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I Am Dying A Slow Death From Lonliness And Despair

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    Rambling About Nothing

    I do not know how to fall in love. I have been single for too long, and I know it is me, something is "wrong" with me and I have yet to figure it out. Today I thought maybe part of the problem is because I honestly do not know how to let myself fal in love. I have met interesting...
    Rae1983 Rae1983 31-35, F 4 Responses Dec 27, 2012

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    I'm so lonely, if loneliness was an illness it

    would have killed me by now. I am in love with a severely depressed man that won't even text me back no matter how many times I text him of go to see him. He's so sick and won't get help. He barely showers. I am a beautiful woman with a huge heart and just want to find someone...
    PhotographyQueen PhotographyQueen 41-45, F 4 Responses Mar 11, 2014

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    Self Imposed Exile

    39 year old male.adopted a frnds daughter who died when i was 18 due to circumstances.life revolved around her.never been in a relationship and stayed celibate for her sake.was diagnosed with bone degen n cml in 2005.my daughter kept me rolling but i lost her in june.dont kno how...
    orangemoon orangemoon 36-40, M Nov 9, 2012

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    I don't see why anyone would want to fear death. Yes it's a sad and lonely experience but I'm not afraid to die right now. I'm ready to go been ready for a long time.
    badgirlbee badgirlbee 22-25, F 4 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I'm an atheist who fears death. Hate me all you want, but it is what it is. I fear it despite having had suicidal thoughts in the past.
    crypticcrime crypticcrime 18-21, F 10 hrs ago

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    James Brandt from Fairfield, CT is the Senior Vice President of Publisher Sales at Sprinkle Content. It is a reputable company in New York committed to providing a state-of-the-art...
    Albernjhons Albernjhons 31-35, M 15 hrs ago

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    I don't fear death itself. I fear dying painfully, I fear dying before I'm ready, and I wish that I didn't overthink about things like this. I'm always thinking about the future...
    AcousticSoul17 AcousticSoul17 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I can't live my life like the way I do anymore. I don't have energy for it. I'm weak and I'm tired. Including I'm discouraged and scared. I'm worried I'll never please anyone or...
    EddieNashton EddieNashton 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    My husband is dying of a motor neuron disease. Right now, he cannot walk and is on a ventilator 24 hrs. We have been married for thirty years. We love each other very much. We...
    dmur dmur 56-60, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    One time years ago I decided to pop some pills took a tab of ecstasy and suddenly dropped to the floor spazing out an abundance was called and after the ordeal I ended up passing...
    MSEfromD MSEfromD 41-45, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I was on a vacation by myself in my early 30s. Just broke up with a girlfriend before a planned trip to Vegas and Southern California.Decided to go without her. It was one of the...
    harveyspecter harveyspecter 41-45, M 3 days ago

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    IDGAF bout dying cuz im not a *****. You cant avoid it and all that happens is evrything goes black, if anything thats in improvment XD
    ElPadrinoHuasco ElPadrinoHuasco 13-15, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    My estrangement from my family has been a slow, sometimes painful process. I came from a broken, abusive, alcoholic home. I am not saying that as a victim, it is a reality of my...
    Ronrob Ronrob 41-45 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    The thought of dying makes me tear up and shake. There have been times that I do break down and I don't understand why this happens.
    ErikRomero18 ErikRomero18 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    I think it's been a bit over 5 years, but that depends on when I should count that it started. It esentially started with a semi-trauma. Maybe a bit before that but holy damn did...
    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    There is a difference in knowing death is final, and feeling it. My feelings used to invoke more "mystery" around the subject of death. The death of my father made me think and...
    LawlessLuuk LawlessLuuk 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    When I was 16 I was working on a grain property, and one day the boss asked me to come over and give him a hand with something he was doing, I get over to him and he was try to...
    Zarbuza Zarbuza 18-21, M 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    When I was ten, my dad, my six-year old sister, and I were at this indoor hotel pool where we used to go swimming a lot. This was a particularly non-crowded day with only a few...
    ZippyHippy ZippyHippy 16-17, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I want to die, I feel like inviting any possible form of death because I feel that if I were gone... people would be better off. ...I want to die because I keep letting myself get...
    DaffodilDeary95 DaffodilDeary95 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    "Death is the end of our life. After a good life, we should have a good death. A good death is death without pain, where you can say "I had a good life, and I can now go to the...
    Mags40 Mags40 41-45, F a week ago

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    I had autism later in life where I used to strong episodes of depression. When I begin to be autistic I slowly beginning to start losing my friends b/c I begin to be more social...
    F00dbarevaporating F00dbarevaporating 16-17, F a week ago

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    When I was smaller I used to be so scared of death but what I realized is that it wasn't death itself that scared me but the unknown. Not knowing what happens after you breath your...
    Alex288837359 Alex288837359 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 22

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    I'm so tired of my friends complaining about their trivial little problems. Everyday I feel like I'm dying inside because I miss my kids (they moved out-they're older) so much.Also...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 22

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    Sure, I try to walk away from pain, but to be blunt, I won't really pevent my death if i had a chance to stop it...
    HermioneRiddle HermioneRiddle 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    I don't fear death. I have been too close to it to realise that there is a beautiful place on the other side. The only kind of death that scares me is dying of old age with an...
    WokenandOpen WokenandOpen 31-35, M 2 Responses Jul 21

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    i didnt used to be scared of it, maybe its just scared of dying alone
    awesomeguy3125 awesomeguy3125 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 19

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    My life has been altered, or, as one woman I met told me, "transformed." I liked that word because something positive can be associated with it. It reminded me that even in the...
    christina1219 christina1219 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    I love dying my hair. My natural hair color is light brown but I've been through quite the hair "journey". When I was 13 I started using sun-in in my hair because I always wanted...
    suninsagittarius suninsagittarius 18-21, F Jul 17

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    After eight years of dying my hair blonde I decided to go back to my mousy light brunette color. It's not that I don't like being bright blonde, it's just I'm trying to do right by...
    anhonestgirl anhonestgirl 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    This was removed..putting it back.A moment this man had;a moment you see…Written in this moment is much mystery…This moment in time;I buried a part of me…I...
    nocool nocool 41-45, M 1 Response Jul 14

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    I already come from a pretty crappy family on my dads side somewhat my mom and hers but not as much...but today I found out that my aunt and my dad have been stealing from my...
    poms118 poms118 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 14

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    I do think about death and it scares me. The unknown. But, just as we exist now who knows what death holds for us. We still do not know how we got here and the questions will be to...
    Kayleesi Kayleesi 26-30, F Jul 13

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    I have been close to achieving it too. I mean at times it feels like death is the only answer for me when things are really at their worst. But something or shall I say someone has...
    EternalLuckyGuy EternalLuckyGuy 13-15, M 2 Responses Jul 13

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    I have the feelings back.They crept there way back into my life.I'm always sad only my boyfriend can make me smile for now.He doesn't know any if this.I'm always crying.I get...
    MusicLover4Eternity MusicLover4Eternity 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    I have developed this crazy phobia of death for some reason and it is driving me nuts! I know it sounds dumb but for the past few weeks I have been thinking about it almost every...
    cjmart01 cjmart01 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 12

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    Who doesn't fear it? I mean just thinking of someone you love going somewhere for a whole year saddens me, what more if it's for eternity. Death is just so fearful. But what's more...
    PiperMcLean PiperMcLean 18-21, F Jul 11

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    I hate slow replies and that seems like all I've been getting for most of the people I talk to, I usually reply very fast because I know what's it like to get slow replies, the...
    Fred363 Fred363 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 10

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    Both my parents passed away. My father when I was two years old. My mother a couple months ago. I do not feel strength or positivity coming out of the idea of them living in...
    LawlessLuuk LawlessLuuk 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 10

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    This is more of a question/opinions from other people kind of post. I just woke up so hopefully this will make sense. My brother committed suicide on August 4th, 2014. He would...
    aesco53 aesco53 18-21, F Jul 9

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    Who is mighty enough to cut off a person’s life no matter how evil he may be? Who is worthy enough to throw a stone to a person who sinned when all of us have committed the...
    tpgglobal tpgglobal 36-40, M Jul 9

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    I was with a man for 5 years. He was a Narcassist. In the beginning he built me up. He loved everything about me. I love your pictures, i love that you are a strong woman, i love...
    aprilny aprilny 46-50 3 Responses Jul 8

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