I Am Embarrassed and Ashamed of Who I Am As a Person

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    I'm Always The Last In Line..

    I feel like everybody is surpassing me. I feel like I am intellectually behind eveyone my age. I'm not up to par. It's sad how far behind I am .  I just feel like I should be put into a whole until the end of time.  
    R0B1N R0B1N
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 2, 2011

    I'm a very weak, scared,

    submissive, and extremely sensitive person. I'm someone who says "thank you" and "I'm sorry" way more often than I need to; not just because I want to be polite, but because I have this weird feeling of needing to be apologetic for who I am. I constantly feel like a burden to...
    canvascat canvascat
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 23, 2015

    Wish I Were Different

    I am very shy and have always disliked that about me and have always wanted to change. This year I am in a class with only seven other students, so my shyness is especially noticeable. Everyday I dread going to that class and can't wait for it to end when I'm there. Everywhere...
    flyingintherain flyingintherain
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 15, 2008

    So Ashamed,also Embarrassed..

    I've done so many things that I am afraid of looking back and once I do,I try to commit suicide. I've done so many attractive and disgusting things...But,I was young... I'm so embarrassed to be even telling you this now.but I feel I need to tell some one. I have told my best...
    AshamedStuff AshamedStuff
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Jul 3, 2012

    Coca cola and we call it coke?

    Something is wrong
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 4, 2015
    MrIndeed MrIndeed
    16-17, M
    Oct 28, 2014

    so just because i smoked weed

    and watched **** in my younger years my life is already over at 28!! i am so weird i cant talk to anyone at work i cant talk with my family i cant enjoy sex or being with a partner What the hell can i do i wish i could just go back! to make it worse girls think im sexy but i...
    pleasehelpme27 pleasehelpme27
    26-30, M
    Mar 18, 2015

    Self Attainment

    Reconsidering the tremendous weight placed on other people's opinion of me. I become more free. I switch my center of gravity around. It makes more sense this way, I become more free. Hate me and disrespect me, I beg of you to mock me infront of me and behind my back...
    multiplefailures multiplefailures
    18-21
    Apr 15, 2010

    I keep getting flashbacks of what I have done

    in my past which are embarrassing and makes me ashamed of myself. The thoughts jump into my head randomly and it's horrible :(
    Kateyx Kateyx
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Dec 22, 2013

    -I have several F's -I've spent thousands of

    dollars on a game in impulse -Because of me, my dad and mom don't live together and he comes on weekends. -they love eachother, but we didn't move there because of me -I haven't done anything good in my life -there's never been anyone as wretched as me in my extended family -I'm...
    Ssa39 Ssa39
    16-17, M
    1 Response Apr 23, 2015

    Loud

    I am a loud person.  At least once every few weeks I am told this usually in a condescending voice.  "you're so loud" uh "you are so rude".  I am tired of saying sorry for being loud.  I don't have a hearing problem - just loud.  Guess what I ain't changing, however I always...
    gurucarcar gurucarcar
    41-45
    2 Responses May 8, 2012

    Wish I Could Undo All the Stupid Things I've Done...

    Things I've done in my past make me feel so ashamed and embarrassed I find it hard to get past them and get on with my life. When i meet someone who may have heard about something i've done in my past i'm automatically not myself. That leads me to feeling embarrassed about not...
    selfdiagnosed selfdiagnosed
    22-25, F
    19 Responses Sep 10, 2009

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