I Am Disillusioned

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    I Wanted to Believe

    Want is not enough. All the good has always been destroyed. When it's once or twice... But when it's all the time? I'm starting to wonder if it's reasonable to want to believe. I've been proved wrong. No, honesty, kindness, hope, and action, I mean, do it, doesn't bring good. I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 1, 2008

    Uh, Hunh

    Disillusioned, disenchanted disappointed, brought down to earth, to have my ideals destroyed. Yes! The only direction I can go from here is up.  But, I can work with that…
    Katija Katija
    51-55, F
    1 Response Aug 27, 2007

    Human Relationships

    Every now and then I feel disillusioned about the people around me (or just people in general). With most of my close, long-term friends now living in other cities, as I meet new people these days, I see more and more the superficiality and instrumentality of human relationships...
    Chihiro128 Chihiro128
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 11, 2009

    "Errare humanum est. Perseverare diabolicum"

    (Lucius Cornelius Seneca) To err is human, but to persist in "error" is diabolical... Everything is lost: joys, emotions, laughters, crying, secrets, closeness, desires, fantasies, intimacies, vents, efforts, small things... a path built in years, burned with contempt and...
    LordOfMisery LordOfMisery
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Mar 7

    Fallen Out of Love

    What am I disillusioned about? Well the church for one, specifically the evangelical church - they come off all santified and pious, but unless you are a certain of christian, you don't fit.  I've been to so many evangelical churches and always felt like I was being pulled...
    gdgtgrl gdgtgrl
    41-45, F
    1 Response Apr 12, 2008

    Is Annillusion dis-illusioned?

    Hmmm...I'd probably say "yes" to that...but to greater or lesser degrees...depending on the day, where my head is, etc., etc.  Tied in to current family circumstances.
    Annillusion Annillusion
    31-35, F
    Sep 8, 2007

    I Am So Disillusioned ...

    I am so disillusioned by the human race in general!  I am constantly amazed and hurt and disgusted by the way people will pretend to be your friend and then totally trash you behind your back.  Small town gossips, may they rot in hell!
    classicrockcowgirl classicrockcowgirl
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Jun 23, 2007

    Not All the Time

    but i can be ... extremely when my symptoms increase ...  i feel like people are talking about me .. when i was pregnant with Grace i sat Outside mind you to a girl who had spinal meningitis didnt know when she had it or anything .. freaked out and the next day went to...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme
    26-30, F
    Mar 24, 2007

    I am disillusioned yet again.

    After the last time I thought that I saw my reality with the utmost clarity... But I was wrong. I simply traded one illusion for another. I believed the promisses and lies that this world has fed me. How wrong I was. I believed that the past three years of my life meant...
    Lullacus Lullacus
    22-25, F
    Feb 11, 2014

    Depresive Realism

    I don't consider myself depressed, but it's interesting that sad people have a more realistic version of reality then optimistic people...(as according to latest New Scientist) psychologists call it 'depressive realism' I keep myself out of depression somehow, but I am...
    smebro smebro
    22-25, M
    2 Responses May 21, 2007

    I am disillusioned yet again.

    After the last time I thought that I saw my reality with the utmost clarity... But I was wrong. I simply traded one illusion for another. I believed the promisses and lies that this world has fed me. How wrong I was. I believed that the past three years of my life meant...
    Lullacus Lullacus
    22-25, F
    Feb 11, 2014

    Don't Know What I Believe Anymore

    For years now I have been intellectually active, and in all this time I have invested a great deal of energy in the world of ideas. All along I have held certain things to be basic and essential. I always believed in democracy, I was always politically left-wing and I always...
    pedestrian pedestrian
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Nov 9, 2006

    Seek The Truth...

    It has become obvious by now that this world is not a place where I belong.  In nature I'm ok, plants, animals and me get along just fine.  But when it comes to interactions with my own species, I just can't bring myself to relate.  I hate the drama and the deception, which...
    NeonBlueMidnight NeonBlueMidnight
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jan 14, 2012

    I Don't Quite Understand It

    At one pint during childhood, everything is new; every single fresh piece of information about your surroundings- about the world- is fascinating. I wonder where that rampant sense of curiosity and genuine interest disappears to over time. It seems like we are brought up in...
    ninjapirate ninjapirate
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 21, 2009

    I Need to Grow Up

    I am very disillusioned.  You'd think that I've had learned by now not to be.  I'm old enough to not be naieve or gullible, but...  The saddest thing is:  I'm always telling those younger than myself not to be.  Isn't that a "Kicker"?
    silvermystics silvermystics
    51-55, F
    1 Response May 20, 2007

    A State of Confusion

    Everyone and everything I've known in my life that presented themselves as grounded in principle have invariably turned out to be full of ****. Like most of you, I'm no stranger to betrayal.  I've been betrayed over and over again, by family, friends, and the woman I...
    Whatever Whatever
    26-30, M
    1 Response Oct 21, 2006

    It's the story of my life....

    It's the story of my life.  There is no reality?  The world is a giant TV screen with nobody seeing what goes on behind the scenes.
    moxiesurvivor moxiesurvivor
    66-70, F
    May 19, 2007

    Aaaahhhhh.....

    i can't even begin with this subject. even with a somewhat grounding in historical comparison, i feel so much selfish greed and fear trying to smother us all. maybe it's becasue i am living this era and not just reading about it in the comfort of my chair... this is so...
    MuscleDjinn MuscleDjinn
    41-45, M
    Aug 16, 2007

    I Wouldn't Say That. ...

    I wouldn't say that.  Sometimes things don't go my way when I'm sure that they should've but I'm more reality based than anything.
    lisaj0410 lisaj0410
    31-35, F
    May 19, 2007

    aren't we all?

    aren't we all, if not for a short time and several times throughout life disillusioned? as i've travelled through this life i've slowly come to realize that everything i once stood firmly on has since been overturned.  hence the things i believe today, i will...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal
    31-35, F
    3 Responses May 26, 2007

    Yes, I Can Safely Say That Thi...

    Yes, I can safely say that things are quite clear to me.
    meowmeowface meowmeowface
    36-40, F
    Jun 23, 2007

    I Am

    completely DISILLUSIONED.
    Thought1 Thought1
    22-25
    3 Responses Sep 5, 2009

    I'm Disillusioned That My ...

    I'm disillusioned that my marriage didn't work. Also with jobs. I'm disillusioned that my life is so ho hum and keep thinking there should've been more to my life than being someones mate, a mother, and a working woman.
    sweetd sweetd
    56-60, F
    Aug 14, 2007

    And What a Wonderful Thing It ...

    And what a wonderful thing it is - the illusion is dissolved, the myth is broken. There once was a philosopher of religion who prattled on and on about broken myths, all about how we could still have faith in the ethic if not the fables that the various world religions preach...
    makela makela
    46-50, M
    1 Response Aug 17, 2007
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