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I Am Dying A Slow Death From Lonliness And Despair

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 19 People

    Rambling About Nothing

    I do not know how to fall in love. I have been single for too long, and I know it is me, something is "wrong" with me and I have yet to figure it out. Today I thought maybe part of the problem is because I honestly do not know how to let myself fal in love. I have met interesting...
    Rae1983 Rae1983 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 27, 2012

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    I'm so lonely, if loneliness was an illness it

    would have killed me by now. I am in love with a severely depressed man that won't even text me back no matter how many times I text him of go to see him. He's so sick and won't get help. He barely showers. I am a beautiful woman with a huge heart and just want to find someone...
    PhotographyQueen PhotographyQueen 41-45, F 4 Responses Mar 11, 2014

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    Self Imposed Exile

    39 year old male.adopted a frnds daughter who died when i was 18 due to circumstances.life revolved around her.never been in a relationship and stayed celibate for her sake.was diagnosed with bone degen n cml in 2005.my daughter kept me rolling but i lost her in june.dont kno how...
    orangemoon orangemoon 36-40, M Nov 9, 2012

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    I have always felt empty, incomplete, worthless, unloveable. I tried, a few times, to end things when I was younger. obviously I failed. I never said anything just went about my...
    losing1 losing1 36-40, F 1 Response May 10

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    It's dying that terrifies me!!! Fast or slow? Young or old? Alone or surrounded by love? One last "I love you" or things left unsaid? Painful or gentle? With dignity or lingered...
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    It may sound stupid, but I panic when I think about dying. Since it is inevitable, it is not a fear I can get over. Well, except for dying, of course. :P
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic 26-30, F 4 Responses May 19

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    I'm considering dying. After all, I don't have any attachement to life and I feel the need to escape my body so badly.
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    I don't understand. I'm one of these people who just love. I try to get along with everyone, I have never wanted much, I don't ask for gifts. I love things made or are thoughtful...
    nolife1 nolife1 18-21, F 1 Response May 6

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    I have issues with my blood. There were two times where I didn't have anything to eat all day, and I began blacking out. The first time I thought I was going to die. Usually...
    SolaLuna SolaLuna 18-21, F 1 Response May 15

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    I'm no a afraid of dying what in afraid of is how I will die 💁
    melissa1122 melissa1122 13-15, F May 17

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    OK, I'm sorry, but I just don't understand the concept of being lonely. I know a lot of people that claim to be lonely, and one particular friend I think goes for days without...
    goatonicon goatonicon 36-40, M 1 Response May 20

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    Human existence itself is sinister, macabre is in its essence. The human being, by occasion, encounter himself in this universe, without an apparent purpose, without a sense or...
    DiegoSMarinho DiegoSMarinho 16-17, M 1 Response a week ago

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    If life was about to take me by surprise, it wouldn’t matter because you kept me aware. For there’s nothing worse than loving you, and you leaving me in despair.
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    My brother shot himself in the head Sunday morning ,, 1 week from getting the news His Ex wife and Mother of his only child had died from cancer ,,she is now an Orphan ,,not alone...
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    This story is crazy but true. I was dreaming the other night that I was having a stroke and dying and my grandma had a stroke and died and I didn't even know about her passing...
    Applepieofyoureye Applepieofyoureye 26-30, F May 8

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