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I Am Dying to Live

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    No Excuse

    I'm dying to live but have no excuse for why im not already. im young... no social circle... right now i have nothing going for me and i have this horrible sensation that its my fault. why cant i figure out how to let go and live? so easy.. even babies do it. whats missign here...
    Genabi Genabi 22-25 2 Responses May 10, 2009

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    I Am Dying To Live

    I have to kill myself just to feel alive
    JessiZombies JessiZombies 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 20, 2011

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    Unforgiven

    I have asked God to forgive me. He has answered my prayers. Why is it I can not forgive myself. If only God's forgiveness would wipe away memories that are forever unforgiving.
    sandy1063 sandy1063 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 10, 2013

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    Unlearning = Philosophia.

    The Process of Cultural Conditioning In this exercise, you look at how people acquire their culture, how they learn all the behaviors that are regarded as right and wrong in their society. This process, known as cultural conditioning, goes on in all cultures, but the...
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix 26-30, M Feb 3, 2013

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    I'm Getting Old and Still Wanna Be a Star..

    I love stealing song lines to use as my titles :)  I have and have had so many dreams, I feel as if there's little chance of them coming true anymore.  I'm sure some dreams that I have still have a chance.  At the same time the biggest of them I'm afraid I'll have...
    BlasphemousAngel BlasphemousAngel 31-35, M 3 Responses May 14, 2009

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    If Possible

    im only 13 so theres not much i can do on my own and im not willing to hurt anyone to get it i guess that would make sense since all i want and need is to help people in some huge way thats not only big but interesting i feel like screaming about how freaking boring life is, all...
    RukiaKuchiki RukiaKuchiki 13-15, F Aug 13, 2012

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    To Break Free

    To find the beauty and pleaure in everything. To smile at the simple things and appreciate each breath I take. I feel like Im dying to live...like all I could do is just stare out the window, wishing I was somewhere else, and cry tho I dont always know the reason why. To find me...
    PorcelainChinaDoll PorcelainChinaDoll 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 20, 2011

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    I Just Want To Be Free

    To live without judgement. To live without fear. To live without worries. To live without pain To live without hatred To live without shame To live without sorrow To live without sadness Just to live
    sandy1063 sandy1063 46-50, F 6 Responses Jan 14, 2013

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    Dying To Live

    Dying to live,Can't wait,Live's beginning again,Finally,After all this time,I'm on my way.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Mar 14, 2012

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    Been Told

    I've decided that I want to live so much that I am willing to do the things I do to live. I've decided that despite what others think of me... which sometimes isn't much.
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F 1 Response May 31, 2009

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    Truth

    "The real illiterates of the 21st century will not be he or she who cannot read or write, but he or she who cannot learn, unlearn and re-learn ".
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix 26-30, M Feb 3, 2013

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    Still Want Ot Live

     I have breast cancer, metastatic, so terminal. I thought about what it is like to be dying.....Are people afraid of dying? I don't feel that I am afraid, but I am very sad, sad to leave this life without the experience of watching my children who are 8 and 6 grow up, not...
    jandrea4 jandrea4 41-45, F Dec 31, 2009

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    The Hows

    I pondered on this group for some time. I can not seem to get any words out. And while there is truth in it in varying levels, I think the greatest words to write about it have all been passed down to us. Faerie has two favourites...“Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 6, 2012

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    I'm Going To Live Now Cause I'm Dying To Live Now !!!!!!!!

    I want to live now and im dying to live again but I had a couple of detours and roadblocks on the way but I feel like im getting happier again back to normal !!!!!!!!!!
    PRETTYGIRLHATESTHEWORLD PRETTYGIRLHATESTHEWORLD 18-21, F Dec 5, 2010

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    Don't Know How

    When I was younger I had big dreams about my future. I was so hopful and optimistic. I thought life would be an endless party. What the hell happened!?! I have no life. I am turing 21 this year and I have no life. I am still young and yet I feel like it's all over. I am afraid...
    netgurl netgurl 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 19, 2009

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    Live Like I Used To

    Love like i was never hurt and forget like i never remembered.
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 23, 2010

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    Stuck....

    I can't tell you the number of times I have been told to get a life.  It's a stupid expression if you ask me.  But a life is exactly what I need. For almost 20 years I hid -isolated myself -because of obesity and now that I am no longer obese I want to be out in...
    ohsolonelygirl ohsolonelygirl 41-45, F 1 Response May 9, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    I went on holiday to spend over a week with my dad. last night after complaining about chest pains in his chest he woke me up in the middle of the night and told me to call my nan...
    pikalink pikalink 13-15, F Aug 3

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    Ever since I was seven years old I would plan out my own suicide and/or suicide attempts. I'm 14 now and when I was younger I'd always tell myself that I'd never live to see the...
    XSimplyXSuicideX XSimplyXSuicideX 13-15, F 3 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I don't have anyone I could talk to, but I am dying for sex. I was sex deprived as a kid, because my parents controlled my life too much. They consider sex as a kid of sin. In the...
    pblack pblack 41-45, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    Yep, I live with my mum....I'm unemployed and it's so difficult to find a job. I'm on welfare and buy my own food and when I have spare money I give that to my mum as a bit of rent...
    Dreamprojector Dreamprojector 18-21, F 42 mins ago

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    Yes I do, I love people but too much is just too much, they say sharing is caring but I don't firmly believe this not with how many people there are. I am more of an intimate...
    christfukk christfukk 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 18

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    People say that a few people care and the rest are just curious. No one cares and everyone else is curious. I hate this place so much. No one cares, AT ALL. THEY ACT LIKE THEY DO...
    Atraxiella Atraxiella 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 7

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    Isn't everybody, somehow, afraid of dying alone? Nobody remembering you or your life story? I'm not really afraid of how I die.. it's just dying with out anyone there..
    SilverEyedWolf SilverEyedWolf 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    I'm Terrified Of Dying . I Have Had Anxiety over this . Thinking about dying makes me question why I'm here I. The first place if I'm just going to die . I'm scared . What if I don...
    MbVG MbVG 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    Well, there was one time our class was watching a documentary of WW2 and we saw countless people dying, of course, I felt bad but when I saw what they did to the animals what went...
    headphoneactress headphoneactress 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I am not the type to speak aloud to someone about this issue, this is more space for me to vent than anything else. I have been suffering for bulimia for the last 8 years, and it...
    Yourbaaaby Yourbaaaby 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 7

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    Untouchable I have somehow become untouchable, and it’s like a slow death. In order to thrive, human beings need to be touched in a nurturing way. Studies have shown that...
    CherishMe2 CherishMe2 51-55, F 22 Responses Aug 10

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    Up early this morning, everything I needed to do is done... Ready to take your breath away... http://youtu.be/7qrRzNidzIc "I Will Not Bow" Fall Now the dark begins to rise...
    JimD911 JimD911 41-45, M Aug 10

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    I passed my HCA exam yesterday and am going to go on and do the NAC schooling so I can support myself financially. He has been the main and often sole breadwinner which is a big...
    bluegreenseascape bluegreenseascape 46-50, F 6 Responses Aug 12

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    I spent millions of years in the world of inorganic things as a star, as a rock...Then I died and became a plant-Forgetting my former existence because of its otherness, then I...
    marklovescoffee marklovescoffee 46-50, M 1 Response Aug 15

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    So last night my sister and her beau were here spending the night from out of town (had a funeral to go to.) We were chatting, and H says he "uglified" himself to try to get rid of...
    Harley53 Harley53 56-60, F 12 Responses Aug 16

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    Three years my bf tells me be patient... I'm dying inside...
    featherbreeze79 featherbreeze79 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 16

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    Bear with me because this may seem off topic, but it isn't. I've been recently thinking about death. Yesterday, my post sexless marriage lover had to put his beloved dog of 14...
    Mettamomma Mettamomma 61-65, F 13 Responses Aug 21

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    As I sit here in my bed, reminiscing to those summer days I've spent at Berkeley. I wonder, if I'll ever see you again. From the first time I saw you, when you came to class, to my...
    chennerz chennerz 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    There's a lot of things my hardcore Christian mother wouldn't approve of like getting tattoos, piercing and dying my hair.
    SleepyShyPuppy SleepyShyPuppy 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    Mummy I miss you so much I cant forget your face when I was mourning over your dead body and tears were not droppping but I was mourning.i wish I could find that lap where I could...
    jeeney jeeney 31-35, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    How do you "think" he is dying? Your dog is either dead as hell or jumping around in your flower garden. There is no in between. Bill: How is your dog doing? Steve: I think he...
    bigbacon12 bigbacon12 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 4

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    I'm allows going down hill and no one cares that I'm dying
    Supershoes24 Supershoes24 22-25, M a week ago

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    I've always been distant from my family. I don't really have any siblings. I worry that if I don't get married soon, any hopes of it being genuine will be for naught. What if I...
    snwyvern snwyvern 31-35, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    We are not truly free. We live in a world full of restrictions and prohibitions. We pay to exist. How can one be truly happy living this way. Armed with this new found realisation...
    Wildfocus Wildfocus 31-35, M 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    I Need a Liver For My Dad My Daddy was recently diagnosed with hepatitis B, this was found at a very late stage in the disease. Only a few months later he developed full-on...
    asvprasadrao asvprasadrao 26-30, M Aug 3

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    Thanks to all the great feedback I’ve been getting here, I’ve been able to process a lot of what’s going on in my marriage. Most of it is simply about clarity rather than any...
    AshInOakland AshInOakland 41-45, M 6 Responses Aug 14

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    So this can be the time for big fight Chelsea vs Bercelona because the Uefa Champions League is now on last 4 stage. Right here are some useful info like Chelsea vs Bercelona...
    fifacion fifacion 22-25, M Aug 21

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    $7 GP Co-Payment for GP visits........ This morning on the News.com.au site, there is a commentary (without anyone's name as the author so I guess it is from News corp itself...
    jiaberg jiaberg 51-55, M 6 days ago

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    Time to time again I think about killing myself but these are the reasons I don't kill myself. Now when people think about this they might answer with "I want to live because my...
    bigbacon12 bigbacon12 26-30, M Aug 3

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    1 never screw over your partner. 2 always wear gloves at a crime scene. 3 never believe what your told double check. 4 the best way to keep a secret keep it to yourself the second...
    Hime9908 Hime9908 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 15

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    The courage to do this would be superhuman. The thing is there are people that pull this off.Then there are people in countries that live like this knowing no other way to live...
    bignatbreastluver bignatbreastluver 46-50, M Aug 2

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    Talking a bit with an EP friend earlier got me really thinking about things a bit. Android it just seems so unfair that I have to deal with the physical damage my body has gone...
    TheWomanYouHate TheWomanYouHate 31-35, F Aug 18

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