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I Am Emotionally Checked Out of My Life

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    I've Never Been One To Have A Crowd

    it's not just following the crowd. it's having a crowd. i don't really know how to socialize. i don't know how to have friends. i prefer to be alone but i do miss the intimacy of a relationship. i once had very high goals for myself but now as an adult i feel like i just have to...
    ssda25 ssda25 26-30 Sep 21, 2012

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    Alone

    I find myself hurrying home after work to be alone.  I intentionally hide from social events.  I panic when I need to talk to people when I am not at work - and they are not my close family.  I don't know what to say - I want to run away.  Sometimes I think I...
    beachsherry beachsherry 51-55 4 Responses Apr 20, 2008

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    I Can't Deal

    jean paul sartre wrote the line, "Hell is other people." Last night was an example of that for me. Every week I carpool to a gathering about 45 minutes away from here. I was listening to my companion, I'll call her Ginny, talk about the challenges of caring for her mentally...
    karla659 karla659 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2013

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    I'd say it has affected the way I maintain intimate relationships in my adult life. I have severe trust issues due to certain boundaries being broken and certain obligations that...
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    I feel like I'm in the middle all the time. Its a terrible feeling. I've been in a relationship for years now and I still love him like the day I met him. Don't ask me why...
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    On the first day of summer when my school ended I was home alone the whole entire day because my brother decided to go to his friends house. After once both of my parents came home...
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    I cheated on my husband, then i left him. He was mean, and I'm tired of repeating the details, but by mean I intend to say that he fits into many of the descriptors of an...
    Regrets472 Regrets472 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    When life acts like a timeline of the biggest events of your life, when you feel like you're at a crossroads in life, when the clock ticks away the last precious minutes before an...
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    Emotions: The Emotional Body Lesson By Sharmai Amber "The emotional body is one of the lessons that each Soul must master while they are en-route back to God. It is one of several...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 36-40, F 6 hrs ago

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    When I was 24 I had an online relationship that was horrible. He snorted coke and sold it and lived 20 hours away. I went through it for a year and a half. Never meeting him. We...
    WhereIsTheLogic WhereIsTheLogic 31-35, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I am making changes in my life, for the betterment of a new life. I shall keep this old life that I lead but I have grown tired of the routine. So I make the change where needed...
    XnOXnO XnOXnO 18-21, M 6 hrs ago

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    This will be my most personal story. It's not just about me, but I figured I should put everything in one place. This will be long, so anyone who actually wants to take the time to...
    lonachan lonachan 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 7

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    Whenever something happens in my life that I think is actually good it places it's phantom hands on my shoulders and whispers into my ear, "Tell me, what is the point? You're going...
    Hithier Hithier 18-21 3 days ago

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    “23 Painfully True Lessons You Learn By Age 23 1. You are not your failures or rejections. You are not the boy who couldn’t love you, the job you couldn’t get, the school who...
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    He stared into the steady glare of the LCD display of his laptop screen in the darkness of the night, as he typed out those words.. his last ever creations. The fingertips that had...
    pretender1326 pretender1326 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    It came in time when I was being emotionally black mail by my own family..! It felt like having a heart-attack I wanted to run away and go far as I can but it's just saying that...
    Reena12 Reena12 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    I am lost in this journey called life. I'm still trying to find myself. Day by day I discover new things about myself. I constantly think about why I'm here? What's my purpose...
    SheAlwaysBelieved SheAlwaysBelieved 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I have a well-paying, professional job that is sucking the life out of me. I could do it if it wasn't also sucking the life out of my wife, who works in the same office. She's...
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    For my entire life I have only wanted my dad to love me. He says he does with phrases like "kiddo I love you so much" and "you are my saving grace.". But if I was his saving grace...
    eviecain eviecain 18-21, F Jul 15

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    Hello. I usually never post anything about my personal life, but this has become too heavy for me. Two years ago, I fell in love with my first cousin. We did not grow up together...
    Deede24 Deede24 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    Hey who doesn't? I love stars. I mean every person who is alive, is a star out somewhere shining in the universe among other life forms.
    kamachulu kamachulu 22-25, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    It's been a while since I have been truly active in EP. I have used this site as a place to vent out for years and it has helped me a lot in my journey for my personal growth and...
    LackofabetterName LackofabetterName 22-25, M 9 hrs ago

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    I am my families rock Though physically very strong I am also very emotionally strong When my little sister had attempted suicide in May i immediately started CPR while my mom was...
    Brickwall96 Brickwall96 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 12

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    Life is getting complicated. So last night by the time I got home from work, I pretty much didn't care if or how much trouble I was in. I know I am in so much trouble anyways...
    RsBrat RsBrat 36-40, F Jul 17

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    I found out i was pregnant and first reaction was surprised i didnt know rather to be happy or disappointed in myself ! Im 19 and a full time college student what was i gonna do...
    breshonmalone breshonmalone 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 18

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    I'm divorcing my husband of 8 years and ending a 12-years relationship. I met him back in university he's from Europe and I'm from Asia. This is going to be long... After uni I...
    lastfeather lastfeather 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    So I'm on vacation visiting my cousins in Florida and I'm starting to feel more at home here than I do back where my house is in jersey. Partially because my parents, my sister...
    justintrubela justintrubela 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 20

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    I say this out loud several times in my stories. I didnt choose my mother and father being like this to me. They put all the hate towards me. My mother had moral that a daughter...
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    Emotionally. Physically. Mentally. Everything. I am freaking cooked. I do it to myself. Sometimes I feel like putting out fires is my only job, or preventing the onslaught of ones...
    breathtakingyou breathtakingyou 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    It's just hormones... right? That's what i'm always telling myself but im bloody 18 years old and i'm losing my mind. It's the old cliche that no one undestands me and heck to be...
    Yomarion Yomarion 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 30

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    My dad's side really. I tried to connect with them since I was 11. I'm never included in anything. Any reunions, hanging out with that side, concerts and even holiday's. Partly...
    meleternal meleternal 26-30, F Jun 30

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    I think my younger sister is probably one of those people.. The way she emotionally manipulates people really bothers me, but I can't get away since I don't have money to move out...
    Riley218 Riley218 18-21, M Jul 12

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    In January I was put in a medically induced coma. Both lungs collapsed, kidneys failed, and all sorts of other things went completely wrong. Long story short, it didn't look too...
    Bigkahunaburger Bigkahunaburger 26-30, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    This has never really been true for me. When I was young my mom was an alcoholic and drug addict and my dad was an abuser. Nothing was ever simple. Food was hard to come by. Love...
    hysgirl hysgirl 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    Lost There is nowhere to go Life like a maze Almost every turn a dead end Is there no way out Why am I here The lowest level of hell I'm cold and numb I can't find my way back...
    Nataliefosterdoglover Nataliefosterdoglover 26-30, F Jul 7

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    The Walk of Shame. I don't know why I ever believed it would be different. "Hey let's hangout!" An hour later I'm doing the walk of shame. At least tonight I managed to get up and...
    BlankWhitePage BlankWhitePage 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    I am so sick and tired of my heart being walked on. So things were great til the girls writing me and telling me about how they were getting close to him and they were hanging out...
    ceceleann ceceleann 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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    I hate when it hurts and I don't know why. And there's no way to stop it. It just keeps hurting and drives so many people to escape it through drugs, alcohol, or suicide. It seems...
    Darkanddesolate Darkanddesolate 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    Chicgeekgal Chicgeekgal 22-25, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    as the sun rises, like a zombie,Numbness trapped in this dream i watch life pass by; i wandered alone, fighting all that came in my way, struggling to make sense of this war, that...
    Nataliefosterdoglover Nataliefosterdoglover 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    Numb I feel nothing at all. Inside I am dead. I hit the ground, but do not fall. I'm lost within my head. I swallow the pill that makes it go away. I become numb. I feel no...
    Nataliefosterdoglover Nataliefosterdoglover 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    Lost In Numbness Lost in numbness for years Running from pain Trapped in the freezing rain Constantly numb Pain is better than nothing at all Pain without reason, a cause, or...
    Nataliefosterdoglover Nataliefosterdoglover 26-30, F Jul 7

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    Numb Numbness how did you come to hold, So strong a grasp that's crushed my soul? How did you rob me, strong and vain, and now you linger where once was pain, Like Fire raging...
    Nataliefosterdoglover Nataliefosterdoglover 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    Drifting into Numbness I'm so tired of drifting through life. dragging my feet, not knowing or caring which way I'm heading. The world turns around me and I'm left behind. I just...
    Nataliefosterdoglover Nataliefosterdoglover 26-30, F Jul 7

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    She changed my life for the worse and the better. The worse because she mentally and emotionally ruined me by stringing me along and leaving me to be an obsessive, jealous...
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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