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I Am Emotionally Checked Out of My Life

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    I Can't Deal

    jean paul sartre wrote the line, "Hell is other people." Last night was an example of that for me. Every week I carpool to a gathering about 45 minutes away from here. I was listening to my companion, I'll call her Ginny, talk about the challenges of caring for her mentally...
    karla659 karla659 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2013

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    I've Never Been One To Have A Crowd

    it's not just following the crowd. it's having a crowd. i don't really know how to socialize. i don't know how to have friends. i prefer to be alone but i do miss the intimacy of a relationship. i once had very high goals for myself but now as an adult i feel like i just have to...
    ssda25 ssda25 26-30 Sep 21, 2012

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    Alone

    I find myself hurrying home after work to be alone.  I intentionally hide from social events.  I panic when I need to talk to people when I am not at work - and they are not my close family.  I don't know what to say - I want to run away.  Sometimes I think I...
    beachsherry beachsherry 51-55 4 Responses Apr 20, 2008

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