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I Am Emotionally Checked Out of My Life

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    Juuuuuulia Juuuuuulia 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2014

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    Alone

    I find myself hurrying home after work to be alone.  I intentionally hide from social events.  I panic when I need to talk to people when I am not at work - and they are not my close family.  I don't know what to say - I want to run away.  Sometimes I think I...
    beachsherry beachsherry 51-55 4 Responses Apr 20, 2008

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    I Can't Deal

    jean paul sartre wrote the line, "Hell is other people." Last night was an example of that for me. Every week I carpool to a gathering about 45 minutes away from here. I was listening to my companion, I'll call her Ginny, talk about the challenges of caring for her mentally...
    karla659 karla659 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    I wish I could vanish,

    I want to check out of life, I don't want anyone to call, visit or talk to me. I wish I lived alone. My friends are disappearing one by one and everyone hates me.
    bruisedandbattered bruisedandbattered 51-55, F 4 days ago

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    I've Never Been One To Have A Crowd

    it's not just following the crowd. it's having a crowd. i don't really know how to socialize. i don't know how to have friends. i prefer to be alone but i do miss the intimacy of a relationship. i once had very high goals for myself but now as an adult i feel like i just have to...
    ssda25 ssda25 26-30 Sep 21, 2012

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    Some days I dread facing another day,

    as if life is suppose to feel this way or hurt this way. I have wasted five years of my young life supporting and giving myself to a wolf in sheep's clothing, who has emotionally abused me for years. Recently I got up enough courage to call him and ask if he loved his ex...
    blessedgradgirl blessedgradgirl 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2014

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    I am coming out of a one year relationship.My ex was an emotional abuser.He toyed around with my feelings and made me feel worthless and i didnt realise it until recently.I cry...
    jontedlenz jontedlenz 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    I've wondered for a long time if I am emotionally repressed to some degree. I feel as though I go through the motions of daily life, showing the emotions I am expected to show...
    emeraldfire2065 emeraldfire2065 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    I think I finally hit my breaking point. I'm now at that point where if people want to actually be a part of my life, they'll make sure they talk to me and try to act like they...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    My parents did not like the wedding date that my fiance and I had set, so they kept throwing out ultimatums until we finally pushed the date back. Now they are freaking out because...
    southernlove45 southernlove45 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    We were coming home to Calgary, Alberta from our Vancouver holiday and driving through the mountains on the highway near Golden, BC in our little red 370Z when a SUV (looked like a...
    paganknight72 paganknight72 41-45, M Mar 15

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    Trying to understand humanity is like trying to analyze each individual grain of sand on a beach. It just would take too much time and an incredible effort. I give up trying to...
    johnny048 johnny048 46-50, M 5 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I never felt comfortable knowing someone is spending their money on me. I was raised by a single mother of 4 and money has always been an issue at home and knowing my mother has to...
    prettyboo711 prettyboo711 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 4

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    Sometimes you have to let go of your love :( I did & it's not a good thing it hurts a lot :'( like someone decided to take my heart out :'(
    royallover royallover 18-21, F 4 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    During the early 1980's you didn't have car seats for the kids. Most people never put on seat belts. Of course the old cars were built of metal not the plastic they use now-a-days...
    yooper01 yooper01 56-60, F 1 hr ago

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    I’ve come to terms with my inability to form relationships, this stems from multiple factors in my life including abuse, unavailable/narcissistic parents, and giftedness. I now...
    Deadinsideguy Deadinsideguy 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 17

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    I dropped out of college after two weeks of attempting to go to it. I felt so...archaic and so far behind. After a horrible break-up and being left by my ex-boyfriend over...
    Lunan0va Lunan0va 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    "The dance that we learn as children - the repression and distortion of our emotional process in reaction to the attitudes and behavior patterns we adopt to survive in an...
    sweetartventure sweetartventure 31-35, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I feel so terrible. School stresses me out so much, since I'm taking so many hard classes. Panic attacks are almost daily. I'm a person who really needs to relax, so when I finish...
    ribba1 ribba1 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    The most destructive emotional abuse is the emotional abuse we learned to inflict upon ourselves. We formed our core relationship with self in early childhood and have been...
    sweetartventure sweetartventure 31-35, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    i have loved an emotionally abusive and controlling man for ten years. Five years ago I married him. He makes me feel lower than dirt. He didn't touch me for two years saying I...
    girlnomore girlnomore 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    My emotions run on such overdrive that they burn out. Then I feel nothing. Then I feel everything. The official term is Emotionally Detached. I read these links and they fit me...
    ecofox ecofox 22-25 2 days ago

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    I also do not like people who perceive e me as an idiot and they manipulate me to do what is good for them but not for me ... These type of people also boil my blood and make me...
    Soullesss Soullesss 31-35, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    I never thought I'd look back on that breakup with such relief and gratitude. We were together for a little under 2 years and I thought I loved her. I thought that when it was over...
    VintageDream VintageDream 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 9

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    When I was a teenager I was raped several times and when I told adults about it I was often told it was because of how I dressed and I looked. Obviously I know now that wasn't the...
    megansunshine megansunshine 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 11

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    It involved a lot of being treated ultimately like a doll, something to take out when she wanted to play "mommy". Then my role was to be quiet and polite, and perfect. If I couldn...
    BriImani BriImani 18-21, F a week ago

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    I have a lot of problems...severe anxiety, depression (highs and lows), problems chewing and swallowing food, GERD, OCD, and difficulty coping with reality among others I'm sure...
    computergirlmari computergirlmari 26-30, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    this was supposed to be fun.. but of course it turned out to be the opposite I've had my first panic attack in years. I was supposed to make friends, be someone for a change.. but...
    nightmarehorizons nightmarehorizons 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 4

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    Today I feel thankful, I guess I woke up on the right side of the bed. These types of marriage screw with your mind so much that you never seem to be in the same mindset. You're...
    sartur sartur 36-40, F 17 Responses Mar 12

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    Torn between sharing the rest of my life with the woman I love and being with my children, well oldest child anyway. I have finally found the woman that I want to spend the rest...
    mrhph3 mrhph3 36-40, M Mar 14

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    I honestly thought that I'd gotten over this, I mean realistically I knew that it wasn't completely gone, it's always at the back of my mind but I had thought that maybe it was...
    TrappedInAWonderland TrappedInAWonderland 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 14

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    My mom use to drugs and one time i was around 5 and i remember and it made me have trust issues with everyone, she went crazy and chased me around the house yelling at me and said...
    cerullivalleroy0358 cerullivalleroy0358 18-21, F Mar 17

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    I just need to heal, rebuild, find a way out. I feel like I am just ragged mummified bits of skin running amok in the wind. I am tired of everyone having an opinion on my life, of...
    wingeyes wingeyes 31-35, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I want to give up. I'm tired of being strong. I feel like I don't have any energy to move forward. I've been hiding out in my room lately because I can't deal with anything anymore...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Well these creeps just crawl out of the woodwork unexpectedly. I added a young man to my circle a day or two ago. He asked me today why I added him. I told him that his comments...
    Carissimi Carissimi 56-60, F 12 Responses Mar 8

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    I think that my dad is emotionally abusive. You know that little voice that tells you something isn't right? That you aren't being treated right? I hear it, but it's hard to really...
    dartfrogged dartfrogged 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    I feel so emotionally drained and depressed.
    xkameria xkameria 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I absolutely HATE volunteering here. The people are amazing and really nice, but the work they make me do is unfair. I should be paid for this stuff. I'm so annoyed at this point I...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I dearly want to escape and live happily but I know it means eternal loneliness. When I think on it is rather be stuck in this unloving emotionally abusive situation. Because at...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 Mar 1

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    There are times when i feel tired, tired of hoping, tired of trying to make things happen, to make sense of where I am right now. And when nothing works, I...
    mariavita mariavita 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 1

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    Honestly, I am so done with a lot of things lately and I'm almost always depressed or thinking about dying or suicide. I wish I wasn't like that and I feel like that there wouldn't...
    theultimatesashacourtney theultimatesashacourtney 13-15, F Mar 6

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