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I Am Down the Rabbit Hole - Poems From "Recovery Road"

Writings, songs, and poetry from survivors of all shapes and sizes! 38 People

    I'm So Tired...

      Tired of trying Tired of crying Tired of being put down Tired of being let down     Tired of struggling to keep up Tired of struggling to live up Tired of being picked apart Tired of being pulled apart     Tired of never being good...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 8 Responses Nov 6, 2008

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    Battered But Here

    I am a survivor of drugs, of physical , mental, emotional abuse, I am the mother of a sexually abused child.  ( I didnt know!) He was my soul-mate.  He destroyed more than my daughter's innocence. ( But because of him, she is now a survivor of drug, physical, emotional etc etc...
    collette65 collette65 41-45, F Jan 14, 2011

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    At The Moment

    At the moment there's one thing for me only one thing that will set me free I'm ready to walk straight out that door cause right now I can't take anymore.   I'm not a rag just to abuse Try if you must, but I will refuse I'm a person dad, why can't you see that gradually you...
    escapingmemories escapingmemories 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 9, 2010

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    Untitled #4

    * Author's Note : Many years ago, when we were still teenagers, my husband and I "lost a child to adoption".  ( We were young, poor, and even homeless a few times.  That, along with with all the issues from our past, just wouldn't have made us very...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 6 Responses Nov 24, 2007

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    My Life Story In 90 Seconds

    Rex Born a prince, raised in a castle Mother was kind, father was mad A king not above eating his young In order to survive I grew smaller Weaker, more bent on self destruction With each year Then one crimson morning Fate hurled me into battle Like a spear I...
    ElLagarto ElLagarto 56-60, M 4 Responses Jan 27, 2008

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    Walking In A Path, A New Way..

    On the wall the posters are gone , the grey notes have become ashes, in the closet hidden magazines have vanished and trying to live in a world that sometimes is lying. Someone i know will be ''someone i knew'' ,maybe soon i hope, staring on the wall the thoughts keep...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 3, 2010

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    Getting Past the Clouds

    In order to see what might be, you need to make your way past all the fog, clouds or even mountains that stand in your path to hopefully a new found freedom. How fair would it be to cheat yourself out of a life that only you can obtain. It is not up to anyone else to remove those...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 6 Responses Jan 27, 2008

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    Just Because

    The wheel turns in a blink of an eye One moment you are down low The next instant you're up high. An instant to hold on and grab tightly Slipping, more often bruised from clenching Climbing, they say, it's all part of the journey. I have fallen in the rabbit hole countless times...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 20, 2011

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    Dead And Gone, By Dennis Ogle

    These are the lyrics to a song off my solo release. I've been clean and sober for 11 1/2 years. I think they fit the category. DEAD AND GONE I don't exactly know where I've been all this time It's like I just woke up and walked into someone else's life All my friends are here but...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 5, 2013

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    I Quit This Sh*t

      I quit trying. I quit crying. I quit giving so much to you. I quit caring what you do. I quit hearing what you say. You make no sense, anyway. I quit feeling you, deep inside. Now my heart knows where to hide. I quit wishing you would choose, To love me more than...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 15 Responses Oct 10, 2008

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    I Just Want To Be A Better Honky

    I didn't read it in a book, and I was not offended If anthing I thought it was cool, or maybe just funny. It was alresdy here when I joined the game and set about learning the rules Now it made sense, all the laser eyed stares when I spoke as a friend out of turn. suddenly clear...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M Jan 31, 2013

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    This Bud's For You

      When your wife is crying, When she feels like dying This is what you have to do Have a beer! This Bud’s for you.     When sex becomes a chore Just don’t have it anymore There’s something else you’d rather do Have a beer...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 24 Responses Sep 30, 2008

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    Just One Question

    When you reach the point in recovery that you realize that your vices weren't the cause of all of problems, and where to place the blame is no longer so cut and dry obvious, how do you know if you are being true to yourself?
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 6, 2013

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    Crushed

    An emotional crush sucks all the breath out of you and leaves you not knowing which way is up or down. All of a sudden the world is spinning out of control as you know it and what is right in front of your face does not seem real no matter if it is or not.Your insides are tearing...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 27, 2008

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    Introduction

    Hello and Welcome -           How are you?  No, really - how the hell are you?  Me, I'm hangin' in...  I've started this group in an effort to give folks a place to post their poems, stories, and writings about recovery...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    All The Way To Everywhere By Dennis Ogle

    I followed my soul to the end of infinity and stood fast on the edge of everything I looked back for a last look at home,but I had to shut my eyes to see it. I made my way to the bottom of the top and looked at the satelites of the sun Transfixed on the complex simplicity of...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M Feb 2, 2013

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    My Everything

    It took my innocence, Took my will to live, In turn for misery And a shattered heart It took one hit And I couldn't imagine life without it It was like everything fell into place For a mere six hours But it took my everything Got me to steal from my heart(my family) I...
    Kidd12 Kidd12 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 8, 2012

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    Just Because You Crashed, Doesn'T Mean You Don'T Have To Pay For The Ride, By Dennis Ogle

    Can't find a reason for my heavy heart. Can't find the source of this dread. Made a checklist of my realities, and thought back upon the things I've done and said. Still no justification for this emptiness. No Hollywood smoking gun of guilt. Just a forgotten room with no windows...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 6, 2013

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    Untitled #2

    *I would like to apologize in advance for it's length, simplicity, and rude quirkiness.  I was 17 when I wrote this, and just had a whole hell of a lot of things going on. i hear someone crying but I'm all alone i listen ( crying ) still my breath ( louder now...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    Recovery

    This journey scares me, I dont know where im going, A sober mind should mean a happy heart, But i feel the adrenalin wanting to go back to the start, This journey scares me, Not a finish line i can see, Impatience not a virtue but thats all i know how to be, Addicted, Afflicted...
    Lannabells Lannabells 18-21 1 Response Aug 27, 2013

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    Soul Imploding

      Well I've posted this before, but I suppose I wrote it when I was down the rabbit hole. It has only grown darker   Since the sun rose Birds fall silent As I pass, but follow With intent, unblinking eyes Flowers burn brightly From the shadows I kneel to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 13, 2007

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    Here, I'll Go First...

    * Author's note : I never title anything I write, nor do I ever"claim" it; I am one of the many "Anonymous-es" out there.  ( See, "anonymous" really is a woman!  LOL! )  However, in a place like this, it's sort of evident, who wrote...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 5 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    Angel

    I can't stand this any longer I can't take it anymoreI'm only left one option - to knock on heaven's door.I hope God let's me in and take me far awayCause I just can't take it I can't go on another day.I can't stand to cry another million tearsI can't stand to go through...
    escapingmemories escapingmemories 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 29, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    If anything, the one gooding about being down here is the solitude, and the view.
    MysteriousAddiction MysteriousAddiction 16-17, F 30 mins ago

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    I'm on one right now, we left almost 2 weeks ago to help a family friends who is displaced from their house due to flooding of their house and yard... So, we went on a road trip...
    4NeonFun 4NeonFun 16-17, F 21 hrs ago

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    Is there anyone who can see through your pain? Who can heal your bruises, who can chase away your fears? Is it all up to you? Is loneliness inside of you? Is there anyone who can...
    rockstin87 rockstin87 26-30, M 9 hrs ago

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    I walked a mile with Pleasure; She chatted all the way; But left me none the wiser For all she had to say. I walked a mile with Sorrow; And ne’er a word said she; But, oh! The...
    Anconia Anconia 26-30, M 10 hrs ago

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    Attention please! Attention please! 'Attention please! Attention please! Don't dare to talk! Don't dare to sneeze! Don't doze or daydream! Stay awake! Your health, your very life...
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 1 day ago

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    Hey friends. I just wanted to share with you the liberation I feel from taking steps towards a healthy life. I have been through emotionally traumatic instances in my life, and it...
    Kimbahbay Kimbahbay 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Since I was a kid, I love rabbits. My younger sister is obsessed with rabbits since Bambi. We always wanted one but our mom said no. A lot of people think rabbits stink but they...
    twilighteen twilighteen 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Fallen blank and jones This fallen you feel connected to you need them to fill this hole that is never ending only they can help relieve the pain nothing will understand but this...
    laten14 laten14 13-15, F Jun 24

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    I'm 17 years old, and I am recovering from an addiction to Crystal Methamphetamine. The first step in recovery is admitting you have a problem. My first step, was thinking about my...
    angoscia angoscia 16-17 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Now in taking steps into recovering ,it's been a rough hard road.im being honest to myself and honest to all on EP.my experiance.in recovering .with all the help from my genuine EP...
    ladydove20 ladydove20 18-21, F Jul 10

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    I've been down with my vision loss lately and I came on line to eventually discover someone who was recently my very special male friend (nothing sexual, but special and I was...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 6 hrs ago

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    I've been down with my vision loss lately and I came on line to eventually discover someone who was recently my very special male friend (nothing sexual, but special and I was...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 6 hrs ago

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    The only one that I have ever known Don't know where it goes But it's home to me and I walk alone In my opinion we all walk our own lonely road. Some are close with others so we...
    BleedingOrchids BleedingOrchids 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 28

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    So one of my closest friends and I read a poem that a shepherd wrote to his love called 'The passionate Shepherded to his love' , then a different poet responded in a poem to the...
    anotherpasserby anotherpasserby 16-17, F Jul 3

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    I've been in recovery for three months now since my suicide attempt. I've been doing much better, but it seems like everyone is trying to control my recovery. Nobody asks me what I...
    Xander8905 Xander8905 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 14

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    I'm so thankful, that they always have a place in my heart But I'm so ashamed, that I start losing sight of their faces, their names Don't look at me, please don't look at me Is it...
    SquirrellyGal2493 SquirrellyGal2493 18-21 Jul 16

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    I feel like im stuck in a black hole. im stuck in the darkness and cant get out. I want to find the light but the darkness is to strong and a weight is holding me down. I feel...
    silentgirl1234 silentgirl1234 13-15, F a week ago

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    My heart is truly touched by how many people support and love me I call them all family, and it's enough to bring tears to my eyes Which I both love and hate, I both love and hate...
    SquirrellyGal2493 SquirrellyGal2493 18-21 6 days ago

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    That empty feeling, pierced so deep She's alone, walking on dry feet Hanging a bright smile like a picture Wondering where she's supposed to be When the sun goes down, the drinks...
    beautyisnature beautyisnature 22-25, F Jun 27

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    Actually these lines are from a song, so, I fixed them into a poem. Don't hesitate another moment, Please take away my heart. Yes, the sharper the better. The night that even the...
    TheKDoomsday TheKDoomsday 13-15, F Jun 28

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    "There Comes A Time In Your Life When U Walk Away From All The Drama and People Who Created It. You Surround Yourself With People Who Makes You Laugh." "Forget The Bad And Focus...
    YvetteBaby21 YvetteBaby21 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    I feel awful. I feel sad, I feel regret. My anxiety hasn't changed. My depression hasn't changed. I've had all of this before the pregnancy. I had a month to decide. I never told...
    missangle missangle 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    --the Dream-- Silver blue gift Drowns far down stream Just out of reach... My fingertips brush The tiny gold pebbles That pour from the cavity in my chest; And I'm falling...
    Brokenglassapple Brokenglassapple 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    This is my favorite poem: Go to sleep and close your eyes, And dream of broken butterflies That tore their wings against a thorn. You know the pain that they have endured...
    GabriellaFae GabriellaFae 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 26

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    My poems are your hidden letters. Another delusion I created I knew you so well. The way you breathed, the way you smelled. And I missed you so bad, when you first asked me not...
    YouShouldHaveKilledMe YouShouldHaveKilledMe 18-21, F Jul 3

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