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I Am Emotionally Damaged From Drug Abuse

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 53 People

    I'm Moving Forward and going To Fix This

    Last night I did something really stupid but it allowed me the first time in my life to recognize the peril and triviality of my drug abuse. I used some legal drug and felt I was dying; my heart was racing so fast I was sure I would die from a heart attack. My wife was thankfully...
    joes2001 joes2001 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 28, 2011

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    Well I Think I Am

    and using drugs is so far from kool,and I think it damaged in little ways but yea I think im emotionally damaged from drug abuse from before:) thanks for reading
    PRETTYGIRLHATESTHEWORLD PRETTYGIRLHATESTHEWORLD 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 4, 2011

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    Foundation Of A New Life

    I'm passionate about helping individuals suffering from substance abuse and mental disorders begin a new healthy life in recovery. Foundations Recovery Network has facilities in Malibu & Palm Springs, CA, Atlanta, GA, & Memphis, TN. Call 866-872-6780 I'm passionate about helping...
    ChelseyRobinson ChelseyRobinson 36-40, F Jul 5, 2012

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    Rewired- probably my most regretted

    repercussion from my addiction. meth completely rewired my brain; so much that my friends noticed it before I did. at the beginning I was convinced everyone was against me or secretly hated me. this eventually pushed everyone away and made them lose hope of me ever giving meth...
    addictionbarbie addictionbarbie 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17, 2014

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    My Mind

    I'm convinced that I have permanently altered my brain chemistry from drug abuse. First pot, then X, and a lot of other stimulants. No illegal drugs for probably 7-8 years, but the effects linger. I'm off illicit stuff, and others can do it too. I still have volatile demons...
    RadoJota RadoJota 31-35, M May 15, 2012

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    Begging for a rope to save me from drowning in vicious childhood flashbacks and i am thrown an anchor instead. He must be starving because no matter where i am, his ghost demands...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 14

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    I know when its coming! I know im in for abuse by the look he gives me when we are in company of other people. If I say or do something he doesnt approve of he gives me this...
    hopeless0 hopeless0 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 2

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    PCOS text me feel definitely less than a woman literally and physically it's so emotionally draining and depressing I always fatigued and tired I hate it I hate myself everyday...
    eaj24AA eaj24AA 22-25, F 16 mins ago

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    Yeah, I was. I'm starting to realize how much this was true. It was emotionally abusive and very rarely became physical abuse. There was one time I was not giving into her demands...
    chimbie88 chimbie88 31-35, M 3 Responses Feb 4

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    It hurts so much. There's not a day I don't cry. I hate when it's close to the time he will get home. Not to mention how much I dread weekends(he's off Friday, Saturday and Sunday...
    Txwoman123 Txwoman123 41-45, F 7 Responses Feb 15

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    This is what saddens me... The lack of real & authentic love between two people. "The Notebook" of love, the Marvin Gaye of love. You see, I've never experienced any kind of...
    NaomiSunJourney NaomiSunJourney 31-35, F 5 days ago

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    cristina2169 cristina2169 31-35, F 5 days ago

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    justforme08 justforme08 46-50, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    VolcanicMermaid VolcanicMermaid 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 29

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    I've known for a long time that I was emotionally abused by my mom and dad. Separately. Recently though I've started having memories slowly leak in that tell me that I was sexually...
    chococat159 chococat159 18-21 2 Responses Feb 14

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    I'm broken. It has become so obvious. I'm emotionally destroyed and there's nothing to do except watch me fall appart. Each day it gets worse nothing ever gets better. I'm so alone...
    Rourou19 Rourou19 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 30

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    After having been molested as a child, I always considered myself "damaged" and "abused" but today I refuse to be a victim so I'm unchecking this. It is my brain.
    syntheticrhyme syntheticrhyme 46-50, F 5 days ago

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    in some ways, i think beeing damaged means beeing complete, beeing able to see the world without it´s mask. there is something beutifull in beeing hurt, different. I think every...
    KatherineSnow KatherineSnow 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    i was as young as 6 when a distant relative who lived next door, started to sexually abuse me, now im 21 and im very sexually active, ive been beaten up for being gay. and everyone...
    queencruella696 queencruella696 22-25, T Feb 1

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    My dad is more than likely a psychopath. He takes delight in physically, verbally, and emotionally abusing others. He especially liked hurting his kids. He loved to beat us...
    MarieLund53 MarieLund53 61-65, F 1 Response Feb 7

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    so its been like two weeks since i broke up with my bf who would emotionally abuse me. i didn't really think i was STRONG enough to let him go. but I'm glad my mom & cousins gave...
    AndreaaG AndreaaG 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    For as long as I can remember, my parents have emotionally and mentally abused me. Over the years, I've developed some serious issues with anxiety and depression due to the abuse...
    DarkDesires019 DarkDesires019 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 28

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    Those who emotionally abuse others usually have parents who are abusive as well.They are victims too in a way.
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 7 Responses Feb 19

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    Yeah by every man in my life . Funny how the father figures in my life are the ones that ****** me up the most . Instead of protecting me , they killed me on the inside ... I can...
    xolex18 xolex18 18-21, F 10 Responses 4 days ago

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    flamedvelvet flamedvelvet 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    Sometime I can be a rock. And it works great because people lean on me for advise, a shoulder to cry, a little kindness, or just an ear, and I have distractions. But then when...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 10

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    mothzi mothzi 16-17 1 Response Feb 18

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    lrrrx lrrrx 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 6

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    Unchecking this with the realization the past is over and I am no longer being damaged therefore any invisible scars can be conciously erased by the master of my brain-me. I hope...
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