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I Am Disconnected

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    Surfacing

    **** you all!!! Running out of ways to run I can't see, I can't be Over and over and under my skin All this attention is doing me in **** it all! **** this world! **** everything that you stand for! Don't belong! Don't exist! Don't give a ****! Don't ever judge me! Picking...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    Levity

    Power is nothing without kontrol, and I'm all out of kontrol.  I have been for a while. I need it, but it's not there. I've lost my mind. Can't find it anywhere.  So, well and gone and lost before. Light so bright I'm ******* blind. Desperation is a tender trap. It gets me...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 10, 2012

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    2 Of U

    Your not aware of it, so you can't identify it. Tangible invisibility, obvious and real to me.  Let it go. Lie to others, not to yourself.  Denial won't make it disappear.  The more you do it, will make the lies seem clear. Lies perpetuate fear. Trust me on this. I know who...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M Jul 13, 2012

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    The Disconnection Has Gone For Now.

    This disconnected feeling I get sometimes from my PTSD comes and goes.  For anyone who has it,  it is awful and its difficult to  explain.  Don't you find that other people don't understand, and its sometimes hard to explain anyway..THAT you are here but...
    csan csan 61-65, F 4 Responses Nov 21, 2007

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    Disconnected Feelings/ptsd

    This is when I feel suicidal.  Its called a dissassociative personality disorder... which can be triggered by different stresses.  I'm going through it now Oct 2007, but it has never  lasted this long.. It comeson as suddenly as it leaves.  CAN ANY ONE HELP ME...
    csan csan 61-65, F Oct 3, 2007

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    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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