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I Am Down the Rabbit Hole - Poems From "Recovery Road"

Writings, songs, and poetry from survivors of all shapes and sizes! 39 People

    Recovery

    This journey scares me, I dont know where im going, A sober mind should mean a happy heart, But i feel the adrenalin wanting to go back to the start, This journey scares me, Not a finish line i can see, Impatience not a virtue but thats all i know how to be, Addicted, Afflicted...
    Lannabells Lannabells 18-21 1 Response Aug 27, 2013

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    Dead And Gone, By Dennis Ogle

    These are the lyrics to a song off my solo release. I've been clean and sober for 11 1/2 years. I think they fit the category. DEAD AND GONE I don't exactly know where I've been all this time It's like I just woke up and walked into someone else's life All my friends are here but...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 5, 2013

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    Angel

    I can't stand this any longer I can't take it anymoreI'm only left one option - to knock on heaven's door.I hope God let's me in and take me far awayCause I just can't take it I can't go on another day.I can't stand to cry another million tearsI can't stand to go through...
    escapingmemories escapingmemories 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 29, 2010

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    Getting Past the Clouds

    In order to see what might be, you need to make your way past all the fog, clouds or even mountains that stand in your path to hopefully a new found freedom. How fair would it be to cheat yourself out of a life that only you can obtain. It is not up to anyone else to remove those...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 6 Responses Jan 27, 2008

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    Here, I'll Go First...

    * Author's note : I never title anything I write, nor do I ever"claim" it; I am one of the many "Anonymous-es" out there.  ( See, "anonymous" really is a woman!  LOL! )  However, in a place like this, it's sort of evident, who wrote...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 5 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    I Quit This Sh*t

      I quit trying. I quit crying. I quit giving so much to you. I quit caring what you do. I quit hearing what you say. You make no sense, anyway. I quit feeling you, deep inside. Now my heart knows where to hide. I quit wishing you would choose, To love me more than...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 15 Responses Oct 10, 2008

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    My Everything

    It took my innocence, Took my will to live, In turn for misery And a shattered heart It took one hit And I couldn't imagine life without it It was like everything fell into place For a mere six hours But it took my everything Got me to steal from my heart(my family) I...
    Kidd12 Kidd12 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 8, 2012

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    My Life Story In 90 Seconds

    Rex Born a prince, raised in a castle Mother was kind, father was mad A king not above eating his young In order to survive I grew smaller Weaker, more bent on self destruction With each year Then one crimson morning Fate hurled me into battle Like a spear I...
    ElLagarto ElLagarto 56-60, M 4 Responses Jan 27, 2008

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    Untitled #4

    * Author's Note : Many years ago, when we were still teenagers, my husband and I "lost a child to adoption".  ( We were young, poor, and even homeless a few times.  That, along with with all the issues from our past, just wouldn't have made us very...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 6 Responses Nov 24, 2007

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    Battered But Here

    I am a survivor of drugs, of physical , mental, emotional abuse, I am the mother of a sexually abused child.  ( I didnt know!) He was my soul-mate.  He destroyed more than my daughter's innocence. ( But because of him, she is now a survivor of drug, physical, emotional etc etc...
    collette65 collette65 41-45, F Jan 14, 2011

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    Crushed

    An emotional crush sucks all the breath out of you and leaves you not knowing which way is up or down. All of a sudden the world is spinning out of control as you know it and what is right in front of your face does not seem real no matter if it is or not.Your insides are tearing...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 27, 2008

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    This Bud's For You

      When your wife is crying, When she feels like dying This is what you have to do Have a beer! This Bud’s for you.     When sex becomes a chore Just don’t have it anymore There’s something else you’d rather do Have a beer...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 24 Responses Sep 30, 2008

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    I Just Want To Be A Better Honky

    I didn't read it in a book, and I was not offended If anthing I thought it was cool, or maybe just funny. It was alresdy here when I joined the game and set about learning the rules Now it made sense, all the laser eyed stares when I spoke as a friend out of turn. suddenly clear...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M Jan 31, 2013

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    All The Way To Everywhere By Dennis Ogle

    I followed my soul to the end of infinity and stood fast on the edge of everything I looked back for a last look at home,but I had to shut my eyes to see it. I made my way to the bottom of the top and looked at the satelites of the sun Transfixed on the complex simplicity of...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M Feb 2, 2013

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    Just Because

    The wheel turns in a blink of an eye One moment you are down low The next instant you're up high. An instant to hold on and grab tightly Slipping, more often bruised from clenching Climbing, they say, it's all part of the journey. I have fallen in the rabbit hole countless times...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 20, 2011

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    At The Moment

    At the moment there's one thing for me only one thing that will set me free I'm ready to walk straight out that door cause right now I can't take anymore.   I'm not a rag just to abuse Try if you must, but I will refuse I'm a person dad, why can't you see that gradually you...
    escapingmemories escapingmemories 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 9, 2010

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    Walking In A Path, A New Way..

    On the wall the posters are gone , the grey notes have become ashes, in the closet hidden magazines have vanished and trying to live in a world that sometimes is lying. Someone i know will be ''someone i knew'' ,maybe soon i hope, staring on the wall the thoughts keep...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 3, 2010

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    I'm So Tired...

      Tired of trying Tired of crying Tired of being put down Tired of being let down     Tired of struggling to keep up Tired of struggling to live up Tired of being picked apart Tired of being pulled apart     Tired of never being good...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 8 Responses Nov 6, 2008

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    Introduction

    Hello and Welcome -           How are you?  No, really - how the hell are you?  Me, I'm hangin' in...  I've started this group in an effort to give folks a place to post their poems, stories, and writings about recovery...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    Untitled #2

    *I would like to apologize in advance for it's length, simplicity, and rude quirkiness.  I was 17 when I wrote this, and just had a whole hell of a lot of things going on. i hear someone crying but I'm all alone i listen ( crying ) still my breath ( louder now...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    Just One Question

    When you reach the point in recovery that you realize that your vices weren't the cause of all of problems, and where to place the blame is no longer so cut and dry obvious, how do you know if you are being true to yourself?
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 6, 2013

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    Soul Imploding

      Well I've posted this before, but I suppose I wrote it when I was down the rabbit hole. It has only grown darker   Since the sun rose Birds fall silent As I pass, but follow With intent, unblinking eyes Flowers burn brightly From the shadows I kneel to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 13, 2007

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    Just Because You Crashed, Doesn'T Mean You Don'T Have To Pay For The Ride, By Dennis Ogle

    Can't find a reason for my heavy heart. Can't find the source of this dread. Made a checklist of my realities, and thought back upon the things I've done and said. Still no justification for this emptiness. No Hollywood smoking gun of guilt. Just a forgotten room with no windows...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 6, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I got inspired to write poems from this guy recently.. And now I seem to like it. Tell me what you think: I saw him yesterday as quiet as a dead bird and he spoke words which none...
    callmeLys callmeLys 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Promises adultery, a most commonplace sin, destroyed my family, left a broken mess; though not alone, to this I must confess, a transgression that I took pleasure in. this my...
    paulie138 paulie138 66-70, M 8 hrs ago

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    A Little Note to Her we are both near seventy now; I remember everything in detail: the soft white of your Dutch girl skin, the blush against it, and those grey-blue eyes so hard...
    paulie138 paulie138 66-70, M 7 hrs ago

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    Recent Developments in the Grand Scheme the crooked fingers of Keele Street wind into Weston Road, just above the Junction, at the slaughter houses on St. Clair. there's nothing...
    paulie138 paulie138 66-70, M Dec 10

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    Back to reading them. This is one of my favorites. Road not taken by Robert Frost.. I specially like the last two lines.. Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could...
    bujji14 bujji14 22-25, F Dec 12

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    A hundred thousand years from now, I will see Him, One million times a sun, Criss-crossing the dance of my shadow... My hands are empty, The waves have died to a low tide...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F Dec 13

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    Starting over is hard for me. Mostly because I've started over many times before and then eventually failed. Therefore every time I make a new start I feel that it is in vain due...
    TRP92 TRP92 22-25, M Dec 16

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    Bring to me your heavy full natural milk containers. Let me drink directly from the source. You won't ever be disappointed for you will want me back to drink more. The closeness...
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 41-45, M 9 hrs ago

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    Denial I write so-called poems when the nights are long-- sing the praises of false ladies-- through the dark hours I push words out of place. thin lips, gray eyes, blonde hair...
    paulie138 paulie138 66-70, M 1 Response Dec 14

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    I am feeling so incredibly down right now. I'm so confused too. I probably feel down mostly because of my stupidity. I used to be a cutter, I'm recovering right now. I have...
    avey10 avey10 18-21, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    My insides clench together The sob tears through my throat I reach out to anyone But They don't see my doubt I can't live with this The pain travels from my heart...
    Rhythemofmyheart Rhythemofmyheart 16-17, F Dec 5

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    She said :"I love you and passion Which is burning my ribs with keeping me awake! Would you forget someday That you sucked from my mouth The nectar? Or would you get bored of...
    Freetune Freetune 36-40, M 1 Response Dec 12

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    Be Ye Warned... I am not into tickling. In fact I am not, myself, ticklish. I suppose that makes me like the tickle grinch, merry merry... I have been contacted by a member here on...
    zmedleff1 zmedleff1 41-45 1 Response 26 mins ago

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    Three Haiku the curve of her lip mixes with the line of her brow like winter snow a drift across the road and over the cornfield curves like her round hip trace of enamel in the...
    paulie138 paulie138 66-70, M Dec 14

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    Somebunny needs to go to the vet. Running circles around my feet and grunting or digging at my feet was enough of a giveaway that it's time for him to get fixed. D: He's also...
    TheBadgeringWitness TheBadgeringWitness 26-30 1 Response Dec 14

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    Lakeside Park When we were boys, in the constant rattle and noise of Lakeside Park, we squandered on a lark ten times the money we made from tourists, spent our summer days...
    paulie138 paulie138 66-70, M 1 Response Dec 12

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    These 2 poems are written by one of E.p.friends and his daughter.I took his permission to post them . COWARDS The dastardly act of those senseless cowards who plucked...
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    IN THE BEGINNING OF TIME, the skies were filled with flying elephants every night they lay down in the same place in the sky and dream with one eye open When you gaze up at the...
    Carissimi Carissimi 56-60, F 1 Response Dec 3

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    I didn't mean to fall in love with him--I just did. He was just a schoolmate back in College. But ever since one of my classmates said that we looked good together, my suffering...
    ayamesan16 ayamesan16 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 10

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    In Passing where is the postcard sales(we laughed at)man? caught in the shade hamburg awning his shadow stays where it stood; the day passes on its way, where? where is the...
    paulie138 paulie138 66-70, M Dec 11

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    I am in recovery from very recently being addicted to painkillers
    ronpoooo ronpoooo 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 12

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    Freedom I've brought your sadness in close on my own and nurtured it until the two were one I've seen this love between us overgrown with something else quite hidden from the sun...
    paulie138 paulie138 66-70, M 1 Response Dec 15

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    The Dark Design the air is thick tonight, the air is tense, the light is ringed in fog, each sigh a cough, down deep, it seeps into this body's trough, where neither breath nor...
    paulie138 paulie138 66-70, M Dec 17

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    Those moments in life when peace resonates everywhere... When you open your eyes and drink in the off-white walls of your bedroom, glowing dimly as they reflect the early...
    cyclone80 cyclone80 31-35, M a week ago

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    There was a chill in the wind that night, one like no other. The darkness made it hard for sight, but I knew it was his brother. The strength of his grip, the frame of his stature...
    wisdomgirl wisdomgirl 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 29

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