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I Am Dying On the Inside

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    i don't feel very much, don't care very much. i don't give a **** to graduate, don't give a **** to get a job, don't really give a **** to continue to be but i can't end it without feeling pain. i don't want to cut my wrists don't want to shoot myself don't want to starve myself...
    ilyyb25 ilyyb25 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2010

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    I Hate All Of This..

    It really hurts so much right now... I feel so lonely and empty. I don't even know what I feel right now.. if I'm feeling anything at all.Theres too much pain right now.. I don't want to be here anymore...  I don't want to do this. It's too much. Why isn't the pain stopping...
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 25, 2010

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    Different Meanings

    As I sit here in the wee hours of the morning, I'm dying on the inside has multi comments for me. Number one I'm dying on the inside cause I don't know what the answer is. what the hell am I suppose to do? Number two. dying on the inside from all the pain. Number three Im trying...
    Calif39 Calif39 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 25, 2012

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    I Don't Even Care Anymore

    Everyone, everything. Can all just **** off because I'm sick and tired and I don't even have the heart to care anymore. Guess everyone doesn't care enough about me..
    Patronusmagic Patronusmagic 18-21, F Nov 10, 2013

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    I think I may be in love with someone.

    ..but it's forbidden. I don't know what to do! I really like (it's almost love) this guy but and the same time I can't help but feel a little hate for him as well. Also, I don't know if he feels the same way about me as I do for him. We've both been through quite a bit...
    SimplyZero SimplyZero 13-15, F Apr 7

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    Not Dead Yet

    Empty and numb is how I feel most of the time. Not all the time, but mostly, yeah... numb. I get really angry sometimes though. No idea why, I just do. So I'm not dead yet but I'm definitely dying. I'm feeling pretty empty right now so sorry if this is a little subdued and...
    UnseenBlossom UnseenBlossom 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 25, 2008

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    The Clock Is Ticking

    As you walk the path of life, the very light of your exsistance is dimming, what was once a warm days gentle caress, now feels harsh and troublesome, Strolling away from the innocence of youth, wisdom has been earned and accomplished. As you look back, back down the path...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 13-15, F Jun 15, 2012

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    It Kills Me.

    I'm dying on the inside knowing that you're with him. I'm dying on the inside because I love you with my everything, and you don't trust me. You seem to still think that I would hurt you intentionally. I love you, theres no possible way I could hurt you intentionally. If...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F Jan 5, 2009

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    It's Happening Slowly, But It's Getting There

    I give it a year, tops. I probably won't even last til Christmas.
    dominatedgirl dominatedgirl 18-21, F 18 Responses Mar 20, 2011

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    I feel like I'm dead.

    .. I feel like a body just walking around… But it's not me.
    SimplyZero SimplyZero 13-15, F Apr 6

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    As you can tell by my username,

    I am everyday. I see him or a reminder of him and the love we shared, the spark. I try over and over again, to be done with him, because it hurts. I am killing myself trying to not love him, I can feel my feelings and emotions, my everything be crushed. I just want him to love...
    SummertimeSadness15 SummertimeSadness15 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    Temporary Happiness

    Have you ever felt so happy that you start to feel like something is not right? Like there is a catch to the smile and you start feeling a negative vibe that suddenly changes everything? It seems like such feelings are impossible to keep for a long period of time because you...
    Intergalacticxo Intergalacticxo 16-17 1 Response Oct 6, 2012

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    The Death Of Me

    I am only 19... but I have something doctors can't seem to fix. No not aids -_-, I have a boyfriend that I love and care about so much. But this problem effects not only me but people around me and how they see me. People will begin to look at me with disgust and question me...
    beautifu5peaceful7sosofaraway beautifu5peaceful7sosofaraway 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 10, 2013

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    When I was small, life seems like a straight

    line: finish school, uni, work, marry, child, die. Now that I am grown up, everything comes tumbling down. I was a high achiever in university: in workplace I feel like the stupidest, useless person in the room. I tried my best to be better: overtime, bringing products...
    Sosise Sosise 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 18

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    About To Explode

    Let´s face it, I have nothing. I don´t mean this as a good or a bad thing but as a fact. I have fought for and earned what little I have. I have stoop up for what I believe in and tried to stay focused on my objectives, yet I always lose everything I care about. I...
    Blesseddarkness Blesseddarkness 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 17, 2010

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    What to Do

    Well i don't even know where to start.... and I don't even know if this is going to make me feel better but I am going to try.   here is the story.   Met this wonderful solider on the Internet.   Thought he was hot and just going to make his day and...
    gologrl2 gologrl2 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 7, 2009

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    No One Knows.

     I'm dying on the inside and no one knows it.  I feel worthless.. useless.
    yeahyeahyeahs yeahyeahyeahs 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 13, 2009

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    I always get things taken away from me,

    from people to items. I don't understand because I don't have anything or anyone in the first place. I'm just tired of this, things and people have been taken out of life since I was little child. I don't even know how I still love and how I still get attached to things…
    OutOfSight23 OutOfSight23 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    I'm done I'm not dealing with his addiction no

    more.I deserve much more im a girl as a girl that I am I need lots of stuff witch he dnt realize he's literally blind! And he says that what ever my dessition is he's not staying in the streets as if that's what I'm tryna do I just want a better life for my self !!!!
    bluerose72911 bluerose72911 18-21, T Apr 6

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    Cry At My Funeral.

    If I die now would you even notice? Would you care? Would you cry at my funeral? Would you care at all? I wonder how you would feel. Do you care for me at all? Or are you just gonna use me? Like everyone else does. Are you different from the others? I wish I could say yes. You...
    Emo18 Emo18 18-21, F Jun 28, 2012

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    I am tired. I give up.

    Time to throw in the towel. I just cant try to feel like "normal" ppl do. Easier to disappear.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 5

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    I've been dealing with a cheating

    now fiancé for over a year. I found out in Dec 2013 he cheated on me with 7 different women while away at school while I was pregnant and taking care of his child. After forgiving and taking him back he is still on Craigslist looking up prosititues and messaging random girls...
    supermommyof2 supermommyof2 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 6

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    Somebody Kidnap Me

     I have a brain injury so my world is like flipped upside down.  I can't drive or work.  Everybody in my life acts like nothing has happened.  They give me rides to the doctor, but as far as helping me emotionally, the get tired of having to 'help' me since i...
    nightismycompanion nightismycompanion 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 28, 2010

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    Idk

    I don't know what makes people want to live another day.Because I don't see anything out there to live for in this world that we live in.I mean,we all have to die one day anyways.
    stranger001 stranger001 26-30, F Oct 5, 2013

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    I want to run away to an island were only nice

    people go ppl who don't hurt other ppl feelings. Or parents tht never listen to their child . I feel trapped I always ask myself why am I here . What's the point of me being here . Everyday it's the same thing over and over again. Why can't we all be happy not have those...
    Holla205 Holla205 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 25

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    At this point I don't give a crap

    if I die in real life. My sanity left me and I can't take this life anymore. I just want it all to end. My uncle has a huge chance of dying right now, so the doctors say, because of cancer. My (step) grandma is doing her usual thing and yet again.
    SummertimeSadness15 SummertimeSadness15 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 12, 2013

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    Dying Inside...

    Dying inside....There are people around me, who have just died. I have been told "it happens in three" it happened last year, I lost an Aunt, an uncle, and a Family friend who I had known growing up....Its happening again this year...I lost my cousin a few weeks ago...I lost a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 2, 2010

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    It's My Fault

    You know that feeling when you do some thing and not really thinking about it then it comes and haunt you every single moment??....no matter how hard you tried ...how desperately prayed to GOD to make it go away ....it still there .....I feel stupid .....I'm not dying from inside...
    Saly84 Saly84 26-30, F 6 Responses Oct 5, 2013

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    Dying Slowly

    I can't sleep. The night keeps my soul. Have no tears left. I have cried to much in loneliness. My life is a mess. The light in my soul is consumed with hatred. One lie upon another lie. On the outside one person. On the inside another person. I don't know who I am anymore. Been...
    AmZiCo AmZiCo 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 27, 2011

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    This Life Is Killing Me...

    Slowly but surely this life is killing me. Put down after put down. **** up after **** up. This life is to much to take sometimes. When it feels like you can't do anything right its hard to even want to be alive. When you try your hardest and it still isn't enough it just makes...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 31, 2011

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    Everything I do seems to be a mistake

    and everything seems pointless. I wish someone understood me
    eazybreezylemonsqueezy eazybreezylemonsqueezy 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 1

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    The End Of The World

    i dont see or feel anything good anymore. nothing excites me everything only brings me down. there's a song that i relate to a lot and explains exactly how it feels for me now. i just change the lyrics a little bit. but this is exactly how i feel.Why did the sun stop shining?Why...
    OfftheBeatenPath OfftheBeatenPath 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2012

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    Sort Of Like

    losing your footing on a rocky slope. I feel like im slipping away.
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 21, 2010

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    No Idea

    I have no idea. what i am upto. Unable to focus on work. Its all started with my personal life getting messed up. I fell for a gal without even realizing that love is just a pain. I couldn't help. I just fell in love and then my story of being dead started. It started as a long...
    ky86 ky86 22-25, M May 11, 2012

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    All On Me

    Ever walked outside and Snow was on the Ground and you steped in it barefoot? Know the Chilling sensation you Get? That's me But ampliefied by Two-hundered Right now. Everything that I worked for. Everything that I tried so hard To prevent came Crashing down.. Watching him...
    CountryAngel CountryAngel 18-21 5 Responses Oct 28, 2008

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    I can't do this anymore.

    . It's like I take two steps foreword and I'm knocked 5 steps back. I wish I could just drown myself right here in my bathtub, I've been trying for a few mins now, ad it's not working.. I can hear my heartbeat. I wish I could die already so nobody would have to watch me mess up...
    audralina09 audralina09 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 25

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    I feel like I'm dying in the inside,

    but I know I'm already dead. I just want to finish myself off. There is no point to go on.
    lshidonil lshidonil 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    Pain

    I've been hearing things for years. yet no one listens to me! For years I've been slowing dying of depression. Just last year I was put on anti-depressants. But still no help for me. I still want to dye all the damn time and no one sees that. I wish for my death everyday, when...
    Wildwillow Wildwillow 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 4, 2012

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    Not Even The Meds Help

    I went to my psych the other day because i'm so depressed, lethargic and have no drive for anything.  he increased my ritalin.  it still doesn't keep me awake, i'm still depressed and i'm so mad at myself for it.   I can't clean.  I take care of my daughter...
    nightismycompanion nightismycompanion 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 4, 2010

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    How Do I Forgive Her So I Can Move On With My Life ?

    As a young girl , my 2 brother's and I were moved from foster home to foster home . I never fully understood why my Mother was seemed fine to us was never really there for us . As I grew older , I would ask questions and she usually replied with it is a long story to I just...
    TonyaParker TonyaParker 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 14, 2012

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    It Is My Own Doing Most Of The Time

    It really is my own fault I think. My insecurities, my lack of trust, my inability to open up to ppl I care about, all this crap in MY head. It is killing my slowly..................
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M Nov 13, 2009

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    most the time I don't

    even feel like a real person , I think I'm past the point of feeling like I'm dying on the inside. I'm already dead.
    thelostgirl25 thelostgirl25 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 25

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    Dying On The Inside

    Dying on the inside,There are days,I feel like this,What I need to do,Is live!
    mrraincoat mrraincoat 46-50 1 Response Sep 20, 2012

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    Living is now dying 
Dying means your in hell

    
Hell means you’re home .
    sillygirl008 sillygirl008 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    On The Verge Of Losing It

    I have felt lonely and empty, but now its worse MUCH WORSE. I can't even give you a short version of the last 24 months of hell and emotional  roller coaster I've dealt with. But I can give you the short [one week events] that are leading me to my jump into insanity.I'm 24...
    thanatophobic thanatophobic 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 28, 2010

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    Why do I even try anymore?

    My mom and dad made it clear to me tonight that they hate me and want nothing to do with me. I am fine with that too. They love my siblings way more than me also. They think that I am seeking attention and I am not. They scream at me ever night that all I do is give them...
    Katier32 Katier32 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 26, 2013

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    Lost. That is what I constantly feel.

    Everybody tells me that I should just die or kill myself, but why is it that when I try they always stop me. I cut. I love the constant burning sensation, the crimson red dotted line running down my arms,legs, or stomach as if it were a red carpet. I love it when I hurt myself...
    bulimicbixtch49 bulimicbixtch49 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    Related Experiences

    Another day to pretend..to keep my head held high..to smile..to cover the pain..to forget..i wish I could just stop from hurting..from dying...
    babslabs babslabs 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    I really am dangling on the edge of hopelessness. I feel as though I've ****** up so much that I've pushed away everyone that tried to help. But they hurt. And now I'm kind of...
    coolbeansdani coolbeansdani 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    I want to scream. I'm so done.
    dordor123 dordor123 13-15, F Apr 1

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    I found out my wife, my love, my life have an affair with a coworker. We have a child in common. He is the reason why i keep fighting. For him ill go to hell and back. And he needs...
    dserioussam dserioussam 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 2

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    My soul drained my spirit broken I sit alone in the dark of night my sanity sleeping away your memory crushing me unforgiving and relentless these emotions won't let go I cry for...
    tatterdremains tatterdremains 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 2

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    I've worked so hard for so long to be where I am. Now I have the first college degree in my family, I'm an engineer. It's been a long painful road motivated by a need to support...
    outofgascompletely outofgascompletely 36-40, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I'm not dead inside most of the time, my friends and family revive me most of the time and make me happy. But someone special used to keep me from dying completely. She was the...
    emilesfault emilesfault 16-17, M a week ago

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    Smiling on the outside, crying and dying on the inside....
    Thatbrokengirl1 Thatbrokengirl1 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Day 1 after being fired from my job. Woke up this morning wishing I had not. My world is crumbling and I don't know what to do. Im drowning Im dying
    azuzu azuzu 51-55, M Apr 2

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