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I Am Emotionally Torn

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    Not Torn As In Making A Decision

    There's no decision to make really. Except to keep to myself. But torn as in my heart feels like that group pic.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 15, 2010

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    I Care Too Much.

    Let me start out by saying, that this story is about somebody I know only via chat room. I have this friend, whom I hold very dear to my heart. I'm bi-curious .. and she would be Bi. She's engaged and believe me.. I don't want to sound like I go for the unattainable people...
    Mekia89 Mekia89 22-25, F Nov 20, 2010

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    I'M Not Sure Who I Am.

    I used to know exactly who I was. I was me. I was me all the time. In fact, I was so *me* that I never entertained conversations about who I was. Those were easier times. Then, who I was became defined by others. By what I did. By how I showed my love. First I was a boyfriend...
    justinlimbertake justinlimbertake 41-45, M 8 Responses Apr 15, 2013

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    I live in a house that is no longer a place of

    security. I feel lost, hurt, pushed to boundaries by people that say they love me but quickly find ways to throw my faults and my insecurities back at me. My life has become one doubtful step after the other. I have spent years preparing for a career that will push me to my...
    AxDisorientedxMind AxDisorientedxMind 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    Lost Somewhere Between Then And Now

    Sitting alone, unable to sleep, my mind whirling, continuously replaying the other night, comparing it to now...this moment. The stark difference shocks my system, momentarily stills my heart, and quiets my breath. My mind reels sleeplessly in confusion and disbelief. Who was...
    LG76 LG76 36-40, F 11 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    I Am Torn...

    I am emotionally torn right now...from giving myself  to someone in a first date.He ddint even called...nor sent any messages today...Maybe he doesnt care..but its all real to me.
    bellalily bellalily 26-30, F Nov 16, 2010

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    I think the reason I don't have a boyfriend is

    because I am an ugly person. I mean my looks aren't that pleasant either but my personally sucks. I'd like my boyfriend to be my best friend. But both of my best friends stopped talking to me with no explanation. So if I can't keep a best friend how can I expect to have a...
    gentlepanic gentlepanic 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    Emotionally Torn

    Emotionally torn,Sure am,This life,These days,No longer know,When will it end?
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 Oct 28, 2012

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    I Feel Lost...

    well I don't know what to do. I feel so broken sometimes. My sadness is so random and comes when I least expect it. Just when I think I'm getting better. I always **** up. I AM a **** up. I feel like such a failure. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve to be happy. I don't...
    elivasquez elivasquez 13-15, F May 13, 2013

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    My husband and i split up a couple of months

    ago, after being unhappy together for a long time. It's not that we didn't love each other, we just each have our own issues and took them out on each other a bit. He was quite abusive from time to time, also. After we split up, an old friend got in touch. He lives 400 miles...
    TomahawkLeisure TomahawkLeisure 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    Dilemma! Dilemma!

    Okay so there's this guy I have been talking to a short time and I really like him so far.  He's asked me out and I think I might just wanna go for it. Minutes after he asks me.. literally minutes... a guy I've been of and on again with for almost 2 years pops up. ...
    Fanson4Life1984 Fanson4Life1984 26-30 7 Responses May 15, 2010

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    I know that I let you rip me apart

    because I answer your text and it pulls me one way and I send it again when you don't respond because when you ignore me, it starts yanking me in another direction and I just want it to stop but you respond and something starts pulling me elsewhere and before I know it, there...
    beautifulgoodbye beautifulgoodbye 18-21, F May 12

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    15.

    For some people, turning 15 is a gateway into a "new life". For me..that was exactly it. For the past three years, I have lived and come to love the HI life. (for you idiots who don't know..Hawai'i Life.") But that was all changing, a month before I turned 15 I left the life i...
    gloriousdisaster gloriousdisaster 16-17, F Aug 7, 2011

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    I Cannot Hope To Make Everyone Happy.

    Am I a terrible person? I've been single for over a year, on purpose... I've stayed home and avoided social situations because I really just needed to get my head right and remember what it's like to just be me. A few months ago though, I was introduced to a woman... she's my...
    MAUL0r MAUL0r 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 29, 2010

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    Him

    i do not like to speak ill of anyone but i need to vent. my ex is in hospital and i feel really bad for him. i have no feelings for him but i do not like to know anyone is suffering. he wants me by his side. that makes me so angry i could scream. the reason being.the whole time...
    freeangel freeangel 31-35, F 10 Responses Apr 21, 2010

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    No.

    I am emotionally torn as in. I'm in a relationship I love being in. The boy I was with before cheated on ME then dumped ME. I begged for him back. I need him. Then let's say "rob"came into my life and changed it made me feel loves and appreciated. I thought I was in love but I...
    Lillbettyboop Lillbettyboop 16-17, F Oct 15, 2012

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    Its Not My Fault

    Im sorry i cant be perfect im only human.I never meant to hurt you i love you.Im sorry i didnt believe you please forgive me
    xxhusoldierxx xxhusoldierxx 13-15, F Jan 11, 2013

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    Torn Between Making My Family Happy Or Making Myself Happy

    Yeah its ruff knowing what you want isn't close to what Ur close family wants for you. I am bisexual and very much proud to be, but my mother and family look down upon it. I hate to disappoint my mother for she was the only parent i had growing up. But it has came down to the...
    Kbaseball94 Kbaseball94 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2010

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    The Next Part.

    The next part of my story is up on my blog. I guess, I'll post a new part every Saturday. I don't know if any of you, are going to read it. But hey, I'm not posting it for you. I'm posting it for me....
    gloriousdisaster gloriousdisaster 16-17, F Aug 13, 2011

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    Confused

    I'm 21 years old. I have a 2 year old daughter, 2 month old son and a husband I've known for 8 years and married 9 months ago. I have a long distance relationship with a man who is 21 years older than me. I met him when I was 18. I got pregnant 4 months after meeting him. He...
    lonleygirl7091 lonleygirl7091 18-21 Aug 9, 2012

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    Temptations

    I don't know that I can say I live in a sexless marriage, I would call it a low sex marriage.  We average about 15 times a year.  It normally happens 2-3 times in a week and then nothing for 2-3 months.  The problem, I love her, I want to be true to her, but I...
    Longrun Longrun 46-50, M 6 Responses Jan 7, 2009

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    I don't really know what to do,

    or what to say, or how to act. It's like that previous storm of emotions, yet it feels more real. Do I smile? Do I cry? Or do I just die? (Inside)
    thesassiestamerican thesassiestamerican 13-15, M May 4

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    I think im falling in love with two different

    people. I have no idea what to do, who to choose, or if I even have to. but im not sure I want to be single anymore, and they both express feelings for me.
    imrolling imrolling 18-21, F 2 Responses May 25

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    Torn

    I am a married woman with three children. I love my husband and our children, however, I am very unhappy!! I feel very unsatisfied and feel guilty about having any ill emotions at all! After all, how lucky am I to have a partner to share my life with?! Why am I so unhappy?!! I...
    momnga momnga 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 15, 2011

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    Do I Like To Be Hurt?

    I decided to try internet dating websites, it was scary, I am recently out of a controlling and emotonally abuse relationship it has been a year so I deceded to try dating again. I met a guy who was younger then me but seemed great, he was no where near perfect but he was honest...
    thiswordfallsonme thiswordfallsonme 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 18, 2011

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    I am my families rock Though physically very strong I am also very emotionally strong When my little sister had attempted suicide in May i immediately started CPR while my mom was...
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    I cheated on my husband, then i left him. He was mean, and I'm tired of repeating the details, but by mean I intend to say that he fits into many of the descriptors of an...
    Regrets472 Regrets472 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Emotionally. Physically. Mentally. Everything. I am freaking cooked. I do it to myself. Sometimes I feel like putting out fires is my only job, or preventing the onslaught of ones...
    breathtakingyou breathtakingyou 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    The debate between the brain and the heart is endless... Love and hate is overpowering and takes over clouding your judgment and not thinking straight so your thoughts are based...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 26

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    I'm sorry if I don't message many of you back , I just don't feel like making new friends at the moment.
    angelicahcah angelicahcah 18-21, F Jun 28

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    I think eye bags, stretch marks, tattoos, bruises, birthmarks and scars are probably the coolest thing, you started with almost a blank canvas and look at u now, all this evidence...
    cml35 cml35 18-21, F Jul 4

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    Logic wins out in the end. Id rather follow my brain then my emotions.
    bloodstone98 bloodstone98 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 5

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    If I thought I wouldn't pee my pants... I'd be a storm chaser :)
    changeup007 changeup007 36-40, M Jul 6

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    I absolutely love this photograph!!! Thank You Ms. Colleen Niska :-)))
    prettyfate prettyfate 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 8

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    I think important to be rational.So I meditate a lot about everything,paying more attention to the things I care most. However,there is always a need of adventure and do crazy,live...
    4biandu 4biandu 26-30, F Jul 8

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    Is it weird to love and be afraid of them at the same time?
    TorissaNikole TorissaNikole 13-15, F Jul 11

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    The pain of loving the one who loves another......,
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    I've tried writing my story three times now. Every time I've stopped, and deleted it. I, can't even begin to explain...
    Laurpdb Laurpdb 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My emotions are as unreliable as you. I want to forgive you, but I don't want you to think that my forgiveness is in any way correlated to the restoration of our relationship. You...
    PixieStixs PixieStixs 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I used to be in love with my sons father, I cannot trust him. I cheated but I told the truth. I assume he has cheated form incidents with other females but he Denys ever cheating...
    LOV3L33 LOV3L33 18-21, F Jun 25

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    My dad's not the worst but he still calls me fat. He's always called me fat. Porker or porky or chubby. I know he wants to help me lose weight and all but if he really wanted to...
    greyscales greyscales 16-17, F Jun 25

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    Well both of my parents thought they were giving me constructive criticism when they were really just breaking my self-esteem... I was told I was fat, overweight, lazy, stupid...
    Babyneedsherdaddy Babyneedsherdaddy 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 26

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    I am going to try to trust them, one last time. My mom cried on the phone a couple of weeks ago and said "I'm sorry we're such untrustworthy parents and we never do anything...
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