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    Feeling depressed lately.

    Not really sure why. Wishing I felt motivated and happy. But instead I seem to be tired and in pain, and just unhappy. My husband seems to be happy, he's been busy, doing the things he enjoys. I've been doing things that used to make me happy, but I still feel the same...
    st4rshine st4rshine 26-30, F 15 hrs ago

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    I'm having a rough night.

    While contemplating suicide I took a long, cold walk through town and back roads exploring my mind into places it hasn't been to in what feels like forever, I stopped at a park to sit on the swings, I cried, I took deep breaths and I started walking again... my mind now feels...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Everybody is always so fuc*king "fine".

    But we are not. Sometimes, we are hurt and bruised and nearly completely shattered and this, sir, is not what one calls fine... No one knows what's happening and you have to wear that fake smile so you don't hurt others..
    JennyAB JennyAB 16-17, F 10 Responses Jan 4

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    musl1ma musl1ma 26-30, F 13 hrs ago

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    This is what my deposition feels like It feels

    like I’m walking upstream
through a current strong enough
to pull me under four times over. There are others, with me
but they are walking along the banks.
telling me to ” just get out of the water.”
But instead of extending a hand in help,
they just move on...
    princesscaela princesscaela 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Nightshade777 Nightshade777 36-40, M 9 Responses Sep 16, 2014

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    Since I lost the greatest love of my life I

    have been asked countless times what I did to her that caused this. Unfortunately it is assumed that since I am a man, all men are jerks and thus I did something wrong. I can’t say that this did not offend me because I gave her nothing but kindness, love and respect. I did...
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 4 Responses Aug 13, 2014

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    Newgirl00 Newgirl00 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 15

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    He doesn't care. I should have known.

    If he did care, he would text me. He would have texted me when I missed class to go out of town. For all he knows or cares, I could have died or seriously hurt myself. And I know it sounds stupid but do you have any idea how happy a text from him would make me right now? I...
    blackspikex blackspikex 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    BigMak32 BigMak32 16-17, M 2 days ago

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    I still haven't went to get help,

    I can't bring myself to do it. Maybe I don't actually care and want to feel this way. I don't see my future, I can't see myself doing anything "happy and productive" in the next 5-10 years if I do live. I'm useless, not really good at anything. Although there are positive sides...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 4 Responses Jan 14

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    And I feel I can't talk about it anymore.

    This hurts, more than it should. I've been betrayed and lied to my entire life, nothing gets better. All I want to do is cry, and lay in bed. The one person who I'd thought understood, and loved me turned out to be someone completely different than who I'd thought they were. I...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Alone In This World

    i am alone.I need someone who understnds my feelings right now.I have many friends but they nevr gona understnd what im feeling is,nt even my familiy.I dnt knw y everythng has been changd.I wnt everythng to b same as befor.Im tryng my bst to b strong bt y cnt any1 understnds it.Y...
    MagiCizMe MagiCizMe 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    No one cares about you

    unless you're pretty or dead.
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 28, 2014

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    eltrakills eltrakills 13-15, M 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    musl1ma musl1ma 26-30, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    they always say that suicide isnt an option,

    but they never give you an better one......
    lilbit33 lilbit33 22-25, F 7 Responses Dec 4, 2014

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    I've got another life,

    and it's free of pain...
    s0undgarden s0undgarden 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    Sweetaugust Sweetaugust 16-17, F 6 Responses Jan 1

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    I Am Depressed

    I know I am depressed, it has taken me over a year to get medication for it. The constant low moods and then getting really angry. It kills me. Although not suicidal yet i feel the brief feelings coming on. I can't physically move from bed in the morning, i don't want to go out...
    sparkle11 sparkle11 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 10, 2012

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    I Do Know What It Feels Like. ...

    I do know what it feels like. I'm not there right now, but I certainly know what it feels like to not want to wake up again. Its a dark, dark, distant place and I could never wish that on anyone else. Its hard **** but you can get through it. The worse thing is it that you...
    pacwoman pacwoman 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 8, 2007

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    Am I Dreaming Or Is It Me?

    I fall asleep to wake up to this dream. This dream of me. This dream of me falling off the track. Of things I can't take back. It's just a list of faces and known places. A heart that cannot be fixed. A mind that's on the fritz. What is this. What is this hole you've dug...
    solomon3020 solomon3020 18-21, M 16 Responses Jun 5, 2014

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    She broke up with me today.

    We had all the same interests, we supported each other, we made each other happy, but she said she didn't feel a deeper connection and refused to explain any further. I could have married her. I would have married her. I've never cried so much in my life.
    iNomaD iNomaD 22-25, M 4 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I just want to float away,

    from everything. Into a land of wonder and all lost dreams.
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    This is my first time back to this website in

    over four years. I have been trying to fight my depression other ways. Lets just say it hasn't been working. The last time I was on here was with my ex for many reasons and I am now here because of my new boyfriend. Things were great for us at first we feel in love so quickly...
    SecretAbby SecretAbby 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Hey, how's all you trolls been?

    I haven't been on here in a long time. Months actually. One of the people I was talking to and became good friends with turned out to be so fake that it made feel like everyone on here is but oh well I guess I should get over it. What should I expect, it is the internet after...
    HopelessClarity HopelessClarity 22-25, F 6 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    Again. Depression has taken control over me.

    All I can think of is death. And I pushed people away, I even asked my ******* best friend to kill me. Haha. Death, wherever you are, you better pick me up soon.
    EmotionlessDude EmotionlessDude 13-15, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    So I battle depression

    but today just ran over my husband's gone doing marine stuff and I found out mybest friends baby pasted away in his sleep last night at some point and the don't know why he was 9 months old well would have been sept 11 :(
    sweety7268 sweety7268 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 7, 2014

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    tatterdremains tatterdremains 13-15, M 2 days ago

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    I can't cry. I literally can't.

    I have no tears left and I want so badly to cry. I never feel happy. Almost nothing excites me or makes me happy anymore. It's been like this for almost two years now, or more I don't remember. I feel a sadness lurking around me all the time. Around my friends, my family, around...
    camelunicorn camelunicorn 13-15, F 33 Responses Jun 30, 2014

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    I Send My Love To You All ≪3

    i know you don't no me in person... but i just wanted to say that i love you. I don't care who you are . what your problems are . your sexuality , your skin colour, where you live , what language you speak , your choice of music or what ever , i just wanted to say i love you. I...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 1 Response Apr 23, 2013

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    That moment.. You want to connect with someone,

    someone to be close to..and u realize u have no one lol.. :D That's exactly how im feeling right now..have no one to say "hey" to or to ask me how I am? or how my life is going? and to know about there day and how things have been going with them.Sucks having no close friends...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 4 Responses May 15, 2014

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    I fight a constant inner battle of whether

    or not to kill myself I honestly want to but I don't because my blade isn't sharp enough and I need a new one
    Mallexx Mallexx 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Sadness is tears after losing a game

    or a broken bone, depression is sobs at 3 am when you're all alone. Sadness makes you blue, depression makes you numb. Sadness loses to happy, depression loses to none. Sadness is the curious neighbor, depression is the unwanted houseguest. Sadness is your hotel room, depression...
    BabyBlondeOne BabyBlondeOne 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 6

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    I finally ate after 3 days,

    every time I think about what happened I feel sick to my stomach, it makes me not want to sleep, I don't even want to smoke weed, all I want to do is drink. Here I am trying to find benevolence in a bottle rethinking everything, listening to Absolution on repeat. I burned myself...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    My Declaration

    So many thoughts course through my mind that it has grown weary. Thoughts of life, of meaning, of purpose, of concepts, of beliefs.  Thoughts of “shoulds” or “should have nots”. Thoughts of reasoning, of justification. Thoughts of fantasies, of fulfillment. Thoughts of...
    WearOutKyd WearOutKyd 26-30, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    My heart can only take

    so much. I don't know what to do to escape the pain. My thoughts frighten me.
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 9 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    Only those who have experienced depression

    truly understand what a debilitating and horrible disease it is. All you want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. The medication that the psychiatrists give you cause you to become even more numb, more cold. You feel worthless, helpless even. You begin to self-medicate but...
    SuicideRedefined SuicideRedefined 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    I pour my heart out and the only comment I get

    is someone who got me mixed up with someone else. I should have known better than to come to this site.
    Seldomone Seldomone 18-21, M 4 hrs ago

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    Found this app and found out how depressed I

    really am and it really accurate
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 3 hrs ago

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    I want to sleep my days away

    until I have none. I want a drunken stupor that lasts in silence of my own house so I can dwell and be completely lost but without being lost at all. No one to call. No one to see. No one to hear. Just me and my empty thoughts. Alone. In complete bitter silence where my mind...
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    Sometimes I ask myself

    why are we really put here? Why are we given feelings and emotions ? We never asked to be here! I didn't! I don't wana be! My mom wanted me here but she failed that! She was suppose to protect me i was her only daughter how could you let that happen right under your nose and not...
    BrownieGirl1192 BrownieGirl1192 22-25, F 2 hrs ago

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    Stuff Is Making Me Mad

    I've had issues with depression since I was 11. I eventually was put on medication when I wasn't self medicating with other things. I was forced to stay off my mood stabilizer when my mother went all nuts and threatened a lot of BS if I filled my prescription with her insurance...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 20, 2013

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    Chocolate and mathematics.

    .My days pass , without noticing. One day I will be an old woman. I will be wondering why I missed so many years crying. When I was young, healthy and had everything. That's what I will be thinking then. How ungratedfull I was, how stupid was I to be sad for such tiny...
    sparkydream sparkydream 18-21, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    "What are those?" he asked pointing at the

    scars in my arm. "Battle wounds." I whispered. "Who were you fighting?" "Myself...." - K
    IAmACatXP IAmACatXP 13-15, F 8 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    Think About This...

    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 16-17, F 66 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    I felt so invisible today.

    I just need a hug or something..
    juliaarosee juliaarosee 16-17, F 13 Responses Sep 4, 2014

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    You know what, fvck it.

    I may or may not kill myself, won't be over anyone though. I have my own problems, they've been influenced, I was used, but I've been through worse.
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I'm dying to feel something other

    than this emptiness where nothingness exists
    tatterdremains tatterdremains 13-15, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Did You Know....

    Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive.... Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated.... Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the one who needs it the most...
    deleted deleted 26-30 99 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    Well may some of my friends here know

    that I'm in Mexico for the whole summer, which I'm super excited about! I been hanging out with my cousins, been going out downtown, played soccer, walking around, and other stuff. But lately I been starting to feel sad, kinda depressed I would said it. I guess I really do miss...
    Zimry96 Zimry96 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 21, 2014

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    One week selfharm free,

    can't do this anymore. I need to hurt I deserve so much pain(:(
    arielmadelen arielmadelen 22-25, F 5 Responses 2 days ago