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I Am Emotionally Torn

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    Torn Between Making My Family Happy Or Making Myself Happy

    Yeah its ruff knowing what you want isn't close to what Ur close family wants for you. I am bisexual and very much proud to be, but my mother and family look down upon it. I hate to disappoint my mother for she was the only parent i had growing up. But it has came down to the...
    Kbaseball94 Kbaseball94 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2010

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    Confused

    I'm 21 years old. I have a 2 year old daughter, 2 month old son and a husband I've known for 8 years and married 9 months ago. I have a long distance relationship with a man who is 21 years older than me. I met him when I was 18. I got pregnant 4 months after meeting him. He...
    lonleygirl7091 lonleygirl7091 18-21 Aug 9, 2012

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    The Next Part.

    The next part of my story is up on my blog. I guess, I'll post a new part every Saturday. I don't know if any of you, are going to read it. But hey, I'm not posting it for you. I'm posting it for me....
    gloriousdisaster gloriousdisaster 16-17, F Aug 13, 2011

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    I think the reason I don't have a boyfriend is

    because I am an ugly person. I mean my looks aren't that pleasant either but my personally sucks. I'd like my boyfriend to be my best friend. But both of my best friends stopped talking to me with no explanation. So if I can't keep a best friend how can I expect to have a...
    gentlepanic gentlepanic 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    Dilemma! Dilemma!

    Okay so there's this guy I have been talking to a short time and I really like him so far.  He's asked me out and I think I might just wanna go for it. Minutes after he asks me.. literally minutes... a guy I've been of and on again with for almost 2 years pops up. ...
    Fanson4Life1984 Fanson4Life1984 26-30 7 Responses May 15, 2010

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    My husband and i split up a couple of months

    ago, after being unhappy together for a long time. It's not that we didn't love each other, we just each have our own issues and took them out on each other a bit. He was quite abusive from time to time, also. After we split up, an old friend got in touch. He lives 400 miles...
    TomahawkLeisure TomahawkLeisure 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    Emotionally Torn

    Emotionally torn,Sure am,This life,These days,No longer know,When will it end?
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 Oct 28, 2012

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    Torn

    I am a married woman with three children. I love my husband and our children, however, I am very unhappy!! I feel very unsatisfied and feel guilty about having any ill emotions at all! After all, how lucky am I to have a partner to share my life with?! Why am I so unhappy?!! I...
    momnga momnga 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 15, 2011

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    I Care Too Much.

    Let me start out by saying, that this story is about somebody I know only via chat room. I have this friend, whom I hold very dear to my heart. I'm bi-curious .. and she would be Bi. She's engaged and believe me.. I don't want to sound like I go for the unattainable people...
    Mekia89 Mekia89 22-25, F Nov 20, 2010

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    Do I Like To Be Hurt?

    I decided to try internet dating websites, it was scary, I am recently out of a controlling and emotonally abuse relationship it has been a year so I deceded to try dating again. I met a guy who was younger then me but seemed great, he was no where near perfect but he was honest...
    thiswordfallsonme thiswordfallsonme 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 18, 2011

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    I Am Torn...

    I am emotionally torn right now...from giving myself  to someone in a first date.He ddint even called...nor sent any messages today...Maybe he doesnt care..but its all real to me.
    bellalily bellalily 26-30, F Nov 16, 2010

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    No.

    I am emotionally torn as in. I'm in a relationship I love being in. The boy I was with before cheated on ME then dumped ME. I begged for him back. I need him. Then let's say "rob"came into my life and changed it made me feel loves and appreciated. I thought I was in love but I...
    Lillbettyboop Lillbettyboop 16-17, F Oct 15, 2012

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    I live in a house that is no longer a place of

    security. I feel lost, hurt, pushed to boundaries by people that say they love me but quickly find ways to throw my faults and my insecurities back at me. My life has become one doubtful step after the other. I have spent years preparing for a career that will push me to my...
    AxDisorientedxMind AxDisorientedxMind 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    I think im falling in love with two different

    people. I have no idea what to do, who to choose, or if I even have to. but im not sure I want to be single anymore, and they both express feelings for me.
    imrolling imrolling 18-21, F 2 Responses May 25

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    I don't really know what to do,

    or what to say, or how to act. It's like that previous storm of emotions, yet it feels more real. Do I smile? Do I cry? Or do I just die? (Inside)
    thesassiestamerican thesassiestamerican 13-15, M May 4

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    I'M Not Sure Who I Am.

    I used to know exactly who I was. I was me. I was me all the time. In fact, I was so *me* that I never entertained conversations about who I was. Those were easier times. Then, who I was became defined by others. By what I did. By how I showed my love. First I was a boyfriend...
    justinlimbertake justinlimbertake 41-45, M 7 Responses Apr 15, 2013

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    Its Not My Fault

    Im sorry i cant be perfect im only human.I never meant to hurt you i love you.Im sorry i didnt believe you please forgive me
    xxhusoldierxx xxhusoldierxx 13-15, F Jan 11, 2013

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    Not Torn As In Making A Decision

    There's no decision to make really. Except to keep to myself. But torn as in my heart feels like that group pic.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 15, 2010

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    I Feel Lost...

    well I don't know what to do. I feel so broken sometimes. My sadness is so random and comes when I least expect it. Just when I think I'm getting better. I always **** up. I AM a **** up. I feel like such a failure. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve to be happy. I don't...
    elivasquez elivasquez 16-17, F May 13, 2013

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    Him

    i do not like to speak ill of anyone but i need to vent. my ex is in hospital and i feel really bad for him. i have no feelings for him but i do not like to know anyone is suffering. he wants me by his side. that makes me so angry i could scream. the reason being.the whole time...
    freeangel freeangel 31-35, F 10 Responses Apr 21, 2010

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    I Cannot Hope To Make Everyone Happy.

    Am I a terrible person? I've been single for over a year, on purpose... I've stayed home and avoided social situations because I really just needed to get my head right and remember what it's like to just be me. A few months ago though, I was introduced to a woman... she's my...
    MAUL0r MAUL0r 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 29, 2010

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    Temptations

    I don't know that I can say I live in a sexless marriage, I would call it a low sex marriage.  We average about 15 times a year.  It normally happens 2-3 times in a week and then nothing for 2-3 months.  The problem, I love her, I want to be true to her, but I...
    Longrun Longrun 46-50, M 6 Responses Jan 7, 2009

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    Lost Somewhere Between Then And Now

    Sitting alone, unable to sleep, my mind whirling, continuously replaying the other night, comparing it to now...this moment. The stark difference shocks my system, momentarily stills my heart, and quiets my breath. My mind reels sleeplessly in confusion and disbelief. Who was...
    LG76 LG76 36-40, F 11 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    15.

    For some people, turning 15 is a gateway into a "new life". For me..that was exactly it. For the past three years, I have lived and come to love the HI life. (for you idiots who don't know..Hawai'i Life.") But that was all changing, a month before I turned 15 I left the life i...
    gloriousdisaster gloriousdisaster 16-17, F Aug 7, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    THANK YOU. this group must be my homeplace. im torn. between the heart and mind. whats good for the soul and whats easy. this, is easy. complacency, is easy. ive...
    LostInTheLight LostInTheLight 26-30, F a week ago

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    One time when I was in 4th grade there was a tornado warning while I was at school and the teacher was looking out the window at the funnel cloud. Then she said "Oh my, it's...
    LivvieDestroyerofSocks LivvieDestroyerofSocks 18-21, F Aug 30

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    two days ago about ten tornados some touched down some didnt but i was in school when it happend te power was out for like about 3 hours
    paige001 paige001 13-15, F Sep 6

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    Everyone seems to have the right answers or advice when it comes to life but seriously I really feel anyone knows. Since the last time i wrote a message here I was going through a...
    seekingabrighterday seekingabrighterday 18-21 3 days ago

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    If you finish reading this and provide advice, suggestions, or insight - I will think the world of you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. So this is complicated and I'm not...
    CloseItForSure CloseItForSure 31-35, M 3 Responses Sep 2

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    My therapist calls it a survival tool from my childhood. I feel everything but don't let it rise to the surface of conscious thought. I become a creature of intellect and logic...
    ausofbounds ausofbounds 41-45, M Sep 2

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    It's hard to explain, but sometimes I just shut down completely emotionally. I don't see it coming it just happens and literally ignore everyone. I go into almost 'autopilot' and...
    youaretheonlyexception youaretheonlyexception 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 8

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    I have very few happy memories of my childhood. Firstly, because of the toxicity of my home situation, I wasn't a very pleasant child. I bullied someone and was generally rude...
    33dulling 33dulling 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 12

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    It's got to get easier doesn't it? I don't know how long I can take this constant gnawing in my chest, this anxious, painful feeling like something scratching under my skin. I'm...
    Ribsy83 Ribsy83 31-35, F 5 days ago

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    I love my husband but he's not romantic. I know he loves me but I wish he wanted to do things for me without anything in it for him. Sometimes I just feel like his maid, cook, womb...
    marriedtomrunromantic marriedtomrunromantic 26-30 4 days ago

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    Come hell or high water I'm done. I'm tired of the excuses, the lies, being blamed, and the gaslighting . I am ready to face I am in an abusive withholding relationship and have...
    selfcompassion selfcompassion 51-55, F 18 hrs ago

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    Showing a smile is easy. Putting emotions behind it is hard.
    JohnBobMac JohnBobMac 16-17, T 2 hrs ago

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    I am engaged now. My ex from 2 years ago asking me for help. He wants me to go see him the weekends because I am a nurse. nobody knows his health condition and has dealt with...
    PillsNpotion PillsNpotion 31-35, F 4 Responses Aug 22

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    I love both of them but I can only have one .one is kind and gets me and is always on here for me (joe), the other gets me but is now rarely on(sam) , they are both kind and hot...
    coltan108 coltan108 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 4

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    I love my husband , been married for ten plus years and have three daughters by him but have having a six year affair and am presently pregnant yet waking up with my husband every...
    HisCharmedOne HisCharmedOne 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 6

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    The...the...the...the...the...the...the.
    Cetacean Cetacean 36-40, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    My relationship with my family is toxic at the best of times, but I’ll always love them. No matter how hard I try not to. My mother is like an exploding catalyst. She’s an...
    lookingatstars lookingatstars 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Where do I start, how do I not blame myself, how did I let things get like this. We've been together for 8 years (not legally married) and have a six and seven year old. Things...
    1forever 1forever 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 22

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    I feel nothing. I dont feel happy nor sad nor anger nor excited. Everything just flat. I have no passion and dont know what to do. I go to work everyday, deal with things that need...
    rheos rheos 26-30, F Aug 22

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    If i let them out i might kill myself, or someone.
    LifeOnAThread LifeOnAThread 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 23

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    Every time I click send I get so angry at myself for encouraging her to get close again. Every time I try to ignore her I feel so terrible for not being a good friend. Even though...
    jentile jentile 16-17, F Aug 23

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    Every time a person may show interest in me, it goes well and is exciting until they want to share an emotional connection with me. I love learning and hearing about people's lives...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 24

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    I just want some love and affection. I want to be hugged and held. I have a bf and I just don't get anything from him.
    xjen92 xjen92 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    It started a month after we met. I honestly can't even remember what provoked the attack but he was angry and ignored me for the entire day. We'd moved quickly in our relationship...
    MLockeven MLockeven 31-35, F Aug 25

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    I slept with my ex today. I don't know why I'm doing. I have no desire to get back with him anytime soon but I just can't stay away? Am I using him? I have no idea what I want...
    othell00 othell00 16-17, F Aug 25

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    Ugh I need to get it together
    mistypop182 mistypop182 26-30, F Aug 25