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I Am Dying to Live

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    Unlearning = Philosophia.

    The Process of Cultural Conditioning In this exercise, you look at how people acquire their culture, how they learn all the behaviors that are regarded as right and wrong in their society. This process, known as cultural conditioning, goes on in all cultures, but the...
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix 26-30, M Feb 3, 2013

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    If Possible

    im only 13 so theres not much i can do on my own and im not willing to hurt anyone to get it i guess that would make sense since all i want and need is to help people in some huge way thats not only big but interesting i feel like screaming about how freaking boring life is, all...
    RukiaKuchiki RukiaKuchiki 13-15, F Aug 13, 2012

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    Unforgiven

    I have asked God to forgive me. He has answered my prayers. Why is it I can not forgive myself. If only God's forgiveness would wipe away memories that are forever unforgiving.
    sandy1063 sandy1063 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 10, 2013

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    I'm Going To Live Now Cause I'm Dying To Live Now !!!!!!!!

    I want to live now and im dying to live again but I had a couple of detours and roadblocks on the way but I feel like im getting happier again back to normal !!!!!!!!!!
    PRETTYGIRLHATESTHEWORLD PRETTYGIRLHATESTHEWORLD 18-21, F Dec 5, 2010

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    No Excuse

    I'm dying to live but have no excuse for why im not already. im young... no social circle... right now i have nothing going for me and i have this horrible sensation that its my fault. why cant i figure out how to let go and live? so easy.. even babies do it. whats missign here...
    Genabi Genabi 22-25 2 Responses May 10, 2009

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    The Hows

    I pondered on this group for some time. I can not seem to get any words out. And while there is truth in it in varying levels, I think the greatest words to write about it have all been passed down to us. Faerie has two favourites...“Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 6, 2012

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    To Break Free

    To find the beauty and pleaure in everything. To smile at the simple things and appreciate each breath I take. I feel like Im dying to live...like all I could do is just stare out the window, wishing I was somewhere else, and cry tho I dont always know the reason why. To find me...
    ConLocura ConLocura 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 20, 2011

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    Truth

    "The real illiterates of the 21st century will not be he or she who cannot read or write, but he or she who cannot learn, unlearn and re-learn ".
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix 26-30, M Feb 3, 2013

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    Don't Know How

    When I was younger I had big dreams about my future. I was so hopful and optimistic. I thought life would be an endless party. What the hell happened!?! I have no life. I am turing 21 this year and I have no life. I am still young and yet I feel like it's all over. I am afraid...
    netgurl netgurl 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 19, 2009

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    Still Want Ot Live

     I have breast cancer, metastatic, so terminal. I thought about what it is like to be dying.....Are people afraid of dying? I don't feel that I am afraid, but I am very sad, sad to leave this life without the experience of watching my children who are 8 and 6 grow up, not...
    jandrea4 jandrea4 41-45, F Dec 31, 2009

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    I Just Want To Be Free

    To live without judgement. To live without fear. To live without worries. To live without pain To live without hatred To live without shame To live without sorrow To live without sadness Just to live
    sandy1063 sandy1063 46-50, F 6 Responses Jan 14, 2013

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    I Am Dying To Live

    I have to kill myself just to feel alive
    JessiZombies JessiZombies 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 20, 2011

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    Live Like I Used To

    Love like i was never hurt and forget like i never remembered.
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 23, 2010

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    Stuck....

    I can't tell you the number of times I have been told to get a life.  It's a stupid expression if you ask me.  But a life is exactly what I need. For almost 20 years I hid -isolated myself -because of obesity and now that I am no longer obese I want to be out in...
    ohsolonelygirl ohsolonelygirl 41-45, F 1 Response May 9, 2009

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    Been Told

    I've decided that I want to live so much that I am willing to do the things I do to live. I've decided that despite what others think of me... which sometimes isn't much.
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F 1 Response May 31, 2009

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    I'm Getting Old and Still Wanna Be a Star..

    I love stealing song lines to use as my titles :)  I have and have had so many dreams, I feel as if there's little chance of them coming true anymore.  I'm sure some dreams that I have still have a chance.  At the same time the biggest of them I'm afraid I'll have...
    BlasphemousAngel BlasphemousAngel 31-35, M 3 Responses May 14, 2009

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    Dying To Live

    Dying to live,Can't wait,Live's beginning again,Finally,After all this time,I'm on my way.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Mar 14, 2012

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    So I spoke to my brother's wife for over an hour yesterday to get some answers on what to expect in the eventuality of H's death. She has worked with estate planning & the probate...
    Harley53 Harley53 56-60, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    she lives 5,000 miles away, but she is depressed and dying inside, and i cant afford to go and help her
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    Here's something else to ponder as you consider what to do about your sexless marriage. According to the chaplain that wrote this essay, what dying people tell him they'll miss...
    Mettamomma Mettamomma 61-65, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Words can't explain how confused, or scared I am of dying, once we die, we are gone. Forever. Will we even remember anything? Probably not. Because we won't be anything. A piece of...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 9

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    Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good. When in doubt, just take the next small step. Life is too short – enjoy it. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your...
    fiestychica fiestychica 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 25

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    It's hard for me right now... i always feel out of place. All my life i was always mommys boy... they always laugh at me, from school even to my new job. People make groups and i...
    Potchii Potchii 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    It is what it is. By the end of my first marriage, I wasnt having sex with my wife. Not because I didnt want to, I just couldnt. I was not attracted to her anymore. I dont mean...
    RobertCarlos RobertCarlos 46-50, M 7 Responses 2 days ago

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    My hair is now black...I have wanted it black for years and was never allowed because my father didn't like it...Now I am 18 and do not live with my father so I can make it...
    BabyFox1995 BabyFox1995 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I am so lonely I don't have anyone I can connect with in my life. I can't blame anyone but myself for being in such a lonely state because I have poor social skills I cant hold a...
    KnowMeOO KnowMeOO 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    The tide is high but I'm holding on I'm gonna be your number one I'm not the kind of girl who gives up just like that Oh no ..................... Song by Blondie that my brain...
    Harley53 Harley53 56-60, F 6 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I'm Sooo dying to do so. I want to try the double head *****. Omgggg
    curiouschick09 curiouschick09 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 28

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    Everyone thinks I'm such a happy person, but I'm not. I'm dying inside and falling apart. God please hear my call. I am afraid for me.
    jazzsinger1991 jazzsinger1991 22-25, F Oct 1

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    Im obsessed with dying my hair! Iv dyed it dark brown, brown, light brown, blond, ombre, dark red, red, dark purple, blue, black, yeahhh im only 14 aswell :)
    LLAMAAAA LLAMAAAA 13-15, F Oct 1

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    I started smoking ciggies at 14-30 now. I'm not dying. Went through a phase when I was 22-every packet was my 'last' packet. Have come to the conclusion (unless there ever is a...
    cherryjar cherryjar 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 4

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    I always imagine my sister or mom or someone in my family dying. I picture them either in a coma or car accident or something traumatizing. Idk why but those are just random...
    destiny0710 destiny0710 18-21, F Oct 8

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    I love my wife(Don't judge her too harshly, she isn't here to defend her self after all) but more and more its becoming love in the abstract because I am finding that our...
    whowantstoknow97 whowantstoknow97 31-35, M 3 Responses Oct 13

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    The first I was aware of how close I came to dying I was 13. I had gone backpacking in New Hampshire with my parents and their hiking club. When we got to the top of the mountian...
    ubermaus ubermaus 41-45, M a week ago

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    I am afraid that it's becoming my grandmothers time to go. I'm so far away from her and when my grandpa was dying I couldn't be there. I honestly can't imaging a life without my...
    chanel0408 chanel0408 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I try not to let anything affect me I can't help the way I feel. I am dying inside...
    Changeallaround Changeallaround 22-25 1 day ago

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    The thought of taking my own life has crossed my mind for years. There isn't a day that goes by that it doesn't. Of course I'm writing this so I haven't, and there are several...
    garfield82 garfield82 31-35, M 12 hrs ago

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    For as long as I remember, My earliest memory was flying or floating through the sky. I have a strong memory of being "guided" through a mist by "someone" and flying through the...
    fliconmigo fliconmigo 41-45, F Oct 6

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    I used to live in Brighton in the past I lived there possibly from (2000/2008) I fell in love with the city and thought that it was the most attractive and liveable city in the uk...
    lostsouluk lostsouluk 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 11

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    Milk Thistle’s therapeutic benefits have been known since ancient times, in fact, as far back as the 4th Century B.C! Generations relied on this gentle, natural, but most...
    pyeito pyeito 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 25

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    sometimes i wish i could just die with peace i am sick of this life you name it i have lost everything most of dreams get shattered recently heart broke i lost in love too too be...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 1

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    I live for God because he has a job for me to do and I will do his will. I live for Jesus because he died for me so no I will live for him. I live for my angel because she have me...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Oct 1

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    Live and let live. Live your life and let others live theirs the way they want.
    LikeAPrayer LikeAPrayer 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    I never wanted to live... I'm just causing problems for everybody. I can't do anything right. I'm a failure. Now I know you don't think I can't do anything right but I'm freaking...
    alilight alilight 13-15, F 11 Responses a week ago

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    No Regrets - "Nothing is certain, except death and taxes." - Benjamin Franklin - We all know when our taxes are due, but none of us know when we will die. We could live to the...
    CherishMe2 CherishMe2 51-55, F 14 Responses 4 days ago

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    There’s a number of reasons why people live in sexless marriages, every married couple’s situation is different; you could talk to fifteen different couples and hear fifteen...
    miryam57 miryam57 56-60, F 7 Responses 3 days ago

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