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I Am Emotionally Checked Out of My Life

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    I Can't Deal

    jean paul sartre wrote the line, "Hell is other people." Last night was an example of that for me. Every week I carpool to a gathering about 45 minutes away from here. I was listening to my companion, I'll call her Ginny, talk about the challenges of caring for her mentally...
    karla659 karla659 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    Alone

    I find myself hurrying home after work to be alone.  I intentionally hide from social events.  I panic when I need to talk to people when I am not at work - and they are not my close family.  I don't know what to say - I want to run away.  Sometimes I think I...
    beachsherry beachsherry 51-55 4 Responses Apr 20, 2008

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    I've Never Been One To Have A Crowd

    it's not just following the crowd. it's having a crowd. i don't really know how to socialize. i don't know how to have friends. i prefer to be alone but i do miss the intimacy of a relationship. i once had very high goals for myself but now as an adult i feel like i just have to...
    ssda25 ssda25 26-30 Sep 21, 2012

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    Juuuuuulia Juuuuuulia 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 12

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    Some days I dread facing another day,

    as if life is suppose to feel this way or hurt this way. I have wasted five years of my young life supporting and giving myself to a wolf in sheep's clothing, who has emotionally abused me for years. Recently I got up enough courage to call him and ask if he loved his ex...
    blessedgradgirl blessedgradgirl 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 12

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    I have done something and I don't know how to handle the change that has come about. I took in a girl a little over half my age into my hope to prevent her from being homeless, or...
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    EverlyPond EverlyPond 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 3

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    I'm going to change the world and definitely inspire people to do the same too. I'm not talking about eradicating poverty but I'm going to change the world through my hardwork...
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    I'm writing here because I feel like I don't have anyone in my life who cares enough to listen to my problem. The man I've fallen in love with is causing me extreme emotional pain...
    pandagirl09 pandagirl09 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    I have lost all my passion in life. I am lost. I do not know what to do. No friends, no love. Everything is Black and White in my life now. Even though I hold a stable job. I hated...
    roysux roysux 26-30, M 3 hrs ago

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    I hate university. I'm a freshman in my first semester here and deep down, I feel quite uncomfortable about things here. It's been about 2 months since I started uni and I feel sad...
    Saraherman Saraherman 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 26

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    s funny looking back at how fast life goes. The more we rush and stop thinking about each moment, the faster time goes. The times we are just in each moment by moment, time slows...
    willowofthewoods willowofthewoods 36-40, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person. When someone is in your life for a...
    FBR4536 FBR4536 41-45, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    i m always attracted to those who seems distance, mysterious, hard to understand super good looking men. time to stop all that if i want my life to work for me. No matter how much...
    Mangostrawberrybanana Mangostrawberrybanana 31-35, F Dec 12

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    You may mess up, but you are not a mess up. You may make a mistake, but you are not a mistake. You may screw up, but you are not a screw up. You may fail, but you...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 15

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    You may mess up, but you are not a mess up. You may make a mistake, but you are not a mistake. You may screw up, but you are not a screw up. You may fail, but you...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F Dec 15

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    This is a letter to the first love of my life. Now don't get me wrong he was a very good man but he changed and I wrote this to get a little bit more closure. Dear Jo, I just...
    SlimsB SlimsB 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    I was trying to learn from life .But way I thought it teaches is not exactly how it does. I was baffled and confused. Had left hope that Life could be amazing and unexpecting .It...
    ThisIsMeYeah ThisIsMeYeah 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    The magic is gone . Now my body is being consumed by final thoughts. I have had a good life. I really didn't give life a chance. I went in the wrong direction. I'm lost.
    dancingsuicide dancingsuicide 22-25, F 2 hrs ago

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    I dream about a life which I have control over my emotions. I wish for a life different from what I am leading now - different culture, different language, better healthcare system...
    SolitarySol SolitarySol 31-35, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Okay, I don't really know if this counts as emotional abuse or not but I want to let things out in a healthier way. My mother has 2 modes. Nice or mean. Nowadays, she's normally...
    Dove06 Dove06 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 28

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    i would rather be happy within myself as a person, treat ppl good, and stable in life, then rich in money living the good life and feel miserable within myself and terrible to...
    Deztiney Deztiney 36-40, F Nov 30

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    I found this on my Facebook page.: Last January, I was travelling on business, staying in a little hotel in a college town. I like to think I'm usually more aware of my...
    jopava jopava 56-60, M Dec 9

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    I just had a baby, who is now 8 weeks old. It started off with the first big fight when I was under confinement at my mother's house. He tried to take me away from my mother's...
    lilithgarcia lilithgarcia 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 27

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    I have always been and gone through a lot but yet I don't let that claim me . I am emotionally detached from myself bc I lost another love one but I felt no pain and could not cry...
    Fanteyzhuh Fanteyzhuh 22-25, F Nov 30

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    How many of you are surprised by this?Good! Thats exactly how I want to break this stigma over mental illness.As MrHeartaFire I have been struggling to see if I should share my...
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 4 Responses Dec 2

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    My gets easily up set over the smallest things. My two siblings and me all hate dealing with him most of the time. He also puts us down. The stupid thing is we still trust him, try...
    Wheresthesparks Wheresthesparks 22-25, F Dec 16

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    I don't necessarily feel any guilt about this because I haven't acted on these urges or desires. But, when I'm sleeping with my boyfriend, or even having sex with him, I think...
    EmmyChi EmmyChi 22-25 3 days ago

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    "You are absolutely useless." "She's a failure, she can't do anything right." "I'm so tempted to just kick her out on the streets." "You don't do anything I say, you don't help...
    BlackSnakex BlackSnakex 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I feel like my life is over..anyone out there to talk, I have so many emotional problems and I hate opening my eyes each morning ..I'm talking heavy **** here....I feel I need to...
    Chrissy1985 Chrissy1985 26-30, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I recently just got out of the second worse relationship in my life. This man was emotionally abusive. He was racist against everyone specially blck n Hispanics. And he would claim...
    TexasGypsyMommy TexasGypsyMommy 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 6

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    however, I am not able to be emotionally stable. I cannot figure out if I should get back with my ex or be friends with her or just move on and start over all again, though I am...
    mak2512 mak2512 18-21, M Dec 10

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    i am so burnt out on just about everything.... i'm tired of life, tired of myself, tired of this pain in my heart. Most days i just wish it would all end. Poof, gone, no more pain...
    carolinabluesky carolinabluesky 46-50, M Dec 12

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    I am emotionally unavailable
    parjae parjae 16-17, F Nov 26

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    About a week ago, just before Thanksgiving, I learned that my husband has been sexually role playing with women online. He denied it at first when I initially confronted him and...
    thanatophobic thanatophobic 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    Jesus changed my whole life and now it's so much better for me emotionally. I've been set free from anxiety, anger, disobedience to my loving parents, doubt, negativity, and above...
    sophie3331 sophie3331 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 2

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    I've been crying all day, I don't know how to explain why, I don't remember crying that much before, my problems don't sound like real serious problems, yet they hurt so bad so so...
    chxrice chxrice 16-17, F 5 Responses Dec 6

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    A great big Italian family with dozens of cousins and aunts and uncles-but my parents were cruel to me and still are emotionally and otherwise unavailable. I have 1 child and his...
    Anna120570 Anna120570 41-45, F Dec 6

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    I take everything way too personally and over think every conversation. Why do I care what people think of me? Even strangers. A guy pretty much told me I couldn't do my job...
    abcdefgh19 abcdefgh19 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    Ok so I have been through a lot! I have decided to stop my medications. I slowly decreased them last month and am off or them completely now. I decided to do this because I have...
    squirllykid squirllykid 46-50, F Dec 7

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    Not just emotionally distant but distant from this world and this day and age.
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 9

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    I am so emotionally tired of trying *sighs* :/
    K33024W K33024W 13-15 Dec 9

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