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    I was depressed continuously

    for about a year and a half and now I get sudden waves of depression and my thoughts go wack and I start thinking of doing things I know are wrong and I wish this wouldn't happen but it does.
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    I need to leave now. I'm a worthless,

    empty, sick individual. Nobody gives a **** about me. It'd be so much easier on everyone if I was dead. I plan to be gone by this time tomorrow
    BrookeSandhurst BrookeSandhurst 16-17, F 13 Responses Mar 3

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    I went to mcdonald's

    and they got rid of the minion toys and I didn't get the one that I wanted. It really is affecting me because it was my favorite one to look at. Now I can't ever touch it I'm so sorry life. I want to die so much you people don't know how much I love minions. I cried when I got...
    funnygirl90 funnygirl90 70+, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    The entire world thinks your worthless.

    You have nothing good going for you. Today you are 23 and yet you are still to amount to anything. You're a coward, you'll never commit to anything, including the ending you justify so well. You're a shame to your father who taught you so well, the man that couldn't understand...
    muhmullet muhmullet 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    Nobody's life is easy,

    but it is always harder for those who are down. It is especially difficult for those who are living in harsh conditions at home. I live in a dysfunctional family. My stepfather is relentlessly on my back and almost always in a grump. Same with my mother, though not as bad as my...
    Profweird Profweird 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    I've been struggling with depression

    since I was 12. And it's honestly the most frustrating thing. Cause one minute I'll be perfectly fine and happy and the next all I'll want is to die. All I have to say is I have the utmost compassion for people that struggle with depression. Cause people that don't will never...
    sammylynn333 sammylynn333 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I just want to die. I tried

    so long to find happiness and now I don't even want it, I just don't want to live at all. I have a healthy family who love me and it makes me even more upset because I know people would die to be in my position which is the reason why I hate myself more. I want to go sleep and...
    gracexxx gracexxx 16-17, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have no life.I'm already 22

    and I live with my grandparents,I stay home all day and going to sleep,thinking that the next day would be the same.It's all the same,makes me depressed,I feel that I'll always be lonely.
    Littlemisssunshine67 Littlemisssunshine67 22-25, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Do you see me?? Do you see how i fake it.

    .? Do you see how i hate it..? Do you see??? I rarely laugh.. i rarely speak face to face with people. Do you know how it is to feel like you got a phobia about people?? How I got a big trust issue?? Do you see that I may have gotten better with studying.. That i can no longer...
    CursedRaven CursedRaven 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 11

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    yes i am feeling lonley

    and ugly and worthless! i feel so old i cant enjoy life i dont feel anything; lazy all the time i dont want to do anything my days are all the same
    llys llys 22-25, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    EmanonEvahi EmanonEvahi 36-40, M 9 Responses Sep 16, 2014

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    babyhaleigh95 babyhaleigh95 18-21, F 9 mins ago

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    Am I Dreaming Or Is It Me?

    I fall asleep to wake up to this dream. This dream of me. This dream of me falling off the track. Of things I can't take back. It's just a list of faces and known places. A heart that cannot be fixed. A mind that's on the fritz. What is this. What is this hole you've dug...
    solomon3020 solomon3020 18-21, M 15 Responses Jun 5, 2014

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    Im actually much more depressed

    than i was before.. I think all the people who hates me were right.. I should just kill myself.. I've been actually considering it before but their were people who begged me not to.. But now no one is here.. So i guess this is goodbye then.. I love you all..
    xXGothicAngelxx xXGothicAngelxx 16-17, F 5 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn 16-17, F 30 Responses Jun 30, 2014

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 16-17, F 13 Responses Sep 4, 2014

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    I am new member but infact have been reading

    stories/experiences for about six months. It seems to be a good site to express oneself as well as seek advice/suggestions. My problem is more psychological which keeps me frustrated and depressed. I was born in a society which claims to be religious but in fact it has double...
    sologhost sologhost 36-40, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 98 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    First off this is an old story everyone .

    Im happy now . NOVEMBER 26,2014 I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention i just want to put my story out there because I've hid it my...
    FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul 18-21, F 27 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    suffering with ibs and gerd.

    I recently been struggling since age 17 with these problems. I almost dropped out of college because ibs and gerd but I stuck through it but in my last years of college I showed noticeable signs of illness such as having pale skin and lost weight. after graduating I understood...
    megabear64 megabear64 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    Sadness is tears after losing a game

    or a broken bone, depression is sobs at 3 am when you're all alone. Sadness makes you blue, depression makes you numb. Sadness loses to happy, depression loses to none. Sadness is the curious neighbor, depression is the unwanted houseguest. Sadness is your hotel room, depression...
    BabyBlondeOne BabyBlondeOne 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 6

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    Everybody is always so fuc*king "fine".

    But we are not. Sometimes, we are hurt and bruised and nearly completely shattered and this, sir, is not what one calls fine... No one knows what's happening and you have to wear that fake smile so you don't hurt others..
    JennyAB JennyAB 16-17, F 9 Responses Jan 4

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    No matter how much work

    and time you spend towards something, sometimes it's not enough and it is not meant to be. All that is desired is a place where you can be happy and content. Be proud of yourself. So I just sit here with my interest in music and my debt, wishing I would of never picked up a...
    muhmullet muhmullet 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    When you lack motivation

    because you've accepted defeat...
    xoxoCharlierose xoxoCharlierose 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    I'm starting to think about death a lot.

    I wouldn't say I was suicidal but I'm definitely starting to think about who would miss me if I was gone and what would happen to all my stuff. I accept that I need help because I don't want to die just yet even if depression tells me I do. I want to fight this.
    someonelikeyou9 someonelikeyou9 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    PurpleHart PurpleHart 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I know how to fake a smile

    even when I'm really low. Faking a smile is a good trick that helps me hide it. I don't want any stupid therapy
    VolenoieFoote VolenoieFoote 31-35, M 2 days ago

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    IntenseCookie IntenseCookie 16-17, F 7 Responses Mar 11

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    Stuff Is Making Me Mad

    I've had issues with depression since I was 11. I eventually was put on medication when I wasn't self medicating with other things. I was forced to stay off my mood stabilizer when my mother went all nuts and threatened a lot of BS if I filled my prescription with her insurance...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    A friend of mine passed away yesterday.

    Her life was taken by someone who said he loved her. .....this world disgusts me But at the same time I don't not fully blame the man responsible. The world itself is dark and wicked. It leads us down dark paths. Eventually some of us travel down long enough to believe we...
    imjustaghost imjustaghost 22-25, M 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    I still haven't went to get help,

    I can't bring myself to do it. Maybe I don't actually care and want to feel this way. I don't see my future, I can't see myself doing anything "happy and productive" in the next 5-10 years if I do live. I'm useless, not really good at anything. Although there are positive sides...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 3 Responses Jan 14

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    everythingispale everythingispale 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 1

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    I think people often underestimate what

    depression does to a person. I go from externalization/narcissism in dissociative states to internalization/depression. In other words; I go back and forth from deluding myself and avoiding it, to not deluding myself, which gives room for the slow unbearable process of...
    Outdoctrination Outdoctrination 18-21 1 Response 2 days ago

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    so like idk its every day,

    and sometimes I'll feel okay ya know? like watching stuff i like or listening to music or night vale... but all the other times when im not escaping reality i just feel empty. and then i feel like a jerk because im soooo lucky! I have a good house, with wifi, and good friends...
    baldwinbitch baldwinbitch 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I've taken the tumble into complete depression.

    It's been three years since i've experienced a moment so dark as this one. I feel like I can't breathe and the worst thing is I refuse to tell anyone. I'm ashamed of who I am and that I let myself do this. I recently stopped cutting, which I'm immensely proud of, but I feel even...
    Lila37 Lila37 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    My heart can only take

    so much. I don't know what to do to escape the pain. My thoughts frighten me.
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 8 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 16-17, F 65 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Icrossmyheart Icrossmyheart 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    I am feeling empty, very empty

    for no reason. I just hope there are better days ahead of me. Been away for sometime and don't expect to be this quick depressed. Slept all day and woke up around 5pm.
    Afua77 Afua77 26-30, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15, 2014

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    It's funny how you are the last one up

    and thoughts consume your mind but the people who said they'd always be there are suddenly gone
    tatterdremains tatterdremains 16-17, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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