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I Am Dying A Slow Death From Lonliness And Despair

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    Rambling About Nothing

    I do not know how to fall in love. I have been single for too long, and I know it is me, something is "wrong" with me and I have yet to figure it out. Today I thought maybe part of the problem is because I honestly do not know how to let myself fal in love. I have met interesting...
    Rae1983 Rae1983 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 27, 2012

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    I'm so lonely, if loneliness was an illness it

    would have killed me by now. I am in love with a severely depressed man that won't even text me back no matter how many times I text him of go to see him. He's so sick and won't get help. He barely showers. I am a beautiful woman with a huge heart and just want to find someone...
    PhotographyQueen PhotographyQueen 41-45, F 4 Responses Mar 11, 2014

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    Self Imposed Exile

    39 year old male.adopted a frnds daughter who died when i was 18 due to circumstances.life revolved around her.never been in a relationship and stayed celibate for her sake.was diagnosed with bone degen n cml in 2005.my daughter kept me rolling but i lost her in june.dont kno how...
    orangemoon orangemoon 36-40, M Nov 9, 2012

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    Ah yes. The universal finality that is death. There's few human emotions that can't be related to death. Sorrow, anger, despair, fear and the likes is the ones normally coming to...
    Vumsy Vumsy 22-25, M Apr 14

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    I have always thought about death. From a 'bad' point of view to a more 'peaceful' one. When I was a kid my parents never talk to me about death. I really learned what death was...
    nuwandaisaphony nuwandaisaphony 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    Before I get my thoughts together and post my experience, has anyone witnessed your close call from the ceiling? as in "watched your body face death from above in a high place...
    Amelia445 Amelia445 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 13

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    I feel like I am drowning in my pain of seeing my father slowly dying and going thru so much pain and such terrible confusion he does not know what is happening to him. He has...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 5 days ago

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    I am terrified of death of dying of loved ones dying. I become so anxious and scared and depressed. I have nightmares. I can't sleep. I'm afraid to go to sleep. Recently I was told...
    JKenagy JKenagy 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    Depression is an "I" and "me" disorder.This malevolent ambiance impedes my thoughts and twists them,My mood always in flux as it morphs to gain access to more of my mind,Strength...
    Surilian Surilian 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    My heart is feeling broken because I'm so angry, so unforgiving and I can't let things go... I knew it was only a matter of time before it began taking over... I want to live in...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M Apr 7

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    Do you remember pain from before you were born? Do you remember the torment from before you came into this world? Sometimes pain is tolerable until it is touched, a tender bruise...
    repeat36 repeat36 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    When I was young, I thought I knew everything. As years went on, I realized I didn't know anything like I thought I did. Our whole perspective changes, even from one year to the...
    ArtLover01 ArtLover01 66-70, F 2 days ago

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    I am not afraid of death itself but of the pain I may feel when I die. What scares me even more than the pain is I don't know what comes after death. Heaven? Hell? Paradise...
    LoveIsInTheBlood LoveIsInTheBlood 16-17, F Apr 8

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    I know that most people are scare of death and leaving things behind. but for me most of the time I just always find myself wondering of what it would be like, I'm not scared of...
    ItStartsHere ItStartsHere 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Ive learned so much about life, success, nature, science, creation and much more by opbserving trees. there are so many things to notice about them. ultimately, trees are what tied...
    jayciedubb jayciedubb 46-50, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Too many. Bright side is I'm not afraid of dying anymore. Downside is from time to time I really wish it finally happened :/ oh well **** happens.
    PartyGuy21 PartyGuy21 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 28

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    When I was about 13, I was riding my bike through town. I ride my bike through a stop sigh into a road that had a straight away. Now, I usually look both ways before entering the...
    Sweetloumc Sweetloumc 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Dying isnt like the movies. We all expect how it would be if there was a disease or an accident that affected a loved one, but.. The truth is... Its not like anything u could ever...
    writingforlife6 writingforlife6 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    I'm more afraid of living than of dying.
    Ellytheoutcast Ellytheoutcast 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 4

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    I used to be terrified of dying. I was always cautious with everything I did. then ii attempted suicide. it's not like I wanted to die I just couldn't take it anymore.
    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F Apr 7

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    I lost my dad. 2 years ago. When is was 13 home alone just me and him I came downstairs to make a milkshake to find my dad on the floor making a weird breathy noise. He was...
    polarbearlove polarbearlove 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 15

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    I cant take it anymore. My parents don't understand me and think that everything relates back to grades. My dad is taking a job opportunity in South Africa, but he doesn't want...
    boxking101 boxking101 16-17, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Last night, or rather just now, I had a nightmare with my dad's death. I can't go back to sleep now. I'm too scared.
    ChiaXUno ChiaXUno 18-21, F 23 hrs ago

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    I think about dying more and more each day. Sad to see this. Mood swings are getting worse i guess.
    lissen2all lissen2all 56-60, M Mar 28

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    I never have feared death maybe my first experience with it might have helped. I was 9 years old my mothers God mother got me out of school She told me "Your Grandmothers sick your...
    wtf4dude wtf4dude 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 3

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    I never have feared death maybe my first experience with it might have helped. I was 9 years old my mothers God mother got me out of school She told me "Your Grandmothers sick your...
    wtf4dude wtf4dude 46-50, M Apr 3

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    It's slowly it's painful and it's true
    Sw33love Sw33love 18-21, M Apr 6

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    despair is very mundane for me and I need to beat it. Beating it isn't glamorous, it's mundane.
    tarjawhore tarjawhore 22-25, M Apr 7

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    Life... We all have it, we all know what it is when someone mensions it but.. Who can really define it... What the hell is life? Well.. I guess we wont ever know the real answer...
    writingforlife6 writingforlife6 18-21, F Apr 9

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    I AM NOT RELIGIOUS! Without death there is no life, for life and death are only a transition in our journey. Death is only a transition, a keep until we arrive where we belong...
    mmn6134 mmn6134 22-25, F Apr 16

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    Many of my fellow experience travelers are wondering from a younger perspective than I. I have lost many of my family in the past few years. When I talk to peers, we agree that at...
    wuzgnu wuzgnu 61-65, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Today has been must've been the grim reaper's, bring your son to work day. My entire day was consumed by death. I have been itching for death. I have been itching to kill myself...
    C9Poke C9Poke 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 27

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    Oh my gosh the love scene song from Dragon Age II is just the most beautiful piece of music I've ever heard :D
    OneWithTheSkies OneWithTheSkies 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I'm an emotional eater And it's killing me slowly
    melissapien melissapien 18-21, F Mar 29

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    WHO DIES? According to Venkataraman (soon to be known as Sri Bhagavan Ramana Maharshi), at age 16, he initiated a process of self-enquiry that culminated, within a few minutes, in...
    thatwhichsees thatwhichsees 26-30, M Mar 29

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    Hoped for cancer by 21. Denied. Cigs just preserved me. And slowed me down. Hoped alcohol would get me gone. Denied. Just caused vomittingup plenty. Hoped...
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Apr 3

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    I love the anticipation of that first kiss. The building and budding passion, eyes locked onto one another. The knowing look between two future lovers. That slow burning desire. In...
    lavendersea lavendersea 41-45, F 7 Responses Apr 4

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    Deep in the abyss of light slumber, we sway with half-closed eyelids. Smiling, the gods of dreams and fantasy elegantly impart death, while the chains of karma, which dictates...
    BloodofAmara BloodofAmara 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 5

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    my lifeless body floats deeper into the abyss. the water is dimly lit by the bright moon above slowly fading into darkness. all is still, no commotion. serenity and calm.  it...
    tenente tenente 31-35, M 5 Responses Apr 6

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    To be quite honest: I'd rather have a strong, eternal, irrevocable, unconditional, benevolent and passionate bond till death do us part, in sickness and in health, for better or...
    DeuxExMachina DeuxExMachina 18-21, F Apr 14

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    I am trying to prepare myself for my mother's death. I am not ready for my mother's death. She is 91 years old and my relationship with her is complicated one. Like Luke Skywalker...
    tryingagainII tryingagainII 56-60, M 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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