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I Am Down the Rabbit Hole - Poems From "Recovery Road"

Writings, songs, and poetry from survivors of all shapes and sizes! 38 People

    Just One Question

    When you reach the point in recovery that you realize that your vices weren't the cause of all of problems, and where to place the blame is no longer so cut and dry obvious, how do you know if you are being true to yourself?
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M Feb 6, 2013

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    Introduction

    Hello and Welcome -           How are you?  No, really - how the hell are you?  Me, I'm hangin' in...  I've started this group in an effort to give folks a place to post their poems, stories, and writings about recovery...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    Untitled #4

    * Author's Note : Many years ago, when we were still teenagers, my husband and I "lost a child to adoption".  ( We were young, poor, and even homeless a few times.  That, along with with all the issues from our past, just wouldn't have made us very...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 6 Responses Nov 24, 2007

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    Angel

    I can't stand this any longer I can't take it anymoreI'm only left one option - to knock on heaven's door.I hope God let's me in and take me far awayCause I just can't take it I can't go on another day.I can't stand to cry another million tearsI can't stand to go through...
    escapingmemories escapingmemories 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 29, 2010

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    Soul Imploding

      Well I've posted this before, but I suppose I wrote it when I was down the rabbit hole. It has only grown darker   Since the sun rose Birds fall silent As I pass, but follow With intent, unblinking eyes Flowers burn brightly From the shadows I kneel to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 13, 2007

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    Just Because You Crashed, Doesn'T Mean You Don'T Have To Pay For The Ride, By Dennis Ogle

    Can't find a reason for my heavy heart. Can't find the source of this dread. Made a checklist of my realities, and thought back upon the things I've done and said. Still no justification for this emptiness. No Hollywood smoking gun of guilt. Just a forgotten room with no windows...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 6, 2013

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    This Bud's For You

      When your wife is crying, When she feels like dying This is what you have to do Have a beer! This Bud’s for you.     When sex becomes a chore Just don’t have it anymore There’s something else you’d rather do Have a beer...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 24 Responses Sep 30, 2008

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    Here, I'll Go First...

    * Author's note : I never title anything I write, nor do I ever"claim" it; I am one of the many "Anonymous-es" out there.  ( See, "anonymous" really is a woman!  LOL! )  However, in a place like this, it's sort of evident, who wrote...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 5 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    My Everything

    It took my innocence, Took my will to live, In turn for misery And a shattered heart It took one hit And I couldn't imagine life without it It was like everything fell into place For a mere six hours But it took my everything Got me to steal from my heart(my family) I...
    Kidd12 Kidd12 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 8, 2012

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    Walking In A Path, A New Way..

    On the wall the posters are gone , the grey notes have become ashes, in the closet hidden magazines have vanished and trying to live in a world that sometimes is lying. Someone i know will be ''someone i knew'' ,maybe soon i hope, staring on the wall the thoughts keep...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 3, 2010

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    I Just Want To Be A Better Honky

    I didn't read it in a book, and I was not offended If anthing I thought it was cool, or maybe just funny. It was alresdy here when I joined the game and set about learning the rules Now it made sense, all the laser eyed stares when I spoke as a friend out of turn. suddenly clear...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M Jan 31, 2013

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    I'm So Tired...

      Tired of trying Tired of crying Tired of being put down Tired of being let down     Tired of struggling to keep up Tired of struggling to live up Tired of being picked apart Tired of being pulled apart     Tired of never being good...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 9 Responses Nov 6, 2008

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    Dead And Gone, By Dennis Ogle

    These are the lyrics to a song off my solo release. I've been clean and sober for 11 1/2 years. I think they fit the category. DEAD AND GONE I don't exactly know where I've been all this time It's like I just woke up and walked into someone else's life All my friends are here but...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 5, 2013

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    Getting Past the Clouds

    In order to see what might be, you need to make your way past all the fog, clouds or even mountains that stand in your path to hopefully a new found freedom. How fair would it be to cheat yourself out of a life that only you can obtain. It is not up to anyone else to remove those...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 6 Responses Jan 27, 2008

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    Untitled #2

    *I would like to apologize in advance for it's length, simplicity, and rude quirkiness.  I was 17 when I wrote this, and just had a whole hell of a lot of things going on. i hear someone crying but I'm all alone i listen ( crying ) still my breath ( louder now...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    Just Because

    The wheel turns in a blink of an eye One moment you are down low The next instant you're up high. An instant to hold on and grab tightly Slipping, more often bruised from clenching Climbing, they say, it's all part of the journey. I have fallen in the rabbit hole countless times...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 20, 2011

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    All The Way To Everywhere By Dennis Ogle

    I followed my soul to the end of infinity and stood fast on the edge of everything I looked back for a last look at home,but I had to shut my eyes to see it. I made my way to the bottom of the top and looked at the satelites of the sun Transfixed on the complex simplicity of...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M Feb 2, 2013

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    My Life Story In 90 Seconds

    Rex Born a prince, raised in a castle Mother was kind, father was mad A king not above eating his young In order to survive I grew smaller Weaker, more bent on self destruction With each year Then one crimson morning Fate hurled me into battle Like a spear I...
    ElLagarto ElLagarto 56-60, M 4 Responses Jan 27, 2008

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    Battered But Here

    I am a survivor of drugs, of physical , mental, emotional abuse, I am the mother of a sexually abused child.  ( I didnt know!) He was my soul-mate.  He destroyed more than my daughter's innocence. ( But because of him, she is now a survivor of drug, physical, emotional etc etc...
    collette65 collette65 41-45, F Jan 14, 2011

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    I Quit This Sh*t

      I quit trying. I quit crying. I quit giving so much to you. I quit caring what you do. I quit hearing what you say. You make no sense, anyway. I quit feeling you, deep inside. Now my heart knows where to hide. I quit wishing you would choose, To love me more than...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 15 Responses Oct 10, 2008

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    Crushed

    An emotional crush sucks all the breath out of you and leaves you not knowing which way is up or down. All of a sudden the world is spinning out of control as you know it and what is right in front of your face does not seem real no matter if it is or not.Your insides are tearing...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 27, 2008

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    Recovery

    This journey scares me, I dont know where im going, A sober mind should mean a happy heart, But i feel the adrenalin wanting to go back to the start, This journey scares me, Not a finish line i can see, Impatience not a virtue but thats all i know how to be, Addicted, Afflicted...
    Lannabells Lannabells 18-21 1 Response Aug 27, 2013

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    At The Moment

    At the moment there's one thing for me only one thing that will set me free I'm ready to walk straight out that door cause right now I can't take anymore.   I'm not a rag just to abuse Try if you must, but I will refuse I'm a person dad, why can't you see that gradually you...
    escapingmemories escapingmemories 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 9, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    I want to talk about recovery. Being in recovery doesn't mean, you are always doing well. And that you don't think about your abortion. We can all have good days. Or we can have...
    Inherownwords Inherownwords 31-35, F Apr 6

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    An eating disorder is what I have, anorexia. know what your going threw, I am on my 2nd recovery. I started because my mom called me fat all the time and always made fun of me...
    SecretRocks SecretRocks 13-15, F a week ago

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    You walked down this road all on your own, With no one to help you to get to the throne, All that you've done but nothing to show, So now you'll be just a pile of bones And no one...
    KellyDoyle18 KellyDoyle18 18-21, T Mar 25

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    Recovery I used to cut not on paper but on my skin with different kinds of blades I used to cut and the blade slides across my wrist, tummy and hips one line and then another...
    amaiamai amaiamai 13-15, F Mar 30

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    I had an abortion and is in recovery. Been in recovery for 2 years. But I still feel that emptiness. You know that emptiness? Like something is missing. I still feel a little...
    Inherownwords Inherownwords 31-35, F Mar 30

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    Someone very close to me used to write songs and poems for me. He would always capture exactly how I feel in his writing, just by observing my behavior. My favorite memory with him...
    yourguardianangel9613 yourguardianangel9613 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Leave It All Behind What can I do? How can I prove – that you are: Every little bloody thing, yelling at the passing lights, Is this what you wanted when you said, darlin...
    SaveYourWords SaveYourWords 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    This is an email from one of my friends, sent yesterday. Because of its impact and deeply powerful message, I wish to share it with you, in the hopes this might give you the...
    TNTandCHOCOLATE TNTandCHOCOLATE 31-35 2 days ago

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    I've recently been diagnosed with ocd. Finally everything is starting to make sense but I'm nowhere near recovery. Every day is a struggle. 'If I don't blink four times before that...
    Destrxctive Destrxctive 16-17, F Mar 23

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    3 weeks ago I made a step forward and entered the suboxone program. I didn't know what to expect but the other patients were encouraging, supportive and they knew how it was. I was...
    misslyn misslyn 22-25, F Mar 31

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    She sits on her bed Yelling at him through technology Tears stream down her face She's close to losing it She's lost all trust She's gone forever Her poor little soul Lost as...
    BaileyJean14 BaileyJean14 13-15, F Mar 31

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    I have 2 male rabbits and they are so lovely and caring despite their back round story and being rescued from my local Ish shelter
    Vixen1225 Vixen1225 13-15, F Apr 2

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    I have suffered from an eating disorder for most of my life. I am 23 now. Anorexia developed in me when I was 10, by the time I was 15 it was severe and included bits of bulimia. I...
    Mslip Mslip 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    This is an older poem of mine: The hazy blur of Eden sinks, while Shangri-La it leaves me cold, downtrodden, incense hangs like poison fog the emerald still glistens deep I am...
    TheMaskedPuppeteer TheMaskedPuppeteer 18-21, M Mar 27

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    I love traveling and there's like something romantic about road trips lol. Being squeezed in a car eating snack food and pop out of a cooler, cramped up in the back. I just wish I...
    BBBritPlease BBBritPlease 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    First of all, I am not a cutter, I am not suicidal, and never have been, I don't want to die. I want to live. But I am not living. I have been stuck in a unwanted role for the...
    CameraForEyes CameraForEyes 22-25, M Mar 30

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    My Preston died last night after a fox got in to his run. I'm really devastated and my friends don't get it cause he was 'just a rabbit' so I end up feeling kinda stupid for being...
    erin1990 erin1990 22-25, F Apr 3

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    Well, im in recovery again. eating is a sometimes ok thing. Some days im hungry and give in, other days anna's in control. i cant wait to be rid of this eating disorder once and...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F Apr 3

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    The last time that my husband and I went on a road trip was from Las Vegas to Phoenix. The road trip was just for a weekend. The longest road trip that we took was from Las Vegas...
    kdegala77 kdegala77 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 14

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    I found out I was pregnant on April 1st. The irony. I had thought for a few weeks that I might of been pregnant and if I was I wouldn't be for much longer. I didn't make the...
    IMadeAChoice IMadeAChoice 22-25, F Apr 15

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    My Teacher© 2014 Christina HorstMy teacher is one of the bestHis inspiration spreads from north to south and from east to westLook as hard as you likeYou will never see the...
    GirlforGod2 GirlforGod2 13-15 1 Response 3 days ago

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    LOVE TRAPPED As i let the anchor down in these deep waters feeling paralysed to move no travel furher more cause love trapped me on the sea floor. Where did it came from? It...
    blackweirdcat blackweirdcat 46-50, F 2 days ago

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    Fok. Dang. Shyte. Am i a diva???? Cant be a spoiled brat. Was never spoiled. Want to be. Hate my luck. Have wanted to be murphy forever. His law haunts me...
    converted converted 46-50, M 1 Response Mar 23

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    I trusted you I loved you I promised you everything I was once again a fool For falling for you You gripped my heart and crushed it to pieces Don't ask why i'm sad Don't ask if...
    BaileyJean14 BaileyJean14 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    My first post a couple months was my first step to recovery. I finally owned and admitted what happened and played around with ideas about how to move on. Its two month later, and...
    kaitc kaitc 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    I have a gift You have a gift We all have a gift A gift to create Buildings to cars to empires to spaceships to mars Creation of life, creation of food, creation of wine, creation...
    theramengirl theramengirl 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    Unclothed, you are true, like one of your hands, lissome, terrestrial, slight, complete, translucent, with curves of moon, and paths of apple-wood: Unclothed you are as slender as...
    breathingeasy breathingeasy 41-45, M 2 Responses Apr 5

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    There’s a window in my head That only I can see It is the gate-way to my fantasy There I am a hero, master and king I am capable of doing anything When I dwell there the world...
    boredandseeking boredandseeking 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 15

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    I write a lot of poems about my feeling when I get mad, I just like to take my anger out in writing then read over what I've written.
    DangerouslyMe DangerouslyMe 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    I've always been a poet. Several poems of mine have been published. I have a very open mind and poetry is the only way I get my feelings out.
    stoneddreamer stoneddreamer 18-21, F 5 days ago

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