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I Am Emotionally Damaged From Drug Abuse

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    Well I Think I Am - and using drugs is so far from kool,and I think it damaged in little ways but yea I think im emotionally damaged from drug abuse from before:) thanks for...
    PRETTYGIRLHATESTHEWORLD PRETTYGIRLHATESTHEWORLD 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 4, 2011

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    Rewired- probably my most regretted repercussion from my addiction. meth completely rewired my brain; so much that my friends noticed it before I did. at the beginning I was...
    addictionbarbie addictionbarbie 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    Foundation Of A New Life - I'm passionate about helping individuals suffering from substance abuse and mental disorders begin a new healthy life in recovery. Foundations Recovery...
    ChelseyRobinson ChelseyRobinson 36-40, F Jul 5, 2012

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    I'm Moving Forward and going To Fix This - Last night I did something really stupid but it allowed me the first time in my life to recognize the peril and triviality of my drug...
    joes2001 joes2001 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 28, 2011

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    My Mind - I'm convinced that I have permanently altered my brain chemistry from drug abuse. First pot, then X, and a lot of other stimulants. No illegal drugs for probably 7-8...
    RadoJota RadoJota 31-35, M May 15, 2012

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    I have been do all types of drugs since I was 14. First harder drug I did was ecstasy was amazing did it every week in the summer then the hallucinogenics shrooms and LSD wasn't a...
    Danny278 Danny278 22-25, M Apr 1

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    A bloody nightmare awakens locked memories of torment of pain. Days old emotions of bitterness and hate. Spit in my face, grab my throat, slap me repeatedly...the mere recollection...
    blackxrosexyuuki blackxrosexyuuki 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Is it withdraws or is it me. Feeling kinda crappy today. I'm usually a pretty upbeat kinda guy. Like the glass is always half full kinda thing or it can be worse. But now it is...
    ryan88880 ryan88880 26-30, M Apr 2

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    From the abuse that I had gone through early childhood through my early teens, I was used as a human ash tray and drug testing dummy amongst the rape and beatings I got on a daily...
    SkitLaberge SkitLaberge 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    Has anyone ever 'trained' their heart to not emotionally care? Blocking out heartache to the point of feeling absolutely no love, pain, guilt or anything that comes with love? One...
    Trainedheart Trainedheart 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    I was with "him" for almost 30 years. In the beginning I did notice that he was somewhat controlling. Also he could be manipulative. However in those times these actions were...
    Freedom425 Freedom425 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    A challenge for you... If you have a group of friends and your connection is doing drugs together. Try abstaining from drugs for a bit. Don't tell them you hate drugs don't tell...
    Dracena Dracena 22-25, F Apr 1

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    My first term of university was amazing, hands down probably one of the most fun experiences of my life. However, second term came around and all the problems of life seemed to...
    eviecain eviecain 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    I guess to understand the full depth of my story, it's best to start at the very beginning It all started when I turned 7. Up until that age, I has a great family. My mom and dad...
    heartsofgold22 heartsofgold22 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    Everybody who I've told what she does to me says that she is abusive, but I'm still not sure. I know that she's narcissistic because in all the articles I read about it almost all...
    jules401 jules401 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    Hi, it's Dakota again. I've already told my story of being raped by my uncle and three strange men last summer, just after I turned 14. One of the men was killed in a bad drug deal...
    mouthdakota mouthdakota 18-21, M 10 Responses Apr 4

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    My name is Dakota. I'm 14. I'm a victim of sexual abuse. I'm overcoming this trauma one day at a time. I'm learning to trust again. If you want to know my back story, please read...
    mouthdakota mouthdakota 18-21, M 5 Responses Mar 22

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    I was six years ils when my biological mother would beat mr everyday and she choos drugs sex and alchol over me and she put my brother in the oven. she would beat me everyday and...
    lillyg96 lillyg96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    April 3. I think we often forget the little boys affected by child abuse. We only really think about the boys when there are big cases like Michael Jackson or Jerry Sandusky are in...
    RuthieAnja RuthieAnja 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 3

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    My dad is my abuser and I didn't know why I felt so dysfunctional until recently. My mom is amazing, and she is a survivor of horrible abuse herself so I never knew that emotional...
    katieowl katieowl 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    My mom psychologically tortured me and my two older siblings growing up. She is an extremist Christian and has borderline personality disorder. She is not diagnosed by I am a...
    SilianRail SilianRail 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 25

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    Many people ask why do you stay in an abusive relationship the answer to that is simple many times with emotional abuse you do not realize you're being abused because the abuser...
    jadelaoch jadelaoch 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    I had a good childhood in some respects. I was provided all of the material items that I needed and many times that I wanted. My parents were mentally. emotionally, physically and...
    abused2 abused2 22-25 1 Response Mar 27

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    Cutđź’¨ Scratchedđź’¨ Bittenđź’¨ Burnedđź’¨ Starvedđź’¨ Bruisedđź’¨ Scarred.... You name it and I've probably done it. I have been self harming since the age of seven and...
    bulimicbixtch49 bulimicbixtch49 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    There isn't a topic for those already in a Emotionally Abusive relationship. So I decided to post what happened to me today: Before I begin, me and my partner have been together...
    SoAntagonistic SoAntagonistic 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 22

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    The peace I have now that I was taken away from before truly shows that these relationships hold you back from loving yourself and loving others. Self-awareness is completely gone...
    blowyamind blowyamind 22-25, F Apr 3

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    Psychology says: Due to their magical thinking, the narcissist False Self utterly believes that they are unique, omnipotent (all powerful), omniscient (all knowing), in short...
    rcp10 rcp10 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    My story I keep asking myself when it all started. If there was a specific day or a specific event to be able to pinpoint when I started to loose myself. There is no day or...
    NoDavid NoDavid 46-50 1 Response Mar 22

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    The afternoon after my adopted father was arrested my 11 year old sister finally came out of her bedroom . She looked AWFUL. Cuts,bruises,welts. And she was holding her left arm in...
    UnwantedMutt UnwantedMutt 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 5

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    Hello, EP. How are you? I know I haven't posted since my arrival earlier this week. But I'll tell you why. You see, even as I try to pretend that everything is normal and status...
    ArchSeven327 ArchSeven327 18-21, M Mar 22

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    I just left a three year relationship that has took the life out of me. During this last year he has cheated continuously, physically and emotionally abused me. I stayed and went...
    mariishurt mariishurt 31-35, F 5 Responses Mar 31

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    Going through all those memories really hurts .The pain they cost made me creat a world inside my head which made me really happy .. Yes I was abused as a child ,both emotionally...
    ludee94 ludee94 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 1

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    There was once a guy from my Christian school (I was initially Christian going in as an eighth grader) who I really liked. He had a feminine edge to his behavior, but I overlooked...
    ArchSeven327 ArchSeven327 18-21, M Mar 18

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    Married to a passive aggressive/narcissist-I have been with my husband for twenty years, married for fifteen. I use to think there was really something wrong with me. I'm 43 years...
    tmcmjc tmcmjc 41-45, F 3 Responses Apr 1

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    There are so many things I could say about this that it's difficult to organize my thoughts, but I'll do my best.First of all, before we even talk about the common sense reasons...
    greatgig91 greatgig91 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 5

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    I grew up in the 1960s and 1970s and was constantly hit with a belt, given punishment enemas, and verbally and emotionally abused. I always felt unwanted and like my parents...
    severalanimals severalanimals 56-60, M 19 hrs ago

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    I've been battling a meth addiction for awhile now I don't know what it is maybe it's the way it lifts me up makes me confident I don't even know anymore I started using 2 and a...
    nnawata nnawata 16-17, F Mar 22

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    I've recently read that a lot of people have difficulty understanding why people in an abusive family/relationship just don't leave the abuser. I understand why they think so...
    imprintedme imprintedme 22-25, F Mar 24

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    Why did he take it all? I was not smart. I knew I was not smart because I was told that every day. Sometimes with words and sometimes it was said with a look or a certain shrug...
    NoDavid NoDavid 46-50 4 days ago

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    Why did he take it all? I was not smart. I knew I was not smart because I was told that every day. Sometimes with words and sometimes it was said with a look or a certain shrug...
    NoDavid NoDavid 46-50 4 days ago

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    I think every one has experience it maybe not physically but mentally and emotionally . I have a uncle and a ex friend who goes through it.
    REALWORDS823 REALWORDS823 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    This is something I have a hard time admitting and even though I have talked about the abuse to people I trust, I never let them know it was him. 10 years after the last incident...
    shierahawke88 shierahawke88 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    Happy April! April is Child Abuse Awareness Month. Today, I was reminded of a status I wanted to make while on Spring Break but never got around to. You'll get the connection to...
    RuthieAnja RuthieAnja 18-21, F Apr 2

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    Mr Pill is NOT for me - Allow me to elaborate, I never have done nor will I ever will use drugs. Recreational or not, nothing good can come from using drugs unless it's for...
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13 22-25, M Apr 2

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    I have suffered from an eating disorder for most of my life. I am 23 now. Anorexia developed in me when I was 10, by the time I was 15 it was severe and included bits of bulimia. I...
    Mslip Mslip 22-25, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    My now sorta ex got tired of having to commit to a serious relationship with me once she turned 21 (because she wanted to go out to bars and not have to worry about me staying home...
    Mercey Mercey 18-21, M Mar 17

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    I hid from my emotions with drugs for 15 years. Now I'm clean and it's all so new to me to have these feelings. I will never start taking drugs again because try nearly killed me...
    Nateee Nateee 36-40, M 1 Response Mar 20

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    I have deep hatred for the MAN abused me sexually when I was just a little kid. I was only 4-5 years old when this guy, this so called relatives sexually abused me. I din't know...
    nobodyn234 nobodyn234 26-30, M 3 Responses Mar 25

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    15 years ago I met my husband, senior year of high school. I became pregnant with our oldest son 3 short months after we started dating (just after graduation). He was a raver...
    karieanne karieanne 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    About 2.5-3 years ago, my mom dated a really bad guy. And one day he came over high. That's when he beat my brother with a bat. About a year had gone by. He was gone and my mother...
    matti1342 matti1342 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 2

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    If you want to have some context as to where I am coming from with this post, please read my last entry here: EP Link … I can’t take it anymore. I really can’t. I think...
    UsernameEntered UsernameEntered 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 6

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    My mom just told me the other day that I might have been sexually abused when I was 4. I was like, "What do you mean, "might" ? " She would drop me off at daycare when she went to...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21 1 Response Apr 7