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I Am Down the Rabbit Hole - Poems From "Recovery Road"

Writings, songs, and poetry from survivors of all shapes and sizes! 38 People

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    * Author's Note : Many years ago, when we were still teenagers, my husband and I "lost a child to adoption".  ( We were young, poor, and even homeless a few times.  That, along with with all the issues from our past, just wouldn't have made us very...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 6 Responses Nov 24, 2007

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    Dead And Gone, By Dennis Ogle

    These are the lyrics to a song off my solo release. I've been clean and sober for 11 1/2 years. I think they fit the category. DEAD AND GONE I don't exactly know where I've been all this time It's like I just woke up and walked into someone else's life All my friends are here but...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 5, 2013

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    Recovery

    This journey scares me, I dont know where im going, A sober mind should mean a happy heart, But i feel the adrenalin wanting to go back to the start, This journey scares me, Not a finish line i can see, Impatience not a virtue but thats all i know how to be, Addicted, Afflicted...
    Lannabells Lannabells 18-21 1 Response Aug 27, 2013

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    Here, I'll Go First...

    * Author's note : I never title anything I write, nor do I ever"claim" it; I am one of the many "Anonymous-es" out there.  ( See, "anonymous" really is a woman!  LOL! )  However, in a place like this, it's sort of evident, who wrote...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 5 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    *I would like to apologize in advance for it's length, simplicity, and rude quirkiness.  I was 17 when I wrote this, and just had a whole hell of a lot of things going on. i hear someone crying but I'm all alone i listen ( crying ) still my breath ( louder now...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    This Bud's For You

      When your wife is crying, When she feels like dying This is what you have to do Have a beer! This Bud’s for you.     When sex becomes a chore Just don’t have it anymore There’s something else you’d rather do Have a beer...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 24 Responses Sep 30, 2008

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    I'm So Tired...

      Tired of trying Tired of crying Tired of being put down Tired of being let down     Tired of struggling to keep up Tired of struggling to live up Tired of being picked apart Tired of being pulled apart     Tired of never being good...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 8 Responses Nov 6, 2008

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    Just One Question

    When you reach the point in recovery that you realize that your vices weren't the cause of all of problems, and where to place the blame is no longer so cut and dry obvious, how do you know if you are being true to yourself?
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 6, 2013

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    All The Way To Everywhere By Dennis Ogle

    I followed my soul to the end of infinity and stood fast on the edge of everything I looked back for a last look at home,but I had to shut my eyes to see it. I made my way to the bottom of the top and looked at the satelites of the sun Transfixed on the complex simplicity of...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M Feb 2, 2013

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    Battered But Here

    I am a survivor of drugs, of physical , mental, emotional abuse, I am the mother of a sexually abused child.  ( I didnt know!) He was my soul-mate.  He destroyed more than my daughter's innocence. ( But because of him, she is now a survivor of drug, physical, emotional etc etc...
    collette65 collette65 41-45, F Jan 14, 2011

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    Introduction

    Hello and Welcome -           How are you?  No, really - how the hell are you?  Me, I'm hangin' in...  I've started this group in an effort to give folks a place to post their poems, stories, and writings about recovery...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2007

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    Getting Past the Clouds

    In order to see what might be, you need to make your way past all the fog, clouds or even mountains that stand in your path to hopefully a new found freedom. How fair would it be to cheat yourself out of a life that only you can obtain. It is not up to anyone else to remove those...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 6 Responses Jan 27, 2008

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    Crushed

    An emotional crush sucks all the breath out of you and leaves you not knowing which way is up or down. All of a sudden the world is spinning out of control as you know it and what is right in front of your face does not seem real no matter if it is or not.Your insides are tearing...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 27, 2008

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    My Everything

    It took my innocence, Took my will to live, In turn for misery And a shattered heart It took one hit And I couldn't imagine life without it It was like everything fell into place For a mere six hours But it took my everything Got me to steal from my heart(my family) I...
    Kidd12 Kidd12 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 8, 2012

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    My Life Story In 90 Seconds

    Rex Born a prince, raised in a castle Mother was kind, father was mad A king not above eating his young In order to survive I grew smaller Weaker, more bent on self destruction With each year Then one crimson morning Fate hurled me into battle Like a spear I...
    ElLagarto ElLagarto 56-60, M 4 Responses Jan 27, 2008

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    Just Because You Crashed, Doesn'T Mean You Don'T Have To Pay For The Ride, By Dennis Ogle

    Can't find a reason for my heavy heart. Can't find the source of this dread. Made a checklist of my realities, and thought back upon the things I've done and said. Still no justification for this emptiness. No Hollywood smoking gun of guilt. Just a forgotten room with no windows...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 6, 2013

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    Soul Imploding

      Well I've posted this before, but I suppose I wrote it when I was down the rabbit hole. It has only grown darker   Since the sun rose Birds fall silent As I pass, but follow With intent, unblinking eyes Flowers burn brightly From the shadows I kneel to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 13, 2007

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    I Quit This Sh*t

      I quit trying. I quit crying. I quit giving so much to you. I quit caring what you do. I quit hearing what you say. You make no sense, anyway. I quit feeling you, deep inside. Now my heart knows where to hide. I quit wishing you would choose, To love me more than...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 15 Responses Oct 10, 2008

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    Angel

    I can't stand this any longer I can't take it anymoreI'm only left one option - to knock on heaven's door.I hope God let's me in and take me far awayCause I just can't take it I can't go on another day.I can't stand to cry another million tearsI can't stand to go through...
    escapingmemories escapingmemories 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 29, 2010

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    I Just Want To Be A Better Honky

    I didn't read it in a book, and I was not offended If anthing I thought it was cool, or maybe just funny. It was alresdy here when I joined the game and set about learning the rules Now it made sense, all the laser eyed stares when I spoke as a friend out of turn. suddenly clear...
    Dennisogle Dennisogle 46-50, M Jan 31, 2013

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    Walking In A Path, A New Way..

    On the wall the posters are gone , the grey notes have become ashes, in the closet hidden magazines have vanished and trying to live in a world that sometimes is lying. Someone i know will be ''someone i knew'' ,maybe soon i hope, staring on the wall the thoughts keep...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 3, 2010

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    At The Moment

    At the moment there's one thing for me only one thing that will set me free I'm ready to walk straight out that door cause right now I can't take anymore.   I'm not a rag just to abuse Try if you must, but I will refuse I'm a person dad, why can't you see that gradually you...
    escapingmemories escapingmemories 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 9, 2010

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    Just Because

    The wheel turns in a blink of an eye One moment you are down low The next instant you're up high. An instant to hold on and grab tightly Slipping, more often bruised from clenching Climbing, they say, it's all part of the journey. I have fallen in the rabbit hole countless times...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 20, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    I fell down the rabbit hole. that's it. that's all. I just love that.
    CloakedWanderer CloakedWanderer 13-15, M Aug 3

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    Partly by myself.. Havent done it active-active.. But active/passively or call it passively-active. I sort of have the belief, that when everyone is gone. Just by myself. Then I...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M 4 days ago

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    I was driving part way home from our road trip in which we took turns behind the wheel and one of my anxieties behind the wheel was that the sun was setting, bugs were plastered on...
    4NeonFun 4NeonFun 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    Hotel rooms are sad places. A facsimile of someplace familiar. A lie. As a child, I lived in a lot of hotels rooms between the ages of 7 and 9. Back and forth, up and down the east...
    DanielChristensen DanielChristensen 36-40, M Aug 15

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    I wanna do a around the world road trip. Only taking breaks from the road to eat, sleep, bathroom needs like showering and etc. and fly to a new country. Once in the new country I...
    TheDemonFox TheDemonFox 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 21

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    The city is distribute around hills, and under a person just outdoors town the Nerja Caves extend for more than 3 miles. Concert events are held in one cavernous chamber. A...
    Wendolynce106 Wendolynce106 31-35, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    For patrons of the doing arts, Austin is dwelling to a lot of fantastic performing arts attractions. Some of the a lot more notable involve:The Business office of ladies’s...
    Joshua603a4yn8 Joshua603a4yn8 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 23

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    If I were another on the road, I would not have looked back, I would have said what one traveler said to another: Stranger! awaken the guitar more! Delay our tomorrow so our road...
    Yakorif Yakorif 26-30, M a week ago

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    It truly feels like a demon lives inside my head. I'm so sick of living with these illnesses. When I talk to my fiancé about what I'm thinking about and what I'm going through, he...
    Mileena28 Mileena28 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    When things go wrong as they sometimes will, When the road you're trudging seems all uphill, When funds are low and the debts are high, And you want to smile, but you have to...
    darkpassion darkpassion 22-25, M Aug 9

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    I've done this a few times. The first time I was a young teen. I was walking to school(2miles) it was pouring with rain and I and my brother were soaked. As we got to the bridge...
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M Aug 20

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    The point out of California features absolutely free alcohol as well as other drug cure and rehabilitation expert services for California Females and their children. The Office...
    Joshua603b4zn8 Joshua603b4zn8 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 23

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    I just moved a thousand miles away from the home I have known since I was four. I'm alone in this. I have to be honest and say I am struggling. I moved to go to a school and...
    AnimalsAreLife AnimalsAreLife 18-21, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Found vertically involving the two rows of holes 60 and 64 and within the tube 61, but bordering the tube 58, can be a round baffle plate sixty five held set up through the...
    linxiaomo linxiaomo 22-25 Aug 8

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    I haven't been on a true vacation for a very long time and to go away for 2 weeks and not have to think about work or home was amazing. Add in the fact that I went to a place where...
    GypsyHeartedPoet GypsyHeartedPoet 36-40, F Aug 3

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    "magic potions" as the sky closed daylight away her magic box came out a few loose threads soon wound themselves into carriages fleet of foot on the forever road delivering love...
    mudmen mudmen 46-50 Aug 6

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    Like a dark night I felt him rescue me from this doom I'm suffering For a second I felt safe like my difficult project was done And a knew future would begin If I could have that...
    friendjazzy friendjazzy 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    I am a wood Rabbit on the chinese zodiac and a Cat on the Vietnamese Zodiac, April 6th 1975. I dont really put much stock in all that but i do find it interesting and i can...
    shinjorai shinjorai 36-40, M 1 day ago

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    Yes Ive lived in the Big Cities , and seen the Neon Lights and Life in the fast lane , got style , and can hob nob with the best of them But I proudly come from the South , my...
    TsavoHunter TsavoHunter 36-40, M Aug 14

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    Help please.The kids just received two baby rabbits as present. (I will skip my thoughts about the gift giver)I do not have anything for rabbits. I put them in a carrier for the...
    Blanche08 Blanche08 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 23

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    Or the concept I would like my two glasses of wine every single night for my coronary heart ailment...(most of this is genuine, but it's not a physiological coronary heart problem...
    Anthony825d5cr0 Anthony825d5cr0 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    The bra shouldn't have an underwire for the six weeks post surgery, as it may well cause wound stop working or discomfort of the skin overlying the implant.Deciding on a health...
    Alexander714b4xm8 Alexander714b4xm8 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 19

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    I write poems now and then... To express my feelings and emotions, etc. But I never post them... over fear of just being judged by them or someone telling me they're rubbish. I...
    CallMeChelsea CallMeChelsea 16-17, F Aug 20

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    I am a recovering Alcoholic and currently in a program. It is basically a place where you rent an apartment with other people in recovery and attend groups and meetings. The men in...
    allenhinton allenhinton 41-45, M Aug 21

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    Daddy it hurts, I feel alone, I got scared when you came home, Mamma took the needle today, Fell on the couch when you were on your way, The house is burning with dirty hands...
    SilentWinter SilentWinter 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Left brain, Think Straight. It’s not within my capacity when she’s around; and I wonder why my thoughts are so acidly when it was by myself that I was bound and left to drown...
    unveiling unveiling 16-17, M Aug 2

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