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I Am Embarrassed and Ashamed of Who I Am As a Person

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 127 People

    Self Attainment

    Reconsidering the tremendous weight placed on other people's opinion of me. I become more free. I switch my center of gravity around. It makes more sense this way, I become more free. Hate me and disrespect me, I beg of you to mock me infront of me and behind my back...
    multiplefailures multiplefailures 18-21 Apr 15, 2010

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    Wish I Were Different

    I am very shy and have always disliked that about me and have always wanted to change. This year I am in a class with only seven other students, so my shyness is especially noticeable. Everyday I dread going to that class and can't wait for it to end when I'm there. Everywhere...
    flyingintherain flyingintherain 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 15, 2008

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    I feel like all I do is disappoint God.

    I'm just a huge mistake.
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 13

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    I'm Always The Last In Line..

    I feel like everybody is surpassing me. I feel like I am intellectually behind eveyone my age. I'm not up to par. It's sad how far behind I am .  I just feel like I should be put into a whole until the end of time.  
    R0B1N R0B1N 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 2, 2011

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    I keep getting flashbacks of what I have done

    in my past which are embarrassing and makes me ashamed of myself. The thoughts jump into my head randomly and it's horrible :(
    Kateyx Kateyx 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    Loud

    I am a loud person.  At least once every few weeks I am told this usually in a condescending voice.  "you're so loud" uh "you are so rude".  I am tired of saying sorry for being loud.  I don't have a hearing problem - just loud.  Guess what I ain't changing, however I always...
    gurucarcar gurucarcar 41-45 1 Response May 8, 2012

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    Wish I Could Undo All the Stupid Things I've Done...

    Things I've done in my past make me feel so ashamed and embarrassed I find it hard to get past them and get on with my life. When i meet someone who may have heard about something i've done in my past i'm automatically not myself. That leads me to feeling embarrassed about not...
    selfdiagnosed selfdiagnosed 22-25, F 17 Responses Sep 10, 2009

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    So Ashamed,also Embarrassed..

    I've done so many things that I am afraid of looking back and once I do,I try to commit suicide. I've done so many attractive and disgusting things...But,I was young... I'm so embarrassed to be even telling you this now.but I feel I need to tell some one. I have told my best...
    AshamedStuff AshamedStuff 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    As I continue on with my existence I came across a few people that I found interesting. One in particular stood out from the rest however. She is a married young and pretty woman...
    InTheShadowsAgain InTheShadowsAgain 41-45, M 1 hr ago

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    My heart is aching. My boyfriend was sentenced to 3 years in Prison. They took him away from me yesterday. I'm not sure how to react, where to turn. Our story is a bit different...
    nukeemhigh nukeemhigh 22-25, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Jay: Son, I have never been so ashamed... Customer: Boo! Man: Jerk! Restaurateur: Ignore them Mr Sherman, I am still your friend. Jay: Thanks (walks to his table) Restaurateur...
    dontcareforlabels dontcareforlabels 41-45, M 1 Response Sep 25

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    I fill my emptiness with distractions, it used to be adult films the buying DVDs the shopping spree at the bookstores. I know it's not normal to be depressed and also thinking...
    Concerto Concerto 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 15

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    I recently posted a picture on my ig and someone that I admire commented rudely on it 😪 immediately took it down and feel ashamed and embarrassed :(
    ammmiiiiiiii ammmiiiiiiii 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I've been holding this in for quiet sometime, But I have lesbian thoughts. At one point in my life I really thought I was lesbian, but I have never had a girl on girl experience, I...
    UnkmeptGirl000 UnkmeptGirl000 16-17, F 7 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    My house needs many repairs and lots of cleaning. Considering im 15 , have school , friends, and a boyfriend to try to balance out its a lot on me to try to make time to clean it...
    Rosiexoxox Rosiexoxox 13-15, F Oct 1

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    I used to be open to people, tell them about my life. I used to laugh and love. I used to have friends and be in contact with them. I used to be full of life and be ashamed of...
    BlaBla01 BlaBla01 16-17, F 6 Responses Oct 17

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    There's a word for people like me in Chinese it's called "Fan Jian" it's a really rude word. The meaning means that from what I understand is a person who'll notice others only...
    Concerto Concerto 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 16

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    I'm ashamed that I used to be so whiny and a complainer. I used to be dramatic and I cut myself. I feel so stupid for acting that way in school. My family was poor, I was bullied...
    tinywoman tinywoman 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 6

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    I am in a really bad place at the moment, I can't believe I have come this far in life and ended up with nothing but debt. I have worked full time since I left school years ago, I...
    Thisstupidlife Thisstupidlife 46-50, F Oct 10

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    I have been doing fitness competitions for the past 7 years, so this weekend I got a deep tissue sports massage since my muscles have been really sore of late. The masseuse draped...
    chizzler8 chizzler8 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 13

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    Back in the 1960s and 1970s, many people who were embarrassed to purchase condoms in a local drugstore ordered their condoms and spermicides by mail. There were adverts in the...
    Ted57a Ted57a 61-65, M Oct 13

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    I think all I do anymore is just annoy people with my problems... I think I'm heartbroken actually... It feels like my heart is getting crushed. I've been going to counseling...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M Oct 15

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    As a child i was brought up to be a loyal person to my family.To look after my siblings, and most importantly to stick together. And i look at our nation as my family. So, to it i...
    ambull1 ambull1 36-40, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    People tell me I'm not bad. I try to warn them but they never listen. I hide it naturally my mean behavior. Plus I don't socialize much since I'm homeschooled and iv currently...
    chaoshead chaoshead 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 11

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    i get embarrassed about it sometimes because i cry all the time if anything bad happens or if people are mean or even if i just hear about something sad
    teechme teechme 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 27

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    He is always hiding me. He doesn't want to spend time with my family or friends. He specially keeps me a secret to his family. Everything happened ever since my grandmother passed...
    LittlePointeShoes LittlePointeShoes 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 28

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    There's suppose to be a wedding on the 25th and I wish it wasn't happening. The last few months I have had the feeling that I wasn't ready to married so I was thinking since we...
    wantingtobehappy84 wantingtobehappy84 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 29

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    Some crazy times I feel bored and think dirty, I target my classmates with their shirts tucked out. I would strike them by quickly zipping my hands into their shirt rubbing their...
    TetraZL TetraZL 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 4

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    Last night, my buddies and I went to a sorority party. After a few drinks, we played Truth or Dare. Unfortunately, I was dared to ink a slutty symbol on my back. While I was...
    DaisyDelinquent DaisyDelinquent 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 5

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    I want to know your wildest fantasies. The ones you are too embarrassed to even think about. Or the fantasies you have and you're just trying to find someone help you out with them...
    jameswise12 jameswise12 22-25, M 7 Responses Oct 8

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    Hell yeah I love anime and manga! Not ashamed and if you don't like it what evs. I am not on this planet to please everyone any way.Anime is just so awesome, and I cannot get over...
    Steffi627 Steffi627 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 9

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    Someone sent me a message, I accidentally pressed ignore instead of accept. So embarrassed. He went by the name of Thomas I believe, may be mistaken. Message me again please!
    Braybray1234 Braybray1234 16-17, M Oct 12

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    When's Carl's dad In the walking dead didnt shoot the governor (I'm ashamed that I forgot his name)
    NormalTeenGirl NormalTeenGirl 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 14

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    Oh look... Theres that one person i like a lot... Walking toward me • •
    Sourr Sourr 13-15, F Oct 15

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    Hi amy here I am not ashamed of my body. I love showing it off to men. Come and chat anyone.
    naughtyamykevin naughtyamykevin 41-45, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Why do I feel ashamed to be a girl sometimes.... I hate that feeling e_e
    ArcticPotato ArcticPotato 13-15, F 14 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm so glad, Im stronger and more self confident and I can look at my self in the mirror again and not want to look away ashamed at myself. I'm slowly improving as each day passes...
    tigersfan195 tigersfan195 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Due to my current situation I've had to rely on my parents for help to do simple things like going to the bank and getting groceries. I am used to being very self sufficient and...
    SimiRayea SimiRayea 22-25, F 10 hrs ago

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    So for the last year of my life I've crashed and burned and gone through hell and back again and back again and you get the point. Now I am slowly trying to get back up on my feet...
    GetYourFreakOn GetYourFreakOn 16-17, F Sep 25

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    just by some chance I was looking for someone who liked Austria and I found an old chap and I recognised his picture. He was an accountant at the first job I had. he is an absolute...
    eve888 eve888 26-30, F Sep 25

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    my first name is for my great-grandfather and my middle name is for my great-grandmother; even though i'm a girl. you would think it would be flipped, right? but it makes sense...
    freakmagnet freakmagnet 36-40, F Sep 26

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    Might be fun! Or sad..... Hadn't thought of it like that! Supposing there was someone who really fancied you. But felt too embarrassed to tell you?
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M Sep 27

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    I can only be myself after I've gotten used to people, that's why I didn't make friends so fast on my first couple of weeks as a high school Freshman (which I currently am). I am...
    Kperr14 Kperr14 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 5

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    I don't know if this would qualify for this experience!?!? But I want to know other people's honest opinion. I want to know if I WAS wrong?!? Did I over-react?? Did I get my...
    Virgo4Whore Virgo4Whore 46-50, M Oct 12

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    *** note: I do not want pity or attention. I simply just want to get this out of my system. Feel free to judge me, I don't care. There's nothing you can say that I haven't told...
    justmebta justmebta 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Last year I lost my job and in turn lost my house and just about everything I had. I ended up having to move back in with my dad. Here I am a 37 year old man living at home with...
    thedude5600 thedude5600 36-40, M Sep 25

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    When I was younger I used to steal my older sisters' clothes one was ten years older the other six years older than me. Until I was caught and got the belt and made ashamed by my...
    Hiddensissy69 Hiddensissy69 26-30, M 4 Responses Oct 1

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    I always found it strange to meet people on the internet, but then again it's not like you know someone when you bump into them on the street. I sometimes enjoy meeting new people...
    imnotonfire93 imnotonfire93 16-17, F