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I Am Disconnected

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    Levity

    Power is nothing without kontrol, and I'm all out of kontrol.  I have been for a while. I need it, but it's not there. I've lost my mind. Can't find it anywhere.  So, well and gone and lost before. Light so bright I'm ******* blind. Desperation is a tender trap. It gets me...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 10, 2012

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    The Disconnection Has Gone For Now.

    This disconnected feeling I get sometimes from my PTSD comes and goes.  For anyone who has it,  it is awful and its difficult to  explain.  Don't you find that other people don't understand, and its sometimes hard to explain anyway..THAT you are here but...
    csan csan 61-65, F 4 Responses Nov 21, 2007

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    Surfacing

    **** you all!!! Running out of ways to run I can't see, I can't be Over and over and under my skin All this attention is doing me in **** it all! **** this world! **** everything that you stand for! Don't belong! Don't exist! Don't give a ****! Don't ever judge me! Picking...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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    2 Of U

    Your not aware of it, so you can't identify it. Tangible invisibility, obvious and real to me.  Let it go. Lie to others, not to yourself.  Denial won't make it disappear.  The more you do it, will make the lies seem clear. Lies perpetuate fear. Trust me on this. I know who...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M Jul 13, 2012

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    Disconnected Feelings/ptsd

    This is when I feel suicidal.  Its called a dissassociative personality disorder... which can be triggered by different stresses.  I'm going through it now Oct 2007, but it has never  lasted this long.. It comeson as suddenly as it leaves.  CAN ANY ONE HELP ME...
    csan csan 61-65, F Oct 3, 2007

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    I deeply feel disconnected.. I'm building walls to keep people out, to see who's cares enough to break into them. As the clock ticks, I'm drawn more into myself.. I feel like I...
    ShallowPink ShallowPink 18-21, F Jul 9

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    Communication is at an all time low. I wake up early one morning and he's sitting with his back to me, on his side of the bed. My phone buzzes - he's texting me!!! WTF? He was mad...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 10

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    Earlier today I was over forty minutes into "The doctor is running behind," so I was doing my best to get comfortable in the waiting room and playing on Facebook. Try as I might to...
    shydate shydate 66-70, M 2 hrs ago

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    June 27. Achieving Harmony. When a pianist learns a new piece of music, he or she does not sit down and instantly play it perfectly. A pianist often needs to practice each hand's...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Jun 27

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    June 27. Achieving Harmony. When a pianist learns a new piece of music, he or she does not sit down and instantly play it perfectly. A pianist often needs to practice each hand's...
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    June 27. Achieving Harmony. When a pianist learns a new piece of music, he or she does not sit down and instantly play it perfectly. A pianist often needs to practice each hand's...
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    June 27. Achieving Harmony. When a pianist learns a new piece of music, he or she does not sit down and instantly play it perfectly. A pianist often needs to practice each hand's...
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    June 27. Achieving Harmony. When a pianist learns a new piece of music, he or she does not sit down and instantly play it perfectly. A pianist often needs to practice each hand's...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    June 27. Achieving Harmony. When a pianist learns a new piece of music, he or she does not sit down and instantly play it perfectly. A pianist often needs to practice each hand's...
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    June 27. Achieving Harmony. When a pianist learns a new piece of music, he or she does not sit down and instantly play it perfectly. A pianist often needs to practice each hand's...
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    June 27. Achieving Harmony. When a pianist learns a new piece of music, he or she does not sit down and instantly play it perfectly. A pianist often needs to practice each hand's...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    I feel so confused most days, I just don't feel like im really here, I feel like Im in a movie watching myself or something. I don't know it's weird, I feel disconnected from my...
    silentgirl1234 silentgirl1234 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 3

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    I had no idea that this can happen to me. This all started when I got married before 4 years. I had couple of boyfriends before that, but that didn't workout because of cultural...
    Abhipsa Abhipsa 26-30, F Jul 9

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    It's been two years since I had a relationship and I miss being touched so much. I feel disconnected from the rest of the world without it.
    stl2nite stl2nite 22-25, M Jun 25

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    Final Meeting with the Marriage Counselor - I went to my last marriage counseling session today. My H and the therapist don't know I'm not coming back again because they're not...
    CherishMe2 CherishMe2 51-55, F 18 Responses Jun 25

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    I'm a seventeen year old girk who has only ever begun taking any drugs, including marajuana within the last year at most. Weed itself has made me believe strange things and...
    SophiaMadelineRose SophiaMadelineRose 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    My husband says he loves me and he sounds sincere. I have shared my experience about our relationship. I have felt so hurt by him, deserted and ignored. To hear him say he loves me...
    cocobel cocobel 36-40 Jun 26

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    My heart is sore. Literally. It's been years since I've felt this way, this alone. Futility. That's been my word for the day. It manages to be a word both handed to me and selected...
    KeagzB KeagzB 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 27

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    I am a step-mom to 3 boys... I am 25 years old, and adopted out my son when I was 17... I am now helping to raise an 8 year old, 7 year old and a 5 year old... Lately I have been...
    KaeMarie3 KaeMarie3 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 27

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    Honesty I've always been self-conscious about inflicting pain or harming myself, but is something that deep inside I wanted to do way before. I've been feeling lonely and detached...
    awzn awzn 22-25, M Jun 28

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    Honesty I've always been self-conscious about inflicting pain or harming myself, but is something that deep inside I wanted to do way before. I've been feeling lonely and detached...
    awzn awzn 22-25, M Jun 28

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    Soul disconnected, Body like a ghost, No one to see me, Body untouched, Walls up! x
    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    I've known that I was attracted to both genders since I was a young girl, but I never knew what that meant. I grew up silent. I didn't ask questions- although I had many. Most of...
    Villane Villane 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    DisconnectedSoul posted a question where we fill in the blank. It was a line to a song "if I was a flower growing wild and free all I'd want is you to be my __________?" I posted...
    GraceJediHeart GraceJediHeart 22-25, F Jul 2

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    We met online in omegle! Haha when im bored i go to this site. No, im not searching for bananas😤. When i open my cam and start seeing strangers, i always using my stupid and...
    daneean daneean 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 2

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    You know what sucks about having online friends? U know theyre there but they dont try to talk to u. The green dot by their name on Facebook. They tweet and retweet on Twitter. The...
    AngelBornInHell AngelBornInHell 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    Who am I? I am a chameleon. I change, I turn blue or pink depending on what your favorite color is. Deep down, I want you to protect me and I want you to love me. I am a mirror...
    sabrinainstars sabrinainstars 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 3

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    Ok this is what's happening. I'm feeling really down and disconnected. I have 7 weeks off work. Have already wasted one of them. I can't seem to be able to launch myself into...
    judani judani 61-65, F 2 Responses Jul 4

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    My craziest experience is about the 6th time I smoked DMT. I smoked it alone this time... Which made it extra scary. I took like 5 or 6 huge puffs within the span of about 30 - 40...
    Danielle9355 Danielle9355 26-30, F Jul 4

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    I don't know why but I just can't. I can tell when people love me but I can't love them back, I just don't feel it no matter how hard I try. It's like I'm disconnected from...
    WinterSkyout WinterSkyout 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    I have always felt that I experience more emotional pain than others, but I used to think of this as a character flaw rather than an inborn trait. When I was in middle school, I...
    kaylie2323 kaylie2323 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    Long story short the final straw came Friday night when I found out he was planning on meeting another woman and the details were sketchy about whether or not they wanted to keep...
    Benassi Benassi 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 7

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    Bare with me, long story. For many years there has been a street that I do not like, get bad vibes from. Can't really explain why, just hate driving down that street. Yesterday...
    TheEppy TheEppy 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    Kinder, Kirche, Kuche (Children, Church, Kitchen) Part Three - Chapter One Hundred Fifty-One April 10th would be Mary Jane's seventeenth birthday. For all of the people saying...
    MaryJanine MaryJanine 56-60, F Jul 7

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    The pain is like a knife, piercing all the way through, burning and melting like magma away inside of me, I just want it to go away! It's spreads like poison... Sometimes, I'm...
    Mimi94x Mimi94x 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 7

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    You are right there 250 feet away we just made love and yet I feel so disconnected from you. I know you have health issues but don't we all however you can't seem to get past that...
    secretlife19 secretlife19 31-35, M 2 Responses Jul 8

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    I put myself out there. I go to the bars, the bands, the museums, the gym. People are so disconnected from each other and reality. All I want is to meet a nice girl and be given a...
    bioprof34 bioprof34 31-35 Jul 8

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    I just found this group. I love that this is the only group I belong to where everyone is such a good, clear, writer :). I too have struggled with this personality type. I am...
    nycgrrrl nycgrrrl 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 9

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    Something was wrong. I could feel it. There are not words to describe the feeling. Indeed, it’s not accurately a ‘feeling’. It does not feel like a kiss; sorrow; a stone...
    reluctantly reluctantly 36-40 3 Responses Jul 9

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    I was riding the bus the other day with my cousin when we witnessed angry old man accusing a young of stealing his phone charger. The young man had no idea why the old man was...
    Mulhollandrive Mulhollandrive 26-30, F Jul 9

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    I betrayed the trust of a close friend. She is my horse trainer, and we are practically sisters. I grew up with her. She has been disconnected from her job lately and hasn't been...
    gingerbetch gingerbetch 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 10

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