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I Am Down the Rabbit Hole - Poems From "Recovery Road"

Writings, songs, and poetry from survivors of all shapes and sizes! 40 People

    Just One Question

    When you reach the point in recovery that you realize that your vices weren't the cause of all of problems, and where to place the blame is no longer so cut and dry obvious, how do you know if you are being true to yourself?
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 6, 2013

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    My Everything

    It took my innocence, Took my will to live, In turn for misery And a shattered heart It took one hit And I couldn't imagine life without it It was like everything fell into place For a mere six hours But it took my everything Got me to steal from my heart(my family) I...
    Kidd12 Kidd12 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 8, 2012

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    Angel

    I can't stand this any longer I can't take it anymoreI'm only left one option - to knock on heaven's door.I hope God let's me in and take me far awayCause I just can't take it I can't go on another day.I can't stand to cry another million tearsI can't stand to go through...
    escapingmemories escapingmemories 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 29, 2010

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    Introduction

    Hello and Welcome -           How are you?  No, really - how the hell are you?  Me, I'm hangin' in...  I've started this group in an effort to give folks a place to post their poems, stories, and writings about recovery...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    At The Moment

    At the moment there's one thing for me only one thing that will set me free I'm ready to walk straight out that door cause right now I can't take anymore.   I'm not a rag just to abuse Try if you must, but I will refuse I'm a person dad, why can't you see that gradually you...
    escapingmemories escapingmemories 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 9, 2010

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    This Bud's For You

      When your wife is crying, When she feels like dying This is what you have to do Have a beer! This Bud’s for you.     When sex becomes a chore Just don’t have it anymore There’s something else you’d rather do Have a beer...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 24 Responses Sep 30, 2008

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    Recovery

    This journey scares me, I dont know where im going, A sober mind should mean a happy heart, But i feel the adrenalin wanting to go back to the start, This journey scares me, Not a finish line i can see, Impatience not a virtue but thats all i know how to be, Addicted, Afflicted...
    Lannabells Lannabells 18-21 1 Response Aug 27, 2013

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    Getting Past the Clouds

    In order to see what might be, you need to make your way past all the fog, clouds or even mountains that stand in your path to hopefully a new found freedom. How fair would it be to cheat yourself out of a life that only you can obtain. It is not up to anyone else to remove those...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 6 Responses Jan 27, 2008

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    Here, I'll Go First...

    * Author's note : I never title anything I write, nor do I ever"claim" it; I am one of the many "Anonymous-es" out there.  ( See, "anonymous" really is a woman!  LOL! )  However, in a place like this, it's sort of evident, who wrote...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 5 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    I Just Want To Be A Better Honky

    I didn't read it in a book, and I was not offended If anthing I thought it was cool, or maybe just funny. It was alresdy here when I joined the game and set about learning the rules Now it made sense, all the laser eyed stares when I spoke as a friend out of turn. suddenly clear...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M Jan 31, 2013

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    Crushed

    An emotional crush sucks all the breath out of you and leaves you not knowing which way is up or down. All of a sudden the world is spinning out of control as you know it and what is right in front of your face does not seem real no matter if it is or not.Your insides are tearing...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 27, 2008

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    Just Because You Crashed, Doesn'T Mean You Don'T Have To Pay For The Ride, By Dennis Ogle

    Can't find a reason for my heavy heart. Can't find the source of this dread. Made a checklist of my realities, and thought back upon the things I've done and said. Still no justification for this emptiness. No Hollywood smoking gun of guilt. Just a forgotten room with no windows...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 6, 2013

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    My Life Story In 90 Seconds

    Rex Born a prince, raised in a castle Mother was kind, father was mad A king not above eating his young In order to survive I grew smaller Weaker, more bent on self destruction With each year Then one crimson morning Fate hurled me into battle Like a spear I...
    ElLagarto ElLagarto 56-60, M 4 Responses Jan 27, 2008

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    Dead And Gone, By Dennis Ogle

    These are the lyrics to a song off my solo release. I've been clean and sober for 11 1/2 years. I think they fit the category. DEAD AND GONE I don't exactly know where I've been all this time It's like I just woke up and walked into someone else's life All my friends are here but...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 5, 2013

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    I'm So Tired...

      Tired of trying Tired of crying Tired of being put down Tired of being let down     Tired of struggling to keep up Tired of struggling to live up Tired of being picked apart Tired of being pulled apart     Tired of never being good...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 8 Responses Nov 6, 2008

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    Soul Imploding

      Well I've posted this before, but I suppose I wrote it when I was down the rabbit hole. It has only grown darker   Since the sun rose Birds fall silent As I pass, but follow With intent, unblinking eyes Flowers burn brightly From the shadows I kneel to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 13, 2007

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    I Quit This Sh*t

      I quit trying. I quit crying. I quit giving so much to you. I quit caring what you do. I quit hearing what you say. You make no sense, anyway. I quit feeling you, deep inside. Now my heart knows where to hide. I quit wishing you would choose, To love me more than...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 15 Responses Oct 10, 2008

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    Untitled #4

    * Author's Note : Many years ago, when we were still teenagers, my husband and I "lost a child to adoption".  ( We were young, poor, and even homeless a few times.  That, along with with all the issues from our past, just wouldn't have made us very...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 6 Responses Nov 24, 2007

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    Just Because

    The wheel turns in a blink of an eye One moment you are down low The next instant you're up high. An instant to hold on and grab tightly Slipping, more often bruised from clenching Climbing, they say, it's all part of the journey. I have fallen in the rabbit hole countless times...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 20, 2011

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    Battered But Here

    I am a survivor of drugs, of physical , mental, emotional abuse, I am the mother of a sexually abused child.  ( I didnt know!) He was my soul-mate.  He destroyed more than my daughter's innocence. ( But because of him, she is now a survivor of drug, physical, emotional etc etc...
    collette65 collette65 41-45, F Jan 14, 2011

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    Walking In A Path, A New Way..

    On the wall the posters are gone , the grey notes have become ashes, in the closet hidden magazines have vanished and trying to live in a world that sometimes is lying. Someone i know will be ''someone i knew'' ,maybe soon i hope, staring on the wall the thoughts keep...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 3, 2010

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    All The Way To Everywhere By Dennis Ogle

    I followed my soul to the end of infinity and stood fast on the edge of everything I looked back for a last look at home,but I had to shut my eyes to see it. I made my way to the bottom of the top and looked at the satelites of the sun Transfixed on the complex simplicity of...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M Feb 2, 2013

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    Untitled #2

    *I would like to apologize in advance for it's length, simplicity, and rude quirkiness.  I was 17 when I wrote this, and just had a whole hell of a lot of things going on. i hear someone crying but I'm all alone i listen ( crying ) still my breath ( louder now...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    Related Experiences

    Sometimes you have to break down, to build yourself back up. Sometimes I forget how broken I am, because I've worn this mask far too long it's fooled even me. Sometimes I wounded...
    KellerKing13 KellerKing13 18-21, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    When I am alone I let the tears fall down my face, I don't push them away, and I don't try to hide them. I don't wipe them away, I let my tears fall down my face, I let them wash...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 15 hrs ago

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    I used to cut and I stopped. I started again and I'm putting the new ones over the old. I was emotionally and verbally abused in a relationship and I'm tired of feeling so useless...
    sorrygirl97 sorrygirl97 18-21, F 4 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    And I have always felt that more than love, she had the craving to be understood. She was the dense forest, the vintage road that everybody admires and adores, but few ever muster...
    iSpyce iSpyce 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    You say only i shall know Hovering in rains Remaining skin, hair and nails Decorating moon stream Time is nothing, soaking in minutes A glass drop installation I suppose now All is...
    rubietuesday rubietuesday 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    So far, I have written seven poems, ten short stories and six essays. Out of these, nearly half have been published in one form or another.
    Solitaireman Solitaireman 51-55, M 3 days ago

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    This was for an old friend who was suffering from depression. I change the she to they/their so now it can be for everyone. There is always someone who will care if you just voice...
    Daniellevn Daniellevn 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    Am I driving to, around or from the nasty storm? Lightning flashes furiously and heavy rain downpours. My truck is slow at the best of times, but when the skies darken they...
    RoadPoet RoadPoet 41-45, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    We are once again not on good terms. I have this pair of boots I almost never wear. Magic claimed them as his own a few times (rubbed his chin on them to mark them with his scent...
    TheBadgeringWitness TheBadgeringWitness 31-35 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Seasons Air so cold that I can see my breath Hiding under layers of blankets and clothes to stay to stay warm The beauty of the icicles hanging off the trees after a fresh...
    chrisscott515 chrisscott515 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I want to go back to Jackson hole Wyoming and Yellowstone national parks it's beautiful place
    bandit5320 bandit5320 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    I do like writing, but one of my friends said they wrote this poem and I liked it and the message or idea I get from it and she said I could post it because I wanted to share it...
    EurydiceKallos EurydiceKallos 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    The End... As the room grows quiet My vision closes in My heart starts pounding As I dream of the end The end of the life I wanted The end of the end The end of everything happy...
    ForgetableMe ForgetableMe 31-35, M a week ago

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    Someday you'll miss me like I missed you, Someday you'll cry For me like I cried for you, Someday you'll want me back like I Wanted you, Someday you'll understand why you broke my...
    l1skub4n l1skub4n 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    Love this quote from Carl Sagan. (can't see pic?? click on bold type). Pic was taken by master photographer Will Simpson, in the beautiful Palouse, in SE Washington state, where I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 25

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    Poetry is my essence that gives me a feeling of a presence looking like a present far from a resent I'm a ascent moving in a positive direction with affection
    hoyee hoyee 18-21, M Jun 25

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    You are trapped in a cage.. no one sees it.. not even you.. you don't know what it's made of.. you don't even know where it came from.. but you feel it.. it's all around you...
    hangonthere hangonthere 22-25, F Jun 24

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    Pained Love: i hold you in my arms, sheltering you from the storm. My warmth fades away the pain of the withered night. For I am the castle that made you a sinful promise. To...
    Biowolf25 Biowolf25 16-17, F Jun 23

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    "Poetry is thoughts that breathe and words that burn" "Without struggle, there is no progress" "I turn people into poetry. I dont mean to, it just happens. One day, youre just a...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 23

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    Prince Charming A magical feeling when life seems so perfect Where the happiness never seems to end Where every dream and hope seems possible The guy who I can picture spending the...
    chrisscott515 chrisscott515 22-25, F Jun 22

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    Prince Charming A magical feeling when life seems so perfect Where the happiness never seems to end Where every dream and hope seems possible The guy who I can picture spending the...
    chrisscott515 chrisscott515 22-25, F Jun 22