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I Am Emotionally Checked Out of My Life

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 37 People

    I've Never Been One To Have A Crowd

    it's not just following the crowd. it's having a crowd. i don't really know how to socialize. i don't know how to have friends. i prefer to be alone but i do miss the intimacy of a relationship. i once had very high goals for myself but now as an adult i feel like i just have to...
    ssda25 ssda25 26-30 Sep 21, 2012

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    Juuuuuulia Juuuuuulia 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2014

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    I wish I could vanish,

    I want to check out of life, I don't want anyone to call, visit or talk to me. I wish I lived alone. My friends are disappearing one by one and everyone hates me.
    bruisedandbattered bruisedandbattered 51-55, F Mar 25

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    Alone

    I find myself hurrying home after work to be alone.  I intentionally hide from social events.  I panic when I need to talk to people when I am not at work - and they are not my close family.  I don't know what to say - I want to run away.  Sometimes I think I...
    beachsherry beachsherry 51-55 4 Responses Apr 20, 2008

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    I Can't Deal

    jean paul sartre wrote the line, "Hell is other people." Last night was an example of that for me. Every week I carpool to a gathering about 45 minutes away from here. I was listening to my companion, I'll call her Ginny, talk about the challenges of caring for her mentally...
    karla659 karla659 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    Some days I dread facing another day,

    as if life is suppose to feel this way or hurt this way. I have wasted five years of my young life supporting and giving myself to a wolf in sheep's clothing, who has emotionally abused me for years. Recently I got up enough courage to call him and ask if he loved his ex...
    blessedgradgirl blessedgradgirl 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2014

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    I wish I could have eyes on the back of the head to catch them. When I'm alone I feel so invisible, but when I'm with someone they always see some guy checking me out. Why can't I...
    Dari97 Dari97 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    the past is the past for a reason.. so learn from it... pick yourself up dust ya shoulders off and dive into the future with your head up and your chest out.. life's what we make...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 26

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    Hi I go by fruity punch on here.I would like to share personal experience that happen to me with my parents.When I was growing up I was emotionally abused and verbally abuse by my...
    Fruitypunch15 Fruitypunch15 31-35 May 14

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    I should have dropped out of school. I remember how happy I was when I was a young kid. I was very carefree and joyfully excited with life. Then school came along and has damaged...
    AnonymousGuineaPig AnonymousGuineaPig 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    I am lost... I recently reliesed that I am being emotionally abused by my mother. I know that saying I only reliesed this at 18 sound crazy, but to me the way she spoke to me and...
    Anonymous055 Anonymous055 18-21, F a week ago

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    I always wonder what would my life would have been like if I wasn't born in what seems to be my imagination. If people genuinely knew my existence and made a celebration out of it...
    deathnotefreak deathnotefreak 18-21, F 3 Responses May 4

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    Hi I go by Fruity punch on here.I would like to share a personal story from my experience with my mother.Let me start back when I was younger for you to understand the emotional...
    Fruitypunch15 Fruitypunch15 31-35 1 Response May 13

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    I’ve always put so much of my anger onto my dad and how he treated me, but sometimes I think that is misplaced. First, I don’t have a pity party for myself most of the time...
    EverlyAnn EverlyAnn 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 27

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    When i was bout 4 or 5, there was this teacher who came to my house to teach my sister mathematics. He used to sexually abuse me and my sister, he used to ask me to touch him...
    anonymousgirl2000 anonymousgirl2000 13-15, F 1 Response May 14

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    If you are ready for a long, detailed, boring story then keep on reading my experience on collapsing the first time.. So yesterday, april 28th of 2015 I had a pretty normal...
    GRda GRda 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 29

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    No one will ever understand how emotionally tired or broken I am. I just want freedom. I wanna fly. I wanna forget. I wanna live a beautiful life worth remembering...
    CloeSmile CloeSmile 16-17, F May 4

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    All my dad's family are toxic. I am not sure why but in the end it only makes me sad that they live like this. It's all they know, to be filled with such limited experiences and...
    wingeyes wingeyes 31-35, F 1 Response May 5

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    She moved out in November, stopped making love with me in January, and now gives me an occasional deep hug and long, tongueless kiss. If I try to check in with her, see where she...
    wayward71 wayward71 41-45, M May 12

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    Well i had a break up that change my life...or should i say my outlook on relationships. i dated this guy briefly for a few months but it felt like we knew each other forever. Such...
    Lola0821 Lola0821 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I was at the fair with my boyfriend, and of course it was an amazing time due to the fact we were each others first date to the fair, well okay back to the embarrassing moment. I...
    heavenmescud heavenmescud 18-21, F Apr 26

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    Hi, I'm a 14 year old female. I don't know why but I have a tendency to mess things up. About 3 months ago one of my close friends instagram account was hacked. The hacker posted...
    polutedmind polutedmind 13-15, F May 3

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    I'm Carson. I'm a sixteen year old ftm. I'm scared to come out to my parents. Two weeks ago I got my hair cut off like a scene boy. My mom yelled at me in the car afterwards and...
    kloudkat kloudkat 16-17, T May 10

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    I just don't know what to do anymore...so many things are crashing down on me at once, and I have no way to solve it! Everything's spinning in my head, and I just can't bear it all...
    MariosGirl95 MariosGirl95 18-21, F Apr 29

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    How do I know if my Dad is truly emotionally abusing me? I just feel so confused....I've hated him since I was at least 9 or 10. Truly hated him, with a cold fury. The trouble is I...
    HappyKitty18 HappyKitty18 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 30

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    So I'm straight, have only dated men and am very emotionally /physically attracted to them. HOWEVER, I'm also sexually attracted to females, just not emotionally. Does that make...
    jrene87 jrene87 26-30, F 4 Responses May 3

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    I've never done something like this before. I've been brought up to be cautious of the Internet, to be careful, but I'm tired of being silent. For all my life, I've lived with my...
    007Collegegirl 007Collegegirl 18-21, F 3 Responses May 6

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    I have a mother who is emotionally abusive, lacks reason and I suspect she has bipolar disorder. She injects nothing but negativity in my life and I have told her numerous times...
    organizedmadness organizedmadness 41-45, F Apr 26

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    Tired of sleepless nights of thinking how the love of your life can turn around an be so awful everything starts out like rainbows an all of a sudden they change an you see there...
    Gtmchocco12 Gtmchocco12 18-21, F 3 Responses May 2

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    After yesterday I honestly don't have energy for anything. Crying is about all I can do at this point and my tears are running out. I went to bed crying and woke up doing the same...
    WastedShadedDaylight WastedShadedDaylight 31-35, F 2 Responses May 4

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    This is the point where I feel like I'm capable of screwing everything in a blink of an eye. I'm freakingly stressed and my dad adds on the stress even though I've been trying my...
    CloeSmile CloeSmile 16-17, F 1 Response May 4

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    So here is my story. I'm finally going to talk about it. My mother used to beat me and my dad stood by and let her. It started when I was 7 and lasted until I "ran away" at 22. I...
    marlett marlett 41-45, F 2 Responses May 8

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    Being a teenager has been far most worst experience for me. No one has ever liked me ive been bullied and taking advantage of sooo many times. Everyday at school im feelin like i...
    tishabanks tishabanks 18-21, F May 10

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    Sometimes people in the most unexpected places and times can really make a difference in your life. Really thankful that somebody right now hears me out , wonderful person to talk...
    Risika1684 Risika1684 26-30 3 Responses May 11

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    OK, this might seem trivial to most people. I am a little embarrassed to say anything. but I used to get angry sometimes when I was young, which is perfectly normal. But I would...
    kcyata kcyata 41-45, F a week ago

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    I hate everyone of my family members. I hate my father for he is self centered , dominating, abusive, manipulative and cunning. I hate my mother for she is illiterate, shallow...
    ithinkithink ithinkithink 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My best friend at school became my boyfriend =| it was good and lasted for 4 years... I know i was not the best girlfriend at all, a total ***** in fact but it felt natural...
    DanniiJ91 DanniiJ91 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    idk what "group" i should've left this inbut it works. im very unsure what / why im sharing but for the last 10 minutes ive typed a document labelled "last words" which includes...
    Zack607 Zack607 22-25, M 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    In 100 words or less. First born of six - Shelthered and loved - Fatherless at eleven RIP daddy.- Abandoned by mother at thirteen in hopes for a better life.- No longer a sibling...
    complex7 complex7 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 28

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    People often think of my dad as a monster, he is often one, its something inside him. But people dont see the good parts, im not gonna get into all that. He was born dead and...
    DeathAngelS300 DeathAngelS300 18-21, F May 6

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    I struggle every day between doing what I love and doing what I must.it is a horrible feeling ..being torn from within..this feeling like an angry wave crashes into me as if I am...
    kanonr kanonr 26-30, F 3 Responses May 12

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    Settling and marrying someone I shouldn't have. I married someone well below me, and I see it looking back and realizing I settled big time and never have again and never will. It...
    Kman4You Kman4You 36-40, M 2 Responses 6 days ago