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I Am Dying On the Inside

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    I have no reason to live,

    everyday I feel a little worse, as if my soul was rotting.
    HeterosexualTransexual HeterosexualTransexual 18-21, T Feb 28

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    I am tired. I give up.

    Time to throw in the towel. I just cant try to feel like "normal" ppl do. Easier to disappear.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 5, 2014

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    Behind my smile is a hurting heart,

    Behind my laugh I’m falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am, it isn’t me…
    ProSolitude ProSolitude 26-30, F Aug 24, 2014

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    I hate being in my own skin.

    I just wanna tear it all off. My skin itches, burns, and bleeds. It's begging me to tear myself from it. I can't stand living in my body. My body is my home. But I'd prefer not to have one.
    BeautyInBlack BeautyInBlack 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 10, 2014

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    Nothing and I mean nothing is ok.

    ..Why wont I just die cause this is what death feels like!
    TechnoZoom55 TechnoZoom55 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 17, 2014

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    Someone please just end it I'm too cowardly

    to I'm tired of life I'm just tired
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 20, 2014

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    Tomorrow, 2 pm, I will receive my.

    N-level results. Yayy :D
    XxSxarletxX XxSxarletxX 16-17, F Dec 16, 2014

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    As you can tell by my username,

    I am everyday. I see him or a reminder of him and the love we shared, the spark. I try over and over again, to be done with him, because it hurts. I am killing myself trying to not love him, I can feel my feelings and emotions, my everything be crushed. I just want him to love...
    summertimesadness16 summertimesadness16 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 22, 2014

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    I don't know if people actually realize how

    much their words hurt me. I hate when someone tells me " oh you're alright" no I'm not alright dumbass I'm dying inside and you don't even give a ****! You only care about yourself. And the ones who put me through this are my friends so it hurts because they know what bothers me...
    mikaylahoguexo mikaylahoguexo 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2014

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    I'm crying right now.

    I can't even...
    marissabrun803 marissabrun803 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 29, 2014

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    So here it goes: I married the woman of my

    dreams a year ago. I got my dream job not too long ago. And I love to run. While working a month ago I fell about 40 ft and shattered my pelvis, tailbone, and several ribs. I can't work at my dream job, I can't run anymore, and I found out my wife has been sexting her old...
    crono84 crono84 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    On The Verge Of Losing It

    I have felt lonely and empty, but now its worse MUCH WORSE. I can't even give you a short version of the last 24 months of hell and emotional  roller coaster I've dealt with. But I can give you the short [one week events] that are leading me to my jump into insanity.I'm 24...
    thanatophobic thanatophobic 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 28, 2010

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    I want to die. I have no one there

    for me and no where to go
    walkinwonder walkinwonder 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 11, 2014

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    We all are.... Before my granddad past away him

    self he said " from the second we are born we are dying from the second we live we slowly die"
    shaun7654 shaun7654 13-15, M 2 Responses Feb 22

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    I hate those happy couples

    who were sitting ahead of me on the train tonight. I had my sunglasses on, but I saw you, kissing and smiling at each other. Touching each others faces. I had that too, you know. What I would give to hold him again.
    Evilaugh Evilaugh 31-35, F Dec 22, 2014

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    Pretty much nothing special about me my heart

    hurts and I cry a lot often. I know people can relate but my pain is my own. I can handle physical pain. But the pain of my emotions hurts more than anything else.
    MPost85 MPost85 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 8, 2014

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    so what i'm gonna do

    now movies music books cleaning cooking walking anything besides meeting people today i haven't had good sleep lately horrible
    juryandrews juryandrews 31-35, F Jan 7

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    Anger comes to those

    who fear. Rage come to those who leer. What is fear if or escape? What is life but endless tape. Restrictions and boundaries lash you in. Folding you will so very thin, light fade as darkness rises, the fates muse as the anger rises. Death to all who hated me. Death to all who...
    emowulf emowulf 18-21, M Jun 23, 2014

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    I'm so down .everything in my life is going

    wrong and I'm feeling that i can do nothing about it .
    Bagh8 Bagh8 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 10

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    Let me tell you about a girl

    that I used to be, Same name same face but a different me, She didn't know what she was thinking, Didn't know her world was sinking, Had her dreams written on a paper in her hand, Held on tight but she didn't understand, The love and hurt that she's replacing, All the past that...
    ProSolitude ProSolitude 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2014

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    Dying Inside...

    Dying inside....There are people around me, who have just died. I have been told "it happens in three" it happened last year, I lost an Aunt, an uncle, and a Family friend who I had known growing up....Its happening again this year...I lost my cousin a few weeks ago...I lost a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 2, 2010

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    After a year in therapy,

    my psychiatrist said to me, 'Maybe life isn't for everyone.' -Larry Brown If you haven't noticed the scars on my hips, Or the fake smile on my lips, Or the forced laugh I've adopted, Or the way I don't care about things I used to love, Then don't you dare stand at my...
    BeautyInBlack BeautyInBlack 13-15, F Sep 24, 2014

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    I think I will be dying soon.

    not because of my actions , but life itself appears inching in that direction. hope has been vanishing for years and now it feels like there is not much to last. I have failed to pull myself up despite many attempts. just going to allow myself drift into oblivion.
    techopeless techopeless 31-35 2 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    Maybe we all are dying on the inside,

    we are just waiting for it to happen. Usually I do not write depressing things, but I just can't help it tonight.. I just wish that I could be a stronger person. I pull smiles through the day, and break down at the end. I just don't wish for others to see me cry. I always try to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Dec 23, 2014

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    This really nice guy I was talking to him

    for awhile and just the other day we talked about how we ready for a relationship. He's always my go to when I need help with something or I'm feeling sad and he told me I could talk to him if I was down. Well I had an argument w a friend and her bf and I told him about it and...
    mikaylahoguexo mikaylahoguexo 16-17, F Jul 31, 2014

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    i might be able to sound all cheerful

    and pretend that im happy but im not, i dont get how events of different magnitudes can effect a person so badly, i dont seem to understand why bad things happen to good people either. ive been asked to go to the doctors to see if i am depressed or whatever they call it, i dont...
    E5RedViper E5RedViper 18-21, M Dec 28, 2014

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    I've been dealing with a cheating

    now fiancé for over a year. I found out in Dec 2013 he cheated on me with 7 different women while away at school while I was pregnant and taking care of his child. After forgiving and taking him back he is still on Craigslist looking up prosititues and messaging random girls...
    supermommyof2 supermommyof2 18-21, F 6 Responses Apr 6, 2014

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    I need to find my path to life.

    ..I don't know how or what to do?
    josecarlosjr josecarlosjr 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 30, 2014

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    Sometimes when I couldn't take it anymore,

    I think of being dead, but I don't want to be dead. I want to get away, but I don't want to leave my mother. I want to drink vodka, but either I couldn't buy one, or I feel guilty.
    jesssaying1997 jesssaying1997 16-17, F 1 Response May 6, 2014

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    I really wish I never existed.

    not that I wS dead necessarily, just nonexistent. then I wouldn't have made any sort if emotional attachment to anyone or thing so I could leave this place. but then again if I was nonexistent, I wouldn't have a reason go fight the pain; there would be none. there would be no...
    aftersomeday aftersomeday 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 4, 2014

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    Not Dead Yet

    Empty and numb is how I feel most of the time. Not all the time, but mostly, yeah... numb. I get really angry sometimes though. No idea why, I just do. So I'm not dead yet but I'm definitely dying. I'm feeling pretty empty right now so sorry if this is a little subdued and...
    UnseenBlossom UnseenBlossom 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 25, 2008

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    I feel like I never got an actual chance at

    life. I love God and I know he's in control but why does everything have to be so hard for me? Why me? Why not anybody else other than me? I know its selfish to feel that way when ppl go through situations that are even worse than mine, but shouldn't I be important too? I...
    tisktisk tisktisk 22-25, F Feb 5

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    All On Me

    Ever walked outside and Snow was on the Ground and you steped in it barefoot? Know the Chilling sensation you Get? That's me But ampliefied by Two-hundered Right now. Everything that I worked for. Everything that I tried so hard To prevent came Crashing down.. Watching him...
    CountryAngel CountryAngel 18-21 5 Responses Oct 28, 2008

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    I'm actually dying on the inside.

    My digestive system is shutting down. I'm scared
    Yerbamate Yerbamate 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 2, 2014

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    No matter how many times a day I feel "happy" I

    am simultaneously rotting in the inside.
    nonamerr nonamerr 13-15, F Mar 17

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    It's funny how life works.

    .. I'm alive and well, but I'm not alive and well. The only thing keeping me alive right now is my music and my best friend. I'm slowly fading away. Just remember how vivid I used to be.
    cocoluvr99 cocoluvr99 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 8, 2014

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    I try not to let anything affect me I can't

    help the way I feel. I am dying inside...
    Changeallaround Changeallaround 22-25 Oct 19, 2014

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    Its funny i m seeing my self falling apart

    but i cant do anything !!
    ProSolitude ProSolitude 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 20, 2014

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    I feel like I'm dead.

    .. I feel like a body just walking around… But it's not me.
    SimplyZero SimplyZero 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 6, 2014

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    ProSolitude ProSolitude 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 29, 2014

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    i feel like every time i have flashback I die a

    little more on top of the little bit each day the memories already are taking from me.I wish i could tell but i cant id have no family any more if I did
    littleangelscared littleangelscared 18-21, F Mar 7

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    I know that I am because every time I put my

    hand on my chest (where my heart is suppose to be). I get nothing. It because of everything I keep inside is killing me and I am force to or something happened. I was have to keep quiet, always see couples make out, and always force to be alone.
    Unknown1047 Unknown1047 18-21, M Aug 28, 2014

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    Lost. That is what I constantly feel.

    Everybody tells me that I should just die or kill myself, but why is it that when I try they always stop me. I cut. I love the constant burning sensation, the crimson red dotted line running down my arms,legs, or stomach as if it were a red carpet. I love it when I hurt myself...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2014

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    Everyday, the body dies slowly,

    piece at a time. Sadness only seems to speed up the process. Once happy and naive, now shivering, facing the cold reality ahead. Crying is the only way for the pain to escape.
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 18

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    Why do I even try anymore?

    My mom and dad made it clear to me tonight that they hate me and want nothing to do with me. I am fine with that too. They love my siblings way more than me also. They think that I am seeking attention and I am not. They scream at me ever night that all I do is give them...
    Katier32 Katier32 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 26, 2013

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    100% of the time when I say I'm okay

    or fine I'm not I need someone, something, anything Or I just need to stop stop living my stupid life
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 16-17, M Aug 21, 2014

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    Everyday I wake up I feel a part of me dies,

    I die each day, and noone cares, now I reached to the point where I don't care about anything or anyone, people just hurt me, I don't want to hear their voice, I don't wanna feel their glances, I just want to be left alone in the darkness, only me and my thoughts, me with my...
    catxfreak catxfreak 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 4, 2014