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I Am Emotionally Checked Out of My Life

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 28 People

    I Can't Deal

    jean paul sartre wrote the line, "Hell is other people." Last night was an example of that for me. Every week I carpool to a gathering about 45 minutes away from here. I was listening to my companion, I'll call her Ginny, talk about the challenges of caring for her mentally...
    karla659 karla659 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    Some days I dread facing another day,

    as if life is suppose to feel this way or hurt this way. I have wasted five years of my young life supporting and giving myself to a wolf in sheep's clothing, who has emotionally abused me for years. Recently I got up enough courage to call him and ask if he loved his ex...
    blessedgradgirl blessedgradgirl 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2014

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    Juuuuuulia Juuuuuulia 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2014

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    Alone

    I find myself hurrying home after work to be alone.  I intentionally hide from social events.  I panic when I need to talk to people when I am not at work - and they are not my close family.  I don't know what to say - I want to run away.  Sometimes I think I...
    beachsherry beachsherry 51-55 4 Responses Apr 20, 2008

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    I've Never Been One To Have A Crowd

    it's not just following the crowd. it's having a crowd. i don't really know how to socialize. i don't know how to have friends. i prefer to be alone but i do miss the intimacy of a relationship. i once had very high goals for myself but now as an adult i feel like i just have to...
    ssda25 ssda25 26-30 Sep 21, 2012

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    I was 12 at the time, and I was with my mom and sister, 15. My dad was away on a business trip. We went to a beach (we would find out it was a nude beach). We were on top of a hill...
    jammerade jammerade 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    I'm 22. about to be 23, and I have no idea what I want to do with my life, at least in this way that we live. I do know that I want to be the best person I can be, physically...
    LindseyMae LindseyMae 22-25, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Sorry but this will be a long read. I have an emotionally abusive father. It is hard to cope with but it's gotten a thousand times better since I moved out of his home 4 years ago...
    Emericia Emericia 22-25 Dec 26, 2014

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    Some of us grow up and achieve specific qualifications, maybe we are lucky to be born into money and so we have more options in life, or maybe we have a friend or a relative who is...
    tcennoC tcennoC 51-55, M 11 hrs ago

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    Every time she sees me getting by, either with education or weight loss, or be it anything positive, she hurts me, beats me, and spites me... She literally broke apart my family's...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 6 hrs ago

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    I had just turned 20 and I had been living with my first love for a year and a half, a handsome, charming man who abused me physically and emotionally. One day when he'd been...
    Brainyblonde Brainyblonde 66-70, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    Get out of your confort zone;change your frame of mind. View your comfort zone not as a shelter but a prison. Embrace constructive discomfort. Don't taje the safe, known path...
    Zelaleme Zelaleme 46-50, F 13 hrs ago

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    My boyfriend I live with food the last nine months emotionally abuses me. only when we fight though. He will call me names like idiot, stupid, crazy, say ****off or **** you...
    joyrich joyrich 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 12

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    I am starting over again, again. I have done this three times now. Every time I trusted someone and things sort of blew up in my face. I am a mess emotionally but I figure...
    DcreativeBUG DcreativeBUG 22-25 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I have a best friend that has been with me for 10 years. However, no matter how much I put in effort and hard work to maintain this friendship, she will never be satisfied and...
    Dlyz Dlyz 16-17, F Jan 1

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    AARP Life Insurance can be a fraud for seniors attempting to get insurance to cover their very last expenditure. A complete rip-off! I am delighted for all of the people that did...
    Anthonick826k7ka4 Anthonick826k7ka4 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 6

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    I had the best life in the world wife for 25 years great step daughter i was a cowboy living the dream then at 46 started feeling really worn out got really hard to walk it...
    justtrash justtrash 46-50, M 4 Responses Jan 10

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    dear self. get a divorce. move out. you need to better your life. it's time. are you ready? mentally, yes.... maybe.. i guess you will never be ready. who ever is? it's tough. you...
    TakingFlight TakingFlight 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Some time ago I read this article on some website, theunboundedspirit.com There's nothing new, but in my opinion the article is very well written. It made me think... 1. The...
    DiscoveringTheTruth DiscoveringTheTruth 22-25, F 6 Responses Jan 11

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    Hi there! Right now, I'm currently 18 turning 19 in July. I'm also attending my first year of college of right now. I have a perfect family (two parents is what you'd call a...
    musicbox809 musicbox809 18-21 Jan 17

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    I was recently with the woman I thought I'd spend the rest of my life with. She took me to vintage rock diners, I took her to see shows. I'm not one for wearing my emotions, but...
    ScarletSaint1 ScarletSaint1 18-21, F 1 Response 37 mins ago

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    Hey i have no life I never graduated, never had a prom, never had some cute love story happen in my life, even though i have my true love... we never had a nice cute story though...
    beckybecks224 beckybecks224 18-21, F Dec 26, 2014

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    William7035cob3 William7035cob3 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 6

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    I am moving out when I turn 18, and I'm absolutely terrified. I'm... feeling really small right now, so I guess that's why I'm writing this. My story is long, but relevant. I...
    theydunnomyname theydunnomyname 16-17, F Jan 8

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    Another horrible day. I sin to deal with my mother. Because The Lord doesn't come for me. She hurt me so bad. I wanted to commit suicide so badly today if I could. Why oh WHY is...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 2 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    Okay, I started off really happy, had tough times but no trauma or issues, very optimistic, resilient and really good at anything I tried. Had a bright future and a loving family...
    buttonthimbles buttonthimbles 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    2014 Review 2014 was a year of firsts in my crossdressing adventures, as I was able to go out dressed for a new record number of hours. Some of those extra hours were those that I...
    1SarahAnn 1SarahAnn 46-50, M Jan 4

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    Now I need to push this off my chest. It's been almost 3 years or let's say , 2 years and something now. I had broken up with my ex after her ideals turned me off , just to name a...
    stephenrko stephenrko 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 9

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    So I went out today. My stepfather was in his usual mood going out (well a lot of the time he is like this). I thought it was odd that mum was being ok to me. It didn't dawn on me...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    Everyone says that I'm the happiest girl they've ever met. But is that true? I am portrayed as a delightful, assertive, bright, happy girl in many peoples' eyes. I wish I was. Do...
    Macyyyy Macyyyy 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    Everyday has been a struggle ever since I found out. I am sinking deeper into a depression and I am all alone in this. Every little thing about my day has left me at the verge of...
    cbnfvr cbnfvr 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    Everyone at works asking how come my eyes are so swollen.... I say it beacuse I slept wrong or I haven't slept enough but really what happen was I was up crying all night about a...
    Carlina1 Carlina1 18-21, F Jan 17

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    I suppose it doesn't matter now that we broke up, but I still feel it gripping on to me. My girlfriend was bi-polar, depression and family trouble. She was my first love, and it...
    Inviticus Inviticus 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Have you ever brushed your teeth and then sipped orange juice? That's the sort of taste that being in a BPD relationship leaves you with. An intense sting that leaves your throat...
    TalaSnow TalaSnow 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    I guess I've been told.. And I wonder why people can't see it for what it is.. I don't have connections that are healthy where I feel safe from harm and trusting of others anymore...
    jiggy4545 jiggy4545 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    A few months ago, I completely cut off my ex. We had a long and complicated history that involved a lot of emotional and verbal abuse. On his part, a lot of it was underhanded and...
    MDubs MDubs 26-30, F Jan 14

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    I'm physically tired- can't get enough sleep I'm mentally tired- as I can't get enough brakes from home or work at the moment I'm emotionally tired- as I keep giving but don't get...
    AN76 AN76 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 25, 2014

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    After numerous attempts to set boundaries, months of not speaking , forgiving and multiple chances, I have to let her go. She still has my brother who she thinks is the best since...
    sgg2013 sgg2013 46-50, F Jan 8

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    candice2 candice2 18-21, F Jan 11

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    TrannyinSydney TrannyinSydney 26-30, T 1 Response Jan 12

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    Timeline part 1. I found there is a soundtrack for my life. This was the first track. I noticed that there were songs that seemed to mirror the events of my life or at least what...
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    Since I finished school life everything changed - from socially,emotionally,psychologically to more responsibilities!So i've learnt so much in 6 years about myself, my health...
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    belleroses belleroses 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I used to let the past and people define me. It's a shame it took me so long to realise that I can just rip out the old page and start a new one.
    SiriusJT SiriusJT 18-21, M 7 hrs ago

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    The physical universe must have more life in it, unless Gods original purpose was delayed by the physical Adam. There is nothing wasted in the universe. Life is always defined by...
    Corzomec Corzomec 18-21, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Its kinda my unwritten life story, being leftbehind. People around me would just move on with their lives and be happy whether by having soo many people around them to care about...
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 16-17, M 6 hrs ago