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    I am engaged to the love of my life

    yet I can't be happy about it or feel excited about wedding planning because I am still depressed over the loss of my parents. I was happy and excited for a little while but wedding planning has become a chore. It's just one extra thing that I don't feel like doing. I just wish...
    cicisays13 cicisays13 26-30, F 13 hrs ago

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    Well at least I think I am.

    I've been feeling miserable all week even though it's Christmas. I can't sleep and my appetite has dissappeared. I've been taking painkillers recreationally because I like how they make me feel. Everything is suddenly funny. But then it stops and I feel miserable again. It also...
    DeathIsPartDinosaur DeathIsPartDinosaur 18-21, F 7 Responses 2 days ago

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15

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    This happens every few months.

    I get super depressed and don't even want to get out of bed. It's also not helping that people are being jerks. A friend of mine was suppose to text me when she got into town, never did... just sent me snapchats of he partying and stuff. So I texted her telling her I wanted to...
    maggiemae89 maggiemae89 22-25, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I was happy, for a little bit.

    Now it's gone and I'm sad again. I feel, useless, and not special to anyone. I am a loser
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I want to sleep my days away

    until I have none. I want a drunken stupor that lasts in silence of my own house so I can dwell and be completely lost but without being lost at all. No one to call. No one to see. No one to hear. Just me and my empty thoughts. Alone. In complete bitter silence where my mind...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 2

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    Tons of posts on EP about depression.

    I'm somewhat in that category. They all want advice. Do they really ? Or do they seek drama ? Be honest people. If you're depressed, anxious, suicidal, cutting, etc there's only ONE correct response .... See a medical professional. In the office or at the ER. Not nuclear physics...
    JoshM1974 JoshM1974 36-40, M 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    My heart can only take

    so much. I don't know what to do to escape the pain. My thoughts frighten me.
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10

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    People are a lot like drugs you'd do anything

    just to get one more hit one more high
    tatterdremains tatterdremains 13-15, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Alone In This World

    i am alone.I need someone who understnds my feelings right now.I have many friends but they nevr gona understnd what im feeling is,nt even my familiy.I dnt knw y everythng has been changd.I wnt everythng to b same as befor.Im tryng my bst to b strong bt y cnt any1 understnds it.Y...
    MagiCizMe MagiCizMe 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    This is how i look like these past few months

    being depressed and all. Idk i just don't feel like wearing make up at house or even going out... 
    yalalast yalalast 16-17, F 19 hrs ago

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    It's getting to the point

    where I feel like can't breathe and I start thinking about how I'm not good enough to be here. When it gets that far I start imagining how I would kill myself. I'm getting even more scared of myself cause I plan on moving out soon and these thoughts get more and more graphic. I...
    blackroses75 blackroses75 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    everyday i put on a brave face.

    i try to lend out my stregnth to those in need. i try to encourage and inspire those that seem lost and in need of kind words, but deep down in the core of my soul i am so very sad. i am weak. i don't know if i have the stregnth to do what is necessary anymore. But i will...
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    The Solution

    i climb so high just to fall it doesn't matter after all it pulls me in i try to leave there's just so much i cannot believe i hate this place i want to go although my sadness never shows step by step i slowly ascend where i'll fall will just depend tiny capsules of quick...
    irishnative irishnative 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 14, 2013

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 28

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 99 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    When you lack motivation

    because you've accepted defeat...
    xoxoCharlierose xoxoCharlierose 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 2

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    I hate the fact that I'm the one

    that asks people if they're ok, if they're alright, if they need anything I'll be there, if they want a shoulder to cry on, I'm there, if you need someone to talk to, I'm there, if you need comfort, I'm there, if your feeling sad, I'm there. But when I am in need, or need...
    RickaylaBeard RickaylaBeard 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    "What are those?" he asked pointing at the

    scars in my arm. "Battle wounds." I whispered. "Who were you fighting?" "Myself...." - K
    KLawliet KLawliet 13-15, F 9 Responses Sep 5

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    Everyone around be seems to be in their holiday

    spirit. Even the weather is beautiful here where I live. Exactly one year back, I was the happiest girl in the world and never imagined myself to be in this place right now. And it's a shame that I am typing this with tears on my face. I fell in love with someone exactly year...
    AmberDD AmberDD 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Well looks like I am gonna cry myself to sleep

    tonight. I freaking ruin everything!!!!!!!!!! I hate myself! I hate my life! I hate my depression and anxiety! It always drives every single person I care about away :"""""((((( I can't take it anymore!!!!!!!! Nobody freaking cares!!!!!! :"""""""((((((
    sarahspanked43 sarahspanked43 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    So I battle depression

    but today just ran over my husband's gone doing marine stuff and I found out mybest friends baby pasted away in his sleep last night at some point and the don't know why he was 9 months old well would have been sept 11 :(
    sweety7268 sweety7268 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 7

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    tatterdremains tatterdremains 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    Why is it that u can be in a room with friends

    and family but yet still feel so alone :/
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 22-25, F 7 Responses Jul 9

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    Can't remember what a good day feels like

    anymore I hate days like this where it feels like I'm just going through the motions just so the day can end not paying attention to anything or anyone like I'm a ghost
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Since I lost the greatest love of my life I

    have been asked countless times what I did to her that caused this. Unfortunately it is assumed that since I am a man, all men are jerks and thus I did something wrong. I can’t say that this did not offend me because I gave her nothing but kindness, love and respect. I did...
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 5 Responses Aug 13

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    From Me To You. A Story From Ep Friend That Motivates Me.

    From me. To you:"Just so you know depression is not a disease or a condition, it's...a state of the mind which coerces you to believe that you are all alone and helpless to the causes around you that is overwhelming your vision of life ahead, it can be beat if you surround...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Dec 17, 2012

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    Two of my ex best friends are having better

    times with other people. One is spending more money on gifts for his new friend and letting her stay over, the other one is parading her new best friend to everyone who will notice. Both of them are treating their new best friends a million times better than they treated me. I...
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Am I Dreaming Or Is It Me?

    I fall asleep to wake up to this dream. This dream of me. This dream of me falling off the track. Of things I can't take back. It's just a list of faces and known places. A heart that cannot be fixed. A mind that's on the fritz. What is this. What is this hole you've dug...
    solomon3020 solomon3020 18-21, M 17 Responses Jun 5

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    Hopefully I'll be gone soon.

    My suicide attemp is coming soon. I need to do it and I will.
    wassup305 wassup305 13-15, F 7 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm dying inside I'm slowly dying inside from

    this deep depression consuming me
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm so suicidal. I'm lonely.

    I don't feel like I can talk to anyone about how I feel....I'm annoying. I'm stupid. I'm a loser. I have no one who wants to hang out with me. No one actually "cares about me" ...I know they are lying. And I hurt myself to feel better, like the pathetic f**king loser I am.
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 17

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    why am I alive what is keeping me alive no one

    accepts me no one understands I have no one nothing is keeping me alive I hate you I hate what you did I hate how u make me feel I hate how I keep accepting u even after what u did
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Sometimes it's not the lies others tell us

    that hurt but the ones we tell ourselves
    tatterdremains tatterdremains 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    I want to kill myself.

    I've just had enough I don't see the point in trying anymore.
    yoursecretlifestyle yoursecretlifestyle 13-15, F 9 Responses 2 days ago

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    Inside I'm breaking down

    but you'll never see it
    tatterdremains tatterdremains 13-15, M 15 hrs ago

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    Well may some of my friends here know

    that I'm in Mexico for the whole summer, which I'm super excited about! I been hanging out with my cousins, been going out downtown, played soccer, walking around, and other stuff. But lately I been starting to feel sad, kinda depressed I would said it. I guess I really do miss...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 21

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 16-17, F 13 Responses Sep 4

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    i can feel myself slipping into a dark place.

    The place i spent so long in, that i tried so hard to crawl out of. it scares me because there is no hope there, no happiness, no promise of a better tomorrow. It's just an empty existence, a life without purpose. A life where you hope that this night you will sleep for the last...
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn 13-15, F 33 Responses Jun 30

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    Sometimes I wish I could just shut everyone

    and everything out . I don't know why
    Lonelyone6 Lonelyone6 46-50, F 8 Responses Jul 18

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    I never wanted to say this,

    I didn't and still don't think I have the right to, but I feel it. I'm so tired. I'm exhausted. I feel weak. I could try and explain this better but I can't. I can feel it in my gut. And it just continues on from there. I don't eat, when I do it's forced and fast. I ignore my...
    wanderquietly wanderquietly 18-21, F 4 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    People'd always leave me.

    I don't trust anyone anymore and I always remind myself not to get anyone get too close.
    BlueHydrangea BlueHydrangea 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    Nightshade777 Nightshade777 31-35, M 10 Responses Sep 16

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    I've noticed recently how more withdrawn I am

    becoming to everyone. I'm not doing it on purpose, I just generally want to be left alone. When I'm at work, I put my earphones straight in for the next 4 hours, then eating lunch and back to listening to my music again. I just don't feel like talking a lot. They threw a small...
    Gemz2411 Gemz2411 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    marianda01 marianda01 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 12

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    I'm almost 100% sure I am I can't sleep at

    nights, small problems make me feel like **** and throughout the day I just don't feel happy. Even yesterday on Christmas. Also cutting doesn't even help anymore Sometimes I feel like I should just end my pointless life :/
    xNEMISISx xNEMISISx 13-15, M