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I Am Depressed

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    phaselove86 phaselove86 16-17, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Its getting uncontrollably worse.

    . Feeling no emotion whatsoever towards everything.. Like theres this void inside where my soul, dreams and hopes you yo exist...now there is nothing.. Emptiness..Vacuum.. And then my demented mind starts the flow of the nasty thoughts thats poisoning my vision so i start...
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm young, I know, but everything is just going

    wrong and I need someone to talk to, anyone.
    AaronMontanez AaronMontanez 16-17, M 4 days ago

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    Been battling depression

    for almost a decade now... every 2-3 years I keep tumbling down the dark path... Can't forget and forgive people. I keep thinking of the world as a utopian place. If not for my friends, I would have left earth a long time back. They and my will power are my source of strength...
    thekafir thekafir 26-30, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Alone In This World

    i am alone.I need someone who understnds my feelings right now.I have many friends but they nevr gona understnd what im feeling is,nt even my familiy.I dnt knw y everythng has been changd.I wnt everythng to b same as befor.Im tryng my bst to b strong bt y cnt any1 understnds it.Y...
    MagiCizMe MagiCizMe 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    Tonight I carve symphonies into me like a note

    sheet to bad I'm the only one who can see the dark carvings of my misery -Anthony LaCroix
    BetterLeftDead BetterLeftDead 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15, 2014

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    I want to sleep my days away

    until I have none. I want a drunken stupor that lasts in silence of my own house so I can dwell and be completely lost but without being lost at all. No one to call. No one to see. No one to hear. Just me and my empty thoughts. Alone. In complete bitter silence where my mind...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    please can someone talk to me i need someone to

    talk to. i cant even describe what im going through. im so confused. i need someone who can listen
    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Everybody is always so fuc*king "fine".

    But we are not. Sometimes, we are hurt and bruised and nearly completely shattered and this, sir, is not what one calls fine... No one knows what's happening and you have to wear that fake smile so you don't hurt others..
    JennyAB JennyAB 16-17, F 9 Responses Jan 4

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    Stuff Is Making Me Mad

    I've had issues with depression since I was 11. I eventually was put on medication when I wasn't self medicating with other things. I was forced to stay off my mood stabilizer when my mother went all nuts and threatened a lot of BS if I filled my prescription with her insurance...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    Depressed scars worthless hopeless forgotten

    this is what I feel everyday of my life
    MusicLover4Eternity MusicLover4Eternity 13-15, F 22 hrs ago

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    First off this is an old story everyone .

    Im happy now . NOVEMBER 26,2014 I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention i just want to put my story out there because I've hid it my...
    FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul 18-21, F 21 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    Looks like marriage is over,

    there's too much to fix, and she keeps going back on her word.
    Bryan29 Bryan29 26-30, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I am so sad I am sick.

    I don't know what I am doing. I can barely see, having to correct my words. My heart is broken and they can not understand why. The darkness is creeping in and I can no longer control it. Once again I am so weak that the pain I feel is normal. The thoughts in my head are not...
    SecretAbby SecretAbby 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Sometimes I wish I was stupid enough to be

    happy. Ignorance is bliss isn't it?
    raynbow32 raynbow32 18-21, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    I would really want to know what I am doing

    wrong. I want to know why boys won't talk to me. I want to know why I don't make friends as easily as others. what is wrong with me. is it because I'm not as pretty or skinny as other girls? or because I don't wear designer clothes or converse? is it because of my personality...
    deleted deleted 26-30 22 hrs ago

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Since I lost the greatest love of my life I

    have been asked countless times what I did to her that caused this. Unfortunately it is assumed that since I am a man, all men are jerks and thus I did something wrong. I can’t say that this did not offend me because I gave her nothing but kindness, love and respect. I did...
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 4 Responses Aug 13, 2014

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    There's no point in telling people

    that everything is okay. There's no point to it. It's pointless and dumb. Nothing will be okay. I guess it just took me a while to figure that out
    EmbraceTheEVIL EmbraceTheEVIL 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I still haven't went to get help,

    I can't bring myself to do it. Maybe I don't actually care and want to feel this way. I don't see my future, I can't see myself doing anything "happy and productive" in the next 5-10 years if I do live. I'm useless, not really good at anything. Although there are positive sides...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 3 Responses Jan 14

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    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 16-17, F 66 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    it's really depressing

    when you can't love the guy you love the most. it's forbidden love, and it hurts a lot.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    IntenseCookie IntenseCookie 16-17, F 7 Responses Mar 11

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 28, 2014

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    I had been bullied from the time i was in my

    beginning school years all of the way until 8th grade. Every day was torment, i had barely any friends, almost noone to help me and at that i didnt feel comfortable talking to them about my problems i just held it in. Eventually i snapped, in seventh grade one of the kids kicked...
    Metalgamer Metalgamer 13-15, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Well may some of my friends here know

    that I'm in Mexico for the whole summer, which I'm super excited about! I been hanging out with my cousins, been going out downtown, played soccer, walking around, and other stuff. But lately I been starting to feel sad, kinda depressed I would said it. I guess I really do miss...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 21, 2014

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    EmanonEvahi EmanonEvahi 36-40, M 9 Responses Sep 16, 2014

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    I've been feeling realy down lately.

    . First thing first I'm a 15 year old boy and I love playing video games and that's the reason I preety much suck at every ball sport.I never had a girlfriend,always wanted to however and I often care about my appearance.I have long hair(which is unusual for boys at my age and I...
    oneMidnightstar oneMidnightstar 13-15, M 4 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    No matter how much i try ,

    my father keeps becoming a roadblock, lost everything I am thinking of ending everything now
    FallenOptimist22 FallenOptimist22 22-25 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    I feel so so sad.. one minute i was too numb

    then another . . . i just wanna cry.. i dont want to have mental break down again.. it sucks when you cant breathe.. that feeling where you dont have the air to breathe in.. and you keep crying.. and your heart feels like its crashing and bleeding heavily...
    CursedRaven CursedRaven 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    i dont know if its appropriate to post this in

    this grp but ill just do it anyway. .these r my thoughts that i couldnt tell to the one i miss the most .. at least now I know you're gone for good.. now u got disgusted with me I realised u saw the selfish beast through me.. I've never been in loved with u But why do I feel...
    theredthunder theredthunder 70+, T 2 hrs ago

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    warrior1467 warrior1467 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    My heart can only take

    so much. I don't know what to do to escape the pain. My thoughts frighten me.
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 8 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    'i'll murder the man sir!

    by virtue of cause__' says a wild man in hood of his sanity. yes there is the cause u see. n the whole science is in consistent strife to possess 'cause'. Bud' science, ye want to be murderer ay?_
    Xafy Xafy 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    Well...its been a while

    since I've been on here. Wow has a lot changed. I overcame my fear and I'm happy..however, i just experienced my friend get very angry and sad...and it affects me so hard. She wasn't angry with me...but she is just an angry girl...she's so angry. I can't help her. The problem...
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    When you lack motivation

    because you've accepted defeat...
    xoxoCharlierose xoxoCharlierose 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    Sadness is tears after losing a game

    or a broken bone, depression is sobs at 3 am when you're all alone. Sadness makes you blue, depression makes you numb. Sadness loses to happy, depression loses to none. Sadness is the curious neighbor, depression is the unwanted houseguest. Sadness is your hotel room, depression...
    BabyBlondeOne BabyBlondeOne 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 6

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn 16-17, F 32 Responses Jun 30, 2014

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    sturmgewher44 sturmgewher44 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    It's got worse. I can't express my feelings

    anymore, I feel empty and numb. I can't even write in my own diary anymore. I can't cry. Depression is deeper than crying and mental breakdowns. I know it got worse when I absolutely feel nothing inside anymore.. I am soulless.
    introverteddementor introverteddementor 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    My life is 0..... Looooooser.

    .. My end id soooon but sure
    suresh36 suresh36 22-25, M