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I Am Disconnected

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    Levity

    Power is nothing without kontrol, and I'm all out of kontrol.  I have been for a while. I need it, but it's not there. I've lost my mind. Can't find it anywhere.  So, well and gone and lost before. Light so bright I'm ******* blind. Desperation is a tender trap. It gets me...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 10, 2012

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    The Disconnection Has Gone For Now.

    This disconnected feeling I get sometimes from my PTSD comes and goes.  For anyone who has it,  it is awful and its difficult to  explain.  Don't you find that other people don't understand, and its sometimes hard to explain anyway..THAT you are here but...
    csan csan 61-65, F 4 Responses Nov 21, 2007

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    Surfacing

    **** you all!!! Running out of ways to run I can't see, I can't be Over and over and under my skin All this attention is doing me in **** it all! **** this world! **** everything that you stand for! Don't belong! Don't exist! Don't give a ****! Don't ever judge me! Picking...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    2 Of U

    Your not aware of it, so you can't identify it. Tangible invisibility, obvious and real to me.  Let it go. Lie to others, not to yourself.  Denial won't make it disappear.  The more you do it, will make the lies seem clear. Lies perpetuate fear. Trust me on this. I know who...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M Jul 13, 2012

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    It has been a year since the last time I saw my

    college classmates. And years since the last time I saw my bestfriend. I check on their life's updates they seem pretty much doing well. Can't deny that it crosses my mind that they are well without me. I sometimes am left in surprise that they have had such a great change that...
    MaggieAndTheFerociousBeast MaggieAndTheFerociousBeast 18-21, F Feb 25

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    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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    Disconnected Feelings/ptsd

    This is when I feel suicidal.  Its called a dissassociative personality disorder... which can be triggered by different stresses.  I'm going through it now Oct 2007, but it has never  lasted this long.. It comeson as suddenly as it leaves.  CAN ANY ONE HELP ME...
    csan csan 61-65, F Oct 3, 2007

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    As much as I love my wife, I don't love "US" anymore! I'm so sick of the fighting & disagreements over just about everything. For so long I've kept my mouth shut & everything...
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    i dont really feel like writing on this im so depressed and disconnected im so sick and tired of being like this im going through the emotions i think ativan makes me feel flat i...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 day ago

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    Disconnected today... where's my heart?
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    its so strange the past few days i am just so irritated by everything he is doing. i wanna be close to him but i am feeling so disconnected lately and i dont know how to get things...
    rachlin50 rachlin50 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    I feel so disconnected to the world, my family and friends. I'm only truly happy when I'm playing video games or dreaming. I'm actually disappointed when I wake up in the morning...
    SpiderLilyPig SpiderLilyPig 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have been separated from my wife and 2 kids since december 2014. During this separation I have been hurting, scared, stressed, emotional, depressed, etc etc. We did not set any...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 days ago

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    I've recently been prescribed a new medication (stimulants for adhd) and recently remembered something I haven't thought about in a long time. I used to work for a small "start up...
    iacob iacob 26-30, T 2 days ago

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    I waited for the right man to come along. And 2 years ago he did. I left my family, career, friends and ... well my whole life behind, I crossed the ocean to be with him. And I...
    Sowhat1313 Sowhat1313 31-35, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    As I get older, I find myself eating less and less meat. Not because I consciously want to become vegan, but because I just don't enjoy meat anymore and it makes me feel lethargic...
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    Statements of mystical truths and palpable absurdities overwhelm my mind with unintelligible euphoria. Locking myself in the comfort of solitude, I unleash all eccentric thoughts...
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    TucanSam200 TucanSam200 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    I HATE my husband's ex...I finally said it! My husband dated this woman for a few months when he realized she was wrong for him and told her he didn't see this having a future bc...
    LAE1005 LAE1005 26-30, F a week ago

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    I always seem to make new friends fairly easily, but I still feel extremely disconnected from a lot of people. I'm here to hopefully make some new friends and feel less lonely...
    gabriella0258 gabriella0258 22-25, F 5 Responses Jul 26

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    I just need to get this out. I have been absolutely completely totally obsessed with vampires since I was 6. I want to be one.. so badly that I act it out in real life. I live a...
    CandyCoatedCorpse CandyCoatedCorpse 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    Coloursearching Coloursearching 22-25 Jul 23

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    cloudycarnage cloudycarnage 16-17, M Jul 23

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    How could death be worse then living in this world. This age of technology. This world that's supposed to be more connected through computers and mobile devices when actually it...
    bfsd150 bfsd150 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 23

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    My boyfriend has been back from deployment for about a week after being gone for a year. I'm feeling a bit disconnected from him. I feel like we talked way more when he was gone...
    Heidi816 Heidi816 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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    I really hate that as long as I get up, I am overwhelmed with the hungry feeling at home. Didn't I eat before going to sleep this morning? Why am I so hungry again? Well, as long...
    ExileMyself ExileMyself 26-30, F Jul 22

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    So, I am feeling lonely. Disconnected from the surrounding reality. Not in a "I will lose my mentality and kill myself" kind of way, but I don't feel the world like I used to - I...
    juliusjulius juliusjulius 26-30, M 5 Responses Jul 21

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    I am beginning to accept that I'm just a broken person. And I don't think I will ever be unbroken. My goal is just to get through the day, and to do that I usually sleep a lot. I...
    ThreeRedFeathers ThreeRedFeathers 22-25, F Jul 21

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    Currently on vacation at the beach, and while I expected it to be a relaxing trip to get my mind off of everything, it turns out that I've just gotten more upset. I just hate...
    brennx33 brennx33 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    So I'm wondering here, is there some werewolf gene or something? I swear, although I've never shape shifted literally, I've come about as close as possible without actually doing...
    saintash29 saintash29 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 20

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    I think that the roles have reversed. He refused me for so long. I have come to the realization that I no longer have any feeling for him. I feel completely disconnected. Lost...
    TallaLily TallaLily 51-55, F 4 Responses Jul 20

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    Fuzzybear79 Fuzzybear79 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 20

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    I do miss someone very much, we use to be AMAZING friends and he just sort of disappeared and it really sucks. Sadly we were online friends, and I never knew his last name, I had...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    Okay to the women out there who miss your boyfriends.......First a little bit on me .....My bf was in the area when IS blew up but was in reserves doing something completely...
    alipeach23 alipeach23 51-55, F 4 Responses Jul 17

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    So lately I've been having these feelings like I just don't belong. So I did some digging around. It looks like I have something called depersonalization disorder. I believe that I...
    AngelWings94 AngelWings94 18-21, F Jul 15

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    My grandpa taught me how to drive his automatic jeep Comanche pickup truck the same year he taught me how to drive his tractor and ride a horse all on his ranch. I think I was 8...
    jayciedubb jayciedubb 46-50, M 2 Responses Jul 12

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    needing to vent not that anything will helpim in a dark painful plac ei feel likei dont want o go on im doing destructive not drinking or anything i feel so disconnected and jusdt...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 12

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