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I Am Dying to Live

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    No Excuse

    I'm dying to live but have no excuse for why im not already. im young... no social circle... right now i have nothing going for me and i have this horrible sensation that its my fault. why cant i figure out how to let go and live? so easy.. even babies do it. whats missign here...
    Genabi Genabi 22-25 2 Responses May 10, 2009

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    Truth

    "The real illiterates of the 21st century will not be he or she who cannot read or write, but he or she who cannot learn, unlearn and re-learn ".
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix 26-30, M Feb 3, 2013

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    Been Told

    I've decided that I want to live so much that I am willing to do the things I do to live. I've decided that despite what others think of me... which sometimes isn't much.
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F 1 Response May 31, 2009

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    The Hows

    I pondered on this group for some time. I can not seem to get any words out. And while there is truth in it in varying levels, I think the greatest words to write about it have all been passed down to us. Faerie has two favourites...“Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 6, 2012

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    If Possible

    im only 13 so theres not much i can do on my own and im not willing to hurt anyone to get it i guess that would make sense since all i want and need is to help people in some huge way thats not only big but interesting i feel like screaming about how freaking boring life is, all...
    RukiaKuchiki RukiaKuchiki 13-15, F Aug 13, 2012

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    Still Want Ot Live

     I have breast cancer, metastatic, so terminal. I thought about what it is like to be dying.....Are people afraid of dying? I don't feel that I am afraid, but I am very sad, sad to leave this life without the experience of watching my children who are 8 and 6 grow up, not...
    jandrea4 jandrea4 41-45, F Dec 31, 2009

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    To Break Free

    To find the beauty and pleaure in everything. To smile at the simple things and appreciate each breath I take. I feel like Im dying to live...like all I could do is just stare out the window, wishing I was somewhere else, and cry tho I dont always know the reason why. To find me...
    ConLocura ConLocura 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 20, 2011

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    Unforgiven

    I have asked God to forgive me. He has answered my prayers. Why is it I can not forgive myself. If only God's forgiveness would wipe away memories that are forever unforgiving.
    sandy1063 sandy1063 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 10, 2013

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    I Am Dying To Live

    I have to kill myself just to feel alive
    JessiZombies JessiZombies 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 20, 2011

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    I'm Going To Live Now Cause I'm Dying To Live Now !!!!!!!!

    I want to live now and im dying to live again but I had a couple of detours and roadblocks on the way but I feel like im getting happier again back to normal !!!!!!!!!!
    PRETTYGIRLHATESTHEWORLD PRETTYGIRLHATESTHEWORLD 18-21, F Dec 5, 2010

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    I Just Want To Be Free

    To live without judgement. To live without fear. To live without worries. To live without pain To live without hatred To live without shame To live without sorrow To live without sadness Just to live
    sandy1063 sandy1063 46-50, F 6 Responses Jan 14, 2013

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    I'm Getting Old and Still Wanna Be a Star..

    I love stealing song lines to use as my titles :)  I have and have had so many dreams, I feel as if there's little chance of them coming true anymore.  I'm sure some dreams that I have still have a chance.  At the same time the biggest of them I'm afraid I'll have...
    BlasphemousAngel BlasphemousAngel 31-35, M 3 Responses May 14, 2009

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    Dying To Live

    Dying to live,Can't wait,Live's beginning again,Finally,After all this time,I'm on my way.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Mar 14, 2012

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    Live Like I Used To

    Love like i was never hurt and forget like i never remembered.
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 23, 2010

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    Unlearning = Philosophia.

    The Process of Cultural Conditioning In this exercise, you look at how people acquire their culture, how they learn all the behaviors that are regarded as right and wrong in their society. This process, known as cultural conditioning, goes on in all cultures, but the...
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix 26-30, M Feb 3, 2013

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    Stuck....

    I can't tell you the number of times I have been told to get a life.  It's a stupid expression if you ask me.  But a life is exactly what I need. For almost 20 years I hid -isolated myself -because of obesity and now that I am no longer obese I want to be out in...
    ohsolonelygirl ohsolonelygirl 41-45, F 1 Response May 9, 2009

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    i wont get my freedom

    until i graduate. 2 more years to go...
    petramullins petramullins 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Don't Know How

    When I was younger I had big dreams about my future. I was so hopful and optimistic. I thought life would be an endless party. What the hell happened!?! I have no life. I am turing 21 this year and I have no life. I am still young and yet I feel like it's all over. I am afraid...
    netgurl netgurl 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 19, 2009

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    I think I've always known that I wasn't meant to stay where I was born. And last year, I went on a school trip to Italy and France, and that only made the feeling of 'not-belonging...
    Pineapple3000 Pineapple3000 16-17, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    My heart is feeling broken because I'm so angry, so unforgiving and I can't let things go... I knew it was only a matter of time before it began taking over... I want to live in...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M Apr 7

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    I'm not afraid to die, but I'm afraid of the pain in dying. I don't want to live anymore because of the hatred I get from mostly everyone I'm around. Compliments are extremely rare...
    Lunakicker Lunakicker 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 8

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    Tons of fishes dead recently Everyday tv reporter say it's coming..it's coming Many people died when i was a kid i've seen many people are screaming and dying.. I was hungry,i...
    Juri0902 Juri0902 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    Just live while you can cause the day you can't live you just gotta keep smiling
    Kitty2413 Kitty2413 13-15, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    This note is about the Rugby Leagues game between Bulldogs and South Sydney on Good Friday we just had that created so much controversies. 1) First I am not a sport fan at all. I...
    JiaLee JiaLee 51-55, M Apr 7

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    Well, obviously I'd ask them about how long I have left to live. Then I'd spend as much time as I can doing the things I love so I'd be happy before I died. I'd also eat very...
    TheEnduringSunrise TheEnduringSunrise 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 11

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    I don't understand what is happening. I don't desire anything in this world. Literally. I am so numb and sad and depressed. I feel like maybe I'm not human. I don't enjoy people...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I feel like I'm dying. I somehow manage to go through my daily routines but I no longer feel like there's a reason for me breathe. I feel like I'm just existing, not living; and...
    ILoveWeights ILoveWeights 26-30, M Mar 29

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    Its not so much the idea of dying, but I actually enjoy them when they revolve around my suicide. Very intense and entertaining.
    kingbrizo kingbrizo 18-21 Apr 11

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    Help me.... I'm a potatoe and I'm dying
    philex2014 philex2014 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 15

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    That's right. I want to give up my life and live a new life, in a diffrent way to how I always have been. Now, I'm almost 21, and throughout my life. It has been destroyed, by my...
    OKPunk OKPunk 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm not sure why I feel that way. I mean, I have my ups and downs, successes and failures. I'm only human, after all. But it is a feeling I simply can't escape. I chose to strive...
    themanoflegends themanoflegends 26-30, M 3 Responses Apr 9

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    I am 22 and I was brainwashed into going to the local university which is okay ranked after being accepted into a much better school. My parents have brainwashed and controlled me...
    wfurlow2 wfurlow2 22-25, M Mar 27

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    If life is truly given to us just once and after that there's nothing only black emptiness in which our whole essence disappear.... Then shouldn't we use this gift of life wisely...
    Gelezinis Gelezinis 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 17

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    It's not much of a ghost story but... I know someone who's uncle lived in a small house only FEET away from the cemetery in the center of the next town over where I live. That...
    TheEnduringSunrise TheEnduringSunrise 18-21, F Mar 26

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    I made a Promise to God. 'If I live through this surgery I have renewed lease on life and I will use it if you still have use for me on this earth.' I lived. It was the scariest...
    michnn michnn 41-45, F Apr 11

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    I am planning on moving to another country that is more like home to me then where I am now. it is hard to explain but it is like a pull towards the direction of hardship yet...
    XeniaFedmov XeniaFedmov 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    its so hard living simple in this complicated world where you feel a thing is right and everyone else wanna make it wrong. We seek answers; why am living, who am I, why am I from...
    ojeezy ojeezy 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 15

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    i would love to live in the country. not the messed up part of the country where i live. I'd live in a little village in England.
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Hi everyone im 17 and live in illinois but i plan on moving to washington state and live in the woods somewhere close to a big river or lake. I want one to three people to join me...
    quintenpalmer quintenpalmer 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    I lived in Kenya for a year when I was 19. I miss it terribly and would do anything to go back. I felt more at home there than all the places I have ever been and or lived. I miss...
    CreatingChristi CreatingChristi 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    I like living alone, although i'm not entirely alone as I have 2 cats. I have always had to look after my Mum, Dad, and brother and it's good now that my brother is older he has...
    LinkinParkMuse LinkinParkMuse 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    I think I now must know why I get treated badly in the uk because I'm viewed as a bloody foreigner who shouldn't even be living in the uk and I shouldn't have any rights but I'm a...
    Soullesss Soullesss 31-35, F 4 Responses Mar 30

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    I think I now must know why I get treated badly in the uk because I'm viewed as a bloody foreigner who shouldn't even be living in the uk and I shouldn't have any rights but I'm a...