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    I am trying so hard to find the hope.

    I can't get my med stabilized and these Bipolar swings are wearing me out. NIghts are the worst. I want to call one of those crisis lines but I am scared. Of what? I don't know. I am afraid of being vulnerable and someone not understanding.
    givemenoname givemenoname 51-55, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Walking under the rain.

    Hair soaked, weather cold Body numb but not from the hard rain or cold My lips... were wanting yours... now kissing whiskey bottle Walking but feeling like I get no where, I just sit next to a dog under the light I look at him, he looks at me I am sorry for him, I am sure he...
    SensualRomantic SensualRomantic 36-40, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    People tell me they care about me

    but then they never make any time or attempt to show it people never make time for me no one ever makes the time for me im a usless waste of life and time i dont deserve any nice things or people and i should just die all i have is fake friends who dont even send me texts im the...
    jackalfredthegr8 jackalfredthegr8 13-15, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    tatterdremains tatterdremains 13-15, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm stuck. I see myself

    as me less and less. The man in this mirror isn't me. But the comfort is their when I see him. He is like a face not spoken but well greeted. My eyes are of his. Like seeing me but not me. This man is ached and scard chest down. He is staring at me with a blank expression. He...
    DeathMayCome DeathMayCome 16-17, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Am I Dreaming Or Is It Me?

    I fall asleep to wake up to this dream. This dream of me. This dream of me falling off the track. Of things I can't take back. It's just a list of faces and known places. A heart that cannot be fixed. A mind that's on the fritz. What is this. What is this hole you've dug...
    solomon3020 solomon3020 18-21, M 16 Responses Jun 5, 2014

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    Our distinction from animals is emotion

    so why do people get bent out of shape when guys cry it just shows that we are human and that even the strong break
    tatterdremains tatterdremains 13-15, M Mar 23

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    IntenseCookie IntenseCookie 16-17, F 5 Responses Mar 11

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    MeZero0 MeZero0 41-45 1 day ago

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    I'm so lonely, at school I pretend to be happy,

    but soon as I'm home I can't stop crying. I need help please, someone to talk too
    JUSTaN0B0DY JUSTaN0B0DY 16-17, M 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Ladybugprincess Ladybugprincess 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 15

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    Dowandup Dowandup 18-21, M Mar 23

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    Sadness is tears after losing a game

    or a broken bone, depression is sobs at 3 am when you're all alone. Sadness makes you blue, depression makes you numb. Sadness loses to happy, depression loses to none. Sadness is the curious neighbor, depression is the unwanted houseguest. Sadness is your hotel room, depression...
    BabyBlondeOne BabyBlondeOne 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 6

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    Stuff Is Making Me Mad

    I've had issues with depression since I was 11. I eventually was put on medication when I wasn't self medicating with other things. I was forced to stay off my mood stabilizer when my mother went all nuts and threatened a lot of BS if I filled my prescription with her insurance...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    Unicornpeasant Unicornpeasant 18-21, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    My day just went from borderline okay

    and having a smidge of effort to get changed and possibly dye my hair to, why the **** am I even awake.
    Unicornpeasant Unicornpeasant 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    troubled, ended the fight

    and yet enemies come back... sigh.
    kragoth135 kragoth135 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I Do Know What It Feels Like. ...

    I do know what it feels like. I'm not there right now, but I certainly know what it feels like to not want to wake up again. Its a dark, dark, distant place and I could never wish that on anyone else. Its hard **** but you can get through it. The worse thing is it that you...
    pacwoman pacwoman 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 8, 2007

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    I still haven't went to get help,

    I can't bring myself to do it. Maybe I don't actually care and want to feel this way. I don't see my future, I can't see myself doing anything "happy and productive" in the next 5-10 years if I do live. I'm useless, not really good at anything. Although there are positive sides...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 4 Responses Jan 14

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    I've been single for

    so long that people think I'm incapable of love and/or being loved. I'm starting to believe them.
    Scal92 Scal92 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Poem of Illusion A smile can hide a lot,

    from purposes, desires, and emotions. Nothing is what it seems, especially in the case of the human mind. I wrote this poem after a shower, on a Wednesday night, after my dad had unknowingly cut deeply with his words, and he didn't know the reasons why I had done what I had done...
    nicias nicias 13-15, M 5 days ago

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    My heart can only take

    so much. I don't know what to do to escape the pain. My thoughts frighten me.
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 9 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 16-17, F 13 Responses Sep 4, 2014

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    constant trouble, constant drama sometimes i

    struggle i try to break free from this crazy world we live in, i just wish i could change and make things different but there ia a demon sitting on me and pushing me down. i try so hard to stand up and stay strong, **** it whatever this day throws at me ill take on, nothing...
    fuckedupbacon fuckedupbacon 16-17, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I just want to strangle myself at this point idk

    whether I want the courage to live or the courage to finally end it all
    SincerelyMYlife SincerelyMYlife 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm broken, and feel the need to scream

    and burst out crying. But for some reason, i feel like all my tears are all gone onto my pillows
    serenapaul serenapaul 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    It's hard to house sit alone

    when you're feeling suicidal...
    Jupiterfl04 Jupiterfl04 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Well may some of my friends here know

    that I'm in Mexico for the whole summer, which I'm super excited about! I been hanging out with my cousins, been going out downtown, played soccer, walking around, and other stuff. But lately I been starting to feel sad, kinda depressed I would said it. I guess I really do miss...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 21, 2014

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    Jupiterfl04 Jupiterfl04 18-21, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 98 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    Sweetaugust Sweetaugust 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 1

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    I need to leave now. I'm a worthless,

    empty, sick individual. Nobody gives a **** about me. It'd be so much easier on everyone if I was dead. I plan to be gone by this time tomorrow
    BrookeSandhurst BrookeSandhurst 16-17, F 17 Responses Mar 3

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    EmanonEvahi EmanonEvahi 36-40, M 9 Responses Sep 16, 2014

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    The one person who should understand me is the

    only person who consistently makes me feel like ****. I don't get how she can say such mean things. She makes me feel so worthless all the time. Doesn't she see the effect her words have on me?
    SingToTheSky2298 SingToTheSky2298 16-17, F Mar 23

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    SadLittleFlower SadLittleFlower 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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