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I Am Dying On the Inside

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    I am tired. I give up.

    Time to throw in the towel. I just cant try to feel like "normal" ppl do. Easier to disappear.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 5, 2014

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    After a year in therapy,

    my psychiatrist said to me, 'Maybe life isn't for everyone.' -Larry Brown If you haven't noticed the scars on my hips, Or the fake smile on my lips, Or the forced laugh I've adopted, Or the way I don't care about things I used to love, Then don't you dare stand at my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 24, 2014

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    Lost. That is what I constantly feel.

    Everybody tells me that I should just die or kill myself, but why is it that when I try they always stop me. I cut. I love the constant burning sensation, the crimson red dotted line running down my arms,legs, or stomach as if it were a red carpet. I love it when I hurt myself...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2014

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    I know this is quite repetitive of me,

    as I am trying to get people to believe that this is really happening and I need help. I know that I myself am being drugged by my stranger for a Mother's boyfriend. The thing is that when it comes to my dog, I believe that he was drugged too. I've been trying to train my dog...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F Jan 24

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    VindensSkygge VindensSkygge 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 14, 2015

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    We all are.... Before my granddad past away him

    self he said " from the second we are born we are dying from the second we live we slowly die"
    shaun7654 shaun7654 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 22, 2015

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    I'm so sad. I shouldn't let myself get affected

    but here i am. I know this is a cliche but yeah this is still about love problem
    icedwithin17 icedwithin17 26-30, F Jul 14, 2015

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    Dying Inside...

    Dying inside....There are people around me, who have just died. I have been told "it happens in three" it happened last year, I lost an Aunt, an uncle, and a Family friend who I had known growing up....Its happening again this year...I lost my cousin a few weeks ago...I lost a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 2, 2010

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    Everyday I wake up I feel a part of me dies,

    I die each day, and noone cares, now I reached to the point where I don't care about anything or anyone, people just hurt me, I don't want to hear their voice, I don't wanna feel their glances, I just want to be left alone in the darkness, only me and my thoughts, me with my...
    Kittyxfreak Kittyxfreak 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 4, 2014

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    Maybe we all are dying on the inside,

    we are just waiting for it to happen. Usually I do not write depressing things, but I just can't help it tonight.. I just wish that I could be a stronger person. I pull smiles through the day, and break down at the end. I just don't wish for others to see me cry. I always try to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 23, 2014

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    Thanks for adding me to the group .

    ..please could somebody give me some psychic insight ..I had lots of traumas in life and I have been hated and treated disrespectfully and painfully by some hateful people ..even in the last 2 years and a half lots of traumatic things have happened to me and I was picked up by...
    Inthedark16 Inthedark16 36-40, F 2 Responses Jan 23

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    As you can tell by my username,

    I am everyday. I see him or a reminder of him and the love we shared, the spark. I try over and over again, to be done with him, because it hurts. I am killing myself trying to not love him, I can feel my feelings and emotions, my everything be crushed. I just want him to love...
    summertimesadness16 summertimesadness16 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 22, 2014

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    White satin sheets, fluffy cool pillows warm

    puffy duvet. A form fitting white long flowing satin gown. Beautiful white candles lit, burning all around round. Caught up in its splendor absorbing the beauty that I see. Its been so long since we shared love this way. Upon looking around I can see you're not here, you're not...
    AngeleyesUponU AngeleyesUponU 41-45, F 5 Responses Dec 16, 2015

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    Its funny i m seeing my self falling apart

    but i cant do anything !!
    ProSolitude ProSolitude 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 20, 2014

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    I want to jump off my roof,

    so I can fly. Fly away. I feel disconnected always, like I am flying high (I don't take drugs). I have a heavy weight churning in my chest that makes me feel dead sometimes. No emotions or excitment. I just want to leave this place.
    pegpish pegpish 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    there have to be martyrs anyway.

    looks like life pushed it on some people. time is running out now. there is no longer place for hate, everything vanished. i don't exist anymore, i never existed to begin with. then there shouldn't be a problem.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 22, 2015

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    So here it goes: I married the woman of my

    dreams a year ago. I got my dream job not too long ago. And I love to run. While working a month ago I fell about 40 ft and shattered my pelvis, tailbone, and several ribs. I can't work at my dream job, I can't run anymore, and I found out my wife has been sexting her old...
    crono84 crono84 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 21, 2014

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    I really wish I never existed.

    not that I wS dead necessarily, just nonexistent. then I wouldn't have made any sort if emotional attachment to anyone or thing so I could leave this place. but then again if I was nonexistent, I wouldn't have a reason go fight the pain; there would be none. there would be no...
    aftersomeday aftersomeday 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 4, 2014

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    My stranger for a Mother just cussed at me

    and asked me why I'm always locked up in my room. She then proceeded in answering the question by saying that I'm on the Internet with all my lesbian lovers, that I may have more than one and that I'm going to get into trouble. I asked her what made her think that I was a...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 24

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    I feel so empty. I feel like I'm trapped in a

    jar that can't be opened... I am so scared. I hurt myself again after 2 years of not harming myself. This time it was out of anger. Anger that I feel because of how lost I feel all the time. I feel so out of place in this world and I wish I was a tree. So I could speak my pain...
    PlanetGaia PlanetGaia 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 26, 2015

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    Feeling oh so alone and broken.

    Wanting to go to him so badly but it isnt fair to him to give him this pain when i left so he could have happiness. Im dying that he let me go. Im dying that i am less than her. I was sweet, loving, honest and open. I dont understand why she deserves his love more so than i.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jun 30, 2015

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    My heart hurts. I didn't sleep much last night.

    And I can't eat. I keep breaking down and crying. I want it to end.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 27, 2015

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    Pretty much nothing special about me my heart

    hurts and I cry a lot often. I know people can relate but my pain is my own. I can handle physical pain. But the pain of my emotions hurts more than anything else.
    MPost85 MPost85 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 8, 2014

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    what do you do when you want to die

    but you can't because there is something that's stopping you from doing it so, you just can't. It's not an option. So you're stuck in this never-ending I want to die, it's never going to get better, I'm done, there's no hope anymore, it's over feeling. you've talked to strangers...
    ilovenewsocks ilovenewsocks 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 4, 2015

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    My whole life I felt like my life was coming to

    a end. My whole life I wanted it to come to a end I do not believe in depression I don't believe that I have any kind of chemical embalance in my brain, I know the truth is I just grew up in hard living struggle after struggle. Poverty, I grew up around trash as a environment...
    bushi132001 bushi132001 26-30, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I hate being in my own skin.

    I just wanna tear it all off. My skin itches, burns, and bleeds. It's begging me to tear myself from it. I can't stand living in my body. My body is my home. But I'd prefer not to have one.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 10, 2014

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    yesterday was the lowest point I had ever been

    at in my life. there was no way out and I was at the end. I've never felt that utterly and completely helpless and it was the scariest thing I've ever been through. But thanks to a complete stranger who went above and beyond anything they ever had to do and didn't need to do...
    ilovenewsocks ilovenewsocks 36-40, F 3 Responses Dec 5, 2015

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    tonight I am going to die.

    I am willing to die. I am dying... I want to die..
    TheMomentITouchedYou TheMomentITouchedYou 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 25, 2015

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    ilovenewsocks ilovenewsocks 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 3, 2015

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    I constantly feel that the world is wrong,

    I jumped off a bridge at my school because I wanted to hurt myself. People try to help but that just makes it a billion times worse.
    theworldiswrong theworldiswrong 13-15, M 3 Responses Dec 13, 2015

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    I'm actually dying on the inside.

    My digestive system is shutting down. I'm scared
    Yerbamate Yerbamate 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 2, 2014

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    I feel like I'm drowning

    and watching everyone else around me swim....
    isolatedboy123 isolatedboy123 13-15, F Nov 28, 2015

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    Broken doll, Cracked,

    and scratched porcelain skin. The bit of shine is gone from her eyes within. Torn and tattered dress, Hair all a mess. Chipped polish, missing shoes, this broken doll seems very used. She once felt loved, and cherished in the arm's of the one that kept her safe. She knew of a...
    AngeleyesUponU AngeleyesUponU 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2015

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    I've been dealing with a cheating

    now fiancé for over a year. I found out in Dec 2013 he cheated on me with 7 different women while away at school while I was pregnant and taking care of his child. After forgiving and taking him back he is still on Craigslist looking up prosititues and messaging random girls...
    supermommyof2 supermommyof2 22-25, F 6 Responses Apr 6, 2014

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    I feel as if my heart is dying,

    I gave it to you to hold and protect. For a while it rested peaceful , full of love and life No longer does it rest with you no longer is it safe or with full of life. You tore a hole into my heart where the rest peacefulness safety and life have all run out. I can't turn off...
    AngeleyesUponU AngeleyesUponU 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 24, 2015

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    Why do I even try anymore?

    My mom and dad made it clear to me tonight that they hate me and want nothing to do with me. I am fine with that too. They love my siblings way more than me also. They think that I am seeking attention and I am not. They scream at me ever night that all I do is give them...
    Katier32 Katier32 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 26, 2013

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    I don't know if people actually realize how

    much their words hurt me. I hate when someone tells me " oh you're alright" no I'm not alright dumbass I'm dying inside and you don't even give a ****! You only care about yourself. And the ones who put me through this are my friends so it hurts because they know what bothers me...
    mikaylahoguexo mikaylahoguexo 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2014

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    It's slowly it's painful

    and it's true
    Sw33love Sw33love 18-21, M Apr 6, 2015

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    Anger comes to those

    who fear. Rage come to those who leer. What is fear if or escape? What is life but endless tape. Restrictions and boundaries lash you in. Folding you will so very thin, light fade as darkness rises, the fates muse as the anger rises. Death to all who hated me. Death to all who...
    emowulf emowulf 18-21, M Jun 23, 2014

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    Being alive is numbing me from the inside out.

    Feeling happy is temporary and so is life. Love is momentary, a fleeting experience that has lost its thrill because I know how it will end. Each day becomes blurred and I feel so empty I have to convince myself that I do exist. Sometimes I feel as though people misinterpret...
    Ceecham Ceecham 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 22, 2015

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    I'm falling apart now,

    my love told me recently she isn't inlove with me ..we are not together ..im having a really hard time with her acting so .. Its been right at 10 years now , we have 3 children.. This is just after I lost my job late December, and then was in an accident which totaled the car...
    mattdw mattdw 26-30, M Jan 21

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    No matter how many times a day I feel "happy" I

    am simultaneously rotting in the inside.
    nonamerr nonamerr 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 17, 2015

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    Let me tell you about a girl

    that I used to be, Same name same face but a different me, She didn't know what she was thinking, Didn't know her world was sinking, Had her dreams written on a paper in her hand, Held on tight but she didn't understand, The love and hurt that she's replacing, All the past that...
    ProSolitude ProSolitude 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2014

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    I want to die. I have no one there

    for me and no where to go
    walkinwonder walkinwonder 18-21, F 1 Response