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I Am Disconnected

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 47 People

    The Disconnection Has Gone For Now.

    This disconnected feeling I get sometimes from my PTSD comes and goes.  For anyone who has it,  it is awful and its difficult to  explain.  Don't you find that other people don't understand, and its sometimes hard to explain anyway..THAT you are here but...
    csan csan 61-65, F 4 Responses Nov 21, 2007

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    2 Of U

    Your not aware of it, so you can't identify it. Tangible invisibility, obvious and real to me.  Let it go. Lie to others, not to yourself.  Denial won't make it disappear.  The more you do it, will make the lies seem clear. Lies perpetuate fear. Trust me on this. I know who...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M Jul 13, 2012

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    Levity

    Power is nothing without kontrol, and I'm all out of kontrol.  I have been for a while. I need it, but it's not there. I've lost my mind. Can't find it anywhere.  So, well and gone and lost before. Light so bright I'm ******* blind. Desperation is a tender trap. It gets me...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 10, 2012

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    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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    Disconnected Feelings/ptsd

    This is when I feel suicidal.  Its called a dissassociative personality disorder... which can be triggered by different stresses.  I'm going through it now Oct 2007, but it has never  lasted this long.. It comeson as suddenly as it leaves.  CAN ANY ONE HELP ME...
    csan csan 61-65, F Oct 3, 2007

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    Surfacing

    **** you all!!! Running out of ways to run I can't see, I can't be Over and over and under my skin All this attention is doing me in **** it all! **** this world! **** everything that you stand for! Don't belong! Don't exist! Don't give a ****! Don't ever judge me! Picking...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    It has been a year since the last time I saw my

    college classmates. And years since the last time I saw my bestfriend. I check on their life's updates they seem pretty much doing well. Can't deny that it crosses my mind that they are well without me. I sometimes am left in surprise that they have had such a great change that...
    MaggieAndTheFerociousBeast MaggieAndTheFerociousBeast 18-21, F Feb 25

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    This year will be our 3rd year of marriage and I already feel disconnected from my husband. We just had our first baby in December and things have changed. I know that is to be...
    mizmak17 mizmak17 31-35, F 1 Response May 6

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    I don't know if its over-use of social media or what (and here I am on yet ANOTHER site complaining about it) but I feel kind of disconnected - which seems completely counter...
    Sudrakarma Sudrakarma 46-50 5 days ago

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    Whenever I'm at school, I feel like I'm elsewhere. I could sit in a large room full of people, all talking to each other and trying to get my attention, and yet I just can't focus...
    ViperaStellaris ViperaStellaris 13-15, F May 1

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    I feel like Im in a "long distance relationship" with my husband
    aylavyu aylavyu 36-40, F 2 Responses May 6

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    I feel like I dont belong properly on this planet. I have distant memories of a cleaner planet with 2 moons orbiting it, powerful technology, a peaceful world. I dont know my...
    wanderes wanderes 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 26

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    My mind is racing, it's buzzing. I can't clear it. It makes my head hurt, so I cry. I don't like to cry so I try and stop myself. I guess I'm overwhelmed. Thoughts of School...
    MDCollegeMan MDCollegeMan 18-21, M Apr 27

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    Being alone is probably the hardest things I have to face daily. You have noone that understands you and noone that talks with you. All you have is yourself. And your mind...
    DanielPearl DanielPearl 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 28

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    Really sad when your H tells you that he wants to grow old with you and you turn to him and just stay quiet...no response....but what do you expect after 20 years of neglect....do...
    excessbaggage excessbaggage 41-45, F 4 Responses Apr 28

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    {diary} Around this time of the year was when I felt really disconnected from you. You faded away from me. Leaving me with unwanted thoughts in my head. These thoughts that were...
    Togepi07 Togepi07 18-21, F Apr 30

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    I feel so disconnected :O I'm always lost somewhere in my thoughts. When people, like my family, talk to me about something, I'm usually thinking about something or I'm just so...
    Imexhausted Imexhausted 22-25, F 1 Response May 1

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    We were 4-5 months in the relationship. I was the happiest girl alive because he was my crush for the longest. We were just perfect but than one week (worst week ever) was the...
    blv76 blv76 16-17, F May 2

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    ITS MY COMPLETE DISCONNECT FROM REALITY THAT.... HAS GOT ME INTO THIS TROUBLE I CANT GRASP... THAT IN REALITY I HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH MY ARCH.... NEMESIS AT ALL BECAUSE HE IS...
    notoveryetlololollol notoveryetlololollol 51-55 May 2

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    I HAVE DONE A LOT OF BAD THINGS TO PEOPLE...... SOME DESERVED IT...SOME DID NOT......JUDGE ME IF YOU WILL...... My whole life has been one disaster after another. I was...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 3 Responses May 4

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    A perfect moisture stirs within the air, smoothing the breeze into a sleepy lover’s caress encumbering the wispy strands through which limbs pass until all is slow and gauzy like...
    Auberon89 Auberon89 36-40, M May 4

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    It was a Tuesday, I think…maybe a Thursday I can’t remember. At the time, I was content with where I was in life. Single…healthy, happy, no debt, free to live life as I chose...
    1StateAway 1StateAway 36-40, M 4 Responses May 5

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    It was a Tuesday, I think…maybe a Thursday I can’t remember. At the time, I was content with where I was in life. Single…healthy, happy, no debt, free to live life as I chose...
    1StateAway 1StateAway 36-40, M 3 Responses May 5

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    DISCONNECTED CONNECT REPORT TO THE SHERRIFF
    HAGPSEG123 HAGPSEG123 51-55, F May 6

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    Why me? Can't I just feel "normal" again?! I feel so out of control. I feel so disconnected from my loves. From everyone. I'm a mess.
    JustWantItToWork JustWantItToWork 26-30, F 2 Responses May 6

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    Utilized vehicles come as a part of different styles and measurements. There are numerous sorts of vehicles that can be purchased in the business nowadays. Clients are...
    absone absone 22-25, F May 7

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    Most mornings I wake to the stillness. I sit and feel my solitary, quietly beating heart, distinctly separate. Detached. The world feels murky, uncertain, burdensome. I can feel...
    Fluffystuff Fluffystuff 18-21, F 1 Response May 7

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    When I was 5, my father died from cancer. He was young for such a death, only 30. I have a few memories of being with him, when he bought me really cool toys or took me to slide...
    KingLaserDestroyer KingLaserDestroyer 18-21, M 2 Responses May 9

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    Bpd will have me so emotionally disconnected at times literally all feelings switched off
    blasianalien blasianalien 22-25, F May 10

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    EP has become my coping strategy lately. And I can't quite tell how much it's helping vs. how much it's hurting. I feel a bit disconnected from the world lately, but is that...
    saundra04 saundra04 26-30, F 4 Responses May 10

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    A lot of things **** me off about modern culture and our modern society. It's one thing in particular that drives me crazy. That we are so disconnected from nature that we need a...
    DreamCloud17 DreamCloud17 18-21, F 1 Response May 11

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    This song makes me feel so dark and disconnected. So depressed and messed up. https://youtu.be/n9RVyEy6SKQ
    DetachedCinnamon DetachedCinnamon 18-21, F 2 Responses May 11

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    I’m so relieved to have found this thread. There’s so much I want to write and I just don’t know where to begin, but here it goes… I come from a culture where mothers...
    latinamerican35 latinamerican35 31-35, M 2 Responses May 12

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    There are so much songs that I would never get tired of! Especially by St. Vincent, Vampire Weekend, and Lana Del Rey. My favorite song of all time is Huey Newton by St. Vincent...
    hugsnotughs hugsnotughs 16-17, M May 14

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    Yes, I have done it. I wrote a letter to my toxic mother telling her that I cut her off my life. I had also briefly explained the reasons for this "divorce", because I think it's...
    CantatriceChauve CantatriceChauve 31-35, F 1 Response May 14

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    Years ago, a friend of mine and I disconnected permanently due to something that her family member did to me. She took their "side," and so the friendship ended. I just found out...
    wickedtornado wickedtornado 36-40, F 1 Response May 15

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    I'm dating someone who has a TBI and PTSD and is a vet. He has found his next calling in life and will graduate with a very good job that fills his need for trauma/excitement in...
    maryann344 maryann344 22-25, F 1 Response May 16

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    I have written a small story, please give feedback if you read it. Thanks! Fault and the forgiveness It's story about an incident that happened a year ago...actually exactly a...
    Libran15oct Libran15oct 31-35 May 17

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    A few months ago I posted an experience stating my ideas on "project love myself" and I am writing this one upon completion of my project, to record my findings, struggles, and...
    PrincessKayleigh PrincessKayleigh 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Everyone always talks about how they're heartbroken and how they struggle to move on. I see so many sad posts about people being left and how they can't get over a relationship...
    Skollon Skollon 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    My sister abruptly stopped talking to me after 20 years of a really close friendship. I was 40 at the time and I asked her to tell me why. She said I was self righteous and...
    bubblesfloat bubblesfloat 51-55, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    My life feels like some kind of lame joke with no punchline. I feel as though I live the same day over and over again. I used to call myself an artist but now i cant even sit...
    slait slait 22-25, M 5 days ago

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