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I Am Disconnected

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 42 People

    The Disconnection Has Gone For Now.

    This disconnected feeling I get sometimes from my PTSD comes and goes.  For anyone who has it,  it is awful and its difficult to  explain.  Don't you find that other people don't understand, and its sometimes hard to explain anyway..THAT you are here but...
    csan csan 61-65, F 4 Responses Nov 21, 2007

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    I'm very disconnected from media in general

    compared to basically every other kid I know. I never watch TV, listen to the radio, or care about the news. I'm one of the only kids in my high school that doesn't have a phone; I still haven't met another kid that doesn't have a phone. I've been asked, "What's your phone...
    RipperCreak RipperCreak 13-15, M 2 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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    Levity

    Power is nothing without kontrol, and I'm all out of kontrol.  I have been for a while. I need it, but it's not there. I've lost my mind. Can't find it anywhere.  So, well and gone and lost before. Light so bright I'm ******* blind. Desperation is a tender trap. It gets me...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 10, 2012

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    2 Of U

    Your not aware of it, so you can't identify it. Tangible invisibility, obvious and real to me.  Let it go. Lie to others, not to yourself.  Denial won't make it disappear.  The more you do it, will make the lies seem clear. Lies perpetuate fear. Trust me on this. I know who...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M Jul 13, 2012

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    Surfacing

    **** you all!!! Running out of ways to run I can't see, I can't be Over and over and under my skin All this attention is doing me in **** it all! **** this world! **** everything that you stand for! Don't belong! Don't exist! Don't give a ****! Don't ever judge me! Picking...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    Disconnected Feelings/ptsd

    This is when I feel suicidal.  Its called a dissassociative personality disorder... which can be triggered by different stresses.  I'm going through it now Oct 2007, but it has never  lasted this long.. It comeson as suddenly as it leaves.  CAN ANY ONE HELP ME...
    csan csan 61-65, F Oct 3, 2007

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    Nyah27 Nyah27 26-30 57 mins ago

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    In spite of my childhood, I've decided to be happy. I didn't know how to do this at first. Life seemed overwhelming at times and I felt like I was drowning. I felt like I didn't...
    Accomplishedlady Accomplishedlady 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    People have become profoundly and disturbingly disconnected. Dogs and smart phones have replaced community Dating hook up sites and sexually destructive immoral floozie behavior...
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    Wouldn't actually say I'm in love with 2 but I love one very dearly. And I like the other a lot. The one I'm in love with (Matt), I have been with for almost 2 years. He's been...
    Feliciajake Feliciajake 16-17, F Jan 1

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    usually when I'm laying in bed, trying to sleep, I can't because my mind wanders. Just, thinks about the most random things, my problems, my life, etc... But, tonight... Tonight...
    BananaSmoothiee BananaSmoothiee 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 2

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    I think being a step-parent is one of the most difficult things to deal with. My husband has 3 grown children. I was naive in thinking that things would get better once they were...
    Oddusername Oddusername 36-40, F Jan 2

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    Part 1 of 2 of something my therapist had me write in an attempt to understand my emotions. As a sort of preface so you can understand some things, it's important to know that I...
    AzuraSkies AzuraSkies 16-17 1 Response Jan 4

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    This year refreshed me, it did exactly what it's supposed to and my goals are vivid in my mind and reaching them i base it on a day by day ordeal. But for the life of me, i feel...
    ofthisgirl90 ofthisgirl90 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    Sup guys, my first post. I've come to realise in a psychopath and was wondering if some of you who may be like me could verify this. I'd like to start with saying i believe in God...
    rokobenj rokobenj 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 7

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    He's very expressive, very loving, but often comes across like he has no empathy. I feel disconnected all too often. Like I'm the only one listening but not being heard at all. I...
    starlightvagabond starlightvagabond 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 10

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    The viewing angle for this monitor is a broad 178 degrees, both vertically and horizontally. These angles over a touchscreen monitor are all the more significant than They can be...
    Daniel6814zmz2 Daniel6814zmz2 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 12

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    Verizon wireless has been my cell carrier for 15 years. Their service is great. I never lose the signal, even when I went out of the country. However lately they've been really...
    Jennerrous Jennerrous 36-40, F 2 Responses Jan 12

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    Everyday has been a struggle ever since I found out. I am sinking deeper into a depression and I am all alone in this. Every little thing about my day has left me at the verge of...
    cbnfvr cbnfvr 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    For some time I believed that my illness prevented my ability to see beauty, shrouded it, replaced it with dirt and ugly truth, harsh reality. Something helped me realise that...
    amillionpeople amillionpeople 22-25 Jan 14

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    I rarely get to see my husband because of his work schedule. He works extremely hard so that I can be a stay at home mom for my boys. Most of the time I feel like a single parent...
    mamaberry27 mamaberry27 31-35, F 31 Responses Jan 15

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    I am 18 and the last few years my connection with people around my age has diminished more and more as time has gone on. I find myself being connected to people 10years+ older than...
    salem101 salem101 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    "I am the vine, you are the branches. if you remain with me and I in you, you will bear much fruit, apart from me and you can do nothing. " The trees have their source, the soil...
    emmanuel04 emmanuel04 31-35, M Jan 17

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    I'm so insecure, and so afraid. I finally got physical with my boyfriend today, and when he got home to call me we didn't even talk all that much... to be honest we don't talk much...
    noonetalkstome noonetalkstome 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 18

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    About two years ago i met a guy. I met him when i was in New York. He's Italian and he's at New York because he was study travelling. We met at a small cafe with some musicians...
    annaambrose annaambrose 13-15 1 Response Jan 18

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    I have been going to church all my life. We were the family that went to 3 times a week and Sunday. I don"t know what happened to me. As I became a teenager, I was more...
    seriousmommyprob seriousmommyprob 31-35, F 6 Responses Jan 18

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    Looking into the mirror, a stranger looking back, she speaks to me with desperation....I am trying to hear her plea......"Just let me say - I have had enough, your hurtful and...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F Jan 18

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    My husband keeps observing that I don't smile anymore. So I finally work up the nerve to tell him I'm unhappy in our marriage and he's shocked. To me it just shows how disconnected...
    justliss justliss 31-35, F 15 Responses Jan 18

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    my life sucks. I feel disconnected from my school. I try not to talk in school so ppl won't laugh.. Then I picture my self lonely when I start high school.
    Gamer0808 Gamer0808 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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    Hey ladies! I haven't been on here in awhile but me and my boyfriend have been feeling disconnected here lately. I was wondering if you guys have any tips on ways to bring back the...
    NicoleBrand NicoleBrand 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 19

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    I went to the pool and spa area of the gym to be honest I use to love the stares of admiration thing that I dont from hubby,now I simply dont care anymore it feels like Im so...
    Siexybreaker Siexybreaker 36-40, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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    Veridia - Mystery Of The InvisibleI've been hearing this group recently on my Imagine Dragons channel on iTunes Radio. I quite like them. They remind me a bit of Berlin but more...
    livelaughlovedream3 livelaughlovedream3 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 20

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    here i am again on EP... Going through a lot of emotional pain Life is playing games with me. After he have told me that he cannot marry me. I was shattered completely. Next day we...
    kathhyv kathhyv 26-30, F Jan 21

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    I've been married for a year now. It was an arranged marriage. I never felt attracted to my husband, I still don't. Apart from physical attraction, I feel a major disconnect on...
    femaleskeleton femaleskeleton 26-30 a week ago

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    "This false self is never happy or fulfilled for long." An EP user suggested Ekhart Tolle to me and I am very grateful. I wanted to share "living in the now" in this experience...
    KemiKill KemiKill 36-40, F 1 Response a week ago

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    My mother would say exactly this kind of stuff. But in fact she was and is a severely dissociated and disturbed woman, who was completely incapable of providing attachment or...
    Ajushi Ajushi 36-40, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm not sure what to do anymore. My husband has two slipped discs and sciatica and I'm slowly losing patience and compassion for him. We have been married for almost 10 years and...
    freckledlady freckledlady 31-35, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    So I went in for a sleep Study last night. My doctor wanted me to do a sleep study because I have episodes of waking up due to not breathing. I arrived at the hospital and it Was...
    LadyTShay LadyTShay 36-40, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I was raised Mormon, left the church shortly after my little brother experienced a nervous breakdown whilst serving a mission. I had always had a fear of the mentally ill and...
    eviec7 eviec7 36-40, F 3 days ago

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