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I Am Different Since My Mother Died

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    I don't know, tonight I just lost it,

    someone brought the subject of mothers up. its really ****** that all we have in life is time, the only thing we calculate someone's lifeline is how long their heart beats for a minute, Its all fun and games until the old ticker or your body gives out........ We live in...
    Arizv11 Arizv11 22-25, M Jul 10, 2014

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    My mom died in August of 2004.

    It was 2 weeks before my 19th birthday and I had graduated high school 2 months prior. I used to be so full of life and loved to have fun. After she died, I became responsible for my younger siblings and didn't really have time to grieve. 2 years after her death, it finally hit...
    xtrishax xtrishax 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    It's been 20 years since my mother died

    and I am very different from that 28 year old girl who lost her mom. I became an adult that day, found out I was much stronger than I thought I could be. Along the years, I realized that she had prepared me to face any challenge, including that of overcoming her death, she had...
    diablesse34 diablesse34 46-50, F 11 Responses Jan 24, 2014

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    I miss my mother so much this time of the year.

    I miss her every day but so much right now. I know she's Okay where she is but the problem is I want to be with her more than living. it seems like there is always something pulling me down. For me It's the depression and anxiety. some days I think I'm doing Okay then...
    NaturesAnomaly NaturesAnomaly 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 25, 2014

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    My Mom Just Died And My Dad Is Already Seeing Someone

    This wont be a long story. Its really just for some feedback. My Mom died Feb 2011 of breast cancer.  She and my dad had been married for 55 years. They lived in the house that I grew up in  since 1975. I understand that life has to go on, and I don't expect my dad to live...
    rockyjohnson43 rockyjohnson43 41-45, F 55 Responses Mar 25, 2011

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    For Everyone Who's Lost Their Mother

    “You can shed tears that she is gone, or you can smile because she has lived. You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back, or you can open your eyes and see all she's left. Your heart can be empty because you can't see her, or you can be full of the love you shared...
    diablesse34 diablesse34 46-50, F 6 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    March 17,2014- Her fourth anniversary.

    It´s been 4 years since mom passed away and there isn´t a day gone by that we, Missy and I, don´t think about her, talk about her and miss her terribly. I hope she is well and happy and enjoying the company of my dad,again. I trust they are protecting us . I...
    underconstruction underconstruction 41-45, F 6 Responses Mar 17, 2014

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    My New Life

    My New Life! I hate my new life. It is another chapter in my life that I don't want to turn. It has been a month since my beloved mother left me and my family all alone. With her death a part of me has died. I am not happy ............I am not the same. I want to close my book...
    beingafriend beingafriend 31-35 2 Responses Feb 7, 2013

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    My Mother Died When I Was 5 Years Old

    My mother died when I was five years old. She developed a headache and my father took her to the hospital... and she never came back. She died of meningitis. I felt like I was just waiting... and waiting. I didn't understand what death was and thought that if that was where my...
    DiggDigg DiggDigg 46-50, M 20 Responses Feb 17, 2011

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    Loss Of My Beloved Mother

    I lost my mom on Nov 14.  She had parkinsons for years but was doing ok, till we returned to NJ and she went into a nursing home.  I feel like if she was at home she would not have gotten pneumonia and died.Mom and I were close,  i always asked her advice and we were best...
    debbie8800 debbie8800 51-55, F 24 Responses Dec 21, 2011

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    My mother died three years ago in September.

    We had taken her into the hospital when she passed out. After she got fluids in her, the nurse let us go home without seeing the doctor. This was not a good decision because my mom had been fighting cancer with chemotherapy in the hospital for months. They cleared her and let...
    kswans kswans 18-21 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    How My Mother's Death Changed Me

    I used to be the happy-go-lucky type.  You know, the one who always saw the proverbial silver lining.  This all changed in a few hours. My mother and I never had a perfect relationship, but who does?  We were friends, as well as family and definitely had our share...
    callmejingles callmejingles 41-45, F 72 Responses Aug 20, 2008

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    My children are teenagers (19

    and 15 ). My wonderful mother died last August (,2014 ) so I'm coping with that and working full time and they expect me to do everything for them aswell,they leave a mess everywhere they go etc.most upsetting of all is that they are rude to me especially the 15 year old!!! I'm...
    tamipar tamipar 56-60 2 Responses May 19

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    Just over 2 years ago my mom died.

    I took care of her 24 hours a day for 3 years until she passed. A few weeks later my father died. I'm 42 years old and this was my first experience losing someone close to me. I realize loss changes people but I never expected these changes to be permanent. My personality...
    Nolongersunshine Nolongersunshine 41-45, F 3 Responses May 14

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    I just want to cry when I think I don't have a

    mother anymore . Life is really hard without you mom , it really is . I'm suffering here
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333 22-25, F 14 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    It's been almost 6 years

    and I'm still grieving since my mom passed away. She was the only One who supported me in everything I do, encourages me to do more good to other people even when really hate me. Supported me in all sorts of ways. Never dragged me down like others. Always understands me. But sad...
    lanhancupto lanhancupto 26-30, M 3 Responses Apr 6, 2014

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    A Tribute To My Mother

    HER JOURNEY'S JUST BEGUNby E. BrennemanDon't think of her as gone away -her journey's just begun,life holds so many facets -this earth is only one.Just think of her as restingfrom the sorrows and the tearsin a place of warmth and comfortwhere there are no days and years.Think how...
    underconstruction underconstruction 41-45, F 23 Responses Apr 24, 2011

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    My mother died November last year

    when she went to visit her mother in there native country I had just made it there but I was too late we had to bury her back her native country next to her father and my dad left my 2 sisters and I and went to go back to his native country to find out his already married and...
    anthonysahin anthonysahin 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 6, 2014

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    Always There

    Your Mother is always with you. She's the whisper of the leaves as you walk down the street; she's the smell of bleach in your freshly laundered socks; she's the cool hand on your brow when you're not well. Your Mother lives inside your laughter. And she's crystallized in every...
    diablesse34 diablesse34 46-50, F 7 Responses Aug 31, 2013

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    I lost my mom 4/29/2012.

    She died suddenly at age 55. I miss her more each day. I am so lost without her. She was my best friend and my only parent. The only person I could really talk to and I knew for sure she would never judge me. Five months after losing my mom, I lost my youngest sister on 10/19...
    eightysixhim2 eightysixhim2 41-45, F 1 Response May 21, 2014

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    Im here because I love her,

    and im not sure what to say or do because she is so volnerable. My sister in law lost her mother when she was 6 years old my husband was 10 there father was an alcoholic for many years. She is now 30 and has a 5 yr old daughter. For the past 3 ye she has been making some...
    HopeandHeartache HopeandHeartache 31-35, F Aug 21, 2014

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    I've posted here already,

    but I have to ask- does it ever get better? The comes in waves but I am never rid of the feeling of just utter discontent. It's like I've misplaced something that I can't help but look for, knowing full well she won't be found anywhere on Earth. People have told me to turn it...
    kanellos kanellos 22-25, M 3 Responses Jun 29

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    My mom was my best friend

    and our lives were so intertwined . My mom had surgery and was doing well. We were to take her to rehab on Sunday May 4th and she passed away suddenly on May 3rd. We were talking one minute about how having coffee in the morning was going to her going in a Rehab, next moment...
    ac721 ac721 51-55, F 2 Responses May 31, 2014

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    My mom was prim and proper.

    I was never able to fully explore my sexuality or who I really am. I miss her, but enjoy the freedom.
    ladicat40 ladicat40 41-45, F Aug 11

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    I'm hurt that my father is rejecting me

    because I'm df'd. I'm gay but have been trying to turn away from it so my family will talk with me again. I'm so upset.
    1stborn1976 1stborn1976 36-40, F Sep 14, 2014

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    I have the date of my mothers death written,

    because if not I would forget. Over two years, yet I rarely think about her. I visited her grave once, and never since. Do you think I didn't love my mother? That may very well be, but this is how I feel; When I think of my mom, I feel so much pain, I push the thoughts away, and...
    Schmort Schmort 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 7, 2014

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    My mum was sick when i was starting university.

    I couldn't concentrate on my studies and i didn't like how she sounded when we talked on the phone. I failed the first semester and went home to see her. She had completely changed from the last time i said goodbye to her at the airport for uni. She was all skin and bones and...
    Beteljuice Beteljuice 22-25, F 1 Response May 29, 2014

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    Life Will Never Be The Same Without Her

    My mother passed away in 2010. March 17th to be exact. I miss her terribly. Not a day goes by without me missing my mom. I sometimes see her when I visit a place she loved or wish she´d be with me when I go to a place I know she would have liked to know. The grief is endless...
    underconstruction underconstruction 41-45, F 10 Responses Apr 17, 2011

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    I Still Don't Know What To Do.

    My mom died one month ago today on December 15. She had a cough for a few months but no one had any idea that she was going to die, even the six doctors we were seeing for her cough. I had just come home to visit for the day that morning, and I was cleaning my hamster's cage when...
    goldforever goldforever 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 15, 2012

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    I was 10 when my mom was killed in a car

    accident then raised by my dad (parents divorced when I was 6). After she died I would feel bad for experiencing pleasure. I felt bad that she was dead and I was still alive. I'm now 39 and still have been going through therapy for various things. Part of my emotional maturity...
    infp773 infp773 36-40, M 1 Response May 3, 2014

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    Told For The First Time

    My mother went to the doctor for the first time in I don't know how long, she was tired and not eating. Thought it was blood sugar or something of that nature. She turned out to be anaemic and was sent immediately across the street to the hospital for a blood transfusion. Within...
    Dantescircle Dantescircle 36-40, M 8 Responses Oct 22, 2013

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    Mom died in Tijuana, Mexico May 22nd 2014

    approximately 1900, alone. Guilt overwhelms me. She should have been with me, despite our small and insignificant differences. There should have been more awareness on my part of her ways and I should have given way to them while submersing my own habits in my home. When I...
    Morandob Morandob 41-45, M May 28, 2014

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    At least, I have been told this os the case.

    Or maybe it is that I merely no longer feel a need to wear a mask. Who knows? It's hard for me to say since I am still in apathetic mode. Perhaps that I dread what is to happen twelve hours from now. That is when my mother's "Celebration of life/Memorial" begins. She deserves...
    Myzery Myzery 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 21

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    21 MONTHS TODAY

    My mom passed away on March , 17, 2010.  It´s been 21 months. Her absence has definitely changed me. My life is, and never will be the same without her.  If she could hear me,  I´d love to tell her this :   ..And I like to imagine these would be her words of comfort, if she...
    underconstruction underconstruction 41-45, F 15 Responses Dec 17, 2011

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    Missing You...:( :( :( :(

    God looked around His garden, and found and empty place; He then looked down upon His earth, and saw your loving face. He put His arms around you, and lifted you to rest, His garden must be beautiful, He always takes His best. It's been 10 months. missing you terribly mommy. miss...
    Titan007 Titan007 22-25, M 5 Responses Jul 15, 2010

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    Life Is Definately Different...

    My mother died early 2010. It was the WORST day of my life, and i've had some super bad days. I was chatting on the phone with her when she slipped in her jacuzzi and hit her head and drown. I went to check on her and of course found her. I was screaming and crying and just...
    zipper42 zipper42 26-30 135 Responses Jul 7, 2010

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    My Mother Died After Childbirth At 28

    My mom died at the young age of 28.  She died from complications from childbirth.  (blood clot). She never made it home from the hospital with my new born baby brother.  I remember the night before my father went to get her suitcase. It was around 8 p.m. and I was...
    rosey122 rosey122 56-60, F 5 Responses Jul 22, 2010

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    Its been 3 years this coming november.

    I have changed drastically since then. I explored different relationships and they never worked out right, my BP 2 got worse and more depressive, and I go thru relationships like underwear it seems.My dad got into another relationship 2 months after she had passed. it hurt a lot...
    gotguts gotguts 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I Wonder

    I wonder if you would like the woman I've become, I wonder if you would like the man I chose to marry, I wonder if you know the burden I carry, I wonder if you know of the trials I have overcome, I wonder if you truly loved me, or the dna was all that tied us together, I wonder...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 15, 2012

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    My heart aches and I cry

    as I read your posts and describe my experience. I understand what you all are going through and I give you my deepest condolences.I am 30 years old and I am a motherless daughter. My mom passed away March 15, 2015 from uteran cancer that metastasized everywhere. She was...
    Motherlessdaughter85 Motherlessdaughter85 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 23

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    I have lost my mum,my anchor,

    my attachment to all that was familiar to me,I have changed. My mother was Asian as I am, she was a force to be reckoned with, invincible her presence made sense of everything, now nothing and no one makes sense,I guess I'm still angry that she was taken away. I also feel guilt...
    tamipar tamipar 56-60 2 Responses Mar 5

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    March 17, 2015. Today is her fifth anniversary.

    I have thought about her all day. Miss her. I remember how much she loved life and how well she coped with it. I wish I had the same enthusiasm she had to live life happy. I hope now that she is not on this Earth she continues to be happy and spread joy around. I will always...
    underconstruction underconstruction 41-45, F 4 Responses Mar 17

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    My mother passed away six weeks ago.

    ...very early days I know. I don't think I will ever be the same person I was before. I miss my mum so much it breaks my heart. She didn't deserve cancer. She wasn't a bad person. How on earth am I supposed to spend the rest of my life on earth knowing that she is not here to...
    suesol suesol 36-40 Aug 17

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    My mom passed away two years ago.

    We argued a lot but she was still my best friend. She was really sick growing up so my childhood was basically in and out of the hospital. As selfish as this sounds, I was mad at her for that. I was mad at her for not giving me a chance to live a normal life. Although, when she...
    thehumbleturtle thehumbleturtle 18-21, F 3 Responses May 29, 2014

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    My Mom Is Gone

    So, my Mother is in the hospital. She has pnemonia, a blood clot in each lung and a couple in her legs. She can't eat or drink anything, and she can't provide herself with enough oxygen. They have a picc line running into her, giving her all of her antibiotics, blood thiners and...
    raincloud520 raincloud520 22-25, F 10 Responses Nov 8, 2009

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    Never Gonna Be The Same

    I was 9 years old, I remember the ni