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I Am Down the Rabbit Hole - Poems From "Recovery Road"

Writings, songs, and poetry from survivors of all shapes and sizes! 39 People

    Battered But Here

    I am a survivor of drugs, of physical , mental, emotional abuse, I am the mother of a sexually abused child.  ( I didnt know!) He was my soul-mate.  He destroyed more than my daughter's innocence. ( But because of him, she is now a survivor of drug, physical, emotional etc etc...
    collette65 collette65 41-45, F Jan 14, 2011

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    Just One Question

    When you reach the point in recovery that you realize that your vices weren't the cause of all of problems, and where to place the blame is no longer so cut and dry obvious, how do you know if you are being true to yourself?
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 6, 2013

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    Untitled #2

    *I would like to apologize in advance for it's length, simplicity, and rude quirkiness.  I was 17 when I wrote this, and just had a whole hell of a lot of things going on. i hear someone crying but I'm all alone i listen ( crying ) still my breath ( louder now...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    Just Because

    The wheel turns in a blink of an eye One moment you are down low The next instant you're up high. An instant to hold on and grab tightly Slipping, more often bruised from clenching Climbing, they say, it's all part of the journey. I have fallen in the rabbit hole countless times...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 20, 2011

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    Introduction

    Hello and Welcome -           How are you?  No, really - how the hell are you?  Me, I'm hangin' in...  I've started this group in an effort to give folks a place to post their poems, stories, and writings about recovery...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    Soul Imploding

      Well I've posted this before, but I suppose I wrote it when I was down the rabbit hole. It has only grown darker   Since the sun rose Birds fall silent As I pass, but follow With intent, unblinking eyes Flowers burn brightly From the shadows I kneel to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 13, 2007

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    Just Because You Crashed, Doesn'T Mean You Don'T Have To Pay For The Ride, By Dennis Ogle

    Can't find a reason for my heavy heart. Can't find the source of this dread. Made a checklist of my realities, and thought back upon the things I've done and said. Still no justification for this emptiness. No Hollywood smoking gun of guilt. Just a forgotten room with no windows...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 6, 2013

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    This Bud's For You

      When your wife is crying, When she feels like dying This is what you have to do Have a beer! This Bud’s for you.     When sex becomes a chore Just don’t have it anymore There’s something else you’d rather do Have a beer...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 24 Responses Sep 30, 2008

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    Angel

    I can't stand this any longer I can't take it anymoreI'm only left one option - to knock on heaven's door.I hope God let's me in and take me far awayCause I just can't take it I can't go on another day.I can't stand to cry another million tearsI can't stand to go through...
    escapingmemories escapingmemories 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 29, 2010

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    I Quit This Sh*t

      I quit trying. I quit crying. I quit giving so much to you. I quit caring what you do. I quit hearing what you say. You make no sense, anyway. I quit feeling you, deep inside. Now my heart knows where to hide. I quit wishing you would choose, To love me more than...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 15 Responses Oct 10, 2008

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    Crushed

    An emotional crush sucks all the breath out of you and leaves you not knowing which way is up or down. All of a sudden the world is spinning out of control as you know it and what is right in front of your face does not seem real no matter if it is or not.Your insides are tearing...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 27, 2008

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    Getting Past the Clouds

    In order to see what might be, you need to make your way past all the fog, clouds or even mountains that stand in your path to hopefully a new found freedom. How fair would it be to cheat yourself out of a life that only you can obtain. It is not up to anyone else to remove those...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 6 Responses Jan 27, 2008

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    All The Way To Everywhere By Dennis Ogle

    I followed my soul to the end of infinity and stood fast on the edge of everything I looked back for a last look at home,but I had to shut my eyes to see it. I made my way to the bottom of the top and looked at the satelites of the sun Transfixed on the complex simplicity of...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M Feb 2, 2013

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    I'm So Tired...

      Tired of trying Tired of crying Tired of being put down Tired of being let down     Tired of struggling to keep up Tired of struggling to live up Tired of being picked apart Tired of being pulled apart     Tired of never being good...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 8 Responses Nov 6, 2008

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    I Just Want To Be A Better Honky

    I didn't read it in a book, and I was not offended If anthing I thought it was cool, or maybe just funny. It was alresdy here when I joined the game and set about learning the rules Now it made sense, all the laser eyed stares when I spoke as a friend out of turn. suddenly clear...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M Jan 31, 2013

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    Here, I'll Go First...

    * Author's note : I never title anything I write, nor do I ever"claim" it; I am one of the many "Anonymous-es" out there.  ( See, "anonymous" really is a woman!  LOL! )  However, in a place like this, it's sort of evident, who wrote...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 5 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    Dead And Gone, By Dennis Ogle

    These are the lyrics to a song off my solo release. I've been clean and sober for 11 1/2 years. I think they fit the category. DEAD AND GONE I don't exactly know where I've been all this time It's like I just woke up and walked into someone else's life All my friends are here but...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 5, 2013

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    My Life Story In 90 Seconds

    Rex Born a prince, raised in a castle Mother was kind, father was mad A king not above eating his young In order to survive I grew smaller Weaker, more bent on self destruction With each year Then one crimson morning Fate hurled me into battle Like a spear I...
    ElLagarto ElLagarto 56-60, M 4 Responses Jan 27, 2008

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    Recovery

    This journey scares me, I dont know where im going, A sober mind should mean a happy heart, But i feel the adrenalin wanting to go back to the start, This journey scares me, Not a finish line i can see, Impatience not a virtue but thats all i know how to be, Addicted, Afflicted...
    Lannabells Lannabells 18-21 1 Response Aug 27, 2013

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    Untitled #4

    * Author's Note : Many years ago, when we were still teenagers, my husband and I "lost a child to adoption".  ( We were young, poor, and even homeless a few times.  That, along with with all the issues from our past, just wouldn't have made us very...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 6 Responses Nov 24, 2007

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    Walking In A Path, A New Way..

    On the wall the posters are gone , the grey notes have become ashes, in the closet hidden magazines have vanished and trying to live in a world that sometimes is lying. Someone i know will be ''someone i knew'' ,maybe soon i hope, staring on the wall the thoughts keep...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 3, 2010

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    My Everything

    It took my innocence, Took my will to live, In turn for misery And a shattered heart It took one hit And I couldn't imagine life without it It was like everything fell into place For a mere six hours But it took my everything Got me to steal from my heart(my family) I...
    Kidd12 Kidd12 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 8, 2012

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    At The Moment

    At the moment there's one thing for me only one thing that will set me free I'm ready to walk straight out that door cause right now I can't take anymore.   I'm not a rag just to abuse Try if you must, but I will refuse I'm a person dad, why can't you see that gradually you...
    escapingmemories escapingmemories 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 9, 2010

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    Anxiety takes over She tries to speak up but she loses her words like a baby loses her toy. Room spinning around like a merry go around, as she nervously holds the heavy paper in...
    itslala840 itslala840 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Downie x Tom, a love fanfic written by Swuft Today was a normal day for downie, Cook some food, take a nap, play video games (and lose), life here for him was boring, living...
    chimpchimp1 chimpchimp1 22-25, M Jan 3

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    MAUD MULLER by: John Greenleaf Whittier (1807-1892) MAUD MULLER, on a summer's day, Raked the meadows sweet with hay. Beneath her torn hat glowed the wealth Of simple beauty and...
    secretme1970 secretme1970 41-45, F Jan 3

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    It starts to rain, just lite at first, the dress I'm wearing becomes slightly see through and clings to all my curves, the outline of my lacy red bra can now be seen through the...
    albatrouz albatrouz 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    Donna can kill with a smile.  She is a traveler, born in the place with a humble beginnings.  She is equipped with a strong soul, that spending time with her will be...
    AdrianKroll AdrianKroll 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    I'm a recovering drug addict. I've struggled to find my place in recovery and many times have I thought I'd found that place in 12-step programs. I currently attend NA meetings but...
    XenosParadox XenosParadox 26-30, M Jan 4

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    It's hard. I have had a lot of road blocks. I can't seem to get over the loss of my baby. I'm starting to wonder if I ever will. I just can't accept it. The weird thing is... I was...
    Roadtorecovery31997 Roadtorecovery31997 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    Did I not say to you, “Go not there, for I am your friend; in this mirage of annihilation I am the fountain of life? ” Even though in anger you depart a hundred thousand...
    Camouflage Camouflage 18-21, M Jan 10

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    I need some help. I am trying to recover from losing my baby. And I think getting a small tattoo just on my heel of the date I lost her would be a good thing for me to heal. But...
    Roadtorecovery31997 Roadtorecovery31997 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 6

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    what do you expect when you ask me, "who are you?" I've been a lot of people to a lot of people, and my many selves are strangers to each other. I've run from expectation and taken...
    paulie138 paulie138 66-70, M Jan 19

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    And it scares me. Today my friends bought me a rabbit as a gift and the rabbit and ı we both afraid of each other. After friends had gone ı cried looking at its eye. Its a cruel...
    waboosee waboosee 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Nathan3691sfs9 Nathan3691sfs9 31-35, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I really want to go on a road trip again. My last road trip was pretty fun. Here's how it went; So me and my family rented a minivan (Dodge Grand Caravan), and my dad decided to...
    BoredReality BoredReality 18-21, M Jan 4

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    I am in recovery from addiction to drugs and alcohol. I started drinking and using as a teen, and it took many years before addiction caught up with me. It was a long and slow...
    bethanngirl bethanngirl 56-60, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Well... my family and I are finally back from my uncle's funeral (Grandmother's brother), and I can honestly say that I am NOT glad to be home -_-.... Of course the trip was a...
    LittleBastet9 LittleBastet9 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    I have not been on many long distance road trips away from home. The first & longest road trip I went on away from home was a trip to Conneticut back to the state I was born in...
    mamabutterfly mamabutterfly 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 10

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    Luggage I need a character to write a fairy tale around; a hero or a villain, a man or a woman. I'm starting flexible; the character will tell the tale. perhaps he is over-proud...
    paulie138 paulie138 66-70, M Jan 19

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