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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    Depressed again. That

    or bipolar disorder. I really can't tell the difference. Maybe I have both or maybe ...... Idk. Either way I just wish I had a normal life with no restrictions
    FiguringOutLife21 FiguringOutLife21 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I was told that if I cut again I will be sent

    to a mental institution.....
    FiguringOutLife21 FiguringOutLife21 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I ran my the blunt end of the knife across my

    wrist and it felt good. It felt easy. It makes me wonder how easier it would be if I ran the sharp edge instead
    iamsotiredigiveup iamsotiredigiveup 22-25, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have heard so much about how suicide is

    selfish. I feel so much more selfish for staying alive and burdening everyone with my invisible intangible problems. My mental health issues are not something that anyone can seem to understand. People don't seem to notice that there is a difference between depressed and sad...
    theoctopusesbowtie theoctopusesbowtie 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 16-17, F 13 Responses Sep 4, 2014

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    Sometimes we have to pay our full life

    for one mistake. I don't know how to survive now in life... I am not getting a small hope for live my life... Only going my life stubbornly... Don't know how much time I will fight for my life....
    raj4849 raj4849 31-35, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 28, 2014

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    Three years ago, I asked God to show me the one,

    he did. Then two years later I've realized that he wasn't the one, and that he looked similar to my old crush. I got depressed, and a year later, I get another dream of him and my heart went like crazy, as if I knew him for years. But when I remember that he's not real, I just...
    Christine99 Christine99 13-15, F 16 hrs ago

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    When you lack motivation

    because you've accepted defeat...
    xoxoCharlierose xoxoCharlierose 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    I'm depressed right now

    and I don't even know why :(
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I used to be that strong woman.

    I don’t know what is going on with me now, I feel so empty sometimes, and I feel so alone. I wish one day I can meet someone who love me, care about me, and make me feel alive. I wish …
    leila2010 leila2010 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I'm twenty years old.

    Female. Born and raised Italian, but recently transplanted into the UK. I've been depressed since as far as I can remember. Not clinically, though, just a weird and uncomfortable feeling which I've had for my entire life, alongside a latent but ineradicable desire of death. The...
    hohkhma hohkhma 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    yeah, so? and i tho have not been severely

    suicidal for maybe a couple of years. but tonight. i feel so awful.....so what..... everytime i get up when im able to, as i keep collapsing in tears all day and tonight. but everytime i get to heading out the door to go on up to the train tracks. at least a few ago turning to...
    MeZero0 MeZero0 41-45 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am siting in the dark thinking about

    something anything then like a movie my life plays in my mind I think about the good and bad things av done all the people I pushed away the people who tried to love me all the people who tried to help my tears flow maby I just want a hug maby I just want someone who will tell...
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Sadness is tears after losing a game

    or a broken bone, depression is sobs at 3 am when you're all alone. Sadness makes you blue, depression makes you numb. Sadness loses to happy, depression loses to none. Sadness is the curious neighbor, depression is the unwanted houseguest. Sadness is your hotel room, depression...
    BabyBlondeOne BabyBlondeOne 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 6

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 98 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    Alone In This World

    i am alone.I need someone who understnds my feelings right now.I have many friends but they nevr gona understnd what im feeling is,nt even my familiy.I dnt knw y everythng has been changd.I wnt everythng to b same as befor.Im tryng my bst to b strong bt y cnt any1 understnds it.Y...
    MagiCizMe MagiCizMe 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    I Do Know What It Feels Like. ...

    I do know what it feels like. I'm not there right now, but I certainly know what it feels like to not want to wake up again. Its a dark, dark, distant place and I could never wish that on anyone else. Its hard **** but you can get through it. The worse thing is it that you...
    pacwoman pacwoman 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 8, 2007

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    Why does everything I do

    or everything around me make me angry/insecure and then depressed. I feel trapped as someone I don't want to be because of societal expectations. I feel trapped because whatever happened in my childhood gave me the desires and mentality I have today. I can't get rid of these...
    crypticcrime crypticcrime 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    i feel like the saddest girl alive.

    im mad that everyone is happier then me but i dont want them to know... so i smile and act happy. ugh...
    gemmed gemmed 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I admit. I am depressed.

    It's not because of the people around me that makes me feel of sadness but my depression goes beyond that. The things happening in this world, the society being delusionally famished over ridiculous things, and we have not truly achieved anything as a human race that we are...
    Xemplefied Xemplefied 26-30, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    IntenseCookie IntenseCookie 16-17, F 7 Responses Mar 11

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    I live on the top floor of my flat,

    I'm looking out the window thinking if I should jump
    Mloomps Mloomps 13-15, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Hey , i feel quite depressed these days ,

    once in a while my mind just wants to blow up 'cause of all the **** that roams on it and haunts me , and the worse is that there is no escape no matter what this depression just comes back every while and then
    Dezsire Dezsire 22-25, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I used to get calls (horrible calls.

    ..) every Saturday at 12 AM on a private caller for 3 years before I changed schools. Now that I am back at my old school, it's started again... I hate it.
    octoberlovely octoberlovely 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Am I Dreaming Or Is It Me?

    I fall asleep to wake up to this dream. This dream of me. This dream of me falling off the track. Of things I can't take back. It's just a list of faces and known places. A heart that cannot be fixed. A mind that's on the fritz. What is this. What is this hole you've dug...
    solomon3020 solomon3020 18-21, M 15 Responses Jun 5, 2014

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    My heart can only take

    so much. I don't know what to do to escape the pain. My thoughts frighten me.
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 8 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    "What are those?" he asked pointing at the

    scars in my arm. "Battle wounds." I whispered. "Who were you fighting?" "Myself...." - K
    IAmACatXP IAmACatXP 13-15, F 8 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    i cant do anything right.

    im a failure. i dont know how to do anything. i dont have common sense. i have all the bad luck in the world. nothing good ever happens to me. i just wish i never even exisited
    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    there's a knife in my heart.

    Won't somebody pull it out and let me bleed to death?
    theoctopusesbowtie theoctopusesbowtie 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    I still haven't went to get help,

    I can't bring myself to do it. Maybe I don't actually care and want to feel this way. I don't see my future, I can't see myself doing anything "happy and productive" in the next 5-10 years if I do live. I'm useless, not really good at anything. Although there are positive sides...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 3 Responses Jan 14

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    Icrossmyheart Icrossmyheart 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 15

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    My soul just aches like words cannot describe.

    I feel like I'm drowning. I am so angry at life and the hand I was dealt. I just don't know any more.....
    theoctopusesbowtie theoctopusesbowtie 18-21, F 8 hrs ago

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    Seems like a dark cloud is always following me

    that no one else can see. Feels like I'm separated from everyone else. Can't dig myself out of this hole. Screaming in my head, noises in my head then it all turns into nothing.
    PotatoKid PotatoKid 18-21, F 18 hrs ago

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    Everyday is just another day hoping life will

    get better... But at the end of everyday I'm always in tears. So done with it all...
    hiddennlove hiddennlove 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I need to leave now. I'm a worthless,

    empty, sick individual. Nobody gives a **** about me. It'd be so much easier on everyone if I was dead. I plan to be gone by this time tomorrow
    BrookeSandhurst BrookeSandhurst 16-17, F 14 Responses Mar 3

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    Big shocker for anyone to feel this way,

    right? Yeah, blah, anyway... I feel immensely alone and honestly, it's mostly my own doing. I do not connect well with other humans. Never have, still don't, probably will never truly find the way to do so either. I can sever ties easily but make bonds minimally. So at this...
    EngulfingBreeze EngulfingBreeze 22-25, F 13 hrs ago

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    Well may some of my friends here know

    that I'm in Mexico for the whole summer, which I'm super excited about! I been hanging out with my cousins, been going out downtown, played soccer, walking around, and other stuff. But lately I been starting to feel sad, kinda depressed I would said it. I guess I really do miss...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 21, 2014

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    First off this is an old story everyone .

    Im happy now . NOVEMBER 26,2014 I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention i just want to put my story out there because I've hid it my...
    FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul 18-21, F 21 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    Since I lost the greatest love of my life I

    have been asked countless times what I did to her that caused this. Unfortunately it is assumed that since I am a man, all men are jerks and thus I did something wrong. I can’t say that this did not offend me because I gave her nothing but kindness, love and respect. I did...
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 4 Responses Aug 13, 2014

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    I feel like I'm carrying on with my life to

    make everyone else happy, when really I wish I was dead.
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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