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I Am Dying A Slow Death From Lonliness And Despair

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 20 People

    Self Imposed Exile

    39 year old male.adopted a frnds daughter who died when i was 18 due to circumstances.life revolved around her.never been in a relationship and stayed celibate for her sake.was diagnosed with bone degen n cml in 2005.my daughter kept me rolling but i lost her in june.dont kno how...
    orangemoon orangemoon 36-40, M 3 Responses Nov 9, 2012

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    I'm so lonely, if loneliness was an illness it

    would have killed me by now. I am in love with a severely depressed man that won't even text me back no matter how many times I text him of go to see him. He's so sick and won't get help. He barely showers. I am a beautiful woman with a huge heart and just want to find someone...
    PhotographyQueen PhotographyQueen 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 11

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    Rambling About Nothing

    I do not know how to fall in love. I have been single for too long, and I know it is me, something is "wrong" with me and I have yet to figure it out. Today I thought maybe part of the problem is because I honestly do not know how to let myself fal in love. I have met interesting...
    Rae1983 Rae1983 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 27, 2012

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    i always fear thinking about dying alone. not to death.dying alone is scarly thing.
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