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I Am Embarrassed and Ashamed of Who I Am As a Person

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    Self Attainment

    Reconsidering the tremendous weight placed on other people's opinion of me. I become more free. I switch my center of gravity around. It makes more sense this way, I become more free. Hate me and disrespect me, I beg of you to mock me infront of me and behind my back...
    multiplefailures multiplefailures 18-21 Apr 15, 2010

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    MrIndeed MrIndeed 13-15, M Oct 28, 2014

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    I'm Always The Last In Line..

    I feel like everybody is surpassing me. I feel like I am intellectually behind eveyone my age. I'm not up to par. It's sad how far behind I am .  I just feel like I should be put into a whole until the end of time.  
    R0B1N R0B1N 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 2, 2011

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    Coca cola and we call it coke?

    Something is wrong
    Sadfate Sadfate 18-21, F Apr 4

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    Loud

    I am a loud person.  At least once every few weeks I am told this usually in a condescending voice.  "you're so loud" uh "you are so rude".  I am tired of saying sorry for being loud.  I don't have a hearing problem - just loud.  Guess what I ain't changing, however I always...
    gurucarcar gurucarcar 41-45 2 Responses May 8, 2012

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    I keep getting flashbacks of what I have done

    in my past which are embarrassing and makes me ashamed of myself. The thoughts jump into my head randomly and it's horrible :(
    Kateyx Kateyx 22-25, F 5 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    So Ashamed,also Embarrassed..

    I've done so many things that I am afraid of looking back and once I do,I try to commit suicide. I've done so many attractive and disgusting things...But,I was young... I'm so embarrassed to be even telling you this now.but I feel I need to tell some one. I have told my best...
    AshamedStuff AshamedStuff 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 3, 2012

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    I'm a very weak, scared,

    submissive, and extremely sensitive person. I'm someone who says "thank you" and "I'm sorry" way more often than I need to; not just because I want to be polite, but because I have this weird feeling of needing to be apologetic for who I am. I constantly feel like a burden to...
    canvascat canvascat 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Wish I Could Undo All the Stupid Things I've Done...

    Things I've done in my past make me feel so ashamed and embarrassed I find it hard to get past them and get on with my life. When i meet someone who may have heard about something i've done in my past i'm automatically not myself. That leads me to feeling embarrassed about not...
    selfdiagnosed selfdiagnosed 22-25, F 19 Responses Sep 10, 2009

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    so just because i smoked weed

    and watched **** in my younger years my life is already over at 28!! i am so weird i cant talk to anyone at work i cant talk with my family i cant enjoy sex or being with a partner What the hell can i do i wish i could just go back! to make it worse girls think im sexy but i...
    pleasehelpme27 pleasehelpme27 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 18

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    -I have several F's -I've spent thousands of

    dollars on a game in impulse -Because of me, my dad and mom don't live together and he comes on weekends. -they love eachother, but we didn't move there because of me -I haven't done anything good in my life -there's never been anyone as wretched as me in my extended family -I'm...
    Ssa39 Ssa39 13-15, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I feel like all I do is disappoint God.

    I'm just a huge mistake.
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 13, 2014

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    Wish I Were Different

    I am very shy and have always disliked that about me and have always wanted to change. This year I am in a class with only seven other students, so my shyness is especially noticeable. Everyday I dread going to that class and can't wait for it to end when I'm there. Everywhere...
    flyingintherain flyingintherain 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 15, 2008

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    Farting girls are the best! So naughty and sexy. A big butt so sexy ripping one loud smelly fart. Soooo good!!! I hate when a girl gets so embarrassed or upset when they fart. I...
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    Absolutely not ashamed. Sexual freedom is a basic human right. What consenting adults do with each other is nobody else's business as long as nobody is being harmed. There is so...
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    I got out. Best decision of my life. Every situation is different, and ending a marriage (particularly when there are children involved, which there are for me) is a serious...
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    I am a Cancer and their most prominent trait is high sensitivity. I have always felt highly emotional/sensitive. Sometimes I am overwhelmed by how deeply I feel. I not only take...
    AnnUrban AnnUrban 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 1

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    Dont stifle me for i am not ashamed of my sexuality, despite how uncomfortable it makes people. Most men I find are intimidated by a women who knows just what she wants. Most dont...
    Kaleiita Kaleiita 26-30, F 12 Responses Apr 13

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    "Just Yet" I wanted to say "I am not the person I want to be." EP offered me up this group instead. And after the typical feelings of "Why doesn't EP ever have what I'm looking...
    shannonymous shannonymous 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    ... or actually basically always. But I try hard not to show it. The truth is: I feel ashamed for not being loved. I feel ashamed for living alone, without a loving partner...
    ElonaElona ElonaElona 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 28

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    Every day, every time I go to school I learn to become more and more ashamed of myself then I currently am. Everybody always has to point out the bad of me. Even the person I used...
    TheMasterMan1 TheMasterMan1 16-17, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    So my boyfriend who I have been with since 21.02.2014 got sent to jail on Wednesday 8th April 2015 and it was totally unexpected. We thought he would receive a secure surveillance...
    zoe1995 zoe1995 18-21, F 9 hrs ago

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    I absolutely hate this soo much!! Every time I see it happen, I feel like marching up to the person being a bully and demand they apologize for their actions. They don't understand...
    radiatestar radiatestar 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm actually not quite sure if I do or not, but when I was still 17, my psychiatrist said she wanted to diagnose me with Borderline Personality Disorder after I turned 18. I've...
    Boulier Boulier 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 10

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    I had friends in the past that aided me in my self destruction. I was on a dark path leading me to no where, far from God and far from light. It took the loss of those friends and...
    Scarlett13 Scarlett13 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    Seriously guys, I know you think I won’t notice. I know you think I’m not aware that you’re trying to manipulate and trick me but I am. And it erases any kind of amicable or...
    mishale80 mishale80 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    my father was a kind person who didn't like to see others in pain he was always doing whatever he could to help out. He died in an accident over two years ago trying do something...
    erasemyexistence93 erasemyexistence93 22-25, M 9 hrs ago

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    I'm a teenager who wants to try sex for the first time:/ there is so much stigma around this topic, I wish a girl who could have recreational sex and not make such a big deal out...
    Thebullet9 Thebullet9 26-30, M 2 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I wish I could feel physically attracted to people. While acknowledging someone as being aesthetically pleasing I am unmoved by them. Mentally I can connect with people...
    merrygentry merrygentry 31-35, F 2 hrs ago

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    Few things annoy me more here than the tendency of some to presume an interest in certain non-sexual experiences so removes you from whatever passes as the mainstream they block...
    Joanne0chan Joanne0chan 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    It was just about dawn outside. She was still slightly fuzzy from spirits and dancing and from the house and the man whose bed she had crept away from. She was scared to go home...
    Author1980 Author1980 31-35, F 5 Responses Apr 8

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    This was yesterday, but I just joined today, so ah well. Anyway, it's the day before spring break and I'm sitting next to one of my best gal pals in class. I was staring into space...
    Wesley3520 Wesley3520 16-17, M Mar 28

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    I'm not embarrassed by the groups I belong to, my experiences or things I'm curious about. I'm honest. But that's not my whole being. It's a part of me.
    charlene0712 charlene0712 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    I have been so embarrassed many times but one of the most embarrassing times is when I was a kid and my mom would hang our clothes on the clothing line. It was nice out side all...
    Utuve1000 Utuve1000 36-40, M Mar 31

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    I have depression and anxiety and now my psychiatrist thinks I have borderline personality disorder. I used to think that made me crazy and unloveable but now I've just accept that...
    GreenEyess GreenEyess 16-17, F 4 Responses Apr 2

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    Oh gosh you have no idea what happens to me last night. But out of all the things I wish could have happened this is not one of them. Last night I was having sex with my boyfriend...
    Jusjellybean Jusjellybean 18-21, F 9 Responses Apr 10

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    I try to be a good person. Honest, kind, loyal, selfless. But my eating disorder is like a moral barrier. It makes me lie, manipulate, act selfishly. I'd never dream about acting...
    Littlegirlblue22 Littlegirlblue22 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    There are a few. I don't know why . I'm a terrible person to fall in love with .
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    I'm so horny, who wants to hook up?
    Stayerect90 Stayerect90 22-25, M 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I live in a small rural community. I have a disability and made the BIG mistake of trusting someone with this knowledge. I shouldn't have done that. But it's too late. I don't know...
    hartinar hartinar 36-40, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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