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I Am Depressed

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    Hoping today is a good day

    for me ughh I hate school harder when your different too
    Hollybird17 Hollybird17 16-17, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I still haven't went to get help,

    I can't bring myself to do it. Maybe I don't actually care and want to feel this way. I don't see my future, I can't see myself doing anything "happy and productive" in the next 5-10 years if I do live. I'm useless, not really good at anything. Although there are positive sides...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 4 Responses Jan 14

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    Sadness is tears after losing a game

    or a broken bone, depression is sobs at 3 am when you're all alone. Sadness makes you blue, depression makes you numb. Sadness loses to happy, depression loses to none. Sadness is the curious neighbor, depression is the unwanted houseguest. Sadness is your hotel room, depression...
    BabyBlondeOne BabyBlondeOne 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 6

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    Since I lost the greatest love of my life I

    have been asked countless times what I did to her that caused this. Unfortunately it is assumed that since I am a man, all men are jerks and thus I did something wrong. I can’t say that this did not offend me because I gave her nothing but kindness, love and respect. I did...
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 4 Responses Aug 13, 2014

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    I recently found out

    that my best friend has been lying to me and it hurts and I can no longer talk to her
    jamesb2244 jamesb2244 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    XCuteWithoutE XCuteWithoutE 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    "What are those?" he asked pointing at the

    scars in my arm. "Battle wounds." I whispered. "Who were you fighting?" "Myself...." - K
    IAmACatXP IAmACatXP 13-15, F 8 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    I need to leave now. I'm a worthless,

    empty, sick individual. Nobody gives a **** about me. It'd be so much easier on everyone if I was dead. I plan to be gone by this time tomorrow
    BrookeSandhurst BrookeSandhurst 16-17, F 16 Responses Mar 3

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    I find myself lost scared

    and hurt just like before but worse my uncle that I am very very close to has cancer it's really hard to see him like this we have always been a strong family I'm always strong for them but I just can't be I don't know how. This is the very first time that I'm not strong in...
    Hollybird17 Hollybird17 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 16-17, F 13 Responses Sep 4, 2014

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    Badly. I thought I would get better

    but I only seem to be getting worse. I used to be positive and optimistic about it but now I'm just negative and barely trying. I don't even try or do anything anymore. I just lay here and barely do anything. I hate how no one understands how bad it is. I wasn't at school for...
    EssSmith EssSmith 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I don't know...it seems like I'm surrounded by

    darkness and I can't get out. I've self harmed and tried to kill myself. It really seems like no one cares and I want to cry. I cry myself to sleep and I worry about stupid things. I need help..
    Madimac Madimac 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    I literally don't feel like doing anything

    or talking with anyone. I just want to be alone and cry
    justakookiegirl justakookiegirl 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    twisteduniverse twisteduniverse 22-25, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I could really use a chat,

    please. Thank you.
    eccentricpython eccentricpython 22-25, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn 16-17, F 32 Responses Jun 30, 2014

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    I want to move far away

    where nobody knows me
    bluesnowball bluesnowball 31-35, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    With the dark blahs all day,

    i know all over again i'm on my way back down. Evetything is so dull like. Dead and bleak. I can't sleep or eat even more during the blahs. Food is just so... unappealing , everything. So i just dont eat at all. Geezz and i dont even know where i'm going with this. I do know...
    MeZero0 MeZero0 41-45 3 days ago

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    Again ! A friend left me >.

    < why me ? I don't like to be used over and over . What am I doing wrong .
    NeonCorpse64 NeonCorpse64 16-17, M 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 98 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    I just woke up feeling bleh today.

    I was suppose to have a girls night with some friends where we junk fooded out on gummy bears and have strawberry milkshake, but I'm not sure if I'm up for it. Part of the reason I feel so bleh is because last night some disgusting **** indecently exposed him self to me on my...
    Shirousa Shirousa 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15, 2014

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    My body language pretty much says it all.

    I catch myself zoning out and overthinking. Why can't I just be normal?
    EmbraceTheEVIL EmbraceTheEVIL 18-21, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    When you lack motivation

    because you've accepted defeat...
    xoxoCharlierose xoxoCharlierose 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    My cracks began to show

    and that's when it all cam crumbling down
    tatterdremains tatterdremains 13-15, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I am forever ******* up.

    I am a **** up. I just want to dye at this point, because as soon as things start to look up, I **** it all up. I don't know how to not be a failure.
    blackroses75 blackroses75 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Hey there's the light at the end of the tunnel,

    passed that road block, cave in and wall...
    Dino256 Dino256 18-21, M 19 hrs ago

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    My mum says I don't need antidepressants.

    That I can just snap myself out of it. She says if I do more then it will go away. My depression is not a simple emotion that can be lifted. It's imbedded deep inside me. How do I explain that I've felt like this for years and that even the most joyful of days, inside I still...
    youaretheonlyexception youaretheonlyexception 26-30, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Am I Dreaming Or Is It Me?

    I fall asleep to wake up to this dream. This dream of me. This dream of me falling off the track. Of things I can't take back. It's just a list of faces and known places. A heart that cannot be fixed. A mind that's on the fritz. What is this. What is this hole you've dug...
    solomon3020 solomon3020 18-21, M 15 Responses Jun 5, 2014

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    posting here and just by simply being here

    again makes me sad, to be honest... i've been off ep for a couple or more months cuz life was getting better... but all good things dont last... im back here again and so are my problems.. i cant stop crying, i still dont have anyone to be here for me. i feel isolated.. i feel...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 18-21, F 7 Responses 4 days ago

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    Do you ever feel like you want to jump infront

    of a train, and die, at the same time, you want someone to notice and saves you? :/
    Rourou19 Rourou19 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Alone In This World

    i am alone.I need someone who understnds my feelings right now.I have many friends but they nevr gona understnd what im feeling is,nt even my familiy.I dnt knw y everythng has been changd.I wnt everythng to b same as befor.Im tryng my bst to b strong bt y cnt any1 understnds it.Y...
    MagiCizMe MagiCizMe 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    Icrossmyheart Icrossmyheart 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 15

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    Stuff Is Making Me Mad

    I've had issues with depression since I was 11. I eventually was put on medication when I wasn't self medicating with other things. I was forced to stay off my mood stabilizer when my mother went all nuts and threatened a lot of BS if I filled my prescription with her insurance...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    Sweetaugust Sweetaugust 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 1

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    Life has never been so easy

    for me. I was always a victim of bullying and never had so much friends right from my childhood. My younger sister is so talkative and my parents love her more than they love me. She is engaged now and my parents are so happy about it. They made her engagement a grant function...
    Devi90 Devi90 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    My heart can only take

    so much. I don't know what to do to escape the pain. My thoughts frighten me.
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 9 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    does anyone else play the happy role in front

    of other people and family just so they don't see how much ur hurting and suffering?
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 28, 2014

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    All of a sudden depression has taken over.

    I can't focus on anything, I just feel like crying now, I don't feel like talking to anyone and if anyone talks to me at the moment, i'm either going to scream or burst into tears. I don't know what is wrong with me. This feeling is pathetic. What do I do? I need to attend an...
    lostnsad lostnsad 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    EmanonEvahi EmanonEvahi 36-40, M 9 Responses Sep 16, 2014

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    XCuteWithoutE XCuteWithoutE 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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