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I Am Emotionally Starved

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    So Feed Me

    This endless yearning for reciprocated feelings is practically unbearable. I swell up with this sense of alone and have to cry sometimes to simply drain myself and start the empty "filling" all over again. I don't even know if that makes sense. It haunts me. I know...
    PoeticRejection PoeticRejection 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 28, 2009

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    Sorry!

    I realize that for some reason it put three copies of my story up in this group. But as there are different comments on each one I am choosing to leave all three copies of the same story up so that no person's comment gets deleted. Sorry for the inconvenience and thanks for...
    PoeticRejection PoeticRejection 22-25, F Sep 29, 2009

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    No One To Talk To

    I have been hella stressed lately. I busted *** getting a project together in time and it failed the other day. I have to start over. My team is about to leave for a national tournament that I trained as hard as everyone else for despite not being eligibale for truely idiotic...
    SimplyPerson SimplyPerson 22-25 1 Response Mar 4, 2012

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    Thanks Mom

    I just got an email from my mother that her boyfriend's brother is about to die. What does she want me to do about it? I guess the logical thing would be to comfort her but when my best friend died a few months ago all she said was 'I didn't know he was that sick.' Didn't pass on...
    SimplyPerson SimplyPerson 22-25 Jan 27, 2012

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    When You Think Like I

    You consider just about every moment not spent connecting to someone a waste - if not connecting to someone, at least to something such as music or a job. I didn't grow up in a broken home or anything and I get more than enough affection from my family but somehow despite all...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    I just want some love

    and affection. I want to be hugged and held. I have a bf and I just don't get anything from him.
    xjen92 xjen92 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    So Feed Me

    This endless yearning for reciprocated feelings is practically unbearable. I swell up with this sense of alone and have to cry sometimes to simply drain myself and start the empty "filling" all over again. I don't even know if that makes sense. It haunts me. I know...
    PoeticRejection PoeticRejection 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 28, 2009

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    So Feed Me

    This endless yearning for reciprocated feelings is practically unbearable. I swell up with this sense of alone and have to cry sometimes to simply drain myself and start the empty "filling" all over again. I don't even know if that makes sense. It haunts me. I know...
    PoeticRejection PoeticRejection 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 28, 2009

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    So Hungry

    I was raised in an emotional void. My parents were not affectionate towards wach other or towards my brother and I. We never stayed in one place very long so there was no such thing as a good friend, no trusted instructors, and relgious leaders at all. All I had were these cold...
    SimplyPerson SimplyPerson 22-25 1 Response Jan 22, 2012

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    I'm Needy, So What?

    I need the whole package, not bits and pieces.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 23, 2012

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    Emotionally Deficient !!!

    This is a touchy topic. Yes, I feel emotionally starved and that too a lot !!! And has been like this from the time i can remember. Even when I was in a relationship earlier, i always felt that there is a void in me that is not getting filled. So i have kept on looking for that...
    spectra spectra 31-35, M Nov 19, 2010

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    I love my husband but he's not romantic. I know he loves me but I wish he wanted to do things for me without anything in it for him. Sometimes I just feel like his maid, cook, womb...
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    My mother is the most evil person I ever met! No one have treated me worse in my whole life. My mom is a total ***** who is trying to destroy my life every day, her biggest fear...
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    The one person who has always been kind to me vanished. My mentor is gone. He was the person I loved the most so far in my life. I loved him more than my own family. He was like a...
    loveVictorandDumas loveVictorandDumas 16-17, F Sep 2

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    Now that I've left him, both of our children think he's the greatest person on the world and want to go back.
    putyourrecordson putyourrecordson 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    ......I don't even know what to say anymore, I just feel empty, lonely, and becoming detached. I guess I should just accept that fact that you'll never be able to truly tell...
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    pcosblonde pcosblonde 26-30, F Sep 3

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    Life is throwing everything at me today, I feel like death right now, idk what to feel or say to anybody. I don't even know if this is reality anymore, I'm losing my mind.
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    I might seem cold but what's really cold is that people only care when they see that they can make a profit. How could I feel bad knowing this? It seems that the only time people...
    TheAnonymousINFx TheAnonymousINFx 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 5

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    I can't really explain it, it's like I'm dead inside!
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    httpoison httpoison 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 11

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    Why am I friends with who I am? I mean I like them. But why? I am tired of all this analyzing. I know they're into phycology. And so am I. But I am tired of my life being...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F Sep 14

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    I was in a long term relentionship with a woman who would belittle, degrade and humiliate me on a daily basis. She withheld affection from me and made me feel unworthy of her time...
    slj2014 slj2014 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 15

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    It infiltrates itself into everything. I cannot escape it, I cannot get over it as much as I try I just can't get the stench out of my life. It's been almost 4 months ago that I...
    99hello99 99hello99 31-35, F Sep 15

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    I'm starting to get bad again. I thought I was getting better, I really thought I could change, but somewhere along the way I've lost myself again. I had faith that maybe you...
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    You tell me to open up to you then you call me clingy and ignore me
    alliemonster alliemonster 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 18

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    I Like You . . I had this guy on my friends' list since last year. He would always check-up on me from time-to-time [I'm not sure he liked me here]. We started to talk a lot...
    Samaccino Samaccino 16-17, F Sep 19

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    I hate that i get so attached quick. I started to this guy on the phone a couple of days ago and i cant get him out my mind i hate this.
    RoughLife88 RoughLife88 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 19

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    I wrote a letter to my soon to be ex a while back where I was trying to be politically correct. Today I'm going to write my politically incorrect version because if I don't get it...
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    BabyGrasshopper BabyGrasshopper 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 20

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    I don't want to feel anymore. It hurts, emotions. I don't know. I don't know how I feel. How I want to feel. I don't know what I want. Just I don't want to care.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F Sep 20

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    BMG47 BMG47 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 20

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    SelfUnaware SelfUnaware 18-21 1 Response Sep 20

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    Dancemomisme Dancemomisme 46-50, F 10 Responses Sep 23

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