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I Am Depressed

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn 13-15, F 36 Responses Jun 30

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 7

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    And I honestly thought it was gone

    so be a camp I went to After that camp I felt so much better No more depression No more anxiety I had finally accepted God as my savior I stopped cutting Then recently I've been really depressed and crying all the time and my anxiety has come back Not as badly but it's there...
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    marianda01 marianda01 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 12

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15

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    My life thus far, explained in years of age: 1.

    I cannot remember. For my first birthday I got a cake in the shape of a baseball, based on the few photos from my childhood I managed to acquire. 2. I can remember only vaguely. We lived in a different house then. Our father worked at Safeway at the time, and often came home...
    EthanFisher EthanFisher 16-17 3 Responses Jun 24

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    Nightshade777 Nightshade777 31-35, M 8 Responses 2 days ago

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    Is school really worth the suicidal thoughts it

    gives me? I'm transferring to a different degree program next semester at a different school, so every class I'm taking now is essentially a waste of money. Huh, so, these suicidal thoughts I'm having are for nothing. Good to ******* know. I may not even end up transferring to a...
    Lateralus07 Lateralus07 18-21, M 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    I FEEL LIKE RUNNING INTO A WALL,

    SMASHING MY HEAD INTO IT, AND PASSING OUT. I WANT MY SOUL TO SEPARATE ITSELF FROM MY BODY AND JUST GO HOME, BECAUSE I CAN'T TAKE THIS **** ANYMORE. MY LIFE IS A DREADFUL CYCLE OF PAIN AND SUFFERING, AND NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY, I CAN NEVER GET OUT. I ASK GOD FOR HELP; I PRAY...
    WinterIncandescence WinterIncandescence 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I sometimes cry cuz i see kids my age

    and younger happy and everyone knows who they are, even young gay couples **** me off who are together and interactual cuz i ask myself why cant that be me....i really do
    SexyBeazt96 SexyBeazt96 13-15, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 16-17, F 67 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    I want to sleep my days away

    until I have none. I want a drunken stupor that lasts in silence of my own house so I can dwell and be completely lost but without being lost at all. No one to call. No one to see. No one to hear. Just me and my empty thoughts. Alone. In complete bitter silence where my mind...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 2

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    Alone In This World

    i am alone.I need someone who understnds my feelings right now.I have many friends but they nevr gona understnd what im feeling is,nt even my familiy.I dnt knw y everythng has been changd.I wnt everythng to b same as befor.Im tryng my bst to b strong bt y cnt any1 understnds it.Y...
    MagiCizMe MagiCizMe 22-25, F 11 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    Feel so down today. Nothing weird though,

    I always do. But I don't know, it is a different kind of sadness today.
    dukealone dukealone 13-15, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Razor blade on my palm.

    . playing with it.. while listening to MCR's songs.. i'm getting all suicidal thoughts.. abd im practically laughing because of it.. hahaha.. me dying is awesome.. though im just gonna cut.. ill show the world.. how it made me **** myself up.. how it ruined me.. hahaha.. x'D no...
    PartyPoison04 PartyPoison04 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 28

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    DepressingKayla DepressingKayla 16-17, F 13 Responses Jun 27

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    You'll never know what i feel.

    . You'll never know what i've seen. You'll never know who iam.. You'll never understand me.. No one ever did fullyvsee the true me.. Nothing can see my true identity.. All you see is the happy me.. but it will leave a mystery when you swe the sad glimpse in my eyes.. im broken...
    PartyPoison04 PartyPoison04 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    From Me To You. A Story From Ep Friend That Motivates Me.

    From me. To you:"Just so you know depression is not a disease or a condition, it's...a state of the mind which coerces you to believe that you are all alone and helpless to the causes around you that is overwhelming your vision of life ahead, it can be beat if you surround...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Dec 17, 2012

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    Have you ever felt like you've hit rock bottom

    only to find that bottom drops and you fall even further? Yeah I'm feeling that bottom slowly start to drop again. Maybe I'm worring too soon. Maybe. Who knows. I just pray that I get hired in full time and not passed by. Out of the 9 temps there 4 "kids" and by kids I...
    thedude5600 thedude5600 36-40, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    DarkLoser DarkLoser 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Force myself out of bed,

    force a fake smile on my face to make a fake happiness. My entire body aches. I'm not motivated to do anything. I just wanna curl up in a ball and do nothing. I cry way too much and I overthink everything there is to think about. I get headaches all the time from pulling out my...
    DepressingKayla DepressingKayla 16-17, F 4 Responses May 28

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    When I'm crying and he comes to comfort me ^~^

    dogs are more loyal then people
    PrincessManuela PrincessManuela 13-15, F 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    I have a happy family A family

    who fight each other a Family .. A monster, A hell. I have a family wwho'd messed up with mmy head. Who suffocate and choke my system to no return. I have a family, .... Theyre not my home.. theyre hell...they made me suffer.. they brought pain.. They're my. family.. Not..
    PartyPoison04 PartyPoison04 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I kind of wish I had the guts to run away

    or kill myself right now. Maybe if I was stupid I could do drugs and drink to make myself feel better. Unfortunately I'm not stupid, to scared to kill myself and no where to run away too.
    sugarcakes143 sugarcakes143 18-21, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    The Solution

    i climb so high just to fall it doesn't matter after all it pulls me in i try to leave there's just so much i cannot believe i hate this place i want to go although my sadness never shows step by step i slowly ascend where i'll fall will just depend tiny capsules of quick...
    irishnative irishnative 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 14, 2013

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    I have a happy family A family

    who fight each other a Family .. A monster, A hell. I have a family wwho'd messed up with mmy head. Who suffocate and choke my system to no return. I have a family, .... Theyre not my home.. theyre hell...they made me suffer.. they brought pain.. They're my. family.. Not..
    PartyPoison04 PartyPoison04 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    ****. I can't stand that I'm actually posting

    here like some basic attention-seeking emo kid. It's just that I'm getting to that point were I don't know what to do: ergo the reason I am posting. I've always been the one to start fights within the family. I don't mean to nor do I want to, yet it's still my fault for the...
    Yolkin Yolkin 16-17, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 13-15, F 14 Responses Sep 4

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    I wish I was never born.

    I hate that I have to live my life a certain way when I didn't even ask to be here. I just wanna be alone I wanna disappear I don't want to work or go to school or talk to anyone ever.
    kwestdavis kwestdavis 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    life seems so pointless.

    . anyone else feel like this?
    AlexAnimeFreak AlexAnimeFreak 13-15, F 10 Responses Mar 21

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    I Do Know What It Feels Like. ...

    I do know what it feels like. I'm not there right now, but I certainly know what it feels like to not want to wake up again. Its a dark, dark, distant place and I could never wish that on anyone else. Its hard **** but you can get through it. The worse thing is it that you...
    pacwoman pacwoman 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 8, 2007

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    Since I lost the greatest love of my life I

    have been asked countless times what I did to her that caused this. Unfortunately it is assumed that since I am a man, all men are jerks and thus I did something wrong. I can’t say that this did not offend me because I gave her nothing but kindness, love and respect. I did...
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 5 Responses Aug 13

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    I have been for about three years now,

    and the other night I was just writing in my notebook about everything and I realized how much I really wanted to die. And it turned into a suicide letter. I don't have a plan, but I can't see anything getting better. Every time something does, something else comes along and...
    XxMyChemicalRomancexX XxMyChemicalRomancexX 13-15, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Im feeling so empty..

    this is my last resort i cant tell anyone >.< How do i stop it?:(
    MrJenks MrJenks 13-15, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Theres no reason i should be depressed,

    my anger lies within inequality and stupidity. I hate everything because my personality causes me to realize how unintelligent my generation has been.
    Tornapart64 Tornapart64 16-17, M 3 days ago

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    My damned depression is getting out of hand.

    I can't really sleep anymore. I can't eat, relax, laugh, giggle, smile, or speak above a whisper. I can't walk past or stand near my mother or sister without being yelled at. I can't help but feel hurt when I over-hear compliments, kisses, "I Love You", shouts...
    SimplyZero SimplyZero 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    second day of college

    and it is absolutely horrible... i can't connect with anyone... i had hoped it would be better then highschool... now i don't know how to keep going
    matthewnew matthewnew 18-21 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    Depression is complicated.

    Like your sad but you have no real reason for it. I have reasons but there excuses. Because in the end I'm not sad because of things happening to me. I'm sad just because I am. How can you ever tell someone that. How can you explain to them how you feel when you have no valid...
    alyssakayart alyssakayart 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    i feel i have no soul everything's falling

    apart.. and all i wanna do is go home.. but i dont have one.. I never had a reason to know why i should live.. i never find one place.. i think im getting crazy.. im ruining my broken life. im broken deeper and deeper i get lost at my own demons. why would i still live if i got...
    PartyPoison04 PartyPoison04 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 9

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    it seems like i can't catch a break.

    i don't deliberately try to be bad, but everyone thinks that. i am in trouble almost all the time, and i don't even know why. i'm not rebelling, i'm not doing it on purpose to prove a point, i'm not bad. i'm just misunderstood... just recently school started. i've made friends...
    KatieRosess KatieRosess 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 Apr 23, 2013

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    Well may some of my friends here know

    that I'm in Mexico for the whole summer, which I'm super excited about! I been hanging out with my cousins, been going out downtown, played soccer, walking around, and other stuff. But lately I been starting to feel sad, kinda depressed I would said it. I guess I really do miss...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 21

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    Stuff Is Making Me Mad

    I've had issues with depression since I was 11. I eventually was put on medication when I wasn't self medicating with other things. I was forced to stay off my mood stabilizer when my mother went all nuts and threatened a lot of BS if I filled my prescription with her insurance...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    my ex broke up with me

    and then went on to someone new three weeks later after 4 years. He knowingly played with my heart for three months, in the end I lost out and am depressed and hurt over this. How you can do that to someone that you loved for 4 years I don't understand.
    ll77 ll77 36-40, F 16 Responses Aug 11

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    "What are those?" he asked pointing at the

    scars in my arm. "Battle wounds." I whispered. "Who were you fighting?" "Myself...." - K
    KLawliet KLawliet 16-17, F 10 Responses Sep 5

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    "Alone" By: Edgar Allen Poe.

    From childhood's hour I have not been As others were; I have not seen As others saw; I could not bring My passions from a common spring. From the same source I have not taken My sorrow; I could not awaken My heart to joy at the same tone; And all I loved, I loved alone. Then...
    Nightshade777 Nightshade777 31-35, M 3 hrs ago

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    Please Listen,

    hush little angel dont you cry, put down you lighter  and dont say goodbye, cuts will heal,  and you're bruises will fade,   i know it seems dark  but itll be ok, i know you feel alone but im right here, ill hold you real tight,  and chase away your fears,  i love you so...
    onelittlecat onelittlecat 13-15, F 7 Responses Sep 24, 2013

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    I just feel like every time someone says "we

    need to talk" its about negative issues and I feel sad right away. why do I automatically think bad things..
    damonsmommy damonsmommy 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have a happy family A family

    who fight each other a Family .. A monster, A hell. I have a family wwho'd messed up with mmy head. Who suffocate and choke my system to no return. I have a family, .... Theyre not my home.. theyre hell...they made me suffer.. they brought pain.. They're my. family.. Not..
    PartyPoison04 PartyPoison04 13-15, F 3 days ago

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