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I Am Emotionally Torn

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    Temptations

    I don't know that I can say I live in a sexless marriage, I would call it a low sex marriage.  We average about 15 times a year.  It normally happens 2-3 times in a week and then nothing for 2-3 months.  The problem, I love her, I want to be true to her, but I...
    Longrun Longrun 46-50, M 6 Responses Jan 7, 2009

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    I Feel Lost...

    well I don't know what to do. I feel so broken sometimes. My sadness is so random and comes when I least expect it. Just when I think I'm getting better. I always **** up. I AM a **** up. I feel like such a failure. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve to be happy. I don't...
    elivasquez elivasquez 16-17, F May 13, 2013

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    I don't really know what to do,

    or what to say, or how to act. It's like that previous storm of emotions, yet it feels more real. Do I smile? Do I cry? Or do I just die? (Inside)
    thesassiestamerican thesassiestamerican 13-15, M May 4

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    I think the reason I don't have a boyfriend is

    because I am an ugly person. I mean my looks aren't that pleasant either but my personally sucks. I'd like my boyfriend to be my best friend. But both of my best friends stopped talking to me with no explanation. So if I can't keep a best friend how can I expect to have a...
    gentlepanic gentlepanic 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    Emotionally Torn

    Emotionally torn,Sure am,This life,These days,No longer know,When will it end?
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 Oct 28, 2012

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    15.

    For some people, turning 15 is a gateway into a "new life". For me..that was exactly it. For the past three years, I have lived and come to love the HI life. (for you idiots who don't know..Hawai'i Life.") But that was all changing, a month before I turned 15 I left the life i...
    gloriousdisaster gloriousdisaster 16-17, F Aug 7, 2011

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    I'M Not Sure Who I Am.

    I used to know exactly who I was. I was me. I was me all the time. In fact, I was so *me* that I never entertained conversations about who I was. Those were easier times. Then, who I was became defined by others. By what I did. By how I showed my love. First I was a boyfriend...
    justinlimbertake justinlimbertake 46-50, M 6 Responses Apr 15, 2013

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    I live in a house that is no longer a place of

    security. I feel lost, hurt, pushed to boundaries by people that say they love me but quickly find ways to throw my faults and my insecurities back at me. My life has become one doubtful step after the other. I have spent years preparing for a career that will push me to my...
    AxDisorientedxMind AxDisorientedxMind 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    I think im falling in love with two different

    people. I have no idea what to do, who to choose, or if I even have to. but im not sure I want to be single anymore, and they both express feelings for me.
    imrolling imrolling 18-21, F 2 Responses May 25

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    Do I Like To Be Hurt?

    I decided to try internet dating websites, it was scary, I am recently out of a controlling and emotonally abuse relationship it has been a year so I deceded to try dating again. I met a guy who was younger then me but seemed great, he was no where near perfect but he was honest...
    thiswordfallsonme thiswordfallsonme 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 18, 2011

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    Dilemma! Dilemma!

    Okay so there's this guy I have been talking to a short time and I really like him so far.  He's asked me out and I think I might just wanna go for it. Minutes after he asks me.. literally minutes... a guy I've been of and on again with for almost 2 years pops up. ...
    Fanson4Life1984 Fanson4Life1984 26-30 7 Responses May 15, 2010

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    Its Not My Fault

    Im sorry i cant be perfect im only human.I never meant to hurt you i love you.Im sorry i didnt believe you please forgive me
    xxhusoldierxx xxhusoldierxx 13-15, F Jan 11, 2013

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    Torn Between Making My Family Happy Or Making Myself Happy

    Yeah its ruff knowing what you want isn't close to what Ur close family wants for you. I am bisexual and very much proud to be, but my mother and family look down upon it. I hate to disappoint my mother for she was the only parent i had growing up. But it has came down to the...
    Kbaseball94 Kbaseball94 16-17, F Aug 15, 2010

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    Confused

    I'm 21 years old. I have a 2 year old daughter, 2 month old son and a husband I've known for 8 years and married 9 months ago. I have a long distance relationship with a man who is 21 years older than me. I met him when I was 18. I got pregnant 4 months after meeting him. He...
    lonleygirl7091 lonleygirl7091 18-21 Aug 9, 2012

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    The Next Part.

    The next part of my story is up on my blog. I guess, I'll post a new part every Saturday. I don't know if any of you, are going to read it. But hey, I'm not posting it for you. I'm posting it for me....
    gloriousdisaster gloriousdisaster 16-17, F Aug 13, 2011

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    Lost Somewhere Between Then And Now

    Sitting alone, unable to sleep, my mind whirling, continuously replaying the other night, comparing it to now...this moment. The stark difference shocks my system, momentarily stills my heart, and quiets my breath. My mind reels sleeplessly in confusion and disbelief. Who was...
    LG76 LG76 36-40, F 10 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Not Torn As In Making A Decision

    There's no decision to make really. Except to keep to myself. But torn as in my heart feels like that group pic.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 15, 2010

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    I Am Torn...

    I am emotionally torn right now...from giving myself  to someone in a first date.He ddint even called...nor sent any messages today...Maybe he doesnt care..but its all real to me.
    bellalily bellalily 26-30, F Nov 16, 2010

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    I Cannot Hope To Make Everyone Happy.

    Am I a terrible person? I've been single for over a year, on purpose... I've stayed home and avoided social situations because I really just needed to get my head right and remember what it's like to just be me. A few months ago though, I was introduced to a woman... she's my...
    MAUL0r MAUL0r 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 29, 2010

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    Torn

    I am a married woman with three children. I love my husband and our children, however, I am very unhappy!! I feel very unsatisfied and feel guilty about having any ill emotions at all! After all, how lucky am I to have a partner to share my life with?! Why am I so unhappy?!! I...
    momnga momnga 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 15, 2011

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    Him

    i do not like to speak ill of anyone but i need to vent. my ex is in hospital and i feel really bad for him. i have no feelings for him but i do not like to know anyone is suffering. he wants me by his side. that makes me so angry i could scream. the reason being.the whole time...
    freeangel freeangel 31-35, F 10 Responses Apr 21, 2010

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    My husband and i split up a couple of months

    ago, after being unhappy together for a long time. It's not that we didn't love each other, we just each have our own issues and took them out on each other a bit. He was quite abusive from time to time, also. After we split up, an old friend got in touch. He lives 400 miles...
    TomahawkLeisure TomahawkLeisure 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    No.

    I am emotionally torn as in. I'm in a relationship I love being in. The boy I was with before cheated on ME then dumped ME. I begged for him back. I need him. Then let's say "rob"came into my life and changed it made me feel loves and appreciated. I thought I was in love but I...
    Lillbettyboop Lillbettyboop 16-17, F Oct 15, 2012

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    I Care Too Much.

    Let me start out by saying, that this story is about somebody I know only via chat room. I have this friend, whom I hold very dear to my heart. I'm bi-curious .. and she would be Bi. She's engaged and believe me.. I don't want to sound like I go for the unattainable people...
    Mekia89 Mekia89 22-25, F Nov 20, 2010

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    The demons, oh those dear devilish little demons. they can't help it they need pain to survive. They need me to suffer so they can thrive. Those clever little creatures. They knew...
    LittleBirds0827 LittleBirds0827 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 1

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    I don't think that there is any better feeling than being completely emotionally honest... without holding anything back. I don't mean to just "go wild" and do and say whatever...
    astro00 astro00 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 6

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    I am emotionally barren. I have no fvcks to give. Nothing. Just a big void of nothingness. Emptiness. I do not want to talk about my feelings. There is nothing there. I do not feel...
    PuzzleMissingAPiece PuzzleMissingAPiece 70+, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I am emotionally selfish and so is the world. I have realized that nobody is really selfless. This realization made me even more emotionally distant because I despise this truth...
    SelfUnaware SelfUnaware 18-21 Nov 8

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    Some days I dread facing another day, as if life is suppose to feel this way or hurt this way. I have wasted five years of my young life supporting and giving myself to a wolf in...
    blessedgradgirl blessedgradgirl 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 12

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    Hi, I'm new to EP but feel I need to talk about the mentally and emotionally abusive relationship I was in for 7 years. I thought he was the love of my life. But pretty well from...
    Pridestar73 Pridestar73 41-45, F 3 days ago

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    Some of my loved ones told me that I was very distant, that they feel like I'm not really there. Well, I can't help it if I'm aloof most times,it's because I'm emotionally detached...
    superlovexcx superlovexcx 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 23

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    Still getting emotionally abused and I feel like I am allowing it by not dropping her. Is the next step that I not care what she says to me. About 17 minutes ago she pulled a "you...
    Am3917 Am3917 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 25

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    Please read-I've been trying to figure out whether my father is emotionally abusive or not. So for the past several years I have been noticing very problematic things my father...
    njhbabe njhbabe 13-15 1 Response Oct 26

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    My mom and dad were on drugs when I was younger. Hell, she thinks that she still was being pregnant with me. He was abusive, she was a compulsive liar and still is. He left...
    calinashrebel calinashrebel 13-15, F Oct 26

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    I've had people call me bipolar, but after taking a psychology class I now know that's not true. I can go through an emotional rollercoaster in a day and I've decided that I'm...
    lavendershade lavendershade 31-35, F Oct 27

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    Oh yeah baby, this describes me completely. Emotionally tired. I just woke up from a nightmare a while ago, what more can I say? The nightmare was of me getting bullied in my...
    kiddishguy kiddishguy 26-30, M Oct 28

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    I go to court tomorrow for custody of my children to be given to my ex husband's mother. The only reason is because I was homeless and could not afford proper housing. I've worked...
    enoughizenough enoughizenough 26-30, F 6 Responses Oct 28

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    I need to know if other people also get like this or whether I really am just weird. I've read all the other experiences on here and they're all about mistrust in relationships...
    missradders07 missradders07 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 29

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    My ex was emotionally abusive through out our relationship. He would get angry every time I didn't do something he wanted. He would curse at me, tell me I wasn't attractive, and he...
    forevereternal9 forevereternal9 22-25, F 7 Responses Oct 29

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    I have made many gud friends.I love EP.But if anyone leaves then I feel so horrible.In real life also I get emotionally attached to people so easily.
    genuineangel genuineangel 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 1

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    For the past few weeks after my mom had her breast cancer surgery I've been really down. I have to take care of her on top of my school work. No one really understands how I feel...
    kaceeeytl kaceeeytl 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 3

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    My step mom emotionally abuses me. I'm not sure if she understands how much it hurts, but she does it consistently. I am the bad child in my family, I have accepted that I guess...
    LittlemsA LittlemsA 13-15, F 6 Responses Nov 3

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    School is killing my self esteem. I'm starting to feel really upset and I even cried yesterday and I couldn't stop at all. I'm trying my hardest but when I hve a teacher telling...
    CallMeChelsea CallMeChelsea 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 6

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    yeah hormones! noo im not prego. its just that time. and well mother nature can take even the most psycho of psychos and calm her fown. and make her want to be all cuddly and lovey...
    PsychoBitch69 PsychoBitch69 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 9

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    Get away from me LEAVE! LEAVE when I haven't got attached to you emotionally yet!
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 13

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    Tonight I realized that I'm not emotionally stable. I thought I passed this, but I didn't. My depression struck with a passion, and then one of my friendships changed and I'm...
    shadow2233 shadow2233 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    boys make me mentally and emotionally unstable
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 8 Responses 3 days ago

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    I been working two jobs now since Sept and you know what the passed two days now I feel emotionally out of it been thinking more and more about my husband and I haven't been...
    monica0215 monica0215 51-55, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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