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I Am Disconnected

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    Your not aware of it, so you can't identify it. Tangible invisibility, obvious and real to me.  Let it go. Lie to others, not to yourself.  Denial won't make it disappear.  The more you do it, will make the lies seem clear. Lies perpetuate fear. Trust me on this. I know who...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M Jul 13, 2012

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    Disconnected Feelings/ptsd

    This is when I feel suicidal.  Its called a dissassociative personality disorder... which can be triggered by different stresses.  I'm going through it now Oct 2007, but it has never  lasted this long.. It comeson as suddenly as it leaves.  CAN ANY ONE HELP ME...
    csan csan 61-65, F Oct 3, 2007

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    It has been a year since the last time I saw my

    college classmates. And years since the last time I saw my bestfriend. I check on their life's updates they seem pretty much doing well. Can't deny that it crosses my mind that they are well without me. I sometimes am left in surprise that they have had such a great change that...
    MaggieAndTheFerociousBeast MaggieAndTheFerociousBeast 18-21, F Feb 25

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    Levity

    Power is nothing without kontrol, and I'm all out of kontrol.  I have been for a while. I need it, but it's not there. I've lost my mind. Can't find it anywhere.  So, well and gone and lost before. Light so bright I'm ******* blind. Desperation is a tender trap. It gets me...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 10, 2012

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    The Disconnection Has Gone For Now.

    This disconnected feeling I get sometimes from my PTSD comes and goes.  For anyone who has it,  it is awful and its difficult to  explain.  Don't you find that other people don't understand, and its sometimes hard to explain anyway..THAT you are here but...
    csan csan 61-65, F 4 Responses Nov 21, 2007

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    Surfacing

    **** you all!!! Running out of ways to run I can't see, I can't be Over and over and under my skin All this attention is doing me in **** it all! **** this world! **** everything that you stand for! Don't belong! Don't exist! Don't give a ****! Don't ever judge me! Picking...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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    There are also some dead giveaways that the nuts are bizarre childish weirdos. 1. Rent boy hides behind them and instructs them to execute bizarre orchestrated theatre while...
    UltimateDemiGoddessSam UltimateDemiGoddessSam 31-35, F 21 hrs ago

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    I get my haircut with clippers. I have had a pixie for ten years, but recently went to a very short undercut. My hair is pretty much buzzed up to the top of my head and I have a...
    Leftofcenter4 Leftofcenter4 41-45, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    "I'm Not Happy" it started, oddly enough, by stating a simple fact. "i'm not happy." some of lifes most beautiful things are also the most simple. the look on my former employers...
    mokele mokele 31-35, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have been married for going on 10 months. Your typical marriage, where when its great its amazing, when its bad its horrible. Well lately its more horrible then great. I guess my...
    baileygrl82 baileygrl82 31-35, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I've been on and off with my MM and I'm sure many of you must be getting annoyed with my constant posts in this group. I know many of you say I am too young or I am a bad person...
    hiddennlove hiddennlove 18-21, F 7 Responses 2 days ago

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    This was the most positively framed way to say that I'm in deep s*** with money so I decided to join this experience. I am three thousand dollars in debt, I just took out my third...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    Every day is just the same broken record. Get up, see my mum off to work, and spend the day at home alone. I try to keep myself busy by gardening, getting some decorating done or...
    blvckhvart blvckhvart 18-21, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    A few steps out of school...I always look around on my way home and realize that i´m alone...it doesn´t matter how loud the music on my earphones is....how happy I was...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 4 Responses a week ago

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    I think in this world lacking people you want is the most difficult thing to solve. I want at least a peer in my field to make efforts to solve research problems together and enter...
    ExileMyself ExileMyself 26-30, F a week ago

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    I didn't have a well-thought out plan when the Ex left me in November. When I agreed it was for the best, he made it difficult. It was emotionally difficult in the sense that he...
    PinkJeanie1970 PinkJeanie1970 41-45, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    So what adds do you see between the initial postings and comments others make? It seems there’s always one trying to tell me how to regrow my hair. But I never search for...
    alteregoeleven alteregoeleven 46-50, M 2 Responses Jun 24

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    I do not remember a time where I have been 100% happy with myself and with life itself. I was depressed at a very young age because of things at home but no one knew how I was...
    Charli101 Charli101 16-17 Jun 24

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    My lover is my best friend, but it is a mess. Where to begin, and it will be a bit lengthy. I will call him D and we met when we were 11. It has been the same bond since we first...
    dfclifton55 dfclifton55 56-60, F 2 Responses Jun 24

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    I am a transgender m2f and i just moved to the Reno area and I feel disconnected. I dont have any friends here I my boyfriend has dumped me and left me with his friends to travel...
    dinah88 dinah88 26-30, T 2 Responses Jun 24

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    Depression sucks. For everyone involved. I battle it myself, but right now I'm more concerned about my husband. I've got my own needs that haven't been fulfilled lately. And I was...
    saundra04 saundra04 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 21

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    I am in a process of dealing with losing a dear friend. Things happend and we are no longer friends. We shared so much and have been through so much over the past 10 years, that...
    GuiltBear GuiltBear 31-35, M 2 Responses Jun 20

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    Found out close to a year ago that my father wasn't meant to see my brothers and I until we were 18 due to a protection order, which we could choose to renew when we reached 18...
    PaxTerra PaxTerra 18-21, F Jun 20

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    What are the Reasons for Fasting in Ramadan? At present, nearly two billion human beings on planet earth are counted among the Islamic faith, and fasting in Ramadan is a unique...
    mahmoodahmad mahmoodahmad 18-21, M Jun 19

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    Like many, I'm here to offer an ear to anyone who may need it. I know sometimes I find a strange sort of comfort in talking to a stranger...someone with an outside view, someone...
    MusicandJunk MusicandJunk 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 18

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    i am a coward. i am disconnected from life and i don't want to participate in it anymore. i have grown afraid of dying, though nothing in me wants to live. i am a burden. i feel...
    bloodRedd bloodRedd 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 17

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    I get told it's frustrating to talk to me because I can't hear well. But do people ever think about how frustrating it is for me? They only think about how hard it is for them to...
    NaturallyPeculiar NaturallyPeculiar 18-21, F Jun 17

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    The Joy of Fermented Foods ---------------------------------------------- Before refrigeration, before vacuum packaging, before tins, before kilner jars, before the...
    soochef soochef 31-35 2 Responses Jun 17

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    This is too complex to type it all out but I'll do my best to summarize. I am majorly depressed. I hate my area/school/surrounding society. The fakeness, the self centeredness...
    dazedandconfusedgal dazedandconfusedgal 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 17

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    Someone suggested that I share my twin flame story but in all honesty, it's so difficult these days. Not because it's painful but rather what happened on the outside in regards to...
    PaxTerra PaxTerra 18-21, F Jun 16

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    I love being high on DXM. It makes me feel disconnected. I don't have to think or focus on or confront what makes me sad. It's like I'm in a new world.
    leggyshay leggyshay 16-17, F Jun 15

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    if it werent for school i dont think i would socualize as much. i find it to be physically and mentally exhausting after awhile.
    psfromthestars psfromthestars 16-17, F Jun 15

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    While people are getting started using their new firm and desire to make it achieve into net availability, they are going to call for a site and sponsor it over a server...
    hulkingquarrel427 hulkingquarrel427 26-30, T Jun 13

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    While individuals are beginning with their new company and wish to ensure it is reach into internet accessibility, they're likely to call for a site and sponsor it over a server...
    permannt19 permannt19 22-25, T 1 Response Jun 13

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    I despise the Chinese for their cruelty to animals especially dogs. Such a disconnected soulless people and country. Been there and hated it.
    PrinceMichael7 PrinceMichael7 41-45, M Jun 13

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    When people are starting out with their new organization and desire to allow it to be accomplish into net convenience, they are likely to require a website and host it over a...
    anhornxml58 anhornxml58 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 13

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    These were a number of the reasons which can make Windows Hosting an ideal choice for the small-business entrepreneurs if theyare looking for a site company to host their website...
    anhornxml58 anhornxml58 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 13

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    Once upon a time, I didn’t worry about my appearance. The sun was always bright, my smile saw the light of day, and I was pretty; I could feel beautiful. I remember the first...
    PaintWithAllTheColors PaintWithAllTheColors 13-15 1 Response Jun 8

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    I am a diagnosed psychopath, I was diagnosed at the age of 14 after I unsuccessfully attempted to go on a murder spree. I failed at the first hurdle: killing my younger brother...
    pelliott1711 pelliott1711 18-21, M 7 Responses Jun 8

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    happiness is long gone for me...im a miserable depressed Person..i cant remember the last time i was happy..i feel empty and sadness all the time i feel stress i feel unhappy i...
    LegendBattles LegendBattles 26-30, M 6 Responses Jun 8

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