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I Am Dying A Slow Death From Lonliness And Despair

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 18 People

    Self Imposed Exile

    39 year old male.adopted a frnds daughter who died when i was 18 due to circumstances.life revolved around her.never been in a relationship and stayed celibate for her sake.was diagnosed with bone degen n cml in 2005.my daughter kept me rolling but i lost her in june.dont kno how...
    orangemoon orangemoon 36-40, M 3 Responses Nov 9, 2012

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    Rambling About Nothing

    I do not know how to fall in love. I have been single for too long, and I know it is me, something is "wrong" with me and I have yet to figure it out. Today I thought maybe part of the problem is because I honestly do not know how to let myself fal in love. I have met interesting...
    Rae1983 Rae1983 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 27, 2012

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    I'm so lonely, if loneliness was an illness it

    would have killed me by now. I am in love with a severely depressed man that won't even text me back no matter how many times I text him of go to see him. He's so sick and won't get help. He barely showers. I am a beautiful woman with a huge heart and just want to find someone...
    PhotographyQueen PhotographyQueen 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 11

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    i mean lets face it. you are gonna die at one point. think about it, from the very first moment you are born you start to die. slowly. dying is inevitable, it will happen. for some...
    heartbreakgirl15 heartbreakgirl15 13-15, F Nov 9

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    The moment I heard my son was dead. Overdosed. Gone at 22. I experienced a dark despair that only a grieving mother could understand. Yea thou I walk through the shadow of death. I...
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    Death is a simple concept that people tend to make it out to be something it's not. They say it's a new beginning and there's more to it. But this is simply not true all death...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 2 Responses Oct 28

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    I am starting to feel the hands of despair wrapping around my neck...I am starting to stumble and lose my way in life again. All the work I did to steer me back on track is slowly...
    migs1910 migs1910 26-30, M Oct 28

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    Hi.. I can't get death off of my mind. I am scared all the time. I just know my time will come and fear not existing anymore. When I really think about it I get into almost an out...
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    I can honestly say that I do not fear death - mainly because I had to confront my own mortality a number of times and have even been clinically dead more than once. When I was 21...
    EmperorJulian EmperorJulian 46-50, M 4 Responses Nov 5

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    Mainly the Decomposition Process - Upon looking upon the decomposition process on wikipedia and numerous other sites, i've decided I would rather be cremated than buried in...
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 9

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    Husky1011 Husky1011 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 6

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    NewEra0916 NewEra0916 26-30, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    JesseLeeJames JesseLeeJames 46-50, M Nov 10

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    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13 22-25, M Nov 4

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    I don't fear death itself. I fear dying alone, forgotten, with no one to miss me
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I just got back from the cardiologist, I hate going there, I never get good news, I only get confusing or bad news, I had an ECG today, they said that my aortic rout is now around...
    HeadStrongPro HeadStrongPro 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 4

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    Close...But Not Yet I had no pain. None of the normal symptoms, but I was having a heart attack. The EMTs worked feverishly and I was able to speak. The light was so bright...
    mmob mmob 56-60, F Nov 12

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    On February 21st, 2009, I was involved in a car accident with my father. We had just left my cousins birthday party and there was a bad snow storm that night. We were on the main...
    TheNamesDerrek TheNamesDerrek 16-17, M Nov 12

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    I dont remember any day of my life i havent wished for it. Doing it, for sure, would be egoistical. Waiting it out until theres nobody left who cares. That day ill find my way...
    IncarnationofRealism IncarnationofRealism 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 27

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    I don't fear dying and leaving the place I love behind, the people I love. I want to be able to know what's happening in the world when I'm gone. I want to see my grandchildrens...
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    I don't really see what there is to he afraid of death is apart of life's cycle. Its something inevitable. I just don't want to die in a really crappy way.
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    Nothing and I mean nothing is ok...Why wont I just die cause this is what death feels like!
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    I'm so scared of dying. I have this strange gut feeling it's going to happen sooner than of old age.
    vivienne4 vivienne4 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I was only seven years old. My brother was very rough with me and after telling my therapist about some of the things he used to do to me my therapist said it was abuse. But this...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M Oct 28

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    OKPunk OKPunk 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 3

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    Socialized Socialized 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 2

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    RebeccaDaizee RebeccaDaizee 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 3

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    AngryTitan AngryTitan 16-17, M 2 Responses Nov 5

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    . See the period at the end of the caption? Life is finite - certainly an established fact. Death IS final - probably a good thing. I chose to write about this topic this morning...
    nbta nbta 46-50, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    There are no words to describe the sadness that you feel, saying goodbye to someone you know who is dying of cancer, and who is too young to have their life end so quickly...
    SeaSpray01 SeaSpray01 41-45, F 2 days ago

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    Yes I accept lord Death because I just found out that I am a messenger of death and I am the demon of death and if I come to you and say your going to die soon that means you will...
    PrinceofFear PrinceofFear 18-21, M Oct 24

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