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I Am Depressed

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 16-17, F 13 Responses Sep 4

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    Making progress. I switched from Paxil to

    Effexor and got though the rough transition OK. I still feel as though the chasm of depression is right outside my door though, but the door is locked now. It waits though... Depression sucks. I will slay it. We shall all slay it. Everyday is a battle, but we get stronger...
    eljefe67 eljefe67 46-50, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    So...many...people...

    screwed me...over god dang it I hate life
    KurtBaake KurtBaake 13-15, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    12.20.2014 You know when you listen to an old

    song that you use to love and start remembering what life was like during that time period when you listened to that song? This is that. Although this is still going on currently in my life it’s been so long and this has already become that song. I’ll explain how by...
    eenriqueeadr eenriqueeadr 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    Am I Dreaming Or Is It Me?

    I fall asleep to wake up to this dream. This dream of me. This dream of me falling off the track. Of things I can't take back. It's just a list of faces and known places. A heart that cannot be fixed. A mind that's on the fritz. What is this. What is this hole you've dug...
    solomon3020 solomon3020 18-21, M 17 Responses Jun 5

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    I don't want to go to school anymore!

    The kids are nasty and rude to me, and I don't have any real friends. I just want to kill myself because of this. Life isn't worth living because of this crap that we call 'conflicts'. My life is trashed up anyway...
    gorgeusgirlSky3 gorgeusgirlSky3 13-15 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    Depression is like the gathering storm come to

    consume all the joy and happiness. Leaving the soul isolated in a world shattered by over whelming emotions that strangle the life one once knew till it is merely a memory.
    pinkfly pinkfly 36-40, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    marianda01 marianda01 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 12

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    I don't want to talk about what's wrong right

    now I just want someone to take the thoughts away, even if it's only for a little...
    connieawaller connieawaller 16-17, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    Sometimes I wish I could just shut everyone

    and everything out . I don't know why
    Lonelyone6 Lonelyone6 46-50, F 8 Responses Jul 18

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    Since I lost the greatest love of my life I

    have been asked countless times what I did to her that caused this. Unfortunately it is assumed that since I am a man, all men are jerks and thus I did something wrong. I can’t say that this did not offend me because I gave her nothing but kindness, love and respect. I did...
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 5 Responses Aug 13

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    I wondered a lot why am I here.

    Nothing goes right in my life. I have had to live through so many hard times in my life so far. I'm only 30, but I feel like I have lived a thousands life's. This last hit, has hit my the hardest. I lost the person who I loved the most in my life. He took his life on...
    feelinglost84 feelinglost84 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    im really just worthless,

    i dont even know where i belong. i dont look right and i have no friends. i have the devil as my mother. i live in such an isolated place. i sit at home being depressed. i mess everything up for myself. i believe things that arent even true and **** my whole life up. im a sad...
    msworstlife msworstlife 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I need to find a way to cope with my anger.

    .. people make me so mad though. how can you tell me that you wont give me a chance to make you feel like the most beautiful girl in the world because im fat.
    XTheGuardianX XTheGuardianX 16-17, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 99 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    it goes off and on. when its on it takes over

    me like a heavy blanket. most times im depressed for no reason and it makes me not want to talk to people. idk wat to do about. i tried going for walks and listening to music and they dont work.
    zanityone zanityone 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    I'm so surprised I've had 2 good days in a row

    :) finally returning to my normal self again
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    From Me To You. A Story From Ep Friend That Motivates Me.

    From me. To you:"Just so you know depression is not a disease or a condition, it's...a state of the mind which coerces you to believe that you are all alone and helpless to the causes around you that is overwhelming your vision of life ahead, it can be beat if you surround...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Dec 17, 2012

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    Today it got to its worst point

    so far... Today started off with me being proud of myself for finally admitting to two people I'm friends with that I'm Bi... Which was huge for me. They were happy for me. For the past week I have been bickering with my best friends a lot, as they stopped talking and found new...
    skinnylittlebitch2 skinnylittlebitch2 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I want to get normal.

    I feel so lonely, I have lost all friends and my girlfriend. I want to live but nobody seems to be able to help me.
    ipulkit ipulkit 26-30, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Trying to recover physically

    and emotionally after I got my heart broken into a thousand pieces again :'( I'm once again at the local bar this time drinking a Mountain Dew and eating a whole pie of 7-Eleven pizza while talking to my friend Kristi on the pho------never mind, she hung up on me, so I'm alone...
    SgtRecker97 SgtRecker97 16-17, M 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I want to sleep my days away

    until I have none. I want a drunken stupor that lasts in silence of my own house so I can dwell and be completely lost but without being lost at all. No one to call. No one to see. No one to hear. Just me and my empty thoughts. Alone. In complete bitter silence where my mind...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 2

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    I keep trying to convince myself

    that I'm okay, but I am not okay. I am far from it.
    Alternagirl Alternagirl 31-35, F 5 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Not really ! Said this before.

    About Christmas. I'm Christian, so I appreciate the birth of the Messiah. The rest I of it, joyous gift giving and partying, was never part of my life. I can take it or leave it. Doesn't matter. Permanent blah. I'll help anyone in need. But keep the joyous celebration far away...
    JoshM1974 JoshM1974 36-40, M 4 days ago

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    The Solution

    i climb so high just to fall it doesn't matter after all it pulls me in i try to leave there's just so much i cannot believe i hate this place i want to go although my sadness never shows step by step i slowly ascend where i'll fall will just depend tiny capsules of quick...
    irishnative irishnative 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 14, 2013

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    Sometimes I really feel like giving up,

    but then I realise I'd be proving people right instead of wrong...
    blueworldsapart blueworldsapart 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    When you lack motivation

    because you've accepted defeat...
    xoxoCharlierose xoxoCharlierose 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 2

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    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 16-17, F 66 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 22-25, F 7 Responses Jul 9

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    BrokenDesires BrokenDesires 13-15, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    "What are those?" he asked pointing at the

    scars in my arm. "Battle wounds." I whispered. "Who were you fighting?" "Myself...." - K
    KLawliet KLawliet 13-15, F 9 Responses Sep 5

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    Nightshade777 Nightshade777 31-35, M 10 Responses Sep 16

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    I hate the fact that I'm the one

    that asks people if they're ok, if they're alright, if they need anything I'll be there, if they want a shoulder to cry on, I'm there, if you need someone to talk to, I'm there, if you need comfort, I'm there, if your feeling sad, I'm there. But when I am in need, or need...
    RickaylaBeard RickaylaBeard 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    I am really upset but I cant stop smiling

    and I dont know why! My emotions are really messed up!
    james3950 james3950 13-15, M 4 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I can't wait till I'm dead!

    No more pain, no more worry's.
    wassup305 wassup305 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    I am afraid today not

    because I am depressed. But the pain is ready to touch the max limit.. I've bipolar. Was diagnosed when I was in my late teen. Though my mom's friend who happens to be a doctor, guessed that i had developed something before the confirmation of me having that. He thought I was...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Just another day in hell Suffering silently in

    this unbreakable shell Screamong endlessly in my head Wishing for so long to be dead
    kwellanique kwellanique 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 28

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    I'm so suicidal. I'm lonely.

    I don't feel like I can talk to anyone about how I feel....I'm annoying. I'm stupid. I'm a loser. I have no one who wants to hang out with me. No one actually "cares about me" ...I know they are lying. And I hurt myself to feel better, like the pathetic f**king loser I am.
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    my ex broke up with me

    and then went on to someone new three weeks later after 4 years. He knowingly played with my heart for three months, in the end I lost out and am depressed and hurt over this. How you can do that to someone that you loved for 4 years I don't understand.
    ll77 ll77 36-40, F 14 Responses Aug 11

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    Stuff Is Making Me Mad

    I've had issues with depression since I was 11. I eventually was put on medication when I wasn't self medicating with other things. I was forced to stay off my mood stabilizer when my mother went all nuts and threatened a lot of BS if I filled my prescription with her insurance...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    Well may some of my friends here know

    that I'm in Mexico for the whole summer, which I'm super excited about! I been hanging out with my cousins, been going out downtown, played soccer, walking around, and other stuff. But lately I been starting to feel sad, kinda depressed I would said it. I guess I really do miss...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 21

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    I Do Know What It Feels Like. ...

    I do know what it feels like. I'm not there right now, but I certainly know what it feels like to not want to wake up again. Its a dark, dark, distant place and I could never wish that on anyone else. Its hard **** but you can get through it. The worse thing is it that you...
    pacwoman pacwoman 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 8, 2007

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    Today I got word from a friend

    that I'm going to be hired for the job I've been applying and interviewing for! But it doesn't start until the end of January :( that means no buying anyone anything for Christmas, no paying bills that are already a month or two behind, and no buying groceries... I feel...
    Shortandsweets Shortandsweets 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn 13-15, F 33 Responses Jun 30

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    My heart can only take

    so much. I don't know what to do to escape the pain. My thoughts frighten me.
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 13 Responses Dec 10

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    Dies anyone know what happened to zmc67?

    He just disappeared off if EP and I haven't heard from him. I'm sad :(
    Court24 Court24 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 4 Responses