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I Am Emotionally Torn

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    My husband and i split up a couple of months

    ago, after being unhappy together for a long time. It's not that we didn't love each other, we just each have our own issues and took them out on each other a bit. He was quite abusive from time to time, also. After we split up, an old friend got in touch. He lives 400 miles...
    TomahawkLeisure TomahawkLeisure 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2014

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    I live in a house that is no longer a place of

    security. I feel lost, hurt, pushed to boundaries by people that say they love me but quickly find ways to throw my faults and my insecurities back at me. My life has become one doubtful step after the other. I have spent years preparing for a career that will push me to my...
    AxDisorientedxMind AxDisorientedxMind 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 30, 2014

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    Dilemma! Dilemma!

    Okay so there's this guy I have been talking to a short time and I really like him so far.  He's asked me out and I think I might just wanna go for it. Minutes after he asks me.. literally minutes... a guy I've been of and on again with for almost 2 years pops up. ...
    Fanson4Life1984 Fanson4Life1984 26-30 5 Responses May 15, 2010

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    Lost Somewhere Between Then And Now

    Sitting alone, unable to sleep, my mind whirling, continuously replaying the other night, comparing it to now...this moment. The stark difference shocks my system, momentarily stills my heart, and quiets my breath. My mind reels sleeplessly in confusion and disbelief. Who was...
    LG76 LG76 36-40, F 9 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Him

    i do not like to speak ill of anyone but i need to vent. my ex is in hospital and i feel really bad for him. i have no feelings for him but i do not like to know anyone is suffering. he wants me by his side. that makes me so angry i could scream. the reason being.the whole time...
    freeangel freeangel 31-35, F 10 Responses Apr 21, 2010

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    Not Torn As In Making A Decision

    There's no decision to make really. Except to keep to myself. But torn as in my heart feels like that group pic.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 15, 2010

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    I think the reason I don't have a boyfriend is

    because I am an ugly person. I mean my looks aren't that pleasant either but my personally sucks. I'd like my boyfriend to be my best friend. But both of my best friends stopped talking to me with no explanation. So if I can't keep a best friend how can I expect to have a...
    gentlepanic gentlepanic 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 5, 2014

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    I Cannot Hope To Make Everyone Happy.

    Am I a terrible person? I've been single for over a year, on purpose... I've stayed home and avoided social situations because I really just needed to get my head right and remember what it's like to just be me. A few months ago though, I was introduced to a woman... she's my...
    MAUL0r MAUL0r 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 29, 2010

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    Today I was really close to breaking down

    while in the shower. I just feel like I can't deal with this for much longer. It is too much to be torn in two directions at the same time... I wish I had someone to talk to. Of course I can talk to my Girlfriend but at the same time not. Because I am too afraid of how she will...
    Lydia93 Lydia93 18-21, T 1 Response Apr 1

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    Emotionally Torn

    Emotionally torn,Sure am,This life,These days,No longer know,When will it end?
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 Oct 28, 2012

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    I have done something

    and I don't know how to handle the change that has come about. I took in a girl a little over half my age into my hope to prevent her from being homeless, or worse.
    Butch711 Butch711 51-55, M 1 Response Dec 24, 2014

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    I don't really know what to do,

    or what to say, or how to act. It's like that previous storm of emotions, yet it feels more real. Do I smile? Do I cry? Or do I just die? (Inside)
    thesassiestamerican thesassiestamerican 13-15, M May 4, 2014

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    Torn Between Making My Family Happy Or Making Myself Happy

    Yeah its ruff knowing what you want isn't close to what Ur close family wants for you. I am bisexual and very much proud to be, but my mother and family look down upon it. I hate to disappoint my mother for she was the only parent i had growing up. But it has came down to the...
    Kbaseball94 Kbaseball94 16-17, F Aug 15, 2010

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    I Am Torn...

    I am emotionally torn right now...from giving myself  to someone in a first date.He ddint even called...nor sent any messages today...Maybe he doesnt care..but its all real to me.
    bellalily bellalily 26-30, F Nov 16, 2010

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    Do I Like To Be Hurt?

    I decided to try internet dating websites, it was scary, I am recently out of a controlling and emotonally abuse relationship it has been a year so I deceded to try dating again. I met a guy who was younger then me but seemed great, he was no where near perfect but he was honest...
    thiswordfallsonme thiswordfallsonme 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 18, 2011

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    I think im falling in love with two different

    people. I have no idea what to do, who to choose, or if I even have to. but im not sure I want to be single anymore, and they both express feelings for me.
    imrolling imrolling 18-21, F 2 Responses May 25, 2014

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    I Care Too Much.

    Let me start out by saying, that this story is about somebody I know only via chat room. I have this friend, whom I hold very dear to my heart. I'm bi-curious .. and she would be Bi. She's engaged and believe me.. I don't want to sound like I go for the unattainable people...
    Mekia89 Mekia89 22-25, F Nov 20, 2010

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    Confused

    I'm 21 years old. I have a 2 year old daughter, 2 month old son and a husband I've known for 8 years and married 9 months ago. I have a long distance relationship with a man who is 21 years older than me. I met him when I was 18. I got pregnant 4 months after meeting him. He...
    lonleygirl7091 lonleygirl7091 18-21 Aug 9, 2012

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    Its Not My Fault

    Im sorry i cant be perfect im only human.I never meant to hurt you i love you.Im sorry i didnt believe you please forgive me
    xxhusoldierxx xxhusoldierxx 13-15, F Jan 11, 2013

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    The Next Part.

    The next part of my story is up on my blog. I guess, I'll post a new part every Saturday. I don't know if any of you, are going to read it. But hey, I'm not posting it for you. I'm posting it for me....
    gloriousdisaster gloriousdisaster 16-17, F Aug 13, 2011

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    15.

    For some people, turning 15 is a gateway into a "new life". For me..that was exactly it. For the past three years, I have lived and come to love the HI life. (for you idiots who don't know..Hawai'i Life.") But that was all changing, a month before I turned 15 I left the life i...
    gloriousdisaster gloriousdisaster 16-17, F Aug 7, 2011

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    I Feel Lost...

    well I don't know what to do. I feel so broken sometimes. My sadness is so random and comes when I least expect it. Just when I think I'm getting better. I always **** up. I AM a **** up. I feel like such a failure. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve to be happy. I don't...
    elivasquez elivasquez 16-17, F May 13, 2013

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    No.

    I am emotionally torn as in. I'm in a relationship I love being in. The boy I was with before cheated on ME then dumped ME. I begged for him back. I need him. Then let's say "rob"came into my life and changed it made me feel loves and appreciated. I thought I was in love but I...
    Lillbettyboop Lillbettyboop 16-17, F Oct 15, 2012

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    Torn

    I am a married woman with three children. I love my husband and our children, however, I am very unhappy!! I feel very unsatisfied and feel guilty about having any ill emotions at all! After all, how lucky am I to have a partner to share my life with?! Why am I so unhappy?!! I...
    momnga momnga 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2011

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    I'M Not Sure Who I Am.

    I used to know exactly who I was. I was me. I was me all the time. In fact, I was so *me* that I never entertained conversations about who I was. Those were easier times. Then, who I was became defined by others. By what I did. By how I showed my love. First I was a boyfriend...
    justinlimbertake justinlimbertake 46-50, M 6 Responses Apr 15, 2013

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    Torn between sharing the rest of my life with

    the woman I love and being with my children, well oldest child anyway. I have finally found the woman that I want to spend the rest of my life with. In the beginning we both agreed that we would never let our relationship come in between our children. We have been dating for...
    mrhph3 mrhph3 36-40, M Mar 14

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    I've wondered for a long time if I am emotionally repressed to some degree. I feel as though I go through the motions of daily life, showing the emotions I am expected to show...
    emeraldfire2065 emeraldfire2065 26-30, F Mar 28

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    keelay9947 keelay9947 18-21, M Mar 24

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    Oklahoma was hit by multiple tornados...again.
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    I was young and hopeless once. I hated my life in its entirety. I cut, starved, binged, drank, and took prescription drugs to take the edge off. I even attempted to end my life...
    soon2Bforgotten soon2Bforgotten 22-25, F Mar 30

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    The most destructive emotional abuse is the emotional abuse we learned to inflict upon ourselves. We formed our core relationship with self in early childhood and have been...
    sweetartventure sweetartventure 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    Four and a half years and it's finally over. I don't know how to feel. He was my first love, and everything to me. No matter how much hurt and pain I felt in the relationship, I...
    ChristinaWolf ChristinaWolf 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    My father was extremely emotionally abusive to me as a child and young adult. He is extremely manipulative and plays such games that it's only now that I am 28, I am realising how...
    freyaB freyaB 22-25 4 days ago

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    I think that my dad is emotionally abusive. You know that little voice that tells you something isn't right? That you aren't being treated right? I hear it, but it's hard to really...
    dartfrogged dartfrogged 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    i have loved an emotionally abusive and controlling man for ten years. Five years ago I married him. He makes me feel lower than dirt. He didn't touch me for two years saying I...
    girlnomore girlnomore 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    I think I finally hit my breaking point. I'm now at that point where if people want to actually be a part of my life, they'll make sure they talk to me and try to act like they...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    I feel so emotionally drained and depressed.
    xkameria xkameria 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    "The dance that we learn as children - the repression and distortion of our emotional process in reaction to the attitudes and behavior patterns we adopt to survive in an...
    sweetartventure sweetartventure 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 24

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    My emotions run on such overdrive that they burn out. Then I feel nothing. Then I feel everything. The official term is Emotionally Detached. I read these links and they fit me...
    ecofox ecofox 22-25, M Mar 26

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    I'm sitting here watching my 5 week old baby sleep peacefully and I'm thinking, she is the very reason I'm still married. One of two reasons, the other being her big sister. And...
    van863 van863 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I recently started therapy for self-esteem issues that I should have sought help for many years ago. What started as a journey of self discovery has opened my eyes to the...
    ludix ludix 41-45, M 3 Responses Apr 9

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    I need advice! My husband and I have been married for 3 years I was 18 when we got married he was 26. We emotionally abuse each other constantly. But last night was the first time...
    toreybella toreybella 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I have cried so much this month. Crying is good but sometimes It can be draining. I'm also not sleeping too well because I'm so anxious to do things and just trying to understand...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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