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I Am Disconnected

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 45 People

    Disconnected Feelings/ptsd

    This is when I feel suicidal.  Its called a dissassociative personality disorder... which can be triggered by different stresses.  I'm going through it now Oct 2007, but it has never  lasted this long.. It comeson as suddenly as it leaves.  CAN ANY ONE HELP ME...
    csan csan 61-65, F Oct 3, 2007

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    2 Of U

    Your not aware of it, so you can't identify it. Tangible invisibility, obvious and real to me.  Let it go. Lie to others, not to yourself.  Denial won't make it disappear.  The more you do it, will make the lies seem clear. Lies perpetuate fear. Trust me on this. I know who...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M Jul 13, 2012

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    The Disconnection Has Gone For Now.

    This disconnected feeling I get sometimes from my PTSD comes and goes.  For anyone who has it,  it is awful and its difficult to  explain.  Don't you find that other people don't understand, and its sometimes hard to explain anyway..THAT you are here but...
    csan csan 61-65, F 4 Responses Nov 21, 2007

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    Levity

    Power is nothing without kontrol, and I'm all out of kontrol.  I have been for a while. I need it, but it's not there. I've lost my mind. Can't find it anywhere.  So, well and gone and lost before. Light so bright I'm ******* blind. Desperation is a tender trap. It gets me...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 10, 2012

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    The last two days have been difficult

    and revealing. For the first time in my life I am able to allow myself to grieve. In the past I had destractions in abundance. Everything from shopping, moving on to something more important than me. A friend, a charity, my family, a new project. Constantly shutting the off...
    VikingIcePrincess VikingIcePrincess 36-40, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    It has been a year since the last time I saw my

    college classmates. And years since the last time I saw my bestfriend. I check on their life's updates they seem pretty much doing well. Can't deny that it crosses my mind that they are well without me. I sometimes am left in surprise that they have had such a great change that...
    MaggieAndTheFerociousBeast MaggieAndTheFerociousBeast 22-25, F Feb 25, 2015

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    Surfacing

    **** you all!!! Running out of ways to run I can't see, I can't be Over and over and under my skin All this attention is doing me in **** it all! **** this world! **** everything that you stand for! Don't belong! Don't exist! Don't give a ****! Don't ever judge me! Picking...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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    you are not my country. you are not a country at all. you are surprising. you are statistic-starved. soulful of tourist brochures in Japanese and hourglass kebayas. you protest...
    Shahedansharif Shahedansharif 16-17, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    some desire for connection.. but, failing to do so.. because, ultimately i live in states of isolation.. in perception, reflection, and contemplation.. detached and disconnected..
    chaekowski chaekowski 26-30, M 22 hrs ago

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    My smooth skin moves slowly against satin sheets as I think of you. I close my eyes and disconnected moments flutter through my mind. I see us. You jump into my tears and swim...
    pinkcloudsandbrokenhearts pinkcloudsandbrokenhearts 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Car been to garage and the battery had been disconnected, so husband went searching through paperwork, to find code for the radio etc. He discovered my insurance ran out 2 days ago...
    scottishheather scottishheather 51-55, F 2 days ago

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    This has literally been my predicament for the past 10 years. Though for past couple years and especially now have been getting more integrated with inner and outer purpose much...
    LoveIsWithinYou LoveIsWithinYou 26-30, M 2 days ago

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    Feeling Fleeting To my embarrassment, it was only recently that I discovered depersonalization-derealization is classified as its own disorder. I've spent many years falling into...
    SourPennies SourPennies 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    This may be difficult for some people to read due to its content. I feel very dead and apathetic. I want to stop living. I want to discontinue this story. I want to cut myself...
    nicaea nicaea 22-25, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    i walked with you, i talked with you, i laughed with you.. but, when you asked me who i was or what i did or what i thought or what i felt.. i wouldn't say.. I'd just make a joke...
    chaekowski chaekowski 26-30, M 4 days ago

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    yesterday i decided to change. Mondays seem to have that affect on me. its the start of a new week and it makes me feel like i can start over. well yesterday i decided i don't...
    jadedscarlet jadedscarlet 31-35, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Its is my first story ,and this site is a very good medium to share your inner feeling . I met a girl on omegle (she was using it very first time ) two year back from today . And...
    itshardtofindtruelove itshardtofindtruelove 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    Its is my first story ,and this site is a very good medium to share your inner feeling . I met a girl on omegle (she was using it very first time ) two year back from today . And...
    itshardtofindtruelove itshardtofindtruelove 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Sometimes I get so frustrated, when I was younger I has such a deep connection with myself I knew exactly what I was feeling and why, now I feel stupid and disconnected with myself...
    PoetryApocolypse PoetryApocolypse 18-21, F a week ago

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    I haven't gotten a letter all week:( when I don't I feel so disconnected from him :/
    jennalynn123 jennalynn123 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    i would to meet one at times i feel so lost and disconnected to this world. i feel as though there is another world i belong in and i cant see. to find a way there. i can feel it i...
    ZenZen10 ZenZen10 18-21, M Jan 29

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    I pretend that nothing is wrong. I am living with the coldest man on earth. I am just putting up with this co parenting crap, because of my daughter. I want her to be happy. She...
    mabuhayka mabuhayka 31-35, F 6 Responses Jan 28

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    There was a Boy ?n a Girl,boy was iran and girl was Pakistan. They were best friends for years ?n years,They could Talk for hours on the skype ?n text each other for days ep,When...
    lonelyhellhole lonelyhellhole 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 28

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    I don't know why I seperate myself from sadness and happiness i'm so disconnected and I don't mean to be. How can I be logical yet illogical,ignorant yet highly aware. Why do I...
    BackToBiege BackToBiege 18-21, F Jan 24

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    Well, the storm is over. We're in councilling, my wife is getting medical help. My sister-in-law is living with us, looking after my wife. It's almost as if nothing had happened...
    Woody6 Woody6 41-45, M Jan 23

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    I found this personality test on SummerWind18’s profile and thought it was kind of interesting. On most tests of this sort, you’re typically presented with a series of...
    Rutterman Rutterman 36-40, M 2 Responses Jan 22

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    I have been without my smartphone for nearly 24 hours. I can't say I've enjoyed it although it's probably good for me to be disconnected for a while.
    snoopysgirl snoopysgirl 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    To those in limbo after your new AP decides he wants to keep his wife. Au revoir to you. I will always love ya. Ta taa... Now your heart is happy for being loved by this...
    Fmina Fmina 51-55, F 13 Responses Jan 22

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    And I'm about to prove it here now! So today I was quite a freezing day in my country. I had a class. After waking up I rushed out in my class. I didn't realize it'd be THAT cold...
    MysterySci MysterySci 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    What makes moronic critics Women can blame periods And if some on ep are men Or were men Then what is their excuse Well Maybe they are sensitive Like me But...
    JustBipolarMe JustBipolarMe 46-50, M 4 Responses Jan 21

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    I want to jump off my roof, so I can fly. Fly away. I feel disconnected always, like I am flying high (I don't take drugs). I have a heavy weight churning in my chest that makes...
    pegpish pegpish 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    "So, what brings you here today?" "I don't know... I guess I feel like I need to talk to someone." "Sure, that's a good start. What do you want to talk about?" "[Nervous laugh"] I...
    MarkPaul MarkPaul 26-30 Jan 21

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    I've been withdrawing from social interactions, since I stopped believing in faith and religion. I don't feel like I can connect with anyone. My wife is angry with me.
    redpillbrain redpillbrain 36-40, M Jan 21

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    I'm married, but my husband works long hours and commutes, so he gets home at 8 pm most nights... I work full time and get home at 4... I come home to an empty house everyday and...
    Jennie85 Jennie85 31-35, F Jan 20

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    I feel so disconnected, and people think I'm antisocial but I'm just tired of associating with iffy *******
    yupitssofiyah yupitssofiyah 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 20

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    To be born human is both a privilege and a curse. The human mind is fascinating.. Dominant in intelligence and destructive by nature. The brain is wildly complex. To be more...
    neurokitty99 neurokitty99 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    I've never in my life felt comfortable enough around anyone, not my family, not my friends, to actually let them get to know the real me, or to be able to spill my guts to them...
    MattyB0621 MattyB0621 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 19

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    1. REAL FACES AND NAMES OF HOES EVERY 30 MINUTES 2. MARRIED SNAKES ARE IN LEGAL OFFICIALLY 3. THEIR ALL HOOKED IN ONCE i HEAD OUT.... 4. YOU CAN SEND THE HARDDRIVE OVER 5...
    driveisout12 driveisout12 51-55, F Jan 19

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    i was born on the 23rd of December, 1998. my parents were 18 (mum) and 21 (dad). they fought a lot throughout my first few years and i still have fragments of memory from this time...
    dontknowwhattomakemyname dontknowwhattomakemyname 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 18

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