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I Am Dying On the Inside

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    Maybe we all are dying on the inside,

    we are just waiting for it to happen. Usually I do not write depressing things, but I just can't help it tonight.. I just wish that I could be a stronger person. I pull smiles through the day, and break down at the end. I just don't wish for others to see me cry. I always try to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 23, 2014

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    Someone please just end it I'm too cowardly

    to I'm tired of life I'm just tired
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 20, 2014

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    It's funny how life works.

    .. I'm alive and well, but I'm not alive and well. The only thing keeping me alive right now is my music and my best friend. I'm slowly fading away. Just remember how vivid I used to be.
    cocoluvr99 cocoluvr99 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 8, 2014

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    As you can tell by my username,

    I am everyday. I see him or a reminder of him and the love we shared, the spark. I try over and over again, to be done with him, because it hurts. I am killing myself trying to not love him, I can feel my feelings and emotions, my everything be crushed. I just want him to love...
    summertimesadness16 summertimesadness16 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 22, 2014

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    I feel so empty. I feel like I'm trapped in a

    jar that can't be opened... I am so scared. I hurt myself again after 2 years of not harming myself. This time it was out of anger. Anger that I feel because of how lost I feel all the time. I feel so out of place in this world and I wish I was a tree. So I could speak my pain...
    PlanetGaia PlanetGaia 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    I'm so down .everything in my life is going

    wrong and I'm feeling that i can do nothing about it .
    Bagh8 Bagh8 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 10

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    I have no reason to live,

    everyday I feel a little worse, as if my soul was rotting.
    HeterosexualTransexual HeterosexualTransexual 18-21, T Feb 28

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    I have given up completely.

    I'm sick.of trying.My depression is back.Worse than ever.I'm dying.I don't want help just leave me to die.I deserve it.
    MusicLover4Eternity MusicLover4Eternity 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 16

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    Its funny i m seeing my self falling apart

    but i cant do anything !!
    ProSolitude ProSolitude 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 20, 2014

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    Behind my smile is a hurting heart,

    Behind my laugh I’m falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am, it isn’t me…
    ProSolitude ProSolitude 26-30, F Aug 24, 2014

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    Pretty much nothing special about me my heart

    hurts and I cry a lot often. I know people can relate but my pain is my own. I can handle physical pain. But the pain of my emotions hurts more than anything else.
    MPost85 MPost85 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 8, 2014

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    Tomorrow, 2 pm, I will receive my.

    N-level results. Yayy :D
    XxSxarletxX XxSxarletxX 16-17, F Dec 16, 2014

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    Why do I even try anymore?

    My mom and dad made it clear to me tonight that they hate me and want nothing to do with me. I am fine with that too. They love my siblings way more than me also. They think that I am seeking attention and I am not. They scream at me ever night that all I do is give them...
    Katier32 Katier32 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 26, 2013

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    i feel like every time i have flashback I die a

    little more on top of the little bit each day the memories already are taking from me.I wish i could tell but i cant id have no family any more if I did
    littleangelscared littleangelscared 18-21, F Mar 7

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    I hate being in my own skin.

    I just wanna tear it all off. My skin itches, burns, and bleeds. It's begging me to tear myself from it. I can't stand living in my body. My body is my home. But I'd prefer not to have one.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 10, 2014

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    I hate those happy couples

    who were sitting ahead of me on the train tonight. I had my sunglasses on, but I saw you, kissing and smiling at each other. Touching each others faces. I had that too, you know. What I would give to hold him again.
    Evilaugh Evilaugh 31-35, F Dec 22, 2014

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    I feel like I'm dead.

    .. I feel like a body just walking around… But it's not me.
    SimplyZero SimplyZero 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 6, 2014

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    I didn't think it would hurt this bad.

    I don't know how to go back to the way it was before....I feel like part of me is missing now
    misteesue misteesue 26-30, F 1 Response May 20

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    I'm actually dying on the inside.

    My digestive system is shutting down. I'm scared
    Yerbamate Yerbamate 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 2, 2014

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    We all are.... Before my granddad past away him

    self he said " from the second we are born we are dying from the second we live we slowly die"
    shaun7654 shaun7654 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 22

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    I'm so sad. I shouldn't let myself get affected

    but here i am. I know this is a cliche but yeah this is still about love problem
    icedwithin17 icedwithin17 26-30, F Jul 14

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    I have the feelings back.

    They crept there way back into my life.I'm always sad only my boyfriend can make me smile for now.He doesn't know any if this.I'm always crying.I get blamed for everything at home.I always stay in my room with my music.Music is my only escape right now.I took a walk down to the...
    MusicLover4Eternity MusicLover4Eternity 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    i might be able to sound all cheerful

    and pretend that im happy but im not, i dont get how events of different magnitudes can effect a person so badly, i dont seem to understand why bad things happen to good people either. ive been asked to go to the doctors to see if i am depressed or whatever they call it, i dont...
    E5RedViper E5RedViper 18-21, M Dec 28, 2014

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    I've been dealing with a cheating

    now fiancé for over a year. I found out in Dec 2013 he cheated on me with 7 different women while away at school while I was pregnant and taking care of his child. After forgiving and taking him back he is still on Craigslist looking up prosititues and messaging random girls...
    supermommyof2 supermommyof2 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 6, 2014

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    Its time to stop living in a daydream.

    I was a fool to think anything would ever be different,or that I had any other choice.
    Disobey247 Disobey247 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 30

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    After a year in therapy,

    my psychiatrist said to me, 'Maybe life isn't for everyone.' -Larry Brown If you haven't noticed the scars on my hips, Or the fake smile on my lips, Or the forced laugh I've adopted, Or the way I don't care about things I used to love, Then don't you dare stand at my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 24, 2014

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    I need to find my path to life.

    ..I don't know how or what to do?
    josecarlosjr josecarlosjr 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 30, 2014

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    "Death is the end of our life.

    After a good life, we should have a good death. A good death is death without pain, where you can say "I had a good life, and I can now go to the other side,'" he says. "Nowadays, death is exported to institutions, to hospitals. Death has become a lonely occasion." "If we want...
    Mags40 Mags40 41-45, F 6 days ago

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    So here it goes: I married the woman of my

    dreams a year ago. I got my dream job not too long ago. And I love to run. While working a month ago I fell about 40 ft and shattered my pelvis, tailbone, and several ribs. I can't work at my dream job, I can't run anymore, and I found out my wife has been sexting her old...
    crono84 crono84 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    I'm crying right now.

    I can't even...
    marissabrun803 marissabrun803 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 29, 2014

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    I think I will be dying soon.

    not because of my actions , but life itself appears inching in that direction. hope has been vanishing for years and now it feels like there is not much to last. I have failed to pull myself up despite many attempts. just going to allow myself drift into oblivion.
    techopeless techopeless 31-35 1 Response Dec 11, 2014

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    I feel like I never got an actual chance at

    life. I love God and I know he's in control but why does everything have to be so hard for me? Why me? Why not anybody else other than me? I know its selfish to feel that way when ppl go through situations that are even worse than mine, but shouldn't I be important too? I...
    tisktisk tisktisk 22-25, F Feb 5

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    It's slowly it's painful

    and it's true
    Sw33love Sw33love 18-21, M Apr 6

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    I want to die. I have no one there

    for me and no where to go
    walkinwonder walkinwonder 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 11, 2014

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    Lost. That is what I constantly feel.

    Everybody tells me that I should just die or kill myself, but why is it that when I try they always stop me. I cut. I love the constant burning sensation, the crimson red dotted line running down my arms,legs, or stomach as if it were a red carpet. I love it when I hurt myself...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2014

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    Feeling oh so alone and broken.

    Wanting to go to him so badly but it isnt fair to him to give him this pain when i left so he could have happiness. Im dying that he let me go. Im dying that i am less than her. I was sweet, loving, honest and open. I dont understand why she deserves his love more so than i.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 30

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    I really wish I never existed.

    not that I wS dead necessarily, just nonexistent. then I wouldn't have made any sort if emotional attachment to anyone or thing so I could leave this place. but then again if I was nonexistent, I wouldn't have a reason go fight the pain; there would be none. there would be no...
    aftersomeday aftersomeday 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 4, 2014

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    Anger comes to those

    who fear. Rage come to those who leer. What is fear if or escape? What is life but endless tape. Restrictions and boundaries lash you in. Folding you will so very thin, light fade as darkness rises, the fates muse as the anger rises. Death to all who hated me. Death to all who...
    emowulf emowulf 18-21, M Jun 23, 2014

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    Dying Inside...

    Dying inside....There are people around me, who have just died. I have been told "it happens in three" it happened last year, I lost an Aunt, an uncle, and a Family friend who I had known growing up....Its happening again this year...I lost my cousin a few weeks ago...I lost a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 2, 2010

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    No matter how many times a day I feel "happy" I

    am simultaneously rotting in the inside.
    nonamerr nonamerr 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    It's killing me.My depression is back

    and it's worse.This is the worst it's been.I haven't stopped crying.But you know what it's amazing what make up a few fake smiles and I'm fines can do.They convence people that I'm fine life is great that the smile I have is a true one not a fake one.Nobody sees the death in my...
    MusicLover4Eternity MusicLover4Eternity 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 16

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    Everyday I wake up I feel a part of me dies,

    I die each day, and noone cares, now I reached to the point where I don't care about anything or anyone, people just hurt me, I don't want to hear their voice, I don't wanna feel their glances, I just want to be left alone in the darkness, only me and my thoughts, me with my...
    Kittyxfreak Kittyxfreak 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 4, 2014

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    there have to be martyrs anyway.

    looks like life pushed it on some people. time is running out now. there is no longer place for hate, everything vanished. i don't exist anymore, i never existed to begin with. then there shouldn't be a problem.
    ShinraIsComingBackDown ShinraIsComingBackDown 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 22

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    VindensSkygge VindensSkygge 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    I don't know if you can tell from my other

    posts, but I'm really sick. Really, really sick, I guess. threes no hope now. goodbye.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 7

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 22

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    I am tired. I give up.

    Time to throw in the towel. I just cant try to feel like "normal" ppl do. Easier to disappear.
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