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I Am Emotionally Torn

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    15.

    For some people, turning 15 is a gateway into a "new life". For me..that was exactly it. For the past three years, I have lived and come to love the HI life. (for you idiots who don't know..Hawai'i Life.") But that was all changing, a month before I turned 15 I left the life i...
    gloriousdisaster gloriousdisaster 16-17, F Aug 7, 2011

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    I don't really know what to do,

    or what to say, or how to act. It's like that previous storm of emotions, yet it feels more real. Do I smile? Do I cry? Or do I just die? (Inside)
    thesassiestamerican thesassiestamerican 13-15, M May 4

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    I live in a house that is no longer a place of

    security. I feel lost, hurt, pushed to boundaries by people that say they love me but quickly find ways to throw my faults and my insecurities back at me. My life has become one doubtful step after the other. I have spent years preparing for a career that will push me to my...
    AxDisorientedxMind AxDisorientedxMind 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    My husband and i split up a couple of months

    ago, after being unhappy together for a long time. It's not that we didn't love each other, we just each have our own issues and took them out on each other a bit. He was quite abusive from time to time, also. After we split up, an old friend got in touch. He lives 400 miles...
    TomahawkLeisure TomahawkLeisure 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    Its Not My Fault

    Im sorry i cant be perfect im only human.I never meant to hurt you i love you.Im sorry i didnt believe you please forgive me
    xxhusoldierxx xxhusoldierxx 13-15, F Jan 11, 2013

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    Do I Like To Be Hurt?

    I decided to try internet dating websites, it was scary, I am recently out of a controlling and emotonally abuse relationship it has been a year so I deceded to try dating again. I met a guy who was younger then me but seemed great, he was no where near perfect but he was honest...
    thiswordfallsonme thiswordfallsonme 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 18, 2011

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    Lost Somewhere Between Then And Now

    Sitting alone, unable to sleep, my mind whirling, continuously replaying the other night, comparing it to now...this moment. The stark difference shocks my system, momentarily stills my heart, and quiets my breath. My mind reels sleeplessly in confusion and disbelief. Who was...
    LG76 LG76 36-40, F 10 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    No.

    I am emotionally torn as in. I'm in a relationship I love being in. The boy I was with before cheated on ME then dumped ME. I begged for him back. I need him. Then let's say "rob"came into my life and changed it made me feel loves and appreciated. I thought I was in love but I...
    Lillbettyboop Lillbettyboop 16-17, F Oct 15, 2012

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    Confused

    I'm 21 years old. I have a 2 year old daughter, 2 month old son and a husband I've known for 8 years and married 9 months ago. I have a long distance relationship with a man who is 21 years older than me. I met him when I was 18. I got pregnant 4 months after meeting him. He...
    lonleygirl7091 lonleygirl7091 18-21 Aug 9, 2012

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    Him

    i do not like to speak ill of anyone but i need to vent. my ex is in hospital and i feel really bad for him. i have no feelings for him but i do not like to know anyone is suffering. he wants me by his side. that makes me so angry i could scream. the reason being.the whole time...
    freeangel freeangel 31-35, F 10 Responses Apr 21, 2010

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    Torn Between Making My Family Happy Or Making Myself Happy

    Yeah its ruff knowing what you want isn't close to what Ur close family wants for you. I am bisexual and very much proud to be, but my mother and family look down upon it. I hate to disappoint my mother for she was the only parent i had growing up. But it has came down to the...
    Kbaseball94 Kbaseball94 16-17, F Aug 15, 2010

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    I Am Torn...

    I am emotionally torn right now...from giving myself  to someone in a first date.He ddint even called...nor sent any messages today...Maybe he doesnt care..but its all real to me.
    bellalily bellalily 26-30, F Nov 16, 2010

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    Torn

    I am a married woman with three children. I love my husband and our children, however, I am very unhappy!! I feel very unsatisfied and feel guilty about having any ill emotions at all! After all, how lucky am I to have a partner to share my life with?! Why am I so unhappy?!! I...
    momnga momnga 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 15, 2011

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    Emotionally Torn

    Emotionally torn,Sure am,This life,These days,No longer know,When will it end?
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 Oct 28, 2012

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    I Feel Lost...

    well I don't know what to do. I feel so broken sometimes. My sadness is so random and comes when I least expect it. Just when I think I'm getting better. I always **** up. I AM a **** up. I feel like such a failure. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve to be happy. I don't...
    elivasquez elivasquez 16-17, F May 13, 2013

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    The Next Part.

    The next part of my story is up on my blog. I guess, I'll post a new part every Saturday. I don't know if any of you, are going to read it. But hey, I'm not posting it for you. I'm posting it for me....
    gloriousdisaster gloriousdisaster 16-17, F Aug 13, 2011

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    I Cannot Hope To Make Everyone Happy.

    Am I a terrible person? I've been single for over a year, on purpose... I've stayed home and avoided social situations because I really just needed to get my head right and remember what it's like to just be me. A few months ago though, I was introduced to a woman... she's my...
    MAUL0r MAUL0r 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 29, 2010

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    I Care Too Much.

    Let me start out by saying, that this story is about somebody I know only via chat room. I have this friend, whom I hold very dear to my heart. I'm bi-curious .. and she would be Bi. She's engaged and believe me.. I don't want to sound like I go for the unattainable people...
    Mekia89 Mekia89 22-25, F Nov 20, 2010

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    Not Torn As In Making A Decision

    There's no decision to make really. Except to keep to myself. But torn as in my heart feels like that group pic.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 15, 2010

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    Temptations

    I don't know that I can say I live in a sexless marriage, I would call it a low sex marriage.  We average about 15 times a year.  It normally happens 2-3 times in a week and then nothing for 2-3 months.  The problem, I love her, I want to be true to her, but I...
    Longrun Longrun 46-50, M 6 Responses Jan 7, 2009

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    I'M Not Sure Who I Am.

    I used to know exactly who I was. I was me. I was me all the time. In fact, I was so *me* that I never entertained conversations about who I was. Those were easier times. Then, who I was became defined by others. By what I did. By how I showed my love. First I was a boyfriend...
    justinlimbertake justinlimbertake 46-50, M 6 Responses Apr 15, 2013

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    Dilemma! Dilemma!

    Okay so there's this guy I have been talking to a short time and I really like him so far.  He's asked me out and I think I might just wanna go for it. Minutes after he asks me.. literally minutes... a guy I've been of and on again with for almost 2 years pops up. ...
    Fanson4Life1984 Fanson4Life1984 26-30 7 Responses May 15, 2010

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    I think im falling in love with two different

    people. I have no idea what to do, who to choose, or if I even have to. but im not sure I want to be single anymore, and they both express feelings for me.
    imrolling imrolling 18-21, F 2 Responses May 25

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    I think the reason I don't have a boyfriend is

    because I am an ugly person. I mean my looks aren't that pleasant either but my personally sucks. I'd like my boyfriend to be my best friend. But both of my best friends stopped talking to me with no explanation. So if I can't keep a best friend how can I expect to have a...
    gentlepanic gentlepanic 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    I take everything way too personally and over think every conversation. Why do I care what people think of me? Even strangers. A guy pretty much told me I couldn't do my job...
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    Not just emotionally distant but distant from this world and this day and age.
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 9

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    I am so emotionally tired of trying *sighs* :/
    K33024W K33024W 13-15 Dec 9

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    i m always attracted to those who seems distance, mysterious, hard to understand super good looking men. time to stop all that if i want my life to work for me. No matter how much...
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    My gets easily up set over the smallest things. My two siblings and me all hate dealing with him most of the time. He also puts us down. The stupid thing is we still trust him, try...
    Wheresthesparks Wheresthesparks 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    History repeats itself. Why, why brain...
    PokeCotard PokeCotard 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 21

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    It's sad but amusing. I can control all of my emotions... Except one; "love" Whenever I feel "love" I become a different person, and it bothers me. I hate being so emotional. I...
    PokeCotard PokeCotard 13-15, M Nov 30

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    So.. no more drinking,no more cutting, no more smoking cigarettes.. i still can dip though.. even though i feel so much better without those this, i still feel so empty.. i feel...
    countrymusiccrazy98 countrymusiccrazy98 16-17, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    This is not what I expected. So many doubts, fears, misunderstanding, and loss of interests. I'm tried of fighting, I tried of trying I do not know what is to come, but I do...
    Butterflywings1987 Butterflywings1987 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    My bf use to cuddle with, kiss me , and hug me ever chance he got. Now I have to go to him for a hug, kiss, or to cuddle. He doesn't want to cuddle anymore he gives me an excuses...
    Butterflywings1987 Butterflywings1987 26-30, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Infedelity has infected my marriage I am numb and do know how to feel I can't move one way or another. I don't know how to make a decision. I don't know what I want.
    jcarinow jcarinow 36-40, F 5 days ago

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    I came outta a 7 year long relationship earlier this year and it's been extremely hard living life without him
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    When I was young....like 17 I thought I didn't give a hell if a woman was with another man before me or not. then I fell in love with a girl about a year older than me and once...
    youngndfurius youngndfurius 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    Ooooo, I need to remain rational, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. Stop what you're thinking. No, just no.
    PokeCotard PokeCotard 13-15, M 4 days ago

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    I know what i want to do, what i need to do, but then my emotions get in the way and i doubt myself or do something incredibly stupid
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm trying to keep my thoughts in control. I'm trying to keep my actions in control. I'm trying to keep my words coherent. My thoughts are everywhere, I want to hear your voice...
    PokeCotard PokeCotard 13-15, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    not just one of them. there's always an obstacle I think we both can take on together,and end up alone anyways.: /
    itohayuzawa itohayuzawa 18-21 1 day ago

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    A senior who's a really close friend of mine confessed just over a week ago. To be honest I also have some (read: huge) feelings for him but at the same time, all my instincts...
    johannesc4 johannesc4 13-15, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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