I Am Dying A Slow Death From Lonliness And Despair

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 25 People

    Self Imposed Exile

    39 year old male.adopted a frnds daughter who died when i was 18 due to circumstances.life revolved around her.never been in a relationship and stayed celibate for her sake.was diagnosed with bone degen n cml in 2005.my daughter kept me rolling but i lost her in june.dont kno how...
    orangemoon orangemoon
    36-40, M
    Nov 9, 2012
    FriendsAreFoodNotPeople FriendsAreFoodNotPeople
    31-35, F
    Feb 19

    Rambling About Nothing

    I do not know how to fall in love. I have been single for too long, and I know it is me, something is "wrong" with me and I have yet to figure it out. Today I thought maybe part of the problem is because I honestly do not know how to let myself fal in love. I have met interesting...
    Rae1983 Rae1983
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Dec 27, 2012

    I'm so lonely, if loneliness was an illness it

    would have killed me by now. I am in love with a severely depressed man that won't even text me back no matter how many times I text him of go to see him. He's so sick and won't get help. He barely showers. I am a beautiful woman with a huge heart and just want to find someone...
    PhotographyQueen PhotographyQueen
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Mar 11, 2014

    Related Experiences

    I don't fear death, but I don't want to die. There is a difference of your preference.
    vallarmorguilis vallarmorguilis
    22-25, M
    a week ago
    Who have a good heart here. please help me. Just give me your Reaction in this paragraph. "The first pattern always kind of shocked me. Regardless of religious belief or cultural...
    starnulf starnulf
    16-17, F
    a week ago
    I love learning about the experiences of other people and getting to know people who have lived drastically different lives and experiences. It's part of the draw I had to this...
    WhirlwindR WhirlwindR
    22-25, M
    a week ago
    What if I tell you that I wanted to kisd you slowly, passionately, lovingly? but I wouldn't because I shouldn't and so I couldn't. lol. Does that make sense to you? XD
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    3 Responses a week ago
    What if I tell you that I wanted to kisd you slowly, passionately, lovingly? but I wouldn't because I shouldn't and so I couldn't. lol. Does that make sense to you? XD
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    2 Responses a week ago
    " let's slow dance to this beautiful song, while the surroundings of dim lights and candles are all around. As we hold each other close feel the rhythm of my heart...
    imacloset imacloset
    36-40, F
    Apr 20
    He suddenly jumped out of nowhere. Hugged me from the back. He started kissing the back of my neck. I feel so weak. "Hey stop!" He did but just to turn me facing him. He stares at...
    mysticalexis224 mysticalexis224
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 20
    Death is not the greatest lost in life, the greatest lost is what dies inside us while we life.
    Ruben1970 Ruben1970
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Apr 20
    I was 9 when the Swine Flu hoohah happened. We were on holiday in Bulgaria, staying in my grandparents' cramped, Soviet-style apartment in Burgas, when I caught some sorta flu. I...
    AsYetNameless AsYetNameless
    13-15, T
    Apr 19
    Hey, So I'm posting this because I'm really struggling and contemplating ending everything because I can't see a way out. Any advice, past experience, hope, people in the same boat...
    ShellFlower119 ShellFlower119
    18-21, F
    Apr 19
    Just for a moment today I thought about getting out, however the thought was not fleeting and I actually stuck with it for a moment longer. I imagine this is due to my lack of...
    mljenkins mljenkins
    41-45, F
    Apr 18
    years ago when i worked at a store, the only two people i was close to there died very unexpectedly, less than a year apart. one was a woman in her 50's, and the other was a 19...
    VeritasAequitas VeritasAequitas
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 17
    OH ! LORD !! Why is your Angel of Death so Faraway? This , Chowdhury, Dairy Queen Chittagong tried to Abused me, taken advantage of me, a decade AGO.. Brandy WINE , FORD Dealer...
    fuckuprincessanyajaki fuckuprincessanyajaki
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Apr 16
    sometimes, thoughts about death comes to my mind. what's the point of continuing living feeling hollow inside, feeling unwanted, unloved, feeling betrayed again and again. recently...
    mistfox mistfox
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 16
    I don't wish for death, but when my time comes I will welcome it with open arms.
    Sanghelios Sanghelios
    13-15, T
    4 Responses Apr 16
    I have only slow danced 2 times in my life. Once was in the 7th grade at the school dance and then the 2nd was 2006 when my car got stuck in the mud at my ex boyfriends house. He...
    ToughKitty ToughKitty
    31-35, F
    10 Responses Apr 15
    I am hanging in but am feeling really bad right now. I am paying dearly for what my family did to me. I am trying not to hate them. I am trying to forgive. I got turned down for a...
    321Peach 321Peach
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 13
    I don't fear my own death to some extent, but I'm devastated if someone close dies. At the end, we will all die, my parents will die, and many years after, I will also die just...
    lonelylifeindia lonelylifeindia
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 13
    My body's final resting place is with Mother Earth to nourish her ,and all that comes and feeds from the sustenance ,But mind and soul will learn from and evolve in reincarnation...
    wishingwellguy wishingwellguy
    36-40, M
    1 Response Apr 13
    Today , I saw how death can be calm and peaceful thing , after supporting someone who was ready to except death throw illness , but embraced ever part of life , truly believe that...
    wishingwellguy wishingwellguy
    36-40, M
    1 Response Apr 13
    There's always time for second guesses- I don't want to know. If you're gonna be the death of me That's how I wanna go!
    PendulEmPlum PendulEmPlum
    18-21, F
    Apr 13
    So, I remember this anecdote differently than my mother does, and I was, like, 4 or 5 years old at the time, so I'm just gonna tell her version because I'm almost certain she's...
    SirPiggles SirPiggles
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Apr 12
    Curious? Cancer had it's three kicks at me, but after chemo, radiation and aggressive surgery, I came out on top. However, it cost me all my kidney parts. So, I have not peed since...
    Pullon Pullon
    51-55, M
    1 Response Apr 12
    I don't actually hate my father, 'step-mom', and siblings. I distance myself from them because I am ashamed of myself. My father has been experiencing health problems and my...
    cmj03 cmj03
    51-55, F
    Apr 11
    I'm speaking about Aillin Wuornos(a serial killer) in this video. If you have little time,please watch this video. Thank you. https://youtu.be/58v4gZ0Fd4w She got excution and...
    genjiipiexx genjiipiexx
    31-35, F
    Apr 11
    I don't fear death not one bit but i do fear everyone i care for dying.
    KittyLoverForever KittyLoverForever
    13-15, F
    Apr 10
    Don't fear death, fear a live unlived, you don't have to life forever, you just have to live.
    Ruben1970 Ruben1970
    41-45, M
    1 Response Apr 9
    Dad is still trying to change me going on another kick of changing how I dress in relation to my skinny jeans. I wish I could be accepted for who I am. I'm afraid that he will...
    XxRazorbladeRomancexX XxRazorbladeRomancexX
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Apr 9
    I was born with a genetic defect know as urinary reflux. From the time I was 3 to about 11yrs old I non-stop had uti's. The pain was so great that I was once told it was on the...
    Ancientphoenix78 Ancientphoenix78
    36-40, F
    Apr 8
    I have had my life put on hold ever since my husband was placed on the kidney transplant list 2 1/2 years ago. The ESRD came from 40 years of Diabetes and he just had his second...
    Sherylbow Sherylbow
    51-55, F
    Apr 8
    Three weeks ago I was leaving the office for the day when I fell and twisted my right ankle badly on the last step down to the ground. It hurt something fierce, but I didn't know...
    RyanJ999 RyanJ999
    41-45, M
    Apr 7
    So the day is coming sooner than you thought it will. I always knew I'd be out of here early but its just too soon. How do I tell my parents? Its not the end but the chances are...
    PBunnyy PBunnyy
    18-21, M
    Apr 6
    Does anybody else love the 'dying to be fat' subreddit as much as I do? My aim is to make the fatties on there look anorexic. ;)
    PigGut PigGut
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Apr 5
    Sailing. In a 35' yacht. Off the coast of Land's End. The winds blew The sea grew Storm force 8 Heavy warps astern To keep direction And steady the speed Waves grew to 35' Up one...
    TValentine TValentine
    56-60, M
    1 Response Apr 4
    Love me slow. Love me gentle like there's already too much bustle in this world.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 3
    I'm dying inside from loneliness and depression. I can't take much more this.
    SadCaliforniaDad SadCaliforniaDad
    46-50, M
    1 Response Apr 2
    I'm not gonna go into detail because it's late, but I am suffering from bad derealiseation... It has gotten worse over the past year or two. I even start doubting my friends and...
    CrazyMetalPunk CrazyMetalPunk
    13-15, F
    Apr 2
    I am in love with you and all the little things. I love you when you reply to my message on EP. I keep waiting for you. I keep thinking about you. It feels like in heaven while...
    CoffeeTimeNow CoffeeTimeNow
    22-25, F
    Apr 2
    I've always love how Batman and Robin were captured and placed in some interesting death traps by the bad guys.
    BOUNDinLEOTARDS BOUNDinLEOTARDS
    51-55, T
    Apr 2
    Hello I need girl or woman from United Kingdom. Befor this page closde please message me. Thanks.
    hakantas hakantas
    46-50, M
    Apr 1
    I'm not from but I'm here lol
    cuteblackgirl12345 cuteblackgirl12345
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Mar 31
    I dont tell this story to often because it freaks people out. I have often thought of volunteering my time at a hospice as a place to tell this story; because I feel it would bring...
    calmingwind calmingwind
    46-50, M
    Mar 31
    I Want to have friends from UK. Especially female friends. Befor EP closed please write me and lets be good friends. Life is too short.
    hakantas hakantas
    46-50, M
    Mar 31
    So....what would you do with a $1000 BONUS??? I would love to tell you how and get you there in 2 months!! Total mentoring and support from an AMAZING team!! Message me NOW!!! Talk...
    mminnich79 mminnich79
    36-40, F
    Mar 31
    Anyone wanna meet up sometime? From NNJ
    copenhagenkyle copenhagenkyle
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 31
    Now this is so awesome, I would love this done to me, it is so similar to what I already do, except this is done very well and when I do it I will be wearing my high waist...
    wtbwoman wtbwoman
    41-45, T
    1 Response Mar 30
    My family is abusive and yells at me everyday when I wake up,when I get home from school,and before I go to bed please help me out thanks for reading this
    LittleArtistMew LittleArtistMew
    13-15, F
    Mar 30
    after living in nova socita for 7 years, i continue to not feel like a part of the community in which i live. Its unfortunate and hurtful. I work hard, in a respected field. I...
    Usa429 Usa429
    26-30, F
    Mar 30
    My father in law, (please see my poem to him 'The Bitter Sea' if you have a moment), my mother in law, (again, though shared with own own mother on her death 'Task No More'). And...
    TValentine TValentine
    56-60, M
    Mar 30
    Hello fellow EP friends, As we say goodbye to EP, I thought it would be appropriate to update everyone one last time. Things have progressed rather quickly on my end. If you...
    CupidBowLips CupidBowLips
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Mar 30
    when I have good days, I think it's all over, then something triggers it, maybe a noisy neighbour, and the blackness returns and I'm so sad that all these years I've tried to work...
    TLMills TLMills
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 30
    As death wraps it's arms of shivering fear around me. I will now drain the firing blood of self hatred down the drain. Feeling my skin turn dead and icy. My dead eyes will now be...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 29
    But I've also learned things from other places too ...😕 This is why I'm concerned about the photo albums I have on here ...😳 Some abandoned websites go on for months or even...
    BSTisapain BSTisapain
    46-50, F
    7 Responses Mar 29
    you ever do something really weird and you wonder if other people do it to? but your to embarrassed to ask? because you don't feel what you do is normal? I never day dreamed really...
    dreamaddict96 dreamaddict96
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 29
    It's me. I deleted my other account now that EP is closing. (Check my previous posts on this group for reference) The time is ticking for me and it might happen to me in a matter...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 28
    My mother was diagnosed with ovarian cancer 10 years ago. I'm 17 and she really was my best friend. She died last May and the strange thing was when she died I wasn't instantly...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Mar 28
More Stories