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I Am Down the Rabbit Hole - Poems From "Recovery Road"

Writings, songs, and poetry from survivors of all shapes and sizes! 40 People

    Introduction

    Hello and Welcome -           How are you?  No, really - how the hell are you?  Me, I'm hangin' in...  I've started this group in an effort to give folks a place to post their poems, stories, and writings about recovery...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    Crushed

    An emotional crush sucks all the breath out of you and leaves you not knowing which way is up or down. All of a sudden the world is spinning out of control as you know it and what is right in front of your face does not seem real no matter if it is or not.Your insides are tearing...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 27, 2008

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    Angel

    I can't stand this any longer I can't take it anymoreI'm only left one option - to knock on heaven's door.I hope God let's me in and take me far awayCause I just can't take it I can't go on another day.I can't stand to cry another million tearsI can't stand to go through...
    escapingmemories escapingmemories 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 29, 2010

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    Recovery

    This journey scares me, I dont know where im going, A sober mind should mean a happy heart, But i feel the adrenalin wanting to go back to the start, This journey scares me, Not a finish line i can see, Impatience not a virtue but thats all i know how to be, Addicted, Afflicted...
    Lannabells Lannabells 18-21 1 Response Aug 27, 2013

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    Battered But Here

    I am a survivor of drugs, of physical , mental, emotional abuse, I am the mother of a sexually abused child.  ( I didnt know!) He was my soul-mate.  He destroyed more than my daughter's innocence. ( But because of him, she is now a survivor of drug, physical, emotional etc etc...
    collette65 collette65 41-45, F Jan 14, 2011

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    This Bud's For You

      When your wife is crying, When she feels like dying This is what you have to do Have a beer! This Bud’s for you.     When sex becomes a chore Just don’t have it anymore There’s something else you’d rather do Have a beer...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 24 Responses Sep 30, 2008

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    I'm So Tired...

      Tired of trying Tired of crying Tired of being put down Tired of being let down     Tired of struggling to keep up Tired of struggling to live up Tired of being picked apart Tired of being pulled apart     Tired of never being good...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 8 Responses Nov 6, 2008

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    I Quit This Sh*t

      I quit trying. I quit crying. I quit giving so much to you. I quit caring what you do. I quit hearing what you say. You make no sense, anyway. I quit feeling you, deep inside. Now my heart knows where to hide. I quit wishing you would choose, To love me more than...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 15 Responses Oct 10, 2008

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    All The Way To Everywhere By Dennis Ogle

    I followed my soul to the end of infinity and stood fast on the edge of everything I looked back for a last look at home,but I had to shut my eyes to see it. I made my way to the bottom of the top and looked at the satelites of the sun Transfixed on the complex simplicity of...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M Feb 2, 2013

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    Untitled #4

    * Author's Note : Many years ago, when we were still teenagers, my husband and I "lost a child to adoption".  ( We were young, poor, and even homeless a few times.  That, along with with all the issues from our past, just wouldn't have made us very...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 6 Responses Nov 24, 2007

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    My Everything

    It took my innocence, Took my will to live, In turn for misery And a shattered heart It took one hit And I couldn't imagine life without it It was like everything fell into place For a mere six hours But it took my everything Got me to steal from my heart(my family) I...
    Kidd12 Kidd12 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 8, 2012

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    Dead And Gone, By Dennis Ogle

    These are the lyrics to a song off my solo release. I've been clean and sober for 11 1/2 years. I think they fit the category. DEAD AND GONE I don't exactly know where I've been all this time It's like I just woke up and walked into someone else's life All my friends are here but...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 5, 2013

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    Untitled #2

    *I would like to apologize in advance for it's length, simplicity, and rude quirkiness.  I was 17 when I wrote this, and just had a whole hell of a lot of things going on. i hear someone crying but I'm all alone i listen ( crying ) still my breath ( louder now...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    Here, I'll Go First...

    * Author's note : I never title anything I write, nor do I ever"claim" it; I am one of the many "Anonymous-es" out there.  ( See, "anonymous" really is a woman!  LOL! )  However, in a place like this, it's sort of evident, who wrote...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 5 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    Just One Question

    When you reach the point in recovery that you realize that your vices weren't the cause of all of problems, and where to place the blame is no longer so cut and dry obvious, how do you know if you are being true to yourself?
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 6, 2013

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    My Life Story In 90 Seconds

    Rex Born a prince, raised in a castle Mother was kind, father was mad A king not above eating his young In order to survive I grew smaller Weaker, more bent on self destruction With each year Then one crimson morning Fate hurled me into battle Like a spear I...
    ElLagarto ElLagarto 56-60, M 4 Responses Jan 27, 2008

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    Walking In A Path, A New Way..

    On the wall the posters are gone , the grey notes have become ashes, in the closet hidden magazines have vanished and trying to live in a world that sometimes is lying. Someone i know will be ''someone i knew'' ,maybe soon i hope, staring on the wall the thoughts keep...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 3, 2010

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    Getting Past the Clouds

    In order to see what might be, you need to make your way past all the fog, clouds or even mountains that stand in your path to hopefully a new found freedom. How fair would it be to cheat yourself out of a life that only you can obtain. It is not up to anyone else to remove those...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 6 Responses Jan 27, 2008

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    At The Moment

    At the moment there's one thing for me only one thing that will set me free I'm ready to walk straight out that door cause right now I can't take anymore.   I'm not a rag just to abuse Try if you must, but I will refuse I'm a person dad, why can't you see that gradually you...
    escapingmemories escapingmemories 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 9, 2010

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    I Just Want To Be A Better Honky

    I didn't read it in a book, and I was not offended If anthing I thought it was cool, or maybe just funny. It was alresdy here when I joined the game and set about learning the rules Now it made sense, all the laser eyed stares when I spoke as a friend out of turn. suddenly clear...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M Jan 31, 2013

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    Just Because You Crashed, Doesn'T Mean You Don'T Have To Pay For The Ride, By Dennis Ogle

    Can't find a reason for my heavy heart. Can't find the source of this dread. Made a checklist of my realities, and thought back upon the things I've done and said. Still no justification for this emptiness. No Hollywood smoking gun of guilt. Just a forgotten room with no windows...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 6, 2013

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    Just Because

    The wheel turns in a blink of an eye One moment you are down low The next instant you're up high. An instant to hold on and grab tightly Slipping, more often bruised from clenching Climbing, they say, it's all part of the journey. I have fallen in the rabbit hole countless times...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 20, 2011

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    Soul Imploding

      Well I've posted this before, but I suppose I wrote it when I was down the rabbit hole. It has only grown darker   Since the sun rose Birds fall silent As I pass, but follow With intent, unblinking eyes Flowers burn brightly From the shadows I kneel to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 13, 2007

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    Roads I know your roads I've been on them all I grew up on them I've got stories of them all With Red lights and blue I've rushed along you In The race against death You took me...
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