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I Am Emotionally Checked Out of My Life

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 36 People

    Some days I dread facing another day,

    as if life is suppose to feel this way or hurt this way. I have wasted five years of my young life supporting and giving myself to a wolf in sheep's clothing, who has emotionally abused me for years. Recently I got up enough courage to call him and ask if he loved his ex...
    blessedgradgirl blessedgradgirl 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2014

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    I wish I could vanish,

    I want to check out of life, I don't want anyone to call, visit or talk to me. I wish I lived alone. My friends are disappearing one by one and everyone hates me.
    bruisedandbattered bruisedandbattered 51-55, F Mar 25, 2015

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    I Can't Deal

    jean paul sartre wrote the line, "Hell is other people." Last night was an example of that for me. Every week I carpool to a gathering about 45 minutes away from here. I was listening to my companion, I'll call her Ginny, talk about the challenges of caring for her mentally...
    karla659 karla659 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    Alone

    I find myself hurrying home after work to be alone.  I intentionally hide from social events.  I panic when I need to talk to people when I am not at work - and they are not my close family.  I don't know what to say - I want to run away.  Sometimes I think I...
    beachsherry beachsherry 51-55 4 Responses Apr 20, 2008

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    Juuuuuulia Juuuuuulia 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2014

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    I've Never Been One To Have A Crowd

    it's not just following the crowd. it's having a crowd. i don't really know how to socialize. i don't know how to have friends. i prefer to be alone but i do miss the intimacy of a relationship. i once had very high goals for myself but now as an adult i feel like i just have to...
    ssda25 ssda25 26-30 Sep 21, 2012

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    here is my experience: I was in relationship with a person with NPD, fortunately i realized that he was a narcist in an early phase of oir relationship, when I was trying to break...
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    Why can't I just die. Why do I have to be me. What curse am I under- or is this just life?
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    Sitting in Turks and Caicos this weekend I went to the gym wearing tight brown spandex bicycle shorts and a sleeveless t shirt that covers my arse and front whilst standing up...
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    Hey guys! I cannot believe it. I have this "addiction" to life jacket for many years now, but haven't heard about this website before. I like wearing tight strapped life jackets...
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    I haven't been on here as much as i used to be, although its almost going to be 2 months since we've been broken up it feels so much longer, i still dream with him sometimes i wake...
    marydiaz marydiaz 18-21, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I have an emotionally immature husband. Do they change? Can they learn to change behavior? Can they manage their outbursts or maintain consistent behaviour for any period of time...
    TanyaMurphy TanyaMurphy 41-45, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    **** three more years. **** "it's not that bad." **** "I understand." **** "be strong." **** "get out more." **** "make friends." **** "we love you...
    llene llene 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    "Happiness is the meaning and the purpose of life, the whole aim and end of human existence." Aristotle said this more than 2,000 years ago. And it still holds true today. What is...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Easy A is one of my favorite movies. If you see previews, depending on which previews you see is whether or not you will get a tainted view of what the movie is really about. The...
    loveismyfriend loveismyfriend 36-40, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I can't freaking deal with this any longer. Every time I try to fix myself I keep on breaking apart. The cycle keeps going on & I'm so freaking exhausted. I'm tired of feeling this...
    courtsley courtsley 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    At this point in life things have taken an interesting twist. Right now i feel numb. I'm 23 and already been married and divorced. The whole dating thing has been a fall. I'm shut...
    laquitabonita laquitabonita 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    After a long, tiring, emotionally draining work week, there's nothing like coming home and just letting it go. A cozy fire, a cup of coffee or tea, the rain on the roof, the cat on...
    DaughterOfRain DaughterOfRain 31-35, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    hello...i don't know where to post this exactly, sorry if it ends up in the wrong category/group. i have a situation that i cannot discuss with anyone, but i need some feedback...
    mommajllc mommajllc 36-40, F 9 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm feeling...numb, to be honest. I broke up with him, failed at going No Contact, spent two HORRIBLE months considering going back together and suffering from worse abuse than...
    womaninchains womaninchains 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Mine finally walked out on me, after I called the police over his threats to trash my travel trailer. He started out as a nice guy. He was pleasant, fun, and I really liked him...
    ToolshedCat ToolshedCat 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    I have a friend who is very sensitive to anything anyone tells her. She then explodes and makes me feel guilty as i think it is my fault. My inside voice tells me it is not.She is...
    SubaruDoo44 SubaruDoo44 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    I went to Walmart today to buy carpet freshener, and did the closest thing as dressing to me in public I ever dare try. I was wearing jeans, a T shirt and a light jacket, but this...
    mickitg mickitg 41-45, T 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Since high school, I've always thought that 24 was going to be the best year of my life. I've anticipated this year long enough and now that it is finally here, I feel so...
    HazelLancaster HazelLancaster 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    School, mostly. I won't go into family because I rarely think about it. But school is the thing that is causing my stress levels to go so high, I've checked it out and I have high...
    GiddyX GiddyX 16-17, F a week ago

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    Day 4: I told her "Sorry.. I don't want to get committed to anyone yet.. Specially emotionally.. If you want, we either enjoy or move on.." She said "Ok. Once u get free meet me...
    zmilenseor zmilenseor 31-35, M Jan 31

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    I always try to improve myself because I've had so much problems controlling my emotions and learning how to be the best person I can be to myself and others, it gets really tiring...
    MurrWurr MurrWurr 18-21, M Jan 30

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    I am and I am so ready for it to be over with. I just pray it turns out better than I am expecting and my children adjust as well as can be expected.
    EarnMe EarnMe 41-45, F 9 Responses Jan 30

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    I need to tell this to the world, hoping to find people that have the same situation as i do or give me some advice. My mother likes to call me a prostitute, a sl*t, a wh*re. She...
    tictactoe88 tictactoe88 22-25, F Jan 29

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    today is my uncles 22 anniversary. He was murdered when he was 21... my grandfather is having a real ****** day... my mom and aunt have been asleep since yesterday afternoon. its...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 29

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    My husband and I have been married for 7 months, he recently went to Samoa to visit his mother who he has not seen in ten years, he wanted her to live with us and I told him no...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 28

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    I had never really met a person who had made me question everything about myself-my job, the way I view my relationships with my family, the way I view myself, my anxiety, my...
    sweetsexxylexy sweetsexxylexy 22-25, F Jan 28

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    Im the type of person who hates complaining and negativity. But I'm at my breaking point. I was forced to live in an apartment with my sister because my parents split up. Most...
    fedupgirl100 fedupgirl100 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    I didn't remember ever writing a story in this group and I was going to do just that when I saw that I in fact did. Even more surprising, I happened to write back then exactly the...
    Annelina Annelina 18-21, F Jan 27

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    Well, this is abt ma brothers experience into the wild and untapped ruins all over delhi n ncr,,, .. I have two very crazy brothers who are probably better off called as ghost...
    7rish 7rish 26-30, M Jan 27

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    That is how it was at the start of me sharing her but then it got ouit of my control . she was phoned by Jack who she knew as Jills husband. his wife had kicked him out and he was...
    anthony2001 anthony2001 61-65, M Jan 27

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    I made what I believe is the ultimate mistake and that is when me and my ex fiance had my daughter(not a mistake a blessing) But unfortnatley I was very young and my fiance 7 yrs...
    lilprincess7771 lilprincess7771 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 26

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    We live, we learn and hopefully we grow. As for me personally, I know that I have experienced tremendous growth in the past 2+ years that I've been on EP alone. And change? Yes...
    Reflectionsinred Reflectionsinred 46-50, F 5 Responses Jan 25

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    In January 2014 I made possibly the dumbest mistake of my entire life. I had a nice car that was two years away from being paid off, but still have a lot of negative equity. I...
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