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I Am Emotionally Damaged From Drug Abuse

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 53 People

    My Mind

    I'm convinced that I have permanently altered my brain chemistry from drug abuse. First pot, then X, and a lot of other stimulants. No illegal drugs for probably 7-8 years, but the effects linger. I'm off illicit stuff, and others can do it too. I still have volatile demons...
    RadoJota RadoJota 31-35, M May 15, 2012

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    Rewired- probably my most regretted

    repercussion from my addiction. meth completely rewired my brain; so much that my friends noticed it before I did. at the beginning I was convinced everyone was against me or secretly hated me. this eventually pushed everyone away and made them lose hope of me ever giving meth...
    addictionbarbie addictionbarbie 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    Foundation Of A New Life

    I'm passionate about helping individuals suffering from substance abuse and mental disorders begin a new healthy life in recovery. Foundations Recovery Network has facilities in Malibu & Palm Springs, CA, Atlanta, GA, & Memphis, TN. Call 866-872-6780 I'm passionate about helping...
    ChelseyRobinson ChelseyRobinson 36-40, F Jul 5, 2012

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    I'm Moving Forward and going To Fix This

    Last night I did something really stupid but it allowed me the first time in my life to recognize the peril and triviality of my drug abuse. I used some legal drug and felt I was dying; my heart was racing so fast I was sure I would die from a heart attack. My wife was thankfully...
    joes2001 joes2001 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 28, 2011

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    Well I Think I Am

    and using drugs is so far from kool,and I think it damaged in little ways but yea I think im emotionally damaged from drug abuse from before:) thanks for reading
    PRETTYGIRLHATESTHEWORLD PRETTYGIRLHATESTHEWORLD 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 4, 2011

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