I want to talk about recovery. Being in recovery doesn't mean, you are always doing well. And that you don't think about your abortion. We can all have good days. Or we can have...
An eating disorder is what I have, anorexia. know what your going threw, I am on my 2nd recovery. I started because my mom called me fat all the time and always made fun of me...
You walked down this road all on your own,
With no one to help you to get to the throne,
All that you've done but nothing to show,
So now you'll be just a pile of bones
And no one...
I used to cut
not on paper
but on my skin
with different kinds of blades
I used to cut
and the blade slides across
my wrist, tummy and hips
one line and then another...
I had an abortion and is in recovery. Been in recovery for 2 years. But I still feel that emptiness. You know that emptiness? Like something is missing. I still feel a little...
Someone very close to me used to write songs and poems for me. He would always capture exactly how I feel in his writing, just by observing my behavior. My favorite memory with him...
Leave It All Behind
What can I do? How can I prove – that you are:
Every little bloody thing, yelling at the passing lights,
Is this what you wanted when you said, darlin...
This is an email from one of my friends, sent yesterday. Because of its impact and deeply powerful message, I wish to share it with you, in the hopes this might give you the...
I've recently been diagnosed with ocd. Finally everything is starting to make sense but I'm nowhere near recovery. Every day is a struggle. 'If I don't blink four times before that...
3 weeks ago I made a step forward and entered the suboxone program. I didn't know what to expect but the other patients were encouraging, supportive and they knew how it was. I was...
She sits on her bed
Yelling at him through technology
Tears stream down her face
She's close to losing it
She's lost all trust
She's gone forever
Her poor little soul
I have 2 male rabbits and they are so lovely and caring despite their back round story and being rescued from my local Ish shelter
I have suffered from an eating disorder for most of my life. I am 23 now. Anorexia developed in me when I was 10, by the time I was 15 it was severe and included bits of bulimia. I...
This is an older poem of mine:
The hazy blur of Eden sinks, while Shangri-La it leaves me cold,
downtrodden, incense hangs like poison fog
the emerald still glistens deep
I love traveling and there's like something romantic about road trips lol. Being squeezed in a car eating snack food and pop out of a cooler, cramped up in the back. I just wish I...
First of all, I am not a cutter, I am not suicidal, and never have been, I don't want to die. I want to live.
But I am not living. I have been stuck in a unwanted role for the...
My Preston died last night after a fox got in to his run. I'm really devastated and my friends don't get it cause he was 'just a rabbit' so I end up feeling kinda stupid for being...
Well, im in recovery again. eating is a sometimes ok thing. Some days im hungry and give in, other days anna's in control. i cant wait to be rid of this eating disorder once and...
The last time that my husband and I went on a road trip was from Las Vegas to Phoenix. The road trip was just for a weekend. The longest road trip that we took was from Las Vegas...
I found out I was pregnant on April 1st. The irony. I had thought for a few weeks that I might of been pregnant and if I was I wouldn't be for much longer. I didn't make the...
My Teacher© 2014 Christina HorstMy teacher is one of the bestHis inspiration spreads from north to south and from east to westLook as hard as you likeYou will never see the...
As i let the anchor
down in these deep waters
feeling paralysed to move
no travel furher more
cause love trapped me on the sea floor.
Where did it came from?
Fok. Dang. Shyte.
Am i a diva????
Cant be a spoiled brat.
Was never spoiled.
Want to be.
Hate my luck.
Have wanted to be murphy forever.
His law haunts me...
I trusted you
I loved you
I promised you everything
I was once again a fool
For falling for you
You gripped my heart and crushed it to pieces
Don't ask why i'm sad
Don't ask if...
My first post a couple months was my first step to recovery. I finally owned and admitted what happened and played around with ideas about how to move on. Its two month later, and...
I have a gift
You have a gift
We all have a gift
A gift to create
Buildings to cars to empires to spaceships to mars
Creation of life, creation of food, creation of wine, creation...
Unclothed, you are true, like one of your hands,
lissome, terrestrial, slight, complete, translucent,
with curves of moon, and paths of apple-wood:
Unclothed you are as slender as...
There’s a window in my head
That only I can see
It is the gate-way to my fantasy
There I am a hero, master and king
I am capable of doing anything
When I dwell there the world...
I write a lot of poems about my feeling when I get mad, I just like to take my anger out in writing then read over what I've written.
I've always been a poet. Several poems of mine have been published. I have a very open mind and poetry is the only way I get my feelings out.