I feel so alone.
I'm not saying that to be dramatic
I genuinely feel alone.
Nobody understands me.
Nobody takes the time to help me because I'm the strong one.
My brother hates...
This will be my most personal story. It's not just about me, but I figured I should put everything in one place. This will be long, so anyone who actually wants to take the time to...
It came in time when I was being emotionally black mail by my own family..! It felt like having a heart-attack I wanted to run away and go far as I can but it's just saying that...
I am my families rock
Though physically very strong I am also very emotionally strong
When my little sister had attempted suicide in May i immediately started CPR while my mom was...
I have been married for 15 years. I have recently separated for two months now. We have four kids together. I only want to live for the kids. My wife has destroyed me emotionally...
I cheated on my husband, then i left him.
He was mean, and I'm tired of repeating the details, but by mean I intend to say that he fits into many of the descriptors of an...
Emotionally. Physically. Mentally. Everything. I am freaking cooked. I do it to myself. Sometimes I feel like putting out fires is my only job, or preventing the onslaught of ones...
I used to be in love with my sons father, I cannot trust him. I cheated but I told the truth. I assume he has cheated form incidents with other females but he Denys ever cheating...
My dad's not the worst but he still calls me fat. He's always called me fat. Porker or porky or chubby. I know he wants to help me lose weight and all but if he really wanted to...
Well both of my parents thought they were giving me constructive criticism when they were really just breaking my self-esteem... I was told I was fat, overweight, lazy, stupid...
I am going to try to trust them, one last time.
My mom cried on the phone a couple of weeks ago and said "I'm sorry we're such untrustworthy parents and we never do anything...
I hide behind my smile,
Pain held inside,
I believed their lies,
Improvised the alibis,
Told everything will be alright,
But yet i still cry,
Feel like i am dying inside,
...almost 40 and still dealing with her crazy ****. Why can't I move forward?
Why do girls always continue to love and want the guys who hurt them? Here I am hoping to hear from someone who supposedly loves me, who for 3 days has been barely talking to me...
My exliver wanted to try anal sex. I wasn't comfortable with it but decided to give it a try to please him. It felt awful, ugly, and dirty. It hurt so much so in the middle of it...
My husband moved out after yelling at me for not saying good night. He was jealous of my female best friend, my book club, my yoga class and my job. He frequently shared his...
Easier said than done I guess. I keep reminding myself of this... Yet I continue to do so.
My boyfriend is extremely depressed and it's making me really upset I cry almost every day because we don't talk much because he doesn't wanna talk to anybody and I try to make him...
as the sun rises,
like a zombie,Numbness
trapped in this dream
i watch life pass by;
i wandered alone,
fighting all that came in my way,
struggling to make sense of this
What do I want to be?
Happy or sad?
Medicated or not?
Hopeless or hopeful?
Why do I always have to be in the middle?
Or am I in the...
All around me are blank walls
Never moving, always the same
Full of fools and a numbing pain
Constantly wailing for a change
These stupid grey walls
Have me trapped...
These empty pages, devoid of any defined reality,
reign over hope more than any ink stains could bear,
for this numbness resides,
when pain no longer haunts the...
Contradicting the pain I felt.
Flooding through me like a dose of anesthesia.
Paralyzed by the nothingness.
Unable to bring myself to move.
Insanity of thought pervades my mind;
if only incessant thinking would cease,
but it runs rampant here, there, everywhere
like a swelling stream into river...
Mind of Mirrors
I glance in a mirror,
I realise I fear her,
This feral dirty *****.
She's scratching where I itch.
She glares through her hair,
I'm caught in her stare.
Comfortably Numb (Addiction)
I feel so numb
I was feeling in the beginning
Of my day today
Though I didn't like what I felt
So like any addict
I turn to my...
Negative doubt creeps in like water slowly trickling down the drain.
I try to submerge them but somehow they have air.
I’m in a time and place were everything’s...
My Savior, Pain
Too numb to care,
far too broken inside,
bring on the pain.
Just let me know I'm alive.
The pain made me numb,
now let it bring me back.
Let it undo this torture...
I surrender to the sacred slumber
as the sun rises in the sky.
An aching numbness pulses through my body
as I have not slept for a little while.
I surrender to the...
Can anyone see this pitiful,
being inside of me?
Broken hearted, yet always singing?
Nothing to smile for, yet always smiling.
Torn apart, and never...
I feel nothing at all.
Inside I am dead.
I hit the ground, but do not fall.
I'm lost within my head.
I swallow the pill that makes it go away.
I become numb.
I feel no...
I lie here,
Intoxicated by numbness,
It surrounds me like a cloud of thick smoke,
Seeping into my veins, my brain,
I desperately search for some feeling,
Lost In Numbness
Lost in numbness for years
Running from pain
Trapped in the freezing rain
Pain is better than nothing at all
Pain without reason, a cause, or...
Not What I Used To Be
I am not what I used to be.
At least I don’t think it’s me.
I would not know,
Since now I just go with the flow.
I used to be able to feel,
Numbness how did you come to hold,
So strong a grasp that's crushed my soul?
How did you rob me, strong and vain,
and now you linger where once was pain,
Like Fire raging...
Drifting into Numbness
I'm so tired of drifting through life.
dragging my feet,
not knowing or caring which way I'm heading.
The world turns around me
and I'm left behind.
lately I've been having the feeling
that I don't feel anything at all
and nothing is as quite as concealing
as this emotional wall
all these painful situations
There is nowhere to go
Life like a maze
Almost every turn a dead end
Is there no way out
Why am I here
The lowest level of hell
I'm cold and numb
I can't find my way back...
Emotionless pit, endless fall
To the depths of insanity
Timeless confusion, reeking decent
Can’t find my wits
I am bent
Lost feelings, numb mind
I'm having to see a psychologist now. Since I was a kid I put up emotional barriers and taught myself that feelings were weakness since my parents always rejected mine. Feelings...
I know by now everyone must be thinking "Omg Tatti just stfu already" but I like to vent on here so if you just want to pass by you can.
Ah I feel drained. Idk before I was crying...