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I Am Depressed

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    My brain is swirling

    and boiling in a pot of emotions — anxiety, fear, loneliness, embarrassment, sadness, guilt, regret, shame — I think it's depression. My depression is worsening and it has been over the past two years almost. I cut my skin, and I've cut my wrists and fingers several...
    remembertolove remembertolove 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Somedays it just feels like I'm swimming up

    towards the surface, and it looks like it's getting closer. Then other days, it just looks so far that I start to wonder if it's even worth trying to get to the top.
    Dacerspacestar Dacerspacestar 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    What can I do pictures of you still make me

    cry Trying to live without your love, it's so hard to do Some nights I'll wake up I'll look at your pillow Hoping that I'll see you there But I get up each day Not much to say I've nowhere to go Loneliness fills me up inside 'cause I'm missing you So if you'll give us a chance...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 27, 2014

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    I'm so aware of the people around me.

    My tears stop the moment I can feel a wakeful presence besides my own. And an automatic smile is an instant defense against the question, "Are you okay?" The charade continues, "I'm Fine," I respond. But I'm not. I'm not okay, I'm not fine, I'm HURTING! I wish I could make them...
    Bluemusiq Bluemusiq 18-21, F a week ago

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    I just don't get how the people we share blood

    with are the ones who can make us spill it
    tatterdremains tatterdremains 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 28, 2014

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    morimotonari morimotonari 13-15, M 4 Responses Aug 6

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    It comes and it goes.

    I'm not tired but I want to sleep the day away and hope for a better tomorrow. I don't want to do anything. Im so empty and blah. I don't want to work I just want to quit but why. I don't know why. I love work but today..I want to hide. I want to not be living. As I sit here...
    peach17 peach17 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    I need to leave now. I'm a worthless,

    empty, sick individual. Nobody gives a **** about me. It'd be so much easier on everyone if I was dead. I plan to be gone by this time tomorrow
    BrookeSandhurst BrookeSandhurst 16-17, F 14 Responses Mar 3

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    Sadness is tears after losing a game

    or a broken bone, depression is sobs at 3 am when you're all alone. Sadness makes you blue, depression makes you numb. Sadness loses to happy, depression loses to none. Sadness is the curious neighbor, depression is the unwanted houseguest. Sadness is your hotel room, depression...
    BabyBlondeOne BabyBlondeOne 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 6

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    First off this is an old story everyone .

    Im happy now . NOVEMBER 26,2014 I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention i just want to put my story out there because I've hid it my...
    FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul 18-21, F 26 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    When people say that people with depression are

    faking, your just making it worse.
    dolphinpoof dolphinpoof 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I can't do this anymore.

    I've been lying motionless for the most part of yesterday, unable to find the motivation to get out of the uncomfortable position I was in. I was paralysed. Today I thought things were going to be a bit better, but no such luck. After all these years I had finally hoped I could...
    sagefish sagefish 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I have been this way

    for almost 3 years... I self harmed for over 2 years and my parents only found out only a few month ago :( it hurts like hell now that they no because I can't help but think that they don't want me any more... because of all the stress it causes... so I'm still trying to not...
    chloebirchall chloebirchall 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 16-17, F 13 Responses Sep 4, 2014

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    I just can't get get past my ex.

    .. She took a piece of my heart when we split and it can't seem to come back. I just want to cry my eyes out.
    Pyrodis Pyrodis 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Sometimes I feel like killing myself.

    I then remember I have so many people to prove wrong.
    deleted deleted 26-30 a week ago

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15, 2014

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    IntenseCookie IntenseCookie 16-17, F 7 Responses Mar 11

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    i'm just so lonely. it sucks.

    yeah i have some friends, but i mean like relationship wise. it seems like nobody really wants me. i have a boyfriend but we just started dating. i just don't know. why do i feel so alone? i'm pretty sure it's bc of my weight. i think if i lose weight i'd get more people to...
    makeupjunkiee makeupjunkiee 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I always feel like I don't want to live in this

    world. I am so lonely and there is violence everywhere. I live in an orphanage and my boyfriend just broke up with me. And when I go to a social network I always read that people think girls are just useful for that one thing. And I feel like nobody loves me or will love me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Aug 15

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    I feel myself falling

    once again....I try and fight it as much as possible but its just hard to come out from this hole..... even with what little good I have in my life..its just not enough... it doaent out way the bad..
    scarsofrelief scarsofrelief 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 98 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    Smileydork Smileydork 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    I'm don't like that it's

    so looked down upon to be down...I try to be as happy as I can be ..and I am happy alot too....but I can't ignore I am down about some things in my life and have bad days ...I've had a lot of losses and been through a lot so I don't expect to just walk around all happy all the...
    candyone candyone 41-45, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    AllDai24 AllDai24 22-25, M 16 hrs ago

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    I never had a reason to be sad.

    I just was. finally I couldn't take it anymore. I showed my mom what I did myself everyday. I showed her all my pain. she put me in a mental hospital. I lied my way out. saying I was happy and feeling much better. they were so stupid to believe me. it's been almost a year since...
    brookisme brookisme 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Piercethechemicalsirens Piercethechemicalsirens 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Do you see me?? Do you see how i fake it.

    .? Do you see how i hate it..? Do you see??? I rarely laugh.. i rarely speak face to face with people. Do you know how it is to feel like you got a phobia about people?? How I got a big trust issue?? Do you see that I may have gotten better with studying.. That i can no longer...
    CursedRaven CursedRaven 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 11

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    I still haven't went to get help,

    I can't bring myself to do it. Maybe I don't actually care and want to feel this way. I don't see my future, I can't see myself doing anything "happy and productive" in the next 5-10 years if I do live. I'm useless, not really good at anything. Although there are positive sides...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 2 Responses Jan 14

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    I'm just starting cipralex

    and was wondering if anyone else takes it. Did you have any side effects? Did it help?
    sunuii sunuii 16-17, F a week ago

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    Suddenly I felt like crying.

    It's been forever since I cried. I don't know why now. Just suddenly my whole past flashed in my mind. Now I'm sad and crying my eyes out. Screaming into my pillow. Today was a good day, now it ended me being depressed.
    PoopieNoodle PoopieNoodle 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    My minds numb but my body's awake it feels like

    I'm dreaming but the pain is to real as I slide the razor across my body I feel a surge of relief I bleed out the pain it feels good to feel something other than you
    tatterdremains tatterdremains 16-17, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Well, i got a job baby sitting all summer i

    start Tuesday and will only get to go home on the weekends. hopefully itll take my mind off my depression and i can maybe actually start living a little better..just wish me luck ^^
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 6 Responses May 23

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    I won't put this on my lonelyness.

    I'm lonely cause I am depressed. I don't want anyone around, I can't care for people right now. I don't care for me. How can I care for anyone If I don't care for me? I think a lot of the past, that's why I am depressed. I'm not happy for what I was. I was so sh**ty kid. I...
    EleniHaru EleniHaru 18-21, F 14 hrs ago

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    Okay80s Okay80s 16-17, F 19 hrs ago

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    AllDai24 AllDai24 22-25, M 17 hrs ago

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    My heart can only take

    so much. I don't know what to do to escape the pain. My thoughts frighten me.
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 8 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    I GET depressed......

    have to just "soldier through" it ^_^ ( a sense of humour helps :-)
    cashetty69 cashetty69 51-55, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My life has been full of sadness,

    as many people's have. I wish I would change myself permanently...wish I didn't use self harm, alcohol and weed as my coping mechanism. The only person who knows about this is my husband and he doesn't have the answers...just makes me feel worse about what I do. I'm sinking...
    therealher1 therealher1 26-30, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I recently applied for a Team leader position

    however was rejected after my interview. I had a feedback session today where they told me I didn't have enough team leading experience even though the other candidates were in the same boat as me. I have been working in the company for over 2 years thus felt I had the knowledge...
    Accg23 Accg23 26-30, M 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    Well may some of my friends here know

    that I'm in Mexico for the whole summer, which I'm super excited about! I been hanging out with my cousins, been going out downtown, played soccer, walking around, and other stuff. But lately I been starting to feel sad, kinda depressed I would said it. I guess I really do miss...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 21, 2014

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