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I Am Dying On the Inside

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    I haven't eaten in 3 days.

    Because I am so depressed and I have no energy. I cannot eat when I am not happy
    capecodlovin capecodlovin 18-21, F 2 Responses May 7

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    Everyday I wake up I feel a part of me dies,

    I die each day, and noone cares, now I reached to the point where I don't care about anything or anyone, people just hurt me, I don't want to hear their voice, I don't wanna feel their glances, I just want to be left alone in the darkness, only me and my thoughts, me with my...
    catxfreak catxfreak 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 4

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    I want to run away to an island were only nice

    people go ppl who don't hurt other ppl feelings. Or parents tht never listen to their child . I feel trapped I always ask myself why am I here . What's the point of me being here . Everyday it's the same thing over and over again. Why can't we all be happy not have those...
    Holla205 Holla205 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 25

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    most the time I don't

    even feel like a real person , I think I'm past the point of feeling like I'm dying on the inside. I'm already dead.
    thelostgirl25 thelostgirl25 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 25

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    I Don't Even Care Anymore

    Everyone, everything. Can all just **** off because I'm sick and tired and I don't even have the heart to care anymore. Guess everyone doesn't care enough about me..
    Patronusmagic Patronusmagic 18-21, F Nov 10, 2013

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    I am tired. I give up.

    Time to throw in the towel. I just cant try to feel like "normal" ppl do. Easier to disappear.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 5

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    Sometimes when I couldn't take it anymore,

    I think of being dead, but I don't want to be dead. I want to get away, but I don't want to leave my mother. I want to drink vodka, but either I couldn't buy one, or I feel guilty.
    jesssaying1997 jesssaying1997 16-17, F 1 Response May 6

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    On The Verge Of Losing It

    I have felt lonely and empty, but now its worse MUCH WORSE. I can't even give you a short version of the last 24 months of hell and emotional  roller coaster I've dealt with. But I can give you the short [one week events] that are leading me to my jump into insanity.I'm 24...
    thanatophobic thanatophobic 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 28, 2010

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    At this point I don't give a crap

    if I die in real life. My sanity left me and I can't take this life anymore. I just want it all to end. My uncle has a huge chance of dying right now, so the doctors say, because of cancer. My (step) grandma is doing her usual thing and yet again.
    SummertimeSadness15 SummertimeSadness15 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 12, 2013

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    All On Me

    Ever walked outside and Snow was on the Ground and you steped in it barefoot? Know the Chilling sensation you Get? That's me But ampliefied by Two-hundered Right now. Everything that I worked for. Everything that I tried so hard To prevent came Crashing down.. Watching him...
    CountryAngel CountryAngel 18-21 5 Responses Oct 28, 2008

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    I feel like I'm dying in the inside,

    but I know I'm already dead. I just want to finish myself off. There is no point to go on.
    lshidonil lshidonil 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    It Is My Own Doing Most Of The Time

    It really is my own fault I think. My insecurities, my lack of trust, my inability to open up to ppl I care about, all this crap in MY head. It is killing my slowly..................
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M Nov 13, 2009

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    Not Even The Meds Help

    I went to my psych the other day because i'm so depressed, lethargic and have no drive for anything.  he increased my ritalin.  it still doesn't keep me awake, i'm still depressed and i'm so mad at myself for it.   I can't clean.  I take care of my daughter...
    nightismycompanion nightismycompanion 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 4, 2010

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    I always get things taken away from me,

    from people to items. I don't understand because I don't have anything or anyone in the first place. I'm just tired of this, things and people have been taken out of life since I was little child. I don't even know how I still love and how I still get attached to things…
    OutOfSight23 OutOfSight23 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    I've been dealing with a cheating

    now fiancé for over a year. I found out in Dec 2013 he cheated on me with 7 different women while away at school while I was pregnant and taking care of his child. After forgiving and taking him back he is still on Craigslist looking up prosititues and messaging random girls...
    supermommyof2 supermommyof2 18-21, F 7 Responses Apr 6

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    Everything I do seems to be a mistake

    and everything seems pointless. I wish someone understood me
    FadedDreams222 FadedDreams222 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 1

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    I'm done I'm not dealing with his addiction no

    more.I deserve much more im a girl as a girl that I am I need lots of stuff witch he dnt realize he's literally blind! And he says that what ever my dessition is he's not staying in the streets as if that's what I'm tryna do I just want a better life for my self !!!!
    bluerose72911 bluerose72911 22-25, T Apr 6

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    Temporary Happiness

    Have you ever felt so happy that you start to feel like something is not right? Like there is a catch to the smile and you start feeling a negative vibe that suddenly changes everything? It seems like such feelings are impossible to keep for a long period of time because you...
    Intergalacticxo Intergalacticxo 16-17 1 Response Oct 6, 2012

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    Different Meanings

    As I sit here in the wee hours of the morning, I'm dying on the inside has multi comments for me. Number one I'm dying on the inside cause I don't know what the answer is. what the hell am I suppose to do? Number two. dying on the inside from all the pain. Number three Im trying...
    Calif39 Calif39 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 25, 2012

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    Lost. That is what I constantly feel.

    Everybody tells me that I should just die or kill myself, but why is it that when I try they always stop me. I cut. I love the constant burning sensation, the crimson red dotted line running down my arms,legs, or stomach as if it were a red carpet. I love it when I hurt myself...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    Anger comes to those

    who fear. Rage come to those who leer. What is fear if or escape? What is life but endless tape. Restrictions and boundaries lash you in. Folding you will so very thin, light fade as darkness rises, the fates muse as the anger rises. Death to all who hated me. Death to all who...
    emowulf emowulf 16-17, M Jun 23

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    I have no reason to live,

    everyday I feel a little worse, as if my soul was rotting.
    InsanelySaneGuy InsanelySaneGuy 18-21, M Jul 3

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    Not Dead Yet

    Empty and numb is how I feel most of the time. Not all the time, but mostly, yeah... numb. I get really angry sometimes though. No idea why, I just do. So I'm not dead yet but I'm definitely dying. I'm feeling pretty empty right now so sorry if this is a little subdued and...
    UnseenBlossom UnseenBlossom 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 25, 2008

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    I have been battling with the past of sexual

    abuse for the past 9 years. I don't know what to do about it. I've turned to alcohol, drugs, cutting and smoking. I've lost a lot of people because I haven't told anyone about it. Help me.
    Claryboo Claryboo 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    I really wish I never existed.

    not that I wS dead necessarily, just nonexistent. then I wouldn't have made any sort if emotional attachment to anyone or thing so I could leave this place. but then again if I was nonexistent, I wouldn't have a reason go fight the pain; there would be none. there would be no...
    aftersomeday aftersomeday 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 4

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    Dying Inside...

    Dying inside....There are people around me, who have just died. I have been told "it happens in three" it happened last year, I lost an Aunt, an uncle, and a Family friend who I had known growing up....Its happening again this year...I lost my cousin a few weeks ago...I lost a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 2, 2010

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    Why do I even try anymore?

    My mom and dad made it clear to me tonight that they hate me and want nothing to do with me. I am fine with that too. They love my siblings way more than me also. They think that I am seeking attention and I am not. They scream at me ever night that all I do is give them...
    Katier32 Katier32 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 26, 2013

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    When I was small, life seems like a straight

    line: finish school, uni, work, marry, child, die. Now that I am grown up, everything comes tumbling down. I was a high achiever in university: in workplace I feel like the stupidest, useless person in the room. I tried my best to be better: overtime, bringing products...
    Sosise Sosise 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 18

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    The Clock Is Ticking

    As you walk the path of life, the very light of your exsistance is dimming, what was once a warm days gentle caress, now feels harsh and troublesome, Strolling away from the innocence of youth, wisdom has been earned and accomplished. As you look back, back down the path...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    As you can tell by my username,

    I am everyday. I see him or a reminder of him and the love we shared, the spark. I try over and over again, to be done with him, because it hurts. I am killing myself trying to not love him, I can feel my feelings and emotions, my everything be crushed. I just want him to love...
    SummertimeSadness15 SummertimeSadness15 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    I think I may be in love with someone.

    ..but it's forbidden. I don't know what to do! I really like (it's almost love) this guy but and the same time I can't help but feel a little hate for him as well. Also, I don't know if he feels the same way about me as I do for him. We've both been through quite a bit...
    SimplyZero SimplyZero 13-15, F Apr 7

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    I'm actually dying on the inside.

    My digestive system is shutting down. I'm scared
    Yerbamate Yerbamate 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 2

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    whitneygarcia whitneygarcia 13-15, F Jul 8

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    I feel like I'm dead.

    .. I feel like a body just walking around… But it's not me.
    SimplyZero SimplyZero 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    Cry At My Funeral.

    If I die now would you even notice? Would you care? Would you cry at my funeral? Would you care at all? I wonder how you would feel. Do you care for me at all? Or are you just gonna use me? Like everyone else does. Are you different from the others? I wish I could say yes. You...
    Emo18 Emo18 18-21, F Jun 28, 2012

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    Terrifying

    No one knows just how badly things are going for me right now. A few weeks ago when I was home alone in the kitchen I was talking to some friends online and listening to music. Suddenly my mind went blank for about 5 seconds and when I opened my eyes I found myself holding the...
    RagingPheonix RagingPheonix 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2013

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    I can't do this anymore.

    . It's like I take two steps foreword and I'm knocked 5 steps back. I wish I could just drown myself right here in my bathtub, I've been trying for a few mins now, ad it's not working.. I can hear my heartbeat. I wish I could die already so nobody would have to watch me mess up...
    audralina09 audralina09 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 25

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    I like EP. I can talk

    when I feel like to. There are many friends in there. Most of them are very nice. I am appreciated they respond me. Some are very young. Some are old. They support you. Making you not so lonely anymore.
    jackieLu jackieLu 41-45, F Jul 8

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    I don't know if people actually realize how

    much their words hurt me. I hate when someone tells me " oh you're alright" no I'm not alright dumbass I'm dying inside and you don't even give a ****! You only care about yourself. And the ones who put me through this are my friends so it hurts because they know what bothers me...
    mikaylahoguexo mikaylahoguexo 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 25

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    Living is now dying 
Dying means your in hell

    
Hell means you’re home .
    sillygirl008 sillygirl008 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    Pretty much nothing special about me my heart

    hurts and I cry a lot often. I know people can relate but my pain is my own. I can handle physical pain. But the pain of my emotions hurts more than anything else.
    MPost85 MPost85 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 8

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    It's My Fault

    You know that feeling when you do some thing and not really thinking about it then it comes and haunt you every single moment??....no matter how hard you tried ...how desperately prayed to GOD to make it go away ....it still there .....I feel stupid .....I'm not dying from inside...
    Saly84 Saly84 26-30, F 5 Responses Oct 5, 2013

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    This Life Is Killing Me...

    Slowly but surely this life is killing me. Put down after put down. **** up after **** up. This life is to much to take sometimes. When it feels like you can't do anything right its hard to even want to be alive. When you try your hardest and it still isn't enough it just makes...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 31, 2011

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