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I Am Emotionally Checked Out of My Life

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 36 People

    Alone

    I find myself hurrying home after work to be alone.  I intentionally hide from social events.  I panic when I need to talk to people when I am not at work - and they are not my close family.  I don't know what to say - I want to run away.  Sometimes I think I...
    beachsherry beachsherry 51-55 4 Responses Apr 20, 2008

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    Some days I dread facing another day,

    as if life is suppose to feel this way or hurt this way. I have wasted five years of my young life supporting and giving myself to a wolf in sheep's clothing, who has emotionally abused me for years. Recently I got up enough courage to call him and ask if he loved his ex...
    blessedgradgirl blessedgradgirl 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2014

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    I've Never Been One To Have A Crowd

    it's not just following the crowd. it's having a crowd. i don't really know how to socialize. i don't know how to have friends. i prefer to be alone but i do miss the intimacy of a relationship. i once had very high goals for myself but now as an adult i feel like i just have to...
    ssda25 ssda25 26-30 Sep 21, 2012

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    I wish I could vanish,

    I want to check out of life, I don't want anyone to call, visit or talk to me. I wish I lived alone. My friends are disappearing one by one and everyone hates me.
    bruisedandbattered bruisedandbattered 51-55, F Mar 25

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    Juuuuuulia Juuuuuulia 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2014

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    I Can't Deal

    jean paul sartre wrote the line, "Hell is other people." Last night was an example of that for me. Every week I carpool to a gathering about 45 minutes away from here. I was listening to my companion, I'll call her Ginny, talk about the challenges of caring for her mentally...
    karla659 karla659 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    I was checked out today, actually. I was waiting for my mom to finish her hair appointment when this (awkwardly) cute guy around my age kept sneaking glances at me. We shared...
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    I made an online friend. We became close. That was after we talked for a few months. I had many things common with her. She is so good at studies. She is so talented but she have...
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    I am tired of investing myself in the very few I felt I was close with and have them take everything out of me for their own needs, and not caring about mine...not that I ever ask...
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    Lately I've been feeling/thinking that I would be better off with out my husband. I love him very much but I just feel better when he isn't around. I've grown accustomed to being...
    URLOVED4EVA URLOVED4EVA 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    And sexually abused. The sad thing is when I want to talk about it with someone they dismiss me so easily because I'm male. Physically abused? I should have 'manned up' and fought...
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    It's still a subject that brings me much shame but it's nice to find a place where I can open up. When I was 18, I got into a relationship with someone that I grew to love deeply...
    Normienorman Normienorman 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    ya, but I guess that is just life. I just don't wanna mimic those behaviors. I wanna be different.... I am better than that, I am not what happened to me.
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    How To Turn Six Dollars Into Six Thousand Dollars: I found this on a bulletin board and decided to try it. A little while back I was browsing through newsgroups just like you are...
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    farawayforfartoolong farawayforfartoolong 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    I used to have this group of three friends; 2 other girls and one guy. We were all basically inseparable, we did everything together. Then, my two girl friends had a falling out...
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    I wish I wasn't, but I am...my profile probably shows it. I'm sure I belong to conflicting groups that contraindict each other. but, my moods n my feelings change so often. I am...
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 Aug 20

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    i feel like 97% of my stories on here are nothing but a bunch of moping and depressing stories. i dont like my job because im emotionally unstable. i constantly worry about what...
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    To tired to live with all this crap in my life.
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    I can't say was, because it's still happening since she started dating her 4th boyfriend ( now husband )... Everyday, my mom would compare me to her friends kids and tell them how...
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