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I Am Dying On the Inside

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    On The Verge Of Losing It

    I have felt lonely and empty, but now its worse MUCH WORSE. I can't even give you a short version of the last 24 months of hell and emotional  roller coaster I've dealt with. But I can give you the short [one week events] that are leading me to my jump into insanity.I'm 24...
    thanatophobic thanatophobic 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 28, 2010

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    A boy makes his girl jealous of other women,

    a true gentlemen makes other women jealous of his girl.
    Lummaa Lummaa 13-15, F a week ago

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    After a year in therapy,

    my psychiatrist said to me, 'Maybe life isn't for everyone.' -Larry Brown If you haven't noticed the scars on my hips, Or the fake smile on my lips, Or the forced laugh I've adopted, Or the way I don't care about things I used to love, Then don't you dare stand at my...
    BeautyInBlack BeautyInBlack 13-15, F Sep 24

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    Different Meanings

    As I sit here in the wee hours of the morning, I'm dying on the inside has multi comments for me. Number one I'm dying on the inside cause I don't know what the answer is. what the hell am I suppose to do? Number two. dying on the inside from all the pain. Number three Im trying...
    Calif39 Calif39 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 25, 2012

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    Lost. That is what I constantly feel.

    Everybody tells me that I should just die or kill myself, but why is it that when I try they always stop me. I cut. I love the constant burning sensation, the crimson red dotted line running down my arms,legs, or stomach as if it were a red carpet. I love it when I hurt myself...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    I have been battling with the past of sexual

    abuse for the past 9 years. I don't know what to do about it. I've turned to alcohol, drugs, cutting and smoking. I've lost a lot of people because I haven't told anyone about it. Help me.
    Claryboo Claryboo 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    I try not to let anything affect me I can't

    help the way I feel. I am dying inside...
    Changeallaround Changeallaround 22-25 3 days ago

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    Let me tell you about a girl

    that I used to be, Same name same face but a different me, She didn't know what she was thinking, Didn't know her world was sinking, Had her dreams written on a paper in her hand, Held on tight but she didn't understand, The love and hurt that she's replacing, All the past that...
    ProSolitude ProSolitude 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 22

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    whitneygarcia whitneygarcia 13-15, F Jul 8

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    Everyday I wake up I feel a part of me dies,

    I die each day, and noone cares, now I reached to the point where I don't care about anything or anyone, people just hurt me, I don't want to hear their voice, I don't wanna feel their glances, I just want to be left alone in the darkness, only me and my thoughts, me with my...
    catxfreak catxfreak 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    Behind my smile is a hurting heart,

    Behind my laugh I’m falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am, it isn’t me…
    ProSolitude ProSolitude 26-30, F Aug 24

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    I know that I am because every time I put my

    hand on my chest (where my heart is suppose to be). I get nothing. It because of everything I keep inside is killing me and I am force to or something happened. I was have to keep quiet, always see couples make out, and always force to be alone.
    Unknown1047 Unknown1047 18-21, M Aug 28

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    Why do I even try anymore?

    My mom and dad made it clear to me tonight that they hate me and want nothing to do with me. I am fine with that too. They love my siblings way more than me also. They think that I am seeking attention and I am not. They scream at me ever night that all I do is give them...
    Katier32 Katier32 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 26, 2013

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    It Is My Own Doing Most Of The Time

    It really is my own fault I think. My insecurities, my lack of trust, my inability to open up to ppl I care about, all this crap in MY head. It is killing my slowly..................
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M Nov 13, 2009

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    I've been dealing with a cheating

    now fiancé for over a year. I found out in Dec 2013 he cheated on me with 7 different women while away at school while I was pregnant and taking care of his child. After forgiving and taking him back he is still on Craigslist looking up prosititues and messaging random girls...
    supermommyof2 supermommyof2 18-21, F 7 Responses Apr 6

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    I have no reason to live,

    everyday I feel a little worse, as if my soul was rotting.
    StupidWiseGuy StupidWiseGuy 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 3

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    Its funny i m seeing my self falling apart

    but i cant do anything !!
    ProSolitude ProSolitude 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    So here it goes: I married the woman of my

    dreams a year ago. I got my dream job not too long ago. And I love to run. While working a month ago I fell about 40 ft and shattered my pelvis, tailbone, and several ribs. I can't work at my dream job, I can't run anymore, and I found out my wife has been sexting her old...
    crono84 crono84 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 21

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    Someone please just end it I'm too cowardly

    to I'm tired of life I'm just tired
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    I didn't lie about my problems.

    Just needed the people I care for out of my life. It hurts me but they are more important. I'm not going to ruin them. I've ruined enough people.
    lexrae lexrae 13-15, F Sep 15

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    I haven't eaten in 3 days.

    Because I am so depressed and I have no energy. I cannot eat when I am not happy
    capecodlovin capecodlovin 18-21, F 2 Responses May 7

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    ProSolitude ProSolitude 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    Sometimes when I couldn't take it anymore,

    I think of being dead, but I don't want to be dead. I want to get away, but I don't want to leave my mother. I want to drink vodka, but either I couldn't buy one, or I feel guilty.
    jesssaying1997 jesssaying1997 16-17, F 1 Response May 6

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    Anger comes to those

    who fear. Rage come to those who leer. What is fear if or escape? What is life but endless tape. Restrictions and boundaries lash you in. Folding you will so very thin, light fade as darkness rises, the fates muse as the anger rises. Death to all who hated me. Death to all who...
    emowulf emowulf 18-21, M Jun 23

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    I really wish I never existed.

    not that I wS dead necessarily, just nonexistent. then I wouldn't have made any sort if emotional attachment to anyone or thing so I could leave this place. but then again if I was nonexistent, I wouldn't have a reason go fight the pain; there would be none. there would be no...
    aftersomeday aftersomeday 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 4

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    I want to die. I have no one there

    for me and no where to go
    walkinwonder walkinwonder 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 11

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    Dying Inside...

    Dying inside....There are people around me, who have just died. I have been told "it happens in three" it happened last year, I lost an Aunt, an uncle, and a Family friend who I had known growing up....Its happening again this year...I lost my cousin a few weeks ago...I lost a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 2, 2010

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    I'm crying right now.

    I can't even...
    marissabrun803 marissabrun803 13-15, F Aug 29

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    Not Even The Meds Help

    I went to my psych the other day because i'm so depressed, lethargic and have no drive for anything.  he increased my ritalin.  it still doesn't keep me awake, i'm still depressed and i'm so mad at myself for it.   I can't clean.  I take care of my daughter...
    nightismycompanion nightismycompanion 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 4, 2010

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    I'm actually dying on the inside.

    My digestive system is shutting down. I'm scared
    Yerbamate Yerbamate 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 2

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    I feel like I'm dead.

    .. I feel like a body just walking around… But it's not me.
    SimplyZero SimplyZero 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    100% of the time when I say I'm okay

    or fine I'm not I need someone, something, anything Or I just need to stop stop living my stupid life
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M Aug 21

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    Not Dead Yet

    Empty and numb is how I feel most of the time. Not all the time, but mostly, yeah... numb. I get really angry sometimes though. No idea why, I just do. So I'm not dead yet but I'm definitely dying. I'm feeling pretty empty right now so sorry if this is a little subdued and...
    UnseenBlossom UnseenBlossom 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 25, 2008

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    I am tired. I give up.

    Time to throw in the towel. I just cant try to feel like "normal" ppl do. Easier to disappear.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 5

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    Pretty much nothing special about me my heart

    hurts and I cry a lot often. I know people can relate but my pain is my own. I can handle physical pain. But the pain of my emotions hurts more than anything else.
    MPost85 MPost85 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 8

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    I hate being in my own skin.

    I just wanna tear it all off. My skin itches, burns, and bleeds. It's begging me to tear myself from it. I can't stand living in my body. My body is my home. But I'd prefer not to have one.
    BeautyInBlack BeautyInBlack 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 10

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    I don't know if people actually realize how

    much their words hurt me. I hate when someone tells me " oh you're alright" no I'm not alright dumbass I'm dying inside and you don't even give a ****! You only care about yourself. And the ones who put me through this are my friends so it hurts because they know what bothers me...
    mikaylahoguexo mikaylahoguexo 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 25

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    This really nice guy I was talking to him

    for awhile and just the other day we talked about how we ready for a relationship. He's always my go to when I need help with something or I'm feeling sad and he told me I could talk to him if I was down. Well I had an argument w a friend and her bf and I told him about it and...
    mikaylahoguexo mikaylahoguexo 13-15, F Jul 31

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    All On Me

    Ever walked outside and Snow was on the Ground and you steped in it barefoot? Know the Chilling sensation you Get? That's me But ampliefied by Two-hundered Right now. Everything that I worked for. Everything that I tried so hard To prevent came Crashing down.. Watching him...
    CountryAngel CountryAngel 18-21 5 Responses Oct 28, 2008

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    I think I may be in love with someone.

    ..but it's forbidden. I don't know what to do! I really like (it's almost love) this guy but and the same time I can't help but feel a little hate for him as well. Also, I don't know if he feels the same way about me as I do for him. We've both been through quite a bit...
    SimplyZero SimplyZero 13-15, F Apr 7

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    This Life Is Killing Me...

    Slowly but surely this life is killing me. Put down after put down. **** up after **** up. This life is to much to take sometimes. When it feels like you can't do anything right its hard to even want to be alive. When you try your hardest and it still isn't enough it just makes...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 31, 2011

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    As you can tell by my username,

    I am everyday. I see him or a reminder of him and the love we shared, the spark. I try over and over again, to be done with him, because it hurts. I am killing myself trying to not love him, I can feel my feelings and emotions, my everything be crushed. I just want him to love...
    SummertimeSadness15 SummertimeSadness15 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 22

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