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I Am Emotionally Damaged From Drug Abuse

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 57 People

    I'm Moving Forward and going To Fix This

    Last night I did something really stupid but it allowed me the first time in my life to recognize the peril and triviality of my drug abuse. I used some legal drug and felt I was dying; my heart was racing so fast I was sure I would die from a heart attack. My wife was thankfully...
    joes2001 joes2001 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 28, 2011

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    My Mind

    I'm convinced that I have permanently altered my brain chemistry from drug abuse. First pot, then X, and a lot of other stimulants. No illegal drugs for probably 7-8 years, but the effects linger. I'm off illicit stuff, and others can do it too. I still have volatile demons...
    RadoJota RadoJota 31-35, M May 15, 2012

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    Rewired- probably my most regretted

    repercussion from my addiction. meth completely rewired my brain; so much that my friends noticed it before I did. at the beginning I was convinced everyone was against me or secretly hated me. this eventually pushed everyone away and made them lose hope of me ever giving meth...
    addictionbarbie addictionbarbie 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17, 2014

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    Well I Think I Am

    and using drugs is so far from kool,and I think it damaged in little ways but yea I think im emotionally damaged from drug abuse from before:) thanks for reading
    PRETTYGIRLHATESTHEWORLD PRETTYGIRLHATESTHEWORLD 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 4, 2011

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    Foundation Of A New Life

    I'm passionate about helping individuals suffering from substance abuse and mental disorders begin a new healthy life in recovery. Foundations Recovery Network has facilities in Malibu & Palm Springs, CA, Atlanta, GA, & Memphis, TN. Call 866-872-6780 I'm passionate about helping...
    ChelseyRobinson ChelseyRobinson 36-40, F Jul 5, 2012

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    I moved to Louisiana from Nebraska when I was 3. When I was 6 my step father abused me sexually. He was drunk and I didn't know he was my step father I thought he was my real dad...
    HaleyMHanak HaleyMHanak 16-17, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I was a nice little girl, at least from what my mum told me, I wasn't detached. But now, I cannot sympathise with others, some things go over my head. Sometimes I feel as I'm not...
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    I was personally abused as a child. And honestly looking back on it, I have no feelings or thoughts about it. I was hit, smashed, things thrown at me and more. It learned me a lot...
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    I've had pain and problems with my hips and back from when I was a teenager in about early high school. It wasn't too bad back then as I could manage my daily life with a few...
    GoldenHeart69 GoldenHeart69 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    Somehow I don't have an addictive personality. Or rather, I can get addicted for a while then be done with it suddenly. I've done crack, Coke, speed, Shrooms, weed, various...
    AnonymousKCQ AnonymousKCQ 22-25, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    " I am " I am 16 But mentally I am 10 Emotionally I am afraid of everything I am a victim of abuse and I am ashamed . No one knows how hard it's to hide the pain behind a...
    kittenmajor kittenmajor 18-21, F 9 Responses 4 days ago

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    What is deep hole inside me I can't seem to get rid of? It's like this void that constantly needs to be filled - the problem with filling it is dangerous.. Seeking impulsive...
    neurokitty99 neurokitty99 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    I'm so far in the pit of denial that my parents have been emotionally abusing me for so long even though multiple people tell me they are, that i don't know if I'll ever crawl back...
    bookworm342 bookworm342 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm feeling...numb, to be honest. I broke up with him, failed at going No Contact, spent two HORRIBLE months considering going back together and suffering from worse abuse than...
    womaninchains womaninchains 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    It's all i seem to do recently is bicker and cry because Im depressed and dont know what to do I'll be blunt n to point and try explain, I was so happy for last 6 years after years...
    1982Caroline1982 1982Caroline1982 31-35, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I was physically abused as a child. People think it is okay, but it is truly damaging. I was also suffering from sexual assault trauma that started at age 4. My parents along with...
    AliceMarie92 AliceMarie92 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    I am a girl who doesn't smoke, drink, or do drugs. I am happy enough with myself and the person that I am that I don't need to do those things. I feel badly for the kids that do...
    veryfemininegirl veryfemininegirl 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I am here because I need your help. I am not the victim though. I am the abuser and I want to stop. I can't afford therapy. My issues stem from not feeling worthy or having self...
    Backspaceblogger Backspaceblogger 26-30 4 Responses a week ago

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    Yes, all abuse is wrong, sexual or not. I think that other forms of abuse are more overlooked if they are not sexual in nature. I have to say that is just not acceptable. NO...
    ratburn ratburn 18-21 1 Response Feb 2

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    Lately, I decided to dedicate my free time to volunteer.Among other things, I'm helping children with learning disabilities. Among the large group of children, there is this shy 9...
    aloysia aloysia 26-30, F 4 Responses Feb 2

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    Since high school, I've always thought that 24 was going to be the best year of my life. I've anticipated this year long enough and now that it is finally here, I feel so...
    HazelLancaster HazelLancaster 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    i have been abusing drugs for 6 years i have lost alot of weight from it. family. friends my life my savings my job. everything i am lonelly sad depressed i want my life back...
    maddiipaiige maddiipaiige 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 1

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    I was abused many times over the years as a kid. The most frequent/egregious abuser was my stepfather. It made me distant myself from people. It impacted my ability to be intimate...
    GodHatesMe2010 GodHatesMe2010 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    I was very naive and he was my very first boyfriend, first EVERYTHING. As we started our relationship, he began to change... He had anger issues. He would snap... Call me horrible...
    AndreaaG AndreaaG 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 31

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    Just cause you had a ****** childhood doesn't mean you should physically and emotionally abuse us. I hope karma. Comes and bites you. For all those times
    Avila96 Avila96 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 31

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    I'm not really sure that I am a victim of emotional abuse. I've lived with my parents in the same house for twenty years, aside from the three semesters I spent in college, which...
    krcb krcb 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 31

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    I hate when someone thinks they can hit a child for no reason. Even if there is a reason there is really no point in hitting or beating them up. Everyone makes mistakes. And those...
    dyingsnowangel dyingsnowangel 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 29

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    PSA: I'm using some rough words here. It occurred to me for the first time some 9 years ago that I was abused. I analyzed this in retrospect and this shocked me. Why did it shock...
    ramblingjules ramblingjules 26-30 1 Response Jan 27

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    So not only was this person physically perfect but he seemed to get me. However the issues were endless. 1)I spoke to him first (which us ladies should never do because real men...
    reginastrength reginastrength 22-25, F Jan 27

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    I have been both physically and emotionally abused all of my life, but the thing is- bruises heal. Scars fade away. Hair grows back. It's not the physical abuse that makes me want...
    NeonAshes NeonAshes 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    Boy oh boy! I started using when I was 17. I wasn't out to rebel or try new things. I found drugs following being sexually abused from 13-17. Emotionally I was having a crisis...
    whatalifetolive whatalifetolive 36-40, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    I have done a lot of crazy things in my life but, doing drugs is not one of them! I am a CPhT, and I deal with people that have many doctors and many pharmacies so they can try...
    dreamerintexas2 dreamerintexas2 51-55, F 3 Responses Jan 25

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    Forgotten and Crying Angels Forgotten, and crying are so many little angels, given to us to hold and love. Why do so many people hurt these tiny angels from above? Left trembling...
    AngeleyesUponU AngeleyesUponU 41-45, F 5 Responses Jan 24

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    I have a very small family. We all live apart and even when I was young, we were pretty emotionally distant. My parents divorced when I was about 4. I don't remember a time they...
    doublepancakes doublepancakes 22-25, F Jan 24

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    But sometimes I wonder if it was abuse at all. I wonder if I'd be way less ****** up if labels like that didn't tell me to be victimized. I was so young I didn't think of myself as...
    apresm0i apresm0i 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 24

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    I have been abused as a child...
    NikkiButlerGreen NikkiButlerGreen 26-30, T Jan 24

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    i was in a relationship with a man for over 5 years. I don't know when the abuse started, everything is so blurred now. Thinking back I think I was manipulated into believing he...
    JustGotOut2016 JustGotOut2016 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 24

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    My best friend fell into drugs: acid, pills, molly... You name it I'm sure she has tried it. So I had to drop her, I'm in college and I can't have that around me. It breaks my...
    VanitySinnn VanitySinnn 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 24

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    Another day of abuse. Yesterday my narcisstic (who only cares about him and herself) mother dearest took out the cord to the monitor. 4-5am this morning when mum and I would be...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 46-50 1 Response Jan 23

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    My eyes are finally open, my heart is awake yet my tears flow. Time and distance have reminded me of the bad memories that I've pushed aside in an effort to barely survive...
    tssunshine tssunshine 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 23

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