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I Am Emotionally Retarded

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    Emotionally Retarded !

    I find myself even within my own family in situations where I am totally detached, emotion just doesn't come out it never has, I can see the events unfolding infront of my very eyes but it's like I don't care. Is this normal it must someone somewhere must have had these things...
    Nundochips Nundochips 31-35, M 5 Responses Jan 4, 2012

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    At Times I Could Be...

    Mistaken for the latest Miley Cyrus episode gift box wrapped up in the epic fails of Paris Hilton, Britney Spears and Lindsey Lohan! Ugh... I'd feel better if I had **** and *** like theirs to play with when I'm jacked up and mind clouded!
    AvengingSouls AvengingSouls 31-35, M Oct 2, 2013

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