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I Am Emotionally Checked Out of My Life

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 40 People

    Juuuuuulia Juuuuuulia 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2014

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    Alone

    I find myself hurrying home after work to be alone.  I intentionally hide from social events.  I panic when I need to talk to people when I am not at work - and they are not my close family.  I don't know what to say - I want to run away.  Sometimes I think I...
    beachsherry beachsherry 51-55 4 Responses Apr 20, 2008

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    I've Never Been One To Have A Crowd

    it's not just following the crowd. it's having a crowd. i don't really know how to socialize. i don't know how to have friends. i prefer to be alone but i do miss the intimacy of a relationship. i once had very high goals for myself but now as an adult i feel like i just have to...
    ssda25 ssda25 26-30 Sep 21, 2012

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    I Can't Deal

    jean paul sartre wrote the line, "Hell is other people." Last night was an example of that for me. Every week I carpool to a gathering about 45 minutes away from here. I was listening to my companion, I'll call her Ginny, talk about the challenges of caring for her mentally...
    karla659 karla659 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    Some days I dread facing another day,

    as if life is suppose to feel this way or hurt this way. I have wasted five years of my young life supporting and giving myself to a wolf in sheep's clothing, who has emotionally abused me for years. Recently I got up enough courage to call him and ask if he loved his ex...
    blessedgradgirl blessedgradgirl 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2014

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    I wish I could vanish,

    I want to check out of life, I don't want anyone to call, visit or talk to me. I wish I lived alone. My friends are disappearing one by one and everyone hates me.
    bruisedandbattered bruisedandbattered 51-55, F Mar 25

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    Well, I'm a 21 year old girl. I've been out of college for about a year now. I only have an AA degree, which isn't really much of anything to obtain a career. Rejected from some...
    WaveRunner101 WaveRunner101 22-25, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    the past is the past for a reason.. so learn from it... pick yourself up dust ya shoulders off and dive into the future with your head up and your chest out.. life's what we make...
    nenabee nenabee 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    In 100 words or less. First born of six - Shelthered and loved - Fatherless at eleven RIP daddy.- Abandoned by mother at thirteen in hopes for a better life.- No longer a sibling...
    complex7 complex7 31-35, F 3 hrs ago

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    Im so tired, even when i sleep 20hours. Still i feel so ill and weak. Today in work i wanted to cry, i didnt want to do anything. I just want to quit my job and end this all. Life...
    lostandalone98 lostandalone98 16-17, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    A Life Without Sailing Isn't Worth Living I am passed 50 and have sailed my whole life. Started out as a kid in dinghies and moved on to larger day boats to cruisers. For the time...
    niceskip niceskip 46-50, M 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    In this moment I'm coming to realize that my life is just to much of a mess for anyone. Idk what to do anymore. I'm tired. I'm so tired mentally physically and spiritually. Idk how...
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel 31-35, F 9 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I've wondered for a long time if I am emotionally repressed to some degree. I feel as though I go through the motions of daily life, showing the emotions I am expected to show...
    emeraldfire2065 emeraldfire2065 26-30, F Mar 28

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    Sometimes I wonder, are we the first failed attempt by god at the human race. I turn on the the TV to find out that some sick freak has murdered some poor woman days before she is...
    theworldiscruel theworldiscruel 16-17, M 4 hrs ago

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    I’ve always put so much of my anger onto my dad and how he treated me, but sometimes I think that is misplaced. First, I don’t have a pity party for myself most of the time...
    EverlyAnn EverlyAnn 31-35, F 11 hrs ago

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    My father was extremely emotionally abusive to me as a child and young adult. He is extremely manipulative and plays such games that it's only now that I am 28, I am realising how...
    freyaB freyaB 22-25 Apr 12

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    Don't fear life! Live it! You never know what you will find trough out this journey
    writingforlife6 writingforlife6 18-21, F 6 hrs ago

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    Four and a half years and it's finally over. I don't know how to feel. He was my first love, and everything to me. No matter how much hurt and pain I felt in the relationship, I...
    ChristinaWolf ChristinaWolf 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    A girl I met back in December, we began talking and things eventually turned more romantic. We met each other's families (both well received) went on several dates, saying "I love...
    SuperblackSER SuperblackSER 22-25, M Apr 20

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    I recently started therapy for self-esteem issues that I should have sought help for many years ago. What started as a journey of self discovery has opened my eyes to the...
    ludix ludix 41-45, M 3 Responses Apr 9

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    I wish I could give what's left of my life source, to someone in need of more of it, to make them fully complete. Someone sick dying of Cancer.Someone poor down and out just...
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 46-50, M Mar 31

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    I don't think it's wrong to be happy. I believe everyone has a baseline emotionally. The way you generally feel when there is not something specific going on to affect your mood...
    littlecreekgirl littlecreekgirl 41-45, F 5 Responses Apr 1

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    I was not just emotionally abused by my mother. I was physically and emotionally abused. My mother would scream and yell at me when I cried. She would tell me to stop crying, OR...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 18

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    "We all try to account for our lives somehow. What are the chances that two raindrops, flung from the heavens, will merge on a windowpane? Robert Brault. Bad things happen to bad...
    Blondiex15 Blondiex15 36-40, F 20 Responses Apr 12

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    I hate my life :( I'm always crying on the inside. Everything is wrong. Nothing is going right. I hate how I have to deal with my stepfather who was verbally abusive. He is a lot...
    BrightSky502 BrightSky502 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    I had been single for almost a year when I met someone. In the beginning. He was so charming. The conversations we had were so deeply intimate. He seemed to understand me. It was...
    snowberry75 snowberry75 36-40, F 8 Responses Apr 3

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    I was at the fair with my boyfriend, and of course it was an amazing time due to the fact we were each others first date to the fair, well okay back to the embarrassing moment. I...
    heavenmescud heavenmescud 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I was scared because I though this was all life offered me. Typical milestones that everyone goes through and happy moments every now and then. Now I know, that's ALL I want my...
    writingforlife6 writingforlife6 18-21, F 6 hrs ago

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    I'm at a place in my life where I am just so tired. I got 1 more year of grad school and I'm just trying my best to push through. My family is making it so difficult for me though...
    poohbear437 poohbear437 22-25 Apr 2

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    Yes i have an emotionally abusive mom if you have read my experiences but she went all out to give us luxuries after my dad passed away even this wifi i am using.
    Mewber Mewber 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 18

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    I've been out for a month and a half. I got through feeling confused and heartbroken after the first break up with him. I was naive enough to think the second time would be any...
    merrywings merrywings 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 20

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    I have to do a drama performance on 4:48 psychosis. I get pinned down, tied to a chair, drugged, raped, cut and finally killed. It's hard doing this when you've been through a lot...
    livelaughlove0987 livelaughlove0987 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I want to give up. I'm tired of being strong. I feel like I don't have any energy to move forward. I've been hiding out in my room lately because I can't deal with anything anymore...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 28

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    I am coming out of a one year relationship.My ex was an emotional abuser.He toyed around with my feelings and made me feel worthless and i didnt realise it until recently.I cry...
    jontedlenz jontedlenz 18-21, F Mar 29

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    I have cried so much this month. Crying is good but sometimes It can be draining. I'm also not sleeping too well because I'm so anxious to do things and just trying to understand...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 17

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    I have a mother who is emotionally abusive, lacks reason and I suspect she has bipolar disorder. She injects nothing but negativity in my life and I have told her numerous times...
    organizedmadness organizedmadness 41-45, F 1 day ago

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    I think through it all, the hardest part was un-attaching myself to the ones i thought would stay around forever. People change and life changes with it, you've got to fight like...
    Jnyl Jnyl 26-30, F 8 hrs ago

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    Over time simple has become more complicated, With much advancement in technology we are becoming more lonelier than before or may be more selfish is the better word. With...
    zforeword zforeword 41-45, M Apr 12

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    I seem to drive people away, I've been told also that I'm closed off, emotionally and generally just closed off. I don't see it though, this makes me feel like I'm not normal, like...
    Experiencezzzz Experiencezzzz 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    By a 49 year old kidnapper.. I used to think nothing would ever happen to me. This thinking and naivety led me down the path of being abused by him and manipulated greatly. I am...
    LilVixen17 LilVixen17 16-17, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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