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I Am Disconnected

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    Your not aware of it, so you can't identify it. Tangible invisibility, obvious and real to me.  Let it go. Lie to others, not to yourself.  Denial won't make it disappear.  The more you do it, will make the lies seem clear. Lies perpetuate fear. Trust me on this. I know who...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M Jul 13, 2012

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    Disconnected Feelings/ptsd

    This is when I feel suicidal.  Its called a dissassociative personality disorder... which can be triggered by different stresses.  I'm going through it now Oct 2007, but it has never  lasted this long.. It comeson as suddenly as it leaves.  CAN ANY ONE HELP ME...
    csan csan 61-65, F Oct 3, 2007

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    The Disconnection Has Gone For Now.

    This disconnected feeling I get sometimes from my PTSD comes and goes.  For anyone who has it,  it is awful and its difficult to  explain.  Don't you find that other people don't understand, and its sometimes hard to explain anyway..THAT you are here but...
    csan csan 61-65, F 4 Responses Nov 21, 2007

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    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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    Levity

    Power is nothing without kontrol, and I'm all out of kontrol.  I have been for a while. I need it, but it's not there. I've lost my mind. Can't find it anywhere.  So, well and gone and lost before. Light so bright I'm ******* blind. Desperation is a tender trap. It gets me...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 10, 2012

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    Surfacing

    **** you all!!! Running out of ways to run I can't see, I can't be Over and over and under my skin All this attention is doing me in **** it all! **** this world! **** everything that you stand for! Don't belong! Don't exist! Don't give a ****! Don't ever judge me! Picking...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    I'm in a drifting phase of my life, where I'm kind of waiting for a happening... I decided to go out last night, and clear my mind. I was diverted from my evening by a minor...
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    As I continue on with my existence I came across a few people that I found interesting. One in particular stood out from the rest however. She is a married young and pretty woman...
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    It is difficult sometimes because people make assumptions that I think they are dumb or people I date assume that I am looking down on them. This is not the case. I understand that...
    Anaximenes Anaximenes 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 11

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    I feel like I have been disconnected from my emotions for so long now I don't even know what makes me happy or what I want.
    jukuren jukuren 26-30, M 3 Responses Sep 25

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    I feel so alone and disconnected from myself and the world around me. When I go out I am so self conscious that I miss out on things around me because I am too busy thinking about...
    estin1995 estin1995 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 25

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    Hi there ladies (and gentlemen whom stalk this topic! Lol). This is more of letting my feelings out verses them continued to be bottled up... Well - it’s now been over a month...
    yogachic76 yogachic76 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    For educational purposes I will explain to you what is skitsophrenia. It's not as bad as the name sounds. I sometimes wish we can change the name to something more like "out if...
    ponycupcake ponycupcake 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 30

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    First, I would like to share a bit about myself. I am a 26-year-old woman, of average health, and consider myself more agnostic than anything else. Or at least I used to. I get by...
    amm0714 amm0714 26-30, F Sep 30

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    I wish we just skipped to the afterlife. I wish we were never created. I hate this world. I feel stuck inside this body. I believe in God but sometimes I question his reasons for...
    kjonesr kjonesr 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 1

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    Too young to feel so disconnected from people, loneliness hurts
    demie18 demie18 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 1

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    I've come that disconnected from the world I don't know how to talk to anyone
    uklad25 uklad25 26-30, M 3 Responses Oct 1

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    I si believe everything happens for a reason. I just wish I knew what that reason was... I just recently last week found my father I have not seen in 18 years the last time I saw...
    NellieNike NellieNike 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 2

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    I've been feeling stronger and stronger over the last few weeks as I've been focusing less on her abusive behavior and more in my own reactions to it. The only way we can coexist...
    deepbreathneeded deepbreathneeded 36-40, M 14 Responses Oct 2

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    Hey mom, it's been a long time since we've seen each other, and even longer since we've spoken. I was 17 when I moved out, you said nothing, when Chrystal died and you showed up at...
    CongratulationS CongratulationS 22-25, M 4 Responses Oct 4

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    I wish I could go any where right now! Just go some where for atleast a month and be alone from everyone I know and see here. I'm so tired of the routine. I want to meet new people...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 4

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    I currently work in a drama school on the weekends I have been since 2011 Recently I have been feeling disconnected to the job it doesn't interest me anymore I feel like I am...
    fairycake1 fairycake1 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 5

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    Few weeks ago, I tried again. This was my third attempt and failed again, well that's the useless **** up I am. Once again no one cared, but i expected that anyway. I just don't...
    Ariadne11 Ariadne11 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 5

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    Going camping this weekend with a couple of friends. I'm excited, 2nd time since last month. Leaving at 11am to get there early and set up. I love the outdoors, I can relax being...
    txblank91 txblank91 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 9

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    Source: http://www.totalhealthmagazine.com/articles/anti-aging/earthing-amazing-healing-power-beneath-your-feet.html Article by: Stephen T. Sinatra, MD Connecting the human...
    HayBail HayBail 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 10

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    Yes, I think I need to be more positive. Nothing really has changed over the years. Still in an "intimacy free" marriage. I'm working hard to be happy anyway. Looking at the...
    ExistsinHOPE ExistsinHOPE 51-55, F Oct 12

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    My life changed in 2008...after a 30 year career in Information Technology, I lost my job. I lived off my savings for the next 2 years, but finally lost my home to foreclosure...
    SistaSilvatress SistaSilvatress 61-65, F 1 Response Oct 13

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    I see people suffering all over the world, some try to deny it and escape it by distracting themselves as much as possible yet the misery remains like a nightmare with no end. Some...
    harmony612 harmony612 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 14

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    Sometimes I feel like I'm really old. An old soul trapped in a young body. I feel like I should be a lot further in life than I am now. Like I should have done something amazing...
    egkhundreds0 egkhundreds0 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 15

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    I don't. Sometimes, it feels like I just watch humans. I don't feel like I'm really... human? Like as if i weren't meant to be a person. I still do daily stuff; make up, school...
    neptunegurl neptunegurl 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 15

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    Fxxk golfstar game makers. Your stupid game keeps crashing every time I score an eagle or birdie or sometimes it just disconnected on its own. How the fxxk do you expect to get...
    ringgo69 ringgo69 31-35, M Oct 16

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    Married for 10 years and never really Faught. Seemed like soulmates. All our friends and family were envious of how good we got along. Supported my wife through school, graduated...
    Rsend Rsend 36-40 3 Responses Oct 16

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    I find much more value in the peace I have encountered outside. It gave me time to heal myself of my melancholy and pain. The green scenic environment along with the streaming...
    20CoolerPony 20CoolerPony 13-15, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Somebody here wrote that we are all so very disconnected. It really makes no difference if you are an ACoA or not. I guess not AcoAs are just better at faking being connected than...
    rtvbvfde rtvbvfde 26-30, M 6 days ago

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    I have always been some what depressed sense middle school and now senior in college still feeling the same. I have everything going for me but still feel out of place. I feel...
    Deuz Deuz 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    Yes. Like the many of you , I've been in love and was betrayed by a man I was very much in love with. I couldn't think of a world without him. I trusted him more than myself and...
    ira01 ira01 26-30, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    I go to sleep alone. I wake up alone. I eat alone. I drive to work alone. I come home alone. I'm working at a job I used to love. Its my first employment of many to last well over...
    slait slait 18-21, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I battle depression and anxiety, I have since I was diagnosed when I was nine. My medicine for my anxiety and depression no longer work. I tell my psychiatrist and all she does is...
    raemakz raemakz 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My mother, meet this bum offline. Offtop he was a lair! she moved him in with her quickly. He never treated her right, they had a big fight so he lied & said he had a business trip...
    honestlybrutal honestlybrutal 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    There is such a huge difference between being physically alone and feeling alone and not many people get that. I'm alright with being alone but I need an emotional connection with...
    KnightOfDreams KnightOfDreams 22-25, T 7 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have really been stalled out emotionally since the end of June when I finished my graduate degree. I had no free time prior to that to really entertain my thought patterns, that...
    ironandcoffee ironandcoffee 46-50, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Mixed Messages I offer her a glass of water, I tell her that she needs it, she tells me I must be blind, that her heart's breaking but I can't see it... She was just at the bar...
    AaronLA AaronLA 31-35, M 3 days ago

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    Mixed Messages I offer her a glass of water, I tell her that she needs it, she tells me I must be blind, that her heart's breaking but I can't see it... She was just at the bar...
    AaronLA AaronLA 31-35, M 3 days ago

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